tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8698951487766708988Mon, 09 Sep 2024 03:30:33 +0000anxietydepressionmental healthrecoveryschizoid personality disorderschizotypal personality disorderA journey of recoveryhttp://howintheworlddidigethere.blogspot.com/noreply@blogger.com (Victoria)Blogger229125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8698951487766708988.post-5764563778681343463Thu, 15 Dec 2016 17:38:00 +00002016-12-16T12:08:07.602-06:00I have been diagnosed with clinical depression and schizoid personality disorder.  A person with schizoid personality disorder avoids social activities and has limited emotional expressions.  And yes, I generally do not like social gatherings of more than four or five people.  In small gatherings, everyone tends to stay together in one group.  I can handle that.  In largehttp://howintheworlddidigethere.blogspot.com/2016/12/when-i-could-embrace-who-i-am.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Victoria)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8698951487766708988.post-4150487354938037641Tue, 23 Sep 2014 17:27:00 +00002014-09-23T12:33:54.364-05:00It's frustrating that I never know from day to day how I'm going to feel.  Today, I feel pretty good.  But yesterday I didn't get to work until noon, and that followed a whole weekend of not doing anything.  My biggest cooking accomplishment did not rise above a fried egg sandwich.  Peanut butter, crackers, popcorn, and cheese rounded out my meals for the weekend.  http://howintheworlddidigethere.blogspot.com/2014/09/ya-just-never-know.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Victoria)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8698951487766708988.post-2432721922152338497Mon, 20 May 2013 17:44:00 +00002013-05-20T12:44:12.034-05:00I have been struggling with the issues of health and fitness for 60 years.  Well, okay, maybe that's a stretch.  56 years.  My weight was an issue when I was very young.  My mother tried unsuccessfully to get me to lose weight.  She didn't have a chance at success.  Not when I had an aunt next door who gave me Hershey bars and chocolate milk.  And my dad didn't http://howintheworlddidigethere.blogspot.com/2013/05/decision.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Victoria)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8698951487766708988.post-7077014417490655693Tue, 14 May 2013 18:01:00 +00002013-05-14T13:01:32.498-05:00My word for the day is mindfulness, otherwise known as the Zen of Chester.  Focusing on whatever I am doing at the moment, fully involved.  Not thinking about what I'm going to do later, or what I need to do.  Being present in the moment.http://howintheworlddidigethere.blogspot.com/2013/05/mindfulness.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Victoria)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8698951487766708988.post-4067124282263894209Thu, 28 Jun 2012 17:52:00 +00002012-06-28T12:52:32.085-05:00Wow, it's been so long since I've been here that it took me a while to find  my blog and then to figure out how to sign in and post to it. Lessons I wish I hadn't had to learn -  1.  If I sit at just the right spot on my toilet and lean back, I will pee between the rim and the seat.  I will not know that I am doing this until I get up and find myself standing in a puddle of http://howintheworlddidigethere.blogspot.com/2012/06/lessons-i-wish-i-hadnt-had-to-learn.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Victoria)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8698951487766708988.post-9165063325893488156Wed, 02 Mar 2011 11:42:00 +00002011-03-02T05:42:40.874-06:00I've found an apartment, and have a move in date of March 26.  That is a big relief.  I can relax now.  Of course, there's the packing and moving.  But now I know where I'm going.  I'm really excited about the  complex.  It's a stable community, very well maintained, with a couple of special features.  For example, not only will they accept deliveries for http://howintheworlddidigethere.blogspot.com/2011/03/wednesday.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Victoria)3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8698951487766708988.post-8805390891840628541Tue, 01 Mar 2011 12:41:00 +00002011-03-01T06:41:30.535-06:00It's almost 6:30, so I'll keep this short.  I was really stressed over finding a new place to live.  The market is pretty tight, and I don't have a lot of time to find a place.  I didn't sleep much at all on Sunday night, and yesterday was a tough day.  I spent all day working on a spreadsheet.  But I had a glass of Coastal Red 2010 when I got home, and that helped a lot!http://howintheworlddidigethere.blogspot.com/2011/03/tuesday.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Victoria)1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8698951487766708988.post-3531737337539356313Sat, 26 Feb 2011 14:14:00 +00002011-02-26T08:14:23.934-06:00Just a quick post this morning.  I'm meeting friends for lunch today, checking out apartments, and packing.  There will be an inspection of the house on Monday.  Things are moving along.http://howintheworlddidigethere.blogspot.com/2011/02/saturday.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Victoria)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8698951487766708988.post-1481096598559602121Fri, 25 Feb 2011 10:54:00 +00002011-02-25T04:54:43.188-06:00 I just discovered that I posted this to the wrong blog.  I posted to the blog that I set up for us who trained together in Lafayette in November.  so, I cut and pasted.  Here it is. I slept in this morning - did not get up until 5. That's definitely better than 3:30. It is so nice to wake up without an alarm clock, to wake up and feel ready to get out of bed. I must http://howintheworlddidigethere.blogspot.com/2011/02/thursday.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Victoria)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8698951487766708988.post-7695311218997929658Wed, 23 Feb 2011 11:02:00 +00002011-02-23T05:02:57.435-06:00I slept in this morning - until 4 o'clock.  But, then, I stayed up late last night - until 9 o'clock.  It's nice to have time for myself in the morning as well as time to do a few things before going to work.  And it's wonderful to be able to relax after work without having any chores to do.  I had my morning coffee out on the front porch without wanting a cigarette this http://howintheworlddidigethere.blogspot.com/2011/02/wednesday.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Victoria)1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8698951487766708988.post-219368554879583243Tue, 22 Feb 2011 11:50:00 +00002011-02-22T05:50:39.694-06:00It was pleasantly cool yesterday morning before the sun came up.  This morning it is warm, muggy, foggy, and raining.  It's a he-man-sized serving of Louisiana weather! Not smoking has not been too bad.  There have been times when I would have gone to buy a pack, but I was too tired to go right then, so that saved me.  And I've saved $6.54 and 4 hours of my life. That's all http://howintheworlddidigethere.blogspot.com/2011/02/foggy-rain.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Victoria)1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8698951487766708988.post-961514153308142622Mon, 21 Feb 2011 11:19:00 +00002011-02-21T05:19:29.523-06:00Saturday was cook and clean day.  I spent about three hours chopping bell peppers, onion, and celery to put into the freezer before I actually started cooking.  I enjoy chopping veggies, but after a couple of hours, it begins to lose its charms.  But now I've got a good supply in the freezer, as well as meals ready to heat and eat.  Next weekend I can spend lesshttp://howintheworlddidigethere.blogspot.com/2011/02/monday-morning.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Victoria)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8698951487766708988.post-8828400527315701260Sat, 19 Feb 2011 13:26:00 +00002011-02-19T07:26:38.645-06:00anxietydepressionmental healthschizoid personality disorderToday is my first day in twenty years as a non-smoker!  Yay!  It's something that I've been thinking about for a long time. I'm very much susceptible to triggers, to events and even times of the day, that call me to smoke.  So, when I started working, I did not take any smoke breaks.  As a result, any thought of smoking at work is a fleeting moment rather than a strong urge.&http://howintheworlddidigethere.blogspot.com/2011/02/finally.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Victoria)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8698951487766708988.post-1699259346561666653Fri, 18 Feb 2011 12:20:00 +00002011-02-18T06:20:20.574-06:00I've wanted to start posting again for a while, so today I decided to get back into the swing of things.  I don't have the time to edit and tweak my posts like I did before, so my posts will be rougher from now on.  Funny how I have the need to do a good job, and to have others see that I am doing a good job.  So here I am, explaining in advance why my writing might not be up to myhttp://howintheworlddidigethere.blogspot.com/2011/02/resuming.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Victoria)2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8698951487766708988.post-4116897161329872834Mon, 22 Nov 2010 12:47:00 +00002010-11-22T06:47:52.182-06:00recoveryThe past two weeks I have been attending a Peer Support Specialist Training.  A Peer Support Specialist is someone who is recoverying from a mental illness and who has been trained to support others to find their own paths to recovery.  We had class from 8:30 until 4:45 each day, homework each night, and a midterm test over the weekend.  The final consisted of a role-playing http://howintheworlddidigethere.blogspot.com/2010/11/living-in-recovery.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Victoria)1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8698951487766708988.post-3985738164713576817Wed, 03 Nov 2010 14:25:00 +00002010-11-03T09:25:42.701-05:00anxietydepressionmental healthrecoveryschizoid personality disorderI'm crossing my fingers that my internet connection lasts long enough to post this morning.  I've getting only brief periods of connectivity, and then the link goes kaput again. Today I'm preparing for the Peer Employment Training  which starts next week in Lafayette.  And doing laundry....  And packing up things that I don't need right now. I'm so looking forward to this http://howintheworlddidigethere.blogspot.com/2010/11/quick-post.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Victoria)1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8698951487766708988.post-1137544173827051573Tue, 26 Oct 2010 14:20:00 +00002010-10-26T09:20:35.281-05:00anxietydepressionmental healthrecoveryschizoid personality disorderSpending time working on my WRAP plan has been very helpful.  It helps me to break things down into manageable steps.  I'm pleased with my day yesterday.  I did most of the things on my to-do list.  I was so excited to find fresh cranberries at the grocery store yesterday.  I've been waiting for them since last year.  Cranberry orange muffins!  Yum!  I http://howintheworlddidigethere.blogspot.com/2010/10/tuesday_26.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Victoria)1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8698951487766708988.post-5356295458826826597Mon, 25 Oct 2010 14:01:00 +00002010-10-25T09:01:14.228-05:00anxietydepressionmental healthrecoveryschizoid personality disorderYesterday I worked on my WRAP plan.  It's something that I've been thinking about and working on in my head, but yesterday I sat down and started typing up my lists.  Although it is a dynamic plan, one that I will continually adjust, it is beginning to feel more complete now, something that I can refer to every day to help me stay on track.  Today I have my to-do list, one http://howintheworlddidigethere.blogspot.com/2010/10/wrapping.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Victoria)1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8698951487766708988.post-1635438238128507955Sat, 23 Oct 2010 20:39:00 +00002010-10-23T15:39:39.739-05:00anxietydepressionmental healthrecoveryschizotypal personality disorderIt was one year ago today that I began my journey of recovery.  To mark this anniversary, I planned show where I'd been and where I am now.  I uploaded pictures of my house, and I took photos to show how it looks today.  But as I started to describe what my life was like back then and looked at the photos, I did not feel like it was a healthy thing for me to do to go back http://howintheworlddidigethere.blogspot.com/2010/10/will-third-time-be-charm.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Victoria)1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8698951487766708988.post-984799559209516629Wed, 20 Oct 2010 19:27:00 +00002010-10-20T14:27:55.105-05:00anxietydepressionmental healthrecoveryschizoid personality disorderThe last couple of days have been nap days.  On Tuesday, I stretched out at noon to watch Judge Alex, the best-looking judge on TV, and promptly fell asleep.  This morning, I fell asleep around 7.  I've been cooking, made a wonderful meatloaf.  Today I'm going to roast a chicken with sausage and potatoes.  Yum.  That's about it.  Just the usual. http://howintheworlddidigethere.blogspot.com/2010/10/wednesday.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Victoria)1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8698951487766708988.post-2104280530057862661Mon, 18 Oct 2010 13:19:00 +00002010-10-18T08:19:49.770-05:00anxietydepressionmental healthrecoveryschizoid personality disorderMowed the yard yesterday.  I replaced the spark plug in my push mower, but I really hoped that it would not start.  It started up on the first pull.  So, I mowed the yard side of the ditch.  I'll do the street side later.  It wasn't so bad, since it's not hot and humid.  In fact, it's been so dry that I've been shocked from static electricity inside the house.  http://howintheworlddidigethere.blogspot.com/2010/10/monday.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Victoria)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8698951487766708988.post-5088005302664084263Sun, 17 Oct 2010 16:17:00 +00002010-10-17T11:17:08.884-05:00anxietydepressionmental healthrecoveryschizoid personality disorderOkay, so yesterday I wanted to sleep late, but woke up around 3:30.  Today I wanted to get up early, but slept until around 8:30.  Guess I had some catching up to do on my sleep.  It seems I wake up around either 3:30, 5:30, or 8:30.  Something about that half-hour.  McNeese played LSU for the first time yesterday.  They lost, naturally.  The score was http://howintheworlddidigethere.blogspot.com/2010/10/sunday.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Victoria)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8698951487766708988.post-910997153563450346Sat, 16 Oct 2010 10:01:00 +00002010-10-16T05:01:14.482-05:00anxietydepressionmental healthrecoveryschizoid personality disorderWell, I tried to sleep in this morning, but I woke up at 3:30 feeling wide awake.  Early to bed and early to rise, that's me! I had a good time folding bulletins yesterday at  St. Theodore yesterday.  Saw some old friends I hadn't seen in a long time.  I started cleaning out the last bedroom.  Now I know why I had been putting it off.  I must have ahttp://howintheworlddidigethere.blogspot.com/2010/10/saturday.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Victoria)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8698951487766708988.post-6018807134211194965Fri, 15 Oct 2010 11:50:00 +00002010-10-15T06:50:52.537-05:00anxietydepressionmental healthrecoveryschizoid personality disorderI had my sonogram on Wednesday.  The bed was very comfortable, and I could relax and almost imagine that I was lying on a tropical beach, at least from the waist up.  From the waist down, I was very conscious of, first, a very full bladder, and then later, of my knees being up in the air in an awkward position.  It was not a position that I would choose in public!  I asked http://howintheworlddidigethere.blogspot.com/2010/10/friday.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Victoria)1