I'm just a dreamer...

2014-11-11T03:53:00.003-08:00

Beach and Rain

2014-07-03T06:55:00.002-07:00

Because rain in beach is what I crave now.

#RantOfTheDay

2014-07-03T06:47:00.000-07:00

Overly meaningful people are so annoying.

Like, they effort-fully try to pack profoundness in everything they say. They try too hard to be seen as caring and "deep" people. Firstly tohh some of them do not even mean 1 % of what they say. Then I want to slap them.

Then, in a day to day normal conversation, you and I might say "hey, sup" but they'll be like "oh, it's such a delight to meet you, darling. Let me tell you, child, nobody crosses paths without a purpose. Just give me a ping if ever you want to talk, I'm always right here to listen to you baby. "

AREYY YAARRR enough , I just said "HI"...

HEY PRETENTIOUS PEOPLE, GUESS WHAT! Nobody is impressed. Bye.

Let's

2014-05-19T10:11:00.000-07:00

Let’s cry our heart out.

Let’s walk away from bullshit

Let’s stop giving damn; Life is wonderful without calm.

Let’s walk into the wild and fear the light outs.

Let’s climb a tree, act a little more carefree.

Let’s Jump in the ponds and run like a happy dog.

Let’s ride a bicycle till the coast just to find a boat.

Let's go crazy

Let's walk for hours, days and months.

Let’s walk for miles and miles like Forest Gump.

Let’s drink till we get high. Let’s talk shit. Let’s laugh at our idiocy

Too much wine, too much whine

Let’s get drenched in the rain for good, like we ain't got no sunshine.

Let’s play in the mud.

Let’s get dirty,

Let’s look up in the sky as it pours and smile.

Let’s forget money. Forget banks.

Let’s eat like a pig

Let’s dance like an idiot

Let’s laugh like a hyena

Let’s sing out loud in the shower, Till the neighbors knocks.

Let's free ourselves

Let’s write a poem because it’s simple

Let’s draw because it’s colorful.

Let’s wish miracles never happen. Damn those miracle shits.

Let’s crib our heart out till we have nothing left.

Let’s sleep, to wake up.

Because it is in chaos that we find order!

2014-01-27T01:47:00.000-08:00

"Stay Alive" by José González

2014-01-27T01:37:00.003-08:00

Beneath Dust and Ashes

2014-01-26T23:13:00.002-08:00

I am afraid ! I am afraid.,That I am in a beautiful chaos! This was one of those beautiful Sundays on which I sit on Mondays and brood over ..since its over ! what could be that thing ..Which u hate to do but u still enjoy doing it.What is that thing which hurts you but u still continue to do it to get the feeling of being in an immense chaos ..ya a beautiful chaos of-course .!

I love this feeling and as Bryan says "can’t stop this thing we started"

and I wont fight in vain.....

2014-01-26T23:04:00.002-08:00

This post is about a very dear friend, I am going to write about how I have been feeling from past couple of days. The gale song makes so much sense.

You are someone I know,I guess I am not very sure of it right now. I dont think so I know you anymore.I really dont know how people deal with breakups and I try to avoid such moments in my life.Most of the time sadly I have broken up with people whatever the reason it may be.May be I am not good enough, May be I am not worth it Or may be I dont deserve this kind of behavior .

People judge me and I am okay with that as everybody is untitled to their opinions ,I too do that to others.However I cannot take people who judge me and pretend to be my friend for nothing .I see you and I dont like you anymore and I dont like to have such people in my life .

I am strong headed who fears nothing but losing people I love.Right now I am mad at myself about not being able to keep people at my side.

Lost a friend.

2014-01-26T22:46:00.003-08:00

You are free,I see you and I do not like you anymore

Homegrown-Urban Gardening - Container Gardening

2014-01-21T07:26:00.000-08:00

I think my gardening obsession began with my mom. Thanks to the beautiful garden my parents managed to put up in ground floor house in Hyderabad ,India.

Here is the picture of something that I have managed to grow from the seedlings , not to forget to mention that I live in Dubai now and the climate here can be very harsh . The temperature in summer reaches up to 50 degrees followed by mild rain in the winters which is of much relief .

Anyway, since my childhood I have always managed to have a sprig of something growing in a pot on my window or patio. At-least, I have managed to keep a basil plant growing which has a spiritual side to it.They surely have brightened the place up and Now, in my new apartment,

I am growing tomatoes,marigold,table rose,vinca rose,dwarf lemons,Aloevera, pothos (Money plant),Kalanchoe,pepper chilles,cherry tomatoes,rotala indica,parsley, mint and two beautiful flowering cactus. I am so excited about having more space and being able to grow more of what I eat.

This is how I stated.

Aloevera (Recycled mother dairy Ice cream box)

Marigold

A Small portion of the balcony .

#HappyDay

2014-01-21T07:25:00.000-08:00

So much to look forward to....

Note to self: Never give up!

PS:This place Rocks!!!!!

Happy New Year 2014

2014-01-01T22:06:00.000-08:00

I hope we have the happiest year! I hope we're in great health, physically and mentally. I hope we smile absolutely genuine smiles really often, and live in the moment, and laugh till our tummies ache. I hope we discover some great films, books and music. I hope we learn a lot. I hope we find time to try our hand at some of all the things we've wanted to give a shot at. I hope good luck shows up frequently. I hope we find joy and contentment in our work but remain dissatisfied enough to keep us going for more, for better, for the best we can do. I hope we get a lot closer to the best we can be. I hope we feel a little more understood, a little more important, and a lot more loved. I hope we're kind, I hope we give generously, I hope we're sincere, and I hope we find the peace of mind that comes only from having a clear conscience. I hope we're safe from all that might cause harm or hurt. I hope life doesn't get too tough on us, but if it must, I hope we find all the support and courage we need to keep going. I hope we realize and consistently remember what we're worth, because we're worth so, so much.

Have a great year! Lots of love.

Desires

2013-10-27T04:29:00.003-07:00

I think life reads lists backwards. How else would we explain that the last thing I need tends to show up most promptly? Also, life, stop taking everything literally. When I say "last thing I need" I mean "don't need at all." Okay?

Nothing changes things ..like this one

2013-10-24T01:40:00.003-07:00

As she silently settled onto her seat, her eyes vividly began dancing and established themselves on the page that her fingers tried to trace.

She began reading.

You and I might be forced to think that she was oblivious to the silence around her, but we might think, or we may think, or it may not be so.
Her loneliness in the dead of the night surprised her, and made her weirdly content.
And suddenly, almost notoriously, the water droplets began to spur her. They came, almost abruptly, like perhaps, by accident. She panicked, and her arms closed around her book.
What followed was an awkward moment, wherein she couldn't decide if closing the window was a better option to moving.
And then, as abruptly as before, she calmed down and smiled.
She sat where she did, did not rush to close the window, and let the rain drops replenish her troubled frowns and soothe them.She marveled at the peace that's infused in the most unexpected moments.

Nouveau la vie

2013-08-12T04:40:00.002-07:00

Well a lot has changed lately ,some of it may just include the following :

My taste for country music
My food habits
My marital status
My country of residence
My current occupation - I am no longer that uptight office chic that I used to be .

I kinda love my new life . I have moved to the Persian gulf from the Arabian coastal .This would be first of its kind that I have left my country and moved to an amazing place with my love ,which I now call it " My Home".

Looks like the heart is settled now.I couldn't have asked for more . I miss my friends,mom, dad ,brother and my extended family .I love you all.

I am notta witter !

2012-08-19T23:37:00.002-07:00

I feel compelled to write ,but I am not a writer. Ask any one of the grammar divas in my circle of friends and they will tell you that I am most definitely NOT a writer.

Why should I write? What do I have to say? Who really wants to read the strange thoughts that fall out of my head? These are just a few of the things that keep me from writing. Those and a myriad of others including the very thought that if I write others will know and understand how completely nuts I am

A repository of stray thoughts is what my blog is ....which make no sense at all.

Eid Mubharak !

2012-08-19T23:05:00.002-07:00

Such a peaceful day , bank holiday and most importantly I am happy and content deep inside.

I have very less knowledge on the entire Eid and how it works.Some how It never interested me much . This post is not about what I feel about Eid . Ideally speaking Eid is just another bank holiday for me. I do not understand the importance of it.Anyhow Eid Mubharak to all the people in the world.

May god shower peace , happiness and prosperity in the world.

Peace !

Welcome Back !!

2012-08-19T09:14:00.000-07:00

This one is not for the readers.This one is for me.

I used to like reading ,writing ,singing and so many things(I cant even remember )and all of a sudden I have lost interest in everything. Things have changed off late so much ,may be this is my 4rth or 5th failed attempt to jot down what I feel.

Now here you go... a quick update for those who don't know ,whats going on?

Update no.1 Well I have relocated to a better city ,Bangalore-The garden city of India. Well that's a awesome misnomer ,it should ideally be called as "Garbage city of India ".(Thanks to all the unplanned waste disposal in my society )Reason for my relocation is my new Job and I absolutely HATE my job . However .Thanks to my team of 6 girls who make it a awesome place to work .

Update no.2 My parents have moved in with me. So when you come back home. Sparkling floors ,Delicious mom made food .Perfectly ironed clothes. Whatta life!

Update no.3. I have joined Gym. My goal is to lose 15-20 kg of weight and I have decided to be 50Kgs Before my wedding.

Update no.4 Yes you read it right .."MY WEDDING". I am getting married next year for which my parents have started preparation now itself.Sigh!

More of it coming soon! keep reading ... :)

2011-11-06T10:46:00.000-08:00

Hi guys ..back to Cochin after a 15 days timeout for family. Had a great time with traveling all the time .Now I am in a Super Homesick state :(

Its 15 min past 12 and i am not able to sleep.

I have decided to be regular in the blog.

2011-05-15T07:53:00.000-07:00

Just a kind of a day to remind me again of human limitations, sometimes our genuine inability to judge right from wrong and unpredictability of time....Our inability to understand how nature works and how People change ..How we are just Helpless!

I am heart broken

2011-04-25T11:35:00.000-07:00

PS.Everybody need sometime..

It happens ..its called non spontaneous reaction

2011-04-14T22:57:00.000-07:00

What happens when what you don’t expect Happens...Good, bad ,ugly,painful,anything. Like for example you never decide to fall in love ..do you??? but still you fall for someone..You make promises ,You make love, you take commitments and at some point of time you fail. Again something what you did not expect to happen ..But it happens ...Its destiny, fate..blah blah bullshit!

(oKay.. I am not starting that karma-destiny-fate shit again)

What the heck is wrong with me I make everything sound so dull boring and brown in colour ...like you are watching the van hellsing or harry potter. Now must be wondering why the hell this post is even publicised. ...Well In short i just happen to meet one of my 13 yr old friend accidently. I met him last when super cyclone came in Orissa in 1999 . (did i just sounds like some 75 year old granyy ..)

Its happy and weird at the same time...when you are dressed in your shabbiest outfit ever , and you have decided to experiment with worst smelling hair oil today ,you cant find your deodorant in the heap of your dirty clothes..n you are out in your bathroom slippers ...never but just today!

On the top of it ....(check out this scene..TOTAL FILMY) I was just finishing my fresh mint lime he bumps the question

D: “Are you J***i” ? :)

Me:.(with a sick face :( ) YESS

D:we are school friends ...remember :)

Me:NO... (Go-away expression ..slipping lime in peace !)

D: I am D..your classmate n neighbour ...same school Remember.. :)

Me : ..(finally recognised ) All happy n exicted suddenly . :D

DROPPED THE GLASS (kraaaaaak booooooooom slurrrrrrrrrrrrr zzzzzzzzzzzz)

Yes thats Wat I do when I do not expect things to happen and then they happen...........I am a non-spontaneous human being and I give non spontaneous reaction ! Sigh!

Fate

2011-04-13T19:43:00.001-07:00

I have always thought a lot about destiny/ fate/ karma....
...
Are we born with a particular life-course charted out and pre-planned for us?
That no matter what decisions we make...no matter what paths we choose... we finally end up doing the same things, meeting the same people and experiencing everything else we would have, had we taken another route??
Had I chosen another school, university, profession or company would I have had a different life or through some twist of fate... through some other means it would have been a mirror image of my current life???
...
Or do we start out with a clean slate? Solely responsible for however we may turn out...
Living our life as a result of the decisions we make....
That there is a possibility of many alternative lives...some better... some worse...
Its quite a scary thought that there is no one else to blame but ourselves for whatever happens...
...
Sometimes I wish I could live my life over and over again.... making different decisions everytime just to see how I would turn out in the end... Pure curiosity, of course!
....
Or what if there was a machine created which showed us the future effects of all our decisions... we could have perfect lives... erase all mistakes before they happened....
But then that would mean that Life would lose its element of surprise....
Afterall, its no fun to read a book when you already know its end, is it?

Core leave 3rd March-21st March

2011-03-03T19:41:00.000-08:00

Finally I have become lucky enough to go home and spend some time with my people.
If I need to be very specific ..I would say its been 9 months and more since I saw my family and I further filter it down to something called a quality time , its been more than 8 years since i ever spend some good time with my bother and more than 3 years with mom-dad. Guess when you learn how to earn money ..you need to compromise on lot more.

More of vizag dairies and Calcutta dairies coming up .Gonna spend some real quality time with family .Gonna explore vizag and Calcutta .

Cheers to my home coming ! Cheers to my core leave ~

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Yes..I am the problem

2011-02-28T07:50:00.000-08:00

I have been doing this introspection sort of thing from past few days and one thing I have realized for a large portion of my life I thought everyone else was the problem. A common thought, correct?

But how could the whole world, with over billions and billions of people be in the wrong, and I be in the right? (sorry if this was not stated in proper English (I am not a great writer nor a great speaker ...)by the way...granted this is a broad generalization-- but you know what I mean.I lost my friends. I never made a attempt to catch up with them.Maybe it wasn't cause they were snobby and not my types , maybe it was because I was hyper and a little care free and I am too careless about relationships of that degree.

I have had two jobs and I had problems with both my jobs and people around me -- maybe the people weren't all totatlly stupid-- maybe it was because I was an arrogant little toddler in my first job who thought I was better than the job.I think I am very Talented (A degree from a university doesn't mean a damn if you have no job skills and most importantly interpersonal skills)...
My Relationship with my guy dint work not because he was jerk .. probably I was being a total bitch there and he is better off without me :) God bless!!

My bad ..I just dont think that..... i could be a problem to people!

No point but ...but how do I put this realization to use?

I haven't figured that out totally, except I am slightly more humbled perhaps....