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    <title>if we shadows</title>
    
    
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        <published>2012-01-04T21:46:06-06:00</published>
        <updated>2012-01-04T21:46:06-06:00</updated>
        <summary>No te amo como si fueras rosa de sal, topacio o flecha de claveles que propagan el fuego: te amo como se aman ciertas cosas oscuras, secretamente, entre la sombra y el alma. Te amo como la planta que no...</summary>
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            <name>puck</name>
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<div xmlns="http://www.w3.org/1999/xhtml"><p>No te amo como si fueras rosa de sal, topacio<br />
o flecha de claveles que propagan el fuego:<br />
te amo como se aman ciertas cosas oscuras,<br />
secretamente, entre la sombra y el alma.<br />
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Te amo como la planta que no florece y lleva<br />
dentro de sí, escondida, la luz de aquellas flores,<br />
y gracias a tu amor vive oscuro en mi cuerpo<br />
el apretado aroma que ascendió de la tierra.<br />
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Te amo sin saber cómo, ni cuándo, ni de dónde,<br />
te amo directamente sin problemas ni orgullo:<br />
así te amo porque no sé amar de otra manera,<br />
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sino así de este modo en que no soy ni eres,<br />
tan cerca que tu mano sobre mi pecho es mía,<br />
tan cerca que se cierran tus ojos con mi sueño.<br />
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neruda</p></div>
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        <published>2012-01-04T21:44:48-06:00</published>
        <updated>2012-01-04T21:44:48-06:00</updated>
        <summary>i must learn to love the fool in me. the one who feels too much, talks too much, takes too many chances (or not enough), wins sometimes and loses often, lacks self-control, loves and hates and gets hurt, promises and...</summary>
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<div xmlns="http://www.w3.org/1999/xhtml"><p>i must learn to love the fool in me. the one who feels too much, talks too much, takes too many chances (or not enough), wins sometimes and loses often, lacks self-control, loves and hates and gets hurt, promises and breaks promises, laughs and cries<br />
theodore issac rubin</p></div>
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        <published>2012-01-04T21:43:20-06:00</published>
        <updated>2012-01-04T21:43:20-06:00</updated>
        <summary>have been unavoidably detained by the world... n.gaiman</summary>
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<div xmlns="http://www.w3.org/1999/xhtml"><p>have been unavoidably detained by the world...<br />
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n.gaiman</p></div>
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        <published>2011-12-09T15:02:24-06:00</published>
        <updated>2011-12-09T15:02:24-06:00</updated>
        <summary>http://zocalopublicsquare.org/thepublicsquare/2011/11/30/how-doctors-die/read/nexus/ very interesting and thought-provoking article</summary>
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	<a href="http://zocalopublicsquare.org/thepublicsquare/2011/11/30/how-doctors-die/read/nexus/">http://zocalopublicsquare.org/thepublicsquare/2011/11/30/how-doctors-die/read/nexus/</a><br />
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very interesting and thought-provoking article</p></div>
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        <published>2011-10-18T16:12:05-05:00</published>
        <updated>2011-10-18T16:22:24-05:00</updated>
        <summary>Well the tree lie down beneath you The grasses bow &amp; sway The sands rise to meet you The ocean it makes way And you move through your directions And i turn my face away The grasses rise to meet...</summary>
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<div xmlns="http://www.w3.org/1999/xhtml"><p>Well the tree lie down beneath you<br /> The grasses bow &amp; sway<br /> The sands rise to meet you<br /> The ocean it makes way<br /> <br /> And you move through your directions<br /> And i turn my face away<br /> The grasses rise to meet you<br /> The ocean it makes way<br /> <br /> Well i too can move the prairies<br /> I too can move the sea<br /> I’m gonna take that motion<br /> Take it right inside me<br /> <br /> I’m gonna rattle at your windows<br /> Rattle at your doors<br /> Rattle at your shutters<br /> Show you what they’re for<br /> <br /> No more weathervane, i’m gonna be the wind.<br /> No more spin around, spin around, spin around but always face away<br /> No more weathervane.<br /> I’m gonna be the wind.<br /> <br /> Kris Delmhosrt</p></div>
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        <title>FB is my downfall</title>
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        <published>2009-11-08T22:42:33-06:00</published>
        <updated>2009-11-08T22:46:17-06:00</updated>
        <summary>i actually really like my blog page. i spent a fair amount of time on it (ok, quite awhile ago now, but still...) getting the links up of my favorite reading, and links to pages i find interesting. it is...</summary>
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<div xmlns="http://www.w3.org/1999/xhtml"><p>i actually really like my blog page. i spent a fair amount of time on it (ok, quite awhile ago now, but still...) getting the links up of my favorite reading, and links to pages i find interesting. it is like a little part of me out there but now it is so lonely. i spend most of my very tiny amount of free time on FB and not even really posting too much there either. although this is much better that being limited to 140 characters. and every now and again i bop over to ravelry, but even there i haven't posted a new project in ages and i should....i actually have several finished or nearly finished things to post! of course, i would have to take pictures and load them up here and (yawn) all that. </p><p>i wish there was a way i could put all my favorite buttons and links on FB and then i would only have one stop shopping (so to speak). gee, how lazy am i? i can't even click over to another (already bookmarked!) website. pathetic....</p><p>anyway, the kids are growing like weeds and life up in the intermountain west of BC is falling into a routine of sorts (despite the absolute dearth of good organic food and any type of decent retail establishments...thank God for the internet). mom is up here visiting and i wish again we didn't live so far apart...i miss her already and she hasn't even left yet!</p><p>getting ready to snuggle up inside for a long, chilly winter. lots of christmas knitting to do and then after that nothing but socks for me. i haven't knit myself any socks in a long time and all my old ones are worn through in various places. of course, the kids always seem to need new hats and mittens and whatever (damn growth spurts!). </p><p>i also keep telling myself i am going to finish my daughter's quilt and pull that loom out and finally put the damn thing together and figure out how to use it! all, of course, while studying for the canadian royal college boards in em coming this may. ugh!</p><p>it has been so long since i posted that typepad interfae has been
totally re-vamped and looks completely different. i don't even know
how to do anything on it anymore or where any of the tabs and buttons
are!</p><p>oh well, until next time....otherwise find me on facebook or ravelry (puck)</p><p /><p /><p /></div>
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        <title>we're here and still breathing!</title>
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        <published>2009-05-11T12:16:52-05:00</published>
        <updated>2009-05-11T12:43:29-05:00</updated>
        <summary>whew! so it has been, like, forever. i know, i know, i suck at this whole blog thing. but here goes again. we are settling in, sort of, in BC. i have started work and it has been pertty good...</summary>
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<div xmlns="http://www.w3.org/1999/xhtml"><p>whew!<br />so it has been, like, forever. i know, i know, i suck at this whole blog thing. but here goes again. </p><p>we are settling in, sort of, in BC. i have started work and it has been pertty good so far. busy, the people i work with are nice. some frustrations with community medicine in a much smaller hospital/city than i am used to. being able to get a CT or ultrasound between 11pm and 8 am takes an act of God, and learning all the names for the canadian meds (same meds as in the us, just different names) i can't tell you how many calls i've gotten from pharmacies asking what the hell i'm writing for. i feel a bit like a med student again in that respect, just fumbling through a new system. everyone has been patient and helpful but i am quite sure they hear my voice in their head at night asking where to find something or how to order something, etc. some days i am sure they just think i am an idiot, which hopefully after doing this job for 9 years i'm not. (at least i didn't feel like one when i was in the states)</p><p> anyway, the kids are doing well. finn is nearly walking. mostly cruising around the furniture and taking a few unassisted steps on her own. sam is great, adjusted well to montessori here, although i don't think it is as good as the school he was in back in omaha. it seems like more simple play here rather than the more educational play he got back in nebraska. anyway, he is doing fine and it happy so i guess that is all that matters. </p><p>our house is a fair bit smaller than what we had in omaha so we are still living in a cardboard jungle. much of our stuff will stay in boxes, i think untill we move again-probably next spring. but i can't find anything!! knitting needles, summer shoes, kitchen utensils. some things i have bought again, so i'll have double once i do dig out of the boxes. </p><p>we just recently went up to a sheep farm about 1:45 north of here. sam and finn got to meet the new lambs, and sam collected fresh eggs from the henhouse. a hayride and scones and lemonde and everyone slept on the way home. so a good day in all. and i bought a big bag of fiber, :) greyish brown and very soft, with alot of lanolin still on the fiber, but certainly not greasy. i have no idea what i will do with it but perhaps in the next 5-10 yrs i'll find time to spin it :&gt;<br />speaking of which, i did order a new spinning wheel. a 'martha' double wheel from watson wheels right here in BC (out on victoria, i believe) it will be done in about 6-8 months or so. <br />after i get ahead of some of the bills i left in the US, i'll start saving for my sock knitting machine. (woo-hoo) so maybe next summer/fall.</p><p>i have to take the canadian EM boards next spring, so that is not something i am looking forward to, but they have just instituted some reciprocity with american trained docs so i don't have to take all the prelim exams anymore. that would have been an expensive, time-consuming and useless endeavor. </p><p>my niece is due in a few weeks and i just finished a few baby hats for her and am about 1/2way through a sweater for sam  (for fall obviously, it is canada but we still have summer-haha). and have some yarn for one for finn. there hasn't been much time to knit with the little ones. by the time we get them into bed it is about 8pm and we both collapse on the couch and stare mindlessly into space for about an hour or so and then go to bed. occassionally i can muster up the energy for a few rows, but sometimes it is just zoning out in front of the tv. <br />oh well, all part of the job, huh :) and even though i am fairly tired all the time and don't get to do any of my hobbies as much as i would like to i actually would never trade it for all the gold in the world. </p><p>some pics. <a href="http://ifweshadows.typepad.com/.a/6a00d83454a96969e201156f894c93970c-pi" style="display: inline;"><img alt="IMG_2528" border="0" class="at-xid-6a00d83454a96969e201156f894c93970c image-full " src="http://ifweshadows.typepad.com/.a/6a00d83454a96969e201156f894c93970c-800wi" title="IMG_2528" /></a> <a href="http://ifweshadows.typepad.com/.a/6a00d83454a96969e201156f895004970c-pi" style="display: inline;">a<img alt="IMG_0082" border="0" class="at-xid-6a00d83454a96969e201156f895004970c image-full " src="http://ifweshadows.typepad.com/.a/6a00d83454a96969e201156f895004970c-800wi" title="IMG_0082" /></a></p><br /><p>and lastly, i just wanted to note that it, unbelievably, has been a year today that my dearest brother, John, passed away far too soon. not a day goes by that he doesn't enter my thoughts at least once. i can still hear his laugh, his brotherly advice (i don't think i ever aged past 13 in his mind) and see his smile. i miss him constantly and eternally. love you john.<br /> </p></div>
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        <title>poem</title>
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        <published>2009-02-06T21:01:18-06:00</published>
        <updated>2009-02-06T21:02:34-06:00</updated>
        <summary>Habitation marriage is not a house or even a tent it is before that, and colder the edge of the forest, the edge of the desert the unpainted stairs at the back where we squat outside, eating popcorn where painfully...</summary>
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<div xmlns="http://www.w3.org/1999/xhtml"><p><span style="text-decoration: underline;">Habitation</span></p><p>marriage is not<br />a house or even a tent</p><p>it is before that, and colder</p><p>the edge of the forest, the edge<br />of the desert<br />the unpainted stairs<br />at the back where we squat<br />outside, eating popcorn</p><p>where painfully and with wonder<br />at having survived even<br />this far</p><p>we are learning to make fire</p><p>Margaret Atwood</p><p style="font-size: 14px; font-family: Times New Roman;"><em><strong><a href="http://branchesup.blogspot.com/2009/02/poem-for-fourth-annual-brigid-poetry.html" target="_blank">poem for the 4th annual Brigid poetry reading</a></strong></em></p></div>
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        <title>still here!</title>
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        <published>2009-01-30T21:16:27-06:00</published>
        <updated>2009-01-30T21:20:18-06:00</updated>
        <summary>wow, i can't believe i haven't posted anything since october, i am such a lazy loser! things have been crazy...so i'll just sum-up. we are out of our house here in 3 weeks, sort-of homeless for about 8 days (staying...</summary>
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<div xmlns="http://www.w3.org/1999/xhtml"><p>wow, i can't believe i haven't posted anything since october, i am such a lazy loser! things have been crazy...so i'll just sum-up. we are out of our house here in 3 weeks, sort-of homeless for about 8 days (staying with a friend), then up to the great white north the 1st of march, i only stay for 4 days, then i'm back by myself to finish out my shifts here for 2 more weeks. i am glad we sold the house, and without taking too much of a loss,  but this whole moving-out-early is making me a little nuts.<br />i have moved many (many) times but this is by far the most stressful...think it is a bunch of reasons- distance, whole new country, moving with 2 small children, and 2 dogs, mom going back to NY to live (the kids have never been without her, she truly is a third parent), new medical system, different medicine, blah, blah, blah. anyway, i am excited too. i know it will be great to have more time off to be with the kids, and patients are patients, i just hope that i'm not a "soft" academic and can survive in a busy community ED. i am a bit worried since the last time i worked in a community ED  i was in fellowship and moonlighting and i was practically suicidal on my way to my shifts. i do think that had much more to do with that particular hospital and the terrible situations we had to work in (long story/ies) so i am sure i'll be fine. and i have many friends who do community medicine and love it. they may all just be crazy, but we'll see. <br />i have been doing virtually no knitting except to finally make myself a hat (my head was cold!) and knit about 6 pathetic inches of a scarf for myself. everything i make is for someone else so i figured i could take a little time for something for me. now that Finn is occassionally going to bed at a reasonable time i have a little time to knit. most of the yarn has been packed away but i did leave myself a little bag of semi-finished projects.<br />anyway, with more time i am hoping to keep this up a bit better. i've said that before but whatever, i don't have anyone to answer too and i am fairly sure no one bothers to wander over here anymore to look again at some silly 4 month old post<br />well off to knit a bit on my scarf (i did at least get myself some cashmere yarn...shhh)</p></div>
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        <title>who knew?</title>
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        <id>tag:typepad.com,2003:post-57555799</id>
        <published>2008-10-25T21:51:07-05:00</published>
        <updated>2008-10-25T21:51:07-05:00</updated>
        <summary>60 As a 1930s wife, I am Superior Take the test!</summary>
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