i am always writing a story in my head.

hi.

2011-01-28T13:34:00.002+08:00

so umm im not into expressing my feelings anymore.

ive realised that happiness is a choice, so im not gonna read into things too much and just LIVE. you know?

im not closing down this blog though, as this was a part of me, a part that i cherished. a lot :)

okay wait, who am i kidding? i looovveee expressing myself haha in fact, i do it all the time on twitter. but im not going into that emotional hole anymore. ive read somewhere that we should do more of what makes us happy.

and i found that happy place. tumblr. yea yea i know, ive dissed tumblr before for being unoriginal and yadda yadda haha but i guess you dont have to be yourself all the time, right? i mean, this life is not all about you. life is not about love, either. its about roles. whether you understand your roles and whether you carry them out or not.

soooo, i want to be a happy person. hence, im gonna do what keeps me happy more often. that is to spend time looking at beautiful pictures and reblogging them LOL

if youre interested to see my collection of happy pictures, come and visit me at www.hidsie.tumblr.com :)

till then,

it's all in your head.

2010-11-23T12:19:00.003+08:00

Forget about your life situation for a while and pay attention to your life.

Your life situation exists in time. Your life is now.

Your life is real.

Find the "narrow gate that leads to life". It is called the Now. Narrow your life down to this moment. Your life situation may be full of problems - most life situations are - but find out if you have any problem at this moment.

Not tomorrow or in 10 minutes, but now. Do you have a problem now?

When you are full of problems, there is no room for anything new to enter, no room for solution. So whenever you can, make some room, create some space, so that you find the life underneath your life situation.

-Page 31, Practicing the Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle.

A MUST READ :)

today i dont feel like doing anything

2010-11-22T11:13:00.003+08:00

having the monday blues?

listen to the lazy song! :)

The Last Lecture

2010-11-16T10:10:00.004+08:00

i've read this book and i LOVED it.

a must read for everyone :)

below is a forwarded email i received on the summary of the book.

enjoy!

This is amazing, Randy Pausch 47 yrs old, A computer Sc. lecturer from Mellon Universityhe died of pancreatic cancer in 2008, but wrote a book "The last lecture” before then, one of the bestsellers in 2007. What a legacy to leave behind.
In a letter to his wife Jai and his children, Dylan, Logan, and Chloe, he wrote this beautiful "guide to a better life" for his wife and children to follow.
May you be blessed by his insight.

POINTS ON HOW TO IMPROVE YOUR LIFE

Personality:
1. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
2. Don't have negative thoughts of things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment
3. Don't over do; keep your limits
4. Don't take yourself so seriously; no one else does
5. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip
6. Dream more while you are awake
7. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
8. Forget issues of the past. Don't remind your partner of his/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.
9. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don't hate others.
10. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present
11. No one is in charge of your happiness except you
12. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn.
Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
13. Smile and laugh more
14. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

Community:
15. Call your family often
16. Each day give something good to others
17. Forgive everyone for everything
18. Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6
19. Try to make at least three people smile each day
20. What other people think of you is none of your business
21. Your job will not take care of you when you are sick. Your family and friends will. Stay in touch.

Life:
22. Put GOD first in anything and everything that you think, say and do.
23. GOD heals everything
24. Do the right things
25. However good or bad a situation is, it will change
26. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up
27. The best is yet to come
28. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful
29. When you awake alive in the morning, thank GOD for it
30. If you know GOD you will always be happy. So, be happy.

While you practice all of the above, share this knowledge with the people you love, people you school with,
people you play with, people you work with and people you live with.
Not only will it enrich YOUR life, but also that of those around you.

blogger template.

2010-11-11T17:03:00.001+08:00

okay im sick of this template already.

must.change.soon.

always.

2010-11-11T16:57:00.002+08:00

i want to touch the depth of your soul

with my words massaging your heart

and tickle your mind with a poem or two

a sonnet, maybe some letters to you

oh, the truth is

i just want to be in your arms.

Cleaning up my soul.

2010-11-11T14:32:00.000+08:00

There are things that have to be forgotten if you want to go on living.

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Thursday.

2010-11-11T12:45:00.001+08:00

There is an explosion inside of me. Words, thoughts, lyrics and unfinished poems.

Wish I have all the time in the world to write them down.

Or just stare into space and enjoy watching the arrays of words dancing before my eyes.

Oh well :)

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:)

2010-11-11T12:02:00.002+08:00

Our souls collide
My dreams are now real
And for us, time stands still.

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2010-11-10T15:00:00.000+08:00

i may look calm.

but in my head ive killed you three times.

thinspiration part nine.

2010-11-09T14:45:00.003+08:00

dont tell yourself "i can start tomorrow".

tell yourself "i will start today".

and then tomorrow it will be two days, and then three.

and it will get easier.

tell yourself "im going to wake up lighter tomorrow than i did today".

Face the facts.

2010-11-07T21:22:00.001+08:00

You're a little too old to be hiding around the bushes.

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pass me the cook book.

2010-11-01T15:59:00.000+08:00

i need to learn how to cook.

MUST.learn.

uptight much?

2010-10-27T11:37:00.003+08:00

yo yo yo yo yo yeah imma talk like this imma pretend im a knee-grow cuz im flyyyyy like that.

okay scratch that.

i realized ive been uptight lately, lol silly grumpy old me.

but imma get my mojo back.

you just wait.

or dont.

whatever.

okthanksforyourtimebye.

goodbye posters, hello empty wall.

2010-10-25T23:10:00.003+08:00

found a paper cutting that says,

TO-DO LIST:

- give others compliments

- accept compliments

- figure out what you want out of life and go get it

- be around people who encourage your goals

DONT:

- put yourself down

- worry about nothing

- hang around with people who bring you down

some things are just gotta be told no matter how simple, eh? ;)

oh look, thats a picture of me graduating kindergarten in indonesia. i still look the same right? see, told yah, i havent aged even a day :P

goodnight, xx

25.

2010-10-25T18:12:00.001+08:00

You gotta grow up at some point.

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I'm so happy I want to remember this forever :))

2010-10-19T21:11:00.000+08:00

New jeans, new me ;)

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Bride-to-Be, Part 3: Lights, Camera, Action!

2010-10-05T11:46:00.005+08:00

my engagement day is just around the corner, and how the pictures will turn out is what i worry about the most lol yeah, yeah, i am a bimbo, waddupppp.

so ive been practicing in front of the mirror - ive been trying to find my better side, sucking my tummy to see whether that will make me less fat or not, smiling w mouth open, smiling w mouth closed, tilting my head to the right, and then left, and then right again trying to hide the double chin, and tons of other embarrassing poses id rather not expose.

after 2 hours of googling, i have decided to compile a list of tips that can help me and you looking your best on your wedding day :)

1. camera alert.

every bride-to-be wants to be captured when she is at her best / ayuest / lembutest / kurusest / etc., trust me i want that too, but try not to be too alert of the camera. its okay to look at the photographer (main photographer only, ignore the rest) once in a while just to have an idea where you should look but try keep your body relaxed. we dont want to look stiff do, we? ;) and oh, please keep your face level to the camera. chin up will result in capturing your nostrils more than it should, chin down pula will accentuate your double chin.

2. work with your posture.

standing or sitting down, always always keep your body straight. you will look shorter and fatter slouching. plus it will be a lil hard for your guest to see what youre wearing :P and if youre standing, try to avoid standing w both your legs straight. bend your knees and point your toes, you will look sexy w an innocent overtone.

dont forget to bend your knee, ladies!

3. expression.

tell the world your love story, smile sincerely and show the admiration in your eyes. bak kata tyra, haruslah smizing kan ;)

gosh i wish i will look as calm and as ayu as her. shes so purrdyyy.

p/s: @hushpls once told me not too smile besar sangat, nanti orang kata gatal. and jangan senyum kecik sangat nanti macam murung pulak haha

4. relax your shoulders.

people tend to tighten and raise their shoulders when they are nervous. it makes your shoulder appear narrower than they really are, your neck seems shorter and worse, i will make you look fuller especially when youre sitting down. you will be fine, let your shoulders fall naturally :)

i tend do this all the time :(

5. get your elbows away from your body.

if you pose w your elbows touching the sides of your body, your arms will get squished and look even bigger. just move your elbows slightly away from your sides, creating just a small separation between your body and your arm so people will notice the cut-in of your waistline in your photos, and this makes you appear slimmer. yeayy!

dont squish them chubby arms, hidayah!

6. be yourself.

most importantly, just be yourself. be natural and umm dont forget to train your partner as well :P

but then again, just be you. youre most beautiful when youre confident of yourself anyway ;)

okay i must admit that im panicking a lil bit now. need to start practicing pronto so i will look like a pro. and lets get this right, a good photographer captures moments, rather than the poses :)

sources:

zla's blog

bridal twist

google

Bride-to-Be, Part 2: Wishful Thinking.

2010-10-05T11:42:00.000+08:00

this is super cute.

can i have this at my wedding? friends, start practising! ;)

Why I should be dating an Italian man.

2010-09-30T20:26:00.001+08:00

I like to be loved obviously.
I like hearing the words 'I love you' and will never get tired of it.
I liked being touched, caressed, hugged every waking hour.
I don't mind seeing a man beings sad, admitting his fault and crying over his failure.

I'm just sick of all this ego shit.

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drama, love and relationships

2010-09-29T10:09:00.001+08:00

Its not about who is right, or who is wrong
Its not about who's weaker, or who's stronger
Its not about who's innocent, or whose fault
It ain't really about that kind of thing at all
Its not about who does it, or done it, or did it to whom
Don't matter if the both of you lose
Its really not bout nothing, except for me and you

Its all about drama, and love, and relationships
And when the going gets tough, you deal with it
And you don't ever, you never walk away from it
You hold on, and be strong
Its all about drama, and trust, and making it
If your somebody, mess up, you take it in
Don't let nobody come between you, you just stay with it
And hold on and be strong
And hold on

Its not about the stupid things that we say
We're always saying stupid things anyway
Its not about the secrecy or the lies
Everybody has got a secret to hide
Its not about who was he, or was she, who's creeping on who
Wont matter if the both of us lose
Its really not bout nothing, except for me and you

Its all about drama, and love, and relationships
And when the going gets tough, you deal with it
And you don't ever, you never walk away from it
You hold on, and be strong
Its all about drama, and trust, and making it
If your somebody, mess up, you take it in
Don't let nobody come between you, you just stay with it
And hold on and be strong
And hold on

Ain't bout your pride
Ain't bout yourself
Its about the two of you, and no one else
Ain't about the hurt
Ain't about the lies
Ain't bout the crazy things that's running through your mind
Its bout the love thats supposed to last and never die

Its all about drama, and love, and relationships
And when the going gets tough, you deal with it
And you don't ever, you never walk away from it
You hold on, and be strong
Its all about drama, and trust, and making it
If your somebody, mess up, you take it in
Don't let no body come between you, you just stay with it
And hold on and be strong
And hold on

just hold on and be strong.

thinspiration part eight.

2010-09-28T14:50:00.003+08:00

enough said.

lyrics mania.

2010-09-27T11:24:00.002+08:00

okay, get this.

i can get lyrics like:

i kissed a girl and i liked it (well whatever makes you happy, miss)
i want your ugly, i want your disease (some people likes filthy stuff, that explains the meat dress)
can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars (even though it kinda suggests that airplanes should fall out of the sky just cuz some people would like to say a prayer, but owkayyy the word 'pretend' is a saving clause)
when i see your face, theres not a thing that i would change (errrr okayyyy thanks for the effort :P)

i dont mean to criticize all songs - i do know that theyre meant to merely entertain, or provide an escape or something.

but - i love the way you lie?

dude thats the stupidest thing i have ever heard.

thinspiration part seven.

2010-09-26T23:48:00.002+08:00

pssstttttt, waking up skinny is worth going to bed hungry ;)

Keep calm and pray for the best.

2010-09-24T01:12:00.001+08:00

Some people find it hard to believe that sometimes we have financial problems. Prolly because I am me, and zimster is zimster, and we may look like we live life lavishly (well maybe we did at some point), but we, too, like any other human beings face some financial problems. Please don't forget the little fact we don't own what our parents have, we only have the privilege of using them once in a while.

And if I could have it my way (and all the money in the world, of course), I want to get married in Rome and have Paolo Nutini sing at my wedding. It will be on a sunny day when the sun ray seeps through those romantic looking buildings, beautiful people chatting away while munching on yummy food :)

But I can't have it my way, and I don't have all the money in the world :P

However, I am thankful for the great friends that I have, those who understand, who doesn't judge and who are willing to help when I'm in need. I may not have tons of money, but I am surrounded w lots of love, and that's enough to make me happy. Thank you great friends, I love you so much <3

I hope everyone in the world have such good friends like I do ;)

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