It’s a compilation of the willpower and strength painting I made years ago and the mirror of love made for me in 1996 by a shaman lady. Made from a mirror someone gave to me, a very strong mirror. She only had to seal the energy and built the ring around it. I hope you can sense the energy.

with the heart beat of the house…….When at my friend’s birthday last May I doodled with her daughter and I took the house in my mind….. this came out and I feel like this here.

Doodle for answer – it works.

beschikking page 1

beschikking page 2

mail to Mrs.Poulie

lodged complaint

My enormous income looks like this:

So wish me luck!

And all those thousands of readers of my blog please take notice of the fact that I am  looking for a job, assignment or project to work on!

Today I had planned a conversation at Social Counselors.

This only would have made sense if I had the final decision from Social Services in writing to lodge objection.

When the postman rang twice a letter from City Hall dropped on the floor and I thought ‘ YES, there it is’ but no!

It was the answer on my lodged complaint around the conduct of the officials.This letter does not help in any way. I got their sorry about…. 2 points.The 3rd point about how they treated me and about the whole conversation they say that they cannot hear it back and Mrs. Poulie said she treated me well.

letter1

letter2

So I advice everyone who has any conversation at City Hall take with you a voice recorder and a camera! If I had done that they could share my impression of being belittled, trotted down, made a criminal and the young man sitting there non-interested and yawning all the time.

Unfortunately the people who has to show up at Social Services do not have the money to buy one. Maybe this can be implemented in the consulting rooms and hand out to the clients after the conversation so officials cannot Ctrl/Alt/Del.

Thus no letter of decision today – Mrs.Poulie told them she will do her best (    ) to send it on Thursday.

I suppose I will have it next week…… ♪♫ 

Then I have to lodge complaint and because of their slow way of working this will take another 6 weeks for I get a date for the hearing and then it will take another 4 weeks for their decision…..

…thus I need  sudden miracles,  an assignment, a project and some awesome ideas…

First about this making the tool in 2 parts, the first when I moved in this house and the second past Saturday had a very good reason. I was immediate able to construct and channel the power for the first part because that is the part well developed in the past years – my soul, more heavenly part and the second part is the part that has to get more depth. The finishing touch on Saturday was implementing that bead into the hole at the end….

‘Bloody Hell’ was my thought around this, the earth connection, looks like fire.Nothing could be less true.
Today the following came up around that tool and bloody hell bead down there. My legs are killing and today from the moment I get up, bulges and all swollen. Now it comes:

The karmic punch evolves around the two parts the tool was made. All the power people experienced when seeing the tool is the part with all the capacity and it desperately wants to be independent and the other part that does not want to be independent. Both parts from the wrong incentive: FEAR . The part with all the capacity and the will to be independent fears to be overruled and suppressed again like in previous life’s and the dependent part fears to be alone when being independent. Both parts are out of balance and the solution is to walk on equal footing meaning the independent one can hush a bit by listening to the other part and the dependent one can learn to understand that sometimes you have to intermingle, cooperate without being overruled and sometimes you have to go independent without loosing sight of ones borders. The overly independent one is the male part and the dependent one is the female one. The female one torpedoes all action as she is working now and he is not listening. Human m/v is what it takes to further my mission.There is big FEAR to take steps….

Now the solution part of this all: the bead down there in that tool…. As you might remember this branch is from my Chinese tulip tree and hollow. Like energy can run through the spine, by implementing the bead I blocked all that is above. No bloody hell but blood because the feet are off. The bead has to be removed – there is something in my energy field like this which will be removed by simply doing the ritual to remove the bead. Whatever I tried, that bead could not get out and by pushing it flipped further inside but the tunnel is more free now. Then I remembered the red shoes I once made and looked them up from the boxes. I implemented all this in one formation inclusive my old knowledge which is about to come back when these steps are taken. The upcoming time is all about being busy purely earthy and implementing all learned from the past 25 years in practical action.Here are the pictures:

In the blue box there is the tool of man/woman working together. In the glass vessels you see left all intuitive, heavenly tools including my guardian, in the right one all earthy tools and in the large one with the blue beads you see my book of wisdom and knowledge – firmly rooted in the red shoes and the arms embracing the painting of life energy I once got as a present.

Not to mingle with the fairytale of the girl with the red shoes who forgot her calling to help because of her love for just having fun and dancing…

And finally my promise not to forget my mission. I am in a graduation life wherein I have to clean out the last out of balance things and old fears and karmic wounds.

And the Social-Service-of-Gemeente-Haarlemmermeer- part? Throwing people into independence without even taking care of the follow up or helping to find work is like throwing a baby in the pool to learn it swim – it will die by drowning. This is a tricky path now because having feet all the sudden and learning to walk and handle power in the right way – bloody hell after all…. Heaven and Hell connected like male/female.

These boots are made for walking ♪♫