If you don't, don't

2008-02-09T15:57:00.000-08:00

WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME? SERIOUSLY. I think I might be mentally challenged. I'm going to go crawl into a hole and die now.

2008-02-07T03:32:00.001-08:00

Yes, I know it's 6:32 a.m. All I have to do is make it through 6 1/2 hours of school and then I have three days of relaxation. I'm excited. What are my plans? Tonight I have to work but after Amanda is coming over and we're eating chinese and watching Into the Wild; it will probably make me cry. Friday I'm going to go to Manville and visit my Babcia to see how she's doing. I'll probs go to Old Navy and maybe the mall. VS run for real. Saturday I have to work and after that, nothing for the rest of the weekend. It will be unplanned and uneventful, which is the way I like it. Sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep.

2008-02-05T14:02:00.000-08:00

My grandma came home from the hospital today, hopefully she'll recover fully in a couple weeks. I think seeing her there was honestly one of the scariest expierences I've ever had. If there's one thing you should know about my grandmother it's that she's one of the strongest people I've ever met. Even at 73 years old she still walks two miles a day, which is a hell of a lot more than I walk. When I saw her for the first time in that hospital bed I almost started sobbing right there. She looked so tiny and frail, I can't get the image out of my head. She didn't complain though, she made jokes and promised to take me shopping for college stuff. As much as I bitch about her, she means a lot to me and I don't know what I would do if something happened to her. God, I was so scared.

2008-02-01T12:20:00.000-08:00

We changed classes this week and I'll give you a run through of what I have.

AP Euro: This is something that hasn't changed. Before we started class I thought I might get irritated having to stay with the same people from most of the year but that's really not the case. Sure, I want the class itself to end, but I've grown to love seeing the people I do at 7:35 in the morning. The Communist Manifesto questions were rough, that's all have to say about that. The grade scare freaked me out so badly, I'm glad Mr. D found the error before he sent marking period grades in. Now all I have to do is watch A Christmas Carol and do the ten Industrialization things.

Gym-Weight Training, Stress Management, and Self Defense: Zach is in my class so we're having a good time. And on the plus side I stepped on a scale and while it's not what I'd like it to be, I weigh less than I thought I did. I'm excited to learn how to kick some ass, end of story.

Pre-Analysis: Umm.. would you like to kick me in the face? Kathy Keane is crazy, but I like her. Still, that class is going to be pure hell and I have my first test on Tuesday. I'll be in tutorial everyday.

AP Psych: I LOVE IT. Zach and Mrs. Granaldi! Seriously, it's so good.

I'm pumped for our millions of days off in the next couple weeks, it'll be good to relax before March considering I don't think we have any days off.

I'm going to go and do something else.

2008-01-31T19:47:00.001-08:00

My audio is screwed up so I can't voice this. My mic has made me so lazy.

I'm too tired to do this right now.

2008-01-27T12:54:00.000-08:00

I'm writing because my house is filled with people and I can't get two seconds alone.

Finals weren't the best due to C Ruggs and his ridiculous Asian and Mideast Studies test. I'm not sure how he expected us to study if we didn't have the materials to do so. All we did in that class is projects and more projects. So dumb. Honors Psych was hard but I'm not too worried because the scrapbook was a major portion of my grade and I did pretty well on that.

The year is half over, I can't really believe it. One more semester and it's offically all over.. thank God. My classes are going to be tough but I think the overall atmosphere is going to be completely different. Or maybe I'm just delusional, but all the fun stuff happens in the second semester.

Last Band Standing was much more fun than I thought it would be, Strike A Violent Pose and the Trubadors are actually really good. After Amanda, Cynthia, Taylor, and I went to the Clinton Diner and I promptly fell asleep in the booth. I slept for like an hour and a half or something while the bitches took pictures and video. ASSHOLES.

Yo, the Communist Manifesto is really boring and I hate it.

Work yesterday was boring too, blah.

I feel like I've finally regained control on my life, and I love it. I feel better and I attributr it to Amanda's mix amoung other things. It actually did make me cry, it was liberating and pathetic all at the same time.

I should probably go finnish the AP Euro stuff and read more of the Manifesto. Christ..

2008-01-22T21:44:00.000-08:00

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2008-01-15T18:01:00.001-08:00

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2008-01-14T19:49:00.000-08:00

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2008-01-11T18:06:00.000-08:00

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Never again, this sucks.

2008-01-11T03:26:00.000-08:00

Things that must be done today:
1. Go to Michael's to pick up both the scrapbooks.
2. Get my eyebrows waxed.
3. Go to Walmart to copy pictures.
4. Start gathering other pictures for psych.
5. Write a couple poems.
6. Edit said poems.
7. Outline entire psych project.
8. Go to Wegman's and get a sub and soup.
9. Watch Grey's.
10. SLEEP- a lot.
11. GO TO THE DOCTOR.

All of this is so not getting done today, 4-6 could technically be saved for later this weekend but I'd really rather just get it over with. Going to the doctor is an absolute must because I always wait too long and things always progress farther than they need to. Life..

2008-01-08T15:13:00.001-08:00

I don't even know what to say.

2008-01-07T12:26:00.000-08:00

I can't do this.

2008-01-06T11:40:00.000-08:00

I'm good, so so so good. It feels nice to say that because it hasn't been this way since the summer. I'm trying not to stress out so much because of school because in retrospect it's not really that bad. I think I make things out to be bigger than they are and that's why I'm always neurotic. I just need to take a step back, breathe, and relax.

Deep breath in, exhale slowly.

2008-01-04T14:07:00.000-08:00

I love Friday.

The end.

2008-01-03T09:11:00.000-08:00

Going back to school is such a bitch. Wouldn't it be nice if teachers eased us back into the workload? I believe it would be. Instead C. Ruggs thinks it's funny to give us a day to research for our debate tomorrow. I swear he hates me because I have a vagina. Silly gay man! Researching is what I'm supposed to be doing right now.. obviously I'm not. The AP Euro debate is Monday and the test is next week. I can't wait until spring break, you have no idea.
All I want to do is sleep for an entire day, I think that will be my entire Sunday. I will say that my mornings are better than ever before aside from the deer that like to run in front of my car. But other than that things are fantastic.

2008-01-01T12:26:00.000-08:00

Things that will happen in 2008:
1. I'll get my acceptance/rejection letters from TCNJ and Rowan.
2. I'll pick where I want to go to college.
3. I'll turn 18.
4. I'll graduate from high school.
5. I'll have an amazing summer.
6. I'll go away to school.
Edit:
7. JAGERBOMBS!

I'm so pumped, you have no idea.

My 2008 started off with a bang (or three). I hope you all had a good one as well.

2007-12-30T11:55:00.001-08:00

I thought it was about time that I starting posting again considering that's what this is here for. I've been avoiding it just because I feel like nothing I ever do is considered even worthy enough to be put into a blog. Because honestly, does anyone actually care about what I did on a Wednesday? I'm not poetic and I'm not going to make this interesting for anyone; that's not the purpose of this.
I'm happy. You have no idea how happy I am. It's been a while and I'm starting to feel good about myself and the people around me. I consider myself lucky for meeting the people that I did because they mean more to me than anyone in the entire world. They know me sometimes better than I know myself, which kind of scares me. A little.. but it's a good thing.

Fuck Perry

2007-11-27T17:54:00.000-08:00

Really, fuck him. I honestly can't even comprehend anything I'm reading right now, so I'm not even going to bother. I did pages 35, 38, 42, 44, and 50. I'll do it tomorrow, I work better under pressure.

Blah.

2007-11-24T15:34:00.000-08:00

I've been accepted to college. Exciting, I know. I am pretty pumped though. If I don't get in anywhere else at least I know I have a place in the world of academia. I know I'll get accepted elsewhere though, I don't mean to sound stuck up, but I mean come on.. Kutztown? It doesn't take a brain surgeon.

This Weekend

2007-11-18T12:16:00.000-08:00

Was quite great.

Friday:
Against Me! put in a really great show (again). Warren was my favorite because he likes IHOP. But I won't lie, the best part was Sage Francis. I climb trees all the time now.

Saturday:
Wow. Um. I never want to get that drunk ever again.

Sunday:
I have lots of homework.

I'm Dumb...

2007-11-11T06:47:00.000-08:00

I really am. I finally discovered the username and password to my old blog, but I'm not going to go back to it. I'm so stupid, really.

Rowan is today. I'm hoping the open house goes quickly because it starts at 1:00, but it's almost a two hour drive and I still have shit to do.

List of shit to do:
Take home essay #1
Take home essay #2
Read 78 pages for Euro
Find out what absolutism is
Write the four minute argument (this doesn't have to be done for today)
Clean: my car, my room, the bathrooms

You may ask why I haven't done this the previous three days I have had off and was grounded for. The answer is simply that I'm unbelievably lazy. I'd rather dwell on the fact that I've done NOTHING this weekend because my father is a fucktard. Yeah, you get the idea.

Jesus H... this is going to be a long day.

Speaking of grounding! This is my last day.. hopefully. If you recall, G. Banks said Friday was my last day, but we all know what happened after that. If he tells me I can't go to DeSales, I swear I'm just going to leave. I don't even care.

Senior Late Day is tomorrow.. I don't know if I'm doing it.

Dear G. Banks,

2007-11-10T15:23:00.000-08:00

Are you seriously actually this much of a douche? Really? REALLY?Thursday, Friday. That's what you said. Goddammit, you're so dumb. What is a movie and learning the Soulja Boy dance really going to hurt? Fuck you. FUCKKKKK.

On a better note, "MUSCLE MILK... HGH.... PROTEIN... POWER BARS!"

I love it.