tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-80145723751560807902012-02-08T21:30:06.196+05:30my thoughts .. my dreams .. my own self .. this is everything about me ...johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13799239873118258217noreply@blogger.comBlogger9125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8014572375156080790.post-92050555713219255232011-07-02T11:33:00.000+05:302011-07-02T11:33:52.455+05:302011-07-02T11:33:52.455+05:30These weren't feelings of&nbsp;loneliness,<br /> these were feelings of lust,<br /> of the devil within, who<br /> lurks in the darkness beneath ..<br /> <br /> I did wish to love ...<br /> But No .. I can't, I'm the fallen angel..<br /> The angel of mayhem..<br /> <br /> No one said hallo then .,<br /> they said hail sin , hail death, hail pain ..<br /> <br /> And i grieved in the darkness..<br /> laughing at the Gods ..<br /> basking in filth .. your own little hell<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8014572375156080790-9205055571321925523?l=lijinjohn.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div> <p><a href="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/VFXXwZgzw5IGG8XwaXc1Kol7q5M/0/da"><img src="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/VFXXwZgzw5IGG8XwaXc1Kol7q5M/0/di" border="0" ismap="true"></img></a><br/> <a href="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/VFXXwZgzw5IGG8XwaXc1Kol7q5M/1/da"><img src="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/VFXXwZgzw5IGG8XwaXc1Kol7q5M/1/di" border="0" ismap="true"></img></a></p><img src="http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/IfOnlyWordsWereEnoughToExpressAMansHeart/~4/ux7c1kIxgcM" height="1" width="1"/>johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13799239873118258217noreply@blogger.com0http://lijinjohn.blogspot.com/2011/07/ganja-halucination.htmltag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8014572375156080790.post-28017486080206552702010-05-01T12:51:00.000+05:302010-05-01T12:51:37.678+05:302010-05-01T12:51:37.678+05:30<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_2U4ZU0RL88M/S9vWagdGThI/AAAAAAAAAJU/WD7AqGceoek/s1600/104189512_b61a4d2974.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_2U4ZU0RL88M/S9vWagdGThI/AAAAAAAAAJU/WD7AqGceoek/s320/104189512_b61a4d2974.jpg" /></a></div><br /> <br /> <br /> Its all over .. those dreams , those laughs, that feeling of being in love. Its all over ..<br /> And finally life has come to a stand still.<br /> <br /> Goodbye came as a surprise .. It felt so incomplete, so not right.<br /> This heart was hurt .. But inevitable was my love for you.<br /> I stood by your side , held your hand, cried with you and .... Look at me know i'm Dead in your arms.<br /> <br /> I miss your smile, i miss your lies, i miss you betraying me each and every moment.<br /> But still . i just took it all. Hoping you'll love me someday.<br /> <br /> And here i am .. Alone and shattered.<br /> ... still hoping to see you someday ..<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8014572375156080790-2801748608020655270?l=lijinjohn.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div> <p><a href="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/sY19zUeiphKjVJS3M1QHHKyyL9Y/0/da"><img src="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/sY19zUeiphKjVJS3M1QHHKyyL9Y/0/di" border="0" ismap="true"></img></a><br/> <a href="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/sY19zUeiphKjVJS3M1QHHKyyL9Y/1/da"><img src="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/sY19zUeiphKjVJS3M1QHHKyyL9Y/1/di" border="0" ismap="true"></img></a></p><img src="http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/IfOnlyWordsWereEnoughToExpressAMansHeart/~4/qOJidATW1x4" height="1" width="1"/>johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13799239873118258217noreply@blogger.com0http://lijinjohn.blogspot.com/2010/05/its-all-over.htmltag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8014572375156080790.post-31542585022168490752009-12-09T16:04:00.003+05:302011-06-17T16:19:20.072+05:302011-06-17T16:19:20.072+05:30<a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_2U4ZU0RL88M/Sx986AsCZjI/AAAAAAAAAIM/gdM1w5zdi1c/s1600-h/moonrise.jpg"><img border="0" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_2U4ZU0RL88M/Sx986AsCZjI/AAAAAAAAAIM/gdM1w5zdi1c/s400/moonrise.jpg" /></a><br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> Standing under the silver moon i wondered . <br /> <br /> Why did i fall for you . . <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> My heart bled and so did my my soul .. <br /> <br /> Words dint have the depth to express my feelings and all i could do was cry ..<br /> <br /> My heart bled and so did my eyes.<br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> And standing under the silver moon .. <br /> <br /> All i could do was wonder .. <br /> <br /> Why did i fall in love with you ...<br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> My soul is filled with misery and life seems to fade away.<br /> <br /> There are no more blossoms and no more rainbows ...<br /> <br /> The shade has died and so has the sunshine .. . <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> And standing under the silver moon all i do is wonder ..<br /> <br /> Why did i fall in love with you.<br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> Its been awhile since i lost you. <br /> <br /> And sitting over here all i can do is wonder ..<br /> <br /> How could i let you go ....<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8014572375156080790-3154258502216849075?l=lijinjohn.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div> <p><a href="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/6C5l3lYzoRmXve3nxPU9zh6CgOI/0/da"><img src="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/6C5l3lYzoRmXve3nxPU9zh6CgOI/0/di" border="0" ismap="true"></img></a><br/> <a href="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/6C5l3lYzoRmXve3nxPU9zh6CgOI/1/da"><img src="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/6C5l3lYzoRmXve3nxPU9zh6CgOI/1/di" border="0" ismap="true"></img></a></p><img src="http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/IfOnlyWordsWereEnoughToExpressAMansHeart/~4/CAAnH6pCNt0" height="1" width="1"/>johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13799239873118258217noreply@blogger.com1http://lijinjohn.blogspot.com/2009/12/standing-under-silver-moon-i-wondered.htmltag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8014572375156080790.post-24659921209875347742009-12-09T15:54:00.002+05:302011-06-17T16:19:39.329+05:302011-06-17T16:19:39.329+05:30There is a moon and next to it a star. <br /> Star says to moon i give you my heart.<br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> Never do they meet .. Never do they sleep. <br /> Love joins the hearts and hearts always do beat.<br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> Love brings them close and fate rips them apart. <br /> The moon stays forever the star falls apart .<br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> There is a moon but next to it no star ... <br /> <br /> <a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_2U4ZU0RL88M/Sx96pbhJnTI/AAAAAAAAAIE/MFYKYTV5NHQ/s1600-h/3688556-sm.jpg"><img border="0" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_2U4ZU0RL88M/Sx96pbhJnTI/AAAAAAAAAIE/MFYKYTV5NHQ/s640/3688556-sm.jpg" /></a><br /> <br /> The moon stays forever the star falls apart.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8014572375156080790-2465992120987534774?l=lijinjohn.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div> <p><a href="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/cUNEcvQuwq-Alhp-nCKyFn4Opbs/0/da"><img src="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/cUNEcvQuwq-Alhp-nCKyFn4Opbs/0/di" border="0" ismap="true"></img></a><br/> <a href="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/cUNEcvQuwq-Alhp-nCKyFn4Opbs/1/da"><img src="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/cUNEcvQuwq-Alhp-nCKyFn4Opbs/1/di" border="0" ismap="true"></img></a></p><img src="http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/IfOnlyWordsWereEnoughToExpressAMansHeart/~4/oeQqoPbdW-w" height="1" width="1"/>johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13799239873118258217noreply@blogger.com0http://lijinjohn.blogspot.com/2009/12/star-falls-apart.htmltag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8014572375156080790.post-11026693941620974222009-12-09T15:44:00.002+05:302011-06-17T16:19:47.280+05:302011-06-17T16:19:47.280+05:30<a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_2U4ZU0RL88M/Sx94Xx6KNNI/AAAAAAAAAH0/Gtqcy92s2Qg/s1600-h/Carnival_Of_Rust_by_AkaiSoul.png"><img border="0" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_2U4ZU0RL88M/Sx94Xx6KNNI/AAAAAAAAAH0/Gtqcy92s2Qg/s640/Carnival_Of_Rust_by_AkaiSoul.png" /></a><br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> As i sit by her ... <br /> <br /> I look into her eyes and wonder .. Will her love, ever be mine. <br /> <br /> Will we walk through eternity together. For far into the distance .. there she goes .. <br /> <br /> Leaving me all alone. I laugh at myself and pity on my fate. <br /> <br /> But deep inside , love just can't die. <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> Before i let yo go .. Before i see you no more. <br /> <br /> <br /> Give me the love , the last smile .. The reason to die in your love. <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> I don't have the strength to say goodbye. Cause i die with that goodbye. <br /> <br /> <br /> How can it be that i'm living without thee. Cause i know i won't breath after goodbye.<br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> So give me the hope .. That you'll stay with me. Cause whatsoever may the reason be. <br /> <br /> <br /> I'm just dead .. With your goodbye <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> Goodbye ... Say goodbye with a smile as tears fall by my face. <br /> <br /> I don't have the strength to say goodbye so .. <br /> <br /> Just say goodbye as i see you go ... Goodbye .. goodbye.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8014572375156080790-1102669394162097422?l=lijinjohn.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div> <p><a href="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/b0IWNoc7SR9brGCCAVbplhpZHBQ/0/da"><img src="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/b0IWNoc7SR9brGCCAVbplhpZHBQ/0/di" border="0" ismap="true"></img></a><br/> <a href="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/b0IWNoc7SR9brGCCAVbplhpZHBQ/1/da"><img src="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/b0IWNoc7SR9brGCCAVbplhpZHBQ/1/di" border="0" ismap="true"></img></a></p><img src="http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/IfOnlyWordsWereEnoughToExpressAMansHeart/~4/PL4I0MFYE5Y" height="1" width="1"/>johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13799239873118258217noreply@blogger.com0http://lijinjohn.blogspot.com/2009/12/tears-as-you-leave.htmltag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8014572375156080790.post-719684852433724142009-12-02T17:06:00.002+05:302011-06-17T16:19:55.351+05:302011-06-17T16:19:55.351+05:30<a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_2U4ZU0RL88M/SxZQl2KQ8dI/AAAAAAAAAHc/XycnC0iAjU0/s1600-h/My_Dying_Bride_.jpg"><img border="0" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_2U4ZU0RL88M/SxZQl2KQ8dI/AAAAAAAAAHc/XycnC0iAjU0/s320/My_Dying_Bride_.jpg" /></a><br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> Slain dreams with blood in my eyes .. <br /> <br /> <br /> I wake in pain with dead dreams by my side. <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> Hope is dead and so is faith ... <br /> <br /> <br /> The darkness inside dances with a thorn. <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> It pricks me througout my life .. <br /> <br /> <br /> With choked breath i dream of the peace within. <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> As i lay in the shackles of death ... <br /> <br /> <br /> The dance of the ungodly shakes me within.<br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> Its time to die and its time to lay still ... <br /> <br /> <br /> The clutches of despair are deep inside my flesh. <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> Death awaits and so does hell ..<br /> <br /> <br /> cause nothing can payback .. what i've done.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8014572375156080790-71968485243372414?l=lijinjohn.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div> <p><a href="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/J98jL5QUDv7un-qeJgIvLyJpPdw/0/da"><img src="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/J98jL5QUDv7un-qeJgIvLyJpPdw/0/di" border="0" ismap="true"></img></a><br/> <a href="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/J98jL5QUDv7un-qeJgIvLyJpPdw/1/da"><img src="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/J98jL5QUDv7un-qeJgIvLyJpPdw/1/di" border="0" ismap="true"></img></a></p><img src="http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/IfOnlyWordsWereEnoughToExpressAMansHeart/~4/q1HjJtGr4n8" height="1" width="1"/>johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13799239873118258217noreply@blogger.com0http://lijinjohn.blogspot.com/2009/12/last-thoughts-before-death.htmltag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8014572375156080790.post-66831590797550231442009-11-19T22:49:00.001+05:302011-06-17T16:20:13.102+05:302011-06-17T16:20:13.102+05:30<span style="color: white; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif; font-size: small;"></span><span style="color: white; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif; font-size: small;"></span><br /> <br /> <br /> <a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_2U4ZU0RL88M/SwV-DvhxeqI/AAAAAAAAAGs/VsS8Cdw5Fso/s1600/s0litude.jpg"><img border="0" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_2U4ZU0RL88M/SwV-DvhxeqI/AAAAAAAAAGs/VsS8Cdw5Fso/s400/s0litude.jpg" /></a><br /> <br /> <br /> Faith in love is something that i always had<br /> but what i did not know wast that love ain't in my destiny.<br /> <br /> For some people this very pain is their destiny...<br /> May be I'm one of them .. Far from thy love .. far from this eternal happiness.<br /> <br /> I'm dying in the pain of thy love. But this very pain will keep my heart burning .... <br /> till one day it flickers and dies.<br /> <br /> Now I'm tired and weary, I'm dying . <br /> Wish i could be in your arm while i die ... wish you would say that i was forever yours...<br /> and i would forever live in your heart and become the breath of thy life.<br /> <br /> I'm in my deathbed .. faded memories are giving me a lost hope of thy love for me.<br /> I know i may mean nothing to thee , but you are everything to me.<br /> <br /> One day ... leaves shall dry and when the autumn arrives my grave will still long for your love.<br /> And i will still long for your love till the end of ages.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8014572375156080790-6683159079755023144?l=lijinjohn.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div> <p><a href="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/YZlUavS3ZIvgbKAfEU52KAdEn9k/0/da"><img src="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/YZlUavS3ZIvgbKAfEU52KAdEn9k/0/di" border="0" ismap="true"></img></a><br/> <a href="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/YZlUavS3ZIvgbKAfEU52KAdEn9k/1/da"><img src="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/YZlUavS3ZIvgbKAfEU52KAdEn9k/1/di" border="0" ismap="true"></img></a></p><img src="http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/IfOnlyWordsWereEnoughToExpressAMansHeart/~4/jdC-7G5zico" height="1" width="1"/>johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13799239873118258217noreply@blogger.com0http://lijinjohn.blogspot.com/2009/11/kiss-of-death.htmltag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8014572375156080790.post-29993704472530511412009-11-19T22:40:00.001+05:302011-06-17T16:20:22.520+05:302011-06-17T16:20:22.520+05:30<a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_2U4ZU0RL88M/SwV752ndjhI/AAAAAAAAAGk/803BFMPCXh0/s1600/true-love-wallpaper.jpg"><img border="0" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_2U4ZU0RL88M/SwV752ndjhI/AAAAAAAAAGk/803BFMPCXh0/s320/true-love-wallpaper.jpg" /></a><br /> <br /> <br /> Tears flow down my eyes ,<br /> <br /> when i think of saying goodbye.<br /> <br /> But one day fate will show me this hour.<br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> Our love shall have no more time <br /> <br /> and destiny shall not give us another chance.<br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> But fate holds a lesson for me ...<br /> <br /> It taught me to Love .. To love a person more than anything in this world.<br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> And now when i bid you goodbye my dear ...<br /> <br /> I am proud and content , that my love for you is pure and far from this world.<br /> <br /> It is beyond relations and beyond time, beyond myself and its pure.<br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> I can feel the pain beforehand .<br /> <br /> One day I'll have to say goodbye .. oh! I'll cry , my heart will bleed.<br /> <br /> My eyes shall fill with tears as i see you go.<br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> But my heart will always desire All the heavens happiness for you.<br /> <br /> Deep inside my heart knows that I'm unworthy for you.<br /> <br /> But this heart just can't stop loving you.<br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> But now as i say goodbye to you my love, I know this is the right thing to be done.<br /> <br /> Fate holds a better tomorrow for you my love ... <br /> <br /> GOODBYE ..<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8014572375156080790-2999370447253051141?l=lijinjohn.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div> <p><a href="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/nHdRsdIn9hGRXx3wLkkRgKeWQUk/0/da"><img src="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/nHdRsdIn9hGRXx3wLkkRgKeWQUk/0/di" border="0" ismap="true"></img></a><br/> <a href="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/nHdRsdIn9hGRXx3wLkkRgKeWQUk/1/da"><img src="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/nHdRsdIn9hGRXx3wLkkRgKeWQUk/1/di" border="0" ismap="true"></img></a></p><img src="http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/IfOnlyWordsWereEnoughToExpressAMansHeart/~4/FSRFOkAP7gU" height="1" width="1"/>johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13799239873118258217noreply@blogger.com1http://lijinjohn.blogspot.com/2009/11/goodbye.htmltag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8014572375156080790.post-73528894796353527632009-11-19T19:09:00.001+05:302011-06-17T16:17:23.659+05:302011-06-17T16:17:23.659+05:30<a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_2U4ZU0RL88M/SwV-6OLnvVI/AAAAAAAAAG0/vTP8MSFFZZc/s1600/DSC00031.JPG"><img border="0" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_2U4ZU0RL88M/SwV-6OLnvVI/AAAAAAAAAG0/vTP8MSFFZZc/s320/DSC00031.JPG" /></a><br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> remember last time, you said hey<br /> me was flat on you gal, me said hey.<br /> Months flew by exchanging smiles<br /> now there's nothin more to say ..Gudbye<br /> <br /> All i know about you..my love<br /> dying in your arms is..my wish<br /> I'll be surely there for long gal.. till death<br /> now there's nothin more to say ..Gudbye<br /> <br /> People seeing nd watchin..Oh shit<br /> nothin going around still..thinkin crap.<br /> I'm a love her till death..so clap<br /> now there's nothin more to say ..Gudbye<br /> <br /> Listen to me gal, one day i die<br /> you won't be with me, all i do is cry.<br /> I thank you for this love gal<br /> i thank you for that smile.<br /> Now i'm about to die,<br /> just promise you wont cry..<br /> <br /> singin .. whoah ..<br /> I JUST DIED IN YOUR ARMS TONIGHT<br /> MUST HAVE BEEN SOMETHIN YOU SAID<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8014572375156080790-7352889479635352763?l=lijinjohn.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div> <p><a href="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/QKikIfb-sKj68hn1OU1Mdk11GWA/0/da"><img src="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/QKikIfb-sKj68hn1OU1Mdk11GWA/0/di" border="0" ismap="true"></img></a><br/> <a href="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/QKikIfb-sKj68hn1OU1Mdk11GWA/1/da"><img src="http://feedads.g.doubleclick.net/~a/QKikIfb-sKj68hn1OU1Mdk11GWA/1/di" border="0" ismap="true"></img></a></p><img src="http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/IfOnlyWordsWereEnoughToExpressAMansHeart/~4/6DbQsej6OKk" height="1" width="1"/>johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13799239873118258217noreply@blogger.com0http://lijinjohn.blogspot.com/2009/11/rap-lyrics-for-my-college-performance.html