Gay Canadian "X" Party Boy

To Be Continued...

gaycanadianxpartyboy@hotmail.com (GayCanadianXpartyBoy) — Mon, 01 May 2006 08:03:55 PDT

Yes I'm back after a long break...

Did you think I was gone for good?

I'm sure some of you did...

Not sure what I will do with this site but I will keep it up for the time being...

Nothing really exciting to say other than I've been staying in lots...

Not that that has kept me out of trouble...I only wish

My life is terribly boring these past few months...

Depressed you could say...Avoiding yes...Back in the game you bet!

Delivery

gaycanadianxpartyboy@hotmail.com (GayCanadianXpartyBoy) — Wed, 22 Mar 2006 13:21:49 PST

Ok IS it wrong to order Cheese cake delivery? I've done it I've become to utmost in urban ridiculous....I order take out delivery almost every day! I haven't been in a grocery store in months and months.....I'm one step away from ordering my food delivered every day to my door ready to eat when I get up its there at my door!...

Is this lazy or just privileged I dnt know?...

It has recently come to my attention that my blog at times has been under attack from certain groups! Do I care? NO keep it coming!.....

I lied I don't care what you have to say!
Well some of you but only some!

I live, I'm free!, I'm Gay! I'm into hot man sex! Ya big cocks! The more the better! And I can order delivery Cheese Cake can YOU?

Funny thing is I'm having a new Kitchen put in this week!.....Craziness I have no kitchen today yesterday it was ripped out! Today a guy was jack hammering the walls! Yah fun....now if they where naked that would be even better!

Run Away, turn away! Small town Boy! the answers you seek will never be found here! I WILL UNDERSTAND! Will they?

Mother oh mother what's next! I fear the end is near what next! I don't know! I'm tired of this life style its time for something new!......

Since you came into my life I don't have no self restraint, I'm addicted! I don't know what is in store....All I know is I want more!....Mmmm Hmmm.....Every time I see a drug store baby! Never can tell just as well.....Loving on you loving on me! Its hard time this love will set us free...Never can tell just as well...loving on me! Its hard times......What will be! Coming on me coming on you!

Want to see the behind the scenes, of X Gay Party Boy....Some people like to talk warranted yes or no you decide?

WOW

gaycanadianxpartyboy@hotmail.com (GayCanadianXpartyBoy) — Tue, 07 Mar 2006 22:12:47 PST

I decide to take a long needed break from Blogger land and look you al decide to abandon me! How typical of you gay men! LOL

Can you believe its time to start thinking about PRIDE....

This year I put my support behind

PRISM Toronto....

I've been asked to be involved this year and I'm going to be 100% You can forget about any new guys like RISE getting my support....Long story but when your not treated right you are not going to go back now are YA...Hmmm I'm one to support the new guy and the new ideas but when something is not broke why bother trying to fix it!

macho updates to follow

Spring is in the air I'm hoping soon winter is dragging my ass big time!

Yes an other thing I think I may start doing is turning this blog into a bit of a local gossip rag! Hmmm wouldn't that be funny! Hmm but how far to go! Who was doin who in the baths! Who was snorting what at what party! Hmmm who was haven a hard time of it! Who was not looking there best! Hmmm well on second thought not! I'll leave that to the ones in the community who have nothin better to do do than put down others! C'mon if there not talking about U then U have to be worried I guess!..We will see! Something tells me this is not the case....Inquiring minds don't always want to know! Do They?

ON much consideration I think I'll keep my head up and out A others personal business!

Much love and hugz to you all!

till next time!

gaycanadianxpartyboy@hotmail.com (GayCanadianXpartyBoy) — Fri, 24 Feb 2006 16:34:14 PST

Hey all

Just a little post to let everyone know I'm good!, life is good! Spring fever or the beginnings of it are stirring here or at least fro me!...The new season is starting to rev up..I'm so looking forward to a nice warm patio and some sangria!....Oh the boyz are heading back from Mexico....Ya...So things are picking up....Haven't been tanning much, thinks me is suffering from a bit a S.A.D. so hitting the tanning beds again soon!....

All The Best to you all...

Where ever you are!, be proud of who you are! And don't forget! When your out being oh so gay! To smile! A happy person is a good thing!....

I know I'm tired of the gay thing but hey I've been so uber good! Not been out in well over a month! People are starting to wonder where I am!.......Don't you all worry I'm in fine shape....Haven't shaved in a few weeks though wow how a beard makes a man look different! In my case older ten + years its the grey big time....

me outz

fav thing of the week cheery lip gloss! Chap lips LIP BALM Cherry flavor!

Oh yes Blogger be ware! I have been targeted by a guy who doesn't like the fact I had gay sex pics or sex pics for that matter nude pics on my blog with googles adds..Well I tell you he started a forum up about it and kept updates on his complaint to google! He won and my adds are gone now! Not that I'm bothered really at all!....I made more from blogadds in one month then I did on google adds in the a year plus so who's loss is it! Not mine! Buddy boy who complained can suck my dick....But first let me have not showered for a few days! Hey and while he's at it he can lick my ass to!...Screw him....Nothing better to do I guess what some people get of On I tell You! Google add in dec 20$ hmm so I wonder if they are goingto send that to me!...My adds where always targeted to my readers and I know for a fact that google made lots a cash of me!.....To bad the deal is in there favour!....Don't get me wrong I love google..Its the guy that the issue is about! google adds are on tens of thousands of porn sites!....I bet that guy is busy complaining about his next victim!....

gaycanadianxpartyboy@hotmail.com (GayCanadianXpartyBoy) — Sun, 19 Feb 2006 09:46:13 PST

So, Your Utopia Needs a Language...
By Tristan Davenport
24 October 2005

"The limits of my language stand for the limits of my world."

Ludwig Wittgenstein was overstating his case when he wrote the famous sentence above, but that has not prevented science fiction writers from taking this concept and running with it. Ever since George Orwell, SF authors have been inventing languages to explain or illustrate the alien psychologies of their characters. If Eskimos have fifty or a hundred words for snow, they reason, how many words will future man have for spaceships? If Klingons love only war, will they have even a single word for "love"? Such questions make sense to us because we have swallowed the extreme notion that our language limits, even determines, our way of thinking. This concept is called linguistic determinism. It comes in a strong form—Wittgenstein's absolutism—which science has largely rejected, and a weak form, which has won some acceptance. But it is the strong form that has quietly taken residence in SF, to the point that today no fictional society is complete without a matching language.

rest can be found here if your so inclined....<-more things I spend my time reading!

gaycanadianxpartyboy@hotmail.com (GayCanadianXpartyBoy) — Sun, 19 Feb 2006 09:33:13 PST

My Window Is Your Mirror, My Mirror Is Your Wall, My Wall Is Your Window
By Matthew Cheney
13 February 2006

1.
It usually happens with poetry, but sometimes with certain short stories or novels, too: a student says, "Why can't they just write it so people can understand?" And everyone in the class nods in agreement. Because what we read should be written so that we can understand it. It should not be unduly difficult, it should not make us feel stupid, it should not be what we don't like. It should be accessible, transparent—a clear window on a bright day; not a mirror, not a wall.

Inevitably, the student thinks the writer did it to be confusing. But not just confusing to anybody. No, this is a personal attack. Writers whose work is not accessible to us make it inaccessible against us in particular; they set out to smother us in the gooey depths of our own ignorance. They hate us and want to hurt us.

According to many of my students, such writers were paid very well for their work and were drug addicts. I'm not sure why so many of the high school students I have taught think that poets get rich off their writing, but think this they do. I can understand the accusation of drug addiction more—after all, anybody who writes anything that I would not myself have imagined must be altering their brain, because otherwise how can they imagine something I would not imagine, right?

Right.

2.
There is no such thing as "accessible writing." There is writing that is, under some conditions, accessible to certain audiences. But even that statement is not entirely true, because it presumes we can say that something definitely did or definitely did not communicate everything it was supposed to communicate. ("Supposed to" according to whom?) However, I don't want to get into an abstruse philosophical argument here about whether anything can be defined, etc., because I have a practical point to move toward. Let's just make the stategic decision to accept the statement, "There is writing that is, under some conditions, accessible to certain audiences," and go from there.

3.
Steven Wright: "I was reading the dictionary; I thought it was a poem about everything."

4.
I am at this particular moment working from the assumption that you understand the majority of what I am writing here. I am, then, assuming that most of these sentences are accessible. To do that, I have to make some assumptions about my audience. I assume that you are literate in English, by which I mean not that you can simply decode the denotative meanings of English words, but that you have a mature vocabulary, experience with complex sentences, and at least a basic understanding of expository modes of writing. I assume that you have some ability to follow a logical argument, and that you will judge what I write based on how well I construct that argument. I assume that you are a reader of fiction of some sort (probably science fiction and fantasy, given the venue I'm writing for, but not necessarily) and that you have at least a vague interest in thinking about fiction's writers and audiences (because otherwise why are you still reading this?), and in particular the fiction that grows out of literary traditions in Britain and North America. I'm sure there are other assumptions I am making about you that are less apparent to me, but the basic fact is this: I am assuming you and I are mostly working from the same conventions of communication and a shared body of knowledge.

5.
The accessibility of these sentences has nothing to do with their value. They are not useful or interesting sentences to a child just learning to read (and to whom they are inaccessible), but they are also not likely to be of much use or interest to a graduate student in literary theory, either, at least not if that person is looking for some new and original insight, because, despite the accessibility of these ideas to such a person, there is nothing particularly new or original here.

Perhaps everything I have written so far, despite its likely accessibility to my target audience, is utterly worthless. I'm sure at least one reader thinks so.

6.
To cry that a type of writing "is not accessible" and then to decry that "writing should be accessible" is to make a narcissistic claim. The claim builds off the expectation that what you read should conform to the conventions you know and are most comfortable with. It universalizes personal preferences. It is a totalitarian impulse.

7.
Gertrude Stein: "Clarity is of no importance because nobody listens and nobody knows what you mean no matter what you mean, nor how clearly you mean what you mean. But if you have vitality enough of knowing enough of what you mean, somebody and sometime and sometimes a great many will have to realize that you know what you mean and so they will agree that you mean what you know, what you know you mean, which is as near as anybody can come to understanding any one." (Four in America)

8.
Consider the insults hurled at some pieces of writing. Self-indulgent and masturbatory are two common ones. These are not words used to create dialogue and discussion about a particular work's merits; these are slurs that insist the writer sought to please only herself and that the writer himself is the only person who could possibly find pleasure in that work. Therefore anyone who says otherwise is lying. It is a judgment on both the writer and the audience, and it is damning, because it does not merely say, "I do not like this," but, instead, "I do not like this, and neither can you."

When someone calls a piece of writing "self-indulgent" or "masturbatory," they say more about themselves than they do about the writing or writer being insulted. A person using such terms claims to understand what is going on in the mind of the writer, that, against all evidence, the insulter knows the writer intended to give no pleasure to anybody, that the writer was not solely concerned with giving the imaginary audience their rightful jollies, because the imaginary audience must be composed entirely of clones of the insulter.

9.
The fear of inaccessibility, and the contemptuous insults that arise from that fear, are linked to fears of ignorance, fears that there are things in the world that cannot be grasped, pleasures that are not universal, ideas too complex for every mind to comprehend, beauties visible only to some people, miracles that affect the few.

10.
The push for writing to be "accessible" to a general audience fails to question the assumptions that allow a concept of a "general audience" to make any sense, and it seeks to force writers to work within conventions of writing that may involve compromises the writer does not want (or need) to make.

11.
There might be good reasons to privilege some types of accessibility. A relativistic argument, one that suggests all writing is equally good or bad because no writing can truly communicate, may lead to some intriguing discussions, but it's not practical or even particularly satisfying. People tend to want to judge things, and they tend to want to be able to share both their enthusiasms and their frustrations. To do so we must differentiate, we must create dichotomies and taxonomies, hierarchies and privileges, loves and hates. At the same time, we must criticize each we encounter: each dichotomy, each taxonomy, each hierarchy, each privilege, each love, each hate.

12.
Jonathan Culler: "The ideal would be to contemplate thought directly. Since this cannot be, language should be as transparent as possible. The threat of nontransparency is the danger that, instead of permitting direct contemplation of thought, linguistic signs might arrest the gaze and, by interposing their material form, affect or infect the thought." (On Deconstruction)

13.
There is the danger of fetishizing The New, of praising anything that looks new and different because we so yearn for the new and the different. It may not be the new and the different that we most need. We may need to rediscover old ways of doing things. We may need to remember what has been forgotten. We may need to repair rather than rip, to console rather than castigate. When we are in the grip of these different needs, what is or is not comprehensible will change, and how it is comprehensible, and to what extent, will change as well.

14.
The first time I read William Faulkner's Absalom, Absalom!, I threw it across the room after the first twenty pages. I had never actually thrown a book before, but I couldn't figure out what kind of novel this was, I didn't understand what was happening, I couldn't find a way in, and I felt stupid, a fool. But I also felt guilty for throwing the book, and so I walked over and picked it up and continued reading. After reading thirty more pages, I threw it across the room again. Still, I felt guilty. I picked it up, continued reading. After forty more pages, I threw it across the room again. I screamed. I gnashed my teeth. I whined and moaned. I picked up the book, and continued reading.

It remains my favorite novel, the only book that gives me absolute, euphoric pleasure when I read any page of it.

15.
I was sitting in a graduate seminar recently when a fairly young student and the professor got into an argument about clear prose. The student complained that what we were reading was written in such a way that it excluded most readers, because the language was too complex, the ideas too abstract. He thought that the ideas he had encountered in these dense texts, or at least the ideas he felt most comfortable with, were ones that it could benefit the world at large to know and to understand. It seemed to him that, instead of sharing their knowledge, the academics who had written what we had read were writing in a kind of code for the initiated. He believed that if the ideas were not ones that would be "useful" to "ordinary people" then they were not particularly good ideas.

I wanted to agree with him. I have had similar thoughts when reading difficult texts. I get frustrated, because I lose the ability to know whether what I am reading is worthwhile or whether it is a sham, whether the language matches the complexity of the ideas or whether it masks a profound emptiness.

I could not agree with him. I have struggled for a long time to develop the skills to read complex texts. I am not always successful; in fact, more often than not I fail to comprehend writing I would like to be able to comprehend. Sometimes I get too tired. Sometimes I read too quickly. Sometimes I want easy reading. Sometimes I want to forget about shared conventions, to let them stay invisible and unquestioned. Sometimes I think ideas should be presented in the clearest possible prose, and ideas that are not must be hiding something. Sometimes.

But most writers are not paid well for their work, and most poets are not drug addicts. Great writers strive—they strive for effects of language, they strive to convey complex ideas, they strive to communicate across the gulf of potential incomprehensions lurking between each person. Readers must sometimes strive, too, if they want to reach toward the greater accomplishments of human art and thought. There is a difference between what is easy and what is rewarding, although neither is mutually inclusive or exclusive.

I once also believed that ideas should be useful to ordinary people, but the longer I lived and the more I experienced, the less I was able to define any of the terms such a yearning relied upon.

Useful. Who gets to decide which ideas are useful and which are not?

Ordinary people. Who are they? Have you met them? Where can I find them?

There is a secret lost continent full of ordinary people, and I must go there. I have some ideas that might be useful to them, and some prose I know they will find accessible.

16.
Perhaps what we need is to stop talking about "accessibility," to admit it is a concept that leads us only to insupportable generalizations and insulting accusations.

17.
Communication is all about shared definitions and shared knowledge. But it is also about shared desires, shared fears, and shared experiences.

18.
All writers are rich, and all poets are drug addicts.

Define writers and rich. Define poets, drug, and addicts.

19.
Tell me why you want this to be true.

20.
Tom Lehrer: "I feel that if a person can't communicate, the very least he can do is to shut up."

—for Klaus Milich

gaycanadianxpartyboy@hotmail.com (GayCanadianXpartyBoy) — Sun, 19 Feb 2006 06:21:28 PST

Well this will be my three hundredth and twenty sixth post....

My belly is full I ate an entire large pizza last night and ten wings....Lets just say I had to change my evening ware, throughout the night cause my belly was very big!...LOL

So I've got through the worst of the past week I think and my moods due to my poor judgment in my late night adventures...To put it in any other way would be saying to much at this point!....I know I know speaking in vague terms is not fair to me or you but I find now my blog is not a place I can express my feelings and my true life anymore! This is why I say I'm not happy with what has become of my blog!>>>my doing yes!....

I'm curious how many others who have blogged for as long as I have, have found there blog evolve into something that is now a place that can not reflect there true life or most personal exploits!....

I could for sure tell you that I have been up to no good or that I have been not feeling well! Or in other word tell you the least and you can make your own conclusions! But then that leaves open the possibility that conclusions drawn will be in error! So where does this leave me now! Do I throw it to the wind! Venture forward cautiously choosing to error on the side of caution!....

Its a hard debate I find myself tormented by when it comes to blogging! There was a time when I would post no matter what to the blog I was feeling! But now I just am not sure! I see so many blogs now that are about gossip! The latest trends on fashion and the like! This is not me and what I think blogs are! In fact I found myself venturing to that point here! But as I've said I now don't think its where I am wanting to go! So hence the point I am at now! What to do?...

We will see I guess! I'm thinking in time I can take this blog to its original format or let it continue to evolve!....strange place I know!

Now what to do today!

Laundry! organise my room! watch Olympics!....The Olympics for sure! Go Canada!

Who ever thought the Swiss would beat Canada at hockey! Hmmmm I actually watched the entire game last night....What a game it was....reminded me of the days when I used to go to games all the time!..I miss that rush you feel when your team is on the winning side! that intense feeling or pride! Its a true natural Hi....I like that kind a hi! You know that gut feeling! like when you watch someone wipe out bad you get that deep feeling, ouch! You feel for that person! its instinctual I think! amazing! true human compassion! Pride! Emotion! I strive for it! revel in it! and am envious of it!

So much I want to do

gaycanadianxpartyboy@hotmail.com (GayCanadianXpartyBoy) — Sat, 18 Feb 2006 02:19:48 PST

Tour Egypt for example!

Well I so want to travel, If I could I would spend months wondering around places like Alexandria

I so want to see things like this!

Demonstration of things I like more than just gay

gaycanadianxpartyboy@hotmail.com (GayCanadianXpartyBoy) — Sat, 18 Feb 2006 00:56:37 PST

the man who invented the internet has a blog

An other very cool thing I found is PLAZES

If I'm to continue this blog it will be, have to be more in tune with what interests me on a more broad spectrum....Hey its my choice right I just hope it is what others will like to see.....

I also wanted to re post some interesting pics I found.....

Some of you may noticed I deleted my last post, well the story goes I have recently received an email from reader who has made me really think about what I share here!...You know who you are please respond to my last email! Someone Questioning? I really want to know more about what you! And what this is about?

Also on some other sites I gave a bit to much info out about me and where exactly I am so this has caused me some concern as well....I'll get over it, I almost have really I have! The thing Is, I have lost a sense of personal privacy I didn't think I had or realized was there to begin with!....

Anyway enough said I have to get back to my life tomorrow after a much needed rest the past week or so!...

Later peeps....

oh yes another interesting blog I found is...

walkah's blog I'm always envious of men like this as I wonder where my life turned that I didn't get to this point or was not able to..As I remember when I was a young lad being so driven in the academics..I do have an Hi IQ and have done and do do very well at what I put my mind to....Its just for some reason I have a point I let my self get to and then self destruct! Need to figure out this part A me and fix that! Soon really soon cause I'm tired of the same old same old everything has lost its interest to me this past while...I'm bored very bored.................Need a new direction in life....I think I will regroup my efforts in my charity work....I wish others I know who are so fast to judge me would focus there energy in that direction! As there are plenty of things needing to be done, Of course there is the glamorous get your name in the paper positions....But hey when it comes right down to it its the grunt hard labor that needs doing! And who is that guy its most often me!....Anyway....

Ok need my sleeps

later again!....

Oh yes I'm feeling Ok again! Up down I go the winter is taking a toll on this Vancouver Boy! Yah me go back my tail between my legs no I don't think so!...

Its time I think

gaycanadianxpartyboy@hotmail.com (GayCanadianXpartyBoy) — Fri, 17 Feb 2006 21:05:27 PST

Well

After three years almost I think it may be time to retire this site!

I'm not sure yet but, I'm getting hi numbers of hits but its not about that!

I'm not sure how I feel about this site anymore...Or what it has become!

I've seen some of my critics have been busy talking about me....I really am not bothered by them.....When you put you life out on the net people will talk I know this....

Its just that I'm thinking about a new and uncertain future.....I'm not sure about the road ahead anymore.....I'm tired of the so called gay life! Is that possible...

Not men but the entire everything that goes along with it....Maybe I just need a break I don't know....I'm not as sure as I used to be.....

So I'm stepping back for a little while, I'll still be there don't you all think I'm goin away! I'm still going to be doin my things....I'm just goin to be in the back ground for a while....Its better that way for my sanity......

Its time for an reinvention!....I'm oh so good at that!

I'm outz....

gaycanadianxpartyboy@hotmail.com (GayCanadianXpartyBoy) — Fri, 27 Jan 2006 07:24:31 PST

Join me tonight for a faboulous night of danceing at Fly NightClub here in the Mega City Toronto.....

I'll be there with free bees from Manhunt.net.....

Its going to be a fun night and one of many this year that I will be invovled with....

See You out there....

Internal torments abundant.....

gaycanadianxpartyboy@hotmail.com (GayCanadianXpartyBoy) — Mon, 30 Jan 2006 03:13:53 PST

As I once again face times in life that present me with challenges, I think to my self in self imposed solitude...What do I get if I venture down past roads traveled long ago....Pain, sorrow and loss! This I see only in the journey ahead....So what road do I choose the answer seems so simple! Do I forget and move on those who have been my friends and are, like so many times before? I'm torn inside what to do...What to do.....I've found some pictures that best I think shows my feelings this past few weeks......Please know I'm ok just pondering my future, who is in it and who isn't! Trying to do the good thing...Like I always do! Its just hard to let go.........Even more hard to put me first and think of only me.....

let me go don't bring me down this road again...I've seen this place before! Its a horrid place full of pain and sorrow, stop it! No not again..I'm to strong now to not learn from past mistakes....Strong...to strong...keep saying it! Yes..you keep saying it!...You know this! You know all to well! Your evil grip will not hold me ever again! ahhhhh there we go the light I see it! C'mon run with me! I'll hold your hand, I'll hold you when you cry! I'll catch you when you fall!...I wont let go trust me...Run hurry..Before its to late...I can only wait for so long!...This time its do or die!....I choose not to die!

Moving on again

gaycanadianxpartyboy@hotmail.com (GayCanadianXpartyBoy) — Wed, 25 Jan 2006 17:47:25 PST

Its not often I find a blog I can relate to in such a way that I find the need to read the entire blog....

This is one

Acid Refux life and times of a poz guy

His post on dec 13/2006 rings so true...I find this drug lurking around every corner this past few weeks and am very very bothered by it.....

I think I will have to do what I did long ago to protect myself from it and move on I can't afford the hell that is her.....

Trying times are ahead for me but I will survive....

images found at Greek gay Lolita & Life or Meth and other places

Its 5ive O Matic Tonight

gaycanadianxpartyboy@hotmail.com (GayCanadianXpartyBoy) — Fri, 20 Jan 2006 15:08:32 PST

Hey All Feeling Good again Life is back to normal...Well what I define as normal to others it would be shocking I'm sure..On the edge as per......

Tonight join me a 5ive Nightclub in the Megacity center in Toronto for the now famous and for sure infamous Friday night....

Where my new fave gal Resident DJ Sydney Blu will be pumping the tunes, there is something about her tunes that keeps the boyz a coming.....She is just good and well you in my opinion must here her.....

I may be persuaded to send a couple of her CD's to you from a CD launch gig I helped with..Just email me....

In case any of you are curious why I haven't been putting up pics from my adventures through Toronto's village and night club scene well my camera was stolen out a my bag, At Remington's So if your ever there I strongly advise you to watch your things....

So I'm busy trying to find a new camera..There are just so many to choose from...

I'm outz...

Super weekend to you all around the world...Peace..Love & hot Boyzzz LOL

Under the weather

gaycanadianxpartyboy@hotmail.com (GayCanadianXpartyBoy) — Wed, 18 Jan 2006 01:42:33 PST

Australia Collingwood, Victoria 16,256 km from me wow it amazes me the hits I'm getting from just about every where! Welcome everyone to my blog from around the world and especially today Australia!...My common wealth brothers.....Love my mates down there!

Some pics I found over the past few days and a short post below what I'm up to this past few weeks!

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Been not feeling so good the past week or two.....Hence my not posting very often...
I think its a bit of the winter blues....I haven't been taking care of my self lately very well, I go through this every few months for some reason! I just let my self go and can't seem to get out a bed....This time I know the cause to much going out and long nights, they are just going to have to stop its not productive and I feel not well....I think I'm on my way out a them soon!

Met a very interesting guy over the past weekend....Who get this! Wants to talk and even better thinks IM sexy..Not that I'm not..LOL! But the thing is I think he is too..That's important to me...No more men in my life I'm not attracted to its just not fair to him or me....He is totally my type a guy, we will see what happens! We have a few things in common so far that are important and make things so much easier... I'm keeping my schedule open the next while....

Ok...Gentlemen and ladies.....

Look for more posts asap...

Plus I have my new logo done and will be sharing it soon with you all....I'm very excited about that and also will soon have my own flyers and bizz cards soon o promote this site and my bizz ventures....How cool is that!

I'm outz

Thursday Nights Surfing.........

gaycanadianxpartyboy@hotmail.com (GayCanadianXpartyBoy) — Thu, 12 Jan 2006 17:15:10 PST

join me Tonight at Woody's for the Manhunt.net best Chest Contest...

BlogAds.....Get me Wet...

gaycanadianxpartyboy@hotmail.com (GayCanadianXpartyBoy) — Tue, 10 Jan 2006 13:23:49 PST

I would like to welcome My newest additions to the blog....

My BlogAds.....

Please check out my sponsors....They help me to keep this blog up and going, I love this blog but at times need a bit of encouragement to keep it up and they are certainly making it more easy to invest the time needed to keep a blog going.....

I think its kind A cool to have been blogging for as long as I have and to have it turn into such a little business so to speak.....

That being said please take a look at my Blog Ads...

So far I have an awesome resort from Key West, Who have been on here for a few weeks now, They have offered me a free stay at there resort...How cool is that! They are great guys.....I'll be going there soon for sure....RJ at What The has been there many times and has nothing but the best to say about the place, So I'll for sure be going to take a look very soon, Its about time for a well deserved break from the cold up here in frozen Canada.....I've wanted to go to Florida for some time where better to go than Key West!....

And then there are poopers, what gay man doesn't need some of them....And how easy is it to just have them delivered to your door......I have recently used Ebay and ordered stuff online with my new Master Card and love the convince of having what I need delivered....I get UPS shipments all the time and its never been a problem not one time...
In fact I'm busy on Ebay trying to find a Camera.....

I'll never forget the first time I was introduced to poopers, I was fresh out a the closet, a guy had picked me up in the park in Kamloops....He was super hot...All muscular....Took me home and talked all nasty to me....Jerked off all over me while he asked me if I liked his big hot manly muscles and is hot dick...I'll never forget him, and the fact he introduced me to poopers I had no idea what they where! And if only I had figured out what he was talking about when he asked me what I wanted to do with my dick, while he was bent over the bed but in the air.....Oh man...Anyway hot times them old days in the park.....Every time I have a bottle a poopers in the mix I think a that Hot night....

Till next time peeps...

I'm outz...

want to chat with me ad me to Your MSN torjok at hotmail dot com

Thursday Nights Surfing.........

gaycanadianxpartyboy@hotmail.com (GayCanadianXpartyBoy) — Fri, 06 Jan 2006 12:09:10 PST

Wood Street, My Move, And Yes Hockey......

gaycanadianxpartyboy@hotmail.com (GayCanadianXpartyBoy) — Thu, 05 Jan 2006 01:42:51 PST

Well after a very long day I'm in the new apartment....My last move I hope for a very long time...I had a few friends come over and help.....Thank You my dearest Ashley....pics a her below..U know my gay pal.....Much love baby.....

So I can see into every window on Maitland street..A voyeurs fantasy come true...LOL..There must be a thousand plus apartments in close view with thousands more very close.....Hmmm binoculars are a must....Hmmmm...Only thing is now I'm so hi up the neighbours wont be able to watch me late at night up to naughty boy things, oh well..Ha lol.....And after sharing a one bedroom with me best bud...Its going to be oh so fabulous to have my own room again....Yessss..The 1700 a month is worth it....

and no more big smoke stack right beside me from Maple leaf Gardens..Soon to be Maple leaf shopping center..My word.....I bet there are many hockey fans oh to upset about that...Not me in a while I'll have one a the largest food stores an elevator ride away...I love..It....At the same time Its a shame as I grew up watching hockey being played there, I am a hockey fan and for Years used to play when I was a kid in fact almost every day! Bet ya all are surprised on that one...When I was a teen I used to hold season tickets to the Kamloops Blazers and go all the time...Loved it...My seats where behind the hometeam players bench..I especially loved the manly smells..Mmm The hockey boys are hot...I have many fond memories of lusting over the junior hockey team boys....In fact I a few times wondered into there dressing room by accident of course when they caught me...I did go to hi school with many of them who are now in the NHL...Hmmmm to think I saw them naked in PE class.....

You can get a good feel of my hood here.....

I'm one happy boy today....Now that I will be able to get some good nights sleep look for much more posts asap on the blog.....

Here is a bit a history about my street for those out there who are into this stuff its really cool to live on a street named after such a interesting guy.....

Sculpture honours gay magistrate from 1800s
Last Updated Mon, 30 May 2005 08:38:48 EDT
CBC News
TORONTO - A bronze sculpture of one of the country's first openly homosexual public figures has been unveiled in Toronto's gay village.

Hundreds of people attended a parade and ceremony on Saturday to honour Alexander Wood, a 19th-century magistrate who owned land in what has become the city's gay neighbourhood.

The bronze sculpture of Alexander Wood.
Wood, one of Toronto's founding fathers, made no particular attempts to hide the fact that he was gay ?? a highly unusual move at a time when homosexuality was a criminal offence punishable by death.

"He's very important to our community because of what he's done in his past," said Dennis O'Connor, chair of the Church-Wellesley Village Business Improvement Area.

The organization chose Wood for the 2.5-metre-high monument because it sees him as a forefather of the gay community and because of his connections to the area.

"We have a historical link to this neighbourhood that goes back over 200 years," O'Connor told CBC News.

Wood emigrated from Scotland and travelled to Toronto, then known as York, in the late 1700s. He became a prominent merchant and was appointed as a magistrate in 1800.

However, he was driven out of the country a decade later over allegations that arose while he was investigating a rape.

"He had a woman who showed up before him who complained of a rape and said she had scratched the genitals of a young militiaman," O'Connor said.

"As the magistrate, being overzealous I suppose, he decided he would go to Fort York and personally inspect some of the genitals of these young militiamen."

Several of the young soldiers accused him of fondling them and Wood was given the choice of facing sodomy charges or leaving Upper Canada. He returned to Scotland.

Wood became known for the scandal, but some historians say he should be remembered for much more.

"He's noteworthy in a couple of respects," said Mary Rae Chance, a historian with the Toronto Reference Library.

"He's a very significant player in the development of the town of York and the history of Toronto. He was involved in everything from the Toronto Library to the Bank of Upper Canada."

Wood returned to Canada two years later without facing charges and resumed his position as magistrate.

He fought in the War of 1812 and served on a number of boards.

He eventually purchased a parcel of land that included the area where his statue is now located, at the corner of Church and Alexander streets. The latter is named after him.

In his time, Wood was sometimes called a "molly" ?? a derogatory word for homosexual.

He eventually returned to Scotland, where he died in 1846.

Ontario artist Del Newbigging created the statue of Wood.

Its $200,000 cost was shared by the Church-Wellesley Village BIA and the city.

Happy New Year to U all....

gaycanadianxpartyboy@hotmail.com (GayCanadianXpartyBoy) — Wed, 04 Jan 2006 10:00:55 PST

Hot guy of the day!!!....Nummmm isn't he sexy?

A big wet kiss To You allll....

This pic was taken last December some time, Me out with a friend Eddy.....

Its moving day For Me I'm moving into a new apartment in My building way way up....
so Happy friends of mine in the Greater metro Toronto area look for your evite to my house warming web site launch Bash coming soon.....

Ok I'm of to pack my things and get my self to the new digs...

Later

Hugz......

My Thursday night surfing....

gaycanadianxpartyboy@hotmail.com (GayCanadianXpartyBoy) — Fri, 30 Dec 2005 02:27:14 PST

Gay Pimp - Soccer Practice

I had to share this its to funny.......

Gay Pimp - Lookin Cute Feelin' Cute

Ari Gold - Wave Of You-

gay song

gay boyfriend

hard_gay_intro its funny not in English ...

gaycanadianxpartyboy@hotmail.com (GayCanadianXpartyBoy) — Thu, 29 Dec 2005 19:25:02 PST

Found this site a little while ago and am loving the tunes coming from them....
worth a look at for sure....

WFAG RADIO

High5Youth

gaycanadianxpartyboy@hotmail.com (GayCanadianXpartyBoy) — Thu, 29 Dec 2005 15:56:41 PST

I want to share this with you...

high5Youth...

Look for more info on this new and very interesting project, I have had the pleasure of meeting the founder and have pledged my help behind him and his most fabulous web site!

I'm looking further into it and think U should to!....

LXIV. A Last Retrospect

gaycanadianxpartyboy@hotmail.com (GayCanadianXpartyBoy) — Thu, 29 Dec 2005 02:25:04 PST

I got a most interesting email, I'm not sure yet who sent it but I think I know and understand what it was about..I think...am I going crazy or what? It could have just been junk email I don't know....

It had an altered version of this story...

Charles Dickens. (1812–1870). David Copperfield.
The Harvard Classics Shelf of Fiction. 1917.

LXIV. A Last Retrospect

AND now my written story ends. I look back, once more—for the last time—before I close these leaves. 1
I see myself, with Agnes at my side, journeying along the road of life. I see our children and our friends around us; and I hear the roar of many voices, not indifferent to me as I travel on. 2
What faces are the most distinct to me in the fleeting crowd? Lo, these; all turning to me as I ask my thoughts the question! 3
Here is my aunt, in stronger spectacles, an old woman of four-score years and more, but upright yet, and a steady walker of six miles at a stretch in winter weather. 4
Always with her, here comes Peggotty, my good old nurse, likewise in spectacles, accustomed to do needlework at night very close to the lamp, but never sitting down to it without a bit of wax-candle, a yard measure in a little house, and a work-box with a picture of St. Paul’s upon the lid. 5

The cheeks and arms of Peggotty, so hard and red in my childish days, when I wondered why the birds didn’t peck her in preference to apples, are shrivelled now; and her eyes, that used to darken their whole neighbourhood in her face, are fainter (though they glitter still); but her rough forefinger, which I once associated with a pocket nutmeggrater, is just the same, and when I see my least child catching at it as it totters from my aunt to her, I think of our little parlour at home, when I could scarcely walk. My aunt’s old disappointment is set right, now. She is godmother to a real living Betsy Trotwood; and Dora (the next in order) says she spoils her.

continue here
ok I'm of to bed....

Artist to share

gaycanadianxpartyboy@hotmail.com (GayCanadianXpartyBoy) — Thu, 29 Dec 2005 00:56:11 PST

this image found here
First I want everyone to know I wish them all a very happy new year and a prosperous future.....

I have been riveted by this new drama on my local digital TV called Sleeper cell!, It actually brought me to tears after watching the first nine episodes this past few weeks and the tenth this evening..I must say I have a much deeper appreciation for what is going on in the word from deferring perspective, All though this show is very American in its points of view I really think one with a critical thinking background can take much more out of it than what is shown visually or story line wise.....It really made me think about my points of view on the whole state of the world and what is going on...This program actually made me cry..And that doesn't happen very often....It really made me think hard, this is something I truly admire in a show and why I'm sharing this with you all...(note U can find this program on line if you know how)

I only hope that we never see a day that what this show shows us come to be, as the world I think would not be ready for an United States of America or its allies reaction to such evil...It really saddens me that that there are people out there that wish harm on us and are way of life....

So that being said I wish the world peace and strongly urge any and all to see this series....

Now on to some art I found by artist Maria J. William

...You can find out more here I really like the first one as I think it depicts someone who is trying to see good in a world that presents only bad to them...And the hope that after they see that good it opens up other doors in there lives...When your surrounded by darkness its easy to see the light but only if your looking, some of us are so lost in the dark that we can no longer even know the light exists!

SO that being said I offer to you my light at the end...Just come to me, see my light..I offer you me. I'll be there please stop what your doing and I'll be there but not until.......In other words this image represents the bitch and how over powering she can be....The little flower is hope....Many of you may know what that means some not, the ones who do are the important one here..... "The Secret Desires Of Demons
Media: watercolor, colored pencils, sepia
Sometimes demons, too, long for beauty and peace."

this next one I'll leave my interpretation to my self "Wings

Media: oil on illustration board

I usually prefer to leave the meaning of my paintings open to interpretation, but lots of people have asked me about this one, so I'll answer. The basic idea was to convey the feelings of those who feel trapped in a life they did not create for themselves, those who are trying to break free, or at least pretend they're someone else. "

that it for now I'm still feeling ill and have been in bed for days now....Hopefully I will be back in fine shape soon, I was out Sunday thinking I was better only to be slapped in the face reminded that my body doesn't heal as fast as it used to...You think I would learn my lessons, thank goodness for past experiences and my vain vain vanity or I would let past mistakes go un headed as some do I just can't let my body get run down My future and my past will not let that happen. So I rest and hope for a better day tomorrow....Sleep induced or not is a good thing...

one last thing for today

a referring URL I wanted to share that I find most interesting....I think it shows a point of evolution on the internet.....A fine site worth investigating, and I do say so myself! That I do....C'mon please it's me here!

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