I Wish I Was A Rampaging Queen

Umbra Of Your Soul

2016-10-24T02:58:00.000-07:00

I am the shadow in your light
The deepest dark of you
While you shine as bright
As the morning sun
I radiate in the umbra
Of your soul

Copyright © Allene Angelica 2016

I Must Remember

2016-10-23T05:14:00.002-07:00

Of all the things
I must remember
When memory
Fails me
And my veined flesh
Is parchment thin

It's the sensations

I close my eyes
And reminisce

His touch
A cool
Gentle breeze
Caressing
My heated skin

While beneath
His stony exterior
So hard to tell
An inferno simmers
Near boiling
Into the fire
I fell
Fell
Fell

Copyright © Allene Angelica 2016

Hopeless

2016-09-10T17:30:00.001-07:00

My desires
Have taken me
Twenty years past
To my annihilation
My blood screams
For fulfilment
Eyes have grown
Weary
With intensity
The taste
Of salt
On my lips
I can never claim
My youth
It's gone
And I'm hopeless

Copyright © Allene Angelica 2016

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Empty Shell

2016-07-17T22:50:00.001-07:00

Inhumed within
A sadness

Living dead

Consumed
By anger

Years
In the making

Everyday
I look out

A reminder
To never be
Swallowed by
That emptiness

Copyright © Allene Angelica 2016

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Jade

2016-07-12T01:49:00.001-07:00

I've stepped
Out of the shade

Jaded

Memories take
A lifetime to fade

Jaded

I've a new name
Jade

And I've been
Reborn

Jaded

Copyright © Allene Angelica 2016

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Cuttlefish Ink

2016-05-03T23:54:00.002-07:00

Abandoned
In the coldest way
I've spoken to sunshines
And merries
With sparkles
Trailing behind
To their birth

I'm open
To their ignorance
Of dark streets
And matter
How the winter seeps
Into the bones
The darkness
A treasured friend
That slips through
Frosty fingers
To come
Face to face
With a bitter enemy
In harsh light
Harsh
Harsh
Bright light
Even
Rose colored lenses
Can't obscure

I appreciate
The sunshines
The merries
And their sparkles
But they will
Never know
Could they?

My world in

Cuttlefish ink

The delicious beauty
Of cold sidewalks
Yellow street lamps
Empty avenues
Discarded litter
The sleeping homes
Devoid of life
Snoring away
While I walk
Walk

Walk
Into the night

Copyright © Allene Angelica 2016

Only Strangers Can Hear

2016-05-03T04:41:00.001-07:00

I hate watching
Sad movies
I think because
For all the times
I held it together
For all the times
I didn't shed a tear
All the times
I stayed strong
And hid all my fears

It explodes
In the dark
The giant screen
Witnessing my shame
I always try
To make sure that
No one is near
When it starts

My two hour gushing
Waterfall of pain

I'm truly thankful

I am

That only strangers
Can hear the rain

Copyright © Allene Angelica 2016

Break My Nighttime Fast

2016-04-18T15:52:00.000-07:00

I feel your coldness
Creeping
Through my ears
Snaking
Down my spine
Playing havoc
In my heart
Trampolining
Between the left
And right ventricles

I know
It's all me
My fear of loss
My fear of things
I can't name
Or put to paper
Hemorrhaging
Insecurities
Dripping slowly
Towards my bowels

The only light I see
Is when the sun rises
To a new dawn
The dark
Has dispelled
Its sinister hold
And I break
My nighttime fast
With a sip of
Hot steamy
Daily affirmations
I can then flush
The negative
Excrement
That has no place
No business
Inside my thoughts
My body
My words

Copyright © Allene Angelica 2016

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Bear and Bare

2016-04-11T02:36:00.000-07:00

So I was told today
Not for the first time
That they like ash

"Ash?" I asked

Yes, ash and smoke
They love smoke
They will bear fruit
If you light a fire
Beneath them

I thought
Yes, I can see that
I'd probably
Bare all too
If you lit a fire
Beneath me

Poor coconuts

Copyright © Allene Angelica 2016

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Feral and Unrestrained

2016-04-04T22:52:00.000-07:00

A wildness
Surrounded her
A fury
Uncontrolled
Medusa released
In violent ferocity

But a sweetness
Still flows

It's been a few weeks
Since the taming
Falls of silk
At each touch
Of her hand
Angelic softness
Shines
In each passing
Glance

But it's still there
The wilding
Feral
And savagely
Unrestrained

Though
She tries hard
To conceal it
In her eyes
It shows

Copyright © Allene Angelica 2016

Anyway

2016-03-27T05:16:00.001-07:00

He touched me
In my most befouled
Caressed my ugliness
And kissed me
Anyway
It must be love

Copyright © Allene Angelica 2016

View from the Cebu International Golf and Resort, Cebu, Philippines

2016-02-21T08:08:00.001-08:00

Taken at Panagsama, Moalboal, Cebu, Philippines

2016-02-21T07:06:00.001-08:00

Extra Fine Blue

2016-02-19T04:40:00.003-08:00

I've disappeared

Misty vapors

Into my day to day

Existence

Sporadically

Flickering

Towards reality

Animated

My mind

A blank canvas

With knotted

Imperfections

Occasionally

Painted with

Extra fine blue

0.38

Sometimes

With the light fingers

Of consciousness

But there are times

When the hand

Is heavy with lunacy

Piercing through

Gut wrenching

Thoughts

Wavering

On the line

Between

Inner and outer

Characters

Internally

Craving solitude

Outwardly

An outgoing

Life force

Conflicted

I am

Quite comfortable

In my own skin

But is my skin

Comfortable with me?

The Tsinilas

2016-02-09T08:38:00.003-08:00

The motorbikes go

Vrrrrm, vrrrrrmm, vrrrrrrmmm

Behind me, loud fumes

Reach my nostrils, my ears

The constant blaring

Of horns, so normal

Oh so normal here

Like the sun, the sweat

The tsinilas

1 AM Run

2016-02-06T09:08:00.000-08:00

Fluorescent light

My reassurance

Shines down on me

Through leaves

Disgracefully

Flirting

With the bats

That flit

Above my head

I'm fascinated

By what I can't see

I've missed the bus

I wait to catch

The 1 am run

To the badlands

While

A love song plays

In the background

That's all they ever

Play here

Exhausted

And aching

I fantasize of

My cold bed

Instead yellow

Plastic chairs

Cut into my ribs

My bony wrist

Pretending

To be a pillow

I hear my blood

Pumping loudly in my ears

I'm surrounded

By curiosity

I can see

The question marks

In bright neon

Blinking on and off

On their foreheads

Watching me

As I

Watch them

Raspberries and Drupes

2016-01-27T12:40:00.002-08:00

She made her way

Unseen

Plain vanilla

On the rockiest road

Chocolate chips

Staring in the distance

At the sherbet sky

Shuffling steps

Unrehearsed

Heel toeing their way

Through marshy pitfalls

And nutty aggravations

Her peach tinted lips

Mouthing words

To a song

Unheard

Inside

Unknown

She glittered

With swirls

Of raspberries

And drupes

Pretty In Pink

2015-12-15T09:24:00.001-08:00

Gnarled

2015-12-13T03:11:00.003-08:00

Limbs stretched wide

Shielding and protecting

I sit beneath

Happily content

Knowing

You are there

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Blues I Don't Mind Havin'

2015-12-11T19:00:00.002-08:00

The News

2015-12-10T16:35:00.002-08:00

The dark

Seductively called her name

She welcomed its comfort

With opened arms

He's dead

In the cold

Dank blackness

Of her mind

The news

Collapsed

Like a heavy stone

Spiraling down

Into grey gloppy matter

Leaving both

The sensations

Of devastation

And elation

She huddled

Fetal position

Face buried amid

Elbows and knees

Hands spotless

She was pleased

Wild eyes

Staring through

Inky skies

Sparkled with

Starry hope

She didn't have

To tie the rope

Between them

The dropped shoe

They both knew

Vengeance

Was due

The corners

Of her bow shaped lips

Twitched

Into a feral grin

Tonight

She will celebrate

With her old friends

Tonic and Gin

He's dead

Good Morning Sunshine

2015-12-10T02:33:00.001-08:00

Moringa Oleifera

2015-12-08T15:43:00.001-08:00

This is the moringa oleifera or what the locals in PI call kamunggay or malunggay. Most everyone grows this wonderful tree in their yard. Though delicate and fragile looking they are packed with vitamins, minerals and antioxidants, it's considered a superfood. They add the tiny green leaves to soups, omelettes, spaghetti as well as other dishes. They are delicious! The pods that grow from the trees are also edible, the first year's growth but subsequent growths become bitter over time. I haven't had the pleasure of trying the pods yet but I will eventually. Yummy stuff!

Nature's Columns

2015-12-08T09:06:00.001-08:00

Island Sunset

2015-12-05T09:51:00.004-08:00

I kneel

In reverence

Savoring the last

Of your golden touch

Before the moon

Caresses me

With her

Incandescence