Hollow Kitty

Think +

2021-02-28T12:32:00.001+08:00

whenever i worry about something.. this very special person of mine would always tell me to "think +".. but thinking + made me in denial of the "harsh reality" infront of me.. this very special person of mine was very sick.. i was telling myself..

"It can't be that serious, think +."

"He will be okay, think +."

"He will get better, think +."

"Everything will be okay, think +."

but in reality, it was the opposite.. he left me and i don't know what to think anymore.. i still couldn't accept the "harsh reality" that he is gone.. when he taught me to always think +..

12-12-12

2012-12-12T12:15:00.000+08:00

it's 12-12-12.. and yes, i'm sort of back.. i just thought of posting this on this special once in a lifetime date.. although, i will be coming back officially on 2013.. i really don't like explaining myself so i won't be explaining why i was gone for such a very long time.. though maybe i might but not at this moment.. just a teaser.. i have some new hello kitty stuffs to show and feature.. and most importantly.. i've sort of come to understand myself.. this emptiness i have.. and i will try my best to explain even if i hate explaining.. .. i will relaunch my blog on 2013.. (if doomsday will allow.. ) ^_^!

to forget and to let go

2011-02-06T10:18:00.001+08:00

how hard can it be to forget? we can sometimes easily forget little details or even important ones.. so i think it all depends on how much you want to hold on to it.. no matter if it's important or not.. so my question should have been.. how hard is it to let go..

night person

2011-02-06T10:14:00.001+08:00

ok.. having an iphone didn't really have any effect on my blog.. i still haven't made any significant number of posts. i've been really really busy with work.. with very frequent overtime.. i am not working normally.. it seems i tend to have the drive after offfice hours when there are no more people.. i'm a night person..

iphone apps

2011-02-06T10:11:00.001+08:00

how come there are only a few hello kitty iphone apps.. it is somehow forcing me to make one although i don't really know how.. but i could try.. i used to make customize wallpapers for my previous phones but making one for an iphone could be a real challenge.. i might need help from my friends.. i hope they are not too busy..

iphone

2011-01-16T21:21:00.001+08:00

i'm actually hoping i'll get back to blogging again now that i got an iphone.. i used to think that if only i have a cellphone capable of connecting to wifi with aps like a blog writer, i'll be able to write more.. i just hope i'm right..

confusion

2010-12-12T12:14:00.004+08:00

my life right now is full of confused thoughts.. about my work.. about this guy i met while i was away for months before.. about my room.. my plans.. my future.. but even if there’s a lot of confusion right now.. i still manage to stay sane.. that is, if my definition of sanity is the same as that of yours.. being sane is being able to still go to work.. being able to think at work.. being able to sleep.. not having to think about crazy thoughts.. being able to do things i need to do and not like before when i was just sit in one corner doing nothing.. thinking of nothing.. like everything was blank..

my work right now is full of unjust, unfair instances making me want to rebel.. and i do have this rebellious nature.. maybe i should just quit it.. and take this other offer.. but i really wonder why haven’t i reached my “tipping point”.. why of all the bad instances, i still try to reconsider.. what is holding me back from resigning.. wait, i know.. i hate change.. leaving my old work would mean.. a big change in my life.. and taking this new offer would mean a bigger change.. change is like starting from square one.. and i hate it.. i think i just need a little “push” like if i’m at my tipping point, i could just fall and drop on a greener land..

i really don’t want to talk about this guy i met.. ‘cause there's nothing really going on between us, i think.. we never really talked about it.. it’s just that our friends are like expecting a lot from us.. i don’t want to disappoint them but i’m thinking they might.. but i don’t know.. he said we’ll just talk about everything when he gets back.. so i guess i’ll just update all of you on this one.. maybe next year.. right now, i ‘m planning on staying away from him.. just to keep a safe distance.. he’s not at all this perfect guy of my dreams.. nobody’s perfect anyway.. he has flaws.. like everyone in the world including me.. it’s just that he made me happy..

my room.. has been messy for ages.. end of story..

regarding my plans and my future.. still like before.. i don’t have one.. i’m thinking i’d quit my work.. take this new offer.. and see what happens.. and maybe i’ll push through with my plans on buying this house with the extra savings I’ll get from this new job offer.. i’m supposed to get that house this year but i had to loan money for a friend before.. and he promised to pay in full by this year but he didn’t.. so right now, i manage to breakeven with my small income and daily expenses.. ‘cause i’m still paying for that loan.. anyway, i promised myself that i won’t depend that much on money.. that money shouldn’t be a major factor on my decision making.. ‘cause life is not all about money..

extra time

2010-10-30T23:03:00.001+08:00

i don’t know what’s keeping me so busy.. like i don’t have extra time.. time to write on my blog, time to clean up my room, time to work out, time to do the things i’m supposed to do.. like as if a whole day isn’t 24 hours anymore.. and i’m finding it hard to look for time to do the things i wanted to do.. even my weekends when i have no work.. time flies so fast.. and i don’t know where i spent it on.. i think there is really something wrong.. it’s either the earth had been rotating faster.. or i had been living my life at a slower pace..

i am back

2010-10-03T17:54:00.001+08:00

sorry if i have been away from blogging these past few months.. there were a lot of diversions which i don’t think would matter.. so i don’t have to tell them all here.. besides, i hate explaining myself.. what matters is that i am back.. yet, i don’t know if i have changed or if i am different now.. but i still feel hollow.. empty.. like there’s this something i don’t know what that’s lacking in my life.. i really don’t have any direction.. i don’t know what i’m suppose to do.. what i plan to do.. like i have no dreams.. i’ve never really thought of the future.. i keep on asking myself “what do i want?” and i can’t seem to answer it.. so i was gone for work.. and i earned a few money i can call savings.. but what for? i don’t even know what i am saving for.. maybe i should make a list of things i want to have and things i want to do.. but then, i can actually go on with my life without having those things.. i’m not materialistic.. i can even imagine myself living in poverty and still be like this.. like i don’t really care at all.. ok, i think i need to go back to my previous post on “meaningful life” ‘cause i seem to be getting “lost again”..

the real me

2010-06-27T04:48:00.001+08:00

i haven’t really posted something about what i have been up to.. ‘cause i think there isn’t really anything going on that’s worth writing about.. although, there are a few.. i just didn’t feel like writing about them.. this is the real me.. quiet.. and selfish.. i don’t know why it’s hard for me to share myself to others.. sometimes i think maybe the reason i feel hollow or empty inside is that i am not really sharing myself.. i do not make any links or connections at all.. i’ll force myself to write more and maybe learn to open up..

Hello Kitty Camomilla

2010-06-21T06:57:00.007+08:00

i was searching for something new at shop.sanrio.com and saw these new designs by Camomilla for Hello Kitty.. they look simple but really nice.. and so girly.. i would want to have some of these collection.. but then, maybe not some.. but all!

after finding these stuffs, i went to search more about Camomilla and saw their flash animated site.. although it loads really slow (i have a 1mbps DSL connection), i like their concept, their layout, their stuffs.. everything looks really nice.. i even like the background sounds and the animation.. even if it loads like frame by frame.. it was worth it.. resizing your browser window from a full screen to another will mess up the images.. i think they need to do something about it..

About Camomilla Milan

On March 7, 1983, Maurice and Grace Belloni founded Camomilla with more than 25 years of campaigning about work and life.

From the beginning, Camomilla has had a mission: the production and marketing of handbags and accessories that speak the language of women, allowing them to customize their style with fun and femininity without sacrificing quality and refinement.

1991 begun the year of a major turning point for Camomilla. Second collaboration with Sanrio LTD which made them the exclusive distributor of Hello Kitty products for the Italian territory. Sanrio LTD confirmed confidence in entrusting Camomilla creativity license for “Hello Kitty by Camomilla Milan”.

The sensitivity and the ability to interpret femininity allowed Camomilla to succeed in expressing the concrete needs of women, giving birth to collections that suit every style and allow them to freely express their moods and to create everyday looks while remaining practical with the forms and quality materials.

what happened..

2010-06-05T15:03:00.001+08:00

ok i have no excuse or explanation as to what happened to my blog.. it’s just that i don’t know what happened.. my mind just simply went blank.. like as if i have nothing to say.. but i have been trying to think about what to do with this blog.. and decided to delete all posts about my past.. and a friend told me to stop dwelling on the past.. and i listened to him.. although i don’t know of any one person that really knows my past 100% but those are the past.. they really shouldn’t matter now.. so expect that i’ll write about what’s current from now on.. well, except for my old poems.. i kept them posted..

blog update #4

2010-05-21T14:56:00.002+08:00

it’s been a while since i made an update.. there’s been a few changes on my blog.. i removed the feed readers link and stats and changed it to a stat counter..

i found a script for links to recent comments..

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}
}
ctlink = ctlink.replace("#", "#comment-");
var ptlink = ctlink.split("#");
ptlink = ptlink[0];
var txtlink = ptlink.split("/");
txtlink = txtlink[5];
txtlink = txtlink.split(".html");
txtlink = txtlink[0];
var pttitle = txtlink.replace(/-/g," ");
pttitle = pttitle.link(ptlink);
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var comment = entry.content.$t;}
else
if ("summary" in entry) {
var comment = entry.summary.$t;}
else var comment = "";
var re = /<\S[^>]*>/g;
comment = comment.replace(re, "");

document.write('
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document.write('<a href="' + ctlink + '">' + entry.author[0].name.$t + '</a>');
document.write(' ♥ ' + pttitle);
document.write('
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if (comment.length < 150) {
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else
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comment = comment.substring(0, 150);
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document.write('</li>
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and i put my blog listing links on the footer..

Lifeless

2010-05-02T11:22:00.001+08:00

You were the reason that I believe in love
And that I see the light up above
And now my heart is full of bitterness
I'm living a life in darkness

The twinkle in my eyes
Turned to tears, frozen into ice
The light inside me
Is fading away so slowly

Love has taken life away from me
I've lost hope, my future ceased to be
Nothing... not even time
Could bring back life that was once mine

Hello Kitty Collectible Coin Banks

2010-05-02T10:48:00.001+08:00

these Hello Kitty Collectible coin banks are surely cute.. even if some of them don’t really look like hello kitty.. i find them creatively designed.. when i first saw the hippie and glasses design.. i was wondering then where did the whiskers go.. they were just hiding under the hair.. i personally like the hippie design for it’s color.. these coin banks are 8” tall.. designs include.. hippie, glasses, hearts and the panda.. each are worth $27.50 at shop.sanrio.com..

Untrue Love

2010-04-25T17:22:00.001+08:00

Living in lies
Our love soon dies
Hoping in forever
Never meant for each other

Falling apart
Cold empty hearts
Losing touch
Never loved you that much

Feeling of regret
We had ever met
Time wasted
On a love that was never meant

from a notebook

2010-04-25T15:10:00.002+08:00

i saw this old notebook of mine with a message written in it..

there are times i feel alone and i cry.. and i will suddenly start to lose hope and eventually i will stop to love and stop to care.. my heart will stop beating.. i’ll be dead.. yet i’m not.. i’ll be lifeless and nothing will matter.. each day will pass by and i’ll be doing nothing except to wait for my end to come..

i can’t remember what made me write this or if i were the one who really wrote this.. i just think it’s something worth sharing..

Hello Kitty joins Earth Day 2010

2010-04-22T22:28:00.001+08:00

April 22.. Earth Day 2010..

i really care about the environment.. and it hurts to see how much of it is slowly being destroyed.. seeing how worse the pollution has become every time i travel to work.. how evident is the effects of climate change.. how much worse the problem on garbage has become.. clearly, we need to take action.. every small contribution helps.. like conserving water and energy.. the 3R’s (reduce, recycle, and reuse).. make an effort now.. before it’s too late..

this is actually one of my artworks before.. one of the products of my “hobby-hopping”.. i really like painting landscapes and sceneries then.. and i’m actually thinking of trying it out again.. so if the environment gets destroyed.. what will inspire me to paint?

Earth Day 2010! Do your part!

pretensions

2010-04-22T00:57:00.001+08:00

i may sometimes seem happy.. like i have no problems at all.. or i do not worry about anything.. especially with my calm nature.. but that’s just me.. i don’t want people to worry about me.. i try my best not to be a burden to people i care about.. even to a point that i had to pretend i’m ok even if i’m not.. that i’m happy even if i have been happy only for a few times in my life.. that i can handle everything even if they seem too much for me.. i’ll manage.. and if i can’t.. i can always ask for help from my friends..

my boring weekend

2010-04-20T00:05:00.001+08:00

i spent my weekend inside my room.. doing nothing but sleep, watch some anime, sleep, leave my room to eat, and sleep again.. i was even unable to post anything on my blog except for the “filler” poem.. i failed to finish cleaning my room.. i got lazy to do laundry.. it was a very unproductive weekend..

Life Without You

2010-04-18T17:36:00.001+08:00

Lost in a deserted town
Alone in the dark, never been so down
My mind filled with empty spaces
My heart dying of loneliness

Staring at nothing
It's you, I've been thinking
Feeling so restless
Without you.. I'm lifeless

Chouette ♥ Hello Kitty Message LED Watches

2010-04-16T09:37:00.005+08:00

i haven’t posted a Hello Kitty feature for this week yet.. i’m having a hard time to pick one.. i’ve decided to feature Hello Kitty LED watches by Chouette.. i do have some Hello Kitty watches but nothing like these Hello Kitty watches by Chouette.. although they look really nice, they are too expensive for me to buy.. i’ll just dream about them by making this feature..

there’s just so little information i got.. but there are a lot of pictures though.. there are two types those that have a silicon straps and the other which is the high-end ones that come with galuchat straps..

Chouette ♥ Hello Kitty Message LED Watches (Silicon Straps)

there are four colors to choose from.. red, pink, yellow and purple.. they are shaped like Hello Kitty’s face fully covered with synthetic diamonds.. and with cute ribbons on them.. at first look, they really seem cute and pretty.. but since they are LED watches they had to be as big as your wrist to tell the time clearly.. but i wouldn’t mind having to wear really a really big watch if it’s Hello Kitty.. but still, i’m not so sure if it would look good on me.. to check the time, you have to press the button to make it light up.. it can also display the cute message “Especially For You” on LED.. but somehow, i’m not sure how readable it is during daytime.. but since it is big enough, it probably is readable enough.. in the dark though it is.. but only the time lights up.. i wished they also made the edges of Hello Kitty’s face light up too.. so i can see Hello Kitty in the dark..

Chouette ♥ Hello Kitty Message LED Watches (High-End) these ones really look nice.. especially the baby pink one.. i really like the color of it.. the edges tracing Hello Kitty’s face and the ribbon are actually gold plated.. and just like the other designs they are covered with synthetic diamonds.. but these come with galuchat straps making them look more elegant.. available in black and baby pink..

some links say.. these watches are currently only available in some Asian countries and range from $600 - $800.. really too expensive for me.. i had to go to Chouette’s website to check it out.. but i’m totally disappointed with their website.. too much flash! on the front page, i didn’t noticed i had to click the bar below their logo to enter the site.. ok, it looked like a small bar for me but actually it’s a small, really very small “enter” text.. i just thought there was just an error and the page didn’t load.. luckily, i saw it is clickable and i was able to enter the site.. i went to read their story.. the scroll bar looks so inconspicuous.. i didn’t know it’s the scroll bar.. and you had drag it.. and for someone like me using a touchpad of a netbook.. it was hard.. you can’t even click page down or page up or even highlight the text to force it to scroll down.. and since i have a netbook.. everything won’t fit my screen and they disabled the main scroll bar… another note.. white text on a black background with diamonds.. is really hard to read.. anyway, there’s not much information on these watches on Chouette’s site.. just some pictures on the front after entering the site.. sorry if i went off topic about the website.. i couldn’t resist not to comment on it..

in one quote

2010-04-15T05:45:00.002+08:00

my last post was about stairs and i saw this quote..

“Change starts when someone sees the next step” – William Drayton

i was talking about stairs previously.. i had talked about change before.. but i never expect they would both appear in one quote.. it’s a really nice quote.. and i know sometimes, it’s really hard to see the next step.. not seeing it or even not having a clear vision of it seems so scary.. and keeping in mind that.. making a wrong step might make you fall down a few steps back.. but that’s life.. full of uncertainty.. we commit mistakes.. we learn from it.. we advance.. step by step.. ~~and when we reach the top, we all fall down and die~~.. life is like a stair..

going down the stairs

2010-04-15T05:18:00.001+08:00

sometimes when i go down the stairs.. i would see myself lying down at the other end.. covered with blood.. like as if i fell down.. and died.. it doesn’t really scare me.. ‘cause i’m used to it.. and i think maybe, it’s my way of telling myself to be careful when i go down..

a person of few words

2010-04-15T00:40:00.002+08:00

blogging is a challenge for me considering that i’m a person of few words.. i’m quiet and i don’t really talk that much.. and sometimes, i have a hard time expressing my thoughts and emotions.. myself as a whole.. i have been like this ever since.. sometimes my sister would get mad at me for not reacting at all.. i wonder why there are people who can’t keep their mouth shut even for just a minute while there are some like me who can’t talk continuously for a whole minute.. they say there are two things that make up one’s personality.. nature and nurture.. some say it’s acquired through genes.. so maybe one of my parents or maybe both were as quiet as me then.. but some say our personality is influenced by environmental factors.. so maybe something happened that made me this way.. i can’t really answer why i am like this.. it’s just the way i am..