Grumpy Pants

He Carries Me

noreply@blogger.com (Grumpy Pants) — Fri, 03 Aug 2012 15:18:00 +0000

Those of you who would read my blog in the past have probably been wondering where I’ve been for the past almost 2 years. There are many excuses I could give: busy at the new job, adjusting to life in Houston, commitments at church, and on and on. But, none of those are the reason I disappeared. I disappeared because I made the choice to struggle and suffer in silence and isolation. For too long I walked a dark path, but thankfully, I chose the path of Light when at the crossroads. For almost 2 years (officially), D and I have been walking down the road of Infertility.

I was asked to write our story for our church's Women's Ministry newsletter. I've had writers block ever since. I keep thinking our story is not tragic enough or we have not struggled with this long enough, and that people will judge us - belittle our feelings. Then I realized I was truly under the Enemy's attack; and whatever other's reactions, I have to write this. It's become clear that our journey is meant to be shared to, hopefully, help others feeling exactly as we did. I hope our story encourages you to stop suffering in silence. Stop hiding and carrying this all by yourself.

So, here’s our story.

If you have read the Love Story of me and D, you know we were 27 and 28 when we married. While in the general scheme of things, our ages at marriage are common nowadays - it was not in our circle of friends/family. I began to hear that ole biological clock start ticking before we even got married. Before meeting D, I felt surrounded by couples getting married left and right. I saw people moving forward in life, while I felt stuck with no hope of anything propelling me forward.

But, it was in this time (before D), that God began preparing me for my current stage of life (and I’m sure many more in the future). I reached a point in my singleness of completely depending on Him for my satisfaction, fulfillment, and happiness. I cannot say there were not days of longing, but even then, He was with me. And I learned to recognize that He was. I am so grateful for my time as a Single, what it taught me, and how it made my relationship with Christ real for the first time post-salvation.

Once I met D and we married, I thought everything would come so easily. You know the old saying, “First comes love, then comes marriage, then comes that ole baby carriage.” So, I fully expected (demanded, really) that we would have a baby 2 years after we were married. I had it all planned out. Then, life happened.

While we are technically almost 2 years infertile - for me, it’s been almost 4 years. 4 years because just when I wanted to start building our family - the roadblocks of life intruded and I put my dream on hold (again and again).

Roadblock #1. Shortly before our wedding, I was diagnosed with a Thyroid disorder. It was not a big deal - I just took a pill everyday to control it. But, after the wedding, I realized I still was not doing well. Eventually, 18 months later, I was re-diagnosed (correctly) with a different Thyroid disorder, Grave’s disease (or an overactive thyroid). Basically, my hormones (all of them) were completely out of whack. I immediately started treatment.

Roadblock #2. In the midst of all of this, I was offered a job in Houston - a life changing job. It was definitely of God and too good to pass up. So D and I took a leap of faith and moved to Houston 2 months after my diagnosis. D did not have a job, but we thought, surely he’ll be able to find a job quickly in Houston.

Roadblock #3. We were wrong. It was 9 long months before God gave us D’s job. This struggle, while painful and difficult, made our marriage stronger and strengthened our faith in God. We allowed God to do His work in us during this time - He was preparing us.

Roadblock #4. More medical issues. At the same time I started a new job and D was looking for a job, I hit another wall - medically speaking. When we moved, I began seeing an Ob/Gyn who specializes in women with thyroid and other hormonal disorders. He ran many tests and we found out I was really messed up - way more than we ever imagined. I spent the following 7-8 months on very taxing treatments to bring all of the hormone levels in my body to normal levels. My doctor said we should thank God we did not try to conceive before seeing him or we would have experienced one miscarriage after another. I am so grateful God brought us to Dr. dC, but it was just another delay in my plan.

Roadblock #5. Nothing. That’s right - nothing. When Dr. dC finally gave us the all clear, D had been at his new job 30 days and we were still living in our rent house. But I knew it would take us “some time” to get pregnant, so we started trying right away. I took the first few months of negative pregnancy tests very well. I expected to not conceive right away and was proud of myself and my “realistic” expectations. During that time, we bought a home and that took up a lot of my time and energy. Then, month 6 rolled around and I began to worry. Then month 7, 8, 9, 10, 11. By month 12 I was freaking out - but on the inside.

So many thoughts were on constant repeat in my mind. I couldn’t understand why we were not pregnant. We did everything to prepare, medically speaking. We were financially ready. We were ready spiritually. Everyone else was having babies left and right, so we can raise our kids with our friends. It’s the perfect time! Just like in my singleness, I felt life moving forward, while I was stuck.

At the beginning of year 2, I began to mourn and became depressed. But on the outside, I had it all together. I'm sure no one even suspected. The few times I was brave enough to even give people a hint that we were having trouble, they would hit me with their well-meaning words - not knowing that just made me close up again. Things like, "You haven't been trying long enough. You should stop complaining." Or, "Start trying to adopt and you'll get pregnant." Or, my favorite, "Just relax. You're stressing over this too much and that's why you can't get pregnant." People do not realize how judgmental and insensitive their words can be.

So, I just kept it all inside. Then, one day at a small group social, 2 other ladies and I discovered we were all going through infertility and never knew. We were so excited to find each other! We decided to try to meet regularly just to talk, share feelings, and pray for each other. No one else could understand except another woman in infertility. It was amazing! My soul felt lighter after we met. It was as if all the darkness the Enemy had covered me in was just blown away. I had no idea how depressed I had been - how miserable I was.

As soon as I started my car to leave, the local Christian radio station began talking to a caller. A woman dealing with infertility. She shared her story and thanked the hosts for talking and praying with her. She was expressing everything I was feeling. Then, it occurred to me - why should any woman have to wait to discover other women in infertility or call a talk show to find rest and encouragement and hope in this? The next day I emailed the Women's Minister at our church to ask if we had an infertility Bible study or support group. And, that's how it all started. Apparently, there had been one but it was in need of a new leader, would I like to be that leader? Um, not exactly what I expected, but isn't that how God usually works? So I decided to jump right in.

Now we are called, Waiting in Hope-Ladies seeking hope in the LORD through infertility (Psalm 31:24). I have been awed at what God has done in our midst. I felt completely inadequate and unprepared, but every week He supplied what was needed. When I needed someone to help me lead, He immediately brought someone forward. I've seen women drowning in anger, frustration, depression, and confusion become shining beacons of light pointing straight to the hope of Christ. It's amazing. We are committed to studying His word, encouraging one another, praying for each other, and being open to the world with our struggle. Most importantly, our faith is not dependent on God giving us a child (either through pregnancy or adoption), but on Him alone.

It's difficult to get to this place, and it does not happen everyday. I have to allow Him to renew me daily or I fall right back into that pit. I become self-focused, raging over my un-met expectations. As if God owes me.

Since the group, there have been some major disappointments. Failed pregnancy tests when I thought I was definitely pregnant, multiple friends becoming pregnant-meaning many showers, scary and painful surgery. But God has lifted me up from each one, once I turned to Him. He worked through His word, my husband, Waiting in Hope, and awesome friends.

I am so blessed to have a Savior who never leaves me and loves me more than I can comprehend. To have a husband who understands, cries with me, and seeks God with me in all our decisions. For understanding and genuine friends. Friends, willing to say they don't know what to say, but that they love me and are there to just listen (and sometimes, cry). And, for a purpose for this trial.

It's through all of this, God has taught me that He carries me - never leaving my side (Jeremiah 29:11-13) - and is glorified through this and every trial in my life.

I know this has been a long post because I struggle with exactly how to express all of my feelings. So, I'll let the song, Carry Me, by Audrey Assad sum it up for me. Enjoy (see Infertility resources and links below).

Waiting in Hope - Seeking HOPE in the Lord through infertility

"We have this HOPE in the Lord as an anchor for the SOUL". Heb. 6:19

The Houston's First Baptist Church infertility Bible Study and Support Group. Contact me at waitinginhopehfbc@gmail.com for more info.

The first Waiting in Hope event is Monday, September 10th in Houston, TX. A night led by a professional counselor to ask questions and receive guidance. If you are in the area and would like more info email me at waitinginhopehfbc@gmail.com

Hannah's Prayer Ministries - Christian Support for Fertility Challenges

Sarah's Laughter - Christian Support for Infertility and Child Loss

Kelley Ramsey, my sweet friend, also has a series of posts about her infertility journey:

Infertility from a Husband's Perspective

Faith to be Healed

noreply@blogger.com (Grumpy Pants) — Mon, 30 Jul 2012 11:00:00 +0000

Acts 3:6-7,16
Today my quiet time was in Acts 3. I read about the miraculous healing of the crippled beggar at the Beautiful Gate by Peter – well, the Holy Spirit acting through Peter. I’ve read this passage numerous times, but the Truth of it finally hit me today. The beggar was healed by the Holy Spirit because Peter had faith – he believed.

What is faith? Faith is trust or confidence in God. To have faith (to relate rightly with God) you must believe (in Greek, the verb form of Faith – Faith in action) that God is, that God has revealed Himself in Christ, and to accept God accepts you. Faith is what we believe, it is Christianity itself, but primarily it is the relationship we have with God through what Jesus accomplished in His death and resurrection.¹ Peter believed in God, in Jesus Christ and in the power of Christ’s Holy Spirit living in him. And he believed that Power would heal the beggar to demonstrate His Glory and bring others to a saving faith.

I don’t know about you, but this realization of what faith is and the demonstration of it through Peter, was incredibly convicting. I am guilty of Smallness of Faith – I put limits on what I believe God can do instead of boldly believing He can heal me. And do I need to be healed? Definitely. I need to be healed everyday from the attacks the enemy throws at me. Healed from paralyzing fear, doubt, the delusion of self-sufficiency, selfishness, and physical illness.

I became a Child of God 18 years ago and I have yet to realize the full extent of my salvation because I will not believe. I limit my faith to mere human parameters and do not open myself up to the healing He wants to pour out on me and on to others through me.

I’m tired of trying to heal my wounds myself – feeling the pain of them festering and spreading. I believe in the power of my God and am ready to let Him heal me inside and out. Are you?

By faith in the name of Jesus, this man whom you see and know was made strong. It is Jesus’ name and the faith that comes through him that has given this complete healing to him, as you can all see. Acts 3:16

Kari Jobe’s song, Healer, is a beautiful song of praise to our Healer. Take the time to give Him back your thanks. You can sing the song out loud or say it in prayer. And, if this song does not speak to you, find a way to express your gratitude to God for His healing grace.

Healer–Kari Jobe

If by reading today you’ve realized you are not in a saving relationship with Christ, please go here for resources and guidance. And, also, feel free to contact me at grumpypantskelly@gmail.com
¹Holman’s Bible Dictionary Online

I Know, I Know

noreply@blogger.com (Grumpy Pants) — Fri, 24 Jun 2011 17:27:00 +0000

I know it’s been a sweet forever since I’ve posted anything. Sorry, about that but life has been moving at a breakneck speed for the past few months. There’s been a ton of travel for work to New Mexico, Colorado, Nevada, and Washington. Not to mention tons of stress in the Houston office. As well as a fitness-crisis and relationship-fixing.

I’ve been struggling with balancing living out faith/home and work, with a strong desire to be more focused on home and faith. I’ve come to a conclusion – God wants me living out my faith more at work. I’ve been fighting the desire to be home and made myself miserable in my work life. Well that does not equate to a very good attitude or representation of Christ at work. I’m not saying I just flipped a switch one day and became this awesome Christian living out her faith boldly in the workplace, but I am saying that I make an effort every day. Some days I fail miserably, some days I have small victories. But because I’ve made myself so miserable I have not felt inclined to blog.

I’ve also been struggling with terrible body image issues. I’ve gain about 35 pounds since D and I married 3 years ago and it’s catching up with me. I have never struggled with my weight until now and it’s a totally new experience for me. It’s tough – it’s hard work – it’s embarrassing. But one day a few weeks ago I hit my wall, so to speak. I decided to stop wallowing in self-pity, making excuses as to why I cannot get healthy ( I don’t have time, it’s too expensive, etc., etc., etc.). I’m on a healthy eating plan and regular work out schedule. Again, I know I won’t be perfect at this and there will be days I will be discouraged, but I will push through with God’s help. I’m not looking to become a supermodel or cause those reading to develop their own body issues. I just realized that I cannot do much for God if I let myself become unhealthy. I’d hate to stand before Him one day and say, “Sorry I allowed myself to become so out of shape that I was unable to obey You.” No ma’am, not gonna let that happen. So that’s been taking up a lot of my time as well.

Then, since D and I moved to Houston, our together time has been drastically reduced. In Shreveport, we ate lunch together almost every day, had at least 3 hours with each other at the end of the day, and had a devotion almost every night. In Houston, we never eat lunch together, get about one good hour together after work, I travel a ton, and I’m so exhausted at the end of the night that we don’t do our devotion. We decided to change that. So, again, not much time for blogging.

And then, we are trying to have a baby. Well, you all know, that takes time folks.

I will continue to blog because I want to look back and see the work God has done in my life. And, also to look back on our memories. And once babies come along, I’ll be blogging a ton.

So, sorry for the inconsistency, but thanks for stopping by occasionally. I promise, there will be new posts – just not every day and maybe not every week.

Trust and Be Thankful

noreply@blogger.com (Grumpy Pants) — Tue, 22 Mar 2011 23:00:00 +0000

As I read my devotion this morning the hymn Trust and Obey kept playing through my mind. I examined the following verses:

⁴ Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! Philippians 4:4

1 Come, let us sing for joy to the LORD;

let us shout aloud to the Rock of our salvation.
2 Let us come before him with thanksgiving
and extol him with music and song. Psalm 95: 1-2

10 Those who know your name trust in you,

for you, LORD, have never forsaken those who seek you. Psalm 9:10

If you've been reading my last few posts, you know I am reading the devotion Jesus Calling by Sarah Young. Here are the sections I highlighted today:

...Trust is the channel through which My Peace flows into you. Thankfulness lifts you up above your circumstances...Rather than planning and evaluating, practice trusting and thanking Me continually.

This all really struck a chord with me. I realized I go through a lot of my life whinning and complaining about my circumstances, planning and evaluating so I can avoid my fears, or begging God for something (whatever it is I think I need at the moment) - but I rarely stop and just thank Him and trust Him in whatever circumstance I am facing. I will beg to be let out of that circumstance, but it's not often I actually thank Him in the midst. I imagine God watching me just yearning to give me peace and to lift me above my circumstances, but I stand in the way. In my human weakness, I really think I can bring peace to myself with my actions. He must shake His head at me a lot.

As I pondered this, God revealed to me that there is nothing wrong with planning and evaluating (in fact, many of us have a gift for just those things). The problem arises when we do this out of fear instead of out of trust. Trust that God has me in the palm of His hand and is guiding me along. He already has the road paved. He may reveal to me a plan He has and I can then implement the gifts of planning and evaluating. It's then that He shows me just how much He loves me.

For a Melancholy, Type A like myself, to see God's power unfold through the work (planning and evaluating) He has given me is so amazing and satisfying.

So, if you are like me - you have a need to know every possible scenario and outcome before you make a move - have peace. God has already done all the planning and evaluating. He does not need you to do it for Him. But if He does use you in His work, do it out of faith not fear. Trust in Him and be Thankful that you do not have to carry the weight of this world on your shoulders - He's got it.

I'll leave you with the words of Trust and Obey today:

When we walk with the Lord in the light of His Word,

What a glory He sheds on our way!
While we do His good will, He abides with us still,
And with all who will trust and obey.

Refrain:
Trust and obey, for there’s no other way
To be happy in Jesus, but to trust and obey.

Not a shadow can rise, not a cloud in the skies,
But His smile quickly drives it away;
Not a doubt or a fear, not a sigh or a tear,
Can abide while we trust and obey.

Not a burden we bear, not a sorrow we share,
But our toil He doth richly repay;
Not a grief or a loss, not a frown or a cross,
But is blessed if we trust and obey.

But we never can prove the delights of His love
Until all on the altar we lay;
For the favor He shows, for the joy He bestows,
Are for them who will trust and obey.

Then in fellowship sweet we will sit at His feet,
Or we’ll walk by His side in the way;
What He says we will do, where He sends we will go;
Never fear, only trust and obey.

Do Not Be Anxious!

noreply@blogger.com (Grumpy Pants) — Fri, 04 Mar 2011 23:00:00 +0000

So if any of you read the Thorny Soil post, you know I am struggling with fear and anxiety. It creeps up and then out of the blue I'll be a ball of nerves, most of the time over nothing. For example, this morning I woke up at 4:30 and could not go back to sleep. Why? Because I was worrying over my schedule for the weekend and trying to figure out how to get it all done. Is that really worth losing sleep over? No. It's a daily battle and the Enemy knows this is where he can get me. And even though I know the only defense is to fill myself with the Spirit through time with Him, I can never be consistent. Holla if ya feel me, sistas!

All that to say, since I was up at the crack. o. dawn. I was able to get to work very early (over an hour early) and I had time to be with the Spirit. Thank you Jesus. I'm reading this awesome daily devotion, Jesus Calling - Enjoying Peace in His Presence, by Sarah Young and it is blowing my mind. My sweet SIL gave it to me for Christmas and it's been the best gift.

I want to share this morning's word and I hope that if you are struggling just as I am, that this will give you some peace:

REFUSE TO WORRY! In this world there will always be something enticing you to worry. That is the nature of a fallen, fractured planet: Things are not as they should be. So the temptation to be anxious is constantly with you, trying to worm its way into your mind. The best defense is continual communication with Me, richly seasoned with thanksgiving. Awareness of My Presence fills your mind with Light and Peace, leaving no room for fear. This awareness lifts you up above your circumstances, enabling you to see problems from My perspective. Live close to Me! Together we can keep the wolves of worry at bay.

John 10:4
⁴ When he has brought out all his own, he goes on ahead of them, and his sheep follow him because they know his voice.

Luke 12:25-26
²⁵ Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to your life? ²⁶ Since you cannot do this very little thing, why do you worry about the rest?

I Thessalonians 5:16-18
16 Rejoice always, 17 pray continually, 18 give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.

Wow, that Sarah does have a way with words, doesn't she? And then these verses, wow. Reading this today I felt as if God and Sarah had a meeting about GrumpyPants and decided to write a devotion just for me. Of course that did not happen, but I am floored at how God can speak so individually yet so globally all at the same time.

My response?

God,

Thank you for being the Great and All Powerful, but especially thank you for being my personal Father. I am so grateful that you go on ahead of me in this life. You know how everything will work out and you have planned it, so what am I so worried about? Thank you for reminding me that you will bring me through, you will not harm me. You have always and will always provide what my family and I need. If I cling to you I will be able to hold all you have given me with an open hand - and be able to let it go if you so desire. Thank you for loving me even in my disobedience and thank you for your protection and provision. I ask for your perspective today and a mind that is open to your Holy Spirit's leading. I REFUSE TO WORRY TODAY!

In Jesus' Name, Amen

Many Blessings Sisters!

Another Unplanned Hiatus

noreply@blogger.com (Grumpy Pants) — Fri, 04 Mar 2011 14:00:00 +0000

Well, here I am again, apologizing for taking another unplanned hiatus from blogging. Sorry about that. But I've decided I won't apologize anymore.

The hiatus came because life took off. We moved, had the holidays, and work got very busy. In the midst of all this have come some real life drama and disappointments. I've been forced to be a grown up, and we all know that's not fun. Through all this I learned I don't handle change and disappointment very well. I'm also struggling to balance my life. Mostly because I'm a planner and not much has happened according to my almighty plan (God has really had some good laughs on my behalf lately). I did not respond very well to that. Basically, there was a lot of crying, whining, shouting, and driving my poor hubby insane. So I began seeing a sweet counselor at our church. I want to learn how to respond to life in a way that pleases God instead of viewing everything through my selfish eyes.

It's been a great process and I'm very grateful for it all - even the crying. :) Anyway, that did not leave much time for blogging. I decided to focus on my man and our life for a little while. I know you understand.

But let me catch you up...

We did move into our wonderful new home (pics coming as soon as the Hubs can find time to get them off his camera). Two weeks later we had the whole family over for Thanksgiving. Nothing like a little motivation to get the unpacking done :). Then two weeks after that we had our Open House. Again, motivation to put the finishing touches on the home. Of course, there was Christmas, which was glorious. D was in our church's large Christmas production and for a week went to work at 8a and did not come home until 10p or later. But it was an awesome experience for him. Our sweet friends the McG's came to a show and loved it. After the show we headed to Shreveport for an entire week. That was heaven. We did not have to rush through a visit but were able to see everyone and enjoy our time there.

Once we returned from the holidays, work just took off for both of us. I have had several 70 hour weeks and travel, but it all seems to be settling down a bit now.

I can't complain. I have a very loving marriage to a man who loves God and me, a beautiful new home, sweet friends, a great job, and I work with awesome people. I'm so grateful for this period in my life, even though it's taken some adjustment. It's through these challenges God makes us stronger and brings us closer to him.

I'll try to get some pics up of our adventures over these past few months. And I'll post as often as I can, but I can't guarantee consistency. So please check back periodically. I promise I'm not gone, only living life.

The Texas Hill Country

noreply@blogger.com (Grumpy Pants) — Thu, 03 Mar 2011 14:00:00 +0000

So the Hubs and I are going to take our first vacation since we were married in May. We are going to take in the Texas experience and go to the Hill Country. We have been hearing about it since we moved here, so we decided to take the plunge. I think Greune is our destination of choice, and then a day trip to San Antonio. But if you guys have any suggestions please let me know. I am in the process of planning now.

Thanks.

Am I the Thorny Soil?

noreply@blogger.com (Grumpy Pants) — Wed, 02 Mar 2011 14:00:00 +0000

I am at a point in my spiritual life where it's time to leave adolescence and begin adult hood. Now, I believe that an person's age has absolutely nothing to do with their spiritual maturity - it's all about the pace at which God has planned for that particular person's life. I'm of the slow to mature variety. I've been a Christian 18 years and I've felt God calling me to a different place in my walk recently. For so long I have taken from God - going to church/prayer/Bible study to feel fellowship, to feel better, to learn, to get to Heaven - but it's time to not only continue to do those things but begin allowing God to work through me. Not coming from a Christian home, I have no idea what that looks like, but I feel ready to begin that journey.

So that is why a particular morning devotion hit me so hard recently. I am going through Making the Most of Your Resources, a Women of Faith study.

It's a great, easy little devotion with a ton of God's wisdom. So anyway, I was reading last night and it brought me to Matthew 13: 1-23, The Parable of the Sower:

1 That same day Jesus went out of the house and sat by the lake. 2 Such large crowds gathered around him that he got into a boat and sat in it, while all the people stood on the shore. 3 Then he told them many things in parables, saying: “A farmer went out to sow his seed. 4 As he was scattering the seed, some fell along the path, and the birds came and ate it up. 5 Some fell on rocky places, where it did not have much soil. It sprang up quickly, because the soil was shallow. 6 But when the sun came up, the plants were scorched, and they withered because they had no root. 7 Other seed fell among thorns, which grew up and choked the plants. 8 Still other seed fell on good soil, where it produced a crop—a hundred, sixty or thirty times what was sown. 9 Whoever has ears, let them hear.”

10 The disciples came to him and asked, “Why do you speak to the people in parables?”

11 He replied, “Because the knowledge of the secrets of the kingdom of heaven has been given to you, but not to them. 12 Whoever has will be given more, and they will have an abundance. Whoever does not have, even what they have will be taken from them. 13 This is why I speak to them in parables:

“Though seeing, they do not see;

though hearing, they do not hear or understand.

14 In them is fulfilled the prophecy of Isaiah:

“‘You will be ever hearing but never understanding;

you will be ever seeing but never perceiving.

15 For this people’s heart has become calloused;

they hardly hear with their ears,

and they have closed their eyes.

Otherwise they might see with their eyes,

hear with their ears,

understand with their hearts

and turn, and I would heal them.’[a]

16 But blessed are your eyes because they see, and your ears because they hear. 17 For truly I tell you, many prophets and righteous people longed to see what you see but did not see it, and to hear what you hear but did not hear it.

18 “Listen then to what the parable of the sower means: 19 When anyone hears the message about the kingdom and does not understand it, the evil one comes and snatches away what was sown in their heart. This is the seed sown along the path. 20 The seed falling on rocky ground refers to someone who hears the word and at once receives it with joy. 21 But since they have no root, they last only a short time. When trouble or persecution comes because of the word, they quickly fall away. 22 The seed falling among the thorns refers to someone who hears the word, but the worries of this life and the deceitfulness of wealth choke the word, making it unfruitful. 23 But the seed falling on good soil refers to someone who hears the word and understands it. This is the one who produces a crop, yielding a hundred, sixty or thirty times what was sown.”

I realized I am the seed among the thorns. I have struggled for so long to leave my childish, adolescent understanding of my faith behind, but something always holds me back. I now realize, it's been my fears, my worries - I've allowed the deceitfulness of wealth choke the Word. Don't get me wrong, I'm not trying to say that having wealth (whatever that means to you) is wrong and makes you less of a Christian. But, I am saying that by putting my faith in that wealth is wrong and I've let it deceive me for far too long. For many reasons I've put my faith in wealth - I mean who wouldn't, it's tangible and attainable and by the world's view it brings security.

Well, as I discovered this through my devotion, God brought to mind another devotion I'd read a few weeks earlier. In it the author discusses fears and how they hold us back (see a recurring theme, do you think God is trying to tell me something?). In it the author had an excellent idea, write down all your fears. All the things that take your thoughts away from God and focus everything on you. Give those fears to God and then when he addresses those fears write that down as well. That way you can begin move your focus to God and to see that God is just as real, more real, than any wealth. He loves you, wants to know your fears, and address them for you.

So, to hold myself accountable, here are my current fears:

1)    I'm scared we will never have enough money to pay our bills
2)    I'm scared of some unforeseen disaster that will take away all our security (house, cars, jobs)
3)    I'm scared I'll never be the wife God wants me to be for D
4)    I'm scared we will never have a baby
5)    I'm scared we will never have enough money to have a baby
6)    I'm scared we will have a baby.
7)    I'm scared I won't be a good mother because I have to work
8)    I'm scared I'll work so much I'll miss the life God has for me
9)    I'm scared I'll worry myself into oblivion
10) I'm scared of others opinions of me
11) I'm scared my motivations in serving God are not pure
12) I'm scared my lost loved ones will never come to know Christ and it will be my fault because I never
       opened my mouth
13) I'm scared I'll never get control of my temper
14) I'm scared I'll never be the person God wants me to be (at work, at home)
15) I'm scared I'm not outgoing enough and I'll lose out on real relationships with other women
16) I'm scared to tell God my fears because He will make me face them.

I think that's enough for now. I'm being so open with this because I know I am not the only woman who struggles with these things. We are not alone. God wants us to give our all to him, that includes our fears. Don't be like me. Don't be the thorny soil and let your fears choke out the power of God's word in your life for years.

I'm excited and scared all at the same time about this new phase of my life. But I know He is with me through this all and I remember:

11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

God bless you sisters in our journey.

March, Already?

noreply@blogger.com (Grumpy Pants) — Tue, 01 Mar 2011 18:33:00 +0000

Not much to say except, is it really March? I guess that means I should take down the Christmas tree and other decorations. Hehe! I meanb, it takes such effort to put up the decorations and I like to enjoy them as long as possible - is that all bad? That, or I'm just a chronic procrastinator. Either way, I think the time has come.

Kidney Stones and Stay Puft

noreply@blogger.com (Grumpy Pants) — Tue, 01 Mar 2011 14:00:00 +0000

Just take a gander at this pic:

Yes, ladies and gentlemen, that is a Stay Puft Marshmallow Man Bank. Who is Stay Puft? If you grew up in the 80's and you don't know, for shame! Please see the blockbuster, favorite film of my childhood, Ghostbusters.

This is how my sweet hubby cheers me up (after kidney stones and terrifying plane rides) - he drives across town and buys me this bank because he knows it will make me smile. Then, we curl up on the couch and watch Ghostbusters I and II. Yeah, he loves me that much. Eat your heart out.

The Pain! Oh the Pain!

noreply@blogger.com (Grumpy Pants) — Mon, 28 Feb 2011 17:14:00 +0000

It started out like any other day. Well, any other day that I am traveling for work in Washington state or Nevada. On this particular day, I flew from Seattle, WA to Fallon, NV. The day began bright and early at 5am and I hit the bed in Fallon at 10:30pm - a typical travel day for me. I was in the middle of a 5 day work trip, trying to pace myself and missing my hubby terribly. I had already endured the scariest plane ride of my life. I flew in a little commuter plane from Yakima to Seattle, WA with a snow storm chasing me the entire way. I had never experienced such turbulence. SCARY! But I made it and had only two more plane rides that week. I figured, if that plane ride is the worst I have to experience, I'll be fine.

Well, I had no idea what was coming my way.

As I said, I hit the bed on Tuesday at 10:30p and was looking forward to a very restful sleep. Then 2 hours later I woke up with the worst pain I have ever felt. The pain was in my right side and I immediately began getting sick - the cool little commode was my best friend. I could not stop getting sick and the pain would not stop. This continued for an hour. When there was nothing left in my stomach, I finally was given a reprieve. I immediately called Cece, my nurse traveling with me who also just happens to be an emergency room (ER) nurse. It's moments like this you know there is a God. She rushed down to my room and immediately knew what was going on - Kidney Stones!

I'd always heard people say it's a pain worse than child birth, but I always thought they were just making more of it than it really is. They were so right! It's the worse.

I was terrified because I had no idea what was going on. But Cece saved the day. She threw me in the rental car and rushed me to the ED we were in town to visit. They pumped me full of pain meds within 5 minutes of my arrival and I could finally begin to relax. After about 4 hours, I was stable enough to discharge. I was so full of pain and anti nausea medication, I could barely hold up my head. But I slept all day and I needed it. Because the next day, Thursday, I had to get on a plane back home.

Keep in mind I still had not passed the stone and was still experiencing nausea. Now talk about a nightmare! I was so scared I would get sick on the plane. But I had to get home to my sweet worried hubby. Cece pumped me full of drugs, so I was pretty groggy through most of the experience. I was given first class service - I was escorted through both airports in a wheelchair and it was heaven. I have to say that the Reno and Houston George Bush Airport personnel are so caring. I was never made to feel like a burden. But, just my luck, I had another very turbulent plane ride home. Apparently, the snow storm I had barley missed earlier in the week was again, hot on my trail. But we just experienced some turbulence and did not get stranded.

We finally landed Thursday around 7p and I have never been so happy to be home. I saw my sweet man and finally felt peace. He has taken such awesome care of me. I already know I have an incredible husband, but it's always so wonderful when I'm sick and he becomes the great caretaker that he is. He's cooked all my meals, made special trips to the store for cravings (Hostess Chocolate Cupcakes), waited on me hand and foot. He's takes that in sickness and in health vow seriously.

It's Monday and I am still home on the mend. I go to the doctor tomorrow and hopefully this whole ordeal can be put to bed and I can get back to life.

Well, that's my harrowing story. I know many people have been through much worse, but to be over 1,000 miles from home and to be so sick, for me is just about the worst thing that has happened to me so far. I am so grateful for the people who put themselves before me and took such great care of me: Cece, Cindy and Traci (the other two nurses traveling with us), the ED nurse and doctor, the flight attendants and personnel who helped get me home. And of course, D. God shows himself so clearly through these circumstances and he showed up time and time again.

VIRUS!!!!!

noreply@blogger.com (Grumpy Pants) — Sun, 30 Jan 2011 13:49:00 +0000

Hey Everyone,

I'm not quite sure of all the repercussions, but my Blogger account has been hacked. I just had to delete a very strange entry I did not post. I also have a ton of Mail Delivery Errors in my personal email. So if you receive something very strange from me DO NOT OPEN it, just delete it immediately and probably do a virus scan on your computer.

Thanks.

Frequently Friday

noreply@blogger.com (Grumpy Pants) — Fri, 19 Nov 2010 12:00:00 +0000

It's been another very crazy week, but hopefully I'll have some down time soon. So not much time to look at blogs, but I did find these three awesome posts. Hope you enjoy.

I think this is just so smart. What a great way to get organized and clear away all those little loose pieces of paper from around the house. Thanks ThriftyDecorChick! A Hidden Memo Board.
This little lady is an answer to prayer. If any of you struggle with planning your weekly menus and/or getting it done in time to eat, then check out Make 5 Dinners in ONE Hour. Make sure to tell her I sent you.
Make sure you visit BigMama and read all her beauty product wisdom - such a great post.

Please leave a comment for these ladies and show some bloggy love, and tell them I sent you.

noreply@blogger.com (Grumpy Pants) — Tue, 16 Nov 2010 15:03:00 +0000

Hey Guys - Susie Davis, The Good News Girl is having a great giveaway. Check it out and her Joy Challenge!

I just found her blog and really enjoyed it, so I had to give her a quick mention.

Enjoy!

Frequently Fridays

noreply@blogger.com (Grumpy Pants) — Fri, 12 Nov 2010 17:16:00 +0000

I am back y'all! Whew, what a whirlwind of a week. So much to tell - moving, unpacking, cars breaking down - it's been an adventure. But more posts on that to come. Let's focus on the cool posts I found this week.

Centsational Girl's Learning to Sew post - so helpful! As one who is about to jump into the sewing arena, I found this extremely helpful. Now I am not scared or intimidated by the prospect of buying my first sewing machine and teaching myself to sew. Yay! I already have a huge list of projects, can't wait. If you have any suggestions on machines, please share them with all of us in the comments.
Centsational Girl was on a roll this week, I love this Artist Canvas turned to Inspiration Board - my anal, organized side is salivating over this. Love it!
So, this is a total brag, but I love my cousin, Stacey's, Etsy shop! She makes the cutest baby and children's clothes/decor/blankets/etc. Here is a look at her latest creations, with lil Fritter as a precious model.
And if you are looking for super awesome and beautiful Christmas wreaths or any wreath or anything gorgeous, check out my friend Erin's latest blog introducing her Christmas creations.
Becky's totally convicting and helpful post on Gossip.

Happy Blogging!

Moving On Up...

noreply@blogger.com (Grumpy Pants) — Tue, 02 Nov 2010 21:30:00 +0000

Well, we finally closed on our new home...after 2 delays. I count us lucky since we've had friends who have had closings delayed for up to 2 months, so 2 weeks was fine. I'll post pics next week because it is fast and furious right now. The Hubs and I were up bright and early Saturday morning to meet the security system install tech at the house at 8am. Then, the painter came by. We did not finish with them until 1 and then we had some shopping to do. And we got some great deals ya'll, that always makes me feel good because I really don't like to spend money. But we bought some needed pretties for the house, mainly a new King comforter. It took all day, we did not get home until 8p. We were zonked and then we got up bright and early on Sunday and started over. After church we made a few more shopping stops, bought groceries and crashed. I'm still not recovered. I'm walking around work like a zombie.

It's all worth it though. We met several of our neighbors while we were at the house and it was awesome! Everyone is so friendly and apparently, our new neighborhood is Trick or Treating central. It was packed with kids, parents and grandparents. I see that as a good sign. It feels like a real community, I can't wait to get to know everyone.

But I cannot wait for you all to see the house, especially after the painting is done. So there will be no Frequently Friday this week, but I will resume next week because we move Saturday! So I'll be busy all week packing and such.

Talk to you all next week.

Frequently Fridays

noreply@blogger.com (Grumpy Pants) — Fri, 15 Oct 2010 13:52:00 +0000

Good morning Bloggers! It's a wonderful, cool, crisp Autumn day in Houston, TX. It's amazing. Today is also the day the winner of the Scentsy giveaway is announced. But before we go there (hehe! I know the suspense is killing you) I am going to begin a new regular post called Frequently Fridays.

On Frequently Fridays I will post other bloggers posts I've read throughout the week that I found interesting, stuck a chord with me, or I just thought were really cool. So here we go!

Nester's 31 Days to a Less Messy Nest. Don't we all need a little help in this department. These posts are full of great, simple tricks o' the trade so to speak. Very helpful.
BooMama cracks me up on a consistent basis. So in the same vein as Nester but with some pretty funny anecdotes you can get some Less Messy Nest ideas in the Little Bitty Mini-Makeover.
Pioneer Woman. I could not have a list of my fav posts from the week without PW. I read her religiously. She cracks me up, plus, she cooks and is a super talented photog. This week she wrote about her sweet Charlie, the Basset Hound and George the Lab (there are obvious reasons why I love this one). I also have to suggest Bakugan - anyone with a young child in their life (my nephew) will love this.
Centsational Girl has some awesome tips on getting ready for the (gulp!) holidays.

Please visit these ladies and comment, comment, comment. Let them know I sent ya. Let's share the bloggy love.

Ok, ok, I know you are just sitting on the edge of your seat to find out who is the winner. Sooooooooooooo, here it is......

(drumroll please)

It's Lindsey at Louisiana Livin'! Thanks Lindsey and everyone for participating, this was so much fun! Lil Sis thanks you very much as well. And if you have any product you'd like to promote let me know and we can do a giveaway (free of charge).

Lindsey send me your mailing address to grumpypantskelly (at) gmail (dot) com. I know we used to live in the same city but I hear you are moving or have moved or are thinking about moving. Whateve, I'm terrible and do not have your address. Or lil sis and you can meet up if that would be easier since she lives there too. Just let me know girl.

I will leave you guys with my memory verse from this week.

Therefore as God's chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness, and patience. Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you. And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity. Colossians 3:12-14

May we all strive to live this way. Have a wonderful Friday ya'll!

Crafty Project

noreply@blogger.com (Grumpy Pants) — Thu, 14 Oct 2010 21:30:00 +0000

**Don't forget about my Scentsy Giveway!! You have until 11:59pm tonight, don't wait!

I have been inspired ya'll! I am putting together my fav posts from fellow bloggers from this week for my new Frequently Friday's (I'll explain more in my post tomorrow). But I came upon The Hand Me Down House and her post about recreating her Target bookshelves. (Squeel!) I absolutely love what she did and better yet I know I can do it too.

We move into the new house in 2 weeks and this is my first big project (after all the painting). I am sooooo excited! I know that one of my H-town people's has to have a jig saw I can borrow. It's the perfect opportunity to prove to the Hubs how useful it is and that I to have it for Christmas. Well maybe our January anniversary since I have already asked for a sewing machine for Christmas.

Ok so give me about 2-3 months (Christmas is coming ya'll - I have some shopping and home made gifts to create) and I will post my before and after. Yipee! My friend Erin would be so proud of my craftiness.

Go check out HMD's post and tell her I sent ya!

It's King-Sized Baby!

noreply@blogger.com (Grumpy Pants) — Wed, 13 Oct 2010 23:00:00 +0000

**Don't forget about my Scentsy Giveway!! You have until 11:59pm tomorrow, don't wait!

So the Hubs and I splurged this past weekend and bought a brand new bedroom suite to go with our brand new house. Well, no, we did not buy it just because we are buying a brand new house. It's because our queen sized mattress has reached the end of her days. There are two Grumpypants and Hubs-sized indention's on either side of our bed with a big ridge down the middle. And the other night I started to feel springs poking me in the side. It. was. time. for. the. KING!

Let me tell you, sharing a queen bed with a 6'5", 220ish lbs man is challenging. He has actually bounced me out of the bed before. Really.

We went to Star Furniture in Katy, TX and had the most incredible sales person, Martha Rafferty. She rocked. We looked at every single bedroom suite in the place. Then we started testing out the mattresses. Is it just me, or does anyone else feel really weird running around a furniture store and laying down on every mattress? I know you have to in order to find the right one, but it's just creepy. People walk by and look at you funny.

Anyway, after much deliberation we decided to go with......drum roll please....the Simmons Beautyrest Anniversary Mirella Plush. Oh it. is. so. plush baby! It's that bed where you can't feel your partner move. I think their commercial is the one with the bowling ball.

This should be the Hubs and me.

It's so big! I love it! They look so happy...ah, blissful sleep.

Look at all the different layers of stuff. I feel like it just hugs me when I lay down. No more back problems.

Here's the bedroom suite. It's the Kensington from Aspen Home. I love the extra storage in the foot board. Oh what I can do with that! And I love how the top drawer of the nightstand is a charging station for all your electronic thingies. You just plug up the night stand and all the other plugs feed into the back. One cord! No more surge protectors. And best of all...there is a nightlight built into the nightstand. You just touch a little button on the side and it turns on underneath and makes a lighted pathway for you. SWEET! No more tripping over the furniture in the middle of the night.

This is a better view of the full suite. We bought what is circled in red. We decided not to go with the bureau mirror, trading it for a second nightstand.

Can ya tell I love my new bedroom. Too bad I have to wait 2 weeks to sleep on it. We decided to have the store deliver it to our new house and we don't move for another 2 weeks. I feel like a little kid dreaming about Christmas morning. It's ridiculous, but it's exciting!

InTALLerance!

noreply@blogger.com (Grumpy Pants) — Sat, 09 Oct 2010 22:10:00 +0000

**Don't forget about my Scentsy Giveway!! There are now 2 additional ways to enter. 3 chances to win until 10/14/10**

Ok, so I have just discovered another reason why the world is not fair for tall people. I need some new blue jeans. I have 2 pair right now but one is too big and one is too small. So, since Fall is finally here in Houston – it’s time for some new Fall jeans.
Old Navy is having an awesome sale today with jeans for $16 - SWEET! I was all about that. I mean, I am working very hard to loose some weight and I don’t need to spend beau coup dinero on jeans I may only wear for a few months.
I was feeling good as I walked into the store. Every woman knows that feeling of joy you feel when you know you are about to get a great deal. It’s almost like that Christmas morning feeling you had as a kid. Imagine my disappointment that after 15 minutes of digging looking for my size in Long’s, I found none. Then when I asked for help in finding some I was told that Old Navy does not carry Long’s in the store. I have to go online and buy them. What the what? Did I just walk into an alternate dimension?
Oh yes ma’am. So I went to a few more stores and was told the exact same thing. I’d almost given up hope and then I found The Limited. I found a pair of Long’s, oh sweet Hallelujah. I asked for another size in Long as well. The sales lady couldn’t believe I’d found a Long because she said what all the other store’s said – you have to buy Long’s online. The pair I found were bought online but the person returned them to the store. God was with me. He knows how much I need a nice fitting pair of jeans.
I left the mall with a feeling of such accomplishment. But, I spent way more than I wanted. It’s discrimination – Discrimination Against the Vertically Gifted. It’s InTALLerance!
And let me tell you, I’m not a freak. It’s not like I play for the WNBA. I am 5’9”. Shorter than the average model. It’s not the money, it’s principle of it people. I should be able to walk into a store and find my length and buy it at the same price as every other person under 5’6”.
If you feel my pain let me know, I’d like to know I’m not alone. Let’s lift each other up. Maybe if enough of us raise a stink, they’ll start carrying Long/Tall in the actual store. It’s not just a world of short people – I deserve to be able to buy quality, well-priced clothes IN THE STORE!
I’m done. Peace out!

Scentsy Give Away!!!!

noreply@blogger.com (Grumpy Pants) — Fri, 08 Oct 2010 22:04:00 +0000

Now 2 additional chances to win!!!! Post about this contact on Facebook, make sure you put the link in your post, then leave a comment telling me you did it. And post about it on your blog. Again make sure to put the link to this post in it and then leave another comment to tell me you did it. Make sure you leave one comment for the Facebook post and another for the blog post. Good Luck!

If you have read my blog at all you know I have a little sis, Katie. I love my baby sis with all my heart and I am so proud of her. She is only 25, married and is a big shot Public Relations person for Chesapeake Energy. And now, she is pursuing her Masters in Business Administration. So to help pay for the additional cost of school she decided to become a Scentsy representative.

I had no idea what Scentsy was when she told me about it, but, of course, I was like, "You can sell anything, go for it." Then things got busy and I never had a chance to visit her website to check out Scentsy. A few weeks ago Don and I visited some family and the hostess gave all the ladies the Scentsy Nightlight in Vanilla Cream. It was so cute! I put it in my office and it's a hit! All my office mates come by just to smell it. They love it. The great thing about Scentsy is that they are not candles, so you can have them in your office or your home unattended. The wax feels like lukewarm water to the touch and does not scorch or burn skin. It's awesome for homes with children.

To give you a better idea of what all the hub bub is about, here are a few of the newest Scentsy's:

The Safari Collection

The Full size Victorian Warmer

The Plug-In Roma Warmer

The Enchanted Mid-size Plug In

The Taro Plug-In

The Brand New Zebra Plug-In

So, to celebrate my new love of Scentsy and Katie's MBA dream, we are giving away a free Scentsy plug in of your choice and a Scentsy bar.

To enter just go to Katie'sScentsySite, browse all the products and let us know which is your fav in the comments. It does not have to be just the Plug Ins, just which products you really like. And if you find something you really like you are more than welcome to purchase as well :).

And to help you out even more, Katie sent me some specific links to some awesome products:

FULL SIZE WARMERS

MIDSIZE WARMERS

PLUG-IN WARMERS

NEW SCENTSY BUDDY (perfect for baby gifts!)

NEW NURSERY COLLECTION

NEW SCENTSY PAKS

NEW FRAGRANCE FOAM (hand sanitizer)

As you can see, the smelly goodness and gift giving opportunities are endless. Happy Browsing and good luck!

You have until 12AM on 10/14/10. We will announce the winner an 10/15/10. Good luck!

Everyday Blessings

noreply@blogger.com (Grumpy Pants) — Fri, 08 Oct 2010 14:56:00 +0000

Wow, what a whirlwind the last 2 months have been! So much has happened, times full of Everyday Blessings. These two months have been a time to reflect on and receive more of the blessings of God. So to keep it all straight, I think I will join the "Bullet List Bloggers."

D started his new job (a dream job) at our church last month. What a blessing and an answer to months of prayer. God is so good! When we moved to Houston, D left his job for me. He began looking for a new job in Houston a month before we moved. We thought that he would find a job quickly since we were moving to a big city. Boy, were we wrong. D is a graphic designer and well, with the economy, no one was hiring in the creative department. But, the 10 months he was unemployed were really a blessing. First, this was one of those trials that brought us closer together and really strengthened our married. Second, we both learned to truly trust God with our life. Not just say we trust Him, but really live it out. For example, not living in a constant state of anxiety and worry. For those of you who know me, you know that is totally out of character for me. I was transformed through this experience. I can't say I did not have my moments, because I had just a few. But we gave it up to God and trusted he would take care of us, and he did. It was so freeing, a feeling I had never experienced before. Even though we are already frugal, Dave Ramsey people - we learned how to live on what we have and enjoy it. So much of what we thought we had to have to live was "fluff." Plus, when this job opportunity finally presented itself, it was more than we even hoped. The world may look at it and not think so, but it meets all our needs plus more than money can buy. My man loves his work - he tells me he's excited to go to work in the AM and just as excited when he comes home, he works in ministry, he loves his team, and it's at our church - so many work/life balance issues resolved there. We are truly blessed!
We are buying a home! We thought we would have to wait another year to buy a house since D had been out of work for so long and with the new mortgage laws, but God came through again. We found a house way within our budget, newly redone (it's like moving into new construction), in a well-established neighborhood, lots of old trees, 4 bedrooms (for kiddo's and visiting fam/friends), 10-15 minute commute to work and church, on and on and on. The blessings don't stop there. When the home was inspected it was found that it needed a new roof - the sellers replaced it! New legislation went into effect Oct 1 which would have significantly raised our monthly mortgage, but we were grandfathered in (missed it by just days). It's been incredible. Plus, the biggest blessing is our realtor, Patty Cwalinski with Houston Heritage. If you live in the Houston area and need a realtor you must call Patty. She was awesome! Plus through her referral we found our mortgage lender, Jamie, who has been a miracle worker. I was fearful this would be a very stressful and difficult process and they have made it so easy. So, I'll post pics of the new digs as soon as we close, which should be Oct 15 - crossies!
D's car is dead. Ok, I know what you are saying, "How is that a blessing?" Well, because, again, God is showing us how we can be completely content and happy with what the world sees as inadequate. Sure, we have had to make some adjustments with only having one car, but I've never felt like it is a problem. We will have to buy another car once we start having children, but for the short term it's fine. Plus, when we do go buy a new car, we won't feel like we have to buy something extravagant. A car is just a mode of transportation, not a symbol of who I am.
Veritas/Small Group. Veritas is the name of our Sunday School class and the people there, and in our Small Group, have been the biggest blessing of them all. I don't know if we would have taken all these issues that have come our say so well if it were not for our Veritas people's. They welcomed us with open arms from the moment we stepped into that classroom and have not let us go yet. They allow God to move through them and we have reaped the benefits. We love them all so much and look forward to continuing to Do Life Together with them all.
My Accountability Partner. K is my accountability partner. We have only been meeting for about 2 months now, but that relationship has changed me. God brought us together at the exact right time for us both. We are both dealing with some discontent in areas of our lives, as well as change. Also, she is just about my baby sister's age, so she's helping to fill that void. I miss my sister so much! Our talks have helped me to truly put some things in the right perspective, to accept the challenges that God has put before me, and to confront them without a whining or resentful spirit. I love that girl and can't wait to see what God will do through our lives. K, if you're reading, you are constantly in my prayers!

There are so many smaller (for lack of a better word) blessings which we have experienced in these 12 months since we moved. If I listed them all I would have the longest blog post ever. But I felt, since we are moving to a new chapter in our Houston life, it was time to truly reflect upon and write out all God has done for us. It was a big leap of faith to move to Houston and God has been faithful. My prayer is that our life, this particular chapter especially, can be used to bring others to a saving knowledge and relationship with my God and Savior.

So on that note, here are the verses which sum up my life and faith at this time:

Philippians 4:4-9, 11b-12

4Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! 5Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. 6Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

8Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. 9Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.

...11for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances.¹²I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. ¹³I can do everything through him who gives me strength.

K and I are reading this book, Calm My Anxious Heart, I highly recommend it for anyone. We will all face circumstances which bring us discontent and anxiety.

What verses are you clinging to right now? How is God working in your life? Let me know, I'd love to hear it and it will be an encouragement to others. If you have a blog, post about it and then link up below at my Mr. McLinky. If you don't have a blog, just leave a comment.

Look for those everyday blessings!

Fish Lips Photography

noreply@blogger.com (Grumpy Pants) — Tue, 28 Sep 2010 23:00:00 +0000

I am so excited for my friend Sara! She has officially launched her website for her photography business, Fish Lips Photography.

To celebrate, Sara is having an awesome give away on her blog. The prizes are:

Grand Prize: FREE session & CD of edited, high resolution images!
3 MORE Prizes: $25 OFF session & CD of edited, high resolution images!

Sara is a super-talented photographer based in Houston, TX and I have the privilege of knowing her. Here is a little info about Sara's mad skills in her own words:

Sarah is an on-location, natural light photographer in Houston, Texas. She shoots couples, maternity, newborn, babies, children, and families. Sarah is Ryan's wife and Elizabeth's mama. She loves reading, October, red wine, traveling, her 4 pound Yorkie, and Jesus. Not necessarily in that order.

I cannot wait to have babies so Sara can photograph them, she is amazing! To enter the contest click here.

Good luck!

A Dog's Life

noreply@blogger.com (Grumpy Pants) — Fri, 03 Sep 2010 23:00:00 +0000

This post is long overdue. A lot has been going on this summer and I'll post updates in future posts. But I just had to let you know what Daisy and Bruiser did this summer.

Every year D's family has a big family reunion at his uncle and aunt's beautiful lake house. It's not like going camping people, this is nice. They live right on the lake and have all the toys for lake fun (ski boat, pontoon boat, 2 jet ski's, and a huge float that gets pulled behind the boat - more on that later). They also have a wonderful saline pool that is enclosed in a UV cover. I prefer the pool to the lake because I can actually see through the water. When you hear stories of alligators and alligator gar roaming the lake waters, you tend to want to stay close to safer shores. I let the little one's of the fam brave the wild waters. Oh and the huge float, well we are not friends. 2 years ago I decided to be a sport and ride on it with some of the little cousins. We were thrown off and I ended up with a broken chin. Had a ginormous bruise for a month. So I stay close to the pool.

This year we decided to bring Daisy and Bruiser for the first time. I could have brought Bruiser before because he's 6 lbs and no bother. But we were not going to torture ourselves and bring a Lab puppy. So we waited until this year since Daisy is now the ripe old age of 2 years old. I was very nervous because Daisy and Bruiser are not the only dogs at this reunion. D's cousin always brings his Basset Hound, Trixie and his aunt has Huey, the Scottish terrier. I always worry how dogs will react to each other for the first time.

Here is the Gang below minus Trixie. (Lord of the Manor Huey on the left, my little man Bruiser center, and our girl Daisy on the right). They are a happy bunch. (Check out Bruiser's cowlick!)

Well everyone got along so well except for Trixie (hence her absence from the pic). Let's just say Trixie (a female) kept trying to prove to little Bruiser that she is a large and in charge woman. Poor thing, he just didn't know what to think of all of it. And Daisy just looked dazed and confused. It's as if she was saying, Can't we all just get along? I think Huey just expected it. He's been Trixie's victim in previous years. But once everyone settled down and found their corner, it was all good the rest of the week.

The biggest event of the week was Daisy discovering water. I mean she is a Lab which is a water dog, but we have never had a pool or taken her to a lake. So this was her first time. D was determined to teach her how to fetch a ball from the lake. Well, mission accomplished! It took all of 5 seconds and then we could not keep her out of the lake or the pool.

Here's our brave girl.

"Not too sure about this."

"Here goes nothin'!"

"Wooo Hooo!"

Look at that graceful form

"Yikes! Water"

SPLASH!

Always brings the ball to her Dad

I'm a very happy puppy

This picture tells the whole story.

Friendships

noreply@blogger.com (Grumpy Pants) — Fri, 16 Jul 2010 03:00:00 +0000

Last weekend I attended a women's retreat organized by several members of my Sunday school class. It was just us girls from the class and it was awesome. We spent time being silly, staying up late, eating, and learning about each other and God's Word. Our speaker was Tammie Head, a woman for our church who founded Totally Captivated Ministries. She was incredible! We learned that our insecurities keep us from close relationship with God and with other women. Well, it's a concept I always knew but when she said it and explained it - it finally clicked. I have to just say, my church is awesome! I mean, not only has Tammie been a result of our church's focus on ministry and encouraging everyone in the purpose God has given them, but also Beth Moore. And Tammie is Becky's mentor, encouraging her in ministry as well. I know we also have several other ladies who have written Christian books or studies too. It's that emphasis on living out your faith rather than demanding to just be fed, that led D and I to join.

To learn more about our retreat visit Becky's and Ally's blogs - they really captured the entire event.

At the end of the retreat, we all shared what we learned and, wow, did we ever learn! We discovered we were all craving deeper relationships with each other but let our insecurities keep us from each other. We made a decision to reach out to each other more and keep cliques from our class.

Then, this week I came upon this post at Kelly's Korner telling us about Lisa Whelchel's (of Facts of Life fame) new book, Friendships for Grown Ups. And today Kelly posted an interview with Lisa where they discussed friendship.

Check out Lisa's book and Kelly's post if you are struggling with this issue. I cannot wait to read it!

Let's all reach out to each other a little bit more.