i-am-tammy (filipino woman on her 20's: way of life)

ATTRACT YOUR DESIRED DESTINY!

2011-10-06T00:37:00.001-07:00

Serendipity.

We accidentally encounter moments which seem to be a total misalignment of our lives. But I realized that our subconscious is a powerful attractor of fate. It may appear blur in our conscious state, but its manifestations to our actions bring our desires to materiality if we just let it be. And this direct us to serendipity, accidentally bumping into something we totally desire but we are unaware of its current importunity to us.

Reviewing how my life is moving and where it is heading, I realized that most of my decisions are just product of the positive input of others. I depend on what the society thinks is best for me. I am fed by external insights and i digest them like they are mine. Primarily, I am undecided on what I really want. This directed me to achieve less than what I deserve. This made me a classic underachiever, just the girl who never gets what she really wants, the girl who gets the second best. And yes, it does suck!

In the depth of my solitude, I interrogated my self why I can’t have a grip of what I really want. Then I found out that those desires were in the first place not mine.

But just months ago, I undertook a much smooth way of life. I let my gut instinct play its game. I took risks as long as I see no peril in the coast, and I let chances dance with me. I heed no advice this time, I played the game on my own. It may sound too carefree, but this was the only time I get to see my real direction. The direction which is not set by anyone. And with this, I get to tiptoe on where I want to walk.

Attracting your destiny is believing that you have an unconscious preset stairway. And by letting yourself climb up those steps without fickle-mindedness, you get to reach the room designed for you. But when we adapt other people’s desire, we end up climbing the stairs unpatterned for us and will be overwhelmed with tiresomeness along the way ending up unfinished or second best.

BELIEVE in yourself, attract your destiny and maximize your advantages in finishing the journey.

Davao City Itinerary

2011-07-21T06:39:00.000-07:00

August 23 DAVAO AS IT IS! Explore Davao City...<3

6:00am arrival

6:00-8:00 Check in @ Ponce Suite (Kublai Khan's art gallery)

* Kublai Khan is a known artist in Davao who designed the People's Park located in Bolton, this gallery showcases his quirky masterpieces, also catch him doing his craft in the third floor section of the hotel..

8:00-9:30 Davao Museum

* Know more about Dabawenyos on this museum. Armors, utensils, clothings of the different Davao tribe which are properly preserved on this 2 floor building. REMINDER: No cameras are allowed inside!

9:30- 10:00 People's Park

* The newest park in Davao as a project of our former Mayor Rodrigo Duterte. Enjoy the cute sculpture made by Kublai.

10:00-10:30 City Hall of Davao and San Pedro Church

* Known landmarks of Davao

10:30- 11:30

* Shop in the busy streets of Rizal Park which is transformed to a tiangee section during Kadayawan!

11:30-2:00 ABREEZA Mall

* The Newest Ayala Mall in town! Have lunch on this huge plaza.

2:00-6:00 Gaisano Mall Movie house

* It is only here in Davao you will feel the comfort of a home while watching your favorite movie on screen!!! Sulk on the huge lazy boy couch inside the cinema!!!

7:00-9:00 Be enticed on Davao's City lights during night @ Jack's Ridge! Eat grilled seafoods and enjoy heartwarming serenade of classic songs.

August 24 PREPARE YOUR ENDORPHINS!

5:00-6:30 travel from Davao City to EDEN Nature Park

6:30- 8:30 EDEN NATURE PARK!

A high peak in Davao where you will feel Nature's embrace and be overwhelmed on sunrise as it kisses the sleeping city... Also enjoy fishing in their pond and ask them to cook it for you, hop unto one of their horses and enjoy horsebackriding! Be fascinated on their cool breeds of species on their zoo

8:30-9:30 travel from EDEN to Zorb ball (Pass by GAP farm and have a shot on the famous Land of PROMISE landmark)

9:30-11:00 ZORB Ball @ Speed City

* ROLL... like literally roll as you are strapped inside a giant zorb ball!

11:00-12:30 Lunch @ River Walk Grill!

* Crocodiles are enjoyed here! Hahahhaa... eat an exotic food...

1:00-3:00 ZZZzzzzzzzzzzIP! @ Outland Adventure

* the longest and fastest zipline in Davao!! A time to marvel Davao's afternoon beauty while you are flying on air.

3:00-5:00 CROCODILE PARK and Butterfly sanctuary

* Have a close encounter with the dangerous and subtle animals...

6:00-7:00 Famous DURIAN @ Magsaysay Park

* Regain all the lost calories by enjoying durian! Davao is known for this foul smelling fruit yet heaven tasting! Don't forget to have soda as its partner beverage! =)

7:00-2:00 DINE and PARTY till you drop... @ Torres

* It is KADAYAWAN!! Don't know if you still got remaining energy... but why not try how partying happens in Davao??? =) dare?

August 25- DAY TOUR @ Pearl Farm Resort, Island Garden City of Samal!!! =)

When ugly lives teach us lessons...

2011-07-09T23:28:00.000-07:00

This month seems so overwhelming... days were a huge burden on my shoulder... I have been romanticizing with ugly lives and annoying stories... It is so true that other people's stories could be a source of inspiration that can surely guide our own lives. They are masterpieces on the making.

A heartbreaking story: Women should know how to value love

A young girl who went abroad to pursue her dream left her "inseparable" 6 year-boyfriend in the Philippines. Communication between them faded and it slowly untangled their grip to each other. She found someone rich and stable in her new home and realized that she could get a better future from that guy. She decided to leave her boyfriend who was unsure of himself and unstable as of that point. The guy made an effort to win the girl back by renewing his self... then I came...

I became the girlfriend of that poor boy who accepted him despite his status. When the girl found this out, she was alarmed by the fact and made the effort to get him back. She flew here just to win the boy, and proved her longing and love. Because I knew that the guy still has feelings for her, and it is impossible to win the competition then I agreed on letting him go in spite of my feelings for him. It was a huge heart ache but seeing the boy back where he belongs is something much fulfilling...

Maybe God used me to let them realize the worth of each other... or maybe God used me to show the boy that love should not be measured.. Maybe God used me to make him realize that there is a big world and that it does not just revolve around girlfriends or boyfriends... or maybe God used me to let him realize that love is not just shown by fighting for it but also by sacrificing it just to make him happy.

The moral of the story: Your trash could be a treasure to others... So before letting go, make sure that it is not that valuable to you anymore...

An inspiring story: Never judge people...

There was this girl who became my room mate in the dormitory.. She looks dangerous and creepy to us to the extent that we thought she has functional schizophrenia.. We even leave the door's room open which we do not do before. We thought we might be attacked by her while we are sleeping, that was for us to have an easy escape once such happens. She was singing lousily and loudly on her own and we thought she has flight of ideas because of how she conversed to us. We were really backbiting her, I was an active participant of such action. We laugh on how she dressed up because we saw her using the blanket as wrap-around. We know she has nothing but 3 pieces of clothing and a pair of undergarment.

Time came when we already felt the urge to help her, so in our little ways we offer food during meals and let her borrow some clothing, but at times she refuses offer. A week after we saw her bringing her baggage she fetch from her previous house. There we realized that she was telling the truth and that she was really not a psycho. The great part was, she was hired as a PRIVATE DUTY NURSE and who is now claiming a big pay from that job...

SHAME ON US who misjudged her...

moral of the story: not because people are poor, they are already psycho... never judge people base on what they have and what they do not have!

An unfinished story: A coin can flip!

When I climbed up the stairway of our dormitory, someone familiar confronted me... It was an old friend who I met last January and was here to search for a loved one. I remember her very wealthy and was well-groomed months ago and now I cannot even recognize her. But I know she went through a huge turmoil in her stay here...

She told her story and I found out that her life became topsy-turvy since January, and now she is back with nothing, even small amount of money for jeepney rides. It was an astounding fact that she is here to join Willie Revillame's "Wil Time Big Time" and hopes that she can become a contestant of that game and can finally fly back to Singapore. For now, she has nothing, and she has high hopes on me that I can help her while she is still here in Manila.

In my part, it is a huge favor because I am also relying on my parents for now... I am pressured of her presence but my principle settles my mood down. I have a strong belief on myself that I can tolerate this annoying situation. Annoying because I supply everything to her from food to clothing to laundry to money for fare... I have a big heart to help people in need, but I do not know up to when can I tolerate it. Most especially when she acts too demanding to get what she wants from me and much more when she invades my privacy. I realized that my weakness is that I cannot say "NO" and I know that is the reason why I am abused often.

I do not want to let her feel that when a coin flips, I treat people differently... I am a just person, and no matter what one's status is, I treat people fairly... But I do hope she realizes that when she is in need, she will know how to humble down too...

moral of the story: too much goodness can put you to a very dangerous situation... know when to say "NO". Of course, do not let love fall you to your knees to the point where you cannot even get up from that downfall.

I know that these stories can be my guide. We do not have to undergo them, by merely encountering them we can learn and will apply that for such not to happen in our own lives. :)

worst people teach the painful lessons..

2011-07-06T03:55:00.000-07:00

Maybe life is a game...Some play it tough while others let some people win. But who is the real winner?

i lose my appetite for life

2011-04-27T01:18:00.000-07:00

Viewing life as a ball of fun has been a gushing thought in my head. People see me as this sunshine who sees nothing but inspiring points and beauty. I am an avid fan of living, and it is my hobby to live life to the fullest.

But this week seems different, i lost my appetite for life. I see myself wobbling from the emotional stability i have planted in me. I dug my weaknesses again and been pouring water for it to grow. The worst pattern i could do to myself. I am overshadowed with insecurities and it's eating me. :(

Word factory makes me insanely hype! =D

2011-04-08T11:19:00.001-07:00

Hi readers... yeah, i know it has been a while..=)

Just this night i had some great time playing my most favorite indoor game... "word factory". It has been a while since I hid that thing in my closet. I bought that to taper boredom here in our dormitory. It was not that interesting to play months ago since I got no one to compete... most of my dorm mates hated the game, but this day was different... I get to pull it out from its untouched box and finally spent some awesome rounds of games with it... =) yup, got great and really witty playmates this time... =) And they did make me sweat...

We had a serious twist to really complicate the game.. All words should start with five letters and up, and we prepared the set and placed characters which have difficult letters that can be formed into words... We end up formulating 3 and above words only after the hourglass timer sprint its last ash. DOOM! anyways, we still get really nice words... hahahahhaa... but often, we have not jotted down a single word to our sheets.

I hope i can still play with them tomorrow. Surely, I find this very unwinding to do this weekend. =)

Bicol Getaray Itinerary

2011-03-15T02:44:00.000-07:00

Wednesday
800 Php
9pm - 6am
Manila- Naga

Thursday
Naga- Camarines Sur
Camarines Sur Wakeboarding- 160
Gota Beach, Caramoan- 1500
Umang Cave
Matukad Island
Hang Out at Paniman Beach Floating restaurant

Friday
Cam Sur to Albay
Hugsad and Layahan Waterfalls
Magayon Festival of Albay
PROCESSION OF PASOS
-Cagsawa
-Mt. Mayon
-Legazpi City's Wildlife Center

Saturday
travel to Sorsogon Donsol
Whale Shark interaction 2000
Lake Bulusan

Sunday
Back to Albay
Salubong 4am -Penaranda Park
City tour
Back to Manila 10am

the new chapter

2011-02-06T17:12:00.000-08:00

a week from now and i will be exploring a new chapter in my life.... Welcome to the life that i have dreamed for. =)

big smile

2011-01-24T03:50:00.000-08:00

Thanks God!

If there are lessons I have learned from this recent journey... that is the essence of Humility, Patience and Privacy... =) a very wonderful asset we should embrace. :)

Anxiety is killing me

2011-01-15T20:32:00.000-08:00

I standstill to remain strong... and all i want now is more God-given strength, and His blessing... that this desire of mine will come true. It's tiresome to undergo disappointment again... but maybe this pain is part of molding me... it do takes long to be molded. And it tests us if we deserve to become what He wants us to become. I am suffocated by each tic of the clock...it's like a fog covering my space. I just lift this up to you Lord... this path... this goal... this marvelous prayer...

Letters to Juliet movie- quotes/lines/dialogues

2011-01-04T22:19:00.000-08:00

Letters to Juliet is one of my favorite love stories. After watching the film last night, I could not help but to be mesmerized on some of its movie lines which are really cheesy and romantic. I have decided to post this entry to have a list of the heart warming dialogues of the film.

Claire's Letter in 1957:

I didn't go to him, Juliet. I didn't go to Lorenzo. His eyes were so full of trust I promised I'd meet him and run away together because my parents don't approve. But, instead, I left him waiting for me below our tree - waiting and wondering where I was. I'm in Veronoa now. I return to London in the morning and I am so afraid. Please, Juliet tell me what I should do. My heart is breaking and I have no one else to turn to.

Love, Claire

Sophie's response to Claire's Letter:

Dear Claire,

What and If are two words as non-threatening as words can be. But put them together side-by-side and they have the power to haunt you for the rest of your life: What if? What if? What if? I don't know how your story ended but if what you felt then was true love, then it's never too late. If it was true then, why wouldn't it be true now? You need only the courage to follow your heart. I don't know what a love like Juliet's feels like - love to leave loved ones for, love to cross oceans for but I'd like to believe if I ever were to feel it, that I will have the courage to seize it. And, Claire, if you didn't, I hope one day that you will.

All my love, Juliet

Movie dialogues:

Sophie: [drily] I'm sorry, I didn't know love had an expiration date.
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Claire: Charlie doesn't approve, which makes it all the more fun.
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Sophie: I think it's a story worth telling.
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Sophie: That's so romantic.
Charlie: What's so romantic about eating in the dirt?
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Charlie: It's over! We're done! We've found Nemo!
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Claire: Charlie, say you're sorry.
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Claire: I think you understand why I'm saying you're a total idiot.
Charlie: Okay, okay, gran. Don't sugarcoat it.
Claire: I won't.
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Charlie: [running after her] Sophie! Sophie!
[Sophie appears on the balcony]
Charlie: Of course! The balcony!
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Charlie: Because the truth is, Sophie, I am madly, truly, deeply, passionately in love with you.
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Sophie: [checking to see if he's unhurt] Can you move?
Charlie: Only my lips.
[they kiss]
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Charlie: Patricia is my cousin!
Sophie: How is that legal?
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Charlie: But that's different.
Claire: Oh, of course it is. Her mother chose to leave her. You always knew your parents loved you.
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The girl who is on a limbo

2011-01-03T06:50:00.000-08:00

by: Tammy Sulit

Lass yearning vindication, trapped in memento
wandering in an alcove of malady, scraping her soul
leeway to elude, doors are unlocked
Deliberately she sulks on that trap

Knights with armor extricated her highness
Bestowing glory, lit the sorrowful darkness
She's blind, blunt, bleak..... self-bamboozling
Casting torments, woe romanticizing

Redeemed from agony, this lass can't be
She builds her own chamber, vanishes her own key

cause i am so bored... and is not in the mood to hit the books YET!

2011-01-02T23:51:00.000-08:00

Does your password have to do with a boy?

♥ hmmm... most of my PWs... but my fb password has something to do with my passion... changed it when someone borrowed my account for some researching... don't want to be perceived as mushy.. =P

What's one thing a guy can do to make you like them?

♥ be interesting! enough to make me --> :-O (WOOOW!) Please take this wholesomely!

Are you a girly girl?

♥ i guess... not! I am not even kikay .. i love to dress up but you can surely drag me to anywhere you like! Just sink in to the idea that I want to be part of the Amazing Race Asia soooon! :) I am that type of girl... ready-to-go lass!

Small or big purses?

♥ big... enough for my SLR to fit in... hehehe..:)

What are the signs that show when you like a guy?

♥ i would love to talk to him... and know if i would like his way of life..interests, hobbies, activities, plans (that kind of life)

Do you like drama?

♥ i hate mellow-dramatics... hate hate hate drama... especially when it is about me... i hate to cry cause I am tired of such! hahaha... hate hate hate!! SHOOOOO!

Do you stay friends with your exes?

♥ hmmmm... i really don't know. hahaha. I consider them such... so really not sure if it's vice versa... tanong natin? >:))

Do you dress up on Halloween?

♥ HALLOWEEN?? I blog on Halloween...

Do you call anybody by their last name?

♥ yup! and they freak out when i do that... they tease me... I got a weird last name too! hahaha.

How many guys will read this just because it says FEMALE SURVEY?

♥ not sure!! Click like if you are a guy and you're reading this!! hehehe... I don't think they will follow though...

Do you wear makeup?

♥ yup! powder, blush-on and lipstick... all lightly breezed on my face... ^_^

Have you ever cooked food for a guy?

♥ yes.:) i love doing that though i am not a good cook! hehehe. kailangan mong KAINING YAN! hahaha. >:))))

Have you ever been called a bad influence?

♥ i guess... really bad!! maybe because i love to travel... and will force you to come with me to such luxury! hahaha

Have you ever broken a guy's heart?

♥ did I?? i am not sure...

Eyeliner or Mascara?

♥ eye liner... just to emphasize my upper eyelids! yup!

Flats or Heels?

♥ flats... if only i can also wear flats on my formal get-ups... I will!! errrr... who invented heels?? let's torture her/him!!

Skirts or jeans?

♥ jeans! =P skirts when I am touring a far away land... and take photos of myself... that's to add variety on my monotonous albums... hehehe. :P

Socks or leggings?

♥ leggings.. =) black only!!

Hoops or dangling earrings?

♥ stud!

Have you ever had your heart broken?

♥ BAD SURVEY!!! tsk... no reminiscing please... :P

Do you prefer light or dark haired guys?

♥ i look at hair... but not its color... more of the haircut... and i prefer it neat! =)

Do you have a best friend?

♥ yes.:) sissies... girl friends... all of them are best! BETTER to be grammatically acceptable. toinks!

Have you ever thought of having plastic surgery?

♥ nope.

Do you like your life?

♥ i have a huge appetite for it..

Ever walked into the guy's bathroom?

♥ lol...yup, in Enchanted Kingdom... i thought it was for girls... blame it on weird signage!

Have you ever slapped a boy in the face?

♥ WAHAHAHHAHAHA... always!! my way of showing how funny you are!! toinks... sorry if you are the funny type..

Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?

♥ @_@ hate.hate.hate... hehe

Have you ever not been able to get someone off of your mind?

♥ hmmmmmmm... lucky someone! tsk!

<---DONE---> ^____^

BITS AND PIECES of EVERYTHING... That's my 2010!

2010-12-31T05:33:00.001-08:00

The year of the tiger did give me a roaring 2010 experience which can be summed up as days filled with strength, fear, dominion and yup... pain. Like how a tiger survives in a safari, I was also battling to keep my pride and honor amidst the devastating wilderness. My 2010 however gave me enough learning experience in order for me to become a STRONGER individual.

In the first quarter of the year (January, February, March): I could claim that I was touching the sky. I have a good paying job, a great family, great set of friends, huge time for my hobbies- Photography, Travel, Blogging and Dancing, a good person who I am sharing my life with. I attend birthdays where I can give the gift that I want for that person. I can be experimental on monthsaries, and I had one great Valentines experience. I had time to keep myself fit through dancing on weekends and more time to go night outs in a much wholesome manner. I can visit the restaurants which I want to visit. I can walk in the street before going to work with someone. I go to dance showdowns with me as photographer of the event. I have friends who I share my passion in dancing with and have people who praise me for how good i am in it. I was also able to visit Surigao's Enchanted River and Tinuy-an Falls with my EVERSUN Officemates. I was able to travel to Manila and Baguio with my mom and sister, and attended a wedding @ Camp John Hay. I was active in endorsing Gibo for president to the point that I became an emcee in one of its gatherings.

In the second quarter of the year (April, May, June): This was the HUGE turning point in my life. In one of those dates I made a huge decision, that is to leave my IT job and pursue my profession... which is to become a nurse. Everything moved smoothly at first, I stopped working in the office but I was able to get sidelines so to avoid asking money from my parents. I remained homebound and felt that I am not achieving anything thus a moment came where I really RUSHED things. I STOPPED SLEEPING! I worked on 3 jobs just to fill in the inferiority I am feeling. I want to believe that I am achieving something even I am homebound. In April, I took my IELTS Exam even with lack of preparation and with God's grace, passed it. I got my BLS training and simultaneously worked @ home in a graveyard shift and also working in the morning as a dance teacher to preschool kids. I also had time to join and practice for the Groovestylz 7 (GUDC Dance Recital). All of that in April. By May, I was able to hunt for a hospital where I can volunteer as a nurse, and started volunteering there. Unfortunately, its location is really distant so it burned me out especially that I am already having a shaky relationship with someone. It was also the time that I got job offers that are far aligned to nursing. All of these burned me out making me choose the wrong decisions, turning me to someone who I don't know either. I was full of myself to the extent that I ruined myself, losing, overloaded and with no one. June came and everything shattered. From my group of friends, up to losing the things that I love, even to losing the person I loved. YUP, I ENDED UP WITH NOTHING. But, I am the kind of person who always consider God's omnipotence in my life. I just believed that it was part of His plan to make me lose everything cause it was in the first place not part of His.

In the third quarter of the year (July, August September): With nothing in my pocket, but just a hopeful heart. I faced some new challenges in my life. July, I was immediately accepted in DMSFH and was trained in the Operating Room (My dream area). It was also the time when I enrolled in AdDU's MAN. With those, I met very new set of friends... In MAN, I met the best people I have now- Bem, Lorraine, Lyndon, Sarah, Nina. In DMSFH, I also met great people with wonderful personalities that are very inspiring. Doctors and OR Staff who did not only become my mentors in the field but also during off hours with a bottle of beer in my hand... PARTEEY!! PAARRTTEEY!! Honestly, I was not able to experience crossing my boundaries before, but with them I learned how to have fun without degrading my self-concept. I am glad to meet Sir Oca too who was been a good mentor to me since College and up to my DMSF stay. I also met more good friends, my co-trainees! Boss AJ, Giannina, Mayen, Marnet, Ron, Joey, Juris, ate Darlin and Mich. In this quarter, I may not have the old people that I had in the previous months but these people shaped me in the best way that I can be formed. In this quarter, I was able to return to Manila twice also and met interesting people in UP-PGH, special mention to Kuya Mike and Sir Roni. I got my UP-PGH Perioperative post grad course certificate too.This time, I had no more time to DANCE!! Yup, but I get to return to my other hobby, Photography... and now sharing my passion to doctors who love the same thing. :)

In the fourth quarter (October, November,December): Things arrived to an end, and this time it is the end of my training in DMSFH and the end of the First Semester in my Masters Class (emphasis on still getting good grades in my class despite the hurts... LOL). I was waiting for the much awaited answer on the whole month of October, an answer to my VISA application which I was very positive about. I got bummed for 3 weeks doing nothing but FACEBOOK and BLOGGING! And yes, it arrived but with a bad news of disqualification. It was sad cause my dad was already prepared to fetch me in Manila. That news depressed me for quite a time. In November, I fixed myself and replanned my life. I started accepting the fact that I need to do what average people do... WORK then FLY. So here I am materializing that decision and vision. At the end part of this year, I pursued looking for a job in Manila, stayed there for 3 weeks touring its busy streets alone. Finally, living a life on my own. No more RUSHING now, I will be going through all of these one at a time, with a clear goal in my head and a flaming hope in my heart. In the last quarter, I AM A BUM.... yet I got to tour Tagaytay, Manila and Subic with my family... Had more parties and drinking sessions and had more time with great people.

I am really not sure if it is something to be glad of.... after losing everything, and the gazillion teardrops that fell in my face... I guess I am stronger now (Independent and Not looking)... and much ready to face a WONDERFUL YEAR!! My Year--> 2011!!! ** Crosses fingers and toes... ^_^

If experience is the best teacher....bakit ka pa nag-enroll? Hihi

2010-12-18T20:29:00.001-08:00

Of course, we won't excel in the societal ladder if we just rely on the experiences we have undergone. Living life maybe survived by just learning things through experience, but the era now demands us to do more in order to get more. Moreover, we can also learn folds faster if we ingest the ideas, insights, discoveries, knowledge, skills, values learned by other people that are taught in formal schooling. It is what we are privilege to have in school, the ability to learn things by not anymore taking the hassles and bustles of experiencing it. =)

i love this question! ^____^

Ask me anything

New Philippine Money 500 Bill

2010-12-16T21:56:00.000-08:00

This is what the New Philippine Money- 500 bill looks like:

picture: http://www.batangastoday.com/

The new 500 peso bill commemorates the courage, strength and unity of our nation as led by Senator Benigno ‘Ninoy’ Aquino and Corazon 'Cory' Aquino in Martial Law era to the EDSA Revolution up to the liberation of the Filipino people from the Marcoses.

In the New Filipino 500 bill, Cory is added in the right side of her husband. Aside from the 500 bill, 5 more denominations were redesigned to upgrade the security property of the money. The launching of the new bills was led by PNoy wherein it also bears his signature as the Philippine President.

Watch ABSCBN's news of the Phil. bill launching:

Maniniyot Community

2010-12-15T20:42:00.000-08:00

How much I miss them.... ♥
Merry Christmas Maniniyot Community!!!

The celebration was held in World Palace China Room and everyone should be in their best Pajamas and Sunglasses... no costume, absent,no best shot was penalized.

The program started with games. The group was divided into 2 smaller groups wherein at the end group 2 was able to intimidate group 1 by winning the 2 prepared games- Charade and Pass the Message. Winners were given MCom button pins!! =) YUP!! I got one... ^_^ lol.

At the latter part of the program, we now exchanged gift and our gift should be our best shot placed in a frame.

Then it ended by consuming more food, more singing, more liquor, more laughter, more fun. :) And indeed Anthony "toneh" Edward G Paraguya had his taste of bloopers again.

making DESTINY my starting point. =)

2010-12-14T01:57:00.000-08:00

I do feel that i am taking a path that is far different from my anointment. It is when i tally the blessings and skills that God has given me and utilizing such to pursue the attainment of my goals and yet i still end up crashed and failing. In my journey, i am seeing that who i am is in huge conflict to what i want. My attributes do not match to the attributes needed to the dream that i want to happen in reality.

And there goes confusion again, bugging me amidst my reflection moments. What to do?? Am I really stuck??

Starting from a CLEAN Scratch!

2010-12-01T03:11:00.000-08:00

Days ago i am conquered by numerous swirls of emotions which i do not know where it is coming from. The only truth i know is that i will be moving in Manila and live a life all by myself...

And yes, that moment was finally revealed. I moved to Manila without someone or something, just a goal stuck in my head... the dream of being great in my profession....

Now, all i see in my life is a clean scratch where i can draw a brilliant dream and materialize it through diligence... I am not so convinced by my capacity and skills used to compete with the people standing out in this area... but i know that i can survive the competition. Crosses fingers and toes...

This is a new chapter... and i will assure to it that this chapter has a great ending... AJA!

SHUT UP SELF...

2010-11-21T00:53:00.001-08:00

Earlier, i had a good conversation with my mom, as we were lying on her bed... Honestly, there were a lot of feelings going on in me... I felt scared, i felt excited, i felt really sad, i felt confused, i felt neglected, i felt lazy, i felt sick and weak... but what is weird, is that the only feeling i would like to recognize is that the feeling of happiness... i don't want to believe that i have other negative feelings going on in me... i don't want to embrace such feeling of failure and devastation.. I don't want to accept that i am sad, angry, confuse, scared... I try to SHUT DOWN any negativism. But i do know that it still conquers me and my spirit and soul... it manifests... but i don't want it...

And that confused me more... WHY?? Why am i afraid to say that i have these silly emotions going on.. why can't i tell anyone this pain, these sorrow, these unpleasant state... The weird thing is, i really can't identify also what's going on... why am i feeling these thus i have to crash it out from my system cause it would just affect my positive and optimistic outlook...

I don't know now if i should keep things to myself or should i blurt it out to anyone who can understand me. In the first place, i don't know what is the source of this anxiety...

I don't really know... >.< pain tries to squeeze in in my system again... torturing my minute self-concept. Fragile as i am... i hope to see myself differently.. cause even if i shout to the world all of these ambiguity, i have already learned that i live for myself... and the only way to maintain sanity and survive life is to help myself... alter ones mindset and stand firmly amidst all the obstacles in life. I can never blame my downfall to anyone... nor live my life loving others because of what they have done for me. I need to live on my own... cause i am the only one who can help myself.. no one else.

1.5

2010-11-20T09:04:00.000-08:00

Hi imaginary readers!! :)

I went to school today after my friends told me that our grade for our TFN subject was already submitted by our professor who happen to be our dean. :) With regards to my performance in TFN, I can say that i really tried hard thinking of what to say during discussion period though i do not know anything or have read in advance the topic to be discussed. This is my way of coping to the demand since one of the basis of our grade is class participation. There were times that i shut myself from speaking but i see to it that i participate the next time. Anyway, that is the only thing remarkable of me in TFN, aside from this... I really suck in our midterm and final exam, emphasis on how gullible i am not to study before the midterm exam and answering the essay questions base on stock knowledge which i cannot organize during the test proper. I often avoid using specific and technical terms for me not to commit technical errors. So basically, my ideas were in general terms... if you only read how many times i wrote flowery words just to lengthen my answer.. or how many times i ran around the bush cause maybe i might hit the correct answer along the way... LOL. I did study for our final exams... but i crammed... I took the exam after 24 hours of being awake.... with no chance to rest my eyes... See how a crammer i am?? LOL... I also had 3 absences in my TFN class, 1 was when i used the time to study for my statistics exam that will transpire the following day... Knowing my crucial status... I did do well on my requirements... From the content of my reaction papers of 10 different theorists, up to how i presented it.... i book bound my output even if it was not required. I also did the same with my report output, i was not able to report in front of class cause i was part of the last reporters and the semester ended already, so all the reporters were not able to talk in front of class. People say that the ones who were not able to report will be given lower marks. To avoid this, i really did my best to create a very good written output that even if i was not able to report in front of class, our professor can conclude that i prepared hard for my scheduled report. We were told to submit our output via email, but i did print my output, book bound it, created a sample handout, and burned a softcopy of my powerpoint, this is to testify that i am ready for the battle (honestly i am not!).

After everything, I guess the hardwork i have invested for TFN was paid off well. Though I did not get a higher mark... but the grade i have prayed to God was the one given to me, and i feel really happy cause I know I initially was not serious about it and i was able to pull myself back again. :) It is really nice when our hardwork is rewarded... ^___^ Thanks God!

What have you noticed?

2010-11-17T23:05:00.000-08:00

WHAT DO YOU NOTICE ABOUT THIS PICTURE?

Let me guess. You noticed that spot there, didn’t you? That little spot, amidst all the white that surrounds it.

My teacher back in my first year of high school showed something like this to us.

Point?

You noticed the flaw.

And so?

More often than not, we tend to do the same when we look at other people.

Instead of seeing people as a whole, we tend to let a single flaw outweigh the plethora of good traits the persons possess.

Look at that picture, there’s a whole lot of white out there, but your eyes most probably focused on that tiny bit of black right there.

Think about it. Meet a person, a new friend. They’ll have a clean slate, but once something you don’t like about them surfaces, it’ll stick out like a sore thumb.

I hope that the world would be less judgmental, and choose to see more of the white amidst the black.

*** Repost from: This is His World, and I am His servant

My AVATAR

2010-11-13T21:47:00.000-08:00

LOVE faceyourmanga.com, with this I was ablt to create my own avatar, and here is the final product:

LOL... so as you see.

1) Di dapat mawala ang black eyeglasses ko... unsaon nalang ang astigmatism. hehehe.
2) Loves tops na di maxado nakakasakal.
3) pearl earrings enough na.
4) Mary Kay na lip balm na pink.. okay na.
5) short haircut na colored.
6) hairband minsan... :)
7) deep set eyes... na parating lumalaki kasi parating amaze!
8) and of course my bungisngis SMILE and peace sign! hehehe...

SO I guess this avatar is SOOO me. :)

ANO DAW???

2010-11-13T21:18:00.000-08:00

Hi friends!!

Well, just want to share some weird signage i bump unto on my manila visit... ANO DAW sabi nila?? hahaha... these made me laugh, i don't know if these were intended or minsan we become careless na talaga in constructing our statements... or maybe another strategy to catch people's attention. Anyhow, it did catch mine... hehehe

Christmas 2010

2010-11-13T03:29:00.000-08:00

As the jeepney I rode earlier passed by Mana Davao, I thought of Christmas... actually, I was wondering why were they not putting up those expensive designs outside their store... I remember them being the most luxurious store to put up great Christmas theme, is it too early still? hmmmm...

That thought made me think of Christmas... didn't realize that it is fast approaching... 42 days more to go, and it's Christmas Day!! ohhhh... I am a Holiday lover thus I always look forward for Christmas to arrive.. Have had great Christmas moments for 2 years now, after finishing the NLE...

Last 2008, I spent my Christmas in Disney Land and Ocean Park, a lovely date with my mom! I witnessed how Christmas is celebrated in HK, and like here in the Philippines, it is magical!!!! I love the cold weather as wind breeze on my skin... I love how I wear thick jackets to keep me warm. I love seeing huge Christmas trees with dazzling decors. I am a kid at heart and these things make a kid feel overjoyed. That lovely memory sticks in my mind up to now.

Last 2009, was a different story. I celebrated Christmas here in the Philippines but this time I was with the people who i loved most that time. It was my first time to feel so happy despite the simple celebration. I feel contented and so loved. Then I went home to continue the celebration with my family who prepared great food on the table.

So what will Christmas be this 2010??

I know there are a lot of factors that could hinder me from feeling extremely happy this Christmas. First, I am still jobless, unlike last year where I have a salary which I can use for gift buying- for my family and self. Second, I am heartbroken, and flashback sometimes creeps me, especially the Christmas time spent with them. Third, I will move to Manila days from now, and I don't know what will happen to me there. Fourth, I will focus in studying and doing great in my exams so my full attention is allotted to it as of now. and Finally, I feel that i look ugly cause I gained weight. =( complains... complains... complains....

But you know guys what kept me to still see Christmas as a wonderful event? a wonderful day? a wonderful moment? It is because, I see God in Christmas... and God gives me hope. All these clamors will be overshadowed by His love... and I know I am still loved by Him even all the agony.. So I'll spend my Christmas 2010 in a simple way.

1) I will find a home for my soul. This will be my gift to my soul. - When my mom was converted to INC, and my sisters were puzzled on which religion to go, my affiliation to my old religion was also stopped. I strongly believe that my soul belongs to a Baptist Church, but for now I cannot find which Church to join. My old Church is situated in IGACOS which we do not often visit after what happened.

2) I will laugh with the people close to my heart. This time, I crashed the idea that only a lover can show love. FRIENDS, which are God's gift to me are greater than any intimate relationship with someone. Spending a day with them is enough to fuel my heart.

3) Since I don't have money as much as before, I will write sincere letters as gifts. =)

4) I will share love to the people who needs love. Hope I can revisit a home for the aged and give them a little token of something. To make them feel loved too. I had a duty @ a home for the aged before and most of them complain that their family is not visiting them on Holidays. I hope I can show to them that they are valued too despite their senile age.

5) I will give my best to pass my exams. This will be my gift to my career. :)

6) I will return to Davao to spend a dinner with my family... and maybe I can give 1 nice photo to each of them which they can hang in their rooms. ^__^ After the dinner, I will invite them to have a joyride and tour the sparkling places of Davao that time. lol... I hope Mana Davao will still put up a nice Christmas Theme so that I can include that in my itinerary... We can go to cheap restos or places.. and take photos... ^_^

Well... I think that is it!!! ^___^ I hope things will not only make me happy... but will also make the people around me happier. =) Merry Christmas Friends! So what's your plan??