Heroes of the Now

Love…

Winter — Fri, 16 Mar 2012 02:22:27 +0000

Let us sleep together , my love. Let us be the words of poets who speak of passion and eternal nights. Lay with me now as our flesh becomes one and then dream the same dream. We are poets. We are eternal night.

My Love Affair with Yin

TShadley — Wed, 14 Mar 2012 02:47:52 +0000

MY LOVE AFFAIR WITH YIN When I left my Yin class I had a huge smile on my face. I was brought back to the first Yin class I ever attended which was during a retreat in Costa Rica with one of my favorite teachers. Now, you have to understand that years ago, when my mother first convinced me to try a yoga class…I thought I would die of boredom. We barely moved. How was this exercise? I know NOW that yoga is not about exercise….but back then it was pure torture. I couldn’t wait to leave. The IDEA of yoga stuck with me though. My mother was dedicated. I watched her grow and change and I knew there had to be something to it. So when she told me about this “Hot” Bikram Yoga studio that was opening, I thought….ah….. Heat…….. that will add some excitement and make me sweat. And it did. I loved it. I did it religiously at least 3 times a week. I became “good enough” to be in the front row, I watched myself in the poses, and was scolded if I lay down to rest. I continued to push myself and go more often and didn’t stop even when I twice fainted in the shower afterwards. I was getting good at this. But wait, (my mother said) pushing yourself that hard is not what yoga is about either. I was confused and curious. So, when another hot yoga studio opened near my house. I switched allegiances and started going there. Moksha Yoga is less hot and less rigid. We worked as hard but in a different way. We “power” flowed and sweat A LOT, but I learned new postures and expanded my practice. And I was taught, for the first time, to pay attention to my breathing. Again as I improved, I put myself in the front of the class to watch my progress in the mirror. I loved this. I was working hard and doing what I thought was yoga. I loved the people at the studio and decided to join them on their retreat. The Costa Rica trip had a group of wonderful women and yoga galore. I thought I knew what to expect. And mostly, I got it…but one night…they threw something different at us. YIN. I had no idea what it was. I had found a fast moving yoga that I loved and now we were expected to stay in a pose for several MINUTES….without moving. Just sitting and breathing and “surrendering” ?? What the hell was this? I was not pleased. I was cursing my teachers in my head. What kind of a cruel joke were they playing? I cried. I really did. My legs went numb and I cried. It hurt and I cried. People can’t really LIKE this can they? I was so happy when we were released from that class and went back to our comfortable routine the next day. I remember at the end...

You just might be able to after all.

Winter — Sun, 26 Feb 2012 16:41:17 +0000

This is for those who think as of right now that they may never be able to do something. Last week I started a new part time as a security guard. For someone like myself who has had a socially debilitating speech impediment all her life this was a huge step and marker in my life. Even a year ago I had serious doubts that I could successfully pull it off to the satisfaction of my employers. It was brought up to me, I had my doubts and worry not so much for myself for I was accustomed to it tho for those who were wanting to hire me. First off I am AMAZED that they had that kind of faith in me in the first place. They were seeing something I definitely was not. I had no problem directing confused and or mildly annoyed to almost belligerent people to where they can park that was no where near were they were wanting to. While I am sure it was obvious I had a bit of a speech problem no one had trouble understanding what I was saying to them and 99 percent of the time would comply. I am really surprised by all of this and am glad I said that I’ll do the job when I was uncertain that I could.

Pigeon Makes Me cry

TShadley — Sun, 26 Feb 2012 16:30:57 +0000

Eka Pada Kapotasana more commonly known as Pigeon pose, has always been my nemesis. It’s a beautiful pose and I love that feeling I get in my hip when I am in the pose….but my brain…it never stop working: Am I doing it right? Are my toes and knee in line with my hip? Is my back ankle crooked? Am I leaning my weight too much to one side? Is my front leg on too much of an angle? Wait a minute…am I actually breathing? All of this came to a halt a few months ago. This past winter I spent 3 months away in Sedona Arizona. I took what I know will be only the first of e of my 200 hour Yoga Teacher Trainings. This was such an incredible and intense experience. I learned to take time for myself by waking up every morning at 3:00am to do the Ayurvedic self –care routine (Dinacarya). I learned discipline by getting to the center by 4:30 am to do our daily Sadhana which included asanas, cleanses and chanting. I learned to nourish myself by eating an Ayurvedic diet and more consciously. I learned to do asanas safely and fluidly while appreciating my breath. I learned to love myself. One day I looked into the mirror and saw someone else’s eyes looking back at me. I mentioned that to my teacher and she said “look around you, you all have a new light in your eyes”…..and we did. The training was in a very safe and protective setting…..I started to wonder how I was going to maintain this light when I left this space. I was lucky, I had 2 more months to live in Sedona which is full of people filled with the same inner light. I fell in love. I fell in love with the people around me who shared my interests and became close friends. I fell in love with the place which is surrounded by beautiful scenery and beautiful spirit. I fell in love with the energy that fills the air. I fell in love with a man who really saw me and adored me for the quirky person I am. I fell hard for the whole lifestyle I had created for myself. I loved this person I became. I was at peace, I was happy, I was shining. How was I going to leave? Why was I leaving? I truly felt that I belonged there. But I had commitments back home. I had made promises to return…… When the course ended, I maintained the yogic lifestyle on my own. I did some form of yoga every day. Whether it was meditation and mantra on the red rocks, a kirtan in the evening or one of many asana classes, I was dedicated and determined. I was living a joyous life. My heart had never felt so “full”. As my time in this wonderful place was coming closer to the end, I found myself avoiding yoga. I was...

Haiku

TShadley — Tue, 21 Feb 2012 17:08:19 +0000

Magic can happen When full of love and light Keep your heart open T. Shadley

Feeling Beautifull

Winter — Mon, 13 Feb 2012 03:33:03 +0000

Such a gloriously beautiful day out in the wilderness today. I took a drive down a long swath of gravel road between 89 A and Dry Creek Road and at about the halfway point stopped to get out into it all. I struggle to convey in words what it is like for me (which is mostly why I am writing this) and my relationship to it. Do some of you know how music can move your emotions like waves. Surrounding myself in this place is like that. Years of wonder about the natural world and being enchanted by color, texture, sent and sound plays like a symphony for me. The rambling of desert shrubs and trees twist and claw their way up form the red, orange, gold, purple and slate blue cobbled earth. There are patches of yielding, moist rich earth covered in a multi colored carpet of mosses and lichens. All of this so fragrant, especially after a rain. Today the sky was blue. Here the blue is bottomless. I could fall forever into it completely forgetting myself. Boldly jutting up from all of this are spires and mounds, cracked and piled, of coppery stone, sometimes white, sometimes almost purple. Laced into this is the deep green of various pines and mesquite. Sun and shadows play across this landscape all day and then, into the night, the scent of the air changes. The green and mineral like texture of the air softens as a touch of humidity beds down onto the the earth. Everything settles into another world and the multitude of stars have a depth to them not seen in certain parts of the country. The Milky Way IS like a shimmering stream across the sky. Is it wrong of me to want to be a part of this ambrosia of the senses? This is beauty, power and grace that I feel and all unfettered by myself. I do not even feel myself at these times. There is only my observance and acknowledgement and even that is blurred by the experience of my surroundings. When I am in my body I do not hide from the experience. I can not be lazy and “just be” how I am. I keep myself in the “Still not good enough for this important world” mode, tho I do know I need to sometimes step out of this and see that which is perfect in its asymmetry. Does the world push itself or does it unfold? Does that flower “feel” tired, discomfort, pain, confusion and self doubt as it opens to the sun? There are seeds that do not find good purchase and wither away during the process, also there are seeds that are not made to grow at all. Is there pain in this? It is still useful, it dose decay and return to the soil so therefore nothing is truly useless. Outside of this ego-drive (nothing wrong with the ego-drive mind you) of “I AM AND I WILL DO THIS” I still have relevance. I could fall to the earth, surrounded by all of this which I have just described,...

Respectfully Yours, Winter

Winter — Mon, 13 Feb 2012 03:22:04 +0000

I am struggling with this even tho I know that is not the way. I would not be considered the Superman or Wonderwoman kind of hero. I am more akin to Rorschach. I am disturbed and I do not want to give in. I push to become more tho I can not see a light at the end. I am aware of the myriad of quotes from Sagan, Buddah, Jung, Abraham, Campbell even my own teacher etc… and I agree, I see the validity. It does not move me from seeing what is wrong with me. That which I was born to work with. That which alienates me. No, the alienation is not always a choice. It is others reacting to me and wanting space between us and I being respectful of that. The obvious manifestation of my issue has been a very severe stutter all my life. Within the past 2 years I have overcome tho most of it. I can have normal conversatins now however I have been learning that there is more to it than finally being able to speak fluently. There is so much that now has to be straighened out physically, mentally and emotionally. Yes working with this is the tool to work with toward what one might call enligtenment, yet you will not see me sitting under the bodhi tree any time soon. I know how to love with knowing that I am not considered. I still love. Yes, the kind where you hear laughter in the other room between two people you adore and you smile. Not feel as if you should be involved, you just like hearing the happiness and that life is well with them. The kind where a woman has accomplished something and you nod and say “awesome”. The kind where you are so very emotionally and physically attracted to someone tho you do not let them know for you know how uncomfortable it would make them. This does not stop you from feeling love. It is your feeling and it is good. I do FEEL the beauty of my world. Not only see it. I can say that it is a feeling. I will share a post of mine to share what I mean. I can not detail everything in this one post. I am sure that points will be made by others that I have an understanding of and all is very appreciated. My friend Marc has invited me to write and I will. If any of this helps someone elas it is all worth while however I do not claim to be any more than what I am. Winter

Calling all Heroes of the Now

Marc — Sat, 28 Jan 2012 23:55:47 +0000

Heroes of the Now

Marc — Sat, 10 Sep 2011 23:48:01 +0000

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Dedicated to all the Souls affected by 9/11…

Marc — Sat, 10 Sep 2011 21:46:39 +0000

Dear Friend, I Remember… You called, it was early and I was still asleep. Immediately, I felt it though… The deep rift in the Fabric of Humanity. Your voice was soothing, I Loved hearing your voice, but there was an edge as you told me to turn on the TV. And so it began. I cried that morning for those Souls screaming. I felt the pain wracking through me as the events of that day unfolded. It was mesmerizing to witness the World change in that moment. And so it did. I remember feeling every emotion, every thought, every ripple of the reactions the World poured through the collective consciousness we all felt. And it changed me, as it did you. We were never the same after that day, were we? I feel your presence Now, as I write this ten years hence. It is soothing again and I am grateful. There is no edge this time, as I contemplate the Peace I feel right Now. There has been too much pain and suffering since then, but with it has come a great transformation. A shift in Consciousness has occurred and the World is again, a different place. There has been healing this past decade. Humanity has risen up, a veritable vibrational upheaval has occurred and we find ourselves on the eve of an anniversary. Ten years has past… Can we let it go? That is really the question isn’t it old friend. An inquiry on life itself, that question is and the answer seems so easy, yet why is it the hardest thing to do? I feel the tension mounting in the World right Now, but within the din another vibration, much higher and lighter in nature. That is what we seek, my friend. That is the tonic that soothes our Soul into the physical, spiritual bliss our beings know is possible. Life is but a letting go… Love begins Now… True Love, the essence of Divinity itself. The Infinite One that resides within each of us is this Love and in that we are all the same. When I look at us, I see the Hope for Humanity. I see the possibility of yet another choice. We each must choose that which brings us to that which we already are… Love. When we let go of all that has come before and wake up to the Reality of this, much begins to shift and we view the World anew. We see other choices rooted in our Hearts and begin to follow this guidance. Our Souls, speaking clearly through us in thought, word and action results in total personal responsibility and we start becoming… Love. It is a process, indeed, my friend. With its unique beauty and inspiration, it may not look so always, but there is a high vibrational quality to it. We start to see that the events in our lives that unfold before conscious eyes are sometimes an illusion, gripped by the non-reality of unbridled self-indulgent...