When GWTO first invited me to submit an entry to his ongoing music series I was flattered but paralysed. Paralysed because I've been an avid music lover and collector for over 25 years. You see, music has been my refuge for as long as I can remember from a home life that was often painful and confusing.
Trying to sift through all the songs that have sustained me through the years quickly proved futile, especially as I increasingly became aware that the song that I most wanted to share was one that had come from deep within myself.
At the start of this year, my boyfriend Jason and I launched Legionaire, an electropop musical project. Our first release "Move On" is based on prior emotionally abusive relationships and how I eventually reached the head (and heart) space to let them go.
Upon further reflection however I also realized that the song was even more importantly about my own moving beyond years of negative conditioning re: my own musical talents and ability to contribute anything of artistic worth or value to the world around me. Jason's parts (which he composed) are not just the words of a prospective lover, waiting in the wings, but also the voice of our higher potential and truest self which yearns to be acknowledged and nurtured.
If, like me, anyone reading this has ever felt that their voice is of little value or meaning. If you've been afraid to express your own personal talents or to share your stories for fear of censure or humiliation. I hope that our work will help you to realize, that once you are ready to take that first step something (or someone) will be "right there... waiting" to catch you, when you too are ready to "Move On".
My favourite Pink Floyd song.
The song means a lot to me as I feel it describes me perfectly. It's sometimes hard to explain me to people sometimes, because I am a number of paradoxes, and this song illustrated that perfectly! :)