I'm Fat! So what...

Motivation...

2011-02-22T23:18:00.000-08:00

I know, I know. I totally abandoned my blog. The one that I worked up all the courage to start and already given up. There's really no excuses, y'know, cause life happens. I've just been "Debby Downer" for the past couple of weeks. Per last post, "Life is a Mess", I went to the gym and was sort of excited. Well let's just say that it didn't go to well. I got on the scale...:-( I knew that it was going to be bad but not this bad. I even thought maybe I was reading the numbers wrong or maybe...This could not be correct. 270LBS!!! Are u fucking kidding me? This was more than I weighed when I was pregnant!!! I was so disappointed with my self and the fact that I did it to myself. It has nothing to do with stress levels or the fact that I had a baby last year. None of that. I was weakened by my inconsideration of my health. The audacity of me to complain about fitting in a pair of jeans or wearing a bikini! REALLY!. It's so past that at this point. Well needless to stay, the realization of this took me on a not so happy mode.

With all this new knowledge and how disgusted I feel about where I am right now. I am still finding it very hard to ignite that fire for me to start taking the steps that I need to be successful in this journey of weight loss. I am not on mission to be a size 0, but I am a firm believer of self/body acceptance. I am not there yet. Don't get me wrong, I'm still very confident in myself and I love me but let just say that it's time to make some new renovations! :-)

Here's a list of what is motivating me to lose weight.

My son, Jeremiah. My son was born 16 weeks early and weighed 1.7oz. He was in the hospital for nearly 4 months He fought for his life so that he can bring joy to mine. I have this amazing miracle child that I care and adore more than ANYTHING. This kid, at 14mths old, is probably the strongest person I know. As a parent I need to be there for him. I need to run, hop, and skip for him. I want to be able to go to the ends of the earth with him. I love this kid!
My health. Simple as that! I want to be healthy. Sick and tired of feeling sick and tired!
My relationships. (This is for the hubby)
Self-gratification.Girl gotta look good! (LOL) But really being able to look like how I feel.

"Every accomplishment starts with the decision to try." UNKNOWN 

Life is a mess!!!

2011-01-23T22:32:00.000-08:00

Hey guys!!! Sorry for the long hiatus but this girl has been through some thaanngs. I am glad that I am back! I will admit that I suffered from blogging stage fright. I literally would lose sleep about the topics I wanted to talk about, wondering if anybody would even care. It has been difficult for me to put my self out there but this year is my year (every year is my year...LOL). No really this time I want it to be real. I would find myself typing about something from the heart and erasing everything completely (No BUENO!!!!
In this time of reflection I really thought about my goals and what I really wanted to do. I sought advice from fellow bloggers, friends, and family alike. I came to a conclusion that this blog is going to be the absolute reflection of my life. I'm going to keep it real and raw. I have several interest from plus size fashion to healthy weight loss and everything all in between. I do have a list of different things that I am attempting right now which is trying to lose my first twenty pounds (until I reach my ultimate goal of 100lbs.) and also changing my eating habits by introducing clean eating. Sooooo....Tomorrow will be my first attempt to work out. UGH I know. I know. I need to change the tude. Looking forward to sharing!!!

Jessica

Casual Wednesday

2011-01-04T22:12:00.001-08:00

Casual Wednesday by imfatsowhatduh featuring skinny jeans
This was a sorry attempt of using Polyvure. It's obvious that I am little (meaning alot) rusty. Hopefully, I will be a pro soon. This was some items that I would love to wear. I love my Casual Wednesday Look!!

Introducing!!!! Me...

2010-12-31T00:48:00.000-08:00

Well...I am very nervous. My first post…here it goes! LOL. My name is Jessica and I am 26 years old. I live in Florida with my husband and my beautiful baby boy. I am an at home mom and a full time student at the University of Central Florida. I am what they call a girly girl with some edge. I speak what’s on my mind and express my emotions effortlessly. I have a happy go lucky personality and love life. I am always trying to find ways to reinvent myself and stay innovative. I decided that it was time to stop hiding behind my laptop and let my voice be heard. I am very nervous about this outcome of this blog but super excited that I finally have the courage to start it. You may ask what this blog is about but I am still working on what answer to give you. I love blogs. I feel that they are a great source of information. I have a few of my favorites that I love to read but I never had the courage to even "comment" on their pages.

Any who! I recently went through a quarter-life crisis...don't judge me. During this time, I looked at my reflection deeply enough to decide that there were some changes that I wanted to make. As you can see, the title of my blog is “I’m fat. So what…” The main interest of this blog is writing about my journey to weight loss but still enjoying my voluptuous body and curves. I am so through with trying to make excuses for my weight. I do want to live a healthy lifestyle with the body that I want.

As we count down to the New Year, I am hoping that I am able to not only make new goals but also successfully claim victory in life challenges. I am not doing this as a new year’s resolution but stepping-stone to a new me. Ugh! I sound so cliché. I know my introduction is kind of all over the place but that's me.

I hope you will like to take this journey with me. Enjoy the ride.

Jessica