I live in Hyrule Castle

Major 2013 summer shoe wants.

2013-05-21T17:09:00.000-07:00

Sources :
www.nastygal.com
www.solestruck.com

Dolan pls, u kno teh pries.

2012-10-02T19:10:00.000-07:00

So much want on all of this.

(You can press the photos to see the items in their shops)
I have a major crush on lilac nowadays. I absolutely love the lilac grunge look, getting to mix cute and innocent with edgy and rough.
These are some of the items I hope to put in my closet the nearest future <3

Knekkebread

2012-07-19T08:46:00.000-07:00

Hello, and welcome to deserted blog, where no one rarely post... ever.

Okey, so my poor blog is lonely. I think it just has to be till I find the time for it again. Not that I don't have the time, it's just my head doesn't. So from now on I'll just try to post whenever I feel up for it.

Okay, so I probably have the best mom in the world. Look what she bought me!

I've been trying to add more colours to my life lately, as I feel the black and white thing we have going on in the appartment, is killing my creativity a bit. I feel as if colours might help me have a lighter mind.
My mom bought me these supercute bowls for putting salads and stuff in, and they are so adorable!

She also got me a little palm tree. It doesn't have a pot yet, haha. But it's still lovely!
We went to Sweden last week, which was quite a lot of fun. My mom went on a shoe rampage,
and bought her self NINE(!!) pairs of shoes!
I also got this lovely box for putting crackers in. It's so cuuute!

So I probably have the best grandmother aswell! She got me these today:

Aren't they pretty? I love their colours. And the pots are so cool! They are light pink and have the patterns of old tapestry. <3

I also got two packages in the mail this week!

I love getting packages from ImYourPresent! It seriously feels like a present even though you buy it for yourself, haha. I bought this alien necklace and a silver confetti necklace with my name on it.
The package was wrapped in purple paper, and had a tootsie rool, a dog sticker and tiny yellow heart-shaped earrings (which I forgot to photograph) in it! These packages never seem to disappoint me. I love people who make so much effort with their business.

I also finally got my Sugarpill package! I already ordered a package there from before, which I absolutely loved, so I decided to try out a few new colours. The loose eyeshadows are gold and light green, the last one is orange - the eyelashes are black, green and purple! They look so amazing. I can't wait to try them out!

On another note, my little darling burrito has been Holland for 20 days now. He left there to work. He will be home in about ten days, and hopefully he will be staying when he comes back. I am preparing a goodie bag for him till he gets back, so exciting!

I miss my burrito.

On an unrelated note, this is how I've been feeling lately - poop.

Peace out and all that stuff :)
xxx

SHOOOOOEEESSSS

2012-06-21T14:21:00.001-07:00

Okey, so I seem to fail pretty much at updating here now.
There's been a lot of darkness surrounding my thoughts lately. Days when even plugging in my camera seems too much. I even have loads of material I could blog about, but typing just gets too much. so when I have good days, my goals usually are
1) talking to people (seems pretty silly, but talking to people is a thing I sometimes cannot handle at all)
2) doing things I like

My next goal is trying to blog about small things.. Like shoes. Or hair. Or cats..
Starting now :

/Pictures from Nasty Gal/

Oh... My.. God.

I would die for these shoes. Or sell my soul.
Been looking for cool sandals for summer in quite a while, but none have really appealed to me - untill I found these! Can just imagine putting these together with literally almost everything I have, and they would look killer. Someone buy me!! :)

xxxx

Leggings and stuff!

2012-06-01T15:45:00.000-07:00

I had my birthday yesterday, and I got these amazing leggings from my mom!
So this is just a quick update of a few photos of my new, lovely spandex <3

I had such a great day yesterday. I got this amazing photo from Elise ( go to her blog here ), who is such a talent at drawing <3 It made me super happy!

When I came to work, the class I was in sang me the birthday song in English!
Then, when I came to after-school care, they sang again, and my super lovely co-worker had made me brownies <3 And I got loads of hugs and congratulations, and some of the kids drew me cards and drawings. D'aaw.

When I came home, I celebrated a bit with my mom, dad, brother, my grandma and my boyfriend.
I regret now not taking a photo, it was so nice to all be gathered, and I made us my favourite dish, aswell!
Curry wok, yumm.

Oh, I also got some new packages in the mail lately, I'll be putting up some updates very, very soon. I'll also try to put up a picture of the birthday presents I've gotten and that I am getting, but they haven't all arrived yet, so I thought I'd just wait with that for a bit.
But I'll show you one special I got today, futuring these killer Studded Tardy's from Jeffrey Campell!

Aren't they amazing?! I entered a friend competition with Elise on www.idontlikemondays.us , where we could both win 100$'s each. And we were superlucky and won!
Elise got herself some superkiller shoes from Substitute, and I got these babies <3 I also ordered a rib cage ring while I was at it, hihi! I'll be trying to remember to take a photo of that one aswell!

Finishing off with a picture of how I did my nails on my birthday:3

Party nails!
(And some new jewellry, too!)

Have a great weekend!
xxx
Camilla

My birthday wishlist

2012-05-20T13:48:00.000-07:00

My birthday is coming up!
The 31st of May, I will have survived 20 years!
I decided to make a wishlist to put on my blog, of lovely things I've been drooling on for quite a bit <3

Leggings :

I rarely wear pants anymore. Actually, I don't even remember the last time I wore pants..
-Gold Suspenders
-Red and Black Leggings
- Red and Black Curcuit Board Leggings
- Tetris Leggings
- Black Suspender Leggings
www.blackmilkclothing.com

- Ripped Leggings
www.missselfridge.com

- Pantyhose Suspenders
www.asos.com

Sweaters and jackets :
As I have quite a few stating and outstanding leggings, it's always easy to style them with a sweater!
Also, I've been longing for a furry jacket for quite a while. These are adorable!

- Kitty sweater
www.glitterhell.com

- Panda Sweat Jacket
- Monster Sweater
www.iheartdropdead.com

- Fake Fur Jacket White
- Fake Fur Jacket Black
www.nastygal.com

Tops and dresses :
Summer is coming up, and I'm dying to get my hands on some of these summery, light dresses and tops <3

- Red Crochet Dress
- White Short Lace Tied Dress
- White Hi Low Tied Dress
- Layered White Shirt Dress
-Black Bra Bustier
www.nastygal.com

- White and Blue Bubble Dress
- Blue Mountain Top
www.iheartdropdead.com

- Denim Lace Spike Shirt
www.urbanoutfitters.co.uk

Skirts and shorts :
Yum<3

- Colourful Aztec Skirt
www.asos.com

- Blue Leopard Tube Skirt
- Purple Tube Skirt
www.nastygal.com

- Floral Skirt
- Lace Denim shorts
www.urbanoutfitters.co.uk

Shoes :

The finisher to every outfit! Droool.

- Floral Platform Sneakers

- Chunky Heel Sandals

- Mint Blue Heels

- Red/Brown Leopard Platforms

- Black/White Platforms

www.solestruck.com

- Strapped Black Platform Heels

www.nastygal.com

- Red Leopard and Black Platforms

www.tukshoes.com

Accesoires :
Things I feel naked without.

- Shield Ring
- Shield Necklace
- Bullet Necklace
www.urbanoutfitters.co.uk

- Rubber Band Cross Bracelets
- Lightning Ring
- Spike Bracelet
- Skeleton Hugs Ring
www.asos.com

- Rainbow Backpack
- Floral Headband
- Blue Sunglasses
- Brown Sunglasses
www.nastygal.com

This is like the biggest wishlist ever, haha.
What can I say, I'm an addict! :)
Make me happy and bring me these things for my birthday, I will love you forever <3

:3

Tick tick...

2012-05-15T14:55:00.000-07:00

It's been ages. Literally.
I've had a lot going on the last few weeks.
Well, not to the open eye. I've been struggling with my own thoughts and emotions.
It's been feeling like I multiplied myself with ten inside of my head, and then every me had a different level on their voice, and different statements, but they were all negative. It has been so tireing and stressful, I felt like banging my head into the wall for more than once. Luckily I have a very understanding workplace and family, so I've been able to build myself up the last few weeks by lot of sleep and relaxation.

So the reason why I haven't blogged is simply because I've been too "busy talking to myelf".

But I'm making it up now!

Starting with this outfit photo:

I wore this the 1st of May.
1st of May this year was a big day for me. First time on stage in 5 years.
5 years of experiencing dark places of my mind..
Standing in front of a crowd after so long, such a huge step. I was nervous to death. Shaking so much I made tiny little earthquakes on the stage. Haha, seriously!
I forgot the entire first song. So glad I brought lyrics, so I could jump back in. But I was struggling so much.
As I finished and walked off stage, I was so broke down I almost cried. But I didn't, and that itself is a victory for me.

But it has made me think of whether or not this is a closed chapter in my life, or a chapter not ready to be written? I have another place to sing in a few months, and I've decided to take it. And after that, we will see.

New things, yaay!

I ordered my first order on Romwe, and I can really tell a difference from paying for shipping and not. The package took ages! Still though, it is a great site who offers a variety of clothing and accesoires.
I ordered these cat earrings (crazy catladyyy), who I got to wear once before they broke :( But I'm going to try to fix them, as they are supercute!

I also ordered Wine Red velvet Leggings(left). Being a hardcore Black Milk fan, I can really tell I've gotten picky. The waistband is so short and it gives me the biggest muffintop. But they are still gorgeous!
I also ordered a new pair of hosiery from ASOS, since I always instantly break them and need a constant refill.

I also got this peachy nude lipstick from Jemma Kidd, that I've kind of gotten addicted to. I love the colour!

Here's an outfit wearing my new leggings!

I also got some yummy treats from etsy.com! A site filled with handmade treasures <3

I got these alien rings and earrings! She also sent me a sticker, a little candy treat and a note! I love these type of packages, they make me so happy <3

I also got a cat-eye ring and cat-eye earrings, also with stickers, yaay! I wear these things so much :)

This new shirt is from Sheinside.com, but I forgot to take photos of it and now it's in the wash, haha.

(Sorry for the bad photo, it's taken with my phone, but I just like my rings too much <3)

These were recieved and instantly put on!

I've been drooling over these for quite a while now, seeing loads of gorgeous ladies wearing them on Lookbook. So I decided to finally order them from prettysucks.de, and I don't regret it. Again, they are not Black Milk quality, but they are super comfy and I'm so happy considering how cheap they were!

Got this ring while I was at it, as I never really got myself a cross that went horisantally over my fingers, and I had been wanting one for quite a while. I liked that this one was different, it has a bend to it, and it's quite narrow, so it's not the typical cross ring, which I really like!

New leggings, huhu. Borrowed my boyfriend's shirt for this outfit. It's so comfy.

Also decided to go for a little colour splash today, so I wore my Cat Burger-top from DropDead.

Food :

I finally decided to eat my Pokemon-food. It was very yummy! It's like a typicall norwegian dish, but with curry flavour! And I love curry flavour. I also got a Pokemon-sticker! Happyface :3

I got these in the mail a few days ago! Ordered like 70 diet bars(half of them for my grandma).
These are so great to have, as I can bring them anywhere, they don't need any preparation, and they contain all vitamins and minerals I need! And I spent like half the amount of money buying these online than in the store! Online shopping <3

This post is so incredibly messy. I always make it messy when I have a lot to blog about..
I'm going to try to get better. I've decided to try, by making my secret Facebook-page on Facebook (mwahaha, what have I been doing on Facebook?!) into a sort of blog-site, where I'll try to post a bit more photos of smaller things happening. I think it'll be good practice, as I tend to keep out the entire world and hide myself when I start feeling depressed. So if I only post one photo one of those days, it's an achievement!

You can like the page >here<.

I'm finishing off with my little Luffy, who I found sleeping in a bed of white, wild flowers <3 I woke her up, though. I'm such a meanie!

She's so tired, haha. Cutest kitty <3

Hopefully I won't use this much time writing my next blogpost. So it won't be such a huge wall of text, haha!

xxx
Camilla

Flowers and a lovely weekend

2012-04-22T13:03:00.000-07:00

This week I've gotten a few new and old items to add to my collection of clothing/accesoires:

I ordered this cute litte headband with mint green roses from eBay, along with some bobby pins. I absolutely adore this, because I've always had trouble with headbands feeling uncomfortable and tight around my head. This one, on the other hand, I can tie however I want, it's so comfortable, cute and easy.
I've been crazy about these flowery headbands lately, probably cause I can't wait for summer. Got so many outfits planned(even with clothes I don't have, haha!)

I got this ring visitng my grandma this week. Almost every time I'm there, I go through her clothing and accecoires. I found this lovely snake ring that she said I could have. It's so pretty! I did figure out I need to wear it on my pointy finger, though, lol, my middle finger is all red. I also got some other ring, but they need to be adjusted before I can wear them. I can't wait! I love these types of treasures.

I also got these gloves. I figured they'd be perfect for (the few times) I go skiing and when winter comes back!

I also got myself a new phone since I've had my last one for 4 or 5 years and it was breaking down on me.
I initially wanted an iPhone, but this one was cool and much mor affordable, so I'm pretty happy with my choice. I can for instance see my xbox information, which is completely useless, but fun!
I also found loads of free games (when I started figuring out how it worked). I was like... Download ALL the games!

This weekend, I had one of my very best friends over. He recently moved, so he lives like 7 hours away from here by car. Yesterday, he drove all the way down to come sleep over! It was so nice. He also brought me a present! Bitches love presents!

As you know (or don't), after having a gastric bypass-operation, you have to take a lot of pills to get all the vitamins and minerals your body needs. So Birge(my friend) bought me three big boxes of powder rich on vitamins and minerals I need! It's also easier for my body to get this into my system. Don't I have the bestest friend ever? <3

When Birge left(sadface), I went to work out. I didn't do very well, but I guess it's better than nothing. I also bumped into a friend, which is always cozy. And when I came back home, Wouter made me dinner!

Salmon with chili and herbs, potatoes and onions. With mayo and chilisauce on the side. Yuuum! I'm so lucky :3

Now we're watching a bit of Supernatural and relaxing, before we're headed to bed.
We might eat some ice cream with strawberries on top first, though :3

How was your weekend? :D

xxx
Camilla

Dying my hair and stuff

2012-04-17T15:11:00.000-07:00

So I found my old extensions that I used a hair back. I decided to colour it turoise at the bottom, and I took some pictures to show you! :

Here's before I started dying it blonde!

Dying it blonde/white.

Result after dying it : Silver puple white-ish. Not quite what I wanted. Wooops. Onto next step!

Blueee! Happy colours :3

A cup of tea while I wait (for two hours..).

And the final result! I had to put the clips on myself!

This is how it looks :D (Ignore the clip in my head, it was really late and I had a bad cold, haha).
I'm really satisfied with the colour!

I also have a few new things! I got some "easter-egg presents" from Wouter. Sort of, at least. They came after Easter, and weren't in an egg.. But still!

A digital heart ring <3 Cutest ever! From Asos.

And a red rose headband! (Hello, angry woman.) Also from Asos.

I also bought a few ned goodies myself:

Black Sequin bag from Nasty Gal! It's so cute :3

Snowflake bag from Nasty Gal! :3

Two pairs of stockings from ASOS. (The one to the left broke instantly :c)

And an etui for my glasses!

Now I'm helping Wouter with his Norwegian homework, as he is doing Norwegian courses now, hoping it will help him get a job! Then I'll get a cup of tea and watch some American Dad, or sleep. It's late. Ugh.

Niiight! <3

Camilla

Two weeks

2012-04-06T04:57:00.000-07:00

So it's been a long time since I posted now. I've struggled with being really tired, having to sleep loads during the day and all night. My body has really just sort of turned off a bit, but it's getting better now, so I decided I'd finally do some blogging! Since I don't remember exactly which day I've done what, I'll do this post as a picture story, starting with yesterday's outfit.

New leggings from Black Milk! These are so colourful compared to what I usually wear on my legs, but I still love them.

Another outfit, wearing my new jacket from Monki. It's so comfortable and I love how it looks!

These week's buys :

I bought my very first swimsuit from Black Milk! This Elk Swimsuit I bought off a lovely lady from the Black Milk Swap page.

I also traded one of my leggings for this pair of Juicy Fruit Pink leggings. Which I'm not completely sure if I should have, since I really haven't worn pink since I was a little baby unable to pick my own clothes, and I have absolutely NO idea how to wear them, haha.

Light blue nail polish from H&M.

A sponge for my primer and glittery black eyeshadow from MAC.

Doesn't it look dreamy? :3

And the cutest little bear to accompany my keys!

I also got the most adorable lunch box! Piggyyy:3

And the cutest lunch box accesories! You can open these and put sauce or whatever you want in them :3 So cuuute.

I also went on a Black Milk meet-up and met some of the cutest girls ever. They were all so incredibly nice and adorable. I had so much fun and I can't wait to meet them all again!

Black Milk legs!

Look at these cute girlies!

Photo : Elise Nedal Helgesen.

Photo : Elise Nedal Helgesen.

I wish I could give you all a hug. You are all amazing <3

Random things like food, animals etc:

Filled Portabello-mushrooms with bread and salad!

Marinaded chicken with bulgur and vegetables.

The yummiest peking-soup I ever had!

This year's first grilled corn! Yaaaay:3

The easter egg I gave to Wouter (that is already eaten of). I thought the "Ego - Walters Almonds" fit so perfectly, moahah :3

Luffy, my beautiful kitty <3

Biffen, my brother's crazy dog! :)

Another photo of Luffy <3

A photo where I tried on my new eyeshadow. I'm deffinately happy with it, it glitters and looks so smoky!
I do deffinately need more practice with putting it on though, lol.

Sorry for all the pictures and so little text, it's just been a really tireing two weeks for me.
I'm going to use the last of the easter to charge up, and luckily get back on the right track :)
Happy easter, everyone <3

Camilla

Pretty jewelries and yesterday's events!

2012-03-20T14:02:00.000-07:00

Today I got this exciting package in the mail, sent to me by Ann-Kristin Egge, who is a family member of mine making her own great-looking and special jewelry! She sent me a bag for my grandma, a bag for my mom and a bag for me, all containing jewelry fit for us.

My mom recieved this beautiful black and silver-coloured necklace with lovely matching earrings!

My grandma got a summerish light blue bracelet with lovely silver pearls of different shapes. So lovely!

And I recieved this great bracelet with skulls of different colours and black "lava-beads" that look rough and holey. It was perfect, and I absolutely love it!

As you can see, her range of jewelry can fit any age and style, so I recommend you take a look at her site, www.krabbasverden.com, and you can also check out the photo's in her Facebook folders, where she puts out several of her makings! Check her out, Ann- Kristin Egge Frøyland.

Yesterday, I went to Oslo as I was invited to join a radio show on NRK P3. As I was already in Oslo, I decided to do some shopping!! Yaay. This is what I got back home with :

Since I am a complete make-up noob and I forgot to buy a powder-brush the last time I went to buy make-up, I got a brush for that this time :3 I also bought a concealer, along with a brush for my concealer! It's so white, but really helps when all the make-up is put on. I also bought a new mascara and a lipgloss. I also bought a brush-cleaner since I've already raped my poor little eye-liner brush. *Pats the brush* Sorry, brushie.

I also bought myself a cute little sewing kit! Even though I suck at everything sewing-ish. But it was so cute and colourful. :3

Orange tea and a tea-holder-thingy!

The cutest napkins in history. (Yes, I might become a crazy old catlady, but I love cats.)
And a little spoon for stirring my food!

Pokemon Pork and Curry dinner! Probably doesn't taste all that yummy, but Pikachu told me I had to buy it...

Aaaand, finally! The cutest summer jacket I bought from Monki. Last time I was in Oslo, me and my friend both fell for the jacket, and I said she could have it then I would look for something else..
Truth is, I've searched and I just couldn't find anything that caught my heart the way this jacket did..
Sooo.. I ended up buying it and then I just have to wear it whenever I know I won't be with her, and I'm safe! Hurrhurr.

Owh, I also bough chopsticks by the way! I just forgot I did.. But now I remembered.. Look!

Green bamboo chopsticks. I love TIGER, they have so much cool stuff, and they're not pricey. :3

Then when I came home, Wouter and I had chicken with broccoli, onions, paprika, carrots and noodles, and we ate with chopsticks for the first time and looked like total retards.
The end. :)

Camilla

More TV and a tiny Gina Tricot-addiction.

2012-03-16T11:47:00.002-07:00

I was in Lillehammer today, doing a few minutes of shooting for a show called Østnytt on TV, a news-show which you can see >here<, but there is only a few minutes in there. You can see me from 8 minutes 20 seconds into the show. Afterwards, I got some spare time to do some shopping! I got this :

An adorable croptop with loads of cute flowers from Gina Tricot :3

A mustache ring and an earcuff with crosses!

Cocoa snacks that tasted utterly horrible and ended up with my grandma. Haha (:

And a new tea from London Fruit & Herb Company that I can't wait to taste! Looks so yummy :3

I also recived a package from Gina Tricot yesterday, that contained this :

Two pair of earrings that I absolutely loved.

And a short t-shirt with a colourful skull on it. You can tell I'm preparing for summer! I'm so excited. Mint colours, light fabrics, hot, lazy days. Ahh.. Can't wait!

What is the number one thing you are looking forward to this summer?

Camilla

Some random stuff!

2012-03-14T14:43:00.000-07:00

So today I did almost nothing...

But I did wear my new blue skirt!

I love the mint colour of it. It makes me want summer and sun even more. Or spring, at least. I like spring. Not too cold, and everything is coming back to life, blooming. I do not lik wasps. Do NOT. No sir. They freak me out. Bees aswell. Anything wasp-like to be honest. Anyway..

I coloured my hair yesterday! I made it a tiny bit more ginger, with blonde dip dye at the bottom.

Pretty happy with it, except for that the dip dye isn't all that visible, so I'm going back on Friday to get a bit more blonde in it! I also coloured my eyebrows. I feel it looks okay in pictures, but when I look at myself in the mirror I feel like someone just painted two random lines in my face. Haha. Bet it'll get better though.

My hair dresser also put on some make-up yesterday, so I took a few photos(since I'm a sucker for being dollied up):

I got stopped on the streets last week about a girl writing about street fashion! She posted me on th blog of th achademy she goes to, at least I think that's what it is. I'm number four on the listing, and you can read/see the blog entry >here<.

Also, I finally got the Hi Low skirt I ordered about a month ago, today! I can't wait to actually wear it out. It's quite different from the skirts I usually wear, but it's so beautiful. I ordered it from an Australian site called Suprè (not sure about what way the little line over the "e" should be, but here goes), and it was suprisingly good quality considering the price. The shipping, on the other hand, was a bit expensive. But It's all in all a site I recommend.

I'm sorry about the bad photos, but at least you sort of get the feeling of what it looks like! Look at the sheer fabric. I just want to stroke it.. I know, creepy.

Now I'm going to have a cup of yoghurt with cereal and strawberries, then I'm going for a shower and off to bed!

Sleep tight, everyone :)

Camilla

What is the best comfort when you're ill..?

2012-03-12T14:25:00.001-07:00

....Reciving new things in the mail! Whiii!

The Cross of St. Peter Black Leggings from Black Milk! Aren't they wonderful?

And Wouter ordered me this adorable skirt from chicwish.com! I'm so in love with it. The colour is so beautiful, and it sits so nicely! I have the best boyfriend (:

Today I had to take a day of simply because my body refuses to work a bit. So I have to focus on drinking and eating basically all day, which feels quite weird. But it's important to give my body enough nutrition.
So hopefully I'll feel better tomorrow!

I'm going to the hairdress tomorrow, still haven't decided whether to only colour my hair a tiny bit more ginger or actually getting dip dye!

I absolutely love how it looks, but I would like to keep it more to my natural colours in the first round.
A bit more ginger on the top, then more blonde at the bottom.
I'd really love some advice, if anyone has any!
What do you think? Yay or nay?

[Picture from haircolorideas.com]

xx
Camilla

I have a bowler hat!

2012-03-10T05:26:00.000-08:00

I was in Oslo yesterday shopping! As a result, I have a lovely bowler hat! This is what I'm wearing today!

I woke up today to breakfast on bed! Felt pretty lucky. Such a great way of waking up after a long day of shopping! Then I took some photos of yesterday's buys :

A lovely bowler hat and some super cute pink sneakers! Both from Monki.

I absolutely love this Arizona tea! I tasted it in Holland first, and then my friend found them in one of the stores on Oslo S, I was so happy! Nomnomnom. I also bought Strawberry pudding. I've never tasted it before, but it looked so yummy!

A timer for cooking, tooth picks, a lighter, a bath scrub and cocoa almonds!

An awesome tote-bag with a cute man on it :D

This lovely shirt is from Monki. Sorry about the bad focus!

I finally got my hands on some Mac make-up. I only bought a primer, powder, an eye-liner and a lipgloss.

The colours fit my skin very well and it feels so good on. I'm actually not all that interested in make.up, but I like having a bit on, and I like that it looks normal and natural on the skin. It makes me feel so comfortable!

It looks like I've got dip dye here. I've been dying to get my hair dip dyed like this, orange in the top and blond at the bottom. Maybe I should do it next week?
What do you think? Yes/no?

Today I'm going to relax! Might get a friend over, might go out for a walk in the village, we'll see.
What are your plans?
Have a great Saturday!

Camilla

Make Kony Famous! A movie that touched my heart

2012-03-07T14:10:00.001-08:00

I'm sitting here with tears in my eyes, having an intense urge to write what's going on, so I'm going to start with showing you just what made me so moved :

I know it's a long movie, but I really advise all of you to take a moment of your time and look at it! You can help make a difference!

Jacob tells us about his life, how he is on the run constantly, afraid of living. He saw his own parents get killed, his own brother. He says he rather wants to die than live, seeing he feels he has nothing to live for. He wants to be a lawyer, but the lack of money and oppurtunities in his country is stopping him from fulfilling his dreams. He misses his family. He wanted to be with them, live a life with them. A normal life, getting to play as a child, getting to go to school, not hide, living in fright that every day he will be killed. He has been denied so many things in his life. And he's not the only one. There are over 30 THOUSAND children in Uganda who has been captured, been trained to kill, been trained to harm other people and forced to kill their own parents! This has been going on for over 25 years! And it's all because of one horrible man : Joseph Kony.

This movie encourages everyone in the entire world to make Joseph Kony famous. Not because he deserves to, but because the more the people of the world show that we care, the more the government of the U.S.A will work to stop him! The more we show affection, the more the higher powers of our world we fight! So please watch this video. Make Joseph Kony famous. Join Facebook-sites and sign up at kony2012.com.
Give these children and the children to come their future and their lives back!
We can make a difference! Let's use this oppurtunity to change something in this world to the better!

Camilla

Life is all serious business and no play

2012-03-03T10:18:00.002-08:00

No, not really... :)

I've been spending this week trying to think about nothing! Tried to keep my head off all the seriousness and stress.
I read some of the comments to the article revolving my mom and me on Nettavisen.no. It shocked me so much I just couldn't read any more! So I've been off any internet sites where I know I've been able to read the negative feedback. It saddens me to see so many people judge based on the little they saw of my life on TV. It's crazy to see how much they know and how much they're able to tell me about me and my family's life together since I was a baby! It's weird that they think they do, because honestly, you haven't been there every day and walked by my side since I was 2 years old. You don't know what choices have been taken, what we've tried, how it has been to handle everything. I didn't go on TV to find someone to blame, someone to point and yell at, but to help the people who need it by putting a light to this case.
And I really hope the focus will change so that we can do something positive with this.
... Enough negaitivity!

I got a card from a completely unkown person yesterday, saying she saw me on TV and there were so much positivity and loveliness in the letter that it lifted the rest of that entire day!
My shrink says I'm really good at finding all the negative things and just keeping them in my head, instead of looking at all the things that are positive! So I just want to give a MASSIVE thanks to ALL the supportive people and lovely, warm messages I've been getting! I really do appreciate it, and I think you're all a part of letting me grow a bit more and open myself more to the world! And I can't say thank you enough!
If there's anything I know helps people in need, it's positivity, warmness and love.
You are great!

And so is this :

Cereal with strawberries and blueberries! Yum yum.

And Biffen, my brother's dog! Such a cutie :)

Have a great Saturday, I'm off to more positivity! (At least I'm trying!)

Camilla

Photo.

2012-03-03T09:38:00.000-08:00

I love this weirdo.

Last night's look and events, and a little update of today aswell..

2012-02-24T14:32:00.004-08:00

As some of you might know, I was part of a debate about the problem with overweight children and obesity in general for a while. First of all, this is what I wore :

I got my Hooded Bodysuit and my Sheer Spartans Leggings from Black Milk on Thursday! Yaay!
I decided to wear my Bodysuit to the debate, along with Burned Velvet Leggings from Black Milk.
Shirt is from Chicwish, jacket from b-young, jewelry from Nasty Gal and shoes from Jeffrey Campbell!

Yet again I'm sorry the show is in Norwegian, but it can be seen here :

http://www.nrk.no/nett-tv/klipp/829251/

I must say, before and at the start of the debate, I was quite nervous. I had been thinking a lot about the blogpost of Kari Jaquesson before we went on air, and we went on and I had to tell everyone I felt my mom got attacked. My mom who has been my supporter and endless well of love my entire life, whom I love very much. I do understand that maybe parents need to play a bigger role in helping and changing their life style for an overweight child or a child with growing weight, but blaming people for choices and stories made many years ago, won't do anyone any good. This debate was about finding POSITIVE ways of helping obese children and preventing more children of getting obese, so we won't have to go to the point where we need to put them on the operation table, and change their bodies, simply because there is no other way to save their life. I think it's horrible that someone HAS to take the blame, it's much better to find out what we CAN do to help our children. And yes, it is a sensitive subject, which is yet a bigger reason to actually handle the case with setting up goals and changing now and the future, rather than pointing fingers to find a sinner.

I really hope something good comes out of this, it was a great debate to be part in, and I'm lucky to be a part of such an important case.

After the debate, we got to sleep at Radisson Blu Plaza Hotel! It was a great place, with a bathtub and a huge bed. It was such a great, relaxing ending of a big night. And the sunshine we got in the morning was such a warm welcome to a new day!

This was our bathroom. (Towel warmers, yaaay!)

Such a cozy bed!

Taking a little nap before today's meeting with TOPP.

Good morning! :3

Today, I met up with TOPP - a teenage magazine in Norway. I just have to say that the journalist was great! She was very talkative and nice. She took us to the opera house to take photo's, and I had not been to the opera house yet, so it was great fun! On our way there, we talked about fashion and how much she travelled around to meet different people and celebrities as a part of her job. She was also so nice that she tipped me about a few stores and places I should go to for great clothing treasures (which I appreciated a lot, considering I'm a big Oslo-newb!). I bought a new dress and a pair of shoes :

I catch myself looking for more colours now. Maybe it's because I'm longing for spring and summer! I bought this dress for Monki, it's a bit dark-toned green with white dots and cute strings on the chest!
The shoes are Oxford-styled (I'm sorry you can't see it that well) I've been wanting a pair for a long time, but I don't know just how much I'll use them, I feel so short in them, haha! So I bought the cheapest pair I could find.

We also ate at NamNam! I am a sucker for chinese and thai food. So I had a bowl of spicy noodle soup with beef! It was so yummy. And the portions there are huge as well, so you get a lot of food for the money!

Doesn't it look tasty? Namnam! I shared this with Wouter.

Now I'm finally back in the appartment, ready to take a weekend off!
Have a great weekend everybody.

I'll throw in a picture of my new Sheer Spartans Leggings as a finisher!

Camilla

What a week, and it's not even over

2012-02-22T13:51:00.000-08:00

First of all, I would like to say congratulations to Wouter and myself! (haha, sounds so selfish)
We had our one-year anniversary yesterday :)

I'm finally able to sit down in the sofa and let the feelings calm. This week has been crazy! And it's not even over yet.

I wasn't expecting the case to get as big as it's becoming. For a girl being locked inside her room for a year, taking small steps to get used to the world and the people around her, the attention I'm getting, is massive!

And it's not just good attention, either. I would though, like to say thanks to all the positive feedback I have been getting, from known and uknown! It's incredible to get this sort of support. And I feel honored to be a part of putting light on a cause that is important to Norway in many ways. I was prepared for critics too, I just wasn't aware that this would get so big!

Yesterday, I experienced a very bad case of criticism. One of the leading work-out inspirations on TV, Kari Jaquesson, wrote a blog post about what has been shown on TV. She writes about how my mother has let me down in my childhood. It shocked me, and hurt me, to read all these accusations and negativity directed to my mom, when my mom has been there for me all these years. Trying to find out what to do, trying to go to the hospital for help, to the doctors, trying to help me, when she herself was ill. She did all she could. I read that letting your children be obese was child abuse! How can they think my mom WANTED me to be obese? She tried so hard. And it's easy, when you don't know what our story is, when you don't know our life line, to say that this is wrong and that is wrong, easy to find someone to blame. It's easy to be wise when it has already happened. But that doesn't mean you can change that it actually DID happen. I just think it's so wrong that a person of her status, should choose her words wiser. I'm sure everyone has their thoughts, good or bad, and I'm not saying everyone should make the choice I made, I'm just saying that for me it was the right choice. No matter what anyone says. I would have been dead, if it wasn't for this. I don't know what will happen in the future, but I HAVE a future.

I'm going to rest my thoughts for a bit now, regain strength for tomorrow's debate show with a crossword-magazine and Costume.

Oh, and I would like to end this post with a welcome to our newest family member, Biffen, who joined us today :)

Isn't he just adorable? He's my little brother's dog, they live at home with my mom, but I can still come and steal him for a little while now and then. :)

Good night! At least in a little while :)

Camilla

A day to remember

2012-02-20T14:48:00.003-08:00

I am starting today's post with my outfit since I have no idea how to start it otherwise..

I got this dress in the mail today, it was a present from my boyfriend. I absolutely adore the mint green, and this dress makes me long for spring and summer like a crazy summer-addicted person... Or something.
I matched it with Beetlejuice leggings and a warm cardigan, since it's still too cold for comfort in Norway. I'm also wearing twisted striped socks! Trippy.

So today was an emotional and stressful day filled with experience. The show I was in played on NRK today, and appearantly a few other people heard about it.. So I got woken up by the local newspaper wanting to meet up and have an interview covering my story. I was a bit hesitant considering I had already put myself out on TV, but I decided to go through. The interview went very well and the journalist was polite and gentle. Then I dressed into my new, lovely dress and went off to work. Halfway during the kid's "lunch", I got a phone call from P4, a quite big radio channel in Norway. By then, my heart had started racing. I finished work, went home and the phone call came. Suddenly I was on the radio, too. It felt so weird. But also relieving.
The second it was done, I called my dad. I knew he usually goes home from work around that time, and that he listens to that radio channel. I don't really talk to him that much, but I just wanted to know if he listened to it.. So I called him, and he picked up. And he was crying. I heard it the second he opened his mouth, and my tears just bursted out. It was so emotional. We talked a bit, managed to dry up and then I expected my mom and grandma to come so we could all gather up and watch the show together.
And by the time it was on, we were all switching between crying and laughing. Crying because it's a hard story for us all. A story that hasn't just shaped me, but my mother and my grandma throughout many years. And laughing, simply because my mom's new hallway hasn't been painted and looks completely off, and because I looked hilarious jumping on and off that horse's back!

I'm sorry the episode is in norwegian, but you can see it here:
http://www.nrk.no/nett-tv/klipp/828283/

I don't know what else to write, it's been a tireing day, but I'm happy I've done what I've done.
I'm happy I took the choices I took. And I know that a lot of people think that what I've done, what I decided to with my body, might be wrong.. But to me, getting this operation was the saviour of my life. I had no life before I got this chance. I got my life back, an opportunity to build it back and to take the chances I never got to take. For me, this was the only decision. It was this or nothing.
Thank you....

And sorry about the messy post!
Camilla

Busy week.

2012-02-19T14:17:00.000-08:00

So today I got to see an intro of the show I will be in tomorrow. I can't tell yet about how I feel about quite an amount of people seeing me on TV. It'd s quite an experience. A huge step in my life. A good step for me, and maybe a light in the darkness for others. You can see the intro >here<.

Here I am with the beautiful Tellus, which will also be present on the show tomorrow. He was just so incredibly nice and friendly. He was a bit stubborn, but that's probably because he felt that I was nervous!

Valentine's Day was this week. We celebrated it by going to the gym! I know, real romantic, right? But they finally started up a gym where I live, and even though my social phobia is giving me such a hard time with it, I enjoy working out, so I'm just telling my mind no. I've got to do this. So I did it, I finally started up after a long break! And it feels great.
We also celebrated by Wouter taking me out on a lovely dinner. He dressed up in a shirt and a tie, and me in a dress. We had 2 courses, wine and ourselves. It was so lovely.
He also gave me this wonderful ring from Nasty Gal, that I absolutely love! I tell the kids at school I can tell them their future. Of course they don't belive me. I also tell them that pink bears with green bow ties exist and go to picnics though, so I guess the question of trust there isn't that weird.

So I've been having a bit of trouble blogging and posting looks on Lookbook.nu, as there is a lot going on, both mentally and physacilly. I really want to get into a routine of going to the gym, and I can tell I'm quite out of shape, so I'm getting tired because of that. My mind also likes screwing around these days, I don't know if it's a lack of vitamins or just a minor setback. I've got a lot of worries and a lot of grudge about all the things I miss out on. And I feel guitly for not appreciating the things I am experiencing. Those days where I get burried under thoughts, I can't really focus about progress. My goal then is to stay more or less on the same line. And to keep my head up..

Im putting in a photo of my Purple Galaxies, since I wore them today! They're just so shiny...

These babies makes me feel happy. I just want to look at them forever.

Tomorrow I'm trying Yoga.Totally random fact to end this blogpost. Wish me luck!
xx
Camilla

Love

2012-02-14T16:01:00.000-08:00

He is my light.

Isn't he doing the cutest pose? Haha.

xxx
Camilla

Fridaaaaay! I'm on a horse.

2012-02-10T07:19:00.000-08:00

So I'm finally back home in my appartment after staying at my mom's house being ill for a week!

It's good to be back home, even though I miss my little kitty.

Isn't she cute? Haha. She always goes with me to the bathroom!

So today I rode a horse for the first time in my life. I mentioned before that I'm going to be in a show called Puls, and today they brought me horse riding! They said since I've never done it before, it's a great way for me to experience something new and for others to see how my life quality has improved. I really wish I had photos, but hopefully it'll be posted online aswell as shown on the TV, so I can link it here for others to laugh at my amazing horse riding skills! It was so cozy, I got the nicest horse. His name was Tellus. I got to massage and pat him and put on some of the equipment before I actually took him for a ride! I absolutely loved the experience, and I'll keep it with me for a life time.

Yesterday a really close friend of mine came by to eat some take-out chinese food!

(I'm going to throw in a photo to make you all jealous)

Mmm, nomnomnom! And yes, loooaads of food! Portions there are huge!
I've been spending a lot of time with my friend lately, we've known each other since we started school. It's nice, because she's been there most of my childhood and she sort of understands or can at least listen to what I say without it being awkward, because she knows I just need to get it out. I really appreciate it.
She's also a major wierdo that makes me laugh, and I love that :)

So I recieved this shirt-dress in the mail two days ago, and I absolutely love it. It has such a cool cut-out in the front, which makes it look a bit rough. It also has a cut-out in the back, but I had to wear a jacket over it, since the cold is horrible!

The dress is from Gina Tricot. I love some of the recent stuff Gina Tricot has been having. They've had a few basic things with a little detail to make it perfect to match with everything without being too much. They've got some really cool jewelry, too! If only I was rich, eh.
Anyways, I paired it with a jacket I bought at b-young a while ago, and my Leg Bones Leggings from Black Milk. I didn't wear any extra jewelry, as I had to tuck myself in under layers of clothes to ride a horse and I didn't feel like getting stuck everywhere. I do have sparkly, black nail polish, though :)

I feel like this blog post was very organized... Or not. I'm deffinately for the weekend!
Have a great weekend, everybody!
xx

Camilla

Depression

2012-02-08T05:21:00.000-08:00

It's days like these I really wish someone could just walk right into my head and remove the thoughts it contains.
I've had the flu for about a week now. An eternity in my mind. An eternity of thoughts.
I feel so stuck. And lonely, nonetheless. I wish I had someone that would come to me, listen to every thought I had and actually understand them without feeling offended, sad or scared. That's usually the problem when I try to talk to someone. And that makes me feel so trapped. I don't want them to worry, but it's so tireing to keep it all in.

I haven't been to my shrink for a while now. And she wants to sign me out, she thinks I don't need it anymore. I think she's wrong. I'm not saying I'm not better than I was. I'm not saying I don't have many happy and good days free of worry, sadness and an overload of negative thoughts. But they're still there. And when they come, I feel like a zombie. I don't laugh and I don't smile. I don't want to do anything. It's like nothing is worth anything.
And I feel small. I feel like I can't handle anything in life, like I haven't grown enough to take part in what I should take part in. It's like I'm empty, at the same time as I'm filled with all these thoughts I can't control..
And when days like this come, I have no idea how to get out of them...

This is a photo I took for a school project when I went to Media. It was taken at the last part of school, when I never showed up anymore because the social interraction was too much for me to handle. And I felt it explained my situation then, as it explains today.
"There is a big, bright world out there for me to explore, but the darkness and shadows of the past doesn't allow me to see it."

Camilla