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back to blogging once again after so longggg

2012-05-04T05:01:00.000+08:00

Recently my bro made one big decision that return the peace to our family.
Divorce..

Divorce isn't nice but to our family it seems to be a good news.
My bro feel less stressful.
I feel at peace.
My parents are happier.
My family are more loving than before.
I feel protected. I feel more loves than before.

I couldn't say how much i hate that woman. But i feel relieve that i don't have to face her anyhow.
Past one year plus i felt so down and stressful by her presence at our house.
waited so long for this peace.

And yes. My bro, you deserve someone better.

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An incident make me realise who i been believing does not deserve my trust.
Why did you do that? What do you gain..
Maybe sometimes i pretend not to know. It doesn't means i'm a fool...
Why make up stories that did not happen at all.
When everyone are thinking hard and worried what had they done wrongly, but you're there laughing and making a fool of us. It doesn't feel great.

Not everybody likes you

2011-10-07T18:20:00.002+08:00

The reality fact is that. If there are people who likes you. Then there will also be people who DISLIKE you.

Somebody just couldn't understand this fact.

Someone said this few days ago "i need the enthusiasm from people around me. They must be passionate when they are around me. I dislike people being cold to me".
Which i think she meant she needed attention every minute every second?

Could you stop being self-centered and attention seeking. Its making people around unhappy.
You don't even respect and pay attention to people. Yet you want so many attentions from people.
There's a limit you should go to.

But sometime this world is just unfair.
people like this tend to get really lots of attention, care and concern...

Sometime we remain silence just to endure people with such attitude.
Sometime we make a fuss is because we want to be heard and that we're at limit of endurance!

where do i go....

2011-09-16T21:14:00.000+08:00

helping my fren advertise

2011-09-05T14:05:00.000+08:00

Looking for Permanent part-time Medic(s)

-Singaporeans/ PRs living here only. 18 years old and above.

-Be willing to work in an outdoor environment(events,home nursing) from time to time.

-Must posses either of the following practicing certificate:
1.Standard First Aid
2.Advanced First Aid
3.Basic Cardio Life Support (BCLS)
4.NITEC/Diploma/Degree in Nursing

-Bilingual. Able to speak English.

-Able to commit at least 2-3 months.

Interested candidates can forward your resume to elainehwa@live.com.sg

Note: applicants on social visit/ tourist passes (ie. Filipinos/ Myanmarese) will not be entertained at all.

source: http://singapore.gumtree.sg/c-Jobs-healthcare-nursing-Permanent-part-time-Medic-s-W0QQAdIdZ311216963

so am i to forget wadeva nasty comments you say??

2011-08-19T03:06:00.000+08:00

it happens before. And it happens again!
You, saying things without thinking consequences.
saying thing without thoughts of people's feelings.
speaking things out loud without going thru ur brain.

This time it was the worst!
you said thing as you like.
you said all the nasty thing at your own wish.
And after all those troubles you cause,
you ask to forget everything.
Why? to get people stop scolding you for being nasty?
powerfulness of words. this is wad you cause.
And this is wad you should learn.
Tho i'm not sure u will learn it.

Happy birthday to me

2011-08-08T13:49:00.000+08:00

finding time to write down my feelings...

2011-07-16T13:32:00.000+08:00

my thoughts are in a mess right now.
everytime finding time to write down some feelings..
but everytime ending up backspacing the whole text..
but i guess i really need a space to voice some thoughts.

it doesn't feel great having someone in your life that make you feel irritated, annoying, sad, angry, demoralise and such.. almost everyday in your life.
My nemesis! damn you..
I had to cry so often thanks to all your comments,
sometime i just don't understand! And it jus isn't right!
Why do the one enduring your nonsense gets all the scolding, reprimanding. While you get so much care and concern no matter how bad ur stubbornness gets!?

feeling more and more useless as more tears flows...

long chat

2011-06-20T02:03:00.000+08:00

today had a nice nice nice chat with some friends.
chat about habits, privacy, future, career and such.
Glad to have a further understanding of a friend.. :)

I enjoy today long chat. Though i spend the whole day just chatting and stoning infront of my laptop. :P

But the night fall still makes me kind of emotional and lost...

Pouring out

2011-06-14T02:24:00.000+08:00

Tonight I feel somehow relax after weeks of stress. I can say maybe it's bcux I pour out almost all unhappiness to friends. By SMS by msg by meeting face to face.
And a new insight gained thru meetups.

Lost souls found each other and gave each other comfort and courage.

Tho my nemesis still exist... Haa

you

2011-06-08T02:04:00.000+08:00

I'm not sure why you do that everytime.
I always wonder whats in your mind.
Why always so attention seeking.
When will you stop acting like that.

There is a limit to my tolerance for your foolish nonsense!
Its mind torturing...
I'm stressed! I feel restless! And i am tired all because of your nonsense..

movie

2011-06-01T18:12:00.001+08:00

recently watched this movie intro by fren

nice love movie.

one of the quote i like from the movie

"爱情没有那么简单否则世界上的每一个人早就找到幸福了"
- love isn't so simple. Or else everyone in this world had already found their happiness

sigh..

2011-06-01T17:34:00.000+08:00

don't like this kind of feeling.

like u get ignored suddenly. And when this happens.. its like the whole world are doing it together. Not intended but happens at same time same day..

sleeps

2011-05-16T01:14:00.002+08:00

when u are unhappy. you use sleeping to hide it. And at the same time hiding away from problems.

perhaps...

doesn't feel great to be call a "junk"...

doesn't feel great when u need to pour it all out, then u couldn't...

hate it when you couldn't let it out and could only cry alone...

hate it more when u wanna cry, you still have to hide those tears.

maybe i couldn't live till the day to see those karma happens...

late update - my first election voting!

2011-05-12T14:28:00.000+08:00

late update. didn't have the chance to post.

My first time voting...

they say no updates!!

2011-04-06T18:35:00.000+08:00

old update actually. Went to orchard central for dinner 2 wks ago!
together with my bro, sis-in-law, and their 2 friend. so-call dinner.. but actually is match-making session for their 2 friend! Erm i was there as "extra".. went there for the food only actually. hee

tonkichi

kimchi

grinding the sesame

foodies

rice!

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Last month was also sis-in-law bday and so my bro bought this cake.
PUPPY cake

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Last week went to this soju bang korea bbq @ tanjong pagar
picture not taken nicely....

just thoughts. just blessed. just touched.

2011-03-24T14:21:00.001+08:00

Just being lazy in updating the blog. But today shall spend the time to update this space of mine :D

Dating back to 2 weeks ago, went to sakura to celebrate parents birthday with family, sis-in-law and her bro.

Happy family day out filled with laughters is so nice.
2nd visit to sakura is better than 1st visit.
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2 weeks ago went city hall and saw this famous popcorn (so called oprah's favourite?)..
The queue damn longgggggg so didn't buy it. but last week someone bought for me. Cheese & almond favour! nice nice :D

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Yesterday was alone at home. parents went over to malaysia. Was lazy to go so far to buy lunch and so decide to buy spaggethi from nearby mini-mart and cook :D

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I can't understand the fact of some people. Why are they letting themselves being used again and again just by listening to some sweet talks. And the fact that some people are so blinded.. It feel disgusting.
= ="

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just some thoughts. ever felt like if you don't have to explain alot about yourself and people will understand how you feel. Know your sorrow, your pain, and such...

I didn't know i had. But now i know i have. :D
Yes i feel blessed and touched with your understanding..

updates

2011-03-07T01:35:00.001+08:00

haven't been updating blog for some time. = =
Usually feel like blogging. And when i wrote one long paragraph of words i decide not to post it, and close the browser..

nowadays feel like giving too much time for certain thing. And then neglecting certain thing and people.
And then... trying to voice out unhappiness but getting silence responses..
As good as not saying anything.. =(

back in sg

2011-02-14T19:34:00.000+08:00

离家出走1个星期终于回家了。
想家想我的电脑想我的床
回到我的安全区！

在外度过的一个星期不是很习惯
有时像被困在那边
说好去3天结果变成6天。。。
一个星期没有internet!
一个星期不能写信给朋友

不过kampong的风景很美很舒服尤其是傍晚时刻

我离家出走了

2011-02-05T01:34:00.000+08:00

我离家出走了! =P
带着我的牙刷我走了！

哈哈4天后见！我要去holiday @ malaysia
=)

tell me why i hate cny dunno since when

2011-02-03T23:41:00.000+08:00

First day of cny isn't great as usual.
Just when i was hoping i get through this pathetic day. The longest day of the year for me. I tried all ways i could avoid any arguement or conflicts.
Then when the day was about to end. This aunt of mine decided to question me about my life and future. Which in the end result in tensions between us.

Well done, you never fail to spoil my mood on every day 1 of cny.
凸凸凸凸凸!!!

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well.. just some funny moments during today (yea before that tension happen)

1)conversation during blackjack 21 time between me and my uncle:

uncle:（got an A for one of his card)看！ A啊！见证奇迹的时候！跟刘谦一样！
me: 人家是刘谦你老千！
others: 哈哈哈！
uncle: $%^&^%$

2) conversation between the same uncle and my nephew

nephew:叔公你猪了！
叔公: 猪？输啦！是输
nephew: “猪”公你输了！

will you stop mentioning that person!?

2011-02-02T13:02:00.000+08:00

Is it a need to pop out that person in the conversation for so many times in your conversations?
isn't it obvious my attitude is showing that i'm not interested in hearing things about THAT person! Thats the last thing i ever want to hear CURRENTLY
Are you that INSENSITIVE to people's actions, behaviours and feelings!?

Are you that insensitive that you don't feel anything wrong after you hurt someone!

Like you feel you didn't do anything to hurt people when you already hurt so much. It takes so much courage to pretend nothing happens.
Are you that ignorance.

伤害

2011-01-28T20:56:00.000+08:00

被伤害的感觉不好
被利用的感觉更难受
背后被捅了好几刀似的
很难受

难受却无法发泄
心里也不好受

孤独忍耐疼痛
借着睡意麻痹
逃避不想看到的一切

但反而更疼痛
也觉得越来越累
身体的疲惫让一切变得灰暗
仿佛睡一辈子还是一样疲惫

下雨天也是让人心情特别低落的天气
似乎恰巧嘲笑我的心情
让人跌入谷底

如何开心起来

disturbed...

2011-01-25T09:59:00.000+08:00

Affected by some words last night by someone.
Didn't sleep well :(

sometime people just don't understand.
And times people anyhow assume...

Don't treat me like its my fault.

dinner at New York New York!

2011-01-17T13:49:00.003+08:00

Yesterday went to New york New york for dinner with my two bro and sis-in-law! :D

Pictures post today:

Mushroom! Eating myself... T_TzZ

I got this new nick "mush/mushroom" ever since my fren zuozuo starting calling me that. And now most of the dragonica clique call me that T_T

Me and my sis-in-law

glass also want to take pix.. -.-Zz

Sunday family day

2011-01-10T02:13:00.000+08:00

Sunday went out with family to cosway point for lunch and shopping!
Went sakae!! Yumyum my sushi, soba, fried tofu etc!
Then went to shop for new sofa. Chat few minutes with friend !
And then buy cny clothes!! ;)

Wahaha my online game finally beaten the stupid longlong! And I changed job for my character successfully :D