Of Dreams and Rainbows

hmmmm....

2012-01-09T00:44:00.000-08:00

Today, quite a boring day. Neither exciting nor happening. However, I'm enjoying every second of it!

It's not like every and other day when you can sit back and tumblr-ing all day long. Or even having your Facebook's page opened in a tab, twitter in another, Youtube in the next and still couldn't be bother much to look at it cause you're too busy reading "A Walk To Remember" on your mom's tab.

Even though you had done sweeping and mopping the floor, and the laundries, literally being the maid of the house. Those washed clothes are still sitting in the basket for quite some time now, waiting to be hang, by the way. Just got yelled at by mom because of it. Bleh! Everything seems blissful. Well, that's the life of a sem-breaker! wtf?!

I wanna go to the beach and see sunsets and sunrise! There's special thing about shore hitting waves and the sound of it that kidnap away the depressed side of you and restore back the bright lovely smile back on your face. That's how special it is. :))))

Toodles, C

Week 1 of 2012

2012-01-07T09:17:00.000-08:00

Kicking off 2012 with two weeks of sem break! Le awesomeness!

So, I countdown to 2011 with awesome accompanies at Seafarer. This year, i countdown to 2012 with awesome accompanies at Seafarer too! That's how i kick start 2012 with my FIRST EVER beach party. I'm very much feeling the om-ness. We were sorta D pendatang haram that night! The others had to pay RM68 to enjoy but we paid nothing. Nyeh! And we still dance LIKE A BOSS! The DJ's songs selection weren't that good but the fireworks made it up! :) Didn't took any photos tho *sad* my BB quite suckish lar.. What to do? No money wanna buy Iphone. But YOU ARE WELCOME TO SPONSOR ME ONE! hee.

Anyhow, the things i had been doing consist of:

#1 Being the maid of the house

#2 Attending other Uni's event instead of my own

#3 Tumblr-ing

#4 Facebook-ing

#5 Tweeting

#6 Chasing the sisters around, driving them up the walls :) (this is what elder sis does best *wink wink*)

#7 Thinking of new year resolutions, adding up to the already quite long list of New Year Resolutions

#8 Thinking of how to conteng conteng my Starbucks planner! (Won one and redeem one, I happy!)

#9 Sleeping more than 8 hours! Yay!

#10 Slacking

#11 More slacking

#12 More and more slacking!

Don't judge me. Slacking is good! once in awhile. When uni start, I wouldn't even have time to slack anymore. Yeap, I'm using my sem break to the fullest. Hahaha!

Slacking With Love,

SHOOO FREAKING TRUEEE!!!

2011-12-23T17:15:00.000-08:00

My Lesbian CrushES

2011-12-18T07:18:00.000-08:00

#1 Anne Hathaway

#2 Tyra Banks

#3 Britanni Kline (ANTM's Cycle 16 Winner)

#4 Emma Watson

#5 Allison Harvard (ANTM's cycle 17 All Star) (She's my favorite)

#6 Barbara Palvin

#7 Miranda Kerr (new found love!)

Love all them. Young and doing great stuff.

Salute!

I'll do great too, C

drools

2011-12-17T02:05:00.000-08:00

I wanna eat all those can!

Yum yum, C

Say?

2011-12-16T02:00:00.000-08:00

Sup! I should be studying right now for me finals.

Blogging is just another act of procrastination. Bleh.

Woke up this morning, feeling real cranky and grumpy.

I let it out on my mom. :(

Fought back what she said. Double :(((

Sorry, Mommy.

Everything just doesn't feel right today.

From that breakfast till my messy room (caused by sis, fyi)

Till the frustration of finding no where to study.

Anyway, things got better after a nap and surfing the net. :)

And endless tumblr-ing.

I tell you. Tumblr is way way way addictive!!

Haha.

Toodles, <3,

7 things

2011-12-11T19:18:00.001-08:00

So starting from this week, i would post up 7 things that make me happy for the week.
As for last week, *let the pictures tell u the story*

Of endless mamak sessions that never fail to last from the day before till the break of a new day.
Of friends that i know i can lean on forever. :)

Of simple breakfast and lunch that simply cherished my day.

Eggs and Oats for breakfast

Apple for the lunch

A bottle of honeyed lady grey to get me through the day

Of shopping that make everyone happy. :)

Of new found friends that i know would last forever. :)

Of Stabilo pens that simply colour my life.

Something

2011-12-10T22:01:00.001-08:00

Oh Hi there.
I'm still around. Waking up everyday, getting a little stronger. :)

The event went great. Some hiccups here and there but it was all well. By the way, it was 3 weeks ago. Kinda late update but what to do? Got ASSIGNMENTS mah. Anyway, it was a great experience. Not to mention, it's my first time organizing an event and it involved local Malaysian's artist. I found myself falling for Vic Teo's amazing performance. :)

With Vic himself. :)

Grouping with 'people' for assignment is a very bad thing especially with uncooperative people. Ended up, doing more work than you should and endless cursing extravaganza. The worst is what they have to say when the result came out as average marks which was what almost all of the other groups get. I was fairly disappointed too kay.

On the happier side, he knew i wasn't happy about it and was talking crap, trying to make me laugh until i shot him with a cold expression and with a jelingan maut. He straight shut up and look away. And the whole process repeats again. Thinking about this makes me smile but i know things wouldn't turn out the way i want it to be.

Anyway, i would treasure the moments we had, although most of it consist of you telling me about her. It hurts but I'm keeping it that way. At least, we can have heart to heart talks and sometimes i wish u can shut up because seriously you can never stop talking. *I donno why i even smiling when im typing this out*

I wanna keep u as a best friend so i wont loose u for forever.

Still feeling the sting of the pain, C

Rejections to Perfections

2011-11-21T01:53:00.001-08:00

A girl who is interested in becoming a model must first accept the fact that she is the product. She must be ready to deal with a lot of rejection. -Karolina Kurkova-

I have no whatsoever interest in becoming a model but i find this quote is somewhat girls face everyday, facing rejection. So, now, i'm working my way through rejection and to perfection.

Ps: Yes. I'm at Starbucks. Starbucks had some what became my refuge by the way.

Pss: And yes. I curled my hair. Starting to kinda love it now. I just hope it doesn't make me look 'mature'. haha

<3, C

Hi :)

2011-11-06T00:47:00.000-07:00

I wanna do whatever i wanna do whatever i wanna do and i will do whatever i wanna do. Life's short. Live with no regrets. :)

I know. I do have a tiny lil bit of PMS. haha. I was so emo yesterday and today i feel like I'm top of the world. Crazy, i know.

Ps: there's a lil reason i adore the above quote in the picture. :)

Pss: Bang Bang Bang, this time i win. I thought your love was that all. I can finally say that I got bangs! :) kaythxbai. iknowitstotallyirrelavantwiththelyricsbutilike. =D

<3, C

我放不下

2011-11-05T01:00:00.000-07:00

知道你的心属于那个她
但。。。我真的放不下
不敢和你说，因为我害怕改变
害怕跟你说了，就不会像现在一样的打打闹闹
只能默默的在你身边守护着你
我真的疯了
在你面前可以装的什么都没有
还帮你追她
还可以安慰你

哪天，你们真的在一起了
该怎么面对，我不知道

这永远都会是一个秘密
可是，真的很想跟你说
我真的真的很喜欢你。。。

Something I Will Never Tell You

2011-10-29T05:49:00.000-07:00

I wish I could tell him but I can't because it changes every single thing. Although it hurts every inch of me. I can't can't ignore him. I can't can't not talk to him even if I do, he will come and bug me. We are in a gang which has 15 people in it. Every actions of mine would trigger their suspicion. Plus, we are in the same lecture class, same tutorial class. We have lunch together and sometimes even dinner. We have our breaks together. Wow. Listing all these down seems so overwhelm. How do I managed to do all these?? Amazed.

I'm doing every things that are opposite of how i feel in front of him. ~~Shutting down all my feelings.~~ Pretending and acting. Holding my composure. How i wish feelings can be switch on and off just like how we switch on and off lights. Just a click and there you go.

I guess when i get older, I understand what is more important in life. Balancing happiness and sadness, life. Like how a libra does. Stroking the balance of life. Because imbalance freaks us out.

"Laughter is not always 'the best medicine'... Sometimes, it's just 'the best disguise' to hide the pain within..." I find this true when u can't laugh but only with the help of liquor.

Till I find the right one,

Love, C

I couldn't help but to be emo.

2011-10-25T11:53:00.000-07:00

Yet another sleepless night with the acid re-flux in my stomach going so badly strong.

Just yesterday night I told myself the feeling was real which i have been telling myself it's not because I dont want to, for quite some time.

Ironically, the world always go against your will, like how birds go against gravity, like how rebellious teenagers are toward their parents.

I just had to know that one thing which goes against all of the hopes of my heart ~~wishes~~ wished.

And that had brought me to how i feel throughout the whole day and it gets never better but worst until this moment right now.

It questioned me, why do i had to be the one?

Not once but twice.

Am i that bad?

Till the world ends.

</3,

Till-I-Figure-This-Out

2011-10-21T03:49:00.000-07:00

Rainy night just like yesterday and the day before.

But I can't get comfy in the bed cause MATHS TEST tomorrow.

Oh well, that's the life of a Utar-ian.

ABC soup.
My all time favourite. Period.
Oh yes. I added an egg too.
And yes. I'm back dieting again.
Been gaining fats much lately. :(
I'm already fat and I still adding fats to my body. AINT COOL.
So yea. Diet it is.

Till then,

<3,

Maths Test on Saturday and I'm SLACKING!

2011-10-20T05:14:00.000-07:00

I'm very pro at procrastination. :)

A test that we passed. :)

2011-10-09T07:41:00.000-07:00

Friendship is a test. I believe if we pass that test, the friendship remains forever.

Ps: there's like tonnes of people missing from this pic!

<3, C

Forever MIA

2011-10-04T08:40:00.000-07:00

One month since i last blogged!
One freaking month!
A lot of things been going on.
Life learning lesson should be the name of it.
Oh well.
That's the life.
Another 30mins and your truly officially been on this land for 2 decades.
Looking forward for tomorrow but somehow scary!
Cause i have no ideas what my mates gonna do. lol

Smile always.

Toodles.

The after finals

2011-09-08T02:51:00.000-07:00

Home is the best place to be at all times. Cheers!

And yeap! I finished my last papers like 7hours ago. I'm telling you, my finals gon be shit. Hard like mad. Everyone came out of exam hall looking all traumatised after EVERY SINGLE PAPER including critical thinking which is i-donno-what-the-hell-i-paid-for-this-kinda sub.

Till then, i got ONE WEEK OF SEM BREAK. yup. One week only. Pretty sad huh? I gonna make the best out of it. :)

I been craving for a holiday at the beach which is so not in peninsular malaysia. If its at Redang, then it's okay. haha. But before that, I gotta go on diet first. Bleh!

Love life like there's no tomorrow. <3

I HATE UNGRATEFUL PEOPLE!

2011-09-02T22:36:00.000-07:00

I need to RANT!

Some people is just unbelievable.

Gosh.

You know, I'm mostly very nice to people.

I will seriously care for you from the bottom-est of my heart.

But sometimes, people just take it for granted.

And i seriously do not like it at all.

The moment i start to feel that way, you watch out.

Cause i will slowly distance myself.

There's seriously some regrets going on right now.

Ps: Gotta continue understanding electron transport chain. I have got like 6 chapters of bio to me memorise before the day ends. oh yes. seriously.

This feel so much better. YAY!

Peace out!

Bye!

Nerding-Up

2011-09-02T15:59:00.000-07:00

Yeap.

Last 2 days of revision and I'm not even close to 3 quads of the things i should have study.

So doomed!

I swear studying is the most diet-unfriendly thing ever! Gosh. Not good at all.

Met Amber Chia while i was in one of my study trip in Starbucks.

First thought was like, is she having anorexia? Maybe that's was the second. but whatever. She's mad SKINNY. Wearing skinny jeans aint got no effect on her. So i guess, that's how a zero size supposed to be.

Anyway, on a happier note, 5 more days till I'm home. <3

Nothing much

2011-08-28T00:46:00.000-07:00

Much of a hiatus eh?! haha.
Will try my best to blog more which i think is quite impossible to happen.

Life's been great.
Very 'fulfilling' indeed. By 'fulfilling', i mean test, assignment, reports etc etc.
Sad eh?! What to do. C'est La Vie. :)

I is supposed to be on holiday. Raya next week. But thanks to finals and stuck here in my room at PJ all alone. Darn pathetic. Like seriously. There's a lil bit of regretting going on. :(
If my finals didn't lives to my expectation, I seriously would jump down from the building. A virtual 100 floor building. haha.

Anyway, recap of what's been going on. Scroll down, before u got boring with all my craps.

I DONATED BLOOD FOR THE FIRST TIME. :)

Been dreading to do this for the longest time ever SINCE the day i turned 18.

Back then, i was on medication so they dont allow me to.

Met Some awesome peeps. They can make me laugh like mad. Sarcasm is where all the funs are. :)

Been to Sushi King like for more than a few times in 2 months.

Till the manager recognised us.

All thanks Sushi King Bonanza.

Madness. RM2 per plate.

You do get what i meant by revisiting sushi kings a few times right? lol

Went Gary Chao's concert for FREE! :0

Bullied by my lil cousin. lol.

The horrid condition my bed got into when I'm studying.

The girl holding my phone very pretty eh? haha

Everyone is glam up. Well, except me, obviously.

Can't wait to get home. It's been 2 weeks. :(
Couldn't understand how i took it when I was in Taiwan.

I is very missing the peeps beside.
Home is where the heart is. Very true enough.
I wanna eat homecook-ed meals.\
I wanna be spoilt by mummy.
I wanna listen to daddy nagging how fat i'm getting. lol.
I wanna run around the house chasing my sis while she avoiding me kissing her. haha. Sister's love.
I wanna hear my sis budging me to buy chocolate for her.
I wanna listen to bb girl playing piano.
Homesick much.
Some thing that is unbearable period.

And yes! I forgotten the most important thing. Missie Foong's birthday. :)

Philosophy of life:

Peace out.

Vampires

2011-05-05T19:11:00.000-07:00

Don't you think vampires tv series are so misleading nowadays?

Being blinded by what the tv showed us instead of the scary creatures that stroll down the road at night with crazy sharp teeth to bite your neck and drawn all the blood away from you forgetting the fact that the vampire might just another fat dude.

See?! Get what i mean!!

Where got vampire so hot one???!!!!!!

I can just look at him all day long and just be mesmerized.

lol. That sounds so wrong but who cares!!

He's too f'cking PERFECT!

Plus he is super devoted to charity, environment and issues happening around the world.

And he created his own foundation, ISF just for all these great causes.

Mad awesome aite!

Was planning to talked about how misleading tv could be nowadays but yours truly just got carried away a tiny little bit. hehe.

Maybe just another one aite.

Another one?

So freaking jealous of Nina Dobrev. Ian Sommerhalder is her bf in real life. In Vampire Diaries, she got Paul Wesley as her bf. Dang it! How she take it??

Blame it on alcohol :)

2011-04-30T23:13:00.000-07:00

I got so many thoughts and feelings within me but i just don't know where to start. :)

After a night of sneakingly ~~steal~~ 'uncovered' my dad's alcohol collections, singing and dancing all night long in my crib (you don't have to tell me its pathetic, i do feel hapless aite? lol), the pain wasn't that bad as before. As suck-ish as the bottle of Camus's 10years red wine, it still did the magic after all. *evil grins*

Somehow, during that half intoxicated half clear-headed moment, I realised, its all in my head. What I think is what I feel. I can totally snap out this in just one second. Then, i started reading tweets, there's still someone out there, blah blah blah, all those kinds of lies you tell yourself. Posting stupid things on facebook and tell myself to delete it before 3am cause he will be online by then and yes as smart as i am, wtf, he came online and he doesn't has a clue what's going on cause all those posts were deleted minutes before he arrived. Re-telling this just make me feel so stupid and silly. lol. For heaven's sake, why the hell I did what i did?

Today, I woke up feeling much more better. Either the alcohol had not wear off or the so-called-reflect on things the other way, I don't know but it work! *smiley face*

*all the above had been typed last night*

My dad deliberately off the wifi as a way of banishing me to bed which work every single time :( Who am i trying to kid? What's life without internet connections? lol.

Anyway, now, i do think that if you change how you think, it will change what you feel. Does that makes any sense for you? hmm. At least it does to me for NOW. Who knows what's gonna happen tomorrow. I'm girl with a mood that's ever-changing, roller coaster mood swing is just a normal daily life thing.

And singing to FUCK YOU by Ceelo Green do helped! Big time. I mean it.

All and all, I still believe there's still someone out there. lol. Time come and pass, maybe for one time I would meet my prince charming. wtf. This is so freaking not me. Where the hell does that come from. lol.

Waiting for that price charming,

casey

The Contary

2011-04-25T08:46:00.000-07:00

For the countless times, I been imaging the most dynamic-romantic-dramatic love stories in my brain whenever I thought of him.

~~Naively~~ I thought he has the same affection for me too. Today, all of sudden, out of no freaking where, I felt like I'm in a unrequited love affair. *sad face*

For two weeks, my emotions had been a bumpy road. The straight roads that I thought it was all good, moments of giggling and thinking of you. Then, there's the cross road, the doubtful and confused.

I really wonder what K told me is true because your actions are telling me the reverse. I keep telling myself that he might be shy or not having the guts. Now, the idea of my feelings are contrary with what they told me, how you feel for me, never stop running through.

You asked me on a date without telling me the time and date. Its that a joke or you really mean it? *sigh* I feel like i am dumbass now for falling for you so easily. Of all the people, all the places, all the options, I never thought I would fell for you.

Never thought of it till K told me. That night, when I cant stop thinking about you, I realised.

Three more weeks and I'm outta this working life. By then, if nothing happens, will I see you again?

Pondering on those question marks seems never ending. What's it gonna be? Just follow the flow?

Shit happened!

2011-04-20T05:34:00.000-07:00

HI peeps!

Went for university interview today and it went smoothly until the dude ask me what is PBL and TCB (something like that). No idea what is that till he say PBL stands for Problem based learning. So i just crapped out. Bleh! It doesn't work. Cause he told me to get more understanding of what is Mode of teaching and Mode of Learning. That's the moment when I really wanna dig a hole and shove my head inside and never comes out till he leaves. Mad embarrassing!

Ps: lesson to learn, NEVER EVER crap some bullshit in front of a doctor. lol

Anyway last few days had been a real lesson of life.

Its confusing-exciting-nerve racking-happy?-sorta feelings. Now, what's left was a bunch of question marks. Its amazing what guys can to that to girl. Lol.

I'm trying to get over it but its not that easy as I say it. Its a piece of shit, like seriously. I'm working at a place where I knew him so it constantly reminding me about him. *sad face* His name appear everywhere. His stuff. Colleagues. Aint an easy thing to deal with.

I really wonder how i will handle myself next week when i see him FACE TO FACE.

Whatever! I left about 3 and 1/2 weeks to work and I'm off to college. Let's just hope I don do harm to anyone or myself during this period. hahaha.

On the bright side, I can ~~finally~~ say that i got a crush before at the age of 20. Yea. I know, its pathetic. So stop laughing kay.

Its okay, anyway. I know there's still someone other much better than him. lol. Someone who deserve me more.

Till then,

Casey

Of Dreams and Rainbows

hmmmm....

Week 1 of 2012

SHOOO FREAKING TRUEEE!!!

My Lesbian CrushES

*drools*

Say?

7 things

Something

Rejections to Perfections

Hi :)

我放不下

Something I Will Never Tell You

I couldn't help but to be emo.

Till-I-Figure-This-Out

Maths Test on Saturday and I'm SLACKING!

A test that we passed. :)

Forever MIA

The after finals

I HATE UNGRATEFUL PEOPLE!

Nerding-Up

Nothing much

Vampires

Blame it on alcohol :)

The Contary

Shit happened!

drools