A Nubian Me

Soooooo.... where have I been?

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Mon, 07 Sep 2009 23:37:00 +0000

I finally got the meditation program that I have been wanting for lets say.... a year now? The owner is a very helpful person (Morry Zelchovitch) who gave me the program for free! Now... I didnt want to say all of that but I just wanted to show you how much of a caring and personable individual he is. Again the name of the program is called Quantum Mind Power. He really seems to care about every individual that uses his product. So, lately I have been keeping a separate private blog about my progress so far. I'll make the product available to the public after Im about 3 months into the program. Also have more hair updates coming up so, check back in for them!

-Peace

My Makeover by yours truly!

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Thu, 06 Aug 2009 10:27:00 +0000

This is a before and After picture of myself. Whoa, Huge Difference!!! LMAO But this is just a symbolism of my progress so fare with makeup.... no schooling. I am

learning

so much! and am

soooo dedicated to it. I wanted to do something a bit more natural and less drastic than what I normally do, to challenge myself.... I would say it came out pretty good! A bronze goddess look or golden queen, or whatever lol I just know that gold looks great on darker skin. You could use this look for a wedding IMO... You definitely have to pack on the m

akeup when your taking a pic with the camera, because it doesn't even look like I had on alot of makeup.... which I did. It looks great and I am very pleased with mah progress!!! I thank god that the after pic came out so well because I was

worried about the camera... It has been disapponting me lately, but no problems here! These other pics, my inspiration for my eye colors, was the fabric of my shirt shown below. Hope u like!

My Version of The Single Ladies Dance.... with FACIALS

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Wed, 22 Jul 2009 20:55:00 +0000

A New Look...

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Wed, 22 Jul 2009 11:32:00 +0000

I thought my blog needed a new look.... Got tired of the old look ;) Well a few quick updates, I graduated college, looking for a job and it aint easy! Hair update, definitely got longer but right now I have kinky twists... Definitely diggin em. Camera situation is a bit shaky right now, but i'll have some pics up in no time :) Been selling stuff on ebay, that has been going good, but I'm trying to find out what to sell next lol... I used the money from the last sale to buy some makeup supplies, because from aside from my career in accounting, I will be doing makeup.... school or no school. So, just trying to get a makeup kit in order. Its so expensive tho!!! Especially finding decent foundation.... yikes... Not to much of a fan of MAC. Especially the overpriced eyeshadows.... but any who, thats just the accountant in me... looking for a cheap high quality alternative.... For example, LA COLORS are cheap (2.99 for like 5 or six colors), and outlast any eyeshadow that I've ever used. Highly pigmented too... Every time I wear their eyeshadow, I get asked if Im wearing MAC... *smirk* No.... As far as foundations, I might go on the expensive side with that one.... Im interested in what Bobbi Brown has to offer.... but will continue to do my foundation shopping :) and compare some prices! I AM enjoying every bit of it tho :D PEACE for now!!!

RIP MJ :'(

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Sat, 27 Jun 2009 13:44:00 +0000

This is the saddest I have felt in a long time about a celebrity's death. Words can barely describe. He left us with alot of positive messages though... Healing the world, change begins within ourselves... His inspirational songs were AMAZINGLY inspirational, and yet he knew how to make us dance... I was looking at that video "they dont really care about us" I LOVE that song. He touched so many people in so many different ways... Sure he had controversy surrounding him, but you could never take away his impact. Whether he was guilty or innocent, I forgive him. I don't think he did those things... I think he just got taken advantage of on situations that just didnt look right. I know he's at peace now with God. He is a genius and also being so wildly popular for soooo long can indeed mess someone up mentally. Goodness it's just a huge shock... he was young. I know the WORLD feels it and his funeral is gonna be huge... I love you Michael, and you have inspired me as a dancer. I can relate to you somewhat... as far as being shy and misunderstood. I just wished you could have found happiness on earth despite it all.... It goes to show that money cannot bring you happiness. You had all the money you could have ever dreamt of and you still were unhappy. I know you are happy now. Just watch over us because your spirit will live in all of us... You brought us all together like no other... RIP Michael Jackson.

Some Hair Updates

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Mon, 01 Jun 2009 07:36:00 +0000

This is the result of a recent twistout

Alpha Flight, Digital Coffee, Quantum Mind Power Review

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Thu, 19 Mar 2009 01:36:00 +0000

Alpha Flight is a demo that Quantum Mind Power issues before you can try the whole program. I have one thing to say about it..... POW-ER-FUL.... yes indeed. If this is just a tip of the iceberg of what the program can do for you... I want it ASAP. The first few nights, I listened to it in my Ipod Touch through my schools Wifi connection and...I just did not understand it. My mind chatter was on steroids and my eyes were fluttering the first couple of nights I listened to Alpha Flight. So I was just confused. From my understanding, my brain had to adjust to the sound frequencies. It sounded like a helicopter. Really. So after the first few nights I was gonna give up... but I decided against it and kept on. Im not gonna quit. Nope. So, I continued to listen and screw what it SAYS it gonna do, because I had no clue. I SLEPT so well the next few nights, and I may not have been using it right, but my dreams were as clear as day. I would forget that I fell asleep and wake up the next morning asking myself when did I fall asleep? A few weeks passed by and my Ipod Touch wasnt picking up the wifi connection at my school for awhile, and I was just so upset because I felt like I was getting somewhere and now, losing out. So when I got the connection working again, I fell asleep again to it, woke up at 5am before I had to get up for class and played it again.... I KID YOU NOT.... I felt like my body was floating, and when it stopped, I felt myself descend back inside of myself (I guess an out of body experience? I dunno) then I had a strong urge just to sit up and SCREAM with all my might (sp?) for no reason. I really wanted to but my roommate was sleeping in her bed so, I really had to compose myself. Thats when I knew, that this stuff is powerful. I usually sleep normal (no sleep disorders) and have never been through any of this until Alpha Flight. The next few nights, I slept extremely well with alpha flight and have missed a couple of morning classes because I was sleeping so deeply. Missed my alarms... Im a light sleeper people. There was one time I actually used it after I got up at around 8am and was just gonna try to listen to it without going to sleep and... I felt so wired lol I could NOT got back to sleep. I was gonna take a morning nap before my 1 o'clock and I ended up staying up eyes wide open as if I had 3 cups of coffee and I watched Jerry Springer, The Steve Wilkos Show lol and whatever else until I had to get ready. So I did a lil research and tried to find out what Alpha Flight was supposed to do. This was NOT a "placebo effect" because I had absolutely no clue. This is what I found from the Quantum Mind Power Forum from Morry Zelchovitch

Alpha Flight can help...

* as a mood elevator
* to increase clarity
* to help center
* to increase relaxed alertness
* to increase a sense of well being & decreased pain
* to bring improvements in memory

Its even good for hangover & jet lag;) and terrific for a quick listen after
a hard day and before launching yourself into traffic:)

Look I didnt know that it was supposed to do all of those things, so this is my experience without any knowledge. So my experience may have been inconsistent with what was described, but then again, I was inconsistent with it. I do believe that with consistent listening over time, some, if not all of those things would be achieved. I just believe it is THAT powerful and that fast. I know this has an affect on the brain pattern and I will listen to the program consistently, when I purchase it. I listened to Digital Coffee, another demo, and it made me digitally exhausted lol but I only listened to it one time, so I think my brain also had to get used to it. I haven't used it since, but due to how powerful Alpha Flight is, I won't give up on it. This is my REAL life testimonial on the Quantum Mind Power demos. Here are some of the benefits of the Quantum Mind Power system and brainwave entrainment in general.

Some benefits BWE may bring include help with…

• Concentration
• Creativity
• Memory
• Relaxation
• Motivation
• Deeper self awareness
• Promoting long-term mental and emotional growth
• Clarity
• Stress
• Pain
• ADD/ADHD
• Learning
• Energy and vitality
• Inspiration
• Intuition and personal insight
• Focus and attention
• Problem-solving
• And much, much more…

Click here to hear Alpha Flight.

Just a random thought. Obama Obama and Conspiracy.

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Tue, 20 Jan 2009 01:23:00 +0000

This is just a random thought because my thoughts usually are... RANDOM. But I am so happy that Bush is GONE!!! Obama Obama Obama!! Im ready for him, and happy MLK Day by the way.... This inaugauration could not have come at a more perfect time! (Even though inaugurations usually fall around the same time) I just wanted to say, that people will say ANYTHING to get you to fear someone. Especially a black man! I have been reading the Bible alot lately. Ive read the book of James (which I like) and the book of Revelation that people refer to soooo much. Especially about Obama. I read that people are calling him the anti christ because of his great influence. He has been referred to as the "Messiah" and whatnot. I think its all silly by the way. But I had to do some research of my own to prove MY point. There is NOWHERE in the Book of Revelation that says that the anti-christ will appear humanlike, be a man in his 40's of Muslim descent. The Religion of Islam was not even in existence until hundreds of years later! I read that badboy just to see how much people truly fear this man as a leader of this country! People make up stuff thats just ridiculous. I am very much into conspiracy theory and whatnot and its something that grabs my attention, but also depresses me! I just realize that you have to do research on your OWN, whether you follow a religion, a belief, or whatever! Just do some research before you beleive this stuff! Some of it may be true, but you just have to know to yourself, before you beleive anyone, that you took action and researched yourself, what is being thrown at you. Yes I do beleive Obama is a Freemason, but do I beleive he is the Anti-Christ? NO. And Im just gonna end it here because that a whole different issue to speak about.

Holosync, Life Works, Ok Im Making a Decision.

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Mon, 19 Jan 2009 18:44:00 +0000

After testing out the samples of both Holosync and Life Flow I think I enjoyed the Holosync Demo better. I felt relaxed with the sounds of the rain and the binaural beats in the background. I even listened to it while I was walking down the street and I felt really calm. I just tuned out the talking and just listened the the sounds. I felt at peace for the time being. The LifeFlow Meditation CD was good also but it was just pure silence for about 10 minutes or 20 minutes repeating mantras over and over, and while I felt at peace when I opened my eyes, but, complete silence didnt really do much for me. I dont know if the actual CD's are like that, but I dont think I want to take the chance. Not to knock them, but I dont think its for me. So I had to do more research and I found another system for a much better price which claims to do a better job at a much cheaper price. I went through review after review after review and I did alot of research on it. I came across the free sample download and I used it for the first time last night. Well I must say that, that sample was very powerful. The basic system is $147 and I will definitely make that investment especially if its life changing. Night 1 was a bit weird for me... I had all sorts of vivid snippets of dreams... its hard for me to explain. I used it while I was about to go to sleep. But I KNOW that this product is special because the sounds are truly hypnotizing. This is not a hypnosis CD, but dammit, thats how I felt. Im gonna use it again in a few minutes and report back on my results. Its just a bit hard for me explain right now. But I'll have a better explanation when I write back again. I dont think I gave a good explanation of why exactly I am doing this. Ok. I do have big hopes and dreams of becoming successful. What does success mean to me? It means being happy, having a career you enjoy, having

the confidence to acheive these things, being worry free, and having the money and the means to do the things that I and my family will enjoy. I want to think more logically (not that I dont already... I said MORE) I am dominant on my right side of the brain, even though i love math and other things, but I am definitely right side dominant which is kinda rare. I want to be in a state of calmness regardless of what comes at me. Also I am an introvert. I LOVE being an introvert and I cant change that, but im shy on top of that so that makes it worse because it starts to hold me back from doing alot. But anywho, I am doing this to better myself, and live my life to its full potential. To help others, build better relationships and whatnot. I do enjoy helpng others become better people, but I have to work on myself first before I can help ANYBODY. I got my guards up against the world right now, and thats not helping ANYONE LOL

-Nubian

Holosync Review

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Wed, 14 Jan 2009 19:05:00 +0000

Ok so I listened to the demo. The first track was the Holosync demo most of which was bombarded with explanation of how the Holosync Technology works. Even though I wanted to have a full 20 minute demo, it was helpful because it gave me a better understanding about the whole program itself. The last seven and a half minutes of the track had the ACTUAL demo which was extremely relaxing... I felt good when I opened my eyes but I felt shortchanged... wasnt long enough... But hey, dont hate the player, hate the game. I understood why they did it that way. The second track of the CD had the testimonial section which seemed cool but at the same time it could have been easily made up by paid actors. Looking at the Holosync Reviews on You Tube by real people, I came to find that the results were actually the same... of course results vary, but they all seemed to be pleased with the program. My verdict is that I did enjoy the demo cd, but right now I cant afford the WHOLE program. $2500 seems pricey, but worth the investment if it works. But instead I will use the Lifeflow Meditation CD's which in total turns out to be $470 over the life of 10 months. They offer free cd's some of which I have already heard, and are pretty good and helpful. Gonna download their demo and listen to it. Im putting my investment into this program because it uses the Holosync technology and then some, and you see results in a shorter amount of time. The overall program is 10 months long compared to Centerpoint's Holosync CD which takes up to a couple of years. But I want something that will get the job done and have everlasting effects. I would just rather do it in a year rather than a couple of them.

-Nubian

I choose me...

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Wed, 14 Jan 2009 05:42:00 +0000

At the end of the day, no one will love me the way that I do. I choose me. This great mass of potential being overshadowed with doubt, negativity and fear... No More... No More.... No more will I be bound by the all or nothing expectations of others... This exhaustion slowly taking away from my true essence... the reality of my true self til my self is no longer mine... No longer true... I lost it.... but have reclaimed that once luminous soul.... looked within and caught a glimpse of a glow... just need the oxygen to make this flame grow... Im opening the door needing to feel a breeze... a breath of air... leave the door open... step outside and stand there long enough to realize there's a whole new world out there... Explore me... Explore Life... til that glow gets stronger.... turning into fire... Touchable... Breakable... No Longer...

IM READY..... NO TURNING BACK... FROM NOW ON I CHOOSE NO ONE ELSE..... BUT ME... LETS GET IT!

My sons father's hair

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Wed, 14 Jan 2009 05:30:00 +0000

So his hair is coming along nicely... Ive been maintaining them for a year now... They're growing nicely... This time around I used Fantasia Sparklelites Gel and Mango Lime Sproil for the scalp and dreads... His hair is locking (took awhile to), and he has had these in for a year so far. I love it to death and sometimes I wanna have sex with his hair when I look at it.... lmao Ooooh yeah!!!!! Luv it.

Heres a quick update

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Mon, 12 Jan 2009 13:44:00 +0000

This is October 2008

January 2009

Twists with Shea Butter ( New Staple) I rocked this for about 4 days. I also trimmed my hair in the same day.

This is a twistout fro, I rocked this for like a week moisturizing with Cantu Shea Butter.

My hair so far is making great progress and Im extremely happy. I'll post my regimen in another post.

Holosync, Bare Minerals, and a Camera!

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Sat, 10 Jan 2009 21:19:00 +0000

So, trying to figure out what I was going to write about in my blog today, there were two things that came to my surprise. One was that the Holosync Demo had arrived in the mail (Yes!) AND the other other was Bare Minerals that my mom got for me from Sephora. Talk about excitement! Well, for me anyways. She realized how serious I am gonna be taking this when I graduate, so she gave me a lil jump start. Lawwwd today I was indulging my brain in makeup. Schools, forums, websites etc,. I came across a few websites that were pretty informative about the business aspect and reality of becoming a makeup artist. So I have a small idea of what to expect before things happen. I also came across an online course thats pretty affordable. So just making preparations you know?? But anywho! Im gonna listen to that Holosync CD later on tonight when I can actually relax, and then, give my input about it. SOOOOO I tried the Bare Minerals. I looked at the video, then I applied. Afterward I thought, this is a load of CRAP because I dont see a difference. But I did some before and after photos and the proof is in the picture REALLY. Check it out. The first one is before, and the second one is after. I swear I only used a TAD bit of each like they do in the DVD. My skin looks WAY more even and natural. 2 thumbs up for me! It works beautifully. My sister has a camera now, another surprise! So hair updates are on the way!

Dedication to Make up

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Sat, 10 Jan 2009 01:50:00 +0000

Ok, so I first and foremost would like to thank Erin at Scandalous Beauty. With all the flip flopping that I have been doing with what I would like to do with my life, I finally came to the conclusion that I really want to pursue. I already said it, but now its more concrete. Im gonna get a job in accounting and go to cosmetology school for hair and makeup. Im gonna do it on the side and perfect my craft and see where it takes me. As far as hair, Im interested in styles yes, but more so maintaing the health of hair whether its relaxed or natural. So I have that business idea in mind, but, I'll brainstorm and let things marinate and present it here at a later date. I'll also be working with my best friend who started her fashion line called Popcorn Label Inc. She's definitely doing big things and I am absolutely proud. So, heres to goals, dreams and inspiration!

-Nubian

So meditation is on the menu for this year

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Tue, 06 Jan 2009 19:30:00 +0000

Ive been doing some research on some meditation and hypnosis. I want the best of the best. So I came across a new technology called Holosync. Holosync is a technology developed by Centerpointe Research Institute that is used to create certain sounds called binaural beats that trigger different brain waves such as the Alpha, Beta, Delta and Theta Brain waves. This way of meditation digs deep into the brain and can reprogram where it can have long term results. It gets to the root of the issue and you begin to confront past childhood issues that may hold you back from living life. This is a terrible explanation for it, but you can Google it if you would like more info. I have not heard a bad review about it except for when you are coping with these issues. Some have reported that they go into bouts of depression for a bit. But each section takes a long time to get through. One guy was on part two and he had been doing it for a year and some change. When i found this I thought hey perfect because I want the best out there..... its pricey though..... 2500 in total... So then I found something else that claims to be better than Holosync. Its called Life flow Meditation 2.0 It claims to be better, and for much cheaper. there are 10 cds for 47 bucks each. Total of 470 bucks. Now thats some thing I would be willing to invest in. They also give you alot of freebies and a demo. The have a forum that you can chat on, thats where I got my testimonials from... real live people. Those who have tried Holosync say that Lifeflow IS indeed better. They also give you some free meditation mp3's that target individual things that you may want to work on. So, I'll try those free mp3's out on my ipod touch I recently got for Christmas :) But Im gonna commit myself to meditation everyday as soon as I download....I'll even document it on here.

Things Im working on for 09

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Tue, 06 Jan 2009 15:22:00 +0000

So for 2009 I have another challenge that I did not mention and its the "Raise your credit score" challenge I have been indulging myself on creditboards.com and also have been reading this book pictured to the left. Its a pretty good book. I read 100 pages within 2 hours. Still have to finish. I have learned so much from each and am of course, still learning. I cant wait to see results. Key things that I have learned are 1. Send out letters of verification to Collection Agencies (High priority accounts) 2. Know what laws protect you as a consumer, and them as creditors 3. Get a secured credit card soon to revive my credit 4. Try to delete some things off of my credit report 5. Use only 30% of each credit card maximum to show creditors that you are responsible with credit 7. Never pay off collection accounts without negotiating. 8. Self Inquiries do NOT affect your credit score 9. Inquiries from outsiders do affect score 10. Try to reopen closed accounts. So I have alot im working on for this year. Im taking 21 credits my last semester and I hope and pray, I bust things out with just about all A's. I NEED to graduate with a minimum gpa of 3.0. Im still contemplating on grad school, but what i want to do, does not require grad school. After school, Im gonna get a job in accounting and also i want to go to cosmetology school learn how to do hair and makeup, I have dreams of giving people makeovers.... seriously. I would be content with doing that and helping others look their absolute best.... Thats my dream it came to me a little late but thats why I wholeheartedly wanna do. So Im working on it! Thats all for now... Peace!!!!! *the makeover pic is from www.terilynn.com not my own.

Hair Update...

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Mon, 05 Jan 2009 16:45:00 +0000

Still no pics!!! :( well look... its growng ok! LOL no but seriously it is. I have no camera right now... I gotta fix it :( Yesterday I dedicated the whole day almost to my hair. I washed it, deep conditioned it with LeKair's Cholesterol. After that I moisturized it with Cantu Shea Butter.... That stuff smells like heaven and it truly IS moisturizing. I then sectioned my hair into four sections detangled, moisturized and trimmed (dusted actually) each section one by one. I needed a trim because my hair kept getting those little knots at the end. SO after I trimmed tiny little sections and twisted it after I trimmed... My hair was still damp. I did that over the whole head and then I waited until each twist was dry. Then I took each twist out made them into smaller twists. I used 100% shea butter, i found lying around my house, before twisting each tiny section of hair. So the result? My hair feels gorgeous. Can hair feel gorgeous? HELL YEA it can! I shook my hair and it felt SUPER light. 100% shea butter is AMAZING! My hair doesn't feel oily, it feels super light... I LOVE IT. Ive heard about shea butter before and have used it on my relaxed hair, but didnt like the results... but my natural hair adores it. A new staple. So far, the products I use are Cantu Shea Butter Leave In, S curl spray and Gel, cheapie conditioners for cowashes, wide tooth comb, soft bristled brush, LeKairs Cholesterol, and now shea butter. Simple. Trying to keep it that way. Oh and Im on 3 challenges at LHCF this year, two of which are hair. Im shooting for APL length hair for December 2009. So far the back is touching my shoulder blade and the amd the rest in different areas to frame my face. Im also stepping it up on the growth aids and Im using MN. So I have been using that for the past week and will continue. But thats all for now!!!!! PEACE

More pics, during the first months of the cut

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Fri, 12 Dec 2008 13:01:00 +0000

Not gonna say much on this post, just gonna show some more pics of my TWA during the July-August months... I can definitely see a difference... But, you would just have to stay tuned for the newer pics...

Sorryy!!!!

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Fri, 12 Dec 2008 04:58:00 +0000

My goodness... I guess its been awhile hasn't it? LOL that was a nervous laugh by the way... I broke my own promise... HORRIBLE!!! but anywho, I have just finished the first half of my senior year and I did fairly well! glad to say! I will be graduating May 2009, no if's ands or buts about it! So thats exciting news... My hair has grown since, but unfortunately.... i broke my camera... but I do have pics on my camera phone, just have to add money to text them to the online album... but you will see how much my hair has grown. I have been rocking braids since October 5th to December 12th and its grew about an inch I would say. Shrinkage is a b--ch because it still looks like I have a TWA, but it turns into a banging fro when I blow it out :) Styles I have tried with my natural hair: Braidouts, Bantu Knots, Twistouts, and Wash and go's. My faves being the twistouts and the Bantu Knots. Things I have learned with my natural hair: Moisture is her best friend, and not combing while its dry, she looks more healthy when dyed black, and she loves the rain.... I might just give my fro a name... already referring to her as if she were a person, so why not? LOL I'll figure out a nice one for her within the next day lol... for now, peace out! (By the way, that pic was taken in September)

A New Earth

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Tue, 05 Aug 2008 13:33:00 +0000

I put my life on it, this has got to be the best book that I have ever read in my life. Just when I thought deep couldn't get any deeper, it did lol... Rather shallow of me? lol But anyway, this book has had me realizing things in myself that I just did not understand. I read a page this morning which described me to a tee! It was scary especially since this man Eckhart Tolle has never met me before. It was scary, but also an eye opener. A lot of things hit home, but there was one thing that I think was the key to my problems, which I read this morning on page 86: Whenever you feel superior or inferior to anyone, thats the ego in you. Page 86 is me completely. Those feelings of superiority or inferiority does not define who I am, but rather clouds my "true self". I will work on living in the present because the past can no longer affect me because it does not exist anymore and the future has yet to exist. So all the baggage and issues will be put behind me. I will work on it everyday. The feeling of needing more or wanting more is purely ego... I should just be happy in the now rather than wishing toward the future...I have been working on it since reading the book and will continue to do so.... I need a highlighter... Page 86 is as far as I got and I will continue to read, for every page is packed with knowledge and enlightenment.

Today is a new day....

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Tue, 22 Jul 2008 13:33:00 +0000

Yesterday was a drag for me, but today is a new day and there is nowhere etched in stone that says that today has to be the same. So today is way better. I am a little worried about my baby boy. It seems that he won't be the type of baby or boy that you can just spank and he will listen. He is a rough little one. He will cry for like 2.576 seconds and then he will just go back to doing what you originally spanked him for. I don't know whats up with my baby boy. The more I hit, the more he hits. I have to teach him otherwise. He is going to be the type of kid that needs to be put on punishment and to be spoken to. He is my first and only born, and he has my heart in a way that is hard to express in words. I want to teach him well. AAAAAH My baby boy... this is gonna be a tough one :) :(

Back to Hair...

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Mon, 21 Jul 2008 18:16:00 +0000

So, my hair is about 3 inches all over (stretched). I most definitely helped myself to my sister's ruler and measured. So as of right now, my hair is 3 inches long. I am hated by some for cutting my hair but, heeeey like I said, they'll get over it. They can buy their own Kleenex because i ain't supplying. We have some mad people, and many supportive, so the supportive to mad ratio is like 12:1. That's good enough for me. So I noticed, that I have been pampering myself more... Taking care of my skin, wanting my nails done more often, wearing unnecessary makeup (Mary Kay all the way... well almost) dammit i feel like I look my age now!!! LOL I get IDed a bit less and people think I'm at least 20 something (which I am) rather than 14. That gets a bit annoying after awhile. This mail lady refused to let me sign for certified mail (i think it was ) because she thought I was 14. When I told her my real age, she was floored. Why floored though? Sheesh. AAAAAnywho... i used the Lekair's cholesterol and my hair feels soooo good. I left it on for the night and washed it out in the morning. It usually doesn't work out well, but it did with my natural hair. I am coming to find that products that my natural hair likes, my permed hair HATED. My natural hair is way cheaper to maintain as well (as far as products go). I use V05 and Suave for my Wash and Go's and Lekair's for my deep conditioning. Infusium 21 Leave In is what I also use as well sometimes after my cheapie conditioner Wash n Go's. Anyway, thats all for now, Im tired.

So today....

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Mon, 21 Jul 2008 18:04:00 +0000

My son crapped ALL over me before I went to work. Yea ALL over my work pants. I guess he had a tummy ache hence, his crankiness. Yea then after that he started laughing at me, so yea... that was ummm.... embarrassing... yea. It wasn't regular crap... no... I think he vomited and it just came out the wrong way. Sorry for the graphic visuals, I just thought i'd share. Can you say d-sgusting? lol This is all apart of the mommy growing pains. Boy do I have an embarrassing story to tell him when he gets older! *insert evil mommy laugh here* But I am really worried because, he will not eat. he will drink and drink and drink... Eat fruit and chicken, but thats as far as his appetite goes without me having to MAKE him eat. So i was a little suprised at what came out. But anywho... Poor baby. I just hope he doesn't have another accident like that in school. Someone else will have the privilege of being embarrassed. I'll hear the story later. Stay tuned...

Ramble Ramble Ramble...

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Mon, 21 Jul 2008 17:50:00 +0000

This new haircut has me in a new state of mind. I am appreciating myself much more than before. Instead of the constant self criticsms, I give myself more slack. This comfort zone... I am trying to completely break free from... It requires effort on my part. What am I so afraid of? I Read this book called "Change your Thinking Change Your Life" by Brian Tracy. Its is a very empowering book. I recommend it to ANYONE. As I was reading, I just felt a surge of energy rush through me. I felt like my eyes were open wider than before. Its a WONDERFUL feeling. I'll carry it around with me for inspiration when I need it. I want to give it to my mother because she has been feeling really down lately, and ironically she recommended the book to me. I think she needs to tap on her inspirational resources again. I'll give it to her.