Heart Of a Soul

Soon

2013-05-26T00:17:00.003-07:00

So soon i see things so wide they are been...
i been here for so long..
i pass and passed by so much.
i think about more than i forget about...
life so strong...u skipping things but waiting for it....

So soon but not coming...
there is no love loss no love found....
live has given me that i have to be here for the last breath i take....
i taking this no more but why....
i do not know......

so soon i will see you....and be there for me...

SomeThing to Say?

2013-05-23T05:14:00.001-07:00

SomeDay I will be here for you!

Someday I just cannot be making this. I see thing ,those things always hunt me down to the end of the time.

I waiting for so long to be with you..

but I don't know wht I have to be like that...

siting on and on..

O my some thing..just be there for me.

this has to pass and the time has to cme for u and me and it will be.

End of all the thoughts.

quote

2012-09-27T04:14:00.003-07:00

I'm tired of Love: I'm still more tired of Rhyme.
But Money gives me pleasure all the time - Hilaire Belloc

I see

2012-04-27T04:40:00.001-07:00

I see in this land of no desire, making my way but dont know why,
Why i have to make this thing to happen,
Thinking is not wht i want for me,
i want to be out of this,
Forget all the suffering,, all the pain i am in...

Have you there for me is just not working for me...

I am just off this thinking, path holds for me..

Please make this pain go away..

So i can see the way ahead..
or just make my self end my suffering from this....

Help me to see ...

see beyond.. where i forget this pain for ever..

Have to make this happen

2012-04-16T23:15:00.000-07:00

Having these thoughts just coming and gone with the wind, Believing in the sense of this security is not just making it fun, I have this joke to crack, that just can't get enough out of me... Do i have to be so loud to think that in such a way, having this for so long is just not making gud for me... i am helping myself to make this go away but does it have to be so hard to be so true... Some time just . i can't take this , this time that passes me... Anything is not the option and the option i need is just making things so much crazy... This is the story of thunder , story of being or making myself measurable, yes measurable..

So Long.....

2012-03-20T22:44:00.000-07:00

Trying this for so long , I want to try this for you and this so I will last for so long You know me I just cannot be tht true that make this pain go away I try my best to be there for you every time , but don’t know why this is not wht I want for me. May be I need something tht does not make my life my being, my existence in such a troubled way Some time you just want to be there for some time and then just have to move on but I don’t have anything tht can hold me there.. for so much no reason I am just don’t know how to make things in such a way that I never going to believe I am just don’t know how to get out of this .. Having this thought is just don’t make no sense .. just don’t know wht to do and how to feel ..

Some time I look

2012-02-14T04:29:00.000-08:00

Seeing the dark, the dark surrounds me .. getting me seeking the light that she can take from me. I forget to know the way out, Some time you make me to lose my self. and be in this dark for ever.
You the reason ,, or may i forget i am the one who is that, taking life out of me ..

Dragon Fly

2012-02-14T04:24:00.000-08:00

Fly in the sky, sky where no one can touch you, no one can see; in the moon light under the clouds;

Sport

2012-01-11T22:14:00.000-08:00

Because he thought it was good sport. Because some men aren't looking for anything logical, like money. They can't be bought, bullied, reasoned or negotiated with. Some men just want to watch the world burn.
@Dark Knight

Differently

2012-01-06T21:08:00.001-08:00

Something you thinking in me.. something that just don’t go as desired.. things just don’t be like this for ever and no they do not happen as you want them to happen for you. Sometime you have to show that courage, Sometime you have to walk away some time you just stick to the sense of not being fulfilled with all this.. I happen to have just been there but maybe I am not the one that just have that ..
Maybe I have nothing that just make you feel ,, may be you are a part of something that just never be mine.. maybe I am just taking it so .. differently.

Why

2012-01-05T21:27:00.001-08:00

This moment of uncertainty, the time just creeping all over me.. I want to stand in the middle but does not able to move myself so want things to just ease down.. I am not able to do . I don’t know what I want how will I pass this moment of lowliness and how I will be alone in this dark. This time just cannot pass. Searching for the light all day but see only darkness. There is no one who can hold my hand .. and keep me awake.. some day .. they think they do things some day they try to move me .. but I don’t know ..
Wht is that which stops this to ever happen.. how will I deal with this pain this sense of lowliness.
How this .. how ..
I am just puzzled ..
Thinking about I don’t know what .. I don’t know wht I need.. and why I need.
Some time u take this some time you think you can get out .. but every thing around just want to grind.. and grind..
They just don’t want me .. to be there for any thing . I hope the tears in my eyes.. can help me out .. but I cried so much that I don’t know wht it will be .. and how I will be again able to move again..
Seeing things .. feeling things but I don’t know wht is going to happen . Some day you wake up.. u feel like this is write this is wht I want to happen .. but no not for a long time..
Its just the darkness.
Which . I want to get out of.. life is just killing me..
One day at a time..
One second in a go.. Some day I want to just forget .. but don’t know wht to forget .. wht is in there to forget .. but it just going on and on.. holding things .. but for wht I am holding this all.
Why why is this the question which is I don’t know why .. why every thing is just ending in a why..
I am crying but I don’t know it can help me..
Wht can help me..
Just the moment .. has passed which will make me happy or .. I am the one who is not going to get tht moment..
I am lonely and will be lonely to the end of the time.. hoping this will be better.. but just hoping ..

Loneliness

2012-01-01T23:36:00.001-08:00

I am watching, this sense of loneliness.
I have seen this moment coming.
Waiting to end this .. moment of darkness. To see the light
Some time I cry; some time I feel betrayed; some time I just can’t see ..
Hoping for this time to pass away; fade in the past of mine existence..
These tears, the moments of pauses..
Sometime these tears just want to fall.. to make me cry so hard..
I hope this just end to be able to see the sunshine.. the sun over myself..

The day without .. this fuck up..

2011-12-31T01:01:00.001-08:00

I try to make this life so simple.. but is it can be so wht it is said to be .. you thing u watch and u want to know about everything .. in the end you just be there crawling for everyone to look and pass this fucked up life.. I thought I will be happy to make thing so easy for me.. but no.. not a single change that can make.. I am holding.. I want to go away forever but this pain canot make me feel in such a way in tht I am just feeling to just be there .. but no . you do not want me to be there for u.. I am holding this roop for so long that I cannot be .. sure I can take this anymore.. here you think you can make .. me feel so miserable .. so unhappy tht u can live forever..
But u just take it in your mind I don’t give a dam fuck.. I don’t care wht .. u do and wht u want to do..

Broken

2011-07-05T23:49:00.000-07:00

Broken bed, a broken chair

Its been a while

2011-05-25T05:24:00.000-07:00

Its been a while

A while from all the things that freeze me down.

Its been a while

since i been on my own waiting for you

Its been a while

when the things never go the same as desired.

Its been a while

since i cried

Its been a while from all.

Sometime when i close my eyes

2011-05-25T05:12:00.000-07:00

Sometime when I close my eyes,
Things just not pass me by; they trouble me from coming closer to you.
I have done some wrong that I believe
Every moment the doors close over me.
This pain; regrets of not be the one.

The Rain has fallen me apart
Apart from you; I am much better than this.
I dream of star; the sky within
I dream of sun; I dream of you
I close my eyes; I close my self
I forget the past; I forget the present

It’s been a while ; while from all

I know all about

2010-12-23T01:15:00.000-08:00

The more u speak, less I care about u
I know that I am not making this thing to happen
The more u speak, less make me think about u again

I thought I never gona change, but the change u r making in me does no more
The more u speaks less I care, the less of being on the league of not knowing u.

I cannot understand how things can make things to happen and they make me think I am not gona live this way anymore.
I am standing up to this un-distressfulness but I never gone Love u.

The more I think, I just forget what happen to me.
I can quit this but not going to realize that this not going to end this way forever.

I am thinking and thinking about u.

MY Story

2010-12-21T00:27:00.000-08:00

Never heard of the story, A story of being true,
A story that never turns wrong.
ha ha Just wait wait in the way
I am moving, moving so fast,
The story cries, Cries for the mercy.
I Move to make a wrong turn,
Wait wait cry my story,

I just never make this pain to go away.
Truth is not the definition , of Living for
Truth is not how I make.
May I heard the story, Story of the one that Move the mountain.

I have a smile a smile for the world.
I grow, grow for the thought of others
I have the feeling, those feeling just not 4 me.
These eyes cry, cry for the smile, the smile on ur face.
I have not seen the love that unfolds my living this way.

2010-12-20T23:46:00.000-08:00

I have few thoughts, thoughts about myself.
My being on this earth.
Is it real to be alive or just a deep untruth shown by the virtually unknown one.
Why I have to catch the wind, why I am the one that has to suffer.
Every time things not move they just make me same irresponsible.
The question that never be answered can this pain ever can be taken.
Why have to fight to get. If everything is for everyone here then how that make me let it go.
I am standing in the arms of the unknown.
Trying to make it big . but don’t know is the big is something around.
It just consuming the every bit of soul remains inside me.
The darkness just taking me inside.
Every time I go for a new start but does, ever anything goes for a start.
Why things don’t pretend to be the joy the fun they have to be.
Why very one just don’t take me in.
why I have to wait to decide that I am not on the track.
The light every time dime’s down over me.
Why they are eating me up.

Dedicated to all that suffer

2007-10-09T03:25:00.000-07:00

Dedicated to all that suffer
I thought of it before
but have always found something to live for
Even though pain is sometimes endless
all you need to survive is forgiveness
So give forgiveness to yourself, friends, and family
or people who don't even like you
I promise in the end it will be ok
but for the reason I can not say
But I can tell you one thing that
I hope will make your heart sing
You may not know me but still
I care for if I didn't
I would not be writing this poem for which you stare
Now I will leave you with one last thought
Life is what you make it so please
I beg you don't take it