GenderEvolve - Transgender Transformation

WOW 2009.... You shocked the heck out of me..

2009-11-22T13:48:00.000-08:00

There was no way I saw this coming. I started 2009 with same level of frustration and discomfort as any of my prior years since acknowledging and accepting myself. Each year started without any reasonable expectation that better things would come to pass. I have since come to understand that as hopeless, that lacking of. Not hopeless as in unemployed, homeless, struggling with addiction issues

Trannier Than Thou?

2009-07-11T15:27:00.000-07:00

I've been online sharing quality time with so many beautiful transladies, on and off since 2005. There's one thing that I have observed time and again, which seems to play a big factor for many of you. It seems like a lot of people in this community ascribe to some kind of trans-heirarchy, where it is deemed that those who are "more trans" are somehow better than those who are "less trans"...

500 Channels

2009-06-19T13:34:00.000-07:00

With all the things I’ve come to believe about my existence and life manifestation I’m always wondering about nurture, nature and channeling past experiences especially towards my feminine expression.There have been several studies on the propensities of 1st or 3rd sons being gay or gender variant (I’m a 3rd). I do know that after 2 boys my mother was hoping like crazy for a daughter. I can

Is Gender Still Evolving?

2009-06-07T14:21:00.000-07:00

After having been extremely active in the online transgender community for a couple of years as the hostess and facilitator of http://www.genderevolve.com/ and genderevolve.blogspot.com , I decided to go offline for awhile to pursue my career. Words cannot express how much I missed you during this time, yet I had to stay very focused to accomplish some of my life goals. Now that I have achieved a

Pardon me, may I have the last 30 minutes of my life?

2009-06-07T12:49:00.000-07:00

I would like to thank OpenLetterstoKRXQ.wordpress.com for posting the podcast of The Rob, Arnie and Dawn show on KRXQ in Sacramento. I was reading all sorts of complaints about one of their shows in which Rob and Arnie were suggesting violence to children who express gender identity disorder and had not hear it myself. Thank you. Now,Who do I see to get back the last 30 minutes of my life?I

My Wife, Bob

2008-09-22T13:57:00.000-07:00

I often wonder sometimes how I would have reacted if the shoe was on the other foot - that being, that, if one night, my wife would have come to bed, got under the sheets and surprised me wearing Men's Briefs and genitalia to compliment them. Could I be ok with that, if it were me?Lets take it a step further and add in Male hormones, a boy hair cut, facial hair and she would now like YOU to

Comprehensive NCTE & NGLTF TG Survey

2008-09-13T09:59:00.000-07:00

Comprehensive National Survey on Transgender Discrimination Launched by National Center for Transgender Equality and National Gay and Lesbian Task Force"This is an absolutely critical national effort. We urge all transgender and gender non-conforming people to take the survey to help guide us in making better laws and policies that will improve the quality of life for all transgender people. We

Geographical Cure

2008-07-11T13:37:00.000-07:00

I've been fixating on a geographical cure for my ailments lately. It's not so much that I expect a new locale to fix me, or make my life "unbroken". I really believe that doesn't work. I feel its time to just start living.I spent way too much time doing the opposite. Which is to say, waiting to die. I started to realize around 5 or 6 that I was different from others and shortly thereafter I

Comprehending roots of animosity toward transgenderism: Building a bridge based on mutual understanding

2008-07-05T23:00:00.000-07:00

Lessons Learned

2008-05-04T18:23:00.000-07:00

The price of happiness has no currency when it draws upon the dignity and happiness of those that it takes from.My reflection lied to you, you could not see or acknowledge my pain.You failed to catch so many tears… Now I leave you behind, never to return.… am I fool?There is no replacing your losses and I can’t understand the reason I continue to try? A wounded dove, poised to fly - your tears

Every Choice Has Its Price

2008-04-12T22:16:00.000-07:00

Erik Erickson, a famous developmental psychologist, revealed that adolescents must first develop a sense of identity before they can learn to be intimate with others. In his view, we must first know and love ourselves before we can love another. Carol Gilligan took a stance contrary to Erickson’s view in that traditional adolescent females learn to be intimate before they develop their

The Tell Tale Heart

2008-04-02T23:05:00.000-07:00

In our society today, it would be hard to find someone to argue the point that beauty will get you ahead in life. But does beauty quench your soul?Reading Teri’s Blog and then engaging in a discussion in her comments section, reminded me of how I once mused out the window for days at a time, in deep thought about “all of this trans business”. The permanence of my thoughts brought me back to the

Comfort Spending & Fantasy Masturbating

2008-03-18T07:53:00.000-07:00

I am cleaning out my closet and spare rooms and re-organizing them. I have come across a lot of things that I want to donate to the Battered Women's Shelter here in Akron, Ohio. While cleaning, what struck me was not how much useless things I have accumulated over the past years, but WHY I acquired them in the first place. I thought about it all after noon and now I am writing my journal to

What's a GEM?

2008-03-12T22:22:00.001-07:00

Dear Sisters,I miss our conversations and thought I would initiate a discussion andhoping that you would share your ideas.I am still in the ongoing process of self-identification. I am also atthat age and point in life where I wonder if I will transition beyondthe modest steps I have taken thus far. I have not taken further stepsbecause to do so, would likely pose more of a cost than a benefit

Susan Stanton, the Hate Bandwagon and good ol' fashioned B.O.D.

2008-01-09T21:24:00.000-08:00

I was recently made aware of an article from the St Petersburg Times written by Lane DeGregory. This article, addressing the preceding year in the life of Susan Stanton, the City of Largo FL's former city manager. Some will remember Ms Stanton being very publicly outed as transgendered and subsquently dismissed.Well, this is where the firestorm took off. Fueled from the residual anger over the

Surround Yourself With Love

2008-01-06T15:16:00.000-08:00

In our everyday life we are surrounded by a variety of people. Some of the people we deal with on a daily basis are a joy to be with, and their loving presence nurtures and encourages us. Others may have the opposite effect, draining us of our energy, making us feel tired and exhausted. Our well-being can be easily influenced by those around us, and if we can keep this in mind, we will have

Demonstrating Respect

2008-01-02T13:58:00.000-08:00

For the Parents, Relatives, Friends, Professionals and Supporters of Transgendered individuals.Do you have someone Transgendered (TG) in your life and no matter what you say, you seem to upset them? No matter where you are with your own personal level of understanding or comfort level of Transgender people, following these simple and basic principals you can show respect and make the

Expeditious Freefall

2007-12-28T21:53:00.000-08:00

In one’s Trans-sagacity of musing, innocuous facts of the mind can link together becoming valuable conclusions for which one was not even originally seeking… they are however, indeed most treasured miracles of the divine…“EF” is a paramount moment in one’s Transition; self coined as being a state of “Expeditious Freefall”; a euphoric decompression on the equinox of “Mind”, “Body” and “Spirit”

Hidden Mystery Breaking Free

2007-12-26T19:23:00.000-08:00

Of all things that exist, our creator built into his designs a breaking limit; whether it be the speed of light or the power of love. Anything “created” can be broken “He take’ith, he give’ith”. Matters of the heart & mind are no exceptions.Pursuing a transitional life in essence is arguably the most selfish act one can partake. It is a journey of honesty with a price tag of everything you are

TransStation Demarcation

2007-12-13T16:08:00.000-08:00

“Transition” can be a succession of concessions in a constant state of flux.Starting a transitional journey, there are certain truths we define for our selves; but the realities that arise later along the way AND the discoveries we make within, can act as a catalyst to personal growth. AKA: “ReEvaluation time”, which in turn can reshape ones "OTHER" own opinions within themselves. To the outsider

My Sexual Orientation: I Am What I Am

2007-12-05T11:47:00.000-08:00

If there is one thing consistent that I have learned about myself, it’s that my fancies’s can play as fickle as a fiddle from a pickle barrel of violins!I do a lot of reading here on 360, many about either sprinting to the O.R. for surgeries, others about loss of family, but few I find that discuss ones Transition of their sexual orientation.At this stage of my transition from a male to a female,

Stealth III

2007-11-28T20:05:00.000-08:00

Stealth IIII've discussed with several Post-Op transsexuals all the elements involved in becoming stealth after the physical & legal changes are complete. Finally their psyche, body and soul are synchronized and there is nothing to halt them from living as they felt they should have been born. Most I have talked to want to be stealth in terms of never having to disclose their past. They want to

Happy Holidays

2007-11-22T11:41:00.000-08:00

Okay, some silliness for the holidays. ElfYouself!!

Stealth II

2007-11-21T07:57:00.000-08:00

Stealth?... II Last week I began to explain my views about the elements involved with perspectives about the transgender mindset and going stealth, but due to space I wasn't able to cover a lot of things. Among the principal reasons to aspire to achieve such invisible state is a parting of ways with things in Transgendered World. Many XG people find a tremendous impact when discovering they are

Your friendship.

2007-11-14T19:09:00.000-08:00

After digging through tons of CDs, floppies, Dat tapes, etc, I finally found one of the many poems I've written a few years ago to my feminine side. Something I did for about 10 years and very far from the place I am today.I had no idea I would be getting to the place I live in today! Yet, after reading this one, no wonder.This is more than a poem, a letter I wrote to myself in the same fashion I