This is from Kari – she hasn’t had an episode in years. It took her awhile cause she didn’t want to tap on her own, but she kept coming to me and we cleared it! Here’s what she has to say.

Using EFT/Matrix Reimprinting for Depression: Like Battling a Giant with Really Small, Surprisingly Effective Rocks

Tapping is the stupidest thing you’ll ever do.

I realize that I just potentially offended an entire, ever-growing community of people, but it’s true. Tapping is probably the stupidest thing you’ll ever do. Think about it – there are “special places” all over your face and body and if you bang on these enough, while saying some words and imagining some stuff all your problems will go away. To make it even more ridiculous, you can imagine banging on the face of an imaginary younger version of yourself and your problems will go away even faster. And let’s face it, you know that when you’re sitting there, eyes closed, trying to picture your inner four year old, touching your face like a crazy person with a nervous tic, and mumbling that you truly and deeply love and accept yourself anyway – you probably look pretty stupid. In fact, we can go ahead and remove the “probably” – you look stupid.

The problem with this stupid thing is that it actually works. That isn’t to say that it feels any less silly or ridiculous while you’re doing it, and that isn’t to say that you’ll suddenly stop feeling the urge to sigh and roll your eyes every time your practitioner asks you to “ask your little self how they feel”, and it certainly doesn’t mean that all of your issues, problems, and troubles will disappear in a cloud of magic tapping dust tomorrow, but it is to say that you will be involved in a process that will help you to slowly but surely move forward once and for all. And what’s even better is that you will start to feel a difference, see changes in yourself and various parts of your life, and you will get better – it just takes some time and a whole lot of looking stupid.

Everyone who taps gets to go through the “this is so stupid, I can’t believe I’m doing this, this thing can’t possibly actually work” phase – and for some it’s longer than others – but for those dealing with heavy and complex issues like depression, the experience is a little more complicated. You see, depression isn’t something that happens over night – and I speak from experience. Depression is something that creeps in slowly, almost elusively, like putting ink in a jar of water. It creeps. It blurs reality. It affects everything. And when it finally settles, everything seems a little darker – actually, it all seems a lot darker. And you find yourself looking around at all the inky, cloudy water – complete with black ink-sludge on the bottom – and you think “Holy !!##&*@. There’s no way I can clean this up. I don’t even have the energy to think about where to begin, I think I’ll just sleep instead. This is utterly and terribly hopeless.”  So you sit inside of your little, inky jar, feeling depressed, and sad, and hopeless, and unmotivated, and wishing things weren’t like this and having no idea if you’ll have to live like this forever. Meds might help. Talking to someone might help. Seeing a therapist might help. All of these things help you cope with and rationalize the situation, but none of them make the darkness – the depression – go away.

Enter tapping (cue glorious music from the sky, a video montage of clouds opening, and maybe even the voice of Morgan Freeman!). Tapping is supposed to be able to help! There’s a success rate and testimonials from other people who couldn’t get out of their inky, water-filled jars and got better from doing this stupid thing, and suddenly, even though you can hardly believe it (even though you’re terrified to believe it because what if it doesn’t work on you??!), there’s some hope. A glimmer through the muck and mire. And so you resolve yourself, as difficult as resolve feels most of the time, that you’re going to try it. You read all of the success stories and watch all of the near-miraculous videos and You Tube clips and talk to as many people as you can and when you finally try this miraculous, godsend of a cure, your realize how stupid it feels, how you don’t really wanna talk to any *#%! younger version of yourself, let alone bang on their faces, you don’t feel like doing work on your own in-between sessions even though your practitioner highly recommends it, and my god it’s taking so long why is it taking so long????

In these moments, remember that depression (or fill in the blank with the disorder of your choice!) most likely didn’t happen over night, and there’s no reason to expect that it will go away over night – but it will go away. It can be defeated. Again, I speak from experience. Think of tapping like this (I really like metaphors): Tapping is like fighting giants with stones. Some giants are bigger than others (depression is huge, a spider phobia? Not so huge), and some stones are bigger than others. At first, it’s totally natural to look at the pile of stones that you have and think, “There is no way in #@!! these will ever take down that whole giant,” but you lob one at him anyway, just because, well, you’ve tried everything else and you may as well cross this stupid tapping stuff off your list too. The stone you threw (not very zealously, I might add, because you were too busy being skeptical and convincing yourself that it wouldn’t work anyway), hits the giant’s little finger. Not exactly deadly, but to your surprise, his little pinky finger disintegrates. Poof. Gone. Just like that. You stare at the space where his finger once was in shock. It worked! These stones may seem small compared to the giant, but they’re surprisingly effective. It’s easy to get hung up on how huge the giant seems – your depression giant is a big one – he’s been binging on chocolate and carbs to make himself feel better and spending most of his days laying in bed – but if you keep lobbing stones, knowing that if you just hit him again, another piece of him will disintegrate, and then another, and another, and so on. If you feel motivated to tap on your own and you throw some extra stones, great! But if not, it really doesn’t matter. As long as you keep going in some fashion, the giant will slowly, but surely, break down, until there’s nothing left but a foot, maybe an ear, and you’ll think, “Hey. I can live with that!” and it’ll be over and you’ll be moving on with the rest of your life before you know it.

It takes time. And you’ll feel stupid. And it’ll feel so long and ridiculous and impossible. But when the giant’s gone, all the stupid rock throwing will have been totally worth it.

It creates a foundation for the individual that can then support the rest of his/her life, no matter what negative things happened in life. It’s especially good for people who feel alone or depressed or disconnected, etc. I’ve recently videotaped 2 sessions using this and will create a DVD so anyone can learn it and use it.

This is from Gerry K. It is his experience and result. Thanks for sharing to help others!

I have started with a repeat of his last paragraph:

This imprinting into my whole self was an unbelievably powerful experience with, I’m sure immeasurable consequences. I felt a shift within me, like a more grounded me, a more powerful me. I feel that still this morning, in some ways even more powerfully.

… so we started the Soul Reconnection. She wanted me to sit with me in the womb – early, before 12 weeks old. She explained how it is generally accepted wisdom that the soul enters the body at about that age. The idea behind this process is to integrate the body and soul in a gentle, peaceful way. So I was to sit at some distance and observe the baby Gerry in the womb. Since I haven’t been good at visualizing, I had some trouble getting the image. Finally, I got an image of the baby tumbling head over heels. She asked me to ask the baby if he would be open to going on an adventure. The baby said yes. I held the baby and we went up a tube into a place where souls await their next assignment. There we were to meet my soul, though he may be busy preparing for the assignment. I had a hard time getting a visual fix on this soul, so Karin finally suggested a light, and then added “perhaps a green light?” which I later altered to a green-white light. I was to ask the baby me if I could allow the soul to hold him. He agreed and the soul held the baby me. When I was there as the baby me and was feeling comfortable and warm, we imprinted that good feeling.

We then went into the “soul planning room” and the baby me was shown that out of all the choices, the soul chose Gerry. This made the baby feel special and loved and we reimprinted that feeling and image.

Next we called in the supervisor of wombs who went down to rehab the womb to make it a more comfortable place to inhabit. He installed a liner/filter that was fine mesh and would absorb any negative emotions or vibes that would come from Mother (or Dad), but would allow any feelings of love or other positive emotions to still flow freely through. Then he installed an umbilical filter that would filter out any negative things Mother might imbibe and alchemically alter them into beneficial nutrients. I then asked the baby me what else he might want in there to make it a more inviting, peaceful place. He asked for a night sky with brilliant stars and some vibrant green plants. The supervisor then left, we said goodbye for now to my soul and I took the baby me and slid back down the chute into the newly refurbished womb. I asked him how he liked it and he did and basked in the comfort of this much upgraded living quarters. We then imprinted those feelings of warmth and comfort and safety.

We then went forward in time to week 12, when the soul enters the body. I asked the baby me to tell me if he doesn’t feel comfortable with this. We went ahead with the soul coming in and the baby me sitting on his amorphous green-white light lap. Then the soul started shrinking and being absorbed into the baby me. There was some discomfort so we stopped and waited, and then the baby me accepted the absorption and felt the glow enter his body. As we lingered on this scene we imprinted it. It was the most powerful exercise I’ve ever done. I could feel the power surge through every part of me. I could feel the integration with the soul and the connection to myself, to my source. I could feel in particular a lot of motion in my first and second chakras, my root and power centers. The lower abdomen just felt like it was rolling around, rippling with an energy I’ve never felt before. We imprinted this long and deep. I visualized colors at Karin’s urging, though they were pretty faint. I pictured purple and green, then blue and yellow. She asked me to take these colors and the feelings of power and project them up and down my timeline – into the future Gerry at various points in his life, and backwards, presumably into previous lifetimes.

This imprinting into my whole self was an unbelievably powerful experience with, I’m sure immeasurable consequences. I felt a shift within me, like a more grounded me, a more powerful me. I feel that still this morning, in some ways even more powerfully.

It has been about a month and a half since my 7 day whirlwind experience in Florida with the EFT and Matrix Reimprinting Classes. As if that were not enough, I promptly followed that trip with the “I Can Do It” Conference in Vancouver. Since the middle of March, I have gone nowhere, and have allowed myself to recharge, rejuvenate, and focus on my day job of being a high school teacher.  However, I have continued to read, recently being exposed to Jiddu Krishnamurti, as well as to conduct Matrix Reimprinting/Rebirthing Sessions with various close friends. I have also been listening to the Webinars, as well as “playing” with some of my own Echos in the Matrix.

I give all this background information for a reason. Something profound happened to me in Florida. It started with volunteering to be a demo for Karin Davidson with an “easy” Echo to show the process. We worked on loneliness. I don’t remember much of the session itself, but I do remember her asking me how long I had felt this loneliness. I replied that ever since I remembered, I had always had this loneliness. She asked if it came from before birth, and I said yes, and then she asked me to give an age from conception to 9 months. I said that I didn’t know, and she asked me to give whatever number popped in my mind and “2” came out. She smiled as this obviously meant something to her but nothing to me. She looked at Sharon King who was sitting in the back and said, “She needs Soul Reconnection” – whatever that was. We continued with the session and imprinted a beautiful image of present Amber and Echo Amber sitting arm in arm on a beach – happy with each other and not lonely.

Fast-forward a few days to the Matrix Rebirthing and Life Purpose Workshop with Sharon King. I remember very vividly reading the slide for the Soul Reconnection, and I started to cry, as I totally resonated and saw myself in that description:

A feeling of one of the following

never really connect with your “higher self”

you feel like “fate” controls your life

you never really have control over you own life

you take your body for granted – it’s there to house your life purpose.

That was me – even though I didn’t want to admit it – especially the last one. Karin went up, and spoke briefly on the slide, asked for volunteers, and then looked at me and called me up – remember she felt from the first demo that this could help. She didn’t know it, but I really didn’t want to go up – but I was anxious to get rid of this nagging sense of always being in a war with my body and so agreed.

I would like to explain here that I have spent my whole life split in half. I always identified very strongly with my mind, and my soul; my body – well, it was just along for the ride, and as a result, I treated myself horribly. I pushed myself mercilessly in athletics, and it was just a given that my body would do what I demanded of it without question. Of course, I struggled with my weight, and alternated between indulging and denying myself everything and anything, not to mention forcing myself to do things I didn’t want to do. Suffice to say that I had never felt at home in my own skin – but having nothing to compare it to, I thought this was normal. As I sat up there with Karin, I was overcome with the shame and sadness about how horribly I had treated my body:  going from no exercise to 2 hours a day of exercise; eating healthy to eating crap; eating nothing to eating everything. And I haven’t even mentioned the total and utter loathing and hatred I felt for my body – how I despised my “thunder thighs,” and agonized over my weight;  how I hated what I saw in the mirror. Everything was wrong with how I looked, and I always felt very unattractive as a result.

I would also like to add that sometime during the past few months, I had also realized that I was an emotional eater who ate to fill the void of being lonely, as well as to give myself love. Somehow in my mixed-up mind, food gave me the support and unconditional love that I felt I never got in my childhood. From a rational point of view, this was ridiculous, as I had two parents who loved me very much, and it would hurt them to know that I felt so unloved. Yet, my inner child, or one of my Echos, basically told me that she just wanted love, but somehow food had become a good substitute! I would walk around the house in the evenings with a sense of “dis-ease” looking for whatever food – peanut butter, fruit, chocolate, raw cookie dough – ANYTHING that would fill me up and make the empty feeling go away. After these mini binges, I would be struck with guilt, shame, and total and utter self-loathing, and I was always so envious of skinny people who did not have to go through this garbage.

This was all the baggage I carried up with me to Karin, baggage which I was very anxious to get rid of. So I plunked myself down, part of me very unwilling and part of me excited to “get ‘er done!”  What I discovered was that my pattern of “forcing” DID NOT WORK in this instance. I begged, pleaded, and even threatened my “baby Amber Echo” (well, actually my two month old embryo Echo) to hurry up this process. I remember being horrified that I was being such a stubborn demo, and that Karin was going to lose patience with me.  I also remember wanting desperately to fake the reconnection and bolt – anything to avoid facing myself and that 2 month old Echo who was NOT very happy with me.  To me, it seemed Karin tried EVERYTHING, and my frustration and embarrassment grew until she finally told the now me (Matrix me) to go and stand in the “corner” of my mother’s womb, sit down, and shut up.  I swear my Echo laughed at this moment – when she deigned to give me the time of day.  She knew who I was, and basically, she was SUPER PISSED at me, and this was her chance to let me have it.  I also swear she gave me the finger at some point! Meanwhile, present day-demo Amber was dying of mortification, praying for anything to hurrying up this process.  And that was when I finally realized that my Echo was treating me the way I had been treating my body, and MYSELF for the past 34 years:  never listening, never paying attention, and always forcing myself to do things I didn’t want to do.  And so the Matrix Amber sat down, shut up, and watched – and STOPPED TRYING TO FORCE THE SITUATION in the way I wanted it to go, and stopped trying to force myself to do something I didn’t want to do.  And no, this was NOT a pattern I recognized AT ALL in my life!  I knew at that moment that something profound had happened, and even now I have a hard time explaining it or even understanding it.  It was the start of something very beautiful which I continue to see unfolding in my life today.

Fast-forward almost a month and half to April 9^th as I write this. First of all, I would like to thank everyone who held the space – who watched patiently as I struggled and railed against myself.  I would also like to thank Karin who didn’t let me run away, although I so desperately wanted to, and thank you to Sharon for introducing me to the Matrix Soul Purpose and Soul Reconnection.  So where am I now?  Well, I have had numerous friends and colleagues comment on how different I look, how I radiate and glow, and they ask me what I have been doing.  My energy friends have also noticed that my energy is more settled and peaceful.  For the first time in my life, I feel safe and comfortable in my own skin.  And I have continued to grow:   I have done several profound Matrix Sessions on myself, and I think I am on about day 100 of the Matrix Reimprinting Field Clearing Technique.  I do about 30 days, and then start on something new.  Suffice to say, I have focused on love and appreciation for my body, treating my body well, and listening to my body.  I am now on to celebrating my body.  I don’t feel split anymore, and I feel more in harmony with myself.  The urge to wander around and eat is no longer there – which still kind of amazes me, and I have to admit that I still look for it – after all, it has been a lifetime companion!  I don’t always make the best choices about what I eat, but I am present and appreciative (most of the time) about what I eat.  AND the ability to ignore and override my body and binge when I am not hungry is no longer there.  I eat when I am hungry – and yes, sometimes it is a bit of chocolate but I SAVOUR it!  When I try to eat when I am not hungry, I am just not interested and end up putting the food down.  I have also started a “Course in Weightloss”, which to me is another method to help me face my “dark” side – which also gives me a place to go in the Matrix, and helps me find and identify appropriate Echos to work with.  I truly believe that all of this started with the Soul Reconnection.  I know I tend to devote a lot of time and energy into my personal development, so who knows, perhaps I would have ended up here anyways, but I do know that the process has been much easier since the Soul Reconnection.  I continue to learn and grow, and it doesn’t seem so hard.  I have also stopped forcing myself to do things I don’t want to, which means I have become a little bit of a hermit recently, but I have spent my whole life forcing myself and my body that it feels appropriate to slow down and give myself time to enjoy life.  I find myself sitting and listening to classical music as a form of meditation and visualization, and perhaps I don’t accomplish as much as I used to, but I am a lot more content and settled.  It feels nice, and even a tad decadent to sit and savour quiet moments as I do now.  I don’t feel the need to be on the go all the time, and I have actually found myself to be quite pleasant company :-)  Lastly, I am able to look in the mirror, and maybe I don’t totally love what I see, and I know that I am not my ideal weight yet, but I accept myself and my body, I celebrate myself and my body, and daresay, I even like myself and my body.  And for that, I am truly grateful. – Amber

OK – I read the above and I need to say that I love Ann. And I respect Ann. I love her ability as a LCSW who was the administrator of a mental institution and worked with Gary Craig and was on those great (but so hard to watch DVDs where you didn’t know WHAT the heck you were watching until you actually understood this stuff so you knew what the heck you were watching…) to be able to write a coursebook with some television producer (cause that’s what I was) who ended up knowing a lot about EFT and is told she’s darn good at it but still not a trained therapist and blah blah – and then actually LISTEN to why I say the stuff in the book like the way I want to say it and she has to put her name on my stuff too. Hmmm – thank you, Ann. But still – pain in my buttocks. Hers too I’m sure. What people do to help the world, ya know? Boy it better help the world.

AND SO I honor these people who are willing to use tapping to clear depression and such. I agree with all my clients that staying on medication for the rest of your life is not a good option in my opinion. And to work with any practitioner, be sure to let them know what medication(s) you are on and where on, who is prescribing your medication and how often you see him/her for evaluation. (And of course do not change your dose(s) without your doctor’s help.)

If you are new – Please see www.HowToTap.com/newclient and watch the top 3 videos. Very often we will be using an advanced EFT technique called Matrix Reimprinting. So please also watch the top 6 videos at www.MatrixReimprintingUS.com/videos. That’s a lot of information, so I don’t expect anyone to watch them all at once.

I find that all depression, bipolar, and etc. has roots in very young childhood and even the womb. These events set up the person to utilize depression, etc. as a kind of coping skill for unfortunate things that happen in early teens and 20′s and on. This is not something I learned in a class or a book (although there are many that support this.) This is pure experience. So we will work with those events you believe caused this, but we will also be working earlier.

It is important that you understand that depression takes time to clear. There will be other areas that will improve more quickly as we tap, but the depression itself takes time. I must let you know that the shortest time was 3.5 months of once a week appointments AND the individual tapped on their own twice daily (taking notes as needed if her own work needed my help) The longest was 6 years, however, the person came sporadically and never tapped on her own. I do have one gentleman that has greatly improved in only one month – however, he is working with my students in between our weekly sessions and he came to my 2-day practitioner’s course – so he is very familiar with the process. The average is a year and a half if the person does not do any work on themselves on their own. This does not seem a long time for someone who has had depression, bipolar, etc. for years.

I recently had a client who was DETERMINED – we worked 3 or more times a week and I also had her work with an energy clearer/BodyTalk colleague in between and tapping on herself. It took 45 days. WOW. This is NOT the norm.

OK, so I’m not cheap. And once you begin, I would like you to be committed to becoming well. If you feel I may be too expensive for you, I do have practitioner candidates who study under me who are $25 per session until they are certified. I would still want you to work with me at least once a month.

I also use Meta-Medicine. You can watch a session here. www.howtotap.com/MM/ I was videotaping so the person tapping is Karl Dawson, creator of Matrix Reimprinting. To this day, she has not had any symptoms of bipolar.

Now as an EFT practitioner, clients only see a tiny bit of my dry humor, because there is a time and place for it and it doesn’t belong IN a session without EXACT PRECISE correct timing – but this isn’t an EFT session, now is it? hehehehe… My husband says people don’t want to hear the truth. My response is well, then, don’t ask me, ask someone else – really. I know that one can say it nicely, even the touchy stuff, but I’m gonna tell the truth. I feel I have to – sorry but not sorry – so I’m warning you now – don’t read this if you don’t want to know the truth. And my truth will not always be your truth – and I’m OK with that. If you’re not, don’t read on. I mean that’s what we’re all about right? The lovely wonderful differences and similarities of lives. Other’s perceptions will open our own, even if we disagree. I won’t ask you to be on board with what I say, just know that even if you disagree, I care what YOU think – even if I disagree. Actually, I hope the whole world can do that eventually…