Goodnight My Raven

OMG!

2011-04-07T22:50:00.000-05:00

Ok so HI FANS! =) Sorry I haven't posted in a while a LOT of stuff has been going mad over here lol. Wow what a world, always something to do lol oh well better to have something to do than be bored out of my mind huh? lol Anyway, I;m thinking about starting a FREASH...NEW...BLOG lol but anywayz....so I've gotten my nana (yes my NANA!) hooked on ADAM LAMBERT! YIPPIE! lol She said "oh we HAVE to get a poster for my room and your room and we have to get us like 5 adam almbert t shirts a piece! Oh and we HAVE to go to walmart and buy EVERY SINGLE ALBUM!" lol my nana is soooo awesome. Yes, i've moved YET AGAIN. Made the move to the CITY WOOT! Country girl in the big city lol imagine how weird it was my first night! AHHHHH lol oh well I love it here, but I do miss my dad ='( but he visits so im happy lol ummmm lets see what else.......oh im starting a graphic design business! I;m sooo happy about that! I hope it just shoots off like a rocket! Oh but all the things I have to do...city hall this....license that.....pay this....get a PO box that....lol UGH! talk about pulling out my hair! lol its way worth it though. Hmmmm I got me a new phone so my mom wont mess with me....she has anyway -sigh- oh and I seen where a girl fainted at an adam lambert concert i said "omg that'd sooo be me!" I wish adam would come down closer to my area lol. Soooo...my 18th birthday is in JUNE! I cant wait!=) I had the most amazing dream about it to lol a huge box was brought out to my nanas it was white with a big blue ribbon (and I mean the box was HUGE like empire state building type of huge lol new car huge HUMMER HUGE lol) and I pulled the ribbon and the box fell apart and ADAM LAMBERT CAME OUT SINGING "FOR YOUR ENTERTAINMENT" AHHHHHH I wish it was real...I told my nana that would be the best birthday EVER! lol but that stuff never really happens =( oh well....thank goodness for dreams lol anyways ummm the link to my new blog is....ummm ill get it later and update it ^.^ lol

RTS Games?

2011-02-27T00:15:00.000-06:00

Ok, I've been totally addicted to a few games lately, I have no idea why. I've gotten onto what they call RTS games or "god games". Yes, I'm christian and they say playing god is wrong, but im not playing THE god, plus I dont take it that way. I'm currently getting a game called "Afterlife" I believe, seems like a fairly decent game. I wish they could combine Black and White with Afterlife because It only makes sense a RTS game when you play as a "god" of some sort you control the afterlife part to right? In Black and White 2 I know you can have torture pits and things, which I never use but eventually my villagers commit crimes as their belief naturally decreases much like a few people in reality. I just wish you could choose from a few more "creatures" in the game. The wolf is great, but 9 times out of 10 the cow just looks terrified, but cute lol. If anyone else has any good ideas for any games like that please comment i'm sure everyone would love to hear about them ^_^ so, bottom line, PLAY BLACK AND WHITE 1 OR 2, THE SECOND ONE IS THE BEST ONE YET!

For Christians and non alike =)

2011-01-08T23:14:00.000-06:00

Ok i'm going to go on and say this because this has bothered me for YEARS. Ok so when I was younger like 9 or so I had a dream about "the end of times". Now I was your average little girl,ponies rainbows and teddy bears. This night I went to bed like I normally did, nothing was different at all. In my dream the first thing I seen was my house, I was walking around. We had a window way above the sink in the kitchen at my old house and in my dream it was the only window not boarded up. I went to the living room and my mom was in her chair, my dad on the couch. I asked to go outside to play with my dog snuggles, my mom refused to let me. I,of course, asked her why and she said simply "It's the end". I didnt understand what she had said, so I pulled a chair in front of the sink window and looked outside. It was sunny like always, nothing was different at first. Then suddenly my dog started barking at something and...people I assume came up out of the ground, some on fire others falling apart. Some came up normal looking and burst into flames and started screaming "HELP ME LORD HELP ME!" but he didnt help them. Some came to the window and hit it begging for water or anything to get rid of the flames and my mom grabbed me and pulled me away from the window, then I woke up. Then I woke up my pillow was wet from crying and I was so terrified I couldnt get up because It was almost morning and I was afraid I'd look outside and see those awful things. After HOURS of laying there still as a statue I finally got up and managed to get to my parents room and say to my mom in between slight screaming "I had a bad dream" my mom stayed up with me for hours after that. A few days later I was back to normal then about a year later my preacher said "The end" and I actually got up and ran out I couldnt help it. I'm almost 18 now, i've had that SAME reaction for this long. They say its post trumatic stress or whatever. Either way i'll say this, God/Jesus wouldnt put innocent people through that awful mess. I listened to a preacher talk about 23 minutes in hell "Bill Wiese". If he's telling the absolute truth then I feel sorry for any poor soul damned to that place. And i'll say this, that man said when he experienced hell that he kept looking at the demons and saying "no one can beat these things!" I beg to differ. I have never seen hell and I hope I never will. But no matter how big bad and ugly a demon looks, god can kick its can lol. Bottom line, the end of times scare me to death, but I know I wont have to suffer it if I'm saved neither will anyone else. =)

Join me on yearbook!

2011-01-08T21:16:00.000-06:00

Hey everybody! I'm getting irregular about blogging sorry =) anyway I have a myyearbook if anybody wants to add me heres the link
http://www.myyearbook.com/?mysession=cmVnaXN0cmF0aW9uX3JlZ2lzdHJhdGlvbiZ1aWQ9Mjk5NDc5NDMmaW52aXRlPXllcw==

Oh and if anyone wants to add me on facebook look up "beyblade.girl@yahoo.com" should have a pic of gin from bleach on it ^_^

Merry Christmas!

2010-12-25T15:30:00.002-06:00

Hi everyone! Just wishing everyone a merry Christmas i hope your holidays are filled with lots of love and joy!

Guys and Alcohol

2010-12-03T22:57:00.000-06:00

I don't get it, everytime guys have a party you know theres going to be beer or something, but why? What is it with guys and acting like that stuff is a life line, calling people and saying "I need alcohol! I need beer! Bring beer to the party!" I have a drunk for a dad, a drunk for a step dad, shoot even my mom and all my brothers drink! I don't care if it's only a glass, I hate that stuff. "A party's nothing without a little fun", you want fun? Make your own! You don't need beer and stuff to have a good time, being around your friends and stuff should be enough to start to have a good time. Watch a movie, watch TV, play games, go somewhere like the mall or something, alcohol doesn't make a good time or anything. Its YOU that makes a good time. When you drink even the littlest bit of alcohol you are NOT you therefore YOU are not having a good time the alcohol is. Anyway now that thats out of the way, if anyone likes anime or manga I have a manga ka http://www.darkheartmanga.webs.com/ I got a you tube for it now to search for "DarkHeartManga" and subscribe for all the latest! ^_^

Single?

2010-11-21T00:22:00.000-06:00

Ok, so the guy that really got me down, you know the one I posted earlier that broke up with me cause god told him to? Well, anyway, he showed up at my door a few days ago talking about how he still really liked me and all that jazz. Now, I had imagined what I would do when/if he done that. I kept telling myself "if he shows up like that i'm not falling for it, he lost me for good this time!" But the thing is, when he actually did, the hurt I had felt and everything went away like magic, sure I took my time and was using caution cause I didnt want to get hurt again, but then I just kinda gave in. It was amazing, i felt muuuuccchh better. He told me he had to hide how he felt cause of his dad and all, so I was like ok whatever thats fine. What gets me though, his facebook says "single and looking", he told a friend of mine that I was "off the market" and all. How does that work? I mean even if his dad doesnt like me, why post "single and looking" on his profile if he likes me and wants to take me "off the market"? And another thing is he doesnt text me or anything anymore, I figured he was grounded (18 and still gets grounded lol) but then I looked at his album on facebook and he has uploaded a picture 3 hours earlier through his phone......really? You can upload a picture to facebook but cant take tiem to just say hi? Bottom line, I really don't know anything at this point, confused. (: \)

Oh for the love of Manga!

2010-11-04T03:06:00.000-05:00

So, I have had a manga/anime story idea since 4th grade. I have edited the characters to the point that if they were real they would be falling apart lol. Anyway, I have been trying to get it off the ground, I missed a shot with Tokyopop, but I'm still trying. I have read all over that to make a manga you have to learn japanese and move to japan. I don't think so. If you have an Idea and you KNOW it will sell, there are plenty of manga lovers in america (if you live in the US) or even in jolly ol' england (if you live there) that you can self publish your manga to. I'd also suggest finding a fellow manga creator just starting, ask them to advertise your manga on their manga (like in the back where ads usually are anyway) in exchange you could put theirs on your manga to promote their manga to. It seems odd, because of competition and all, but it's actually a great idea. If they sell their manga yours gets noticed to, if you sell your manga theirs get noticed. That means USE THE INTERNET TO YOUR ADVANTAGE! You can find a manga artist in your situation of "just starting out" in NY and you be in CA, that means not only will people know you in CA but in NY to! Also, try to make a web site, webs.com (used to be freewebs) is a great site to use. It has plenty of space, and you can even have podcasts and FAQ, even VIDEO for anyone animating their manga/anime. I use it, my site is http://darkheartmanga.webs.com/ . Webs also lets you earn webs credits that you can use to get extra space for stuff, and even your own domain name (which takes off the webs.com from your site address). Also, Yen Press I heard is a good place to try to start out with manga. I heard they accept american manga. So, bottom line, you want to exchange mangas?? Lol I'm serious, you can make a banner and I'll put it on my site for free and also my manga when it gets out, but you have to advertise mine to :)

Ugh...Life sucks without you...

2010-10-28T06:04:00.000-05:00

To this day I still, for some odd reason, can't get over a particular guy. I have noticed that when things are going right at a steady pace, things are actually about to come to a major crash. I realised how much I was looking forward to a certain thing, and how much I'll miss a certain guy. I've wanted to text him, and have, but he doesn't reply which I'm not suprised. I acted like an ass the last time I talked to him and I guess I deserve it. If he never talks to me again, I'll deserve it. He's one of those guys though that you can't live without but they can live without you. (go figure eh?) Anyway, I just had to vent a bit. Bottom line, this guy is eatting me alive. I wish I never met him sometimes.

All my looks

2010-10-17T00:03:00.000-05:00

Ok, so I figured out guys care more about looks than anything. Every single day I have thought about this one guy, the same one that wanted to be a marine and all that BS, anyway and everyday I have picked up my cell phone and wanted to text him but didnt because I was afraid he'd say something like "F**CK U LEAVE ME ALONE!" or something. Well, he texted me today saying "did u call me?" Oh the times I wanted to call him! But I didn't. He said he wasn't bi anymore or anything when I asked why he said he had another girlfriend,....that fast? Wow, I could have turned around and puked until the acid killed me. I told him "Let me guess shes taller, skinnier, and lets you do whatever you want without an imput?" he said yep(like yea haha shes way better than you ever were!) Today killed me that much more on the inside. Oh well, I was pretty dead anyway. Bottom line, if that thing of a guy reads this I want him to know I love him and I think of him every day but if looks are more important....I dont want him.

Full Out?

2010-10-10T06:26:00.000-05:00

Ok so the guy that broke up with me cause he said god told him to, is now full blown gay. It seems like he thinks that I said something about him being bi or some kind of crap so now hes just gay. I didnt say a word about anything, because yea I still love him even though hes a ba$%$ard on wheels. He put something on his facebook like "buck tooth b%$ch!" I was like wtf, I looked at it and I was like"is that supposed to be towards me because I got rid of my buck tooth a LOOONNNg time ago". So I still don't know but he posted it at like 2 this morning which means it must have been eating him alive, oh well hes gay now so idc.

Can You be saved? Yes, that will be 75 Dollars...

2010-10-07T06:14:00.000-05:00

Ok a mans house was burning down so he calls the fire department. They just sat there because the man hadn't paid 75 dollars. Isn't that what our taxes are for? What if the man had been in the house burning alive?

Firefighter1-"Did he pay his 75 dollars?"
Firefighter2-"No sir!"
Firefighter1-"Ok lets keep driving. We never got the call got it?"
Firefighters-"Got it"

Or would it have been like this. They save the man and then say "that'll be 75 dollars". That's like if law enforcement done that. You'd be a hostage in your house and manage to call the cops and they'd come over a mega phone and say "Did you pay your 75 dollars?" you'd say no and then they'd say"Then we can't help you good luck!" What the hell is the f%$ing world comming to?! Firefighters and things are supposed to be provided to the people for emergencies. We all pay taxes USE THEM YOU STUPID F&&KS! Thats what we pay them for! Everyone stop paying taxes because they don't use them! They put YOUR taxes towards bull sh5t stuff like christmas lights on a police station then when you need the cops you have to give them more money for them to help you, firefighters to. The guy in charge of that fire department better not give me his bull sh%t cause i'll cuss him until dooms day over that. If a firefighter told me "I can't save you because you didnt pay me 75 dollars" I'd say "You mother fu%ker thats what my damn taxes go for so save my house or save me!" They are supposed to be a service provided to the public. Soon when earthquakes or something happen the hospital people and stuff will come to you with you having a pole rammed into your guts and say "did you pay your 75 dollars?" No,"i'm sorry you'll have to stay here and get out yourself good luck!" Watch, taxes wont mean anything they'll just be an allowance for cops and fire fighters and stuff. YOUR wallet or purse will be there pay check. Bottom line, taxes are supposed to go for things like fire fighting. STOP USING OUR MONEY FOR BULL SH%T STUFF. WE ARE BROKE WE HAVE HARDLY NO JOBS STOP MILKING US!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

For IMVU Fans

2010-09-30T22:33:00.000-05:00

Ok, so I have an IMVU (Guest_KalaxLove) Since I have like no money, I decided to try that coupon thing, you know for free credits. So if you have IMVU I can help you get up to 50% off on your credit expenses.

8A1Z7L6LC7 Expires-10/30/10

So if you buy credits please go ahead and start saving, plus if you use my cupon code and add me as a friend, I might send you a gift on IMVU, all the more reason to add me as a friend and use the code =)

I can smell the fear...

2010-09-28T03:01:00.000-05:00

As you may already know, Halloween isn't to far off. For me Halloween is like christmas without the christmas presents. The thing is, a Victorian Vampire doesn't sound to good anymore because it's already like winter now. I have actually been really hooked on Grand Theft Auto San Andreas. I still can't figure out the next mission after Ryder and the National guard thing. Oh well, still planning Halloween. My brothers girlfriend has a daughter from a previous boyfriend who's grown attached to me, which I don't understand but I don't mind either. Her mom told me that it's because she wants another female role model besides her own mom. I was like oh ok. Anyway, I have a story and a game picked out for Halloween for the kid, maybe take her trick or treating. I can smell the fear already when I have her play "Dead Mans Brains". =) I think she'll laugh at the story of the big toe (shes 7 by the way) If anyone is familliar with the "Scary stories to tell in the dark" books then you might know this story. I found it amusing,kind of "OMG thats freaky!", in some spots but overall funny. Oh and I met the awesomest guy the other day! His name is Eric and he's actually really cool. (Sorry I'm off on a totally different topic but I have to mention this guy) Me and him talked for a while then time got us screwed up and we haven't talked for a couple of days. I think hes thinking I'm avoiding him but I'm not. Why would I avoid someone who liked just about everything I do. I love scary movies, it's rare that I find someone else that does! The only thing I've found different interest wise is his favorite artist is Lady GaGa and mines Adam Lambert. Why would I avoid someone like that? Oh or if you give a guy your number you obviously want to talk to him or text him =) I just hope he knows he's awesome and i'm not avoiding him. Anyway, happy early halloween everyone!

Your Guardian Angel...Your Boogeyman

2010-09-21T05:33:00.000-05:00

This is not mine, I found it on a site and It was really interesting to me so I decided to share it with the world.

I was there from the time you were born. I stood in the delivery room, staring down at you before you could even open your eyes to see me. Your parents, relatives and doctors couldn’t see me there, in the corner, watching you with cloudy eyes, but I was there from the time you were born.
And I followed you home.
I was with you always, your constant companion. You played with your toys alone while I stared from all angles in nearby mirrors; my matted, clotted hair with oily sweat that hung off my dented forehead like glue. I was always your constant companion, drifting behind your mother’s car on your ride to preschool. You alone in the bathroom, but I was on the other side of the door, wind whistling through the bruised hole in my throat. My arms twisted and hanging in their sockets as I stood hunched on the other side of the shower curtain. I wait and follow you. I follow and drift behind you.
I’m not seen. I’m almost not-there in light. You never saw me that morning as I sat across from you at the breakfast table, a shiny red clot hanging from an empty tooth socket as I gaped grotesquely at you. I wonder sometimes if you know I’m there. I think you are aware, but you’ll never understand just how close I am.
I spend hours of your day doing nothing more than breathing in your ear.
Breathing – gagging, really.
I crave to be close to you, to always wrap my crippled arms around your neck. I lie near you ever single night, cloudy eyes staring at your ceiling, underneath your bed, at your sleeping face in the dark.
Yes. You caught me staring occasionally. Your parents came running down to your room one night when you screamed. You were just beginning to talk, so you were only able to cry out “Man! Man in my room!” You thought you’d never forget the sight of me, with my collapsed jaw hanging to my chest, swinging back and forth. I sank back into your closet and your mother was unable to see me though you pointed and pointed and pointed. You thought you’d never forget when they left that same night. You saw the closet door crack so softly and me crawling across the floor to your bed on all fours, shambling in jerking movements as I pushed myself under your bed on disjointed limbs.
You learned a new word for me: boogeyman. Not quite the monster you thought I was. I’m just waiting and following you always, touching your face with my knotted fingers as you sleep.
You’ll see me again soon. Any day now, I’m coming, blunt and brutal. One day you’ll walk across the road and – I believe I’ll plow into you with loud roar and a screech.
You rolling on the pavement, rolling under wheels, bluntforce metal fenders and my fingers touching your face again and again.
As you stare up from the cold pavement with cloudy eyes; your matted, clotted hair hanging in your face and your jaw unhinged and swinging to your chest.
You’ll see me approaching.
No one else will see me. You will stare past them into my eyes and I’ll leer down at you. For the first time in our life, something like a smile will come over my face. You’ll swear you’re looking into a mirror as clotted red bubbles from our mouths.
I’ll lean down, past the doctors and the oogling people and pick you up in my crooked arms.
Our faces will touch. My wings will unfurl. And then you’ll have to follow me.
And I am always with you.
I am your guardian angel.

This Time...

2010-09-21T04:23:00.000-05:00

Ok this story was on a scary story site. It wasn't scary to me, it was sweet and sad all at the same time. It actually made me want to cry because it was a sad beginning with a mixed ending.

A young couple had a baby, but as they were poor and could not afford to keep it, they decided to kill it… They went to a lake in the dead of night and having rowed a boat to the middle of it, dropped the baby into the water, while the mother kept murmuring; “I’m sorry, I’m so sorry…” over and over again.

Some years passed and the couple decided to marry. Between them they had a new baby girl and the family was living happily together. When the little girl became four years-old, she suddenly started pestering her parents to take her to the lake. The parents were reluctant to go, but finally gave in because the girl was so persistent. As soon as they arrived at the lake the girl said, “Daddy, I want to be on that!” pointing at a boat. Again reluctantly the couple gave in to her entreaty. They were in the middle of the lake when the girl said; “Daddy, I want a wee-wee.” The father, not knowing what else to do, lifted her up above the water so that she could do it, checking first that no one was around. And it was that very moment, when the father’s hands were wrapped underneath the girl’s knees, and both were facing the water, the daughter looked back at her father over the shoulder and said; “Please don’t drop me this time.”

New Brother

2010-09-19T22:52:00.000-05:00

Ok, I could almost cry right now. I always knew about having an older brother that was the youngest of my 5 brothers, but I never knew him. I found him on myspace, and now we're talking. I'm so happy I'm at the point of litteral tears. I always wondered what he looked like, what he sounded like, what he was into, everything. I guess now I'll actually get to find out. To all you myspace haters, myspace isn't all bad, It helped me get contact with my brother. Myspace wasn't meant for perverts or stupid people, it was meant to connect with friends and family. So, brother, if you're reading this I'd like you to know I'm very happy to finally have the chance to get to know you and know who you are. I'd also like to say to everyone that put myspace together that it was a real help to me, it's more than just a friend network to me, its where I finally met my brother. So this is a nice, calm, and happy post as a thank you to myspace and also a post to my brother. Here's to a beautiful new relationship.

Fan Mail

2010-09-18T21:10:00.000-05:00

Sorry that I haven't posted for a while, I've been in and out of the hospital. Anyway, you know how people love celebs so much that they send them fan mail? Well, i am one of those fans...I sent one to Adam Lambert. I don't expect a reply of course even though one would be REALLY awesome and i'd keep it in a frame : D I actually auditioned for American Idol, not like I'd get that, but I tried. I've actually been watching a ton of Adam & Tommy videos on youtube, some aren't half bad. Now, something that sucks. I payed 10 dollars like 5 years ago for a roller coaster tycoon game and I lost it. I have it installed, no game though. It sucks because I love that game. Oh and what's the point of someone having two seperate myspace or facebook accounts? And what's the deal with dudes like after they break up with a girl they act like a smart a$$ the rest of the time wtf. I actually can't complain about anything because one of my friends is going through something worse than anything i'm going through. His great grandmother is dying, so Zack, if you're looking at my blog I hope your great grandmother gets well. If she does pass away, I'm here if you need someone to talk to, always even at 3 AM.

Adam Lambert & Tommy Video Links:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IWMNdJMuO8I&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YWiJmxNtgWc&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g7wE-AZ19x8&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LrH6ABWjlVE&feature=related

Throwing Your Kid Away?

2010-09-12T21:41:00.000-05:00

Ok so I was watching the news and some a$$ hole had a newborn on a plane and LITTERALLY threw them away. Like put them in a trash bag ALIVE and threw them in the trash can like a gum wrapper...WTF IS WRONG WITH THEM?! That's a bunch of bull sh%$t! There are thousands, MILLIONS, of people who cannot..CANNOT have their own children and here's a peice of sh%t THROWING a kid away. I wish I could meet the b*%ch!! I'm the type that I love kids, and any bast#$d that would just throw a kid away like it's a gum wrapper is a peice of sh*t that doesn't deserve a gift so precious! Babies, no matter how many fingers and toes or whatever sex they are, are fragile gifts from who ever the f**ck you think made you and they should be treated as such. I;m not talking about the ones you return the day after christmas or something. Anyone who would do that to a baby needs to know what it's like to be thrown away like that. I have been told I was a mistake and It really pisses me off to hear about parents abusing their kids or THROWING THEM AWAY. It's like OMG people if you didn;t want your kid why the f**ck did you open up those damn legs of yours?! Why did you have to f**ck around and get knocked up?! "I wanted to have sex!" WHO CARES USE A F**CKING SHOWER HEAD OR SOEMTHING GET A DAMN DILDO FOR CRYING OUT LOUD DON'T DRAG AN INNOCENT PERSON INTO YOUR FU*K PARADE! Bottom line, you don't want kids? Don't open your damn legs. You're pregnant and don't want it? ITS A YOU BREAK IT YOU BUY IT POLICY, YOU HAVE SEX YOU GET PREGNANT YOU KEEP IT BI**H!! If you insist on not wanting it send it to a better home cause It doesn't deserve your sh*t it's to good for you!

Hospitals

2010-09-11T20:15:00.000-05:00

So, my gallbladder or whatever is being a b&^ch. I had to go to the emergency room yesterday for the pain and they said "it's your gallbladder" ok fine....well? They just send me home like I went there for a simple cut, nothing to dull the god awful pain my side or anything. On top of that i had to go through some UTI thing which hurt like hell. Then the doc was like "Well, I'm sending you home but monday you call and get an appointment for a scan." could he have not called and said "Hey this girl needs a gallbladder scan ASAP when can we get her in?" And on top of that I got a crap nurse the first time around, but the one that drew my blood for testing was nice as she could be the other was a snobby a$$ b*%ch! When they wanted to do the UTI test thing I asked for my dad to be in there because I was scared to death of that test. The nurse I didn't like crooked her mouth and said "you want your dad in here?" I was like why not? He's changed my diaper when I was a baby it's no big deal. And then she was like "well, I don't know why you'd want your dad but ok whatever" isn't it the patients always right? LEARN IT MISS KNOW IT ALL!!My mom wasn't there, of course, so my dad was the best thing I had. Oh, and the restroom omg. I asked where the restroom was and they acted like I had asked them to drop dead. The x-ray people were bad to. They was a couple of idiots it seemed like because it was like "hold your breath"....they talk....I'm turning blue here...."OMG! YOU CAN BREATHE NOW!!" Thos people was nice and all but damn they had short attention spands....bottom line last night sucked and it was stupid...O.O

Religion

2010-09-11T13:21:00.000-05:00

Ok so I have to vent a bit about that jack off wanting to burn the coran-i spelled it out. Anyway, I'm christian but I don't believe that burning some other religions book is right. I know that If someone burned the bible I'd be mad HOW DO THEY FEEL WHEN YOU BURN THEIR BOOK?! It's like favorite colors. Yours may be blue, mine is black but we don't burn each others stuff because of it do we? No. I believe my religion is right they believe theirs is right and really we don't know anything for a fact, I may be wrong as hell in my religious views and they may be right as anything. Everyone isn't built the same way. I know that everyone isn't like me, they wont always like the same things as me, it's called being unique. We all have things we can agree on and things we disagree on, but book burning? Really? Is that what it's come to? Everyone is entitled to the right to worship how they please. Just because my favorite color is black and someone elses is red doesn't make it right for me to go burn everything red right? WAKE UP YOU JERK OFF WANTING TO BURN SOME BOOKS! IM GONNA LAUGH MY A$$ OFF WHEN THEY BURN A BIBLE AT YOUR DOOR HOLLOWED OUT WITH DOG CRAP IN THE CENTER SO WHEN YOU STEP ON IT THEY CAN SAY HAHAHAHA YOU STEPPED IN DOG CRAP!! Burning a book isn't going to solve anything! It's going to create more hate that's it. Bottom line, get over yourself not everyone is like you its NORMAL.

Guys like this SUCK

2010-09-09T22:57:00.000-05:00

Ok this guy I have been talking about on previous posts,that said he can't be with me because "god" told him not to,I told him I had to have done something wrong like BIG TIME for god to say he didn't need to be with me and all of a sudden I'm insulting his religion! If I was insulting his religion i'm insulting my own. Then the guy says If I really wanted to have done soemthing wrong it would have been that I talked to much AKA annoying. It's official, every guy I have ever "dated" has said the same thing, "McKala you're annoying you talk to much." Now It's just comming from someone I really do "love" (btw love I have figured out is another word for "i'm actually secretly lying to you somehow even if I don't know it") This has made me just SICK of everything. I'm not suicidal people i'd NEVER do that. Anyway, I'm just to the point where I'm actually questioning my own faith. My entire life seems to have been a constant trap. It hasn;t never mattered how religious I was, something would always go horribly wrong. I eventually started thinking deep down that maybe God hates me somehow? Well, if he doesn't then this crap is pretty hard to explain. If he doesn't that also leaves a LOT to ask about. Bottom line, I may cut back the blog posts because I'm now depressed and I really just want to crawl into a dark hole and cry. Guys like this guy just........suck...

God Talks?

2010-09-09T18:20:00.000-05:00

Ok this guy just said the reason he couldn't "be" with me is because "God" told him he shouldn't. I know that god supposedly talks to some people but him? I could understand the pope and those kinds of people but that a$$? Either god has gotten on drugs (forgive me for saying it) or god has taken a sick leave and that dick head satan has taken his place. It's so stupid! I would have rather him used a "I don't like you anymore" excuse than "God told me to". It's just wtf?! Don't get me wrong I'm a christian, but I don't think God would tell someone "You shouldn't be with ___ because I say". Bottom line, there's something fishy in my opinion, but i'm done messing with that sh*t.

Windows 7 or just another scam?

2010-09-09T18:00:00.000-05:00

Ok I have noticed that windows 7 is kinda in a way the same as windows vista. I have a windows vista and when I see the info about windows 7, It's vista with like two or three new features. Wtf? People seriously are going to pay like 800 dollars to get a new computer with windows 7? People are going to pay 200 dollars for an upgrade? I sure won't. If I buy a new computer it had better be WAY better than vista or WAY cheaper. Its the same way with Ipods and phones. They come out with things like the Iphone and it's like no sooner do you buy it that they come out with the Iphone2,3, and so on. Also, when you buy something like that and they upgrade it, it's hard to find stuff for your model. Like cases and software.......why though? Because those big companies want you to spend money so they make it hard to find outdated products forcing you to buy the next best thing. That droid phone or whatever it wasn't out but a few months and they came out with a droid 2...wtf is up with that? Bottom line, electronics are awesome but lay off the upgrades. That includes you Apple and Verison.

Haunted

2010-09-09T16:46:00.000-05:00

These are a few words of advice, especially for all those "I'm happy with my boyfriend/girlfriend" types. No matter how "serious" or "awesome" or "there to stay" a relationship is, you're going to lose it eventually. If death doesn't seperate you then a divorce/break up would be happy to do the job that way you can always have a painful memory to hang on to until the sweet grip of death is on you. Now I'm not saying drop a relationship because you cant agree on a color for a room, I'm also not saying relationships don't last. A relationship can last you the rest of your life and you never be hurt at all. I'm just here speaking on behalf of the ones who know the truth about relationships. You can talk about the future night and day, you can plan and talk about everything, you can even make decisions with each other even if you're just boyfriend and girlfriend. I'm just saying don't be disappointed if he/she breaks it off with you for whatever reason. You'll always have a soft spot for them, you may always love them. "I don't still have feelings for my ex!" Uh...yes you do. People usually don't notice after a while after a break up, but deep down in whatever their heart is,"Black hole", whatever, they will ALWAYS have feelings for those ex's. I'm not saying you should break up with your boyfriend/girlfriend because they will always have a thing for their ex. Those feelings most of the time have no effect on a current relationship unless the relationship was started to soon after a break up. Now the reason why this post is called haunted is because I am now haunted by memories of my now hated ex-for-good that I can't avoid. I thought me and him were going to be a "Forever and ever" type thing.....no. I made my email address KalaxLee because I was like "what better email address is there than the type that includes the name of someone you love?" I know what would have been better mailto:Kiss-My-A$$@yahoo.com%20....not not a real email people. Anyway, every thing I decided on I decided thinking "how would he feel about that". DONT GET DRAGGED INTO THAT WORMHOLE PEOPLE CALL LOVE IT WILL CHEW YOU UP AND SPIT YOU OUT! Here are my tips, make the memories like photos or songs or emails...anything that could remind you of him/her easily disposed of. Not a trashcan, like an attic or storage of somekind. Don't make him/her your "everything" it NEVER works out. I made him my "everything" therefore my "everything" got lost REALLY QUICK. Bottom line, relationships aren't forever, feelings ARE forever.