From Bulge To Bikini

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2010-07-13T08:13:00.002-05:00

Check out my new website (in progress) at kellitravels.com

NEW BLOG & BIG NEWS

2010-07-11T23:11:00.000-05:00

Check out my NEW BLOG where I share some exciting news!

Weigh In

2010-07-08T19:36:00.000-05:00

I haven't posted a weigh-in in quite some time...well I haven't actually been posting anything at all lately, so I thought I would give you an update! I finally got my post wisdom teeth removal ice cream weight off, and was at 172.6 this morning. I am pretty happy about that considering the crazy & stressful last few weeks we have had!

I have been trying to create my new blog, and I am using a self hosted website this time...and it is much more complicated than I thought! So I have been spending too much time trying to figure it all out so that it is ready soon! Sorry that I have neglected this site lately!

Good News

2010-06-30T18:45:00.002-05:00

We got some great news today, so I am in a super mood! Life is about to get so much better and I'm about to have much more time to focus on my diet and exercise. That being said, this news will make dieting and exercise nearly impossible for the next 3 weeks or so. But I will be able to hit it hard in about a month and get back on track! Who knows...maybe I'll finally do P90X??? I have a Dr.'s appointment tomorrow so I'm going to talk to him about the HCG diet while I'm there. If he approves, I will probably be starting that sometime in the next few weeks as well.

So, I will be sharing my good news with my blogging buddies probably late next week...so stay tuned. It will also coincide with my new blog. Which means I need to get to building a new website!!! Is everybody getting excited for the Holiday weekend? Any big plans? I am going to go see my family in MO and am super excited!

Long Time No Post

2010-06-29T22:05:00.000-05:00

I am still here...just haven't been on the internet much to speak of the last several days. Lots of craziness going on in our lives right now which means no time for blogging, and not the worlds best diet! I will explain more later...but I have to go to bed because we have not had more than 4 hours of sleep since last Thursday night and I am miserable! Hang in there with me...I swear I will be a good blogger again when life gets back to normal a bit!

Ashamed

2010-06-24T22:36:00.000-05:00

I am so ashamed of myself tonight! I overate to the point of complete misery for the first time in a long, long time. Don't get me wrong, I overeat from time to time (try very hard not to). But tonight it was to the point where I just want to throw up. I don't know why I do that...it is the worst feeling ever! And I probably haven't done this in over a year. But we went to Carrabba's with some friends for a birthday, and I just ate, and ate, and ate until it was painful! So dumb and counterproductive! I am very disappointed in myself! I suppose it was a good reminder of why I don't do that though! To amke mattes worse, we didn't eat until 9:00. I typically eat dinner BY 6:00. I think it was a combination of my mouth hurting so bad I just want to cry, having a pretty crappy work week, and saying the hell with it cause I have ate like shit all week. I have to snap back into reality though! We have eaten out way too much this week and I have just made poor food choices all around. Tomorrow...back to normal portions and lower calories! I will probably gain 5 pounds over night just because of my stupidity...and that ain't gonna cut it!

Mouth Update

2010-06-22T20:31:00.000-05:00

I forgot to mention...my mouth is randomly killing me today! It's been a week now since I got my wisdom teeth removed, and I think today is the worst pain yet! I'm still eating soft foods mostly and I'm getting really burned out on the limited diet. OK, that's my complaining for the day...I feel like my mouth might explode!

Dr.'s Appointment

2010-06-22T19:32:00.000-05:00

So I scheduled an appointment with my Dr. to discuss the HCG diet. He couldn't get me in until July 1st though...bummer! I know it isn't the 'right' way to lose weight...but as long as it's safe...I don't care! Phentermine wasn't the most popular choice either...but it got me a great start and I have maintained that weight loss for nearly 5 months now. I am a sucky dieter and I want the quick fix. There...I said it! If my doc says it is dangerous in any way, I won't do it...but I'm hoping he says it's safe. I actually talked to my mother in law about it last night because she is a nurse...and she was about to start it too...how ironic!!! One of the Dr.'s at her hospital has just started offering it to his patients and are already seeing great results. He is a trusted family doctor too, so that's interesting to know.

I DO want to get to a healthy lifestyle where I eat better and most of all work out regularly! I WILL get there, but I really feel like it will be much easier to get there once the weight is gone. OK...that's my story & I'm stickin to it!

P.S. I have been working on my new blog a lot lately...hence the lack of effort on this one. I am really excited about it and I think you will all find it very interesting. Stay tuned for more details to come! :)

HCG

2010-06-17T22:36:00.000-05:00

Has anybody heard of the HCG diet? I heard about it for the first time tonight. A girl I know has lost 60 pounds on it so far and she was telling me stories of her family and friends that have done the same. Most people lose an average of a pound a day while on it. Now I realize it's not the smartest way to lose weight...but I'm wondering if it's worth it to just get the weight off and then work towards eating right and exercising to maintain. If it were to work for me...I could be at my goal weight in like 6 weeks! I'm still reading about it and have some of Skyler's female nurse friends checking into it for me. But let me know what you think if you've heard about it.

Like any 'fad' type diet, I worry about gaining the weight back after I get off of it because there's no way it's a long term lifestyle. However I have lost my first 50 pounds with the help of Phentermine, and I have been able to maintain it for several months now. Like I said, I'm thinking if after I get the weight off I can pick up the exercise again to help with maintaining. OK, these are my thoughts so far...I'm interested to see what you think!

Sick of Ice Cream

2010-06-17T12:24:00.000-05:00

Yep, I am really sick of sweets! I had a milkshake for lunch yesterday, dinner yesterday, and ice cream for lunch today. I don't even like sweets that well to begin with, and I'm definitely ready for some real food! So much for losing weight...I'm just hoping I don't gain with all this crap I'm eating because it's my only option. I'm still feeling pretty good today though! I guess I got pretty lucky and don't have much pain. I would call it more of a sore or tenderness. It kind of feels like I just have a bruise on my jaw.

We rented a couple of movies at Red Box this morning so I'm just gonna take it easy again today because my pain meds make me really groggy. But I'm thinking I will work on some stuff around the house the next few days since I feel up to it. Hope everybody's having a good day!

Feelin Good!

2010-06-16T20:18:00.000-05:00

I'm so amazed and thankful! This isn't nearly as bad as I was anticipating! I have been nauseas a bit off and on, but that has really been it. I napped for about an hour, but have felt pretty normal all day. I'm craving a hamburger & French fries & Mexican food, but I've stuck with a milkshake for lunch and now I'm eating one for dinner. I'm so excited that I don't feel awful and can just enjoy a relaxing 4 1/2 days off of work while I recoup! All that worrying for nothing!!!

Wisdom Teeth

2010-06-15T22:03:00.000-05:00

I probably won't be posting for a few days because I am getting my wisdom teeth removed tomorrow afternoon. YIKES!!! I am so scared and really don't want to do it. But I've been putting it off for over a year now, so I decided to just schedule an appointment and get it over with! I am pretty much freaking out though. My mom is coming down to take care of me for the day because Skyler has to work. I always seem to want my mommy when I don't feel good anyways. So wish me luck! The one good thing that should come from it is that I expect that I will lose some weight with not being able to eat for a couple of days and all.

Float Trip & Camping Weekend

2010-06-14T22:13:00.000-05:00

Oh what a weekend that we had! It was fun and definitely quite the interesting experience...

So we have a great river only about 15 minutes away; but the group we went with planned this float trip on a different river. We were originally told it was an hour away. When we showed up to meet everybody to caravan there, we were told that it is more like an hour and a half. 3 hours later, we arrived at our "camp site" a.k.a. a field with no running water or electricity or fire-pits.

Now don't get me wrong...I enjoy camping (ish)...but I'm just not much of a 'roughing it' kind of girl; especially for longer than one night...so 2 nights was a bit excessive. Skyler and I were actually the only two from the entire group of 9 that stayed until Sunday morning! One of the couples left as soon as we got off of the river Saturday night. Then one of the girl's peaced out at about 11:00 after she tried to sleep in her hot, muggy tent with a sunburn. At 3:00am one of the other couples and the other 2 girls packed up and headed home because they weren't sleeping anyway. It was so stinkin hot at humid and we all felt completely filthy that we were pretty much over it by that point. Sky and I stuck it out until 6:00am Sunday just because we didn't want to risk driving home on windy roads that we were unfamiliar with in the middle of the night. But as soon as the sun came out we hit the road!

The canoe trip was pretty fun and relaxing. The river was super muddy though because of the rain earlier in the week so my new swimsuit (that was half white) is now brown. We laughed a lot though and only tipped once. We had a 3 canoe pile-up because we floated the entire trip all connected. It worked great until we all panicked when we were headed for a stump in the water. Some of us decided to let go and some decided to hang on, so the indecisiveness caused a wreck! It was pretty funny...but I am still finding new bruises all down the right side of my body where I was smashed between two canoes.

I actually didn't eat or drink bad this weekend at all. The only downfall was that I ate late both nights. I was very good about watching my portions though, and really wasn't that hungry (I took my diet pill both days). I drank a few beers Friday night, but didn't drink at all on Saturday. Did I mention that the bus that was supposed to come get us and take us to the river didn't happen so we had to drive there? Yeah...so I was the DD and didn't drink that day because I wasn't really in the mood to anyways. My worst eating was actually yesterday, and that was just because we were exhausted and ate out when we got home. But all-in-all, it was a successful weekend in diet land considering the circumstances!

I feel like I've spent this whole post bitching about the negatives of the weekend. We seriously did have a blast...and these stories are just funny more than anything. We will definitely be planning next years trip much differently though. It will be nearby at a real camp site with water and we will stay for one night. After the float trip we will be coming home to the air conditioning and a shower! We had a great time with some great friends and made some memories that I'm sure we will be talking about for years!

New Lowest Weight

2010-06-11T10:48:00.000-05:00

I did hit a new number today! I was really hoping to see 172, but I gave in and ate 2 pieces of cheese last night...so it didn't go quite that low. I did get to 173.2 though...so I'm happy. It's a new low number for me, which is a step in the right direction...right?! I am so excited for our camping and float trip! It will be a blast!

I have to go shopping to get a few things for the weekend, and while I'm out I'm going to buy a couple of things for my weight loss to begin using next week. I have read 2 or 3 blogs this week that swear by the 30 Day Shred video, so I think I'm gonna give it a whirl. I really want to do P90X some day and am disappointed that I haven't yet. But it just doesn't fit into my crazy life right now. But I do believe the 20 minute 30 Day Shred video will fit in perfectly (if I just make it). The only thing is that Jillian Michaels drives me nuts, but so does Tony Horton, so I guess I'll deal with it. I am also going to get the heart rate monitor that Dacon suggested at Target. I have been wanting to get one and have put it off because I didn't know what to get. I think it will help to keep me motivated on my outside runs and give me number goals to go by.

This will be my last post till Sunday or Monday. I hope everybody has a great weekend! Hopefully I won't gain too much weight back, but I'm not counting on it...we're going to party it up!!!

What a Crappy Week!

2010-06-10T18:38:00.000-05:00

Wow this week has been stressful times 10! We got another offer on our house and negotiated back and forth and finally came to an agreement...but they backed out today before they signed the final papers. They wanted us to give even more than we already had agreed to, and we just had to draw the line somewhere. I have a splitting headache I'm so beyond frustrated and exhausted! So now we're back at square one...again!

I stuck to my Fruit & Veggie cleanse today...kinda. It was more like I just didn't eat today. Didn't plan for that, but I'm just too stressed and overwhelmed to eat. I had a couple of cherry tomatoes and grapes, but that's been about it. When I got home Sky wanted to go to pizza and I was about to give in. I had even gotten undressed to change and I stepped on the scale first and it appears that I will hit a new number tomorrow if I stick to my guns tonight. So I put my PJ's on and plan to go to bed early to avoid all the temptations of pizza and ice cream running through my head!

I know this is a lame way to lose weight...but I'll take whatever I can get right now. Especially when it comes to being in a bikini in 2 days! I know I will gain it all back this weekend too by drinking too much beer, but what do you do?! I have found though that once I see a number on the scale, it seems easier to hit it again...so that's a plus. I'll hopefully find a new weight on that scale in the morning and then hopefully get back to it again next week.

Oh long weekend...thank you for finally getting here!!!

Fruit & Veggie Fast Tomorrow

2010-06-09T18:30:00.000-05:00

I MUST do a fruit and veggie fast tomorrow. I actually really want to...it kind of hits the spot from time to time. And I really need to drop a couple of pounds overnight, since I just keep maintaining and not losing. I figured I would post it on here to keep myself honest!

Float Trip Prep Week

2010-06-07T19:19:00.000-05:00

OK people...we are going on our big camping and float trip this weekend so I need to get serious! I have to wear my new bikini in front of a lot of people! I'm thinking if I could see a new number on the scale by Friday...even just 172...I will be more encouraged to not F it up completely over the weekend with an abundance of beer, hot dogs, & s'mores! Time to focus and make smart choices! Here's to a successful week in weight loss land...

Longest Run to Date

2010-06-05T23:20:00.000-05:00

As I promised Skyler, I have started running outside with him. We went Thursday and I jogged about 3/4 of a mile of the 2.5 miles. I walked the rest, and was pretty proud of myself. I had mixed feelings on running outside. I really enjoyed the scenery much more than what I get on the treadmill, but I really struggled with keeping my pace. I am a numbers girl, so it really helps me on the treadmill to have a set pace and just count down the time. It was also extremely hot when we ran on Thursday because we went out at 5:30. So between the beaming sun, my first time running outside, and a varied pace...I wasn't sure I was sold on outside runs.

I went out last night for a girls night to a Japanese restaurant and then to watch Sex and the City 2. So I didn't run, but we had a blast! And I actually ate pretty healthy at the restaurant. I ordered sushi first, which is low calorie. Then I ordered the steamed rice instead of fried and shared my entree with one of the other girls. Even after sharing I only ate about half of my meal and brought the rest home for Sky.

I was actually looking forward to running tonight. Sky got off of work at 7:30 and we changed and headed out. It was so much nicer to run later in the evening once it wasn't so stinkin hot! Skyler lead us tonight and set the pace which helped tremendously. I also worked on my posture tonight which felt a million times better (I have a terrible posture and Sky pointed out on Thursday that it was even more exaggerated when I ran).

The first 5 minutes sucked, like they always seem to. Then I started feeling pretty good and the next 10 minutes went by so quickly, which was way better than the treadmill. Then the last 5 minutes kinda started hurting. So I ran for 20 minutes straight tonight...5 minutes longer than what I have done previously!!! I was pretty stoked. We did the same route again, which is just shy of 2.5 miles. I walked for the first couple of minutes to warm up then jogged 20 minutes, walked 10, jogged 2, then walked the last 2 or 3 minutes. My legs are so sore! But I am so proud of myself. It ended up being 2.5 miles in about 38 minutes, not very fast, but definitely better than sitting my ass on the couch all night! And to make it even better, I skipped dinner because I wasn't hungry and didn't drink the Corona I was craving...so maybe the scale will head back in the right direction???

I felt really good tonight, like "man, I'm kind of enjoying this" so I hope that feeling sticks around. I really, really need and want to get into the 150's by August. I won't make my goal of 140 by then, but really hope I can get to the 150's and into my size 10's again (I'm 5'7"). I am so freakin sick of my clothes. I have 2 pairs of shorts that fit right now...not fun when it's 90+ degrees out and I have to wear jeans because my shorts are both dirty. And I still refuse to buy new clothes until I hit my goal. I don't want to just waste my money on something that hopefully won't fit for long.

I have salad makin's and grilled chicken and baked potatoes in the house, so I plan to eat healthy all day tomorrow. My mom came down tonight and we're going to lay by the pool after church tomorrow, so it is shaping up to be another good weekend! Oh...and I also made it up and back from MO today. I spent a couple of hours working on the garage again, and made descent progress. Hope everybody else is having a great weekend!

PS: I would love to hear any tips for helping to keep a steady pace when running outside. It seems like when a good song comes on my iPhone I speed up, and then quickly wear out! :)

Bought a Bikini

2010-06-01T18:19:00.001-05:00

This weekend was so great! It was just what Sky and I needed...a chance to have fun for a change! We got our work out of the way Friday night and Saturday. We had to go to MO to clean out our garage and meet with a realtor. One more hard day and the garage will be completely organized...finally! And we are listing the house with a realtor, so hopefully it will sell soon.

We didn't work out on Saturday, but cleaning the garage in the heat and lifting boxes all day was work enough! We got a couple of chores out of the way Sunday morning, then lounged by the pool and cooked out with some friends. On Monday morning we got up and played 9 holes of golf. We walked the course, so that was a good 2 1/2 hours worth of a mild work out in the heat. Then we spent the rest of the day Monday lounging by the pool and watching a movie! This weekend was so great!!! I just wish it could have lasted longer!

My downfall this weekend was my food choices! I'm back to my old game of working all week to get my weight down to 173, then eat like shit all weekend and gain it back. Such a waste of time and so disappointing! I don't know what it's going to take to get my act in gear anymore!

I did buy a bikini this weekend...and actually wore it! Not that I should have! I am definitely still too big for a bikini. Sky was giving me a hard time because he is sick of me wearing my old lady full pieces so he pretty much forced me to buy one. :) It is actually really cute and I don't look too awful in it. It is one with thicker sides (like 2-3 inches) and comes up a bit higher to cover more of my gut. I am contemplating just wearing it around the house at night just to remind myself why it's not worth eating like crap!

I really wish I could get a boost of motivation that I had from August through January to get the rest of this weight off! I know exactly why I'm not losing weight, and I don't seem to consistently be doing anything about it! Ugh! Why couldn't I have just been born with a killer metabolism???

Supportive Husband

2010-05-27T19:04:00.000-05:00

Sooo...we have a float trip coming up in two weeks...

I was really hoping to be bikini ready by then...not gonna happen. I'm just hoping I can drop a few more pounds and look not so terrible in front of everybody. I haven't done as good this week as I did last, but have still been maintaining around 175. Gosh I just know if I could make myself get into the 160's I will be on fire again!

The good news is that Skyler is finally back on the supportive wagon. He is super tall and linky, so he can eat whatever he wants. Because of this, he actually struggles with eating healthy too. He has started running again this week though and keeps asking me to go with him. I told him I will definitely start working out with him this weekend. It would be nice if we could both be motivated at the same time. It would make life so much easier!

Sisters Weekend

2010-05-24T20:08:00.000-05:00

I had a GREAT weekend! My sister's came down and we had a blast! We got to do everything we had planned...which never happens!

I took off of work Friday afternoon so when they got here we went to lunch and then got pedi's together. Then we went grocery shopping and bought tons of fruits and veggies!

We slept in on Saturday which felt oh-so-good, then got around and went shopping all day! I bought some new earrings and flip flops and the girls both got really cute swim suits. We came back to the house Saturday night worn out so we hit the hot tub and relaxed!

After we slept in again on Sunday, we laid out by the pool all afternoon until they had to leave. It was such a beautiful day...felt like the first true "summer day". I even got a little sun burned!

We didn't eat super healthy this weekend, but were very strategic about when we ate our unhealthy meals. We made sure to have our big meals at like 3:00 each day, and then in the evenings we just munched on veggies and fruit that we cut up Friday night. I didn't even drink alcohol this weekend either! The only thing we didn't do was exercise; however, we walked around the outdoor mall all day Saturday!

I gained a couple of pounds back this weekend, but nothing like I have been doing. So it wasn't a complete success, but at least partial. I can't wait to get to the 160's...hopefully this week or next! Here goes another week of struggles and hopefully successes!

NEW Weight!!!

2010-05-20T22:26:00.000-05:00

Yep! It's True! I officially hit a new number on the scale for the first time in over 3 months!!! 173.8! I got down to 174 point something this winter, but I've finally broken that boundary! I think it's finally clicking with me again...I have just had an easier time dealing with my struggles this week! I just have to stay focused and keep it going. I'm pretty motivated now though...so I think I'm back on track again! Thank God! Swim suit season is knocking on the door!

So here's what I have been doing the last few months that I have to avoid:
Monday's I weigh in after a less than perfect weekend and am disappointed in myself so I decide, this is the week...I'm gonna get back on track. I eat good Monday, Tuesday, & Wednesday. By Thursday my weight is back down again. I feel proud, and cocky, and like I deserve a break. Usually by Thursday I am tired so I treat myself to a less than ideal dinner. Then Friday rolls around. My weight is still in line (meaning not as high as it was on Monday). I go to my usual lunch at Abuelo's, then come home after a long week and have a couple of beers, and eat whatever the hell I feel like. Then it's the weekend. So Saturday & Sunday I have an F-it attitude and eat/drink what I want. I of course avoid the scale on those days. By the time Monday rolls back around, I'm ashamed and step on the scale to see the damage. And so the cycle continues! Not this week though!!!

I haven't beaten myself up over it too much because I was still maintaining in the high 170's to low 180's. But I was becoming discouraged because I knew I still had plenty of weight to lose. This week, it somehow clicked and I beat that stupid number and I feel pretty empowered.

Earlier this week I read Annie's post about being honest with herself, and it really struck a chord with me. I have known for the past 3 months what my problem was. I know why I haven't been losing weight. I spend my weeks just doing enough to maintain. I haven't been doing what it takes to lose. So it's not really fair for me to bitch about not losing weight, when I know why I'm not. In all fairness, I was ok with a stand still for a while. I was tired of dieting, and it felt good to just not think about it constantly. But I have been feeling pretty antsy to get back at it the last few weeks, and I really just needed that push to get me motivated again.

I really think/hope that seeing a new pound was just what I needed. I'm a bit nervous because my sister's are coming down for the weekend which usually means junk food and wine (for the two of us that are over 21). But I think we will be good this time! Laura has been losing weight too and also hit a new number this morning, so we both have tons of motivation to not slip up. We are going to go to a couple of restaurants while they are here, but we have already decided it will be for lunches and we will SHARE so that we don't over-indulge. And like I've mentioned before, she is a work-out-aholic so she can't wait to have me limping around in pain!

It is going to be very difficult (if not impossible) to hit my goal weight of 140 by August, but I'm going to try my darndest. I can at least get really close if I stay focused and get back to making smarter choices. I haven't been counting calories this week, just being smart. I think I'm gonna go with that for a while and see if it can keep working. Counting calories always helps to keep me honest, but it also just pisses me off because it takes so much time. Wish me luck! I need this to be the time I get back on the diet wagon until I reach my goal!

Family Fun Weekend

2010-05-17T19:37:00.000-05:00

I have been the world's worst blogger lately! I don't write regularly anymore...and I haven't even been doing anything write-worthy. So I will try to get better...but I'm just still in a rut. Enough of that nonsense...

We had a fantastic (but busy) weekend. We went to both of our mom's houses in Missouri to celebrate mother's day a week late. I actually didn't eat too awful...considering. I even skipped the apple crisp and used a small plate for my dinner so I couldn't load it down. I didn't work out any, but I see that changing in my near future. My sister's are coming down this weekend for a girls weekend...and Laura is a freakin hoss! She does crossfit and competes in power lifting, so she will kick my ass. She is going to run outside with me, which I have really been wanting to try. And she wants to try some of my P90X videos.

I'm still fighting to get my motivation back; every day...but it's still slow goin. Don't give up on me...I'll figure it out someday!

Just Feeling Down

2010-05-13T19:07:00.000-05:00

I'm still here and reading your blogs...just haven't been keeping up with my writing. I've just been so down lately. With the whole house thing, and just feeling overwhelmed, and then some other news that wasn't what I wanted to hear...I just can't seem to pick myself up! The good news is that I HAVE been eating healthy and my weight is on the decline (slowly, but steadily). I am hoping to see a new number by next week, which will probably put me in a good mood again. For dinner tonight I made spaghetti with spaghetti squash instead of pasta...and I am not a fan. I liked the squash on its own...but don't like it as a pasta substitute. I ate it though because it was like no calories and was filling. I can't wait to see the look on Sky's face when he eats dinner after he gets home. He will most likely be making a trip to McDonalds! haha!

I have been doing some mild exercise. Still not P90X, but at least a little bit here and there. We have a super busy weekend ahead of us. We are driving to MO to do mother's day since we didn't get to go last weekend. So we will be at my mom's on Saturday and Sky's mom's on Sunday. Sounds pretty exhausting, but should be fun at least. Well, it's only 7:00, but I think I'm about to go to bed! I'm completely exhausted, and just need to get some rest so I can turn this frown upside down (yes...I am a nerd!).

Making a Come-Back

2010-05-10T20:17:00.000-05:00

Yep! It's true...I'm making a come-back. I didn't post this weekend because I didn't want to make anymore promises that I wouldn't follow through with. So rather than doing that, I acted first and will now update you on my gradual progress. Not much to write home about yet, but I'll take gradual progress over my recent regression any day!

FITNESS
I ran on Saturday for 15 minutes, 1.38 miles straight at 5.5 speed on the treadmill!!! It's been a while since I ran last; and I have only gone for 15 minutes a few times. So not too shabby for being a bit rusty! When I went to the gym I was just hoping to run for 5 minutes with a 3 minute walk, 3 times. When I hit the 5 minute mark I was just starting to get into my groove and still feeling ok so I decided to go to 8. Still felt good at 8 so thought I would keep going to 10 minutes. Once I hit 10 I still felt like I had more in me so I committed myself to do 15 minutes. I pretty much thought I was going to die from 12 minutes on, but I kept pushing myself to make it happen. It always amazes me what a total body workout running is. I was sore everywhere the next day! I am proud of myself for getting back to the gym! I really want to get to where I can run a 5K at 6mph, or 30 minutes. I know that is not very fast. But for me, I will be more than thrilled if I can do that once a week.

Sky & I were going to play golf tonight, but we are in a Tornado Watch and it is way too windy, so that didn't pan out. We will either play tomorrow, or I will run again. Depends on the weather I suppose.

FOOD
I ate like shit this weekend, and felt very gross and unfulfilled from it! Two different times I thought to myself "Why did I do this?!", "It wasn't worth it!". So after my McDonald's lunch on Sunday I decided to stop that crap and I finished the day out good and ate pretty good today. I am working on a meal plan and grocery list to go shopping tomorrow and get real food back in the house. We did a great job of cleaning out the freezer and pantry...but now there is nothing to eat!

Moving in the Right Direction
Like I said...I didn't make any drastic changes yet; but I did take a couple of steps in the right direction, and feel pretty good about it. I was feeling down last week and this weekend after we found out that the lady backed out on the house, so I sulked for a few days. But now I'm re-focusing again I think. I even told Skyler no when he suggested ice cream tonight! :) I just pray that the fire lights back under my rear again soon and I start doing what it takes to see the results I want to see. Here's to a positive week with a good attitude!