if i just lay here

Keadaan Semasa

2013-01-17T16:29:00.001+08:00

hey-ho dont wanna be low..*it rhymes?
hihi it's thursday! I've actually gone through a few marathons in the last couple of weeks. Marathon yang ada makna lain. lol ONE>>>> It started with cerita ted, robin, marshall, lily n Barney....which is? tolonglah tahu, semua org tabu kott.. To be honest, i cant really remember why on earth did i watched that Episode 1. Sebab I just hate it when it becomes a thing that EVERYONE asyik talked about and it just makes me bored listening about them. and so, the story began. tgkla episode 1. pastu moved on to episode 2, and then the next ,next and next! it was friggin hilarious! but, personally, i think banyak sangat unsur2 yang PG13 kot dalam tu. and agak kotor. what to do. cerita org puteh. gaya org puteh la. so, I wonder, what would that impact on me? well, of all the things, i like that it's funny. and it MAY help in your social skills. like how to talk to people, how you would have responded to them, how you would not do something that's beyond the "bro-code". really? anyhoots, tu antara things that i realized after watching those stories. but who the ted's wife is killing me man! hahaha TWO>>> grey's anatomy! cerita ni laaagi lama! tgk since form4, n berapa kali lompat ntah. tpi currently, i picked up some important parts. again, the cons are semuanya dirty. xde benda lain ke nak tunjuk? haha but, hey ! always look on the bright side. it reminds us alot in how much dramaa there is. which we always nak avoid tpi we cant really. maybe, we need to know how to channel all those drama into something that is worthwhile. plus, we get to see cute doctors in the ER and OR! THREE>>> downton abbey! Ive always NOT understand every single word that they say in this drama. cepat sangat english-nya! dahla takada subtitle english nor BM. huhuh.so, guna instinct jer untuk faham. ceerita ni best cuz it was actually one of my motivations to come to UK. when i was still in my degree programme, i use to watch the episodes of season 1 all over again. just to be able to get that accent right! u know, the brit-accent. haha mmg dri dulu lgi, aku asyik perasan boleh tiru gaya org lain ckp. it just seem like a fun thing to do. haha hmm, okay i should really stop now.

among all blogs , i chose u.

2013-01-14T10:21:00.002+08:00

assalamualaikum wbt... This is one of the blogs that I had. And all I can say is that, the idea to return to write a new post was just cause I am plain bored. I just finished marathon-ing drama series, movies , youtube channels, and what not. Oh well, don't get me wrong though. I'm on Vacation! well, it's winter break. yes, i repeat. it's "winter break". kalau kat me homeland, i could not care less of what season it is. all year round SUMMER n raining! hehe Okay, since I have always been syok sendri tulis blog pun, I recently am in negara org putih.and still student. and so, the term defines itself. hmm, oh yeah, i also went through some of the "timeline" for the blogs and some of my friends are still active in this blog-ing. weeehuu.. I'll surely write more. but, mark my words dear ladies and lads, LOL, this ain't gonna be consistent. might be over- tulis blog pulak nnt. THAT, can be taken care of later. perhaps.or not. okay, #snowingeffectyangsuruhsayablogmalam2camnikot. wasalam. :))

changing

2010-11-16T17:35:00.001+08:00

heyy..i'm not using this site since the past two days, so , whoever is following me, obviously or anonymously, keep noted eh? hehe

till then.

toodles.

*hugs*

cepat

2010-09-14T00:56:00.000+08:00

get it right!

end

2010-09-09T01:39:00.003+08:00

1 "y did she cried n got so emo"

2 "ramadhan is ending soon"

1 "oh..i guess" tp,perlu ke emo mcm tu skali?"

2 "itulah,those who have a higher level of iman, they know and realised that, how
small we are.mereka takut tak sempat sampai ke ramadhan tahun hadapan"

1 " oh ic..now i get it. i've heard this before.mcm mne lah kita ni"

2 " awk, xsdih ke?"

1 " sedihla jugak. tak gemar sgt org emo mcm tu. because, it made wanna cry to. (dlm
hati: idk,i'm just glad u are still here.that alone, is enough for me"

above was a conversation between a couple of relatives.
hum,i dun know what to say.
i really am not myself anymore.
sometimes, there's that greeen creature staying inside of me. have u heard the story of the scientists who became a monster?
well, THAT!

that's all to this post.

p/s: im thinking of terminating my blog sooner or later.coz it consumes my daily time and sometimes i got swayed away with fb, rather than blogging.
HUH!

tapi, still it's merre decision heh,not tum ko kise.hehe

misses

2010-09-06T02:05:00.002+08:00

salam.look, it's this picture again.ohh, i so miss school life.
n i noticed, i didn't have much pix during that time? what was i so busy doing huh?

hmmm....
time after time.

sabar n ikhlas

2010-09-05T06:06:00.001+08:00

salam

"sabar dan ikhlas" huhu..i got it from some movie.
hum, ckp senang la.but can we reallly do it? can i really do it?
it's very hard for me to say and do..
i know the rules, the borders and th elimits, but still i do it. it comes from the many manyyears of living. it didn't just happened yesterday, that i could simply forget and turn on a new leaf..
huhu, but ALLAH MAHA PENGAMPUN, so as hamba-NYA, i should be more willing to do anything..huhu
i know im not perfect, but i;ll try to do the same thing.
but, strong forces nak kena get rid off..wuhh! i actually have no idea pon on HOW?

hum, im just glad that sanity is still with me.

syukur.

taa

u see im better and faster

2010-09-04T06:10:00.002+08:00

DAY 1 starts!

u see....
today;s post is given the title of u see..
it's one of y-u-n-a's songs..
hehe
"smethng super"

hmm, today also, ill just would like to say, if i have the time, i'll stat to write from day 1.yehaaa...
erm, first and foremost, i HAVE tonnesof homeworks and up-coming tests! will i be able to cover everything by rays ends?
hum, i guesss so....cuti 2 minggu kot!!
heeh

n the lucky thing is that,i won;t be bak for raya. ( well, i hope so, of course)
bolehla siapkan kerje n all.

okaylah, gtg.

new day 4 meee
weee
alhmdulillah..

p/s, mailah gunakan msa yg ada lgi, dlm ramadhan ni..huhu
sdeynye, nk habes dahh...
aw...i think i havent done much yet..
masa mmg mencemburui aku ni kan? :((

u see

2010-08-30T00:17:00.002+08:00

salam...hullo!
okay, this might be a very short post...
it's about cabaran yesterday, well, i managed to digg in some out of myself..oh thank god.
but then, i'm worried "dia" might loose control...awww...man, i seriously do not what to do...
YA, pls help me..
ya rabbal alamin...

okay that's it,
sleep tight burberryna!

P/s : if u who's reading this do not understand, it's okay, don;t panic.. i lik eto write out many MANY and MANY of subtle things..only close peeps digg it.. hihi
dun feel left out..haha..
:))

ily mm

sleep

2010-08-29T16:29:00.002+08:00

salam..hullo

sleeping for a long long time time is very tiring.
that's what i did today..i don;t what's got into me..
haha..but, now( after quite awhile), i feel more energetic..boleh la tolong2 mana yang patut..
but, seriously, i haven;t touch a single book yet..
o'oh.. yikes.
ada test hari khamis nih, will study during merdeka day , i supposed.
huhu

hmm, okay here's the thing, smlm i contacted a senior of mine, aww, die ni mmg dr dulu mcm one of my inspirations jugak la..hehe.kind of like an all rounder jugak.we've only met once but, still maintain contacted after my school days has past. alhamdulillah, i did'nt thought i could meet peeps like that. die ada lh bgtaw pasl cuti summer die baru2 ni, how sad was i to hr tht..it's similar to mine, but not that visible enough.
kit touch yeah FH

dia punya kisah agak sedih jugakla, but maybe that's because dia jauh dari rumah, so, xdapat tgk what's happening in Malaysia.
so, the point is, since i have the facilities and all the time and also the distance does not envy me, all i need is just to maintain my studies and the situation, RIGHT?
haha,well, it's essy to say , but nobody knows what's going on inside the cardiomorphic area of ours..hanya DIA yg MAHU MENGETAHUI.

urr, i hope i could be someone i'm not..which is a better person..

till then

cabaran

2010-08-28T09:59:00.002+08:00

salam...hullo.

i'm finally at home.
i've kind of wasted my time this morning, coz i was stucked to the laptop since after sahur..
i'm sorry i got carried away.hehe

i just re-vamped my blog, if u noticed, i changed the song too.
thanks to one of my friends' blog, i found this awesome song from opick.
yey...
thanks ipah n sumi, i saw this link from you guys punye blog.
i didn't know there is such a link.
so, to htose yg nk cri lagu2 mcm ni, just click the link yg ade blinking bars tu.

hmm, i'm very sad to hear this song....
i really hope to be a better person, i mean im human. not an angel.
im sorry pops, i didn't mean to hurt ur feelings this morning, but, it's just ur way of treating me is so different than any other person in this whole wide world. it's not that i do not care for you, it;s just, it's very hard.i hope i can accept u, just as u could have accepted me in the past 20 yrs of my living.
huhu

n dearest mmy n nee, i'll try hard to change myself. i know...you've told me like a zillion times... all i can say is i'll try as hard as u guys did..

ya rabbi, izinkanlahh aku kembali kpd-Mu

weyyy

2010-08-26T03:53:00.002+08:00

JB fever...bieber fever..her-her-her

dah

2010-08-26T03:47:00.001+08:00

wehh penat...
i have got class at 8am tomorrow! yikes!!!
huhu..
at least im done picasa-ing..
ntah lawa ke x, i dun care :P

in the midst of the melati air

2010-08-26T01:39:00.002+08:00

hai,,,salam.. :)
ehm, so, people, did you missed me? teehee :)yeah, i thought so.
i have not been around much.. honestly, i haven;t been around much around people too.
im having this situation or u may noe it as "having a complicated relationship-mcm dlm fb"...huhu

im not used to NOT being around crowwds and being loud, but, all of sudden i had to do this thing, which now has already turned into a lifestyle of mine due to some cicumstances. it made me realise the value of living better.
im so not me anymore..( except for the sleeping beauty part) bahahah..
it;s just that, i think im developing this skill or shall i say a new idea into my life..well, who doesnt want to become a better person, right?

hurm, anyhoots, i don't know how much longer will i be blogging here, it really sort of depends on my mood and the eagerness of me to write this piece of art.

as for now, i just hope dia okay. i cant live without you...
and, FYI, my holiday starts on the 4th...
will be spending more time dgn dia....
oh, my...
harap2lah, dpt tlg serba sedikit..

lastly, i'll continue in the next post.

tata :)

dumbo jumbo

2010-06-03T23:41:00.002+08:00

it's very irritating..
this thing isnt gonna work out for me..
till then
eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

4get

2010-06-03T19:03:00.002+08:00

hullo
im sort of into nerdy looks now..
gary n the polismn in 3dd n 1 mmy tu bestt
haha
chris martn xperlu ckp a..
but, single is ready to mingle..LOl

new to it...

2010-06-03T16:25:00.000+08:00

formspring me? sape rase nk tnye, add me there..

mcQ

timun

2010-06-03T15:30:00.002+08:00

lookkk..comel gle gmbr ni.
the guy thinks the baby is his, smpai kate baby, u'r cute like me ( the guy)

hhahaha...xsangke it'll be this funny funny!! wawawa

bodoh punye website

2010-06-02T12:37:00.001+08:00

aaaa..i logged on to fb for just three freaking minutes! damn...kenape irresistable sgt niii..
ok fine, u must be tough aer! kena juga offf!!!
aaaaaa
i hate u..
lol

imy

2010-06-01T18:38:00.002+08:00

hey loo..
i haf missed u so much mere blog heh..hehe...
but, id like to say i haf another 3 bloody weeks je lagi b4 a new semester begins, danggg :P
erm, n i have finally deactivated my facebk account. its driving me kinda crazy just going online every single day of my holiday for that not so illogical thing to do..
plus, i had once tried to add people randomly due to the boredom of fb-ing.
gosh, i need to tweet or blog or just surf the net once in awhile...
hee

till then..

now la..

2010-06-01T00:12:00.001+08:00

okay, fyi, im already sleepy but i just had to post it out.
im going to go tomorrow, hope everything runs smoothly.insyaAllah :)
doakan kesejahteraan kamii..
cant say it out loud..or ill be in tears.huhu

i found this picture..ohhh

2010-06-01T00:09:00.002+08:00

cumel kn? mien, afy, aer n mar..aww
miss u guys loads
xoxo

proses nak jadi budak uitm

2009-12-30T18:46:00.001+08:00

assalamualaikum...
it was registration day. 29th december 09.the night before the so-called big day, i had promised a friend to go with me together.but, suddenly, she said her parents can't come and send her to my house.aww.then, we figured , it's okay, we'll just see each other tomorrow.huhu.xpe kesah pon.

okay, on that day, i went with me mama.we depart from home at 7.30am-ish. yeah, sangat awal! huhu
but, heck, it's a one hour journey okayy! and look who's driving? me?
haha..mmg la kan..whatever.

and guess what, we arrived at nearly 9am.the registration wasn't even fully set-up ponn.haha( as expected of course) :P
so, lpas parking kereta and all, jalan2 sikit npk khairiyah.hehe
was glad of course found a puncak-ian over there.others were all foundation students , isupposed. the girls looked okay, some look old and some look cheeky.haha
the guys, ehem2, some are good looking and some are childish like hell.haha.kalau hot, hot jugee.haha,can't deny that. ohh, i wish kan best kalau ade guys like that in my batch.haha( NOT) or else menggatal je. LOL
better cari other faculty punye students.har3

anyways, first i went into this room, kasi borang n etc, pastuh, isi la borg.pak cik kat kaunter tu ckp " lepas ni, pergi ambil gmbar yer".
i pon said," ok".
tapi, i was wondering why are there so many ppl amek files and all? haha..i biar je la.i pergi keluar bilik tuh.haha

then, kua2, tgk2 kena amek file2 tuh n baju batik.
hoho..so, masuk la balek. n mind u, xsystematic kot flow diorg.haha
tp, xkesah janji dpt lepas jd dak degree.LOL

lepas kua bilik tu, baru gi ambik gambar for my matrix card.hehe
i took the first lane.hee..
npk cm xramai org pun.
pastu, since i went alone, i had no one to comment on how my tudung looked like? ( macam" ok tak tudung i)
argh, saat tu agak memalukan sikit.hehe
i just had to take out my compact mirror.hee
nak check myself.yelahh,,i'm going to wear that matrix card for another LONG 2 an d a half years kot!!

hehe
so, dgn selambe check la. WHy was i quite ashamed? sbb dpan i, 3 guys were sitting and chatting,haha
they look good btw.haha
tp , again sdey, xde org nk gossip2.(yelah, that's what girls do kann)

em, then dah amek card kat another counter, i pon exit that building. and nak balek dah.
pastu, i ckp kat me mama, "ma, i want to go to melati first.boley x?" my mom pon ok je..she said, nk pergi mne2 pergi la, mama ikut jer.hehe ( btw, my dad xikot, wOH, alhmdlh :P)
hahahaha..klo tdak keadaan laen sket, cuz he'll be driving the car not me! urghh

okay, mse kt that college, i asked the ppl over there, how can i apply 4 a college? nak bt rayuan cmne kan? since it stated that kemudahn xdisediakn.huhu
so after AWHILE WAITING, lpas the people over there talked and made a few calls, they came with a respond.one of them said, mmg disediakn kolej utk ur batch, dak2 accounts.hoho.
i was actually stunned!! yelah, rumours yg kate xdpt kolej tu xbetol lah.huhu

so, i dpat taw i troz msg one of my friend. imintak tlg die forward msg to my housemates.hehe
alahamdulillah ssume dapat kolej dah sekarang.hee
tpi cume aisyah nazu je blom cuz she's in UK.hee
tp xpe, i think buley lagi.hehe. sbb org kolej kate 100 belas belas mmg provided utk kitorg.HAH!

i was again terkejut! lol
and happy la.hehe

p/s: to those yg nk apply better pergi cepat2, sekarang. mmg ade la katenyer. insyaAllah kalau ada rezeki.

ok, that's all i guess.
lpas abes daftar, i balek rumah and tlg tengk me mama kemas2 rumah.hehehehe..yela, i dont noe how to sangat.she does though.

all in all, daftar tu best la.i get to do things i want to.hehe
xperlu nk tggu my dad hantar sume.yey!! i feel guilty when someone is waiting for me. huhu..( i wonder why some ppl xkesah biar org laen tggu for them) huk3 tp, emergency xpe laa..klo sllu ,haihh ,nk kena ar!! haha..

that's all for that big day.
and sorry no pics.was busy. forgot to ask me mama to take.hehe..camera dlm my bag.kakakaa

all rainbow has its ends

2009-12-27T16:41:00.000+08:00

salam wbt..

i just wanted to thank everyone who has been with me for all the emotional commotion.hehe
since, today is already the 10th of Muharram, i better put my new resolutions straight.
one of them is to succeed. insyaAllah.
as you know, i'm going to start a new semester ahead of me.and this time, i'll start from the beginning! woohoo! all the pointers and grades are left behind.what's left is just me and my hope-to-be new way of thinking!
i'll be like a new born baby( literally, of course) :P
so, really need to focus and all. plus, there's a long way to go!
if let say, i break down again! i need your support.
i don't mean only academically here, guys but also in EVERYthiNG.insyaAllah.

so, although i'm down now, it doesnt me im always going to be like that, would i?
( anndd, if god's will, i'll WILL TRY to use all of your advices)

p/s: i pray for everyone to succeed.if u're in the same situation like me, do tell. we can talk about it.maybe get some coffee 2gether? LOL
n to those who have already fly fly away and will be flying away , keep in touch and don;t forget being YOUrself overthere. or better, improve yourself :)
hehehe

as to finish this emo-piece-of-note, i would like to say.thanks fr being my friend.
if E= lovely,
lovely= friend,
then, E=friend.get it?

yes i admit!

2009-12-23T22:24:00.002+08:00

yes, totally! i admit of missing my mom n dad.huhu.well, they've been there for awhile now, and i haven't even started cleaning and re-arranging the house( which i was supposed to do, of course)
well, i did DO SOME, but THAT was in the first 2 weeks.haha.now, it's a mess.thank goodness, my brother just vaccuumed the living room downstairs just now.hehe.i guess i ought to do the same thing.tomorrow will be a new start for me. i hope i wake up early so i could turn my plans into reality! it's that time of the month where i feel the cravings! hehe
and, due to this anxiety of mine, i guess, i'll treat myself with an ice cream.let's just see how it's going to turn out, shall we?

and also, take some photos as evidence.
oh that'll be just sweeeet!
<3

till then.
p/s: i hope i get the house ready in time for them to get back!
sparkling kleeeeen :)