hopefool

a pinch of sugar

2012-02-11T01:08:00.001+08:00

“Change is nature, the part that we can influence, and it starts when we decide.”- Remy, RatatouilleI started my long day at 5 am with less than 4 hours of sleep due to my messed up body clock. What got me so eager and fired up? Baking classes! In an attempt to find things to get me motivated, I enlisted myself to Chef Carrie Madrid's Cupcake Workshop I under the Heny Sison Culinary School. I

live for the moment

2012-02-04T02:38:00.000+08:00

"You know what I think?" she says. "People's memories are maybe the fuel they burn to stay alive. Whether those memories have any actual importance or not, it doesn't matter as far as the maintenance of life is concerned. They're all just fuel. Advertising fillers in the newspaper, philosophy books, dirty pictures in a magazine, a bundle of ten-thousand-yen bills: when you feed 'em to the fire,

when there is nothing left to burn..

2012-02-03T00:29:00.000+08:00

..you have to set yourself on fire.

the road to hell is paved with good intentions

2011-12-30T00:24:00.002+08:00

Children walking barefoot across the streets under the scorching sun, weaving in the pattern of cars caused by either stoplight or traffic. Children in tattered clothes defenseless under the cold rain with nowhere to go. Children hitching on jeepneys trying to clean your shoes for a piece of coin. This never fails to tug at my heartstrings. Some kids have the feel of helpless and some you can

happy birthday to me

2011-12-10T00:42:00.003+08:00

There is a season for wildness and a season for settledness, and this is neither. This season is about becoming. - 11 Things to Know at 25(ish)

konsepto ng ako

2011-09-13T11:53:00.000+08:00

There lives in me a decrepit old man. Most days I fight him, most weekends I let him win. I had my fortune told once, the fortune teller predicted that this is my fifth and will be my last life. Three out of my four past lives were that of men, mostly leaders of tribes and kingdoms and in one life, a reclusive woman. The mechanics of the life recycling game is that your soul gets revived

savasana

2011-09-01T03:11:00.000+08:00

let's get the ball rolling

2011-08-30T22:58:00.009+08:00

This was written July 7, 2:00 AM. I wanted to write a different one because I don't feel my writing here buuut this'll do. --Because sleep evades.Day 01 - Your current relationship, if single discuss how single life is.NBSB. For twenty three years, I have been single. It isn't as sad to me as some people think it is. I dont feel the pressure to fill in the space that I am aware of is empty.

one two three four tell me that you love me more

2011-08-06T01:29:00.006+08:00

Lezgo challenge!

manic depressive

2011-07-10T22:55:00.001+08:00

I sleep too much, my average sleeping time hits from 10-12 hours whenever I work from home or its a weekend with nowhere to go. You and I can probably deduce that this is not healthy. AT ALL. Sometimes I wake up early but I just lay in bed with no will to move until I fall asleep again. I feel like in front of me is this glass wall and in front of it is a myriad of possibilities of what my future

listen to mister Leonard Peltier, whoever he is

2011-07-05T23:21:00.001+08:00

Silence screams.Silence is a message,just as doing nothing is an act.

because it's never the same

2011-06-19T23:41:00.001+08:00

Dear Papa,It's the sixth year that I am unable to greet you a happy father's day and to thank you for everything. I wonder where you are and what kind of life you are living. Does heaven provide an alternate world where we still exist? Where I fix your coffee everyday, where Mama and you are still inseparable, where you play basketball and talk about man things with Balong, and of course where

crisis

2011-04-16T23:14:00.004+08:00

No trumpets sound when the important decisions of our life are made. Destiny is made known silently. - Agnes de MilleIt's all starting to slip away, my care, that is. And it's being replaced by indifference turning to apathy and spiraling to lifelessness. I don't like it and succumb to it, I wont. They say that to overcome your weakness you've got to own it. I know I've done too much owning, it's

somebody push me off this cliff

2011-03-14T20:33:00.001+08:00

I try. Really. This is as much gusto as I can muster. But every time I do, I find more reasons to feel otherwise.

this momma still has her mojo

2011-02-12T02:52:00.007+08:00

I've been fighting bouts of negativity and some inner depression lately (or you could say this past year). But no matter how bitter I become there's always something sweet to come my way. Like the sweetest friends. That dream trip and that dream weather. This meaning = Girl Bestfriends + Korea + Autumn. It makes me absolutely breathless just thinking of it. I always get what I want. Hee.Its going

cpr

2011-01-25T07:49:00.004+08:00

i am a morning person = i love my job

seeing is deceiving

2010-10-28T00:04:00.001+08:00

dreaming is believing

day one! check!

2010-09-20T23:18:00.003+08:00

1. wake up early2. eat breakfast3. go gym (sauna :D)4. no coke ruleImma do this! Detox week hello!

listen to those mantras from tumblr

2010-09-15T23:26:00.001+08:00

Be soft. Do not let the world make you hard. Do not let the pain make you hate. Do not let the bitterness steal your sweetness. Take pride that een though the rest of the world may disagree, you still believe it to be a beautiful place.

dangle

2010-09-09T18:53:00.000+08:00

If you don't like something, get rid of it.

momma for the win

2010-08-29T22:28:00.000+08:00

She wears high heels, I wear slippers~

penny for your thoughts

2010-07-28T01:38:00.001+08:00

Work was shit today. And I cared out of necessity, merely out of necessity to have it fixed. At this point in my life, the obvious keeps being reinforced. What's holding me now is quickly depleting and there's this big possibility of having nothing left for tomorrow or for the near future. And it put my back up when an office mate raises it suddenly to a superior that I have thoughts of leaving.

hey big spender

2010-07-21T22:03:00.005+08:00

I feel so accomplished and at the same time irresponsible today. I got to bring mum to the hospital for an annual check up. It felt real good to have brought her there without spending anything for the checks. And yet I feel so irresponsible as I have yet to prepare for numerous things I am tasked to do work wise. Gaaaah *drag feet*.And I feel so happy and worried as well. Happy for the progress

on roads not taken

2010-07-12T23:48:00.002+08:00

Today I found out that the first person I've liked with all heart has a kid now. He's probably the one I can consider my first love, however shallow what we've been through then. It was during those days that I couldn't keep the smile off my face and laughing alone felt so foolishly right. Much like a high school girl, but being the late bloomer that I am, I was in college then. I felt this silly

knock yourself out

2010-07-11T23:31:00.004+08:00

Who am I? I question and question and find myself locked in a loop. I thrive on being a provider, but I find that if this role is taken away from me, I dont know who I am or what I want.On some days I am filled with hope and dreams, so much that the excitement brims over to the top and spills over but most days what I am is confused and druggy and lazy. My battle lies within me and my will.