Grounded in His Love

The Dent

2011-12-09T17:30:00.003+01:00

To be honest these past two weeks have been really hard for me. Physically and emotionally draining.
Today started out ok...just the intense period pains argh they're getting on my nerves can they go already.
Anyway so today the car window stopped working, i was so upset and i kept thinking but God you know i dnt
have the money to fix this. i just simply dnt.. i need a miracle. To side track a bit God has been extremely faithful to me
where money is concerned. Sometimes i do not even think i will be able to make the month but Jehovah-Jireh always pulls for me
through. HAPPY DANCE...MWARI VAKANDINAKIRA....

Ok so the window died...and went to get it fixed. Firstly the guy reduced the amount of the repair (charge) before he even looked at what needed to be fixed. Then his like come back after an hour he didnt tell me no i cant do the job. Sigh....Anyway 30mins later
he calls me and says cars fixed. Then i go back an hour later and windows working and he EVEN FIXED THE DENT IN THE CAR.... for no extra charge WHOOOP WHOOP MWARI MAKANDINAKIRA- GOD YOURE FAITHFUL ALWAYS... today was a confirmation of in all things, on Gods time...all things work together for the good of those who love HIM.

NIV
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose
Romans 8:28

Beautiful Woman Arise

2011-04-06T10:02:00.002+02:00

Lord why did my journey have to be so difficult? That has been the question on my lips for the past few months.
Things are just not going my way. Its almost a year and my permit is still at home affairs. Can they be serious????!!!!
I have a lot to say but these days i find i simply do not have the energy to say it. Whats happening to me? Who do i cry to
who will wipe my tears? Who is going to pick me up and hug me and hold me close and tell me everything is going to be ok?

Today i started my Daniels fast...a lot of things are happening in my life and i just need to feel the presence of God.
I want to really look at whats important in my life and whatever else needs to go. Its been hard so far cause all i can think
about are mashmallows and biltong. YEAH!!!!! Anyway Greater is He that resides in me than the outside world.

Healing Sigh!!

2010-11-07T09:36:00.001+01:00

I skipped Church this morning. I have been looking for my words for the past few months, I haven’t been able to find them. I am a broken soul in search of a miracle. Today I woke up and started cleaning,ive been cleaning to try and keep busy so I dnt think. So I dnt think about him and how much I miss him. My sister asked me why u in a cleaning mood,then proceeded to make a mess. I wanted to slap her,because she doesn’t clean. She lets me do it, one of these days I am going to write her a letter and ask her to do it. I am simply tired. So yeah I am writing to release my anger to I can pay my tithe. Lord only you know the power of this sacrifice that I am giving you,only you know.

I am fabulous

2010-08-19T17:00:00.000+02:00

I am fabulous....i shall maintain my fabulous self.....resolution
Yesterday was a difficult day...but today i woke up and declared VICTORY!!!!!
Amen
I went and got waxedddd owie lol its been long never waiting that long.
I then decided to get my eyebrows waxed and im loving the new look.
I have spent the day trying make up and perfumes....then i met this random man
who was selling the Armani Mania ( in woolies the perfume attendent)
Then he goes thats for you its feminine then i replied but im not feminine.
Then he goes look at you...you look like you like the finer things in life.
Then i asked him how do you know then he goes its written all over you...I can see it....
I can feel it in your aura!!!! I laughed...
Anyway i do not know why i woke up like this but i WANT THIS FEELING TO STAY AMEN!!!
THANK YOU JESUS FOR MAKING ME FABULOUS!!!

Shake it

2010-06-24T12:40:00.003+02:00

what a painful point in my life....ive taken a leave of absence from facebook
i think i need a break from the net....im always online
anyway the point of this blog....is abt delete DELETE DELETE
im deleting you from my life ...you didnt treat me right from day one
you didnt see this purity and preciousness
ive never been this cut up before but you know what
im shaking this off im DELETING DELETING YOU
and moving on and feeling the grace of his Divine Love...
Im done crying...the tears dried up kudhara
So im leaning on the Sisterhood Thank You Jesus for
Showing me when i asked you to show me..

This is my prayer

2010-06-13T11:14:00.001+02:00

Lord i am tired of fighting and stressing about something i have no control over.
I thank you for your constant grace that allows me to wake up each day.
I thank you for your peace,joy and prosperity.
Today Lord i pray for the peace of acceptance if He is not mine then please grant me your grace
of moving on. But if he is mine then please grant me your peace and a sign so that i can know and rest in you
Lord Jesus....I surrender to your will Amen!!

9 May

2010-05-09T18:11:00.002+02:00

I am having a tough day. Its really hard. Im very lonely i wish i had my friends all around so we could talk and laugh.
It May already time is moving so fast. I am a very different person to the person that i was same day this year. Last year
i was alive with young love...today im searching for peace and joy. Im struggling to get to that point emotionally where i dnt
think abt him 27/7 and miss him terribly. At one point i was so sure, this was mine. This was my path...i dnt knw wat changed.
Im just going thru the motions of life ...I need a breakthru ....i need rain in my life....

Born for such a time as this!!

2010-05-02T11:41:00.002+02:00

I will no longer be defeated by my life circumstances.
I come from a royal bloodline.....
I will not be defeated, i claim my JOY!!! PEACE !!! HAPPINESS!!! LOVE!!! SUCESSS!! LIFE...

This Journey!!!

2010-04-01T20:49:00.003+02:00

Today is the 1st of April. One day before Easter. Easter touches me in an amazing way,
Jesus died for me. I who am so unworthy who sometimes doubts and cries Lord when will
my turn come. Lord why do I feel so lonely. Lord why isnt he talking to me.Lord why do
I have to do this.Lord where is my breakthru,where is my job? I ask my Creator so many
questions.

I want today to be a turning point in my life.I want to seek first His kingdom,then all else will
follow. I am this person whose so confused and is looking for direction. I guess today is day1 of my
the journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. So step 1. When i started typing just now
i had so much to say. Now its all gone. Im excited about my new church and making new friends.

I love this guy so much...at one point i was so sure his my blessing. SO many things haven been thrown
at us. Is this finally the darkest hour before the dawn. Im like God l love Him so much. I pray for Him everyday.
Last year before we even started talking i dreamt of him. Then we met and started talking.
So today i say doubt YOU HAVE NO ROOM ANYMORE I KNOW WHAT GOD HAS BLESSED ME WITH
AND REVEALED IN MY DREAMS!!! I trust in you Lord for all things work togetha for good and you have plans
to prosper US. I TRUST IN YOUR COMPLETION....I love you Lord Jesus!!

I am an African-Thabo Mbeki

2010-03-16T18:32:00.000+01:00

I am an AfricanShare
Thursday, August 13, 2009 at 1:45pm
I owe my being to the hills and the valleys, the mountains and the glades, the rivers, the deserts, the trees, the flowers, the seas and the ever-changing seasons that define the face of our native land.

My body has frozen in our frosts and in our latter day snows. It has thawed in the warmth of our sunshine and melted in the heat of the midday sun. The crack and the rumble of the summer thunders, lashed by startling lightening, have been a cause both of trembling and of hope.

The fragrances of nature have been as pleasant to us as the sight of the wild blooms of the citizens of the veld.

The dramatic shapes of the Drakensberg, the soil-coloured waters of the Lekoa, iGqili noThukela, and the sands of the Kgalagadi, have all been panels of the set on the natural stage on which we act out the foolish deeds of the theatre of our day.

At times, and in fear, I have wondered whether I should concede equal citizenship of our country to the leopard and the lion, the elephant and the springbok, the hyena, the black mamba and the pestilential mosquito.

A human presence among all these, a feature on the face of our native land thus defined, I know that none dare challenge me when I say - I am an African!

I owe my being to the Khoi and the San whose desolate souls haunt the great expanses of the beautiful Cape - they who fell victim to the most merciless genocide our native land has ever seen, they who were the first to lose their lives in the struggle to defend our freedom and dependence and they who, as a people, perished in the result.

Today, as a country, we keep an audible silence about these ancestors of the generations that live, fearful to admit the horror of a former deed, seeking to obliterate from our memories a cruel occurrence which, in its remembering, should teach us not and never to be inhuman again.

I am formed of the migrants who left Europe to find a new home on our native land. Whatever their own actions, they remain still, part of me.

In my veins courses the blood of the Malay slaves who came from the East. Their proud dignity informs my bearing, their culture a part of my essence. The stripes they bore on their bodies from the lash of the slave master are a reminder embossed on my consciousness of what should not be done.

I am the grandchild of the warrior men and women that Hintsa and Sekhukhune led, the patriots that Cetshwayo and Mphephu took to battle, the soldiers Moshoeshoe and Ngungunyane taught never to dishonour the cause of freedom.

My mind and my knowledge of myself is formed by the victories that are the jewels in our African crown, the victories we earned from Isandhlwana to Khartoum, as Ethiopians and as the Ashanti of Ghana, as the Berbers of the desert.

I am the grandchild who lays fresh flowers on the Boer graves at St Helena and the Bahamas, who sees in the mind's eye and suffers the suffering of a simple peasant folk, death, concentration camps, destroyed homesteads, a dream in ruins.

I am the child of Nongqause. I am he who made it possible to trade in the world markets in diamonds, in gold, in the same food for which my stomach yearns.

I come of those who were transported from India and China, whose being resided in the fact, solely, that they were able to provide physical labour, who taught me that we could both be at home and be foreign, who taught me that human existence itself demanded that freedom was a necessary condition for that human existence.

Being part of all these people, and in the knowledge that none dare contest that assertion, I shall claim that - I am an African.

I have seen our country torn asunder as these, all of whom are my people, engaged one another in a titanic battle, the one redress a wrong that had been caused by one to another and the other, to defend the indefensible.

I have seen what happens when one person has superiority of force over another, when the stronger appropriate to themselves the prerogative even to annul the injunction that God created all men and women in His image.

I know what if signifies when race and colour are used to determine who is human and who, sub-human.

I have seen the destruction of all sense of self-esteem, the consequent striving to be what one is not, simply to acquire some of the benefits which those who had improved themselves as masters had ensured that they enjoy.

I have experience of the situation in which race and colour is used to enrich some and impoverish the rest.

I have seen the corruption of minds and souls in the pursuit of an ignoble effort to perpetrate a veritable crime against humanity.

I have seen concrete expression of the denial of the dignity of a human being emanating from the conscious, systemic and systematic oppressive and repressive activities of other human beings.

There the victims parade with no mask to hide the brutish reality - the beggars, the prostitutes, the street children, those who seek solace in substance abuse, those who have to steal to assuage hunger, those who have to lose their sanity because to be sane is to invite pain.

Perhaps the worst among these, who are my people, are those who have learnt to kill for a wage. To these the extent of death is directly proportional to their personal welfare.

And so, like pawns in the service of demented souls, they kill in furtherance of the political violence in KwaZulu-Natal. They murder the innocent in the taxi wars.

They kill slowly or quickly in order to make profits from the illegal trade in narcotics. They are available for hire when husband wants to murder wife and wife, husband.

Among us prowl the products of our immoral and amoral past - killers who have no sense of the worth of human life, rapists who have absolute disdain for the women of our country, animals who would seek to benefit from the vulnerability of the children, the disabled and the old, the rapacious who brook no obstacle in their quest for self-enrichment.

All this I know and know to be true because I am an African!

Because of that, I am also able to state this fundamental truth that I am born of a people who are heroes and heroines.

I am born of a people who would not tolerate oppression.

I am of a nation that would not allow that fear of death, torture, imprisonment, exile or persecution should result in the perpetuation of injustice.

The great masses who are our mother and father will not permit that the behaviour of the few results in the description of our country and people as barbaric.

Patient because history is on their side, these masses do not despair because today the weather is bad. Nor do they turn triumphalist when, tomorrow, the sun shines.

Whatever the circumstances they have lived through and because of that experience, they are determined to define for themselves who they are and who they should be.

We are assembled here today to mark their victory in acquiring and exercising their right to formulate their own definition of what it means to be African.

The constitution whose adoption we celebrate constitutes and unequivocal statement that we refuse to accept that our Africanness shall be defined by our race, colour, gender of historical origins.

It is a firm assertion made by ourselves that South Africa belongs to all who live in it, black and white.

It gives concrete expression to the sentiment we share as Africans, and will defend to the death, that the people shall govern.

It recognises the fact that the dignity of the individual is both an objective which society must pursue, and is a goal which cannot be separated from the material well-being of that individual.

It seeks to create the situation in which all our people shall be free from fear, including the fear of the oppression of one national group by another, the fear of the disempowerment of one social echelon by another, the fear of the use of state power to deny anybody their fundamental human rights and the fear of tyranny.

It aims to open the doors so that those who were disadvantaged can assume their place in society as equals with their fellow human beings without regard to colour, race, gender, age or geographic dispersal.

It provides the opportunity to enable each one and all to state their views, promote them, strive for their implementation in the process of governance without fear that a contrary view will be met with repression.

It creates a law-governed society which shall be inimical to arbitrary rule.

It enables the resolution of conflicts by peaceful means rather than resort to force.

It rejoices in the diversity of our people and creates the space for all of us voluntarily to define ourselves as one people.

As an African, this is an achievement of which I am proud, proud without reservation and proud without any feeling of conceit.

Our sense of elevation at this moment also derives from the fact that this magnificent product is the unique creation of African hands and African minds.

Bit it is also constitutes a tribute to our loss of vanity that we could, despite the temptation to treat ourselves as an exceptional fragment of humanity, draw on the accumulated experience and wisdom of all humankind, to define for ourselves what we want to be.

Together with the best in the world, we too are prone to pettiness, petulance, selfishness and short-sightedness.

But it seems to have happened that we looked at ourselves and said the time had come that we make a super-human effort to be other than human, to respond to the call to create for ourselves a glorious future, to remind ourselves of the Latin saying: Gloria est consequenda - Glory must be sought after!

Today it feels good to be an African.

It feels good that I can stand here as a South African and as a foot soldier of a titanic African army, the African National Congress, to say to all the parties represented here, to the millions who made an input into the processes we are concluding, to our outstanding compatriots who have presided over the birth of our founding document, to the negotiators who pitted their wits one against the other, to the unseen stars who shone unseen as the management and administration of the Constitutional Assembly, the advisers, experts and publicists, to the mass communication media, to our friends across the globe - congratulations and well done!

I am an African.

I am born of the peoples of the continent of Africa.

The pain of the violent conflict that the peoples of Liberia, Somalia, the Sudan, Burundi and Algeria is a pain I also bear.

The dismal shame of poverty, suffering and human degradation of my continent is a blight that we share.

The blight on our happiness that derives from this and from our drift to the periphery of the ordering of human affairs leaves us in a persistent shadow of despair.

This is a savage road to which nobody should be condemned.

This thing that we have done today, in this small corner of a great continent that has contributed so decisively to the evolution of humanity says that Africa reaffirms that she is continuing her rise from the ashes.

Whatever the setbacks of the moment, nothing can stop us now!
Whatever the difficulties, Africa shall be at peace!
However improbable it may sound to the sceptics, Africa will prosper!

Whoever we may be, whatever our immediate interest, however much we carry baggage from our past, however much we have been caught by the fashion of cynicism and loss of faith in the capacity of the people, let us err today and say - nothing can stop us now!

Thank you

Thabo Mbeki

One day at a time,claiming new victories each day

2010-03-03T15:15:00.003+01:00

I started off the day by reading Songs of Songs im going to read the whole book.
There is an amazing message of love.

Day 2

2010-03-02T10:50:00.002+01:00

This is day two of one of the most depressing days of my life.
We parted ways with my "partner" yesterday. I guess it was tired and i was just tired
of all the fighting within the constrains of an undefined relationship. Undefined for more than 8 months.
I love him and i have told God that several times I'm sure He knows as well.
As much as i believe that all these work together i just dnt know anymore.
I met this guy last year and we hit it off. Yet I've known him all my life we just started speaking
properly last year. We because best friends even though we were separated by distance. Then he moved to where i
live. I have never known such happiness, i didn't know it existed. Now to have that ripped away from me,
how do i go back to my normal existence one without the knowledge that true love exists?

Then my sister sent me this verse Songs 3 v5 and i chose two translations.
Bible in Basic English
I say to you, O daughters of Jerusalem, by the roes of the field, let not love be moved till it is ready.

New International Version (©1984)
Daughters of Jerusalem, I charge you by the gazelles and by the does of the field: Do not arouse or awaken love until it so desires.

According to those verses does it mean its not our time?
Lord i do not know which way to go. I love him with all that is in me.
You placed in my life, and i know what you have promised in my heart.
My heart says this is true,,,,,but this situation Lord!!!
I just dnt know which way to go and how i stop my heart from breaking.
Please restore hope in me Lord...
A sense of renewed purpose.

Glory glory

2010-01-17T07:09:00.001+01:00

Even through this pain i will glorify you my Lord.....
What next Lord.....

All alone

2009-10-29T19:27:00.002+01:00

Im all alone dancing in loneliness how depressing.
Anyway i have just been feeling so low and lonely today...i look at my bible then think of
Job im not ready to open it right now....

Today i say hello to love

2009-10-10T21:19:00.001+02:00

I have waited and i have prayed. I have dreamt of you even before we met.
When we met then i had to leave the country i felt as if id left my heart behind.
Then we began our internet love affair. Wow it was amazing to always have someone to chat to.
Then somehow we ended up in the same city and we had our few months of bliss. Until today i havent heard from you today and i miss you so much,im so tempted to pick up the phone just to hear your voice. But not i will not do that time for you to fight for me, i want you to look at me at see your best friend,the mother of your kids,your partner in all things. I want you to look at me and realise the blessing that i am in your life, but if you cant do that then so be it. I have existed before you and i will continue to exsit even if were are not together. My heart is crying and my soul is tired.

You make me so happy ive never felt like this before. Do dreams lie? God showed me your face before we met, im so confused now because everything is going downhill.

I hope you will look for me,even if you dnt God bless you and look after you........

Hence comes my healing

2009-05-04T18:58:00.001+02:00

I have been sick since the 28th of March. I was admitted into hospital on the 26th of April and released on the 28th of April. So since I have been released I have been suffering from intense abdominal pains and I am just so sick of being sick. On the night of Tuesday the 28th of April I had such intense cramps I thought I was going to die. The cramps lasted for ten minutes and I curled myself into a little ball and just cried and cried to God to release me from the pain. I felt like I had reached breaking point and I said GOD I AM BROKEN…….Its so difficult to put to words after saying those words the cramps were gone just like that. The next morning I spoke to my mum and she said I have to start telling my mind I can make it and get over being sick. I then declared that I am a child of the most high, I know who I am. SO since yesterday I am feeling so much better, I phoned my doctor to tell him what happened and he gave me stronger painkillers and said I should phone him after the weekend. The story of my life I am covered by the great physician the creator of my body. So here I am able to listen to my conscience and treading carefully with what I eat as my stomach is a bit sensitive. But this is my testimony these are the chronicles of my life and I am declaring VICTORY OVER sickness because I know what I know and I know that I am a child of the most high. I am covered by the blood of Jesus and by His stripes I am DAILY healed!!!!!!! Amen I am He who has made you I am He that will sustain you, I have made you and I will carry you.

Quick Sand

2009-04-17T20:23:00.002+02:00

I feel like i am drowning in quick sand.
I dnt knw how to move forward from where i am right now...
All i feel is a deep emptiness.

Master's program

2009-03-19T21:12:00.002+01:00

I do not know what MA program to do ...why does life have to be so complicated. I've done Hospitality and Events....it looks like i am heading towards a business degree but i wanted to do something related to food, since i'm training to be a chef....any ideas???HELP!!!

My Week

2009-03-15T20:59:00.002+01:00

My week has started on a very good note and i just wanted to spread the love. I went to a Church Service at 1830. I felt God's love as we were singing the songs. The edges of my heart began to melt, till my heart was singing with joy. I felt my breakthrough. I have been struggling with a lot of issues. I now know that everything is going to be okay and greater is He that is in me than in the outside world.

To try and move on this past week, i started listening to positive music and a lot of sermons. Just to surround my self with positive energy!!

"The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched they must be felt with the heart." ~Hellen Keller

I want to say to you GOD LOVES YOU AND WITH THAT KNOWLEDGE THE WORLD IS YOURS!!! WORK HARD AND GOD WILL BLESS THE WORK OF YOUR HANDS.

June/July

2009-03-09T09:02:00.001+01:00

I have a 4 week holiday and I want to do something extraordinary!!
Any ideas?? I am not going to limit my thinking!! All things are possible, i just want to experience something totally different and get a chance to take plenty of photos!!!

Rough Day

2009-02-15T19:23:00.002+01:00

Its been a rough day today.
I have felt a wide range of emotions.
I’ve been happy, excited then I went to depression. Then I asked God to put me out of my misery because well to put it simple I want a boyfriend. I don’t know if I am feeling like this because of Valentine’s day or its my hormones kicking in. I feel so lonely but the thing I know is that having a boyfriend is not going to solve my loneliness issues. I want someone to hold me, to cuddle me to kiss me and to tell me they love me. Then I wont have to spend so much time online.

A time for everything

I know that my time for love will come. But the process is painful and I have cracks I am not perfect. I am human, it simple I want love. I want to experience true and lasting love. There I have said it!!!

I have to admit

As much as I want to be in love it freaks me out, because it probably means its time get married. SO then does that explain why I am single? Oh I don’t know……does anyone have any ideas? I think this is a real issue for Christians and I am sure there’s someone else going through the same thing as me.

The Patience Chronicles 3

2009-02-08T19:04:00.001+01:00

2 February 2009

Oh God what have I done??? That was my 1st thought today when I arrived in Cape Town. Am just tired and trying to stay focused will see don’t have much to say today….I hope tomorrow brings a new day and a new focus.

The Patience Chronicles 2

2009-02-08T19:03:00.000+01:00

Today 31 January, 09

God is faithful to me you’ all, praise God for He lives in the praises of His people. I want to profess and proclaim that my Jesus is Lord of all and He is completing the good work He began in me. My study permit finally came out, when I got it it was so surreal cause it was an affirmation of my dream coming to pass. I went through a lot to obtain the permit, it was a faith building exercise to be honest and I am stronger for it.

So Cape Town here I come!!!! WOOO HOOOO I am so nervous I do not know what to do with my nervous energy sigh……..I haven’t finished packing I have a lot of stuff man its serious. However I am going to leave the stuff at home and take it when I need. My thoughts for today God please calm my nervous and thank you for Journey mercies and a great start in Cape Town. You are faithful to me thank you Lord JESUS I LOVE YOU AND I GIVE YOU PRAISE WITH MY WORDS AMEN!!!!!WHOOOOOO HOOOO

The Patience Chronicles

2009-02-08T19:01:00.006+01:00

Today 19 January 2009

I woke up today mainly cause I had a bad dream and I couldn’t go back to sleep.
I tried calling my sister who is in South Africa but I couldn’t get through, so instead I connected to the Internet to check my mail and send her an email. I read my favourite blogs, disconnected and then went upstairs so now I am sitting on my bed the time is 7:38am. The cool thing about working in Zimbabwe for my parents is that well I don’t have a rigid work schedule so that’s cool. I am tying out my thoughts just to clear my brain so I can begin my week.

I was so angry last week, Net One (a Zimbabwean telecoms company) cut off my cell phone, apparently my bill was too high. They have started charging in forex, oh great nothing new this is Zimbabwe. After being here for almost three months nothing is shocking anymore. A new 100 trillion note was released, okay fine so everything went up again.

Anyway I am leaving Zimbabwe in a week, I have mixed feelings about that. I am so excited to be on my own again being with family is cool, but tiring after a few days. I keep asking myself where my courage has gone to, my I can conquer anything attitude hmm well its coming.

Back to me sitting on my bed, this blog will probably not make sense, they are my random thoughts. The time is 7:45am, I have to go downstairs to get my clothes the thing with Gweru weather you never know when its going to change, its cold at the moment hmmm. Well I have to rush and get ready, I do not even have time to eat break fast it will take too long. SO I have to rush and shower and get ready for the day. At the back of my head, my conscience is screaming DID YOU PRAY…the answer is no…that’s means that before I shower I am going to make time to pray and listen to the devotional for today because with out that I would go mad its Monday morning after all. I want to get work over and done with so I can come home early and have a chilled Monday afternoon.

The time is 7:50am I am still sitting on my bed. I don’t have the energy to get up, okay taking positive deep breathes. One two three……..the week begins peace and blessings to you’all.

Hospital

2008-11-29T18:47:00.000+01:00

This is my first time blogging from Zimbabwe.
Things have changed so much here in Zimbabwe,its so difficult to put it into words.
Well today I was in Bulawayo and I went to Mater Dei hospital...it brought back so many memories. I had an operation in 1995 and as soon as I walked into the hospital so many memories came flooding back. I am thankful it remains open in this current Zim...