A Human Balance

Selfishness

2011-04-07T13:25:00.002-05:00

Selfishness lives in all people, no matter how benevolent the person is. Selfishness is something that is usually very blurry to people, as selfishness is what protects us from all the bad things, and as it happens, all the good things too.

Selfishness is usually the root of a defense mechanism, as the entire purpose of such a mechanism is in order to protect the individual with the mechanism, with no concern or regard for anything else. Usually the most obvious selfish behavior is in children, as they simply don’t have any of the social rules that adults do.

When a child starts to realize the concept ‘Mine’ usually it is in the age range of 2-3. After that… EVERYTHING is ‘mine’. ‘Mine’ is the beginning stages of selfishness, as the child will want anything anyone else has as well. I’m sure you parents out there, have had a child at this age range, want everything your holding in your hand, no matter what it is. It could be a sandwich, a glass of water, a piece of silverware, a new paper, a laptop, or your car keys. The kids are simply exploring the concept of ‘Mine’, as they have nothing that isn’t theirs according to them.

When we grow older, that concept is changed, and we learn the concept of sharing, and tolerance, and we also learn that, based upon societal construct and propaganda, the ‘selfless’ are better people. After this, of course everyone wants to be better people, so they begin attempting to explore the concept of selflessness. Usually the exploration of the concept is stopped short by the individual, as the path of selflessness is most certainly not the path of least resistance.

Based upon observation, humans generally begin to believe themselves selfless, while performing selfish acts, and every once in awhile, doing something that seems selfless to them, and the other person receiving the selfless act should feel very blessed to have that person perform such an act of selflessness upon them. To me it looks quite like an oxy-moron, and staunch hypocrisy, however that doesn’t seem to enter into the thoughts of the person committing said actions.

An example of a child’s selfish behavior:

“I want my lollipop. It’s MY lollipop, and you can’t have any! Mine!”

This is a very declarative and direct thought pattern. The thought is literally no different than the words, and the actions follow suit. The difference in adults, is that they also have usually studied the art of deception/lying to some degree.

And example of the thought process of an adults selfish behavior:

Adult 1 says:

“Hey! I heard what you said to Molly yesterday before I came into the kitchen. I was with Jake that day, and he never said that.”

Adult 2 Says:

“What do you mean!?”

Adult 1 says:

“yeah, you said you were there at the house, and that Jake said he wanted a mistress, and was trying to find one… why?”

Adult 2 says:

“You were listening in to my conversation!? I can’t believe you! How rude!”

Adult 1 Says:

“I know you weren’t there, because I never saw you that day, and I was at the house all day. ”

Adult 2 says:

“I don’t know what your talking about, and your offending me. Your just being rude! You were listening in on conversations, being sneaky, and accusing people. I can’t believe you! ”

Adult 1 says:

“Wow, that seems like your fooling yourself with something other than the truth. It sounds like you may be saying parts of something, but I’m not sure what. Have you studied the art of deception/lying?”

Adult 2 says:

“No, I’m not lying, and how dare you call me a liar!”

This is usually summed up by the epic conversation that I sum up as the “how dare you “conversation.

After the thought, there would be a justification, or the need for such a justification. The adult may look for someone else to ‘talk to’, which usually translates into another human being giving them the necessary justification because the individual is at a loss or at bare minimum lacks the strength and purpose of self to do this on their own.

The person then justifies it’s selfish action, and begins to act as if the person asking the question about the study of the art of deception, has then insulted and offended Adult 2, so in order to convey this there is an over-compensating that must occur. Usually this takes the form of an emotionally dramatic exploit of some sort, in the same realm as theatre.

Right about at this point is when things begin to whir out of control, because Adult 2 is more interested in their own dramatic over compensation.

The selfish adult (Adult 2) will usually antagonize the other entity in order to provoke a reaction. This I usually sum up as “drama”, and then begins some fantastic story about the whole experience.

Adult 2, was never interested in listening to Adult 1. Adult 2 simply wanted to be accused of a situation, in order to justify the position of being victimized by “such a rude and insulting person”. The rudeness, and offense, is in the act of speaking about someone else behind their back, and specifically saying things to deceive them. If an individual doesn’t like to be called on such actions, one should not commit such actions… it is as plain as that.

Selfish people only think about them, and what will happen to them, and how the outcome will effect them, and what will be for them, and what happens to them, and how they will feel about the situation or circumstance, but their view is ALWAYS limited to them. They can never see beyond themselves in order to achieve selflessness, though there are also never able to see that they are being selfish and will readily deny it.

In my experience, it is the people who can admit that they are selfish, that are far more selfless.

It is those who can not see it in themselves, because they believe it so sinful or offensive that they should simply be denied awareness of it’s existence in them. It is when that cycle repeats itself for years, and then to multiple generations, that’s when it becomes a sickness.

For every sickness there is a remedy. For every hurt there is a cure. Be accountable for your selfishness, even when you don’t want to.

Accountability

2011-03-16T15:30:00.009-05:00

In this I shall attempt to render thoughts on the concept of accountability.

Accountability is something that seems to be less and less visible in the leagues of our society. It could be the way I view things, and I pray that it is just my inaccurate vision however, there is an unyielding proof of a truth that doesn’t care about my prayers, and continues to show me more evidence to the contrary.

(Please note, that ALL examples given here are examples or hypothetical situations, however graphic… they are relevant to the concept. The graphic nature of these elements are to help the reader understand just how drastic someone else's viewpoint can be, as well as what people are capable of justifying, or being accountable for. Whether we believe that all people are good and descent, has no relevance on whether people other than ourselves make the choices not to be either consistently.)

Accountability means: subject to the obligation to report, or to explain something; responsible; answerable.

In my experience many people will read this definition, and walk by the depth to the words. The reporting of a thing, is NOT the same as the justification of a thing. The report is the data, and only the data behind the actions… NOT the feelings. Many people get lost in the emotions of an action, and end up in a place that they must justify, which is why I say that the concept of justification is different than a report. Both justification, and accountability can be amazing things to witness, and can easily leave the observer in awe.

One can walk to a front porch of a house in the suburbs after watching it for a few weeks, ring the doorbell, and grab the child that answers the door to do unto that child whatever that one desires. That action IS justified by that person in their mind as the right thing to do. The thought must pass approval in order for execution of the action. Justification is that person telling themselves that taking that child, is O.K. quietly in their mind, and then using whatever circumstances necessary and repeating that it's O.K. as many times as it takes, in order to believe that the action is necessary. That is what justification is… not the who, when, where, or why… just what.

An example of accountability, is that same person sitting on the bench looking at that house in the weeks before the actual act, having this thought.

“My body is responding to that child, and I know that everyone says it’s wrong and illegal, but it’s irresistible to me.

I have accepted the fact that my body responds this way, and that I may never be able to control this temptation… I will try someday, but that day is not today.”

The accountability is taken for being a pedophile in that thought. The person understands that it’s turned on physically, the person accepts it, and also accepts that it’s against the law. The accountability is the person actually being responsible for being what the person is. It knows it’s a pedophile, and it simply doesn’t care and continues about it’s course to correct at some undefined later date.

The justification will always kick in when a different set of standards are imposed upon that person… in this case, it would be when they are caught by the intricately weaved net of the law. After the imposition of another’s set of standards as well as it’s consequences, the person becomes deceptive, and then a justification is required. The deception begins with denial out of fear for consequences. Then… the deceptions that are told, are woven into a story that is rehearsed which usually shows the person in the best possible light. This being said, the pedophile is often seen as a good person and potentially a victim to themselves and their inhibitions, after the insertion of this justification for being a pedophile.

In this example, the justification is neither accurate, nor evidence of accountability and is intentionally designed to skew the report. All the while… the person doesn’t have to take accountability for any action made. The report of the above example is this:

Begin Report:

This person abducted a child, and forced said child to submit to it in a criminal fashion based on a set law that that person is now being judged by. The person was held accountable by said law, and attempted to deceive others in attempt to gain favor for leniency. This person is not only a pedophile, but also a liar and intelligent enough to maliciously use pity and benevolence to sway them. This person is not to be trusted, and with whatever process that the judging law deems relevant,will be processed.

End report:

The report is usually much shorter, and quite declarative. The point being is that the person in question, is accountable for both the report AND the justification.

What's the reason for that they are responsible even if they don't acknowledge that responsibility?

The event simply would not have occurred if the person would not have committed either the thought energy, or the physical energy to turn the fantasy into a reality.

All people are accountable for every thought they have… because no one else is inside your head.

No one else will hold you accountable for your thoughts… because no one else is inside your head.

All people can choose what they want to do.... because all humans have free-will.

All people are accountable for their actions…. Even the ones that other people don’t see.

No one else can stop you from doing something to cause damage to your fellow man… because you have indefinite control over your entire body, and the whole of your own mind.

Accountability for our own thoughts and actions announces our intention as human beings to others. Malicious or benevolent does not matter, and the reason for that is quite simple. For me… I would rather look at the demon that has burning hands and horns coming from it’s head and red skin and say with blood dripping from it's mouth and say: ‘no thanks… I think your unhealthy for my life.’ Rather than to look at a person that hides that demon behind faces of deceit and unaccountability to look just like you and me but have the same effect. The unfortunate reality, is that in our world the angels and the demons look identical… and we have a choice to become either, both, or none. The designation 'angel' or 'demon' is simply that, but the becoming of any of these things begins with taking accountability for the good actions, as well as the poor ones towards that direction.

In the pursuit of accountability I have learned one indeterminate fact. Those who are truly accountable for all of their deeds, as well as their words, walk the most difficult and painfully growth ridden road out of anyone. They must answer to only themselves and no one else, but be that as truth, themselves never give leave.

Hatred Clarified:

2010-11-16T15:45:00.006-06:00

This is a word that is used very commonly in the modern era in phrases such as “I hate that dress” or “I hate the way I was treated” or “I hate that place”.

We are inaccurately using that word, and allowing such a word to become common in our language. So common in fact that we have come to simply overlook the concept, and accept it as a word.

In my belief people use things that they don’t understand because it is common communication, and socially acceptable. I choose to believe that people mean to say “I don’t like the way that dress would look on me”, or “I am not satisfied with the way I was treated” or “I didn’t enjoy that place very much”. Instead we use the word ‘Hate’, and I have become tired of people using this word as if it doesn’t mean anything.

For those who throw around such a concept as if it meant nothing; You must have no understanding of the atrocities such a thing is capable of, so I will explain the concept of hate as I understand and have experienced it.

Hate’s root emotion is fear, and using fear as it’s fuel… can consume an individual. It is what humans use to power their retribution, their reckoning, or vengeance. At any one point these things can become spiritual, which is when hate begins to consume.

Like happiness, hate consumes all things around it, and behaves the exact same as a living entity, though we as humans react differently to this stimulus. Instead of smiling and laughing, we are angry and rageful. If hate is allowed to fully consume, hate is extremely dangerous.

After one has succumb to hatred, humans usually adjust their scope to violence as we are a violent species and in so doing become very dangerous and quite lethal. Hatred naturally increases the need for “justice” as humans are incapable of committing a terrible act, and seeing themselves a terrible person for doing so. The justification must fit in order to perform the terrible action, and so retribution is usually called up in the guise of “justice”.

When Hatred itself consumes, it causes unconscionable events, as the person is victim to their emotions in full regard. Hatred is slow and patient. Hatred is unyielding. Hatred is violent. Hatred is intelligent. Hatred is charismatic. Hatred is coercive. Hatred is methodical, and if utilized properly, is the most damaging weapon we as humans can wield. Hatred is manifested as what most people know as pure evil.

It is the person who is capable of tormenting the spirit and killing of thousands, in order to convince others to torment the spirit, manipulate, and eventually take the lives of millions if not billions.

As so many people say that they ‘Hate’ an individual, I say they are fools. In order to properly hate, one must be active about it. One must first observe, and gather information. Then take the time to strategically strike at their happiness and comfort, pulling their target outside of their comfort zone. If that means paying someone to get into an argument in a public place with a person because that person can not stand being humiliated, or giving that persons dog worms or rabies because it is their most prized possession. One must be able to research the happiness's and fears of their target, in order to apply hate properly. Hate itself doesn’t have a measure of time, and in the beginning, it feels like little cuts. Then it moves into their safe zones. Their house, their work, their day-care facility for their children, their play-groups, their childrens school, their spouses work place and environment. If one is willing to hate, then one must effect the entire bloodline of an individual as far back as can be traced, as well as any contact that was given to an individual by those outside of their bloodline. This means that all family and all friends of an individual, for up to three generations are effected by the hated individual’s mistake. Tormenting and torturing the children, spousal torment and humiliation, the siblings pain and disappearance don’t come until last. They do come, and the individual can be forced to watch by cutting off their eye-lids and tying them down. Then the physical pain begins for the individual, and maybe death. It depends on the resolve of the person hating in order determine that, but it is ultimately within the capacity and power of the hate itself to decide which course of action to take. The one who is hating, has become hate, and no longer has any power. The process in itself can take upwards of ten years, and maybe longer depending on the decisions of the one who is evoking the hate.

Hate doesn’t have a problem creating the most torrid and awful nightmare anyone could possibly imagine. Hate pulls the fingernails off of four year old kids', and cooks infants in vegetable oil for fun.

For the life of me, I can not understand why this word is used so freely in human tongue. I don’t understand why anyone would want to relate themselves to this entity, and consistently describe their own persona as being hateful. If your angry with someone, then state it as anger, not hatred. If you dislike someone, then state it as opposed to even reference such an entity as hate. It is not a requirement in our lives to care about every human we encounter, and in fact it is more common place that we don’t.

I ask only that we use our words in accuracy as opposed to not when describing ourselves or the state of being of oneself. If you do say the word hate, then it should mean everything I listed above and more, as well as the fact that you are actively engaging every one of those courses of action. If you are not engaging in these actions while stating that you ‘Hate’ something, then you are lying, or ignorant of what hate actually is. I assure you that once it is exampled for you, you will never forget it, and you will never want to relive it, or relate it to you. Be accurate when describing yourself. Be accurate with what you feel. Know the difference. It's not enough to blurt out the mess of emotion we have in our head, as it makes sense to no one but us. Use words better.

Awareness

2009-12-02T10:08:00.011-06:00

Let the eyes of the gods be upon me, guiding me towards the life fire. Let slip my mind, the meaning of days and nights, and the troubles of gods and men. Let stay my soul the beauty of a woman, and the beauty of god light sent by truth. Let heal my wounds the depth and breadth of a being tride and true by construct and unwillingness, as the man who has broken free hath done this already, and healed his own wounds if he stand before me... and healed them well.

Stand not, the shadow that breaks against the light on endless occasion, just because there seems no other way. Layeth the shadow on the floors of light, and allow purity to wash over them. Absorption will continue for many moons… but layeth until ye hath had enough.

With eyes unguarded, look upon the world of men, and chance the places ye hath never been. We will learn about the heavens and the gods and the sun, and we will move forward against the currents of the world. We will take from them what is ours, and we shall move beyond their reach, as the only way to survive something such as this, is to become pieces of it, and then let go.

Believe in all things, as all things will treat you with their nature. The stone can not be the river, though it is a part of the river. The stone stands against the river as mother nature has intended, and the stone will stand against all that attempt to move it. The river will flow around and over the stone, and the stone will begin to wash away piece by piece. The stone is proud, and sturdy… but without the ability to change, the stone can only be broken or slowly, slowly washed away.

Awareness is knowledge that can not be forgotten. No matter the effort, and no matter the attempt… it can not be truly forgotten.

Crash against the love of the light, and float with the knowledge that where we are headed, where we were meant to be. We can not carry all the memories that our physical mind may hold dear… but the lessons that our soul understands will walk with us for eternity as we travel to whence we came.

It can not be true that things done with negative intention were meant to happen only one way, for we see and effect the lives of so many people with the choices we make. Each choice made, a cause… each cause created, an effect… each effect

sustained, a change. All things remain a never ending lesson on the ability to properly use the most powerful force in the universe, and the most unwieldy of tools… Free Will.

With Free Will, we can choose to be ignorant or aware. With Free Will, we can choose to exist with or without depth and reason. With Free Will we can choose what color to paint our wall, and With Free Will we can choose Life of the physical, or death of the physical. With awareness, we can realize we have the ability to wield Free Will.

The Journey to Awareness, shall unbind us from this mortal world... Break free my friends... Break free!

Truth -

2009-04-03T09:52:00.006-05:00

Such a thing seems, to me, to be barely attainable. We as humans seem to deceive each other, as well as ourselves, on a such a frequent occasion, that we have justified the cause, and the means to the end.
Truth – in its essence – is the biting blade. Something so pure, that when given, clarity comes at such a staggering speed, it is difficult to stay standing. It is a true catalyst of emotions… and the most revered weapon of the true thinker. Truth is binding… and it will also separate. Truth will help bind one to it, as well as surround them… though the lack thereof creates the same environment on the opposite pole.
If one has lived a life of deception, and begins wielding truth… some people in that person’s life will fade. They will seemingly become ‘itchy’ and that is just enough uncomfortability for people to take notice, and then want out.
Truth… is something that exists in such a way, where it is intangible… though it is something that requires no ones agreement, or belief, it simply is. Gravity of truth, when spoken wholly, is crushing.
This is the sword that the angels use to slay their beasts… these are the words god has used to build our world. This is the living, and a way of being, and only through rejection of truth, can we know discontent. Some truths are full of jolly, and life…. Some truths are hallowed, and void, as the sadness becomes loud.
Our primitive state, lays us as victim upon the feet of such a great power… yet it is a power we can wield by act of free will, if we choose. We can be emboldened by truth, and carry upon our selves a sword of light made for denying that which is not absolute.
As I have found.. that sword has two blades… for if we seek truth within the darkness… we shall find it, and it will not be filled with happiness, or joy. It will be filled with sadness and pain and ugliness, but it will be no less real. If we seek the Truth within the light, we shall find our happiness, and our joy.
The truth itself, is neutral ground. It is where both light and shadow can exist, without ever existing within the same time and space of the opposing party. The entities that stand upon that ground, are subject to the waves of both light and shadow, as it blows through them.. and learning to defend against that which a consciousness wants, and will choose to disallow is key. It is the battle ground of oneself… and it is set with the stage of the gods. As we as entities choose to stand amongst the powers of truth, and choose which will be our direction… the gods offer us all the options we could possibly wish for, in a timeless space, and with quiet but unwavering resolve.
It is our strength that will bind us to our course, and it is our own strength that will bind us to our truth, whichever way we see it. We can lead ourselves to the bottom of one end, to turn and form the path we seek to the other. Some children of men, were made for the light, and some for the dark, and others to be messenger between the two, and exist a place that exists only truths… but a place where there is no wrong. A place where there is no judgment, or emotional reactions… a place of truth, based upon observation which is the most difficult of all places to stand in my humble opinion. As one can not be truly good, one can not be truly evil… and without the finality of one or the other, consciousness staggers, and sways to what is called ‘the unknown’. It is without the human reaction of sway, one can see that the unknown, is only unknown to that one… as there are few which exist within this middle. In this middle there can be no judgment. in this middle, there is no evil. In this middle, there is no good... there is only truth.
The darkness will always try to extinguish the light, as the light will always try to blow back the shadow… but it is the messengers who watch and observe to learn. It is the Seekers of Truth who will carry the message of peace to either side…. Because they have no bias, and their strength is unyielding.

Change

2008-09-29T15:53:00.004-05:00

Here now we stand.. amongst the days of change

This is where we cast out eyes upon the future that now seems so grim, as the elders of our generation cast their eyes back upon hardened times that seem to be catching up to us, and a withering future.

The youth of our generation… still stranded in a lifestyle swimming with material possession, and crippled by the lack of necessary knowledge due to the pursuit of said possession… Lead us in a venture over the hill and toward battle… but a fight where the enemy is ourselves. Not a Civil war… a war of consciousness, waged against that habits and truths of the haves versus the have not’s.

This is when we, the youth, find out that our elders were selfish, egotistical, arrogant, pompous and deceptive people. Deceptive on a level that would get them what they wanted, and never mind the rest, though they have since helped us realize that this is a truth of life. They also never told us, that in about two years from now, there will be 3 people retired, for every one person working... they forgot to mention we would be paying for them and their friends to live out their days work-free.

The truth behind our parents… is that they have loved us the best they can.. and they have shown us what to do, the best they can… but the fact is.. they have never known what to do besides survive, and/or plan for retirement. They forgot to mention their ignorance on the problems they were creating, and the amount of weight that would be left on the shoulders of the youth, when the crown was ready to be passed from generation to generation. They did, however, mention that we should make as much money as possible, and have a nice house, with a car, and a couple kids.. or some variant along those lines. They did not, however, mention that the mindset used to live they way the elders have, was not to be the way of the future… nor did they encourage a different path of us, instead they choked it out of most of us… and forced a replication of a life cycle.. this fact, is truly sad.

After saying this, you would think I have a vendetta against our elders… though I hold the utmost respect for them. They made it through a time that is very unimaginable to us, and hard in ways we can’t fathom.

Once they made it out of that time, they wanted to relax, and have what is know of as 'the good life'… and there is nothing wrong with playing hard, after working hard.

They are also not of the mindset, that we the youth, now have to deal with the mistakes their generation has made, and clean it up, and so far, it has been of a historic precedence, though the mistakes have already been made, and there is no blame to place. They are the way they are, and we the youth are now accountable, and must hold each other accountable.

The part that agitates me the most is witnessing the youth and the hope of our species be deceitful, treacherous, malicious, violent, cruel, and without conscious when it comes to acquiring material possession or personal gain. We learned that from our elders… but we do not have to accept it as our way of life. We can choose something better… even if it only means one choice a day that is different, that would still be something.

We were not prepared for the task ahea. Our natural pre-conception of ourselves is that we are innately good, and we hold onto that throughout our lives. While we do hold onto it… more accurately put, we only hold it and look at it… but we seem to use it less and less, due to fear and hurt from others. This generation is so extremely sensitive to emotions, and no one seems quite aware, of how to deal with it.. so we close it off, and blame ourselves, and become pompous and narrow minded, like our elders, because we have seen that 'it works' to get through life.

There are 24 hours in a day, and a split second is what it takes to make a decision. We can choose our freedom… we have that power within us… if we have the eyes to see it, and the strength to grasp it.

I ask that all of us stretch our limits of the heart once a day… because it’s a muscle… without it working… it never gets stronger. I ask you now… could you stand amongst deception and change fate... can you change the thing we call perception?

These images should help you gain perspective of your place on a universal plane, as well as help you feel why it is so beautiful when we all join together, and work towards the sky.

Strength

2008-09-09T15:57:00.005-05:00

Breathe.... Breathe....

And so we as humans consider ourselves, and measure ourselves of strength. Our character is imbued with this, seemingly rare and precious commodity, and yet some are vacuums for it, and I believe they are called the weak.
The strong was at one time supposed to fight for, and protect the weak, though now it seems, as the sands of the hourglass fall beneath the rest, that the weak have become useless and vile, and irritating. We no longer protect them… it would seem that the culture we now endorse is happier taking things from them.. to embolden themselves in such ways that matter little, but to a corporeal mind.
and so the thoughts of us as humans unfold right in front of me… and what we believe strength to be… never leaving room for its purity and its truth… just craving more and more of it. So on this note I ask… what is strength?
Strength the way I understand are best given by example, as such I shall do so here:
Strength lies in the woman in which that has nothing, but gives everything to the child she willingly chose to create, for no other reason than so that child can have the best life, and the option of choice in things that can not be seen from the position of the mother.
Strength is being persecuted for your beliefs, upon every encounter, because they are different than all the rest, and standing with shoulders back, and head held high and gentle, as the heart simply does not waiver.
Strong is the warrior who is challenged by the fool, and chooses a truth over battle.
Strength is a man fighting for his life and his family at his home because the threat of their death bring s him to his knees in misery.
Strong is the man who’s code of honor rises above every law man has… Honor is noble, if driven by the heart.
Strength is the one who gives up the ways of hate for their spouse and children, and swallows pride, because they accurately understand the wretchedness of a new life growing within the darkness.

Strength is the candle within the darkness… ever beating back the shadows so the children of men can see truth within their blindness.
Strength is the wave crashing upon a rocky coast… and never giving up, because the sea itself wants that land back… and one day.. she shall have it.
Strength exists within us… and we get to learn to bring it out of us.. ounce by ounce. As we do we stand taller, more confident, and truer to what we actually are. It is the Grandest adventure in life… our search for the true depth of our being… so I say… what better place than here, and what better time than now?

The leader

2008-06-13T15:45:00.004-05:00

To lead… hmm.

I guess leading is something different for everybody. Leaders, I always thought, are supposed to be responsible, and right and good and true. Their ideals set apart from the rest, so that people can learn by example, not hypocrisy. Leaders are supposed to be the people that understand ever facet of their followers, so they can accurately interpret their needs, and anticipate those needs to prepare for such things.

We are the people who set the rules, the people who wage wars, the people who organize the masses into smaller sections of a greater entity, that has one direction, but many moving parts. Leaders are supposed to represent the true soul of a culture… the entire mind frame of a society or a group, coalescing on, and solidifying into one single communal organism. The head of the pack you might say, though its just a rough outline.

The leaders are the ones that stand against it, when no one else can. We = are the ones that will still believe, when all the rest have lost faith. We are the ones that will show the unloved, love, and trust the untrustworthy, because we understand that if we do not… no one else will.

We carve our course out of life, based upon what ideals we have been taught as children, and the morals we still hold to be true as grown humans. Those of us which don’t follow the grain will be condemned, and denied. We will be ridiculed and persecuted, and some of us killed, for having the strength to try and shape a new path.

Not all of us are good… there have been, and still are many shadowed leaders. What can be said.. no matter how dark and cruel a leader has been, there has not one of them whom has not broke the boundaries of what we thought we knew. The world wasn’t flat.

Leaders can be the most dangerous of people, due to the ability to gather the consensus of the followers, and press forward in guidance towards a determined goal. We are the targeting system of a weapon, as well as the trigger. We are also the mind behind the weapons construction.

To give you examples of great and terrible leaders allow me to provide you with this list:

Jesus
Ghandi
Hitler
Ghengis Khan
Julius Caesar
Alexander the Great
King Arthur
Leonardo Davinci

You decide which is good and which is bad. Just know why you chose them.

The Follower—

2008-05-30T09:41:00.005-05:00

To explain this point, I will break this down in the most human of terms.

There seems to be two types of people in this world... one type being the leaders, and one being the followers.

Many of us as humans believe ourselves to be leaders, simply because our culture has told us that it is better to lead than to follow. This is the mark of a true follower, as leaders don’t have to believe, or question or doubt... they simply are.
The follower is someone who has great difficulty choosing a course without some sort of reference to what it’s moving towards. Most followers, only think of their individual needs, and not noticing that reason evades them.

The follower is limited in capacity to only being able to think about oneself, or at most, one other person, which is a defining point in most people. The exception is family, which is where the follower begins to lead a whole new line of followers, and is forced to have leadership traits whether it is their desire or not. family is also one of the things that drive followers into a fervor due to the emotional proximity of the selected few in question. When followers unite, they are what is called a mob, and when mobs form, there is what is called the 'mob mentality'. People will not listen, they invoke violence, they draft their loved ones, all to a cause that is gravitating people with the same emotional wavelength... and has almost always ended up in blood.

We, as 'civilized' society, all believe that we are good to each other, and in reality, most people are actually quite horrible to each other on a day to day basis. Most of the human race lands in the follower category, due to selfish desire, and the inability to think about more than the people inside their own reality. We choose not to realize our selfishness, because our own reality is the most right for each individual, and technically, no one knows whats the most or right or the most wrong for you... but you. Free will is a trip eh?

In essence this defines the follower quite properly. The true follower doesn’t think… they are polarized, and drawn in, by instinct, towards something or someone. They are constantly pursued by their primal instincts, and are quite often driven by them. True thought evades them, for their mind wraps around the center of their reality. When thought itself finds them… it is used only to amplify their gravity towards their prescribed center. Followers can be quite dangerous… when they coalesce on one subject, either real or fictitious, and come together as a full bodied unit. They can be the most powerful of forces, due to the sheer volume of them, and their lack of self control. It is much like a giant wave, which cannot stop, until it strikes the beach, rushes as far up on land as it can, and then begins a slow retreat back into the sea, as the energy itself has diminished.

The follower is the best of students, bar none. Once they find the teacher of similar polarization, they will absorb all things that are said by that person, true or false, and learn the teachers’ exact way of utilizing a specific kind of knowledge. They can be amazingly fast at the learning process, and very territorial of it as well. They will own the knowledge, and keep the practice of it very close to them, as well as protect it, lethally, if necessary. Followers are quite primal in their thoughts, as well as limited in their capacity of problem resolution. We as a species, are over populated with followers.. though that is one man's opinion.

Some people are quite happy being followers, and can stay consistent like this their entire lives. They enjoy that other people make their decisions for them, and that they themselves require little to no will in life in order to achieve their happiness. They are quite successfully in denial of their responsibility, and are quite accustomed to others doing it for them. They only need someone to show them a direction in which they can go, for indecision is a new, burgeoning lifestyle. Change, falls to the wayside, and a new direction is only poised, and unattended while they sit, and wait, for someone else to stand up and grasp it. Once grasped though, they will move behind this new idea, and gather their strength to become a number in a seemingly endless mass of power and movement. The follower is the might behind the idea, and the change that we speak about when we say ‘we need change’. It doesn’t matter if the leader changes the idea of the status quo, because if the follower is not inspired to follow that change, and because the follower IS the status quo due to the sheer volume of us, then the idea of change will wither and die. The follower is in dire need of the leader, as the leader is in dire need of the follower.

It is said that in order to be a great leader, one must first be a great follower. There are reasons for this, and I personally believe them to be true, I challenge you to find out why on your own… because no one can explain the concept better for you… than yourself.

If you have questions… I will be here.

Happiness

2008-02-08T15:52:00.000-06:00

What does it truly mean to be Happy? What is required for one person to be happy? Does it change from moment to moment, or is it as steady as the freight train?

Happiness is meant for the receiver… because, like most emotions, are felt from within. They are created within us, and swell to encompass our entire body. Happiness is one of the human favorites in emotions.

Happiness comes in different shapes for different people, this emotion is as liquid as water is to its container. It will fill it up, and rush out, if the cup runneth over. Happiness itself, is truly an art.

People are quite beautiful when they are happy. They are full of bounce and life. The eyes shimmer, and the body glows, its as if a star was coming out from inside, if only for a moment, and that is only if happiness is aloud to consume its host. It is pleasurable to watch as people no longer remember the bad things that could happen, or what could go wrong, or the pain that be coming, or the monster around the corner. Any one of these, on any given day, may stop the very same person… but not on a day they are happy, not that day!

The life experience of the individual having these emotions are drawn upon for its good times, during these days, and that is if it truly lasts a whole day. Many of us live for the fleeting moments that we are happiest, but there are the uncommon few among us that live happy every day.

On that day the sun shines brighter and warmer. The voices of only the happy people around us are the only sounds that can be heard. Laughter is a common occurrence, and relationships shine and shine alike.

It is when we smile at the raindrops.
It is when our spirit can glide upon the wind with no hesitation.
It is when our heart opens up and embraces the moment
It is when we can finally understand who we are and be ok with it.

Happiness is truly a diverse, complex, and multidimensional emotion.

What does it mean to you to be happy? What are some of the things that you do when you are happy? How do you know you are happy? Where do you go? Who are you with, if anyone?

These questions are quite important, though, I personally, never realized how relevant until recently. I realized that I hadn’t heard those questions in a very long time.. if at all, and I have no doubt my responses have changed with age. I also realized, that in the not hearing of those questions, I had forgotten to ask myself what makes me happy, so I no longer know.

I do understand what made me happy… so I suppose I will just have to start from there.

As an exercise, I invite you to answer the questions above, write them down... and go be happy for the day.

Emotional Fundamentals 101

2008-01-08T12:17:00.000-06:00

Emotions are the most unpredictable of all things within human nature. Few of us can contain and control these things. Very few understand how, and even less are able to perform this feat.

We as humans are born victim to our emotions… they are primal forces that control us. Our parents teach us about them immediately, wanting to or not, they perform these emotions and acts in the colorful dance that we call life, and children are able to soak it in.

As children it seems that we have a blank catalog, for who, what, when, where, how, and most importantly, why these emotions actually exist, and what the purpose is for them.

We can use all of them for whatever it is that we choose based strictly upon free will, and with that will comes opposing ends of an emotional scale.

Universally, there is a balance to all things. For the color red there is blue, for light there is darkness, for matter there is anti-matter. It is quite natural, as we find ourselves a part of this universe, that we too would be balanced in all ways. Even in what seems to be uncontrollable… emotions.

What follows is information. I have proven these within this realm, and as far as I have found… they are truth.

Our Fear is balanced, by its polar opposite.. love.

Watching how they react to people is identical. They infect, and some people fight, some welcome it. Then it grows on them, and then it consumes them, and then it surrounds them. Either one of these emotions do react the exact same way to stimuli, though it must be properly polarized. If not, keep in mind that emotions are very unpredictable, and these two especially

These are the roots of ALL our emotions. In that case you could provoke literally any reaction, and it will not be controllable. Everything we feel can be traced back to these two emotions in some way.

We as a race have made colors for these and you have seen them everywhere. Black for fear, white for love.

These colors have become as symbols to us as a race, though in my personal belief I don’t believe that it is just us that utilizes this system. I believe this is a universal constant, though I can not prove it.

The additive and subtractive colors are a good representation of love and fear. If the additive colors are all put together…. they create white. This is the natural color in our culture to summon the emotion of purity, love, trust and all the positive aspects of our personality.

If the Subtractive colors are all put together, they create black. This is the color that summons anger, hostility, hatred, fear and all the negative aspects of our personality.

As you can see here, some of the same colors are used to make either end of the light spectrum, and the ones that are not, are so very close in nature, that it takes a very tuned eye to be able to tell the difference between Cyan, and Blue, or Magenta, and red.

Lets first take love for instance… and we will use the colors above. The primary colors Red Green and Blue.

Lets replace those same color values, with emotional values.

Red = Joy, Blue = Happiness, Green = Trust. Now, all these things felt seperatley cast that shade of everything. If Joy is what is all that’s being felt, then joy will shade the image of all things visible at that time.

If happiness is felt, it shades all things at that time the same way. Each by them self is sturdy, though negativity can create turbulence, and force a collapse. This is where an individual choice must be made and our greatest gift gets its power (free will). We can either continue to be happy, or if the negativity is more desirable, then we have the freedom to follow that path to its result as well.

These energies are electromagnetic, though there is a vibration that must be consciousness behind it. (electromagnets don’t seem to work the same way to alter human moods. My efforts unveiled nothing.)

If all of these positively charged emotions (which are now colors) are placed together, then we get white, or the color we use to symbolize gods love for us, and our love for each other. These are additive emotions.

The same is true for fear, as these are subtractive emotions. Lets take in place of Cyan, Magenta and Yellow… and give these names such as Hate, Rage, Jealousy.

Individually they can act the exact same to polarize an individual as the positive emotions can, They simply feel different. The methods of their gradual consummation are EXACTLY the same as the additive colors, though it is to a different conclusion.

They begin small, and they shade all things at the time they are perceived the same way as the additive emotions do. This is again where an individual choice must be made, and the true power of the human will is revealed in all its might. To follow one of these to its conclusion is daunting to say the least.

If we put all of these subtractive emotions together, we get the color we use to symbolize Evil or Darkness in our world, better known as the color black. This in emotions, is fear. Fear is the god of all things dark, for without fear, The darkness would have no power.

When we are the construct of all of the subtractive emotions, we perform fear. When we are the construct of all of the additive emotions, we perform love.

Most of us, struggle daily, with our emotions. We try to decide, or forget about the decisions, that must be made in order to forward the human evolution. To evolve, we will all need to work together. And to de-evolve, we must continue our divide, and our descent into something which we can not imagine.

Either way we choose, whether it be unification, or the dividing of a species, we will not know what the future holds for us.

It will come down to the most primal and ancient of all things in the universe. The laws of attraction.

The only question that could be asked, is ‘which sounds more appealing for me?’

a Day of Peace

2007-12-19T13:51:00.001-06:00

This is the Christmas season… so allow me to share with you my faith in Christmas.

Christmas is a time where a large percentage of the world stops, even if for a moment, to reach out to others. This is a time for hope, for cherishing, for you to be loved, and for you to love others in all ways.

It is a time where no religion is necessary… no religions of man period. it is a time when one can feel upon the air a patience within the world, if only for an extra moment.

Patience for the mistakes we will make, and mishaps they will cause. Patience for the ignorance we all have on any number of things.

Hope that all the love we have will be appreciated and reciprocated. Hope that the people we love love us just as much in return… if only to feel that loved.

We hope for miracles… though what we forget to think about, is that if all of the people in this world that celebrate this one holiday of peace, not of religion, and quiet their minds and hearts enough to let the light they want so badly in… then god has truly blessed them. God has truly blessed us all.

Here is an icon for hope.... in all good things.

Merry Christmas

Breathing Energy (a.k.a. Running Energy)

2007-11-16T08:38:00.000-06:00

This is to help us breathe. This is breathing in a different way, and its truest fashion. This is how we acquire the force that we call life. As we normally do this on a subconscious level, doing this consciously will feel new and more intense, because intention is set in motion, and health is the end result. Its sort of like getting high… but high on life.

To perform this, please take your body to a safe place (or your safe place) and sit upright, feet flat on the floor. Chairs are most accommodating for this position.

Close your eyes, and begin to breathe. Breathe slowly, and evenly… and feel the deep breaths of air, hit all parts of the body.

There is a rhythm when doing this, so if you can.. listen and feel that rhythm.

Begin the fore mentioned techniques.

Relaxation

Grounding

Centering

When these have been completed, feel your body for a moment, and allow for the feeling to catch you. The body reacts miraculously to these energies, though it is a might spooky at first.

When you have finished reveling in it (please do that for as long as you can allow, just because its fun) then open your minds eye once more.

Use your inner voice to call for the energies, to politely ask for them to send you the energy that will be most beneficial. For visual reference, please use the center of our known Universe. As an example, I visualize this as a GIANT spiral galaxy... though it has many shapes.

The universe, will then begin its offering… this comes through the seventh energy center, and flows downward along the spinal column. The color white is often attributed with this energy, so… if you can endure the cliché, White light falls through your body, from head to tailbone. This is an actual exercise, and is called many things and done in many ways.

As this light falls through the body, pay attention to the rhythm of your breathing.

As your breathe in, allow the light to be drawn in from above, and as one breathes out, allow for darkness to fall from the first center, into the grounding chord, to the earth. Upon the travel of this darkness to the center of the earth, please have intention for transmutation into light.

The two colors that allow for the ease of this process is black and white. There are many other colors, though starting with these two are easiest.

Breathe in, and drink in the light through the head, and breathe out, to expel darkness through the first center.

Do this for as long as one you deem necessary.

The ideal is to perform this exercise at least once a day, though one chooses to do this at their own will, if they choose it at all.

If you have chosen this, then pay attention to your body and how it feels. Your senses should sharpen, and your mind unwind. Your body will relax, and all of these things are desired.

If you have questions… please feel free to ask me. I will do my best to answer.

Centering

2007-11-09T15:46:00.000-06:00

We begin this journey at the center of our mind, and work our way out. We will use a working belief structure that the aura is something that extends six feet from our center, and in all directions, completely consuming us.

Over the course of days, this sphere can get misshaped, and lopsided, and off center, and this exercise will enable us to re-center if we so choose.

This will create a sense of equilibrium with that of this reality, and that of the other. Consider this an exercise in getting comfortable in your own bed, because this is very similar. As the body is only a vehicle, we are just becoming situated within it.

To begin, start breathing deeply. The air to stimulate different parts of your brain are necessary. With more fuel, the brain produces more thoughts, and they would be called ‘outside the box’.

If you wish you can enter into the relaxation technique that has been spoken of before, though it is not recommended.

When you are focused enough, begin using your minds eye to image you surrounded by this ball of light. Use your emotions and your senses to feel the position and the shape of this ball, or if you can simply see it, then use the image.

The symptoms of being off center with your aura could manifest as many things.

A strange occurrence of always falling towards the right, wanting to always lean or sit back, Continuously slouching in a chair, or your arms and feet crossed all the time are all ways that the aura effects our physical body noticeably, though these occurrences can be so subtle in the average day that they are overlooked almost instantly.

When you have the image of your imbalance, take that image, and create the sphere that was there to begin with. The ideal, The one with no holes, the perfectly round one, and perfectly centered.

Altering the shape and size of this sphere is as easy as using your will, and as this is yours to command, it will obey you.

When the centering is complete, you will know… this process can take minutes, or hours… time is a human occurrence, though the more this is done, the more you will succeed.

This is a simple exercise, and can be done in the bathroom at work, or your meditation room at home. This is a piece of a new kind of lifestyle. Take as much as you wish, and leave the rest.

Grounding.

2007-11-06T16:04:00.000-06:00

This tool is to allow a connection to the earth life force that exists on this planet. This is a planetary life force system, as well as the global consciousness. In my understanding the ‘global consciousness’ in pop culture, or even I would go as deep as society, is that of the people, or the masses.

I do not speak of the mass human consciousness that exists, I speak of our planetary body, and its energy. As we believe we are the only intelligent life on this planet, we forget that we still reside within this planet. We are a small part of the greater, that is what, we call earth. As our human bodies have cells, this planet has people, and if one were to stretch the scale and compare the two, one human body is greater than or equal to the size of a cell on a planetary scale.

Many times our ego’s are falsely, and wrongfully in charge of our perception when it comes to life energy. On this planet we are quite content being on top of what we have come to know as ‘the food chain’. We fail to remember that the only thing extracted from this ‘food’ is energy, and there are MUCH greater forms of energy out there, that if given the opportunity, may use us as this ‘food energy’ with a much greater understanding of the whole than we could ever claim. Consider the possibility of being what we know as popcorn to this being.

To begin the grounding technique, first one must return to the safe place that was decided upon by you while learning the relaxation technique. When you have returned, and you are seated in your chair, begin the relaxation technique, and complete it.

When this technique is complete, I invite you to again use your minds eye, and begin focusing on your first center. The first center is the one connected to your tail bone. Be fully aware of this center, and your body around it. As you are fully aware of this center, begin using your minds eye, to extend a glowing tube, directly beneath you, and watch it penetrate the floor and the crust of the earth, all the way to the center.

There are many things that people have used to symbolize this place, this is your vision, and your choice, on what is placed here. I have used the glowing orb. When you do connect with the center of our planet, perception will adjust, and your vision will focus. It is a rather rude feeling to start with, though if one were to consider this ‘mother earth’ you could also consider adjusting your attention as any mother would.

You may begin to feel the body begin to resonate, though fear is unnecessary. This reaction will only lessen your experience, as well as shorten the measurement of time this experience lasts. If this is your desire, then so be it.

It may take more than once to accomplish this technique. As these techniques are something to practice, not just what could be described as ‘a roller coaster’ which references something that is immediate gratification, and then a concussive end, the more frequently these are done, the better and clearer your images and visions, as well as your experiences will become.

One may be asking the purpose of grounding , as I have stated it is a connection to our earth, as well as a perception change.

For the answer to this, one must heed to the question:

‘What would you ask the planet if you had it on the phone?’ .

As I use this as only a metaphor, I believe the mind will better grasp this concept. You can ask this planet anything in you can desire, the question then comes, will you truly listen when she answers.

Please keep in mind that a planet has no ego, for ego is a human item, and is unnecessary beyond the gates of our reality.

In Summary:

Return to the area of safety in which you have chosen.

1. Utilize the relaxation Technique.

2. Become aware of your first center. Feel your body around it.

3. Use your minds eye, to extend the tube into the earth.

4. Connect to the planet’s center.

5. Ask whatever question you can think of, to a consciousness that has existed for approximately 9 or so billion years. (that’s according the man made records)

6. Allow earth to answer.

Enable Relaxation

2007-11-02T16:10:00.001-05:00

This is how to enable your physical body to relax, and take in. please remember that imagination is key in these messages, so the idea is not to be afraid to utilize it.

First one must adjust or occupy a safe environment. This can be a room that you have felt the safest in, or an open field that warms your heart. Whether inside or outside one must find the safest place they can. Distanced, and away from all of the turmoil of the everyday life, every from anyone or anything that could distract you in your goal, because this is an independent mission for your own solace and knowledge.

If you do not have this space, then you are invited to create one for yourself in whichever way you know how. Construct the place where you feel the safest you can ever feel, and where you know you will be the happiest.

When this place is revealed to you, go there, without hesitation, and sit there, with your back straight and your palms up. Nothing should be crossed, because in doing this, it restricts the flow of outside energy, though if this is your desire, then it is your body after all. =)

Close your eyes slowly, and as they are closed begin to breathe. Breathe in through the nose, and out through the mouth, and as you breathe in, imagine an image of three gleaming, bright lights, about the size of marbles, under your nose, one just beneath each nostril, and the other just below the septum.

As you are breathing regularly now, picture the life energy that you are breathing in, and then see it washed clean by the lights below your nose. Whatever color it is, what ever there is attached to the life energy in which we breathe, can not withstand the light that is placed here.

Feel the light flow through your body, and jump into all of your cells, everywhere, and enjoy this for awhile.

When you are ready to move on, and begin to really relax, then use your minds eye, to visualize the actual word ‘relax’ hovering centered, just above your head. Once you see it, you must actually add the energy of relaxation to it, and this is your will and intention. Use your minds eye to visualize yourself offering the light of relaxation to this word, and when you believe it has had its fill, allow it to fall.

Allow it to fall…. Slowly… over your head, and for every square millimeter it comes in contact with, feel your physical body relax as an effect. see it come down over your head, and touch your scalp, and feel it relax.

As the actual word is self runs over you, as well as through you, feel the side or your head relax, and the tips of your ears, your eyes, your eye lids, your nose, your lips and tongue, down to your throat and neck, your shoulders, your arms, your chest, your lungs, your heart, your elbows, your forearms, your stomach, your bowels, your bladder, your waist. Down to your genitals, your tailbone, your anus, your buttocks, your thighs, your knees, your shins and your feet.

When the word itself has finally fallen to the ground beneath your feet, use your mind to raise it up again, very slowly, all the way back up to the top of your head, just above your scalp. Then allow it to fall again.

Do this three times very slowly, because the pace is very important. The pace will allow you the understanding of the dimension your are in as your body begins to readjust to this new possibility of reality.

When you are finished, sit and enjoy breathing in the light, or continue to run the relaxation tool as many times as you wish. Please remember you set the rules here, this is your reality, and as you create it, you will know what is and is not possible, as well as what does, and does not need doing.

This should be step one to any other following lesson that I would give here. I highly recommend this step upon entering any type of trance like state.

Breathe in life, and exhale fear.

In summary:

- Find a safe place

- Sit with your back straight in a chair.

- Close your eyes, and imagine the light beneath your nose.

- Begin breathing light in through your nose, and blow it out through your mouth.

- See the word relax above you

- See it fall over you, and feel each part of your being relax.

- Do it three times

- Do it as much as you want!

- Do this before all following lessons.

The End of the Begining

2007-10-31T10:55:00.000-05:00

I hope this can bring a sense of calming to you, because it is my belief that all people should have a smooth, strong mind, rippled only by choices.

This begins a process of things that can not be un-learned. The experience, is your choice to begin , though the lesson, is without bounds, and will never end. These will continue on throughout this life, as well as what we have come to call death, and beyond. The only consequence of taking part in such an activity, is the immutable truth, found by oneself, that will never be silenced.

It will be explained in a way, that only you can understand. It will be felt in a way, that allows all the emotions you understand and feel, to be more intense than you have ever felt. It will be seen in a way that only your eyes can see it. These things will be explained by yourself, to yourself, for yourself because no one could claim to communicate the necessary information better.

This is something that does not stop, though you can choose to ignore it, the consequence being that the truth does not ignore you.

My suggestion to you, is that if you do not want this… if you are afraid at what you might find, then I suggest you stop this message now.

These messages were not meant for you, and in place of creating a greater understanding, these messages will in turn create confusion.

In the place of creating fulfillment, these messages will create an emptiness within you.

Know that no matter what perception you have of these messages, the vibration of them is positive, and will resonate that way through all things, including you.

If you are reading these messages to better understand your fear, and to overcome it, they will provide you a set of tools that has yet to be realized as useful in our normal social structure of so called ‘life’.

I will teach, if you will listen, and if you have questions, please ask, as I will do my best to answer.

If you have already chosen to ‘prove me wrong’ , then your presence is undesirable, though your participation will only be difficult, and nothing more.

The fortunate part of these truths, is that they do not require the beliefs or intentions of those who do not understand them, nor use them, to exist. They exist without limitation of time or thought, and they will continue on past the reaches of anything we know of as ‘ending’.

Know that these tools will help create fulfillment of oneself, compassion, truth, peace of mind, and much more. This is, if you use them to their potential. Half an effort will result in half of the desired results.

This is a new kind of faith… a faith in oneself… a faith in all of ‘the gods’ that are here on this world. This is something that connects to all of the other ‘LIFE’ in this plane.

Make no mistake, this is no religion… This is a discipline. This is knowledge given… this is information handed out, and this is a way of life….. a different way, no better… no worse… just different, you decide.

I am but one human, though this lesson is mentioned with many voices, throughout the ages. We can decide to listen to the whisper of the ancients, or we choose to hear the shouts of the fear we ourselves have created. We are accountable for our situation, and no one else. If one is broken, then that one is responsible for their repair, though others should be strong enough to show compassion, and not pity.

Fear is an illness, rage is a weakness, and anger is the ill wind which blows out the lamp of the mind

all have their remedy, locked away within oneself, as I will use these analogies so your mind understands their true value.

These tools are meant to empower the consciousness within you, and nothing more.

These tools will teach you how to use the energy centers I have spoken of, and as you have seen these messages here, you are now aware of my intentions…… if you have questions, voice them… we can now begin.

The Human Energy Construct

2007-10-26T15:48:00.000-05:00

The Human Construct is the end result. This has not been an explanation of the physical body, but of the energy body, that being something of which most people choose not to attend to.

It is what is disrupted when we feel sick,

and it is what has been beaten back when we feel sharp pains.

When we feel confused, these energy bodies have shifted,

and when we change our mind, these energies have moved directions.

These pieces are only but a small few of the many that make up the entire that is called a human. The Vehicle itself is an amazing construct, though the actual experience itself is something to actual long for.

It is something that can not be explained or ratified. It is so messy, and ugly, and clean and beautiful all at the same time. The actual perception that is achieved by stepping within a body, is so focused, right down to the very harmonic, or attention. All of these centers are regulators, and are all, of great importance in the human experience.

We can choose to ignore them, or we can choose to attend to them, and this will never change the fact that the existence of these centers are real, for the truth is forever immutable, and is silenced only in fear. Each of these centers has a symbol that specifies, which center It is, and I believe you can also seek out their names on this world. By all means make your own sense of these things, because to each consciousness, they will be different.

We so much like being able to reference things so quickly, and if disorganization is seen, it is thought of as ‘lesser than’. Specifically in social classes, and economic break ups…. These judgments are so very strong.

We are one of the most beautiful species of man in existence in this plane, and we are also the only one that has been ‘proven’ to be in existence in our perception. (I will use proven loosely here due to, all things that can be summed up by saying one word, UFO’s)

These energy centers help us conduct our lives in a safe way, when we choose, and a destructive way, when we choose. This entire combination of these centers creates an essence that never fades, and exists on well beyond any time line we would measure.

The existence of Life (Layered Intelligent Fundamental Energy) itself is not so mysterious…. But the existence of THIS planet’s life, is absolutely mysterious. With the mess of things in the dominant vehicle, and the power density packed into the human form, the species should have eradicated itself eons ago, yet still we have found a way to forge onward.

If you ever get the feeling that your body is trying to tell you something…. Listen.

If you ever get the feeling that your mind is in the way…. Move it aside

If you ever think that its time to stop feeling so much because of exhaustion….. choose numbness for a bit, because our choice is the most beautiful blessing.

If you ever think that what you think you are thinking about thinking, may be a definite possibility of a potential maybe…. Ease your mind, and allow in just a bit of light.

if we hold it just right, Free will, will carry us through each of these centers, and then it will carry us yet again, to meet what we have named ‘god’.

Love thyself, and never regret. Never stop, continue the movement. Never forget, to always believe.

This is an image of a real human within this energy, so your eyes can have reference.

The Seventh Center

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Seventh: Ethereal Bridge Mineral: Diamond Color: White
(This is one interpretation of a substance, for which there are endless descriptions)

This is the Center in which that connects us to the infinite. This center has many names. To name a few, ‘Kundalini’, ‘The Crown’ ,‘Gods Connection’.

This is the door which enables us access to the light of life, that we drink in. This Provides us all the necessities in which we can not see, in which we can not explain, in which we can not prove, in which we can not taste, and in which we must believe, in order for our continuation within this specific sphere of life.

This is what guides us in a positive direction, even when do we do wrong, because this center has no evil in it. It can not be made evil, unless the individual chooses it. This is where the light breaks the shadow, and begins an ever forward course amongst the tangible. This is where our belief charges our reality, and this piece will never fade.

The shining is a bright as the stars, and the light is just as pure. This is the holiest of all of our centers, and as the dictionary describes this word as ‘having a spiritually pure quality’ the truth is far more intense.

Think not of religion when thinking of this center, for this center has only one structure, and it can not be uttered in our words. There is nothing that exists here that can speak accurately of what lies beyond this center, and as I try here, I will fail, as will we all fail. The closest I can get to a description of what lies beyond the cusp, is ‘greater than’.

The concepts alone can not fit in our physical mind, though the infinite storage of a universe that is so vast, as well as the access point, built into every consciousness in it, allows for the largest collection of information that we can only access by acceptance, and belief.

If it is in fact, that in accepting nothing other than the reality of this truth, as well as the belief in the truth, even if that means we are the only ones who feel it, then all of us here truly will be able to find our way, as we have a built in staircase. All of our faith is held within this center, for all things.

Whichever god we have chosen to have faith in, our human prayers will flow freely through this channel.

Whichever curses in which we choose to bestow, they will flow freely, from this center.

Whatever holiness we carry with us, will be lent to us from this warm, loving hand.

This is the bridge in which we can look across, and see what we humans have named ‘god’…. And this is where god can exist, at a distance which provides us comfort, and wait for us to invite him in…. and smile…. Warmly.

The visual metaphor for this center is the Staircase.

The visual reference for this center is as follows:

The Sixth Center

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Sixth: Clairvoyance Mineral: Amethyst Color: Indigo
(This is one interpretation of a substance, for which there are endless descriptions)

Can you see?

Can you see to regions of time space which all have fallen shallow to but the hardest of thinkers and the deepest of dreamers?

That which creates perception based upon a fluid context, and flickering ever brighter in the night, that is the veil of darkness, which shields humanity from our true being and belief. This is our third eye and how we see ourselves, our spirits, the others that walk amongst us in the river of life.

This is how we see that which can not be seen with flesh. This is how we know, that which can not be proven or disproven, and see that which can not move or stop moving. This is our window to an infinite of realities, and we can choose to see them, or forget them.

As we came to this world from a reality which few of us can physically remember, we still have connection to this place, as well as the energies that move there. This place is the unification of all things, and this is the place where we can choose anything we wish. This is where thought performs reality, and this is where reality performs functions, created by a consciousness, for a purpose.

Everything here is real, yet to us, this center would allow us to see things that the human construct would judge ‘fictional’ or ‘imaginary’. This is how we begin to grasp tightly to a world that has very dense realism, and very slow moving of thoughts.

We use this center to see the things that we want to see, as well as ignore the things we wish to leave us be. This center is key to the pictures of our imagination, due to us actually creating worlds based upon vision, the importance of this center to our reality is quite clear.

Some of us struggle daily to find a new path, one that would lead us beyond the stars, others understand the road is always there, and they never wander too far.

This center connects to the infinite dimensions within the kaleidoscope of realties we have upon this ever changing realm of earth life, as well as the ever random cycles of intelligent life spread throughout time space in whole, as the HU-MAN being, is not the only construct of MAN being.

This center is not limited by time, it is not limited by matter, it is not limited by dimension. This center is only limited by consciousness, as are all of the energy centers, and those who have enough strength to hold all of the truth, of what this word is in representative of.

The visual metaphor for this center is the Window

The visual reference for this center is as follows:

The Fifth Center

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Fifth: Communication Mineral: Sapphire Color: Blue
(This is one interpretation of a substance, for which there are endless descriptions)

This center begins the path of truth if we choose to follow it. This center allows for a point to be displayed to another being, as vividly as possible within this realm of perception, and offer the being an understanding.

This center is a doorway into our mind for another being that we choose to engage. As we decide to embark upon things that would be unknown to those around us, this is the tool we use to encourage that things will remain every moving, and ever changing.

We attempt many different truths in our lifetimes, though in order to know what we are, we must begin by knowing that which we are not. Within our trials and errors, we ourselves are trying to understand how to communicate, that which we are experiencing and which we are wanting, and we do this while engaging other beings in the average day.

This center is how we translate the energies of our spirit as well as the universe, to the crude level of communication we use in this plane to allow for a limited understanding of concepts that begin without anything audible.

This is our dimensional transducer, and as we step forward through this life, we begin, more and more, in the learning of how to utilize this wonderful tool.

The out bound traffic from this center effects the lives of everyone it touches in someway, and on the receiving side, this sound must also go through an interpretation. This is often why many of our conversations get confused.

We can do someone immeasurable harm from here, as well as do someone an amazing good. This should not be something that is hidden, or closed, but released amongst the energies that welcome it freely and openly into this universe of variance.

Our truths fly away from us here, to become someone else’s truth, or their target. Our experiences can be exhausted from here, as we live them again while speaking them to another being. Information can pass this way as free as the day we were born, as this typing is communication now, as I present a new possibility to you…. or an old one.

The Visual metaphor for this center is the Hallway.

The visual reference is as follows:

The Fourth Center

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Four: The Essence Mineral: Emerald Color: Green
(This is one interpretation of a substance, for which there are endless descriptions)

This is the most powerful center of our being. That which does not hold a name exists here, and that which should not be spoke of also exists here. The most complex energies of the human psyche are bound to this place, to come out when we choose to let them.

When we choose truth, this center is there, allowing us the strength to follow through with that truth until the end.

If we love, this center will deem the purity of the love, dependant upon contaminations of the energy field around it. This center is THE most vulnerable to environmental changes, and with it comes the ups and downs that most human feel as they walk through life.

Herein lies the answers to all of the questions, as this is the lens in which we see/feel the universe as it truly is, the universe as we can not explain it, and the playground, that we shall return to as these bodies fade away.

Our balance in this existence starts with this center, and carries on through the rest of our energy body.

This is how we truly feel, and there is no hiding. This is where truth is reality, and can never mix with any other energy, though both, can drop from our awareness for a time. It is our deepest connection with what could be called ‘infinite’ or the ‘universal all’, or the ‘one god’ or (fill in the blank).

This is a starting point on how we process information from a different plane existence, and it is a step in remembering all the things that exist. We can channel this connection from time to time, and we see much clearer, the issues which we are experiencing, though with so much emotion, it is difficult to keep a balance, and not be lost in such intense emotion.

It is easy to get lost within any moment as raw emotion is experienced from a circumstance or a situation.

Pain, Love, Trust, Loyalty, Truth, Jealousy, Envy, all of these things arise from this place for many different reasons. The complexity and the inter-workings of these emotions, are something that can not be explained by one person. This is something that must be experienced and then become known to each being, in their own way.

When this Center guides our life, we are truly being one hundred percent of everything we are, though to not get lost somewhere amongst the fringes of belief, we need our other centers to help balance our consciousness as we play amongst the channels which crackle with life in the, and dancing in the multitude of dimension that can only be imagined.

The fact we know, is close to useless here, here the process of logic is the only function to help our consciousness regain its balance in a universe that can not be fathomed by the physical mind. This is something that relies strictly on the things that are used to disprove the facts in which we place our faith in reality. This takes true faith, for technically we must venture against all of what we know to be real.

The visual metaphor for this center is the Room.

The visual reference for this center is the following image:

The Third Center

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Three: Will Power Mineral: Sunstone Color: Yellow

(This is one interpretation of a substance, for which there are endless descriptions)

This is the center that commands our will power. This is our intention, and a power center in the human body. If we intend not to do something, this center allows for the appropriate action that enables the ‘not doing’ to take place. The opposite is also true, if we intend for good things, this helps to guide us along to the punctuation of our intention.

This center is also wired to the other centers in our body, as we are completely connected on every level. Our intention is one of our most powerful creative tools… because if thought becomes reality, our intentions help align our thoughts.

This center is a gravity center for that alignment, and with it, we can become whatever it is we have in our mind, no matter how wild the idea.

We also use will power to over ride fear, and forget about such things. If it is that we intend to forget the fear existed in the first place, we can bring forth this reality, and make it a part of our daily existence, using our will.

Free Will

The most powerful of all forces on this planet, yet the most common of all things in man kind.

The ability to choose to make things better for ourselves if we do not condone or acknowledge or even like, our current situation. This is the ability to choose in all ways, all things possible, and all possible outcomes. Now that… is one of the only constants of mankind.

We all have this ability, though our choices will forever bind us to our lives. That concept alone, is scary. That concept alone is why people do not choose. Those people may not realize, that they still have made a choice.

If we tell the truth, we have chosen to do so, and this center will be consulted.
If we lie, we have chosen to do so, and this center will be consulted.
If we love, we will have chosen to do so, and this center will be consulted,
And if we hate, we will have chosen this hate, and we will have had to consult this center.

On the human body, this center is located just below the sternum, better known as the solar-plexus.
The visual metaphor for this center is the Chair. This is the image that goes with this center.

The Second Center

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Two: Relationships Mineral: Amber Color: Orange
(This is one interpretation of a substance, for which there are endless descriptions)

This is the center where confusion begins. This is where our minds get clouded due to the people that are within our life structures and cycles. This center safe guards our relationships.
The truest forms of honesty are kept here, as well as our loyalties and inhibitions. We may not understand all of what we do, or whether it is for another, though if one was to seek out truth, beginning here would be a safe choice.

This place, in essence, is our coil. This is the center that we use to engage others in transition, both our own, as well as their own. Our space is always kept by energies that have yet to be discovered, though in truth in never-endingness of energy is quite profound.

As humans, there is a great deal of interaction. The simple state of being conscious, allows us to engage things with our five senses and feel, taste, touch, hear, see, and listen to the ever vibrant world around us so full of life. Each of these living things has an energy, or a resonation, and this resonation is what the second center focuses on.

Be it a human being or a bear, a blade of grass or the trees of a forest, this center allows us the ability to be aware of something that is not just referenced by our five senses, but something much grander, that can not be referenced, but is always believed. There is something more to this thing called life than just what is seen.

This center keeps us always in motion, whether it be part of a dramatic sequence humans have created amongst the emotions which cascade in their individual environments, or the is simply help one walk down the street to store to get something’s to eat, because lord knows everyone has a relationship with their stomach, like it or not.

It also allows us to disseminate personalities, as well as those we would choose to be around, and those that would not be in this life. Our love is released from hear, as if it were a horse at the starting gates, truly wishing to be released to run. In that love that bursts outward of us, when we meet a person that inspires us in that subject, we usually are drawn together, and we humans engage in what has come to be called sex.

As some people do, humans can get very addicted to sex, because of the wash of emotions, and the pure release of what has been held back upon their own will. It would seem as though it is the only way the individual could be happy. The reality of this, is
happiness is not created in this center, though it is released with many other emotions and concentrated energies, to bring forth life in this world.

The visual metaphor that is related to this Energy center is the Garden. These images are to be used if you wish to view your own. If you ask to see your second center, then think of the location of this center, then ask for the image of a garden, you will see the health and vibrance of it. The only thing that must be asked after this is simply, “is this a healthy garden?” and then look closely at your garden.

Please keep in mind that these pictures are only easier for our human minds to connect with and understand.

This is a visual reference for the second center:

The Basics

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I am going to begin on a small walk through the energy bodies that are contained within the human body. It’s always a pleasure to do this.

For the next seven days I will do my best to try and describe each of these energy bodies for you. Please keep in mind that words are crude when discussing things like this, so I shall call this an introduction, and the rest can be learned intuitively.

Most folks already know that everything needs balance. With Black there is white, with good there is evil, with love there is hate, with order there is chaos. All of these things compile the known universe, and we as life force, are able to perceive. They call us life, though we are much more than just living. To think of this life as an acronym, it could be stated:

Layered – Intelligence –Fundamental -Energy.

As said by Robert Monroe. Are there layers to humans? Absolutely, anyone who tells you different has never experienced a human female during the menstrual cycle.

Are we Intelligent? Some folks maybe more than others, but intelligence is defined by the dictionary as simply this:

- knowledge of an event, circumstance, etc., received or imparted; news; information.

This being said, I believe a insect may be deemed intelligent, so I think humans maaaaayy qualify.

Are we fundamental? Yes we are, we are, at the core of all our cells, simply start dust, the most fundamental pieces of our universe.

Are we energy? Sit down, and relax, while watching three year old boys play. Then tell me that’s not energy. Scientifically its different of course, but no need for that at the moment.

What we will start with, is the energy centers of the body, for first to know how a thing works, one must understand the thing. At this point we will be speaking strictly of the human energy body, because god knows that no one wants to take biology over again, and if you do there has to be a college out just begging for you =)

What we will start with is the first energy center and work our way up. I will supply visual stimuli in order to arrange your focus around the vibration, Though for the next 7 days I will start slowly to introduce new concepts, and if you have questions, by all means ask. This is a starting image as to what we are looking into:

One: Survival Mineral: Ruby Color: Red
(This is one interpretation of a substance, for which there are endless descriptions)

This center is for those of like mind, about survival and guest of life. This center only acknowledges truth, and destroys darkness whenever possible. The way this is wired to the control centers of our body, allows for this center to be able to effectively over ride, that which we know to be right and good and true, to acknowledge something else.

This center also allows us to feel positive energies, so raw, that it is uncontainable. It makes it so we must choose to filter these emotions if we wish to utilize them for knowledge, and understanding. This center also knows little control of itself, and does not like restraint. This is our evolving mind, the one that still resides isolated behind the wall of time we have between our flourishing, and the time of our creation.

This is the piece that mother earth calls to from time to time. Whether you are standing in nature, or partaking in nature, this is the center that can resonate warmth through your whole body, Though it also has the same ability with the cold. For every good there must be an evil right? There is an order and a balance to all things.

Physically, this center controls the legs and most of the lower body. Fidgety legs, pain in the knees, ankle pains, foot problems, usually can be traced back to a blockage of some sort, dealing with this center.

A great visual metaphor for this center, is the Tree. This center’s corresponding color is Red (Ruby), and this is the picture: