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Law of Attraction

2011-11-12T22:52:00.000-08:00

Dreams...Based on the law..we supposed to write 'them' down. Better still if a picture associate to it. With Allah swt's will. let see if this works, hihihi..

Tanah suci mekah. ( I defenitely work hard for this)

Hermes Birkin (Note: I will NOT purchase this even if one day I can afford to, ini nafsu!)

All time favourite Fairlady 370z (Alahai...should aim higher-Italian machine patutnye )

itu je? just realize I dont have that many "I want this..." list. I am grateful for all the blessings.
Terima kasih Allah untuk segalanya..

Note : Puan Moinah Jalil, thank you very much for the fruitful training. It was such an interesting one. I will look for the "Language of Love"..<3 <3

Serves me right!

2011-11-12T22:12:00.001-08:00

Yup! Serves me right !!(atau cakap melayu nye..Padan muka aku!)
I receive one comment from my "Kiasu Me" post. (Yes, you should know who you are because it is the the only comment).

The words was not harsh, yet neither was it a comforting one. Yes, it didn't feel like a slap on my face..(which I get emotionally mad?) nor does it feel like Harsa's soft advise back in UUM which I still hold on till to date (Harsa: I bet you dont remember this :) It was in between the two as I wasn't sure what/how to react except offering my apology.

Hence, here I am ..Offering my sincerest apology to all for my posting. I was probably influenced by my emotion, (instead of using my brain!). Minta maaf atas kekhilafan dan ketakburan. I will retain the posting though, as a reminder to me...

There are just moment whereby you are trying to make it and just cant get it right. I am far from perfect, too far.

That's the way the world goes around

You're up one day, the next you're down

It's a half an inch of water and yu think you're gonna drown

That's the way the world goes around

-John Prine

p/s: Thank you very much for your comments though... please do accept my sincere apology.

Kiasu me!

2011-10-05T04:03:00.000-07:00

The recent trip to Singapore has changed my perceptions towards my lion city clan. It was one of the best trip ever (for the record: I didnt set my foot on Orchard Road this round!)
Age has caught up with me.. I have tone down when comes to this kiasu blood that flows in my vein.
Granny, cousins, aunties, uncles, nephews, nieces... I love you!!

When I was small, I remember withdrawing myself when it comes to the socializing part with the Singaporean. As I grew older, I kept my Singapore trip known to limited person (azlan & Yus most of the time) We would stay in different hotels for every visit (which majority end up along Orchard road hihihi..) This is to avoid having to visit others.
I have no personal issues with the kiasuland (errr.. Aside that mentor minister who has never stop insulting my country) honestly, It's my experience that kills my interest to meet some of them.
Let me share some of the event that I went through :-
"Makcik, di KL ada rumah batu tak?"
claimed a child to my mother in one of the wedding ceremony when I was small. My thinking was 'dont they learn Geography in school?'
"Boleh baca bahasa English?"
ask one of my uncle while handing over a brochure.. I was 14 at that time, and yes, I admit that even now my English is still imperfect but ...aduh!
"Di office ada computer?"
ask one granny when I even owned 1 personal desktop & 1 personal notebook at that time
"Do you use laptop in your office?"majority of us Singaporean use it in our office"
am not bragging but even my 5 year old son has a notebook at that time
"You are a local graduate? In Singapore the good one goes to NUS while rest opt for overseas"
and yes, I was offered an Accounting in downunder but I turned down the offer and decided to complete my degree in a local university.
"husband you kerja apa? Kerani ke kat sana?"
Ask one Singaporean when I told her that my other half is attached to one of the foreign bank in the lion city (and of course I find in unnecessary to respond.. )
"If your hubby is still working in Malaysia, you cant even afford the bimmer!"
Claimed one Singaporean in my photopage.
mind me..We already own the bimmer, MPV & the Waja before he step foot in SG
*astagfirullahalazim... riaknye aku!*
"why not? this is not Singapore" response one singaporean when I asked why was he littering in MY country.

This is only SOME of the experiences that I have gone through. To date, however, Singaporean has NO longer stir my emotion.
I no longer become offensive when they loudly talking about their nation. Be it the MRT, the English standard, cost of living, standard of living, social issue etc... I no longer find it insulting. They can say anything but nothing beats the real life experience. (And yes, whenever it happens I'll smile.. And in my heart I'll say 'I am blessed, thank you Almighty')
I have travelled to few parts of the world and even now my job requires me to work with foreigner. My office are flooded with Singaporean, Indian, Philipines, Chinese nationality, Hongkist, European, Aussies,...you named it. They have outnumbered the locals for the current regional project that I'm involved with. surprisingly, I have never feel like they are looking down at us, Malaysian.

Let's touch on the lighter side, the infamous quote from my Singaporean relatives during my visit would be "so did u go to Universal Studio?" or "do you plan to go to USS". Hihihi... I took my kids to USS twice last year, first was 2 weeks before it opens and second was the actual one in Nov. We stayed in Hard Rock hotel and of course halal food within the vicinity wasn't up to my liking.

I would like to announce to the world that my SG counterpart is the coolest!!! There is a saying that variety add spice to your life.. And yes, having connected to singaporean does rock my world. But most of all it makes me feel grateful for the things that I have, especially being Malaysian.

Aren't we are blessed? Thank you the Almighty..syukur alhamdulillah.

Another routine, another norms

2011-09-13T08:40:00.000-07:00

There are things in life which are strange in the beginning before it become norms. For example, for the first 2 decade of my life, without failed, I have always been with my mother during Hari Raya morning.
This however changed as I entered marriage life. Even though my parents and my in-laws resident merely 15 minutes drive from one another, it still caused a great impact on the first time.
I cried like nobody's business in the surau near in-laws before Aidil fitri prayers during the inaugural raya morning without mak :(

As time flies, this has become a routine. I no longer miss mak's absence and mak too has forgotten about how it feels to have me during raya morning.
I am glad that mak now has others to accompany her to the mosque (i.e mua's sister in law, nieces) I, on the other hand is still incapable to attend the raya prayer since the 2 younger kiddies are still too little to 'behave' themselves in the surau.

I am grateful, and I thank my other half for never failed giving me the opportunity to join the annual raya visit routine with the Hosnih's clan. But the visiting group however has now become smaller .. first without my siblings (when come to their spouse's raya turn..) .then the cousins Nonoi and Titi-Puberty tore us apart, they too are in the same shoe, we are now belongs to another family name in-laws. This year group is without them & I miss having them for raya.

Marriage has made us prioritze things differently in life . We have additional role & responsibility towards our other half and in laws. But I have never forgotten about the good times I had with these two gorgeous lady.

The reason I am writing this is because there are posibilities of change to my routine again next year..and I embrace the change positively this round before it too become another norms.
Whatever the routine is going to be, I wish all the people I love are still with me.
Arent we all blessed? Thank you Almighy for having me in this wonderful journey called life.

To Nonoi & Titi. While we have additional role to play (wifey, daughter in law, mum)& mostly now celebrating the festive season & outings with our other half & in laws, let's remind each other (especially me, being the only girl) should we failed to continue performing our duty as a daughter. I truly miss spending time with both of you crazy cousins though...don't you guys ever leave me in your prayer ye...*sebak*

Eid mubarak

2011-09-02T14:44:00.000-07:00

Aidilfitri...datang lagi

Day 11th of Ramadhan (alhamdulillah)..the raya preparation begins for some. I've decided it'll be more for the kids this round.

After sahur bibik pointed out to me 'dik, semua orang ada benda baru untuk hari raya, adik enggak punya apa?'.. I know she wasn't referring to the Baju raya (coz ours has arrived all the way from Jakarta!) but she must be referring to my brother's, mum's new sofa, new furniture, house repaint, additional units of air conditioned etc...

I wanted to respond to her but I realize that it wasn't necessary. I am just grateful that I still can afford to 'support' my commitments. Cukuplah... I don't have to sweat the small stuff, I don't intend to have open house pun..hihihi (so jangan tanya ye kawan2) Not in 3 years time agaknya. I have prioritize things and even the spoilt staircase fix (wooden panel badly damaged by termites attack) is not in my list.
Nanti lah dulu..

Wait. I sounded so 'emo' today.. ! Ramadhan can be quite an emotional moment.. And I think I know why.. Last ramadhan was a tough one for me.. Syukur alhamdulillah this year was much better (thank you Almighty swt for your blessing) when things are smooth sailing, I'll reminisce how I have survived the rough ride... there has ALWAYS been a silver lining for every dark clouds... It is so damn true. Terima kasih Tuhan... I know I don't deserve this.

I feel blessed this Ramadhan...I still have the people I love around me.. I still have my other half, parents, in laws, kids, brothers (except for Abg Lan in Saudi), nephews, nieces and all. And yes, if this is fated to be my last Ramadhan... Make it my best Ramadhan ever Ya Allah....

P/s bibik: saya tak pregnant la.

I miss you

2011-09-02T14:40:00.000-07:00

Owh... How I miss you

I just miss
Having another heart beat inside of me
Another soul accompanying me
When I'm having sleepless night
Talking to you my little sweethearts

I just miss
Having tiny little one in my arms
I pledge to keep them safe from harm
The sweet smell of their ears
Which always bring me to tears

I just miss
Having my babies around me
As they have now grown up
Flawlessly cheer my day
My pillar of strength they are
In their very own way

I am grateful to you the Almighty
For blessing me with these wonderful babies
Every night and day I pray
For You to protect my babies
Bless them, Ya Allah..
Bless them all the way
Amin.

T@lentcorp-mari pulang ke Malaysia saudara, saudari

2011-07-14T05:06:00.000-07:00

"I had never contemplated staying abroad ... Malaysia is home (to me)," says the affable Johan Mahmood Merican. In so many ways, the 37-year-old is the ideal person to be tasked with retaining and drawing talent back to Malaysia. As the recently-appointed head of Talent Corp Malaysia Bhd, that is exactly his mandate.

As I was writing this, I am almost finished reading a book written by Ustaz Hasrizal “Aku terima Nikahnya”. There is one chapter in his book, where he has written about how challenging life is back home in Malaysia compared to living abroad.
He was reminiscing about the quality time he had with his family during their stay in UK and Scotland in comparison to the life in “tanahairku’. This post is about T@lencopr and life Malaysia.
“ It’s almost 9.00pm there and you are still in the office?” asked my brother who called me all the way from middle east. Yes, life is not a bed of roses and I had to carry the guilt conscience with me every day to them…”them” are referring to my children and my parents. I owe them big time! I carry the title “mother” with me, yes, Roles & Responsibility Roles=Mother, Responsibility=Work (?) *sigh*

Friends living abroad have time to walk in a park, travel to other countries for holiday, showered themselves with branded item (since income ratio is still affordable to purchase the luxury stuff) and many more. On the other hand, I have always console myself by saying…I have my parents less than 5 minutes drive, asam laksa few blocks away, sunny weather all year round and teh tarik round the clock!

T@lentcorp aims for drawing talent Malaysians to balik kampung, to serve our nation as we strive together to collectively make it a better place for all. They even established a special package programme for them and following are the latest :-

1) An optional Flat Tax Rate of 15% for Employment Income for five (5) years.
2) Tax Exemption for all personal effects brought into Malaysia.
3) 2 locally assembled/manufactured Completely-Knocked-Down (CKDs) vehicles tax-free.
4) Foreign spouse/children given Permanent Resident (PR) status within six (6) months upon submission of complete application to Immigration Department of Malaysia.
5) Foreign born children or children already studying in an international stream overseas are allowed to enroll in any international school of choice in Malaysia.

Whoa…!!! after all the ‘luxury’ life abroad, the government even created a welcoming pack for our expat friends.

T@lentcorp has identified that 3 buckets that attracts Malaysian working abroad :-

a) economic (higher pay),

b) professional development

c) macro-issues such as public transport, education for their children and all that.

Looks like people like us who have been loyal to the country has to work even harder to compete with this expats once their are back....

Reference to Item (3) - Abang Lan, we are looking forward for the X6 itu.

Pix : Gambar oversea ala2 expat family wannabe..hihihi...

This I promise you!

2011-02-25T21:10:00.000-08:00

Never have I curse in my life. Yes, one of my big 'pantang' is cursing (mencarut). Honestly, I just couldn't even re-quote it back..an alternate to it would be spelling the word out. An example:-

"OMG she actually said ba-alif-ba-ya tadi!".

As I have reach my late 30s (mak aii! tua nya aku!) I do not recall cursing people intentionally (unintentionally ada ke? jika ada saya minta maaf). InsyAllah I will carry this value to my grave..(bukan susah sangat pun, right?) You will hear words like 'mangkuk' once in a while from me but when I overheard my eldest telling the younger sister "You idiot, dumb!"..phuh, makcik rasa macam nak makan orang!

Mintak maaf, I just cant tolerate people who bad mouthing or cursing. I am far from perfect myself but it's not that hard refraining yourself from spitting those dirty words out. Don't make it a habit. Preventing verbal violence is everyone's duty. We should start with ourself, kan?

I will learn to deal with the jibe of ill mannered people who would blindingly make obvious comments about other people or even me.
So my son... MANNERS MATTERS! Ibu doakan anak2 ibu dilindungiNya selalu dan dijauhkan dari perkara yang tidak baik, insyaAllah.

To my sisters....

2011-02-02T22:40:00.000-08:00

Dedicated to my sisters (you know who you are), this too shall pass, insyaAllah

Into each life
A little rain must fall sometimes
It help us to appreciate the bright sunshine
and creates colourful rainbows for all
But what if it pours and pours without restraint?
Causing countless suffering and endless pain?
That is the time to learn
The virtue of patience
and always believe
Allah is always with us

My prayer with you girls.

Testing, testing!

2011-01-20T04:58:00.000-08:00

I am finally an official owner of the gadget...funny thing is, not only I enjoy being behind the scene but I also love camwhoring! Gila glamer makcik nih...

Pic: braving myself thru the -21c while standing on a rock in the middle of the stream just to capture this.

Another closure...

2010-12-11T19:23:00.000-08:00

(This was written in mid Dec 2010 tapi lupa nak post!)

It is less than 2 weeks before the new calendar year begins.. And it is time for me to start making an assessment of my 2010 KPIs.

Rough Moment

2010 wasn't an easy year .. had my high & low (but thank you Allah swt..syukur I finally made it~and it is time to compensate what was missed during the tough time).
There is a saying in Malay "..kami mencari2 sinar matahari, rupanya Tuhan merancang yang lebih baik..di beriNya pelangi.." Yup, not only my prayers were answered but it was more that what I expected.
Ok, Ok.. lessons learnt & I have a big responsibility ahead..have to be accountable to the commitment that I have made (Nurul/Tina: I think you know what I mean..) but I believe Allah swt always there with me.

Good Times

The annual outbound trip,checked! Dubai & Kuwait were the highlights of 2010!! Enjoyed the trip alhamdulillah (though some damage done to wallet, hihi..)
Umrah was materialised for mak, bapak, abang & family, abang Lan & family.. Yes, I dreamt of Ka'abah and I will be setting my foot if Allah destined me to.
The favourite destination, checked twice!! Yes, it's Penang..I made it, 2 kali! Char Kuey Teow, mee udang & pasemboq tetap di hati..
Langkawi in 6 star resort was unplanned..(Thank you Dato'!, my kids enjoyed the 5 star service & the suite)
Cuti melawat Singapore oso twice lar... Universal Studio which was never part of the plan tapi for kid's sake pi jugak! Findings: Hard Rock Hotel service in Bali far better than the one in this island's HRH.

Happy Times

Kid's 3 in 1 birthday party alhamdulillah materialised..
Kitchen cabinet fixed/extended (thanks darl!)
Mom's AMD procedure done..(terima kasih abang & Kak Tie)
Ada sebijik LV in the closet!!!(but it does not come from my pocket!-so kira resolution utk tidak membazir for branded item still stands!
There were many, many little to-do list in 2010 got checked..terima kasih Tuhan..

Highlights

After much consideration on opportunities that landed on my door, upon few signs..I finally left the bank for a better offer. It was the 2nd best actually but I think it was a wise decision. Syukur, so far I love my new job & my new sorroundings.. I miss my team in PMS, though.
Other half return to a more syariah compliant environment..syukur for the blessings in disguise.

Moving forward

Saya ingin jadi orang yang baik..(I seek your guidance ya Allah)
Saya berjanji akan menjaga/menunaikan solat di awal waktu
Saya berjanji akan menuju ke arah kebaikan..(should cover all aspecs, in life & hereafter, insyaAllah)
Saya akan ke tabung haji untuk mendaftar haji for the whole family.
Saya berjanji akan sentiasa bersyukur atas nikmat Tuhan...

Lighter moment

Less unnecessary update in fb..hihihi.. Dah takmo update yg merapu rapu dah. No need to post whereabout i.e check in @ Pavvy? . But I do appreciate whenever people meng'amin'kan whenever I post a prayer/wish i my status.
Saya teringin nak cantik! Haih.. tercabar in new place coz sorrounded with people who really concern about their appreance. (first step: cantikkan hati dulu la..)
Saya berjanji to read the pile of books that I have planning to read..(no more books for my birthday please..

Selamat Tahun Baru kalendar omputih peeps! See you next year!

Hijra..A new beginning..alhamdulillah

2010-11-23T07:12:00.000-08:00

It was finally materialize..very brief!

Tendered my resignation, served 2 weeks and today is my 4th week at the new place. Honestly, it wasn't easy leaving the 13+ years norm...(but I was telling myself that I should have done it sooner!)..but the signs was very clear & I practically ready to roar!

The final 2 weeks was filled with farewell luncheon and dinner. Amongst the one that I enjoyed most is with Fiza, Bernard & Rozita. It was a sure one helluva catching up for old time sake.

I know I may struggle in the beginning, but my du'a to Allah "..permudahkan urusanku ya Allah"

Hence..in this little corner that I owned..I would like to thank every single one that has assist me in developing my career..to prepare me in adjusting to ANY circumstances and who leave a special place in my heart:-

Thank you to my advisor RO, ZAA & Abg Adi..

My team!! Nuruliman, Latina, Saber & Rizaidi..for being the best team that I have ever had.. for always being my brother & sister

Also my breakfast buddies..Ruzaini, Khairol, Adib & Erwan..

my leng chai & lenglui..AG, Kuan, Moh, Ivy, Li Peng, Sook Khim
My kakak..Hanizah & Nor Amizah..who have always helped me in any way

and my adik2 Asni, mimi & shida..

my new team at 8th & 9th floor (you know who you are!) for the sweet & short memories..

and every single one that has helped me in my day to day in the organization..!

Terima kasih semua (macam speech menang award pulak!)

and I do hope you'd forgive me should there is any hardship that I have cause during my service..(maaf byk2!)

You guys have help me thru high & low.

May your kindness be rewarded by the almighty..

To mak & bapak..for your prayers

To my brothers..for your support

To my children..for your love

and escpecially for my other half..for always being there believing in me

Thank you for another blessings ya Allah

and especially for answering my prayers..

Accept my hijra Ya Allah

For the betterment in life of people that I love & hereafter..insyaAllah.

Salam Maal HIjrah semua.

May Allah swt bless our years ahead. InsyaAllah.

Pray! before prayer is said upon you....

2010-10-20T09:21:00.000-07:00

Technology has influenced my life so much
And as guided by the pious, I try to benefit from it as much as possible
Hence one of the email that stricken upon me is on the meaning of the verse in between two sujud during solat
(Bahasa Malaysia is preserved here since it has a deeper and wonderful meaning)
MashaAllah…Quran is beautifully composed…no flaws!

Rabbighfirli (Tuhanku, ampuni aku)
Warhamni (sayangi aku)
Wajburnii (tutuplah aib-aibku)
Warfa'nii (angkatlah darjatku)
Warzuqnii (berilah aku rezeki)
Wahdinii (berilah aku petunjuk)
Wa'Aafinii (sihatkan aku)
Wa'fuannii (maafkan aku)

Subhanallah, it is such a beautiful du’a.. making my every prayer more peaceful upon discovering the meaning.
Terimalah amal ibadatku Ya Allah, semoga anak2ku & keluargaku sentiasa termasuk dalam golongan yang mendirikan solat & menunaikan zakat..amin.

p/s: The reason I’m posting is about sharing the information
Convey! even if it’s just a single verse… (sampaikanlah, walaupun satu ayat…)

Bulletin Board

2010-09-22T18:17:00.000-07:00

I may be busy..but I do peep thru the daily newspaper to catch the latest update..(especially the disturbing one). This is written during lunch hour in the office simple because I had another brain-freeze-moment in which my thinking refuse to work.

Dumping babies
Wahai perempuan2…this is one of God’s SWT greatest creation & blessing to us. If you think that you are incapable or can’t afford to take care of them.. please find other proper means (i.e legalise adoption etc) of giving the innocent baby. (I wrapped my babies around me whenever I think of this. Yes, bukan sahaja penyu menangis… saya pun menangis!)

N@m@wee
Dear Encik Wee, I managed to peep thru your youtube. I also watch your respond to the press in TV where you mentioned “..if I found something wrong in my country, I just cannot keep quiet and Okay about it..” Let me rephrase in Bahasa..Memang ada banyak kelemahan dalam system Negara kita…sesungguhnya Encik Wee, mencarut dan memperlekehkan agama/bangsa lain bukan la salah satu darinya. You have just worsen the situation instead of fixing them (or is that your objective in the first place?). Personally, as someone who attended a multi racial school, your act is a disgrace & truly unacceptable. Sangat memalukan! If you want to fight for something, do fight like a warrior & instead of posting your video with cheap languages itu, please find a proper avenue and please, make sure you do some homework or fact finding first. To note that I also do not represent the minority of Malay who attack you back with another abusive language BUT I condemned your supporters who are making fun of other’s religion! Saya mendoakan semoga hati anda dibuka untuk perkara yang baik2 Encik Wee.

Kiasuland veteran hero
Yes Tuan Lee, we acknowledged your popularity for being invited to the prestige international interview/talkshow. This however, does not permit you to have less respect for your neighbor.. As a citizen, I do accept some of your critics positively for my country improvement.. but honestly, it is not proper for someone who lives in bungalow to comments the interior of his neighbor’s terrace house just by peeping thru from the garden. I swear that I live in a better condition than majority of the minority community in that country). The RTS (Rapid Transit System) to the kiasuland plan is on, so I heard. Semoga ini mengeratkan silaturahim kedua-dua belah pihak J

KLCI
Wah! Index now is at 1477.84! That’s high! hence I need to adjust my ‘own’ index accordingly…no handbags, no new car, no! no! no!
Time to save…I need to do some homework on Economic Transformation Programme (ETP) & National Key Economic Area (NKEA) before I share my story on economic views.

Cosmetic tycoon & 3 others murder
Have been following the case and quite shocking upon the discovery of this brutal murder. To add salt to the wound, there are people who takes advantage and trying to politically link to the already sensationalized case in the country. Some dares to use the ‘racism’ issue… Race does not dictate one’s character..except for the Israelis yg sediakala jahat itu!! Coverage of this case has attract worldwide press (not forgetting the little emperor country down south itu).

Jakarta, Bendera & Maid
The Indonesian anti Malaysia group, Bendera has again launch the ‘ganyang’ Malaysia due to the claims that this Negaraku country immigration mistreated their fishermen who was caught fishing in the Malaysian waters. The leaders of both country have been trying to find ways to improve the situation. The recent discovery of a maid abuse in Penang 2 days ago however will potentially ‘stir the stagnant water’ again.

My unfortunate muslim brothers & sister
In Pakistan
the flood that has destroyed land, cattle and leaving people homeless…My prayer (and small ciku monetary contribution)..I share the grief with you brothers & sisters
In Palestine
Hitler once quote
“I could have annihilated all the Jews, but I left some of them to let you know why I was annihilating them”..
Macam dah tak sanggup dengar cerita penderitaan mereka…but nonetheless, I will never stop praying for them.

That’s all the news for today’s folk… let’s perform our duty..as a muslim, as a law abiding citizen, as a Malaysian, as a mother, father, daughter, son and as a human who basically able to assess and react rationally in our day to day activity.
May Allah swt bless us eternally.

OK. Sambung kerja.

My raya story

2010-09-20T08:05:00.000-07:00

Eid has always been the moment that I look forward to. Simply because of the colours and the family reunion.. (and as usual,I was still stuck at the office the day before raya.. being the only Malay, my body is the only physical evidence of my presence, but my mind & soul was already with the kids)

This year was a totaly different routine for both me and my other half. Father in law is currently bed ridden and can no longer walk to perform the Solat Aidilfitri...Semoga cepat sembuh Abah! To MIL, mama : thank you for taking care of abah patiently.

I just miss those younger days where raya routine is about visiting the elderly.

Where the morning start of with the mandi sunat aidilfitri(which we still practise still today-doubt that the cousins with hairdo perform this...saloon tak bukak pagi2).

Then it'll be solat aidilfitri at the famous masjid keramat,

then visit to rumah nenek Amanah, then visit kubur atuk at Taman Keramat & Ampang,

Then to rumah nenek Ima at lorong kiri 13, I can never forget the orange colour house with spacious land itu..

Then the journey of rombongan rumah ke rumah starts...(penat seh!)

Although the celebration is now difference, we still practise the tradition and shall passed to our next generation, insyaAllah. I would also like to instill to my kids that not everyone are fortunate to celebrate raya like us.. It's about sharing...(I guess they still too little to understand-the abang doesnt want to share duit raya, the sister gave away her duit raya (generous budak ni, mana duit2 dia pegi pun tak tau) and the little brother only wants the angpow packet and throw away the notes *haih*

All in all...it was a short ramadhan, short hari raya..tak puas rasanye. Abang Lan & family pun da balik (enjoy your Europe trip, I still envy the Jungfraujoch & St Moritz trip itu..)

Syukur for the blessings...and just cant wait for the official announcement before I can share the good news with others (Note : ini tiada kena mengena dengan pregnant).

To Muz & Nonoi: congrats for the rumah raya...

To Faiz & Titi: for the kete raya 5 series itu...

To Azura my friend: for the Audi4

To my nephew Iqmal : for the D90 present..best tu!

Farewell Ya Ramadhan...A Sahlan Eid Mubarak

2010-09-19T02:56:00.000-07:00

Ramadhan feels too short this time
I wasn't able to fully take advantage this round..
Too occupied with my duniawi official work (syukur la kamu wahai ya suri rumahtangga..)
Alhamdulillah I only missed one tazkirah, though

(but the set back was it was my favourite ustaz Badirul Amin)

Ramadhan has ended
But what lessons did I learn this time?
"Ya Allah, sekiranya ini Ramadhan ku yang terakhir, jadikan lah ia Ramadhan ku yang terbaik.."

A short reminder to us..

To take benefit of 5 before the 'other' 5

1. the youth before the old age
2. the health before the sickness
3. the wealth before the poverty
4. the free time before the pre-occupation
5. the life before the death

I'm grateful for all your blessings Ya Allah,
..amongst them is for being able to see the lovely faces everyday

Will you?

2010-08-24T10:36:00.000-07:00

It was an odd moment when I just had to spit this from my mouth...(Ni semua gara2 baca artikel "masih suami isterikah kita di akhirat?")

Will you re-marry if I'm gone?
Instead of answering, he ask me back 'will u re-marry should I'm no longer in this world?'

I refuse to answer back then
But I know my reply would definetly be'Yes, I will...'
I will re-marry....

Should there be a man that can be a father as good as you to our 3 kids..
Who will love them unconditionally like you do..
Should there be a guy that understand my intuition without me saying..
Should there be someone who can accept my weaknesses like you..
Should there be someone who can attend to my demanding needs like you..
Should there be someone who willing to live with my stubborness like you..
Should there be a man who can read my mind whether it's gonna be laksa, cendol or beef ginger noodle like you..
Should there be a man who can accept a woman who doesn't dress up or put on any make up..
Should there be a man who understand that I don't like to choose between Blackberry & iPhone like you..(nak dua2 gak...haih!)
should there be someone who can lead our jemaah solat like you do..
should there be a man that simply as sweeter than you
should there be someone who will never have ANY fight throughout the 10 years marriage like we do(and the list goes on.....)

Do you think there's anyone out there EVEN close of having your qualities?
I love you for loving me.. And I want you to be my soul mate dunia akhirat En Nazri..
May Allah bless our family eternally.. Kita merancang, Allah swt menentukan, kan?
We have been through high and low
and we still have each other... Thank you Allah!

Ya Ramadhan...Ya Kareem

2010-08-24T10:05:00.000-07:00

Here comes the holy month..bulan yang ditunggu-tunggu..
The thing that most motivates me at work during this special month is the daily tazkirah & ceramah.. Alhamdulillah, havent missed a single day (when I'm at work lar)...and today's topic inspire me to write this..

I realize, as we grew older, priority in life has also change over time..
I'm glad that I still have people sorrounds me to keep me grounded, alhamdulillah.

I used to think that my half dozen of Ferragamo is my prize possesion
Now I dont even give a second glance at the boxes & they just stood there in the store
I wore them on my feet anyway & there's nothing special about that

I used to think that having had to buy the Gucci sling bag in Paris La Fayette boutique is one of the coolest thing that ever happen to me (lawaknye!? riyaknye?)
Now to me it is just a bag, nothing greater than that

I used to chase for a bigger house, with my garden and all
But I realize that I am already in my dream castle
and I should be grateful for that ..Ya Tuhan!

Nowdays I began to cherish little thing, some of them...
For being able to perform solat..which means I am at the best of health
For being able to spent time my family..which means I'm not alone
For paying my zakat regularly..which means I still generates income
and the list goes on...

and like yesterday when Haziq called to inform that he got 100% for Science, I was already grinning ear to ear in the office... and today when he showed me he got straight A's for all subject, I feel like I'm floating...syukur!

Both hubby & myself still waiting for the announcement... (penantian itu satu penyiksaan, huhuhu..)
Berkat Ramadhan...I believe Allah has greater plan ahead & He knows what the best for His servant. Praise the Almighty for this wonderful life....

Sshhssshh...

2010-08-24T09:54:00.000-07:00

Blog collecting web cob…again

Have been very busy and tied up with the current project, definitely leaving this space ‘status quo’ for a while..
also missing reading bloggers blog-Zura’s, Iffil’s, Rizal’s etc…
Spending on 12 hours at work on average (and the happiest moment would be lunch hour and time to go back!)
My favourite quote ..”Ya Tuhan….”

This too..shall pass.
Thank you to my family for being by my side through high & low..
Penat seyy,,….

Will make up to hubby & kids during family trip nanti, InsyaAllah...

Happy birthday Haziq!

2010-07-30T05:50:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday My eldest boy
May your birthday baby,
Be happy and grand

I could reminisce your arrival
The long awaits finally over
Having you in my arms
Feeling more than finding a priceless treasure

Praise the Almighty
for you (your sister & your little brother too)
For all the blessings
For all the love brought into our life

Happy birthday Muhammad Haziq
May Allah swt bless you & instill you with akidah
And victory in life & hereafter
We love you

~ayah & ibu~

Sometimes (ulangan..)

2010-05-25T08:16:00.000-07:00

Sometimes Allah breaks our spirit to save our soul.

HE breaks our heart to makes us whole.

HE sends us pain so we can be stronger.

HE sends us failure to makes us humbler.

HE sends us illness so we can take care of ourselves.

Sometimes, ALLAH takes everything away from us so we can learn the value of everything

Allahuakbar!

Give me strength...Come to my assistance, oh Ya Allah!

smokey

2010-05-12T08:09:00.000-07:00

"I wonder how does it taste when those smoke going thru my lungs, my air way passage and I simply l0ve the way those ladies holding the rokok,...ada style lar"...
then other half spit it out "isk.. merepek you ni!"

This curiousity growing stronger.. could it be associated with my latest coffee addiction? Yup, I started drinking coffee recently (few months actually). It all started when vendors & consultant keep bringing starbucks in meetings & workshops (I consume but I swear I have never buy any of that pro israelis brand!)..For someone who usually drinks cammomile tea at dome & sunrise orange at coffee bean, this is a BIG change!

I find coffee somehow stimulates the brain to be more alert, more enegertic. I no longer feel sleepy during back to back meeting marathon & I always feel 'full' (less passion for food & kurang makan?) I'm still exploring whther this is just a mindset or its actually the caffeine that doing it's thing.

I managed to find an alternative to this though.. finally found a'healthier' coffee that suits my taste (with extra feminine supplement lagi!)

..back to the topic...

"I'd propose that if you are still thinking of smoking (and style), you need to wear something that goes with it..something low cut on top & something tight & short at the bottom..then stilettoes to make your posture curvy.. barulah ada style!!!.. rambut bagi karat pastu .."
before he could add further I cut in by saying "isk... merepek lar you ni!"

Note: Tiada kena mengena dengan sesiapa.. (even if you smoke, you are still my friend..just wish that you know how serious it can cause your health)

riddle diddle do

2010-05-12T07:54:00.000-07:00

Haziq : Ibu, dalam banyak2 pokok, pokok ape yang orang takut?
Ibu : pokok berani? (*dalam hati* here comes the silly willy riddle again)
Haziq : pokok tumbang lar....

Haziq : Ibu, kalau monyet naik motor, orang naik aper?
Ibu : Basikal?
Haziq : Isk, orang naik hairan la.. monyet mana naik motor

Ibu : Ok, ok..ibu punya turn lak..dalam ramai2 ibu, ibu sapa paling cun?
Haziq :Ibu Haziq lar !!!!! Dah la cun pastu Ibu masak lamb grill & spaghetti paling best in the whole wide world..
Ibu : *malu*

Haziq : Ha..my turn, what do you call ears in Arabic?
Ibu : eerrrrr.....

You can mess with me, BUT don't mess with my momma!!

2010-05-06T20:37:00.000-07:00

*Hope the above title caught reader's attention.. *

This is significantly in conjunction with the Mother's day in Sunday, May 7

(Yes Haziq, the date changed every year because it will be celebrated on 2nd Sunday of May..hence no specific date)

To my children,

I am so very sorry for haven't been involve with you lovely kids 24x7

But rest assured that my love is beyond that

..and not a single breath that I took without a thought of you in my mind

I love you with every single fibre of my being

And I thank Allah swt the Almighty for blessing me with such a wonderful kids like you

To Haziq, thank you for your doa for both ibu & ayah after solat (nak nangis ibu dengar Haziq doa untuk kami :) nanti ajar adik2, Ok?

and thank you for leading the nite prayers for the family

To Nazurah & Hazim; I love you bam bam!

For my mother,

Terima kasih mak for raising me & my 3 other cool brothers

(I think you deserve more than what I can afford to write)

I may not shower you with money & gold

I know you dont even know the existense of this blog

but I thank you for your every prayers that made me who I am today

and I am sorry for every tear drops that I cause you (maafkan Nana mak..)

For mak my mother in law,

Thank you mama for accepting me in your life, your family

Thank you for giving birth to the father of my children

and thank you for every prayers for us

and frgive me to if I ever cause grieveness in your life (minta maaf ma..)

To me,

I may not be the best-est mother of all. I may not perform my duty as a mother as I should be..but I know I am the greatest mother that Haziq, Nazurah & Hazim can have. No one can replace this position..

Selamat Hari Ibu semua...

Remember, a mom have the strength to raise 10 orang anak..tapi seorang anak belum mampu menjaga seorang ibu.. think about it!

Encik Nazri: Thank you for the mothers day gift *ngeeee...* By the way, I'm halfway through reading the book in the pics.. yet to finish the remaining half dozen of books that you bought for me..(tak ada masa la bang).. Next in line would be the Robin Sharma's (err,... aper kata beli buku citer lak, bule?) Yup, I'm still aiming at least a book in a month :)

My girl is 3!

2010-04-12T02:27:00.001-07:00

To the sweetest girl
In all of the land
May your birthday baby
Be happy & grand

Nazurah is the name we give
The name symbolizes a leader
You presence wash away all the grieve
And I know my love for you is forever

I am so thankful
To have a daughter like you
There’s no other in this world
That can fill your shoe

You are my caring & giving
You are a real joy to behold
Watching you as years pass
As your talents unfold

You leave memories & contentment
Throughout these years
As this quite often
Bring my happy tears

Praise Allah the almighty
I am grateful for my family
May our life be blessed eternally
And for all to live happily

Happy Birthday to my darling daughter Nazurah
Ibu & ayah love you so very much (same goes to the boys too!)

Terima kasih Tuhan swt for this wonderful life, alhamdulillah.