I am what I am good and bad

Logan's Run

2012-04-28T18:26:00.000-07:00

The premise of this story is set in the future. No one lives beyond thirty years of age, as designated by the color they show on their palms, and they live their lives of youthful lusts and pleasures to the full. Logan is a kind of policeman among the sanctuary they all live in, taking care of any “religious” men and women who try to escape when it’s their time.
There comes a mission for Logan to find out more about this underground movement of people who believe there is a way out of simply resigning life at thirty. To accomplish this mission and blend in, however, his life span is altered against his will so that he has little time left of his own. Once he teams up with a believer of this movement, they’re on the run from the men he used to work with, trying to find a way out to stay alive.
I think he should have not broken the computer and opened up the dome.Basically these humans are like children and in my opinion will not survive in the wild. Plus they did not have any animals as far as I could see. What are they going to do eat cats??
Anyway this movie has some weird parts don’t quite make sense, or maybe I was just baffled by this decade’s version of futuristic machinery… who really knows. The story-line is great, and something to watch when bored..

Rice Garden certificates!!

2012-04-27T19:33:00.002-07:00

Here are the certificates I received from rice garden. My husband and I went ahead and ordered some food. However unlike last time when I went to the Rice Garden the friend rice was very hard and it was hard to chew it. My husband and I had to throw it away. What a waste. However i am grateful for the certificates. ty Mr Newton Hoang.

The Walking Dead !!!

2012-04-26T20:47:00.002-07:00

I am watching season two of the walking dead. So far so good! The only problem i have is Lori and the way she keeps losing Carl or how he just wanders off. Um it is a zombie Apocalypse!! y r u not watching ur son more closely. Y when u drive on a highway with no cars u crash? Please next season give me a female that has a backbone, is a good mom and can shoot!!

the miracle momma

2012-04-25T23:09:00.001-07:00

I found a great blog to follow. She has great advice for moms and freebies links!!
When I get my freebies I will take pictures and give reviews!! Please check her out her link is below!!

http://themiraclemomma.com/

Rice Garden!!!

2012-04-24T20:11:00.001-07:00

I am so happy!! I went to rice garden yesterday and got the family grand meal for 30 bucks!! This meal feed my whole family and roomates. (7) I went to there facebook page and thanked them and they gave me a gift. (it is a suprise) Everyone needs to go to Rice garden!!

http://www.thericegarden.com/index.html

Influenster

2012-04-24T15:49:00.000-07:00

It has been awhile since I been on here. But I heard of this site called Influenster. I am going to start reviewing products and I want to share that with you guys! So come on and let's take a ride.

Rafael turned 9 Yrs old

2010-11-15T15:06:00.000-08:00

I am happy my son turned 9 on Nov 12 2010. I had a birthday party for him on Nov 13, a Saturday, even though he was ill. His grandparents, uncles, and friends came over to celebrate. Barry and me bought him an Iron Man cake and it was delicious. He received many gifts and thanked everyone. Our gift to him was the x box kinect, scooter, few games, shoes, and leapfrog game. Grandpa Barry and Grandma Laurie gave him a leapfrog, gloves, beanie, and dominoes. We are sure enjoying those :). Grandma Suzette gave him a wonderful jacket with the raiders logo and a sweater. Uncle Laine gave him a x box control and Aunt Desi a Iron Man toy. Uncle Jonney gave him a trunk full of kinetic toys.I am thankful for all the gifts n well wishes. God has been good to us. Barry has a new better job and we all are looking forward to thanksgiving.

My positive thinking and my hubby have taken me to a new level

2010-01-22T21:39:00.000-08:00

Well last time I wrote here I was so frustrated about the doctor and stuff.Well I have another doctor apt Tuesday.But lately I have been on a positive kick after I read the Dan Brown book The Lost Symbol,I will not ruin the book for the ones who have not read it but well it talked a lot about how a human beings brain has the power to do miracles,cures,etc.Well I thought about this a lot and I have noticed one thing about me is I am always thinking negative which makes my anxiety n depression worse.So I told myself after reading this book if Robert Langdon can go and believe that it works why not me? I know he is fictional but Dan Brown is not and I like what he said in the book.Well every nite when I go to bed I say "I Kris send positive energy to my house and to my family and to me Positive energy Wrap around me like a blanket".I have had no nitemares n my insomnia is like almost gone.I think the brain does what u want it to do negative thoughts bring negative energy, Positivity brings good things.Many do not believe in God I do.But if u do not then believe in positivity.I also have enrolled in college and I am going for my associates degree in Graphic design.Like I am not well yet I still get sad but now I don't let it drive me I drive it and use that sadness for my poems :) in a positive way.I also have the best hubby who loves to talk and when something does bother me he is my sounding board he listens n offers a solution n does not laugh at my eccentricities.Thank you Baby for being the Best !! It is going to be a long drive to my goal and I know I will have bad days but I have belief in myself !!

Abyss we either swim or drown

2010-01-11T19:00:00.000-08:00

Well here I am again.I will continue on what I have started even if I do feel a bit lost.I went to the Doctor on Friday,Readied myself after all my nerves.I get there have my paperwork filled out and hand it to the receptionist.She tells me and my hubby to wait in the lobby while they check out my insurance.I waited over 30 Min's and she calls us up n tell us that since our limit in the insurance is $ we have to pay $ (sorry for not saying how much) but well we cannot afford that for a visit plus any extras they might make us pay.Well we left.I feel so defeated like I am trying to make my anxiety n depression manageable.But how can one do that with the Insurance this country offers.We have Blue Shield,n we pay for the family plan.I cannot get free Medicaid because hubby is able to get insurance.So I am right now trying to figure out the best course to get help.But I feel like I am drowning and there is no lifesaver.I have not sleep right in a week.I been taking sleeping pills and is still not helping.I tried bathes,sex,relaxation.I want to feel well again and I feel sad for all the other people who could not find the help and now are homeless.We need to figure out a way to help poor people who have no options when there mentally unstable and not judge them.I also have a very good support system and they will not let me give up Ty guys :)I am going to get better because well I want to.Dammit I will not give in to this disease I am a fighter, have been since I was a child.I will write another day more stuff.

Small Steps

2010-01-05T20:34:00.000-08:00

I am feeling drained today.I been thinking I have good self-esteem but I just get so sad at the smallest things.Like if someone on a social site not saying hi to me or my room having one thing out of order.I feel like the person does not care and why did I let my room get so dirty.Yes u see one thing out of order but it feels like my whole life is going out of order.I have a very supportive husband but I believe he expects me to go to the Doctor and just get cured and be Happy.I do not think is going to work that way.I believe in God alot so that is helping get by becuase without my faith I would feel more Lost.Is not like my life is bad,but my brain is so If I can fix my way Of thinking everything maybe will fall in order.We will see .

The Decision

2010-01-05T02:24:00.000-08:00

I have decided to finally find the help I need for my anxiety and depresion.It is a bit scary going to someone I do not know and will maybe judge me and find me inadequate to be a mother.I am afraid they will see me as a liar.That I am inveting my depresion for attention.I wish it was that simple becuase then I could shed it like an old coat and be again the Kris I was 3 yrs ago.Not scared of anything .Be able to shop alone,walk, and just get dressed in the morning and want to do stuff.But alas I do not want to do anything.Only reason I am going to the doctor,My family.Cause I am so used to this Kris I dont know what the old Kris looks like anymore and Like I said in the beggining I am scared of people I dont know judging me.Will the old Kris judge this Kris or will i emerge a blend of both.Wait and see.