tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-67057807926324845562012-01-23T11:12:51.479-08:00andrew worthingtonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08035345198006667194noreply@blogger.comBlogger104125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6705780792632484556.post-68587493026629803152011-12-27T21:33:00.000-08:002011-12-28T09:25:22.010-08:002011-12-28T09:25:22.010-08:00<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">(i did an<a href="http://www.3ammagazine.com/3am/being-scott-mcclanahan/"> interview with scott mcclanahan @3:am mag</a>)<br /> <br /> now for my really stupid "books i read this year" post<br /> <br /> some of these were/are rereads<br /> <br /> im too lenient with my ratings!!!!!!!!!i want to be really mean like pitchfork......<br /> <br /> if they don't have a rating that means i put them off until i have more, not out of hate, but out of love....i dont like to cram<br /> <br /> i dont think i left anything out but i probably did<br /> <br /> have a good new year<br /> <br /> donald barthelme-sixty stories &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; 8.7<br /> michel houellebecq- "the possibility of an island" &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; 9.2<br /> thomas pynchon- "the crying of lot 49" &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; 8.1<br /> michel foucault-"madness" &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp;7.4<br /> ludwig wittgenstein-"tractus...." &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; <br /> keith gandal-"cleveland anonymous"<br /> iris murdoch-"a fairly honorable defeat" &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp;8.3 &nbsp; <br /> f.scott fitzgerald-"the great gatsby" &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; 8.2<br /> ernest hemingway-"the sun also rises" &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp;9.6<br /> poncho peligroso-"the romantic" &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp;8.6<br /> ernest hemingway-"a farewell to arms" &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp;9.5<br /> katherine anne porter-"pale horse, pale rider" &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp;8.2 &nbsp; <br /> william faulkner-"the sound and the fury" &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; 8.2<br /> anton checkhov-"selected stories" &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp;8.5<br /> sam pink-"person" &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp;9.3<br /> noah cicero-"best behavior" &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; 9.4<br /> steve roggenbuck-"download helvetica..." &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; 8.5<br /> william s. burroughs-"junky" &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp;7.9<br /> jack kerouac-"vanity of dulouz" &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; 6.8<br /> james payne-"austerity pleasures" &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; 8.9<br /> richard yates-eleven kinds of loneliness &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp;9.4<br /> jean-paul sartre-"the wall" &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp;9.4<br /> lorrie moore-"self-help" &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp;8.8<br /> michel houellebecq-"whatever" &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp;8.9<br /> robert f. williams- "negroes with guns" &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp;8.1<br /> roland barthes-"mourning diary" &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp;7.3<br /> norman mailer-"armies of the night" &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; 8.3<br /> keith gandal-"the gun and the pen" &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; 6.9 <br /> bradley sands-"work for megacorp..." &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp;8.5<br /> mike young-"we are all good..." &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; 8.4<br /> frederick barthelme-"moon deluxe" &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp;8.6<br /> david foster wallace-"infinite jest" &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp;9.1<br /> michael azzerad-"our band could be..." &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp;8.0<br /> elmore leonard-"mississippi blues" &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; 7.6<br /> robert coover-"universal baseball association" &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp;7.4<br /> dennis cooper-"frisk" &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp;8.9<br /> scott mcclanahan-"stories V!" &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; 9.5<br /> blake butler-"there is no year" &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp;9.0<br /> gilles deleuze-"anti-oedipus"<br /> franz kafka-"in the penal colony" &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; 9.2<br /> mark leidner-"the angel in the dream.." &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp;9.1<br /> manuel delanda-"war in the age of intelligent..." &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp;8.4<br /> david foster wallace-"consider the lobster" &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp;8.9<br /> cassandra and cody troyan-"big bill and the..." &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp;8.7<br /> e.t.a. hoffmann-"the sandman" &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; 9.4<br /> sigmund freud-"the uncanny" &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp;8.0<br /> herman melville-"typee" &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; 6.5<br /> deb olin unferth-"vacation" &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp;9.6<br /> herman melville-"redburn" &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; 7.8<br /> stephen tully dierks-"ganga lovers" &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp;8.9<br /> herman mevlille-"white jacket" &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp;6.2<br /> rick moody-"right livelihoods" &nbsp; &nbsp; <br /> san pink-"hurt others"<br /> mike bushnell-"traumahawk" &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; 9.0<br /> very beautful women (pangur ban party) &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp;9.0<br /> ben nadler-"harvitz, as to war" &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; 8.5<br /> herman melville-"moby dick" &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; 9.4<br /> john minichillo-"the snow whale" &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; 9.3<br /> blake butler-"nothing"<br /> deb olin unferth-"revolution"<br /> herman melville-"benito cereno" &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; 7.9<br /> herman melville-"bartelby the scrivener" &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp;9.5<br /> herman melville-"billy budd" &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp;6.4<br /> electric literature VOL.5 &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; 8.2<br /> hunter s. thompson-"hell's angels" &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp;8.7<br /> herman meville-"the encantadas" &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp;7.8<br /> herman melville-"battle pieces" &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; 7.3<br /> stephen king-"carrie" &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; 7.5<br /> "anti-story: an anthology of experimental fiction"<br /> jean rhys-"good morning, midnight" &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; 9.2<br /> marcel proust-"swann's way"<br /> manuel delanda-"a thousand years of nonlinear history"&nbsp;&nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; <br /> <br /> </div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6705780792632484556-6858749302662980315?l=fuckingbigthoughts.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div> <p><a href="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/QngZlp0GN9oF7rS63m826aEuqKA/0/da"><img src="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/QngZlp0GN9oF7rS63m826aEuqKA/0/di" border="0" ismap="true"></img></a><br/> <a href="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/QngZlp0GN9oF7rS63m826aEuqKA/1/da"><img src="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/QngZlp0GN9oF7rS63m826aEuqKA/1/di" border="0" ismap="true"></img></a></p><img src="http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/FuckingBigThoughts/~4/uRVc7yJE4wQ" height="1" width="1"/>andrew worthingtonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08035345198006667194noreply@blogger.com2http://fuckingbigthoughts.blogspot.com/2011/12/books-i-read-this-year-in-mostly.htmltag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6705780792632484556.post-19876611170545174772011-12-12T11:31:00.001-08:002011-12-12T11:31:21.670-08:002011-12-12T11:31:21.670-08:00<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on"><a href="http://www.everyday-genius.com/2011/12/andrew-worthington.html">everyday genius published a poem by me called "harry potter as a sex guide"</a></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6705780792632484556-1987661117054517477?l=fuckingbigthoughts.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div> <p><a href="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/dzges2T0ALHxcKNtGWdC1x_5r94/0/da"><img src="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/dzges2T0ALHxcKNtGWdC1x_5r94/0/di" 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src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6705780792632484556-525988108496698669?l=fuckingbigthoughts.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div> <p><a href="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/U5ZUSoLt2PKnksC6dirh7Krnams/0/da"><img src="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/U5ZUSoLt2PKnksC6dirh7Krnams/0/di" border="0" ismap="true"></img></a><br/> <a href="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/U5ZUSoLt2PKnksC6dirh7Krnams/1/da"><img src="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/U5ZUSoLt2PKnksC6dirh7Krnams/1/di" border="0" ismap="true"></img></a></p><img src="http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/FuckingBigThoughts/~4/ZAnu1pLcVnk" height="1" width="1"/>andrew worthingtonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08035345198006667194noreply@blogger.com0http://fuckingbigthoughts.blogspot.com/2011/12/i-valiantly-attempted-to-review-tv-show.htmltag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6705780792632484556.post-60684289340849746942011-12-05T13:39:00.001-08:002011-12-06T08:37:34.120-08:002011-12-06T08:37:34.120-08:00<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">I failed to live up to my goal to post a bunch last month.&nbsp; I will hopefully post again in the future.&nbsp; My apologies for failing in my attempt at solidarity with the online literature crowd.&nbsp; I'm busy!</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6705780792632484556-6068428934084974694?l=fuckingbigthoughts.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div> <p><a href="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/Mk8L1kssrXU3lk482M_cc4_o644/0/da"><img src="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/Mk8L1kssrXU3lk482M_cc4_o644/0/di" border="0" ismap="true"></img></a><br/> <a href="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/Mk8L1kssrXU3lk482M_cc4_o644/1/da"><img src="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/Mk8L1kssrXU3lk482M_cc4_o644/1/di" border="0" ismap="true"></img></a></p><img src="http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/FuckingBigThoughts/~4/7d_1TYLDF_Q" height="1" width="1"/>andrew worthingtonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08035345198006667194noreply@blogger.com0http://fuckingbigthoughts.blogspot.com/2011/12/fail.htmltag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6705780792632484556.post-43734133228247427072011-11-18T11:41:00.000-08:002011-12-05T13:34:29.738-08:002011-12-05T13:34:29.738-08:00<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on"><div>i stole this post idea</div><div><br /> </div><div>there is a lack of sophistication in my writing this post</div><div><br /> </div>songs i listen to at work<br /> <br /> <div><div><div><iframe allowfullscreen="" frameborder="0" height="315" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/0Gqh4e1S6j0" width="420"></iframe></div></div><div><br /> </div><div>used to listen to this one a lot, just back into it recently</div><div><br /> </div><div><iframe allowfullscreen="" frameborder="0" height="315" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/DAePJ3cpmn8" width="420"></iframe></div><div>same with this one<br /> <br /> (DELETED: BLACK STAR)<br /> <br /> </div><div>some older music that i have only gotten really into in the past year or two</div><div><br /> </div><div><iframe allowfullscreen="" frameborder="0" height="315" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/IaFgBIuXbBs" width="420"></iframe></div><div><br /> </div><div><br /> (DELETED: FUNKADELIC)<br /> <br /> </div><div>i havent listened to this last one as much recently, but for a few weeks i was listening to it at least once most days</div><div><br /> </div><div><iframe allowfullscreen="" frameborder="0" height="315" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/2GKL_ZoJQjc" width="560"></iframe></div></div><div><br /> </div><div>all the ones that are from the past year or two are songs that i used to listen to but don't anymore but do apparently<br /> <br /> <iframe allowfullscreen="" frameborder="0" height="315" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/cfzhq1CjJG0" width="420"></iframe><br /> <br /> black flag from before henry rollins. &nbsp;the decline of western civilization is the movie this is taken from. &nbsp;its a really good movie.<br /> <br /> <iframe allowfullscreen="" frameborder="0" height="315" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/6xEj95mkDkw" width="420"></iframe><br /> <br /> <br /> </div><div><br /> </div><div><br /> </div><div><br /> </div><div><a href="http://beachsloth.blogspot.com/2011/11/desiree-by-andrew-worthington.html">beachsloth blogged about "desiree"</a></div><div><br /> </div><div>there is a pen in my left pants pocket in the picture</div><div><br /> </div><div>i didn't think the story was nightmarish, although i guess thats cool</div><div><br /> </div><div><br /> </div><div>good stuff</div><div><br /> </div><div><br /> </div><div>someone in the last post asked if i felt "like a ghost." &nbsp;i don't think i do or have feel like that. &nbsp;although what is it like to be a ghost? &nbsp;maybe i am and i just don't know.</div><div><br /> </div><div><br /> </div><div>my friend homer wanted to know if i liked infinite jest. &nbsp;i read it this summer. &nbsp;he thought i told him I thought it was "like whatever" but &nbsp;i told him i thought it was really good. it is one of my favorite books i've read this year. &nbsp;i think i will eventually make a list of books i read this year, or my favorite books i read this year. &nbsp;i don't use "goodreads" anymore.</div></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6705780792632484556-4373413322824742707?l=fuckingbigthoughts.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div> <p><a href="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/F3jjBz75yUd9GkPQ8YzbraqdN7Q/0/da"><img src="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/F3jjBz75yUd9GkPQ8YzbraqdN7Q/0/di" border="0" ismap="true"></img></a><br/> <a href="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/F3jjBz75yUd9GkPQ8YzbraqdN7Q/1/da"><img src="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/F3jjBz75yUd9GkPQ8YzbraqdN7Q/1/di" border="0" ismap="true"></img></a></p><img src="http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/FuckingBigThoughts/~4/XHvKvW2NhbU" height="1" width="1"/>andrew worthingtonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08035345198006667194noreply@blogger.com0http://fuckingbigthoughts.blogspot.com/2011/11/songs-i-listen-to-at-work.htmltag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6705780792632484556.post-67383162751991225652011-11-08T07:12:00.000-08:002011-11-08T09:22:39.384-08:002011-11-08T09:22:39.384-08:00<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on"><span style="font-size: large;">Pangur Ban Party published a short fiction ebook by me called Desiree. &nbsp;It is </span><a href="http://andrew-worthington-pbp.blogspot.com/"><span style="font-size: large;">HERE</span></a><span style="font-size: large;">.</span><br /> <br /> Also, in spirit with Ben Brooks, Stephen Tully Dierks, and DJ Berndt (who is the editor/designer of Pangur Ban Party), I will be blogging in November for Blog Month. &nbsp;I will blog once every Sunday, like I did back in high school when I used Xanga.<br /> <br /> I also have poem called "Moan" up at Let People Poems. &nbsp;It is my magnum opus. &nbsp;See left-hand side bar, where it has been properly cataloged in the correct section of links.<br /> <br /> Don't feel shy to say a kind or mean word to me. &nbsp;I want to feel emotion from other human beings.</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6705780792632484556-6738316275199122565?l=fuckingbigthoughts.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div> <p><a href="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/pwftX9lsksZ_kjzTh9kq8ef4Unw/0/da"><img src="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/pwftX9lsksZ_kjzTh9kq8ef4Unw/0/di" border="0" ismap="true"></img></a><br/> <a href="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/pwftX9lsksZ_kjzTh9kq8ef4Unw/1/da"><img src="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/pwftX9lsksZ_kjzTh9kq8ef4Unw/1/di" border="0" ismap="true"></img></a></p><img src="http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/FuckingBigThoughts/~4/ltITceuWzz0" height="1" width="1"/>andrew worthingtonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08035345198006667194noreply@blogger.com2http://fuckingbigthoughts.blogspot.com/2011/11/desiree.htmltag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6705780792632484556.post-8229590182361914392011-10-29T18:36:00.000-07:002011-10-29T18:40:24.363-07:002011-10-29T18:40:24.363-07:00<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on"><b><br /> </b><br /> <b>***EXCLUSIVE QUOTE #1***</b><br /> <b><br /> </b><br /> <i>"...You know how boring jails gets."</i><br /> <i>"Yeah, totally." &nbsp;I did not know.</i><br /> <br /> The eponymous lead character/narrator of Ben Nadler's debut novel is a punk. &nbsp;Sammy Harvitz rejects what he is expected to do (or what he thinks he is expected to do). &nbsp;He rejects the status quo. &nbsp;But rejection of one thing can only can so far before it leads to embrace of another. &nbsp;Harvitz consistently finds himself in "FUBAR" situations, as the military lingo might go. &nbsp;His father is somewhat of a deadbeat, his mother dies when he is young. &nbsp;He migrates towards the punk movement, which is never short of its Sids and Nancies. &nbsp;Harvitz joins the military: at this point it should be clear to you that this protagonist doesn't get much of a smooth ride in this novel. <br /> <br /> Ben Nadler is the author. &nbsp;Ben Nadler is therefore the novel's God. &nbsp;God does not like Sammy Harvitz, or at the very least God doesn't give a shit. &nbsp; This is how a book should be written.<br /> <br /> Harvitz is far and away the most prominent character of the novel, but there are some gems to be found here in the supporting roles. &nbsp;Harvitz's grandfather, a proud old Jewish man, is a voice of reason in the life of Harvitz. &nbsp;With the early death of his mother and the often lacking parental guidance of his father, the grandfather is a less frequent yet quite poignant presence in the novel. &nbsp;He represents the tradition ("3000 years of Jewish heritage") and patriarchy, while the father represents a former hippie, former middle-class worker, early retiree, turned sour on life. &nbsp;Harvitz struggles with the shadows of these two characters. &nbsp;His volatility stems in many ways from each of them. &nbsp;I am beginning to sound Psychanalytic, which I hate, and so I am going to move on.<br /> <br /> The other most striking characters for me were the buddies he makes in the military. &nbsp;Not surprisingly, the punk Harvitz gravitates to the more intellectual and introverted members of his unit. <br /> <br /> <br /> <b>***EXCLUSIVE QUOTE #2***</b><br /> <br /> <i>I felt a little bit like a wild animal that she had brought home. &nbsp;I liked feeling like that.</i><br /> <br /> <br /> The landscapes of this novel are vivid, despite the fact that Nadler spends much less time on poetry and much more time on action. &nbsp;The novel doesn't really slow down. &nbsp;The text moves from exposition to scenes heavy with dialogue, and that process is repeated throughout much of the book. &nbsp;Throughout the novel, we see Philadelphia, New Jersey, Manhattan, Brooklyn, California, Florida, and a whole lot of spaces in between. &nbsp;The periods when Harvitz pauses to reflect are powerful, as well.<br /> <br /> The language of the book is not too distinguished, by which I mean it doesn't really go too far towards minimalism or maximalism, those dirty binary terms that I am using in spite of my disgust. &nbsp;The language is fairly simply, so I suppose I should call it more minimalistic, but it doesn't go too far and there isn't a discernible ideological strategy at work in the way the words appear on the page. &nbsp;That said, the voice is consistent, and what more can we ask from a writer?<br /> <br /> I highly recommend this novel. &nbsp;Sure, the stories of patriotism and patriarchy (and their rejection) have been told before. &nbsp;But J.D. Salinger is dead, and J.D. Salinger didn't grow up in an era of endless strip malls and the great overcrowded yet increasingly homogenous culture we now know. <br /> <br /> I was reminded of Russell Banks' <i>Rule of the Bone</i> as I read this---and in terms of really good literature about young adults that is a high mark for the past several decades. &nbsp;Harvitz wants to find comfort and peace, but the only routes he knows to those ideals are littered with pain and self-destruction. &nbsp;It is a bible (lowercase on purpose) for all young people who are confused and angry with the bullshit.<br /> <br /> <br /> <b>***EXCLUSIVE QUOTE #3***</b><br /> <br /> <i>"Well, choosing to serve in the Army is a big decision. &nbsp;But there's no reason to be nervous here today. &nbsp;We're just hanging out. &nbsp;Consider me your buddy!"</i><br /> <i><br /> </i><br /> <i><br /> </i><br /> <i><br /> </i><br /> <i><b>OUT NOW ON <a href="http://www.irondieselpress.com/">IRON DIESEL PRESS</a></b></i><br /> <i><br /> </i><br /> <i><br /> </i><br /> <i><br /> </i></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6705780792632484556-822959018236191439?l=fuckingbigthoughts.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div> <p><a href="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/iBQL60Ji82Y8rMLymw4MH57yPrI/0/da"><img src="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/iBQL60Ji82Y8rMLymw4MH57yPrI/0/di" border="0" ismap="true"></img></a><br/> <a href="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/iBQL60Ji82Y8rMLymw4MH57yPrI/1/da"><img src="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/iBQL60Ji82Y8rMLymw4MH57yPrI/1/di" border="0" ismap="true"></img></a></p><img src="http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/FuckingBigThoughts/~4/bfSntGm51rM" height="1" width="1"/>andrew worthingtonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08035345198006667194noreply@blogger.com1http://fuckingbigthoughts.blogspot.com/2011/10/down-with-patriotism-and-patriarchy.htmltag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6705780792632484556.post-43584704827326153302011-10-18T01:00:00.000-07:002011-10-18T01:04:12.073-07:002011-10-18T01:04:12.073-07:00<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">IF I HAD A SLOGAN THAT COULD FIT ALL MY DEMANDS INTO ONE SLOGAN, THIS WOULD BE IT<br /> <br /> occupy an area<br /> <br /> occupy yourself<br /> <br /> i have gone down to #occupywallstreet a few times<br /> <br /> i went down to the times square demonstration on saturday<br /> <br /> that was very thrilling<br /> <br /> i walk out of the 42nd street subway and theres hardly any room to move around in (not that thats that different from how times sq usually is.....)<br /> <br /> there were lots of signs<br /> <br /> i made my way (over 20 mins or so) to one of the main clusters of demonstrators, camped underneath the ABC tv hq<br /> <br /> there were news headlines flashing<br /> <br /> AL QAEDA MILITANTS KILLED IN IRAQ<br /> <br /> OCCUPY MOVEMENT GOES GLOBAL<br /> <br /> MICHIGAN BEATS WHOEVER THE FUCK<br /> <br /> felt historical<br /> <br /> these protests are cool<br /> <br /> more importantly, they are good<br /> <br /> i am not much of a protester<br /> <br /> protesters are kind of loud, extroverted<br /> <br /> i felt very agoraphobic at times sq on saturday, although times sq often has that effect<br /> <br /> i was glad that fucking tourists and crass consumers had their days ruined because they were prevented from freely shopping by a mob of angry people holding signs protesting capitalism under many crazy signs in the center of capitalism<br /> <br /> ugh, words<br /> <br /> but yeah, they were loud and extroverted<br /> <br /> the only times i am ever usually loud or extroverted is when i am really hyper-mood (usually around folks i know) or drunk<br /> <br /> maybe if i got drunk i would go be a loud protester and not just a mostly silent fellow-traveler<br /> <br /> i talk to people about it while i am there or while i am not there<br /> <br /> it seems that that is one of the main points: to raise political awareness and dialogue<br /> <br /> the sit-ins in downtown banks this past week sounded good<br /> <br /> the protests in europe and asia sounded good<br /> <br /> i watch glenn beck videos where he talks about this stuff<br /> <br /> he is in conspiracy theory mode<br /> <br /> he is always scary and funny, i think that is his point tho, although i dont think his fans have the same sense of irony about it that i do<br /> <br /> he thinks it a communist/anarchist-coordinated movement for the violent overthrow of the gov<br /> <br /> "THEYRE REVOLUTIONARIES"<br /> <br /> they thing is<br /> <br /> i agree<br /> <br /> as someone who supports these protests, i want a revolution<br /> <br /> but not armed insurrection, necessarily<br /> <br /> i want this financial system to be massively changed<br /> <br /> if it can happen organically, that would be best, obviously<br /> <br /> i think that people don't need to die<br /> <br /> i want a lot<br /> <br /> but i can't reduce my protests to "bread, land, and peace"<br /> <br /> thats what the soviets used<br /> <br /> which is a lot<br /> <br /> i wonder how long these protests will continue<br /> <br /> when winter comes and a lot of the people who just pass through (like me) start to go down less often because of the cold weather<br /> <br /> or when fall semester is over and students who have been going down go home for the holidays<br /> <br /> will it die?<br /> <br /> will weather conditions and vacations give a whimpering end to the protests?<br /> <br /> i hope not<br /> <br /> but what am i personally doing about it<br /> <br /> then again, i have obligations (i teach at a public college)<br /> <br /> so maybe i shouldnt be trying to go get arrested, bc then i cant teach these kids how to read interesting works of literature and how to form arguments and how to write essays<br /> <br /> or maybe thats just an excuse<br /> <br /> bc i will only be held for a day or two<br /> <br /> maybe im just a wuss<br /> <br /> yeah, im a "wuss"<br /> <br /> ok<br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> _____________________<br /> <br /> I am going to start a twitter account called "Wikipedia pages I regret having found myself reading"<br /> <br /> I may also eventually start a twitter account called "YouTube videos I regret having found myself watching"<br /> <br /> These accounts will be a call-to-arms for Myself<br /> <br /> They will be like saying "Andrew, look at this retarded shit you just wasted your time on"<br /> <br /> They will be part of some project with unknown parameters that i will be working on over an unknown period of time<br /> <br /> ______________________________<br /> <br /> <br /> I AM GOING TO WRITE A MANIFESTO ABOUT SOMETHING<br /> IN THE NEXT WEEK OR TWO<br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> </div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6705780792632484556-4358470482732615330?l=fuckingbigthoughts.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div> <p><a href="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/km1Cr5weqo4AKFZiJhoccBImxTc/0/da"><img src="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/km1Cr5weqo4AKFZiJhoccBImxTc/0/di" border="0" ismap="true"></img></a><br/> <a href="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/km1Cr5weqo4AKFZiJhoccBImxTc/1/da"><img src="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/km1Cr5weqo4AKFZiJhoccBImxTc/1/di" border="0" ismap="true"></img></a></p><img src="http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/FuckingBigThoughts/~4/pQ03-AxI42U" height="1" width="1"/>andrew worthingtonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08035345198006667194noreply@blogger.com1http://fuckingbigthoughts.blogspot.com/2011/10/occupy-yourself.htmltag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6705780792632484556.post-65930326498291415182011-10-05T15:41:00.000-07:002011-10-05T15:41:04.668-07:002011-10-05T15:41:04.668-07:00<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">Today is my good friend Niki Schur-Narula's first day after 24 years in the reality we live in, this strange yet ever oh so familiar reality<br /> <br /> In honor of this event, I am posting all of his links below:<br /> <br /> <a href="http://www.glowold.net/">Glow Old</a> his main site and also his artist name (currently)<br /> <br /> <a href="http://glowold.bandcamp.com/">His bandcamp</a> for his music he composed for his Glow Old project<br /> <br /> <a href="http://vimeo.com/17429076">This was an installation</a> he did also under the Glow Old moniker (i believe) with Homer Hill exhibiting the interactive features:<br /> <br /> <iframe allowfullscreen="" frameborder="0" height="300" src="http://player.vimeo.com/video/17429076?title=0&amp;byline=0&amp;portrait=0" webkitallowfullscreen="" width="400"></iframe><br /> <a href="http://vimeo.com/17429076">look who's talking. dec 1 2010.</a> from <a href="http://vimeo.com/user5383297">niki schur-narula</a> on <a href="http://vimeo.com/">Vimeo</a>.<br /> <br /> <br /> The zine he publishes is called <a href="http://www.tropicofconversation.com/">Tropic of Conversation</a>&nbsp;It may be possessed but it may not be bought<br /> <br /> A blog he updates frequently called <a href="http://www.songofyourday.blogspot.com/">Song of My/Your Day</a>&nbsp;(I don't really check it too often bc my internet/computer is slow but it seems cool)<br /> <br /> <a href="http://www.myspace.com/capybarasounds">His old music project</a>&nbsp;("Capybara Sounds")<br /> <br /> <a href="http://theworldlooksbetterinpink.blogspot.com/2009/09/ill-love-you-forever-as-long-as-im.html">A poem he wrote</a> about growing old (featured in the first issue of the magazine "Eaders Digest" but originally published at TWLBIP)<br /> <br /> He has twitter and facebook, but he doesn't really use twitter and he doesnt like strangers adding him on the facebook<br /> <br /> WE ARE ALL SO YOUNG AND YET WE ARE GLOWING SO OLD<br /> HE IS GLOW OLD<br /> <br /> way old school: glowing<br /> <br /> <br /> <div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-iiApOey0TAI/TozZHp97tVI/AAAAAAAAAIM/XLCJ8kTW9P4/s1600/n580675187_6498620_6610613.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-iiApOey0TAI/TozZHp97tVI/AAAAAAAAAIM/XLCJ8kTW9P4/s320/n580675187_6498620_6610613.jpg" width="240" /></a></div><br /> <br /> nu-school: today he still glows old<br /> <br /> <div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-vdgGtUVZzok/TozZfa_LFNI/AAAAAAAAAIQ/rYd8QAsPx1U/s1600/171716_532977327336_33502263_31214168_7010330_o.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-vdgGtUVZzok/TozZfa_LFNI/AAAAAAAAAIQ/rYd8QAsPx1U/s320/171716_532977327336_33502263_31214168_7010330_o.jpg" width="175" /></a></div><br /> </div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6705780792632484556-6593032649829141518?l=fuckingbigthoughts.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div> <p><a href="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/47i4uA3_Kh_wsYoh6M_mghy5xbw/0/da"><img src="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/47i4uA3_Kh_wsYoh6M_mghy5xbw/0/di" border="0" ismap="true"></img></a><br/> <a href="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/47i4uA3_Kh_wsYoh6M_mghy5xbw/1/da"><img src="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/47i4uA3_Kh_wsYoh6M_mghy5xbw/1/di" border="0" ismap="true"></img></a></p><img src="http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/FuckingBigThoughts/~4/R8gfrwzDGiQ" height="1" width="1"/>andrew worthingtonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08035345198006667194noreply@blogger.com0http://fuckingbigthoughts.blogspot.com/2011/10/niki-schur-narula-24-and-still-glowing.htmltag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6705780792632484556.post-30415038493272304222011-10-03T00:53:00.000-07:002011-10-03T00:53:15.148-07:002011-10-03T00:53:15.148-07:00<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">these are from september 1-october 2.&nbsp; i think i put all of them but i might have missed a few.&nbsp; im mostly just bored right now. <br /> <br /> i dont know, i think google searches don't make sense.&nbsp; one minute a ranking is one thing and the next its something else.&nbsp; i also dont know where the #154 came from, why that got ranked, because statcounter doesnt always rank things.&nbsp; i could read about it probably, figure out how it works.&nbsp; i put the highest rank.&nbsp; for example, one search "andrew worthington" was #1 in the US but another it was #7.<br /> <br /> when i looked at my statcounter over the past month, usually once or twice a week, i found some of these results funny.&nbsp; now i just find them kind of depressing.&nbsp; owell.<br /> <br /> <br /> in the UK---"andrew worthington" #17<br /> in India---"fucking thoughts" #9<br /> in Pakistan---"big fucking" #10<br /> in Portugal---"andrew worthington" #1<br /> in Thailand---"fucking masturbation" #1<br /> in Brazil---"pics girls radical funking" #19<br /> in Sri Lanka--"BIG FUCKING" #9<br /> in Norway---"fucking a big" #10<br /> in Singapore---"big fucking" #10<br /> in India---"big fucking" #7<br /> in Turkey---"big fucking"#15<br /> in the US---"andrew worthington" #1<br /> in the US---"all obama does is talk shit now" #8<br /> in Spain---"i know it was a murder" #2<br /> in Spain---"es peligroso bushwick" #15<br /> in Brunei Darussalem---"fucking big" #9<br /> in India---"sex with big thoght" #2<br /> in Philippenes---"big fucking" #11<br /> in India---"fucking" #154<br /> in the US---"'what is art' prose" #8<br /> in Serbia---"big fucking" #8<br /> in India---"simple fucking art" #1<br /> in Germany---"holyday fucking" #7<br /> in the US---"'noah cicero' 'tao lin' 'best behavior' characters" #1<br /> in Brazil---"fuckingbig" #3<br /> in Austria---"big fucking" #10<br /> in UAE---"big fucking" #9<br /> in Bangladesh---"Big fucking" #10<br /> in Indonesia---"big fucking" #11<br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> weird <br /> <br /> i wonder if this means my rhetoric is really confused and messed up<br /> <br /> i think i should cuss less, in life and in general<br /> <br /> does having a cuss word in my blog title and url lessen my appeal to a wider all age audience as well potential career jumping hurdle moves?<br /> <br /> its thought provoking.<br /> <br /> </div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6705780792632484556-3041503849327230422?l=fuckingbigthoughts.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div> <p><a href="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/zyrYGcs4YNlFpHtZHxpydqVx6v0/0/da"><img src="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/zyrYGcs4YNlFpHtZHxpydqVx6v0/0/di" border="0" ismap="true"></img></a><br/> <a href="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/zyrYGcs4YNlFpHtZHxpydqVx6v0/1/da"><img src="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/zyrYGcs4YNlFpHtZHxpydqVx6v0/1/di" border="0" ismap="true"></img></a></p><img src="http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/FuckingBigThoughts/~4/R-myrQmPjwM" height="1" width="1"/>andrew worthingtonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08035345198006667194noreply@blogger.com0http://fuckingbigthoughts.blogspot.com/2011/10/ranked-google-searches-that-led-to-my.htmltag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6705780792632484556.post-10804694281471974372011-10-02T23:44:00.000-07:002011-10-03T00:24:16.801-07:002011-10-03T00:24:16.801-07:00<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">May-June 2007<br /> My friend Jack Kerns recommends I read the tao lin's e-book at bear parade.&nbsp; it is called today the sky...<br /> I subsequently check out Tao Lin's blog, his other e-books, his first novel, and eventually his first story collection.&nbsp; His first story collection, Bed, has remained my favorite work by him.<br /> <br /> July-August 2007<br /> I discover other online literature but I feel like "its all too much to take in"---this will be a recurring sensation throughout my relationship with online literature----and literature as a whole---and life as a whole.&nbsp; My main discovery during this period was Noah Cicero's The Human War.&nbsp; I am intrigued by his blog. He is political and philosophical, both to a really extreme manner.&nbsp; Provocative.<br /> <br /> September-October 2007<br /> I begin a literary blog called The World Looks Better In Pink.&nbsp; I don't really know what I'm doing.&nbsp;&nbsp; I ask a bunch of friends to contribute.&nbsp; Most oblige, although some just sign up and there names sit on the right hand column and they never post.&nbsp; I post.&nbsp; My friends Fernando, Niki, Dennis, Carla, and Nicole all post.&nbsp; I ask Tao Lin to contribute by sending him an email via blogger.&nbsp; I don't hear back so I annoy him on his blog and he gets e-angry and says to stop annoying him.&nbsp; I ask Noah Cicero and he agrees to contribute.&nbsp; He puts a few poems up at some point.<br /> <br /> November-December 2007<br /> I continue to discover writers, mainly through Tao Lin's blog and other mediums he uses.&nbsp; The World Looks Better In Pink reaches its pinnacle, from which it begins a two and a half year decline.&nbsp; I read 3:am magazine a lot.&nbsp; I discover Tony O'Neil.&nbsp; I discover Ellen Kennedy.&nbsp; I discover Blake Butler.&nbsp; I disocver Lamination Colony.<br /> <br /> January 2008-April 2009<br /> I take extended breaks from keeping up with the blogging and indie lit world.&nbsp; I occasionally check up on Tao Lin's blog, Noah Cicero's blog, Bear Parade, and 3:am magazine, but usually after a few weeeks of nonstop blog addiction I forget about it for the most part.&nbsp;&nbsp; I start a blog called Fucking Big Thoughts but I don't do anything with it really.&nbsp; I become very pro-Obama, although I doubt that he will be able to fulfill all or most of his promises. I begin to have an interest in the blog HTML GIANT.<br /> <br /> May-June 2009<br /> I try to write an existentialist novel&nbsp; on Fucking Big Thoughts (thats this blog).&nbsp; I write a few chapters and give up because I realize it is kind of retarded.&nbsp; I discover Ben Brooks, Shane Jones, Brandon Gorrell, Zachary German, Chelsea Martin, Jordan Castro, DJ Berdnt, Ana C., Andrew Weatherhead, David Fishkind.&nbsp; I enjoy Chelsea Martin's book Everything Was Fine Until Whatever.&nbsp; I come to the conclusion that Ben Brooks may be the only person who reads my blog.&nbsp; Eventually I discover StatCounter.&nbsp; I check it occasionally or obsessively, depending on my mood.<br /> <br /> July-August 2009<br /> I write a lot of short poems about boredom on The World Looks Better In Pink.&nbsp;&nbsp; I write a bunch of stories and post them on one of the blogs.&nbsp; I never consider submitting them elsewhere.&nbsp; I discover Sarah San. <br /> <br /> September-December 2009<br /> College takes over my life.&nbsp; I continue posting some stories sometimes. I discover Brittany Wallace and Steve Roggenbuck.<br /> <br /> January 2010-May 2010<br /> I begin posting a lot on both blogs.&nbsp; The World takes off again and reaches its second, new peak.&nbsp; <br /> <br /> June-August 2010<br /> End of the World, for all intents and purposes.&nbsp; I discover Sam Pink and Lee Rourke.<br /> <br /> September-October 2010<br /> I begin an MFA program, despite years of reading shit talking about MFA programs on lit blogs.&nbsp; I discover Stephen Tully Dierks and Crispin Best.<br /> <br /> November 2010-March 2011<br /> I decide to try to beef up my online image/profile, and begin submitting ideas and pieces to various sites, and I am accepted into some such as Thought Catalog, Metazen, For Every Year, and New Wave Vomit.&nbsp; I am rejected from McSweeneys and others. I disocver more things and people.<br /> <br /> April 2011-September 2011<br /> I try to beef up my literary persona more, but realize I can't rush it or else I will just give up.&nbsp; I also realize beefing up my literary persona and not giving up may be the rest of my young adulthood and possibly life.&nbsp; </div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6705780792632484556-1080469428147197437?l=fuckingbigthoughts.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div> <p><a href="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/jhp5pplYv8cmla3T8oWafCsCtF4/0/da"><img src="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/jhp5pplYv8cmla3T8oWafCsCtF4/0/di" border="0" ismap="true"></img></a><br/> <a href="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/jhp5pplYv8cmla3T8oWafCsCtF4/1/da"><img src="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/jhp5pplYv8cmla3T8oWafCsCtF4/1/di" border="0" ismap="true"></img></a></p><img src="http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/FuckingBigThoughts/~4/Y1onfQRESs4" height="1" width="1"/>andrew worthingtonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08035345198006667194noreply@blogger.com1http://fuckingbigthoughts.blogspot.com/2011/10/history-of-my-relation-to-contemporary.htmltag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6705780792632484556.post-38839227444432837272011-09-18T13:34:00.000-07:002011-09-18T15:09:21.366-07:002011-09-18T15:09:21.366-07:00<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">do most folks do this?<br /> <br /> do YOU???????<br /> <br /> when i sit down to read i try to pace myself to make sure i am focused.&nbsp; i generally try to keep my pace above 20 pages/hour and no greater than 35 pages/hour.&nbsp; i find that if i go less than 20 pgs/hr on a text then i am probably wasting too much time daydreaming, checking my phone, staring at an insect trying to get in my window, etc.&nbsp; if i go more than 30 pgs/hr, definitely 35 pgs/hr, then i find i wasn't reading closely enough.<br /> <br /> i generally like to read between 25 and 30 pgs/hr.&nbsp; this make sense for most novels i try to read.&nbsp; that comes out to around a page for every 2 minutes. i think that is about how much time should be spent on a page (for my personal levels, in terms of processing a text).&nbsp; for a magazine, it is probably faster than that, as their are ads and/or material that i will most likely skip over.&nbsp; if it is something like a "norton critical edition" of an older novel or if it is a longer story or short novel in a "norton anthology" then i probably end up reading less pages per hour, because more text is usually condensed into the pages.&nbsp; of course, in those cases the text itself probably doesn't cover as many pages, but the whole "norton" thing also ends up slowing down the pace in other ways, because the text becomes a bit more disorienting or exhausting due to so many words being on a single page.<br /> <br /> for a book of philosophy or other more dense non-fiction, my usual goal of 25-30 pgs/hr usually gets cut in half.&nbsp; this is what i have been noticing the past month or so when i pick up <i>anti-oedipus</i>.&nbsp; i realized each page was taking around 5 minutes, because that shit is dense.&nbsp; most other philosophy i have read is roughly the same in terms of the reading pace.<br /> <br /> if its an online text, the pace generally varies more widely.&nbsp; for example, i read most <a href="http://www.pangurbanparty.com/">the pangur ban party e-books</a> in a single sitting.&nbsp; if i wasn't jumping around the internet doing other things i would probably finish them in around an hour.<br /> <br /> anyways, other than "anti-oedipus", i have been reading "vacation" by deb olin unferth, and i am also in the middle of the first (out of 3) novella in rick moodys "right livelihoods".<br /> <br /> i have my friend <a href="http://irondieselpress.wordpress.com/2011/07/09/coming-soon-harvitz-as-to-war-by-ben-nadler/">ben nadler's first novel</a> too, i am working on that.<br /> <br /> otherwise, most of the reading i am doing is finishing a melville novel per week for a seminar i am taking, and going over the reading for my class i am teaching.<br /> <br /> i am teaching a freshman composition course, by the way, made up of prospective engineering students.&nbsp; i am supposed to ground them in technical writing but also try to get them interested in the humanities.&nbsp; some of the authors i have them reading are paul goodman, e.t.a. hoffman, j.g. ballard, manuel delanda, david foster wallace, franz kafka, mike davis, jane jacobs, george ritzer, maybe galilleo, and/or a few others.&nbsp; they are going to be watching "existenz" and either "blade runner" or "pirates of silicon valley."&nbsp; feel free to give me any suggestions related to this body of work, or talk shit about me and/or the material i am teaching.<br /> <br /> here are links to things i have been reading recently on the internet:<br /> <br /> my friend homer has a blog called "<a href="http://math-stract.blogspot.com/">math-stract</a>".....he used to have a similar blog by the same name that was collaborative, and now he's starting it up again, i guess.<br /> <br /> <a href="http://stephen-dierks-pbp.blogspot.com/">dierk's e-book</a> at pbp<br /> <br /> a <a href="http://htmlgiant.com/snippet/houellebecq/#disqus_thread">quick post</a> by ken baumann at htmlgiant about michel houellebecq (one of my favorite writers, probably top 10, in case you never read this blog or don't know me)<br /> <br /> my friend tracy o'neil has a story up at <a href="http://www.centerforfiction.org/magazine/issue-5/the-imperfect-by-tracy-oneill/">the center for fiction</a>.....she also writes lots of book reviews, including one recently in <a href="http://www.dzancbooks.org/the-collagist/2011/8/15/the-great-frustration-by-seth-fried.html">the collagist</a><br /> <br /> i will see you all again shortly, i hope, in this life or the next<br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> addendum:<br /> <br /> i am planning to write reviews of the following books over the next several months, let me know if i can publish them on your site, otherwise i may end up annoying you or just posting them on here.&nbsp; i also started writing some and then i realized i wanted to take the craft of writing a review more seriously than i have on this blog and in other publications, so i am trying to study reviews and figure out my own perfect aesthetic niche...............here are the texts i want/plan to review:<br /> <br /> scott mcclanahan------stories V!<br /> james payne---------austerity pleasures<br /> mark leidner---------the angel in the dream of our hangover<br /> ben nadler------harvitz, as to war<br /> electric literature-------no.5<br /> playboy ----------november 1979<br /> mike bushnell-------traumahawk<br /> sam pink-----------the new sam pink bundle of fun<br /> no colony-------------no.1<br /> mike young-----we are all good if they try hard enough<br /> frank o'hara---------lunch poems<br /> blake butler---------there is no year <br /> megan boyle--------selected unpublished blog posts of a mexican panda express employee</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6705780792632484556-3883922744443283727?l=fuckingbigthoughts.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div> <p><a href="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/dOiuLESeqqivIrVWhDkSfvXhbpY/0/da"><img src="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/dOiuLESeqqivIrVWhDkSfvXhbpY/0/di" border="0" ismap="true"></img></a><br/> <a href="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/dOiuLESeqqivIrVWhDkSfvXhbpY/1/da"><img src="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/dOiuLESeqqivIrVWhDkSfvXhbpY/1/di" border="0" ismap="true"></img></a></p><img src="http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/FuckingBigThoughts/~4/q5uoHbF4oWk" height="1" width="1"/>andrew worthingtonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08035345198006667194noreply@blogger.com1http://fuckingbigthoughts.blogspot.com/2011/09/do-most-people-try-to-set-paces-for.htmltag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6705780792632484556.post-74490606555209921132011-08-17T08:59:00.000-07:002011-08-17T09:02:40.796-07:002011-08-17T09:02:40.796-07:00<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on"><div closure_uid_gscw7o="113">I have a dream published on the Annandale Dream Gazette.&nbsp; </div><div closure_uid_gscw7o="113"><br /> </div><div closure_uid_gscw7o="113"><div closure_uid_aoag28="90">It is called&nbsp;<a href="http://annandaledreamgazetteonline.blogspot.com/search/label/Andrew%20Worthington">"The MFA in Mixed Martial Arts"</a></div></div><div closure_uid_gscw7o="113"><br /> </div><div closure_uid_gscw7o="113"><div closure_uid_aoag28="92">I have moved the two dream links on the sidebar from the "fiction" to the "nonfiction" section. (They are also the same link, just posted twice.&nbsp; The link is to my author page on that site. Brilliant marketing strategy on my part.)</div></div><div closure_uid_gscw7o="113"><br /> </div><div closure_uid_gscw7o="113">Makes sense, right? (Who cares.)</div><div closure_uid_gscw7o="113"><br /> </div><div closure_uid_gscw7o="113"><br /> </div></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6705780792632484556-7449060655520992113?l=fuckingbigthoughts.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div> <p><a href="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/PPltqp3uQw0YuTk3XVCx4nfI5bc/0/da"><img src="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/PPltqp3uQw0YuTk3XVCx4nfI5bc/0/di" border="0" ismap="true"></img></a><br/> <a href="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/PPltqp3uQw0YuTk3XVCx4nfI5bc/1/da"><img src="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/PPltqp3uQw0YuTk3XVCx4nfI5bc/1/di" border="0" ismap="true"></img></a></p><img src="http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/FuckingBigThoughts/~4/cW16IoX1xH4" height="1" width="1"/>andrew worthingtonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08035345198006667194noreply@blogger.com0http://fuckingbigthoughts.blogspot.com/2011/08/i-dreamt.htmltag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6705780792632484556.post-21491676025647487132011-08-09T16:34:00.000-07:002011-08-09T16:34:29.227-07:002011-08-09T16:34:29.227-07:00<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">i have been reading a lot about the riots/insurrection in england, still not <br /> <br /> i kind of want to ask crispin best, ben brooks, or lee rourke about it, but i assume they probably are bogged down with lots of people asking about it<br /> <br /> read a quick thing on reddit this morning that said that the iranian premier was urging the british government/police to show restraint<br /> <br /> i am not sure if it was from a joke website<br /> <br /> has anyone heard about the protests planned on wall street in september on constiution day?<br /> <br /> is anyone planning on going?<br /> <br /> i dont know<br /> <br /> obviously there is most likely more than a coincidence to the fact that revolutions are occuring elsewhere in the world and then now this is happening in london/england (seems to be spreading to various cities somewhat rapidly, read that rubber bullets may be approved to suppress it, seems like a lot of looters and also a lot of pissed off people who arent in it just for looting maybe, appears that the entire government of the country was on vaca when this broke out, what a surprise)<br /> <br /> the student protests last year were much milder but possibly some of the same contigencies/reasons<br /> <br /> i think there are a lot of people in the western world or maybe as a whole who are immigrants, young, poor, or any combination who hate how shit has been developing <br /> <br /> people feel like meat kind of, like they are getting put through a grinder and they dont have choices, maybe, i dont know&nbsp; <br /> <br /> (kind of should probably stop writing about politics)<br /> <br /> and then a lot of other people who hate how shit is going but they want the governments to stop spending money and enhancing social welfare programs and worrying about people's rights<br /> <br /> and then lots of of people who are apathetic to varying degrees<br /> <br /> i probably would want to place myself somewhere between the first and third groupings<br /> <br /> although i think the first and second actually have a lot more in common, at least emotionally, ugh i need to stop typing<br /> <br /> reading the bbc, same stories over and over again with just a few words/sentences changed, pretty much more or less<br /> <br /> reading the nytimes, ditto<br /> <br /> reading reddit, some more obscure/less publicized things referenced there<br /> <br /> reading <a href="http://wewhoareabouttodie.com/">we who are about to die</a><br /> <br /> yall should check out that site, i like that site a lot, it has an actual political involement, which is nice everyonce in a while<br /> <br /> there are some good recent posts up on there about the riots (although the most recent post is, coincidentally, about the reading mentioned in my previous post, it just has pics and links, but check out some of the other posts on there, interesting takes on politics)<br /> <br /> html giant isnt saying anything about it really.&nbsp; there was a post about the global market, specifically relating to the publishing industry, which i guess is tangentially related to this, because of the international economic implications of the debt crap<br /> <br /> i like html giant though bc its usually somewhat depoliticized and talks about writing/lit/culture mainly<br /> <br /> but i like we who are about to die bc of the opposite or whatever<br /> <br /> cant form any coherent thoughts<br /> <br /> are left-leaning people like me stupid how we always get spikes in our political interest/excitement about shit like this?<br /> <br /> is the the world ending?<br /> <br /> wikileaks<br /> <br /> the "arab spring"<br /> <br /> credit as the economic judgment of the morality of a human<br /> <br /> us getting into some more wars leaving getting back in too many military bases or whatever<br /> <br /> i think i dont really like violence, even though it interests me.&nbsp; if asked my direct moral beliefs on it i would have to think for a bit.&nbsp; is that apathetic?<br /> <br /> think most people would say they dont like violence though, of course its all relative/conditional/contextual.<br /> <br /> is it just everyone's interest/excitement gets spiked with shit like this?<br /> <br /> feel like those of us who are into left or radical politics maybe always jump on shit like this when it happens (see 1968, for example.&nbsp; of course, see 1848 for somewhat of a counterexample)<br /> <br /> thinking about sartre.....<br /> <br /> thinking about camus.....<br /> <br /> i think i might watch the newest episode of "breaking bad" or "curb your enthusiasm" because i am getting a headache <br /> <br /> </div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6705780792632484556-2149167602564748713?l=fuckingbigthoughts.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div> <p><a href="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/7CDGaotJuvwn4OugLjErXyID9VY/0/da"><img src="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/7CDGaotJuvwn4OugLjErXyID9VY/0/di" border="0" ismap="true"></img></a><br/> <a href="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/7CDGaotJuvwn4OugLjErXyID9VY/1/da"><img src="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/7CDGaotJuvwn4OugLjErXyID9VY/1/di" border="0" ismap="true"></img></a></p><img src="http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/FuckingBigThoughts/~4/XaOGF8uQ5Oo" height="1" width="1"/>andrew worthingtonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08035345198006667194noreply@blogger.com1http://fuckingbigthoughts.blogspot.com/2011/08/radical-excitement-and-apathy.htmltag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6705780792632484556.post-63830672038937734052011-08-07T18:43:00.000-07:002011-08-07T20:07:21.556-07:002011-08-07T20:07:21.556-07:00<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">i read at the reading for the kickoff of poncho peligroso's poetry tour last night.&nbsp; it was great.<br /> <br /> i spent most of the night sitting on a couch feeling what one might call "pleasantly alienated." (i would love to deconstruct that phrase some other time)&nbsp; much of the conversation i overheard was related to twitter, tao lin, blog commenting thread battles, etc.&nbsp; which was cool because usually i talk about like food and music and "great books" and shit with most people.<br /> <br /> i rolled up with a crew of four male friends of mine and there was only around 10 people already at the apartment.&nbsp; we sat on the couch and drank beer and shit.&nbsp; i spoke briefly to steve, poncho, and spencer madsen over the course of the night.&nbsp; and some other people.<br /> <br /> beach sloth was how one might have expected him to be, although i didnt know what to expect.&nbsp; he was very talkative, very excited, seemed to be having a genuinely good time.&nbsp; i have enjoyed his blog, from time to time.&nbsp; i hope someday he writes a post about me.<br /> <br /> roggenbuck was very good.&nbsp; so was everyone else. <br /> <br /> i gchatted with jess dustchmann once in a group chat.&nbsp; i remembered reading her on "annandale dream gazette", as i am also on the "annandale dream gazette."<br /> <br /> spencer madsen read several things after i read.&nbsp; he read his poem about mallory whitten and jordan castro.&nbsp; that was my main prior knowledge of his work, also.&nbsp; i said hi to him and we talked about something. i believe i said "you wrote the book of tweets, right?" which probably made me sound like an asshole.&nbsp; he replied "well, yeah, theres poetry and stuff, too." his reading was good.&nbsp; he likes to cwhine about sexual frustration a bit, which is something i generally like.<br /> <br /> mike bushnell was really good.&nbsp; i was blown away.&nbsp; there had been several loud bros kind of interrupting/jeering/livening up the reading up until he read.&nbsp; then one of the bros pretended to be taking a cell phone call and walking right past mike bushnell as he was in the middle of a poem.&nbsp; mike started screaming at him and smashed something on his head.&nbsp; it was really interesting and funny.&nbsp; i was fooled.&nbsp; it was staged. great.<br /> <br /> as the reading continued i began to be uncomfortable with the decision to position myself on the couch.&nbsp; it prevented me from being as mobile as i would have liked in terms of talking to people.&nbsp; i got up at some point and remained standing for the rest of the reading.<br /> <br /> a poet named ras mashramani read some very out there sex shit.&nbsp; it was entertaining, although unfortunately by that point people were starting to get fidgetty and talk more (the room was very packed and hot).<br /> <br /> poncho was great.&nbsp; i like his poetry.&nbsp; i should try to articulate my thoughts better.<br /> <br /> in a video (somewhere) i remember poncho saying that he wanted the reading to be less academia and more punk rock.&nbsp; seems it was successful. <br /> <br /> anyways, yeah it was fun.&nbsp; to any readers i didnt mention, you were good, but i am still very hungover and i need to tie the knot on this entry and i dont even know if "tie the knot" is the right phrase to be using.<br /> <br /> id like to see the video of the event. <br /> <br /> piece out </div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6705780792632484556-6383067203893773405?l=fuckingbigthoughts.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div> <p><a href="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/xmMFDEl76mBSEfodMl-ZU5Jz-Mw/0/da"><img src="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/xmMFDEl76mBSEfodMl-ZU5Jz-Mw/0/di" border="0" ismap="true"></img></a><br/> <a href="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/xmMFDEl76mBSEfodMl-ZU5Jz-Mw/1/da"><img src="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/xmMFDEl76mBSEfodMl-ZU5Jz-Mw/1/di" border="0" ismap="true"></img></a></p><img src="http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/FuckingBigThoughts/~4/t_W9oEa7DmM" height="1" width="1"/>andrew worthingtonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08035345198006667194noreply@blogger.com0http://fuckingbigthoughts.blogspot.com/2011/08/i-read.htmltag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6705780792632484556.post-53337883942486673582011-08-03T15:42:00.000-07:002011-08-07T18:13:11.382-07:002011-08-07T18:13:11.382-07:00<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">i moved from bed stuy to west harlem<br /> <br /> i called to turn off something, a utlitity of some some sort, and the lady on the line congratulated me <br /> <br /> i believe this was because my mailing address city is no longer brooklyn and now is manhattan<br /> <br /> i said "yeah, im moving to manhattan" <br /> <br /> i measured some of the bigger and more easily measurable objects in my former room that i was moving to my current room<br /> <br /> Here are the results: (all measurements are in inches, and are ordered by length x width x height)<br /> <br /> room i moved out of:<br /> 12 x 9 x 9.5<br /> <br /> 1x bed (including mattress and box spring)<br /> 74 x 54 x16<br /> <br /> 1x white dresser with paint chipping off<br /> 32 x 19 x 37<br /> <br /> 1x ibanez guitar amp that sucks<br /> 14 x 8 x 14<br /> <br /> 1x gorilla guitar amp that sucks<br /> 13.5 x 9 x 17<br /> <br /> 1x fender guitar amp that sucks (i actually gave this away the day i moved)<br /> 18 x 8 x 16<br /> <br /> 1x big suitcase<br /> 30 x 20 x 12<br /> <br /> 1x small suitcase<br /> 20 x 15 x 8<br /> <br /> 1x bookcase<br /> 51 x 23 x 23<br /> <br /> 2x boxes filled with random stuff<br /> 22 x 22 x 21.5<br /> <br /> 1x U-Haul Cargo Van<br /> 9 x 5.5 x 4.25<br /> <br /> room i moved into <br /> 10.25 x 10.25 x 10.25<br /> <br /> <br /> BONUS______________________________<br /> <br /> <br /> photo shoot i did of myself on the day before i moved:<br /> <br /> UPDATE________I TOOK DOWN THE RESULTS OF THE PHOTO SHOOT BECAUSE MY BLOG IS OPENING TO SLOW BC I HAVE TOO MANY VIDS/PICS ON IT&gt;&gt;&gt;I AM NOT GOING TO BE ABLE TO HAVE ANY MEDIA ON MY BLOG FOR THE NEXT SIX MONTHS OR SOMETHING UNTIL THE POSTS WITH LOTS OF VIDS ARE GONE&gt;&gt;&gt;&gt;SORRY<br /> <br /> I am reading this weekend in bushwick.&nbsp; if you live in nyc, make it out.&nbsp; peligroso and roggenbuck (linked to the left) are the "headliners"<br /> <br /> speaking of roggenbuck, he published an "internet poem" by me recently.&nbsp; it is <a href="http://internetpoetry.tumblr.com/post/7891738408">here</a>.<br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> </div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6705780792632484556-5333788394248667358?l=fuckingbigthoughts.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div> <p><a href="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/7b7uYzpfJC7mHuXuQZ7IOxynULs/0/da"><img src="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/7b7uYzpfJC7mHuXuQZ7IOxynULs/0/di" border="0" ismap="true"></img></a><br/> <a href="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/7b7uYzpfJC7mHuXuQZ7IOxynULs/1/da"><img src="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/7b7uYzpfJC7mHuXuQZ7IOxynULs/1/di" border="0" ismap="true"></img></a></p><img src="http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/FuckingBigThoughts/~4/z3ff7irblmo" height="1" width="1"/>andrew worthingtonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08035345198006667194noreply@blogger.com0http://fuckingbigthoughts.blogspot.com/2011/08/statistical-and-critical-analysis-of-my.htmltag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6705780792632484556.post-73838777991366461312011-06-06T19:25:00.000-07:002011-06-06T19:27:22.158-07:002011-06-06T19:27:22.158-07:00<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">the brain is strange<br /> <br /> here are some brains:<br /> <br /> <div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-JzVk40b-PoQ/Te2LJUtYP1I/AAAAAAAAAHc/sTOIZ6Fnak0/s1600/human_brain.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-JzVk40b-PoQ/Te2LJUtYP1I/AAAAAAAAAHc/sTOIZ6Fnak0/s320/human_brain.jpg" width="224" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /> </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /> </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /> </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-pk1xWFCW_RM/Te2LQ-UsUMI/AAAAAAAAAHg/1sXKNb79UP8/s1600/Kalil_Ron_human_brain00_1.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-pk1xWFCW_RM/Te2LQ-UsUMI/AAAAAAAAAHg/1sXKNb79UP8/s320/Kalil_Ron_human_brain00_1.jpg" width="213" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /> </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /> </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /> </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-44OzFbevK7I/Te2LVAp7aWI/AAAAAAAAAHk/to0JEIGpE2E/s1600/pictures_of_the_human_brain2.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="224" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-44OzFbevK7I/Te2LVAp7aWI/AAAAAAAAAHk/to0JEIGpE2E/s320/pictures_of_the_human_brain2.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /> </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /> </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /> </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /> </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">forced to use safari to blog post</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /> </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">its been this way for a while, it may be good, it makes me look away from firefox</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /> </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">god forbids i close the main firefox tab with gmail open</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /> </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">i only used safari randomly for a while in the mid-2007 period</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /> </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">the top bookmarks are "muscians buy" &nbsp;"the outsider" "bear parade" "the a.v. club" "phaser effect wikipedia article" "distortion effect wikipedia article" "wxbc bard college radio"</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /> </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">weird</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /> </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">does anyone know how if i have a gmail account that is not my main blogger email login thing, and my main blogger email login thing is a college email address that is now defunct, how i can make it so this goes away or is fixed?</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /> </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">this has been bothering me kind of for awhile</div><br /> </div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6705780792632484556-7383877799136646131?l=fuckingbigthoughts.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div> <p><a href="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/50zg03taz1N2AfsP1twZTmHUE-4/0/da"><img src="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/50zg03taz1N2AfsP1twZTmHUE-4/0/di" border="0" ismap="true"></img></a><br/> <a href="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/50zg03taz1N2AfsP1twZTmHUE-4/1/da"><img src="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/50zg03taz1N2AfsP1twZTmHUE-4/1/di" border="0" ismap="true"></img></a></p><img src="http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/FuckingBigThoughts/~4/ynUHOm0vRX8" height="1" width="1"/>andrew worthingtonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08035345198006667194noreply@blogger.com1http://fuckingbigthoughts.blogspot.com/2011/06/wrote-poem-today-tentatively-entitled.htmltag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6705780792632484556.post-56636551768641073932011-05-27T10:24:00.000-07:002011-05-27T10:40:50.417-07:002011-05-27T10:40:50.417-07:00<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">I have a <a href="http://newwavevomit.com/newwavevomit.com/237.html">poem that was posted here</a> yesterday<br /> <br /> I am <a href="http://www.tropicofconversation.com/">in this zine</a> that came out recently<br /> <br /> I now have <a href="http://anduworthington.tumblr.com/">a tumblr</a><br /> <br /> stuff seems to matter less, maybe, lately<br /> <br /> i recently read michel houellebecq's book "whatever"<br /> <br /> i had read two longer books by him before, "elementary particles" and "possibility of an island"<br /> <br /> i like him a lot, even though im reading translations<br /> <br /> did i need to say "even though"<br /> <br /> "whatever" was different than the other books<br /> <br /> they are epic, pretty long&nbsp;and span long periods of time<br /> <br /> this one was shorter and it kind of reminded of the short novels that are existentialist classics, like notes and nausea and stranger, lots of fucked up but flat personal delving in the protagonist, a quirky and pretty disgusting perosn who you have to admire at least in the respect that their morals/values are well-defined or something maybe, i dont know, violent and sexual tension, h/o this is a lot of books, i dont know<br /> <br /> i read a short story collection by frederick barthelme called "moon deluxe"<br /> <br /> it was pretty cool<br /> <br /> he does some of the second-person type stuff you find in lorrie moore's "self-help" kind of, im not sure who came first i dont think it matters<br /> <br /> that stuff is all over thought catalog, mostly ryan oconnel and bradon gorrell, sometimes megan boyle and tao lin though, maybe other people, i dont know<br /> <br /> i think i might like frederick barthelme more than donald barthelme<br /> <br /> i like them both<br /> <br /> i was going to try to write a compartive essay on the two but who cares<br /> <br /> <br /> i am reading dennis cooper "frisk" right now<br /> <br /> i am going to read a short meliville thing after<br /> <br /> then i plan to try to tackle "infinite jest" finally<br /> <br /> i am doing some writing, i have a few stories i am working on and a flash-fiction flash-novel prose-poem thing i want&nbsp;to have&nbsp;be an&nbsp;ebook, vague plans for my great novel or something also<br /> <br /> wish me luck fuckos<br /> </div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6705780792632484556-5663655176864107393?l=fuckingbigthoughts.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div> <p><a href="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/4gJ13q7qlDL7EsLhp3i3dtwbEQ0/0/da"><img src="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/4gJ13q7qlDL7EsLhp3i3dtwbEQ0/0/di" border="0" ismap="true"></img></a><br/> <a href="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/4gJ13q7qlDL7EsLhp3i3dtwbEQ0/1/da"><img src="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/4gJ13q7qlDL7EsLhp3i3dtwbEQ0/1/di" border="0" ismap="true"></img></a></p><img src="http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/FuckingBigThoughts/~4/3Qq630aJD-8" height="1" width="1"/>andrew worthingtonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08035345198006667194noreply@blogger.com2http://fuckingbigthoughts.blogspot.com/2011/05/2x-things.htmltag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6705780792632484556.post-18907134288837891362011-04-16T20:28:00.000-07:002011-08-11T04:06:55.724-07:002011-08-11T04:06:55.724-07:00<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">i watched the premier episode of <a href="http://htmlgiant.com/behind-the-scenes/book-klub-w-sam-pink-noah-cicero-jordan-castro/">"book klub" at htmlgiant</a><br /> <br /> it was funny<br /> <br /> i am sitting at home, it is raining and i dont feel like going out, not just because of the rain though<br /> <br /> it is almost sunday<br /> <br /> i watched youtube videos of internet literary stars for the past few hours<br /> <br /> i tried to only post ones here that were at least 2 years old, because then it seems vintage or cool or authentic or retro, or something<br /> <br /> i want to start youtubing, like just have boring and depressing videos of me on youtube or do other things also that arent boring and depressing, that are the opposite of boring and depressing<br /> <br /> i dont know if my computer can tape stuff, it is the basic old macbook, i can video chat but i have never taped anything, ill have to find out if i can<br /> <br /> i met andrew james weatherhead and david fishkind last night, they are cool, each of them is linked to the left<br /> <br /> here are the videos<br /> <br /> my computer is going to freeze, i think<br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <iframe allowfullscreen="" frameborder="0" height="390" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/qa4nV9gXSUQ" title="YouTube video player" width="480"></iframe><br /> <br /> <iframe allowfullscreen="" frameborder="0" height="390" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/GwVzNeHBkIE" title="YouTube video player" width="480"></iframe><br /> <br /> <iframe allowfullscreen="" frameborder="0" height="390" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/ib_zTUz8O2I" title="YouTube video player" width="480"></iframe><br /> <br /> <iframe allowfullscreen="" frameborder="0" height="390" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/QjcOK2T0lPo" title="YouTube video player" width="640"></iframe><br /> <br /> <iframe allowfullscreen="" frameborder="0" height="390" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/i-U6p9rbZ6g" title="YouTube video player" width="480"></iframe><br /> <br /> <br /> <iframe allowfullscreen="" frameborder="0" height="390" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/HcWquzzQdOA" title="YouTube video player" width="480"></iframe><br /> <br /> <iframe allowfullscreen="" frameborder="0" height="390" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/jytTx4GlBC0" title="YouTube video player" width="480"></iframe><br /> <br /> <br /> <iframe allowfullscreen="" frameborder="0" height="390" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/XWBk61PdphE" title="YouTube video player" width="480"></iframe> </div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6705780792632484556-1890713428883789136?l=fuckingbigthoughts.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div> <p><a href="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/ISlE4EFK4_E5GjcQg08-SzGqmfI/0/da"><img src="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/ISlE4EFK4_E5GjcQg08-SzGqmfI/0/di" border="0" ismap="true"></img></a><br/> <a href="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/ISlE4EFK4_E5GjcQg08-SzGqmfI/1/da"><img src="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/ISlE4EFK4_E5GjcQg08-SzGqmfI/1/di" border="0" ismap="true"></img></a></p><img src="http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/FuckingBigThoughts/~4/2U5vCBAn8xM" height="1" width="1"/>andrew worthingtonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08035345198006667194noreply@blogger.com3http://fuckingbigthoughts.blogspot.com/2011/04/my-computer-is-going-to-freeze-when-i.htmltag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6705780792632484556.post-3011646560744388952011-04-01T10:40:00.000-07:002011-04-01T10:40:05.183-07:002011-04-01T10:40:05.183-07:00<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">Two things published yesterday online:<br /> <br /> <a href="http://www.metazen.ca/?p=6989">One is at metazen</a><br /> <br /> <a href="http://annandaledreamgazetteonline.blogspot.com/search/label/Andrew%20Worthington">One is at annandale-dream-gazette</a></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6705780792632484556-301164656074438895?l=fuckingbigthoughts.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div> <p><a href="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/N5-Pwbz6KXnW3ETTOLbvf1eBxS0/0/da"><img src="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/N5-Pwbz6KXnW3ETTOLbvf1eBxS0/0/di" border="0" ismap="true"></img></a><br/> <a href="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/N5-Pwbz6KXnW3ETTOLbvf1eBxS0/1/da"><img src="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/N5-Pwbz6KXnW3ETTOLbvf1eBxS0/1/di" border="0" ismap="true"></img></a></p><img src="http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/FuckingBigThoughts/~4/TC_3y0hMBgQ" height="1" width="1"/>andrew worthingtonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08035345198006667194noreply@blogger.com2http://fuckingbigthoughts.blogspot.com/2011/04/this-is-not-foolish-april-joke.htmltag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6705780792632484556.post-89476918675400986462011-03-31T19:39:00.000-07:002011-03-31T19:40:53.852-07:002011-03-31T19:40:53.852-07:00<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on"><i>You are in creative writing MFA program, I think, or you have taken workshops.&nbsp; I remember reading that you were MFA though.&nbsp; What do people in your program say about these things (assuming that you submit them for the workshops)?&nbsp; I feel like writing workshops are opposed to such radical ( i mean this in its defintion's sense) approaches to writing due to the kind of main/stream/lined approach of workshops.&nbsp; What do you think? </i><br /> <br /> <b>i haven't brought any of the helvetica poems to my workshops because i haven't felt really confident if they are actually "poems" or what other people would say about them. i have started bringing some other really short, flarfy writing though, and i get mixed reactions. the main comment i get is that most of my writing in those forms is "only funny." a number of people in my program believe that poetry can be funny but it should also be something deeper, like it should teach you something too... it's really weird getting those comments, and i feel like they've kind of distanced me from "poetry" and calling my work "poetry."</b><br /> <br /> I posed that question to Steve.&nbsp; He responded how I thought he would.&nbsp; I have had similar experiences in workshops in the past.<b> </b><br /> <br /> That was a question I posed to Steve Roggenbuck over email, in response to his new book entitled "<a href="http://www.downloadhelveticaforfree.com/">DOWNLOADHELVETICAFORFREE.COM</a>"<br /> <br /> There was an article written about Steve Roggenbuck, as well as Poncho Pelligroso and Jordan Castro, that described their writing as "neo-Dada."&nbsp; Roggenbuck accepted this term, Pelligroso debated it, and I don't think Castro entered the discussion himself.<br /> <br /> I think that to call this Dada is to point out why it would be called Dada and why the term is useless.<br /> <br /> I dont know if that made sense.<br /> <br /> Is this poetry?&nbsp; It doesn't really matter.&nbsp; It tests the readers' ability to just enjoy and not have to classify anything.<br /> <br /> Dada.<br /> <br /> Ducahmp.<br /> <br /> The Fountain.<br /> <br /> I don't know.<br /> <br /> This one is good: <a href="http://www.downloadhelveticaforfree.com/helvetica-41/">http://www.downloadhelveticaforfree.com/helvetica-41/</a><br /> <br /> A lot of these are funny, but that doesn't mean they lack value.&nbsp; I think the above link demonstrates it.<br /> <br /> Roggenbuck found these words for all these pieces from his MSN messenger chats back in high schoo.<br /> <br /> The above link demonstrates multiple levels of meaning.&nbsp; First, someone actually said that at some point.&nbsp; But we don't relate to that immediately as readers.&nbsp; We find it to be funny.&nbsp; Then when we try to wonder about the context of it it becomes less straightforward humor, because someone had an actual life. They were checking their grade.<br /> <br /> It also is interesting because this entire work challenges notions of what becomes literature in this digital age.&nbsp; We are living in the twenty-first century.&nbsp; <br /> <br /> I feel most of the people who read this blog will agree with whatever I am going to say so I am going to just end by saying that I found this interesting and funny.&nbsp; Intellectually stimulating even.&nbsp; Because it takes me back to a place that no longer is here, and it also makes me wonder how I got from there to here and where here is and how here will soon be there and I will be in another here.<br /> <br /> These don't have to be poems.&nbsp; They don't have to be Dada.&nbsp; They can just be.&nbsp; I guess those terms are just useful to use in order to frame a discussion maybe.<br /> <br /> I enjoyed this book.&nbsp; I am going to buy it a print copy from the website when I have enough cash flow. <br /> It is very much worth a read.<br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> </div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6705780792632484556-8947691867540098646?l=fuckingbigthoughts.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div> <p><a href="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/gdm4NTn8JRMJzGv7FMQdB2tMEKs/0/da"><img src="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/gdm4NTn8JRMJzGv7FMQdB2tMEKs/0/di" border="0" ismap="true"></img></a><br/> <a href="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/gdm4NTn8JRMJzGv7FMQdB2tMEKs/1/da"><img src="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/gdm4NTn8JRMJzGv7FMQdB2tMEKs/1/di" border="0" ismap="true"></img></a></p><img src="http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/FuckingBigThoughts/~4/y_8grpIG9Fk" height="1" width="1"/>andrew worthingtonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08035345198006667194noreply@blogger.com3http://fuckingbigthoughts.blogspot.com/2011/03/you-are-in-creative-writing-mfa-program.htmltag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6705780792632484556.post-77162521681004079332011-03-28T15:02:00.000-07:002011-03-28T20:03:35.749-07:002011-03-28T20:03:35.749-07:00<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">(<a href="http://noah-cicero.blogspot.com/2011/03/1st-review-of-best-behavior-and.html">noah cicero blogged about my review of his book</a><br /> <div><br /> </div><div>we had a debate once on his blog about jack kerouac)</div><div><br /> </div><div><a href="http://www.impersonalelectroniccommunication.com/">SAM PINK</a><br /> <br /> PERSON</div><div><br /> </div><div>i had previously read his poem collection "frowns need friends too" as well as various things on the internet. &nbsp;</div><div><br /> </div><div>i went into this book expecting to like it. &nbsp;</div><div><br /> </div><div>and i did.</div><div><br /> </div><div>this book was fun to read, although it sometimes made me bit nauseous (yes, a combined mental and physical sensation, usually with negative connotations; transcending the mental-physical divide)</div><div><br /> </div><div>it reminded me of the beckett and the absurdists. &nbsp;</div><div><br /> </div><div>the characters are kind of stuck in void. &nbsp;</div><div><br /> </div><div>its pretty deadpan and dry, the whole book</div><div><br /> </div><div>the narrator will say something totally off the wall in the midst of a monotonous monologue about his day</div><div><br /> </div><div>there aren't a whole lot of characters besides the narrator, his roommate, and the "girl from the first floor" who the narrator has sex with eventually. &nbsp;</div><div><br /> </div><div>there isn't a great deal of "plot" in the "traditional" sense.</div><div><br /> </div><div>it is more just an "everyday life" kind of plot.</div><div><br /> </div><div>that is cool, because most people don't live exciting lives, they just live.</div><div><br /> </div><div>the narrator is pretty paranoid, perverse, fucked up insane, kind of.</div><div><br /> </div><div>he reminded me of the protagonists you might find in dostoevsky, the ones who are always contradicting themselves and thinking things that are detached from any "normalcy" and are a bit insane/crazy and a bit dirty/disgusting</div><div><br /> </div><div>the book takes place in pretty impoverished urban conditions (decayed part of chicago)</div><div><br /> </div><div>a favorite line of mine in the book is: (referring to roommate)" It looks like me and him are dust in someone else's carpet and we can't say hello for fear of having to come up with a good reason."</div><div><br /> </div><div>he pretends to be asleep later in the book when he is with his girlfriend/"girl from the first floor" and&nbsp;i liked that part a lot because i can relate to be pretending to be asleep</div><div><br /> </div><div>the book is written in short one-or-two sentence paragraphs of prose and dialogue (much like this blog post)</div><div><br /> </div><div>noah cicero does that in his books sometimes too a lot</div><div><br /> </div><div>if sam pink or noah cicero read this i would love to know why they started to write like that</div><div><br /> </div><div>maybe i will just ask them</div><div><br /> </div><div>y'all should read this book</div><div><br /> </div><div>see you on march 31, 2011</div><div><br /> </div></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6705780792632484556-7716252168100407933?l=fuckingbigthoughts.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div> <p><a href="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/wmLh8Jjhu5WLzfhKx1wGuQzd09s/0/da"><img src="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/wmLh8Jjhu5WLzfhKx1wGuQzd09s/0/di" border="0" ismap="true"></img></a><br/> <a href="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/wmLh8Jjhu5WLzfhKx1wGuQzd09s/1/da"><img src="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/wmLh8Jjhu5WLzfhKx1wGuQzd09s/1/di" border="0" ismap="true"></img></a></p><img src="http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/FuckingBigThoughts/~4/jkVkqbRcyls" height="1" width="1"/>andrew worthingtonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08035345198006667194noreply@blogger.com0http://fuckingbigthoughts.blogspot.com/2011/03/review-of-sam-pinks-person.htmltag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6705780792632484556.post-36134696507815264122011-03-24T22:36:00.000-07:002011-03-25T09:56:16.519-07:002011-03-25T09:56:16.519-07:00<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on"><i>i am going to post <a href="http://fuckingbigthoughts.blogspot.com/2010/04/interview-of-indie-writers-that-i-have.html">three</a> book reviews in the next week. this one is on noah ciceros new book. &nbsp;on march 28 i will post about sam pinks "person". &nbsp;on march 31 i will post about steve roggenbucks "download helvetica for free"</i>. &lt;&lt;&lt;<get ready="">&gt;&gt;&gt;</get><br /> <br /> noah cicero's new book is called <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Best-Behavior-Noah-Cicero/dp/0984603778/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&amp;qid=1301071649&amp;sr=8-1">"best behavior."</a>&nbsp;&nbsp;i remember reading on his blog either in the winter of 2008-2009 or in the summer of 2009 that parts of it were about recognizable internet literary people. &nbsp;i think he was writing the book around those same times, and that a lot of the events of the book took place around those times. &nbsp;it was pretty easy to discern the characters who were tao lin, brandon gorrell, zachary german, james chapman, the guy who owns melville house, and ellen kennedy was mentioned i think (these are all logical guesses, not certainties). &nbsp;they all have different names, the same thing that kerouac did in his books and the same thing that a lot of other writers have done.&nbsp;&nbsp; there are many more characters who are just "ordinary" people from "middle america."<br /> <br /> <a href="http://noah-cicero.blogspot.com/2011/03/all-links-regarding-best-behavior.html">i read this book when it was published on his blog a year or two ago</a>. &nbsp;i only vaguely remember reading it, but I must have because i am in the comments section of that blog post. &nbsp;i might have been on drugs. <br /> <br /> i was going to try to put my favorite quote from every chapter in this blog post but i am tired and i dont know if that is really legal although i guess no one would care. &nbsp;here are a few parts i liked a lot:<br /> <br /> <em>"Our parents...went where the jobs were. &nbsp;They took the job and worked to get raises. &nbsp;Things were different now. &nbsp;Now, in that strange place called America a person could choose what their role in society would be."</em> &nbsp;It's followed soon by<em>..."She didn't feel like doing the bills. &nbsp;She feel like giving anyone her money. &nbsp;But she rationalized that electricity and heart are important things and must be maintained to live a good life."</em><br /> <br /> That reminded me of myself. &nbsp;His girlfriend's dilemma. &nbsp;His dilemma. &nbsp;That is my dilemma. &nbsp;It's all of us, it's our dilemma. &nbsp;It's not even a dilemma. &nbsp;It just sucks, and it sucks because it tells us its awesome.<br /> <br /> <br /> (playing with weird Monopoly pieces)<br /> <i>"....You're doomed with the dog. &nbsp;You should be that hat."</i><br /> <i>"I don't want to be a hat. &nbsp;A hat isn't even alive. &nbsp;I want to be an organism."</i><br /> <br /> You can just read the book. &nbsp;This book is really funny and sad at the same time.<br /> <br /> <i>"I brought my cheeseburger to a table. &nbsp;It tasted somewhat like a cheeseburger. &nbsp;I wasn't sure when the cow was killed, where it was killed and what kind of cow it was, what the cow ate, but I was sure it was killed a long fucking time ago, it was probably a miserable cow, and the cow ate bad tasting grass that had little nutrition."</i><br /> <br /> This is anarcho-primitivistic maybe or veganisitic maybe, although I don't think Noah Cicero cares for either of those philosophies too greatly. &nbsp;It's funny and sad at the same time.<br /> <br /> <i>"American Protestanism...Their Jesus isn't an ancient Jew that lives in the desert and shits in an outhouse. &nbsp;Their Jesus isn't a homeless Jesus. &nbsp;Their Jesus is this hard working man who has short hair and combs it to the left."</i><br /> <br /> This is Weber pretty much, but said from the perspective of the character who is supposed to be James Chapman, I think thats who that character is supposed to be. &nbsp;also weber wouldnt say this because weber wasn't american and i dont think he would care and he lived a long time ago although i guess he would care. &nbsp;It's also uses concrete reality and dark humor to illustrate its point much better than any boring social science article.<br /> <br /> <i>"It never occurred to me to be a big writer. &nbsp;When I was in high school I remember really liking the story of Emily Dickinson...her poetry...It was alright, whatever, Emily Dickinson. &nbsp;But I remember walking around my neighborhood thinking about Emily Dickinson walking around lonely in her house. &nbsp;She was walking around her garden being scared and nervous about everything...I didn't think about Stephen King. &nbsp;I didn't imagine attending a movie premier of my book, or doing long signing tours across the world."</i><br /> <br /> That is told from the perspective of the character that is <a href="http://muumuuhouse.com/brandonscottgorrell.poetrybook.html">Brandon Scott Gorrell</a>, I think is who it is supposed to be. &nbsp;It was a great line.<br /> <br /> <br /> This book reminds me a lot of the narratives of Kerouac, in that theres travel as a central "plot" element and writers/artists as some of the central characters along with "normal" people as other central characters. &nbsp;It breaks it down a lot though. &nbsp;Rather than travelling across the U.S. on an epic journey, we get eight-hour bus rides between Youngstown, OH and NYC that have a lot of NYC writer-drama and Youngstown worker-drama. &nbsp;Drama isn't the best word. I shouldn't have used that word. &nbsp;The scene when "Benny" the narrator comes to New York and is in Times Square was very remininscent of the <a href="http://theworldlooksbetterinpink.blogspot.com/2007/10/paper-america-jack-kerouac_06.html">"Paper America"</a> scene from On The Road where the narrator of that book is in Times Square.<br /> <br /> The story is told in sharp sentences that still manage to ramble, like Hemingway. &nbsp;It deals with a dream after the fact. &nbsp;It's like waking up from a dream. &nbsp;The background is that the narrator thought he would/could possibly be a writer, as a "profession." &nbsp;Five years after the publication of his first book, thats still not the case. &nbsp;This isn't surreal though. &nbsp;There is real. &nbsp;He wanted to feel at home in NYC. &nbsp;But he can't. &nbsp;He feels at home in Youngstown. &nbsp;But he doesn't really feel at home there. &nbsp;He doesn't feel at home anywhere really. &nbsp;And that is what makes this an American narrative.&nbsp;The three drawings in it are great. one is by sam pink.&nbsp; one is by ellen kennedy.<br /> <br /> I read this is in a day, as I usually do with Noah Ciceros books. &nbsp;I remember in the summer of 2007 I discovered <a href="http://heheheheheheheeheheheehehe.com/2005/11/noah-cicero-interview.html">Tao Lin and then Noah Cicero</a> and all these other writers. &nbsp;I was very depressed very lonely very alienated very suicidal very sad very anxious very detached. &nbsp;The Human War spoke to me. &nbsp;The Condemned spoke to me. &nbsp;These writers and books spoke to me. &nbsp;They had similar issues.&nbsp; Their ideas got them through them.&nbsp; It wasn't self-help cliches.&nbsp; This is kind of a behind the scenes look at that scene, and that one writer, by that writer by that scene. &nbsp;I met noah cicero briefly over thanksgiving this past year. &nbsp;his girlfriend lives next door to some old friends of mine. &nbsp;he seemed different than i imagined. &nbsp;its hard to imagine what people will sound like in real life. &nbsp;its a "theatre of culture" we live in, and this book is trying to escape that, i think. &nbsp;i don't know what else to type. &nbsp;it was both good and great to read this.</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6705780792632484556-3613469650781526412?l=fuckingbigthoughts.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div> <p><a href="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/hvkRZnmNlHp7-C6Y8KIGTa1TWm4/0/da"><img src="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/hvkRZnmNlHp7-C6Y8KIGTa1TWm4/0/di" border="0" ismap="true"></img></a><br/> <a href="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/hvkRZnmNlHp7-C6Y8KIGTa1TWm4/1/da"><img src="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/hvkRZnmNlHp7-C6Y8KIGTa1TWm4/1/di" border="0" ismap="true"></img></a></p><img src="http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/FuckingBigThoughts/~4/GpRvPCEy8lE" height="1" width="1"/>andrew worthingtonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08035345198006667194noreply@blogger.com1http://fuckingbigthoughts.blogspot.com/2011/03/review-of-noah-ciceros-best-behavior.htmltag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6705780792632484556.post-57465564026484874862011-03-12T17:53:00.000-08:002011-03-13T18:39:38.269-07:002011-03-13T18:39:38.269-07:00<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">I recently purchased <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Best-Behavior-Noah-Cicero/dp/0984603778">Best Behavior by Noah Cicero</a>.&nbsp; I await its arrival.<br /> <br /> <a href="http://www.metazen.ca/">Metazen</a> published a poem by me.&nbsp; Another one is forthcoming later this month.&nbsp; I have doubts about the one that is already up.&nbsp; It is kind of whiny.&nbsp; But that is the point, i guess.&nbsp; I like the one that is coming out in a few weeks a lot more.<br /> <br /> Crispin Best published my small play <a href="http://www.foreveryyear.eu/2011/03/1618-co-andrew-worthington.html">"Defenestration is Quite Bohemian"</a> on his website FOR EVERY YEAR.<br /> <br /> I am finishing up my book currently.&nbsp; Hopefully in the next week or two.&nbsp; It is about a mental ward, partially.<br /> <br /> I have read 1/3 of Steve Roggenbuck's new book <a href="http://www.downloadhelveticaforfree.com/">DOWNLOAD HELVETICA FOR FREE DOT COM</a> several times, but I haven't had time to read the whole things yet, because I have to keep clicking for a new page every poem, which is cool except my comp/connect is slow and it takes forever.&nbsp; I am going to finish it soon, and probably write about it on this blog because it does some cool things in terms of "poetry."<br /> <br /> I recently read some books.<br /> <br /> I was good about putting links in this post.&nbsp; Laziness is over.&nbsp; Think blogging will be fun again, maybe.<br /> <br /> <br /> </div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6705780792632484556-5746556402648487486?l=fuckingbigthoughts.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div> <p><a href="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/HRpRCTZRfHWcnJKRBbphOtUW0Vs/0/da"><img src="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/HRpRCTZRfHWcnJKRBbphOtUW0Vs/0/di" border="0" ismap="true"></img></a><br/> <a href="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/HRpRCTZRfHWcnJKRBbphOtUW0Vs/1/da"><img src="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/HRpRCTZRfHWcnJKRBbphOtUW0Vs/1/di" border="0" ismap="true"></img></a></p><img src="http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/FuckingBigThoughts/~4/_d8jEXXw3rc" height="1" width="1"/>andrew worthingtonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08035345198006667194noreply@blogger.com2http://fuckingbigthoughts.blogspot.com/2011/03/things.htmltag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6705780792632484556.post-75440206413838539512011-02-17T20:48:00.000-08:002011-02-17T20:48:11.646-08:002011-02-17T20:48:11.646-08:00<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">michael inscoe published a couple of my poems <a href="http://waitingforagoodurldeadnow.blogspot.com/2011/02/contributors-contents-home-andrew.html">here</a></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6705780792632484556-7544020641383853951?l=fuckingbigthoughts.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div> <p><a href="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/cXRm0O91oS5KWz3omYst8FIQbZE/0/da"><img src="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/cXRm0O91oS5KWz3omYst8FIQbZE/0/di" border="0" ismap="true"></img></a><br/> <a href="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/cXRm0O91oS5KWz3omYst8FIQbZE/1/da"><img src="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/cXRm0O91oS5KWz3omYst8FIQbZE/1/di" border="0" ismap="true"></img></a></p><img src="http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/FuckingBigThoughts/~4/ECZ0kuzvMWQ" height="1" width="1"/>andrew worthingtonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08035345198006667194noreply@blogger.com0http://fuckingbigthoughts.blogspot.com/2011/02/treading-water-as-i-attempt-to-overcome.html