Further Down The Roads

I didn’t dodge a bullet, I missed an opportunity. Now I’m going to have to go through it all again….

Thu, 09 Aug 2018 20:39:50 -0600

I didn’t dodge a bullet, I missed an opportunity. Now I’m going to have to go through it...

I want nothing more that to be dead in this moment. I am two weeks beyond my deadline. I should be…

Wed, 08 Aug 2018 23:21:23 -0600

I want nothing more that to be dead in this moment. I am two weeks beyond my deadline. I should be...

"…Because the truth is, I hate myself. And I want him to say that he hates me, because then I..."

Tue, 31 Jul 2018 08:34:40 -0600

“…Because the truth is, I hate myself. And I want him to say that he hates me, because...

You cannot hint to anyone. You cannot talk to anyone. You cannot let anyone know. And that’s because…

Sun, 29 Jul 2018 21:51:47 -0600

You cannot hint to anyone. You cannot talk to anyone. You cannot let anyone know. And that’s...

I am consumed with shame over the police visit on Friday. How could I do that? How could I be so…

Sun, 29 Jul 2018 21:36:17 -0600

I am consumed with shame over the police visit on Friday. How could I do that? How could I be so...

Why am I still alive?

Sun, 29 Jul 2018 21:30:27 -0600

Why am I still alive? “We can’t see past the choices we don’t understand.”I...

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Sun, 29 Jul 2018 21:26:42 -0600

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I am -almost- balanced.

Sat, 28 Jul 2018 23:43:55 -0600

I am -almost- balanced.I WANT to die. And I WANT to live. And I genuinely don’t know which one...

The police knocked on my door this morning. I rode in the back of a police car. That was new. I was…

Sat, 28 Jul 2018 00:09:28 -0600

The police knocked on my door this morning. I rode in the back of a police car. That was new. I was...

Stop being a pussy. You do not need. Be stronger than that.

Thu, 26 Jul 2018 23:21:20 -0600

Stop being a pussy. You do not need. Be stronger than that.

Let my face melt.

Thu, 26 Jul 2018 22:39:26 -0600

Let my face melt.Let my mind disintegrate.Let my everything vanish and fall away forever.

For years I couldn’t answer the question “Where will...

Thu, 26 Jul 2018 07:54:53 -0600

For years I couldn’t answer the question “Where will you be in five years?” I couldn’t see that far. Eventually, one year became all there was and another ones passing was vaguely surprising.

Then, it became months. Six months, four months, two months… Eventually, just getting to the next month was all there was.

Then it became weeks. Just get to next week. Just one more, and four of them was an unexpected month. Weekend to weekend, that’s all there was.

This week has been days. I can’t see past the days. This weekend is an impenetrable wall. There are hours, and that’s all there is.

"I do not know what the result may be. We may be defeated. We may fail. But we will go down with our..."

Tue, 24 Jul 2018 22:52:57 -0600

“I do not know what the result may be. We may be defeated. We may fail. But we will go down...

Infant mortality is still a real thing.…mine just took 40 years to come to fruition.

Tue, 24 Jul 2018 21:59:52 -0600

Infant mortality is still a real thing.…mine just took 40 years to come to fruition.

I am vulnerable right now. If someone were to ask me…. they would get Terrible Truth. The...

Tue, 24 Jul 2018 21:15:27 -0600

I am vulnerable right now. If someone were to ask me…. they would get Terrible Truth. The...

It will be Just. Like. This.With the dry, alcoholic bite in my throat and in my mouth, I will look...

Tue, 24 Jul 2018 21:13:32 -0600

It will be Just. Like. This.With the dry, alcoholic bite in my throat and in my mouth, I will look...

And so, as I sit here intoxicated, I would stay at least for a while if I thought that I had a way…

Sun, 22 Jul 2018 21:24:11 -0600

And so, as I sit here intoxicated, I would stay at least for a while if I thought that I had a way...

Another new thing happened: I got high today. I have always avoided canabis, but I don’t see any…

Sat, 21 Jul 2018 22:06:31 -0600

Another new thing happened: I got high today. I have always avoided canabis, but I don’t see...

I had my Jeep detailed today, inside and out. It’s absolutely beautiful. It gave me a small, but…

Fri, 20 Jul 2018 22:43:25 -0600

I had my Jeep detailed today, inside and out. It’s absolutely beautiful. It gave me a small,...

hey, was browsing and came across your blog and wanted to say i understand what you’re going through. i had a suicide date set out for early june. but i ended up not doing it for a couple reasons. i still want to die a lot, just no longer have a plan for it. i’m not trying to talk you out of it, just wanted you to know that even though we don’t know each other, i’m here and i care about you and i’m listening to you.

Thu, 19 Jul 2018 19:51:56 -0600

You are just about the first person to NOT try to shove mythology, light, and/or rainbows down my...