I'm Not Pregnant, I'm Just Fat!

3 years later.....

2013-12-26T23:10:00.001-05:00

Okay so I just went back to re-read my blog to get back the motivation I used to have and I see that it's been almost 3 years since my last post! So much has happened! Here's a recap:

*We moved to WA and I was so excited to join the YMCA, but they only accepted kids who could walk and Ethan was just 7 months old.

*We moved to Georgia just 6 months after getting to WA. I had another baby, Mason Thomas Kipp, in January 2012.

*We moved to Louisiana in July 2012 and I had a baby girl, Emma Grace Kipp, in May 2013.

So we are still in Louisiana now and I'm a busy mom of 4 and I'm STILL in school. I was so stressed over being 221lbs back then and today I'm 255.

It's the day after Christmas, so less than a week until a new year begins. It is time. I am ready.

Let's Do This!!!!!!!

Bleh.....

2011-01-25T09:48:00.002-05:00

Okay, I'm really annoyed that I got sick and ate crappy for a couple of days and gained back the 3 pounds it took me 2 weeks to lose. I'm so frustrated with losing inches instead of pounds! I want to see a difference on the scale so badly! I am also super stressed by trying to sort out all the details of this move so I'm sure that's not helping either. I'm just going to try to maintain until I get out to WA and then I'm going to join the YMCA and work with a trainer to get this weight off. I'm not giving up yet!!!!!!

A bump in the road...

2011-01-21T09:09:00.000-05:00

So I really enjoyed my free trial of Weight Watchers, but now I can't afford to join because it's so expensive, so I won't be joining until we get our tax returns. I still have a lot of the Smart Ones meals so I can try to eat those and keep doing my workout and hope I see some results. I'm not giving up!

We are moving in 23 days so I am excited to get out there and hopefully find a workout buddy!

Still working it!

2011-01-19T21:30:00.000-05:00

I am so happy I'm still doing Weight Watchers and it's pretty easy to follow. I really can't believe that I am actually still following the program, as this is probably the longest I have actually stayed on a diet. I'm still doing my Wii workout too! Hoping to start seeing some real results soon!

I started my workout again today!

2011-01-15T21:24:00.000-05:00

I did my EA Active workout today for the first time in I don't know how long. It was hard, but it was good too! It gave me energy for the day! I am going to do it again tomorrow and I hope to finish the 30-day challenge!

Day 4 of Weight Watchers

2011-01-12T21:45:00.000-05:00

I am still really enjoying Weight Watchers! I had my one "splurge" meal with 35 flex points tonight - spicy chicken on a wheat hoagie roll plus cheese and a tiny smudge of mayonnaise. It was good, but after I finished it I felt like I had eaten junk after several days of healthier fare.

Either way, I'm happy with the way I'm feeling and looking and of course, that I've lost weight, so I'm gonna keep it up!

Day 3 of Weight Watchers!

2011-01-11T18:34:00.000-05:00

I am down another 1.8 pounds, so 4 pounds down in 2 days! Makes me happy! It's 6:30pm and I have 12 points left so I am going to have filet mignon, a plain sweet potato, and some broccoli and cauliflower for dinner. I really love the Smart Ones meals, but I have to get my points in for the day so this meal will give me the extra points I need. I slept late today so for lunch I had Tuna Noodle Gratin and then later in the day I had the Chicken Parmesan. I had the Chocolate Fudge Brownie Sundae and I still have points leftover!

It's amazing to me how I have been full with the portions allotted with the Weight Watchers meals. I am really happy with 4 lbs in 2 day and I hope it keeps up! I need to start my workouts again, but I've just been busy. Soon I will start to add back in the workouts and I hope the weight will just fall off! I am happy that I have all of these desserts so I can fulfill my cravings for sweets and not feel guilty.

Eventually I will have to start eating regular food again, but for now I'm enjoying not cooking anything! I am hoping to eat mostly Smart Ones meals for about a month to see how that goes, then I'll start adding in more fresh foods again.

Day 2 of Weight Watchers!

2011-01-10T17:07:00.000-05:00

Well, I was so happy to get up this morning and I weighed myself on the Wii and I am down 2.2 pounds from yesterday! Who cares if it's all water, it's a movement in the numbers and I want to keep that up! Today I ate a ham and cheese breakfast scramble, which is one of the Smart Ones meals. It wasn't that good, so I would rather have a bowl of cereal or oatmeal for less points! I had two mid-day meals several hours apart. One was Chicken Fettucine, which was good, and the turkey and mashed potatoes, which was also pretty good! I also enjoyed a cookies and cream giant ice cream bar, which was only 2 points, and it was really delicious! I still have points left for dinner and dessert so I'm totally satisfied with this diet! I mean, I just love that the meals are easy and they taste great and I also get 2 desserts a day! Let's see what tomorrow brings!

Slim Fast Sucks, On to Weight Watchers!

2011-01-09T20:54:00.000-05:00

Today was my first day of Weight Watchers. I already like it so much better than Slim Fast! With Slim Fast, I was always trying to figure out what to eat and I was always STARVING! Today I had:

Breakfast - 3 strips of bacon, 2 eggs fried with 1 tsp of butter - 9 points
Lunch - WW Smart Ones Pepperoni Pizza - 8 points
Dinner - Broccoli and Cheddar Roasted Potatoes - 6 points
Dessert - Peanut Butter Cup Sundae - 3 points
For a grand total of 25 points.

I am allowed 24-29 points per day so I am shooting for 26 points a day and I did great today and wasn't hungry! The meals were actually really good (especially that dessert - YUM!) so it was easy to stay with it. With Slim Fast, the shakes were good, but they didn't keep me full, and I had to try to guess what snacks to have etc. With Weight Watchers, I am buying those Smart Ones meals and I'll just have one of those or if I decide I want to have some "regular" food, I will have my little sheet to plan a meal within my daily points. Or I will use my 35 bonus points per week for one little splurge. I honestly don't feel like I will need a splurge though, as I was satisfied all day and the dessert at the end of the day was like my reward for doing well all day!

I finally feel like this is a diet I can stick with. Let's see how tomorrow goes - I'm off work and I will probably be sitting around wanting to eat all day! I have to keep strong and hope I don't feel that way!

Yay! A little bit of progress (finally!!!)

2011-01-04T21:36:00.000-05:00

So I finally got on the scale today and saw a new number! My highest recent weight was 223 and today my weight was 217!!!! Yay!!!!! And today, not ONE PERSON asked me when I was due. I am so happy and I can't wait to keep going! Still not doing the best at dinner (we had Wendy's tonight) but I'm doing so well during the day with my 1 or 2 Slim Fast shakes, bananas, apples, carrots, and almonds.

I hate being fat

2011-01-03T19:58:00.000-05:00

I have been doing really well with my eating, yet I haven't dropped a pound. I'm so frustrated and pissed off! I have no time to work out, nor the energy to do so. Every day I have to deal with a ton of assholes telling me how pregnant I look. It's just so rude. And they are usually some lard ass themselves, who just happen to carry their weight all over their body and not just in their midsection like me.

GOD I HATE RUDE PEOPLE!!!!

Ok, rant over.

YOU On A Diet

2011-01-02T20:21:00.000-05:00

It's been really hard to follow Slim Fast. I have been doing great during the day, but nighttime is when I can't control myself. I have a shake and a banana for breakfast and then for lunch I have a shake and some apples or carrots and my snacks have been almonds, bananas, apples or carrots. When I get home from dinner, I absolutely pig out. I eat everything in sight. I just can't get the balance right on the eating.

I just got the book YOU On A Diet by Dr. Oz and Dr. Roizen from the library. It's really interesting and I never really realized why I was so big in my midsection, even though I had gained so much weight, it mostly went to my mid-section. It's inflammation from the foods I eat! So the YOU plan is pretty simple (or so I say now, because I haven't done it yet) because it doesn't require a lot of exercise, just 30 mins a day of walking and 30 mins one day a week of strength training and the book gives specific exercises to do. There is also a food plan, which is really almost impossible for me to follow because I am such a picky eater.

I think what I need to do is just eat as many fruits and veggies as I want until I stay full and only allow myself to have meat, cheese, and sweets once a week. I hope I can do it. I just don't know if I can make it or not. I get discouraged so easily because I don't see the scale moving fast enough or notice my clothes fitting differently.

It's also next to impossible to fit in exercise. I know it's only 30 mins of walking a day and 1 day a week of strength training, but I'm BUSY! As it is, Chad is constantly telling me I don't spend enough time with the kids or help out enough around the house, and school starts Wednesday so I'll have even less time to try to get in some exercise.

I guess I'll just do the best I can and see how it goes. I'm really discouraged right now and just wish I had never let myself get this fat. It sucks to look in the mirror and hate what I see. It sucks to go to work every day and have people ask me constantly how pregnant I am or ask when I'm due. I just want to scream I'M NOT FUCKING PREGNANT, LEAVE ME ALONE!!! ...but then I'd probably lose my job, so I can't do that.

Day 3

2010-12-29T09:48:00.000-05:00

I had breakfast today instead of a shake. I hope I can do well the rest of the day! Slim Fast is hard to follow because even eating extra snacks of fruits, veggies, and nuts, I still feel like I'm starving.

Day 2

2010-12-27T19:58:00.000-05:00

I am doing pretty good on the Slim Fast diet during the day, but the "sensible dinner" has been just whatever I want to eat. I'm proud of myself for at least doing well during the day, as I keep going I will get used to less food and will not have so many cravings - I hope! Ha! I was 223 on Sunday and this morning (Monday) I was 220. That's awesome! I know it's all water, etc but still, just to see the scale move is amazing. I need to stop weighing myself every day but I can't stop myself! Working during the day makes it nice because I am busy and don't just sit around thinking about food, but as soon as I get home I can just sit and think about what to eat and I never want healthy stuff! I can't wait til my boobs finish drying up so I can add in exercise also.

Slim Fast 3-2-1

2010-12-26T07:25:00.000-05:00

Today is my first day doing the Slim Fast 3-2-1 plan. 3 snacks, 2 shakes or meal replacement bars and 1 balanced meal a day. I am trying to stop breastfeeding so I'm really engorged and sore right now so I'm not starting any workout til my chest feels much better, hopefully in the next week.

So I'm nervous about the Slim Fast plan. I really hope I can stick with it!

My meal plan for today:
Breakfast - Shake + Fruit
Snack - Banana
Lunch - Shake
Snack - Apples
Dinner - Grilled chicken, broccoli, sweet potato
Snack - Snack Bar

I hope I can make it through one week without cheating so I can get an accurate idea of how this will work for me. I weighed myself and after all my holiday eating I am at 222 lbs. Ugh. I hope to drop a few quick pounds in the first week, that should get me motivated to keep going. I liked seeing the inches lost when I was working out, but I desperately need to see the scale move or I completely lose motivation.

Okay, I haven't quit, but I haven't restarted yet either!

2010-12-22T14:55:00.000-05:00

I have been so busy, I haven't restarted the cardio kickstart program and I know I really need to but I'm hoping to get started after Christmas. I'm ready for things to settle down, but school starts back up in a week and I'm just thinking of all there is to get done!

Tomorrow is a new day....Day 1 again LOL

2010-12-18T18:53:00.000-05:00

Okay, I am restarting the 3 week cardio kickstart tomorrow! I hate that I have to start over, but I got so far behind when I started work. Anyway, tomorrow is day 1 again and I'm excited! I'm going to keep the photos and measurements the same and I'll take and post some more pics in the morning.

End of Week 2 Measurements

2010-12-18T07:53:00.001-05:00

So while I didn't workout as much as I was supposed to, you will see below I still lost some inches. The scale I thought went down a pound, but when I checked my measurement sheet it is exactly the same. Haven't done so well with my eating again. I'm going to really try to eat better this week and fit in my workout. I'm going to have to restart my 3 week cardio kickstart because I'm too far behind in my workouts to keep going, but I'm not giving up!!!

Body Part        Begin      End Week 1    End Week 2      Difference
Neck               16.50        15.50                15                  -1.5
Bust                 46.00         45.00              44                  -2.0
Right Arm        13.50          13.50             12.75               -.75
Left Arm          13.50         13.50              12.75               -.75
Waist               49.50          46.25              45.25              -4.25
Hips                 49.75          47.00              46.75               -3.00
Right Thigh       26.50          26.00              25.50                -1.00
Left Thigh         26.50         26.00             24.50               -2.00
TOTAL INCHES LOST OVER TWO WEEKS 15.25!!!!

I've been a bad, bad girl..........

2010-12-17T18:54:00.000-05:00

I haven't done my workouts!!! Grrrr I know I need to do it but I'm sooo tired after work. I am going to have to restart the 3 week cardio kickstart unless I do 3 workouts tomorrow. But I'm fine with starting over, because I don't want to give up! I've been so busy at work, but there's just a lot to learn right now and that's why I come home so tired. Well, I am going to work 9-1 tomorrow so when I get home I am going to try to do 3 workouts and catch up and if I can't do it, I will start over on Sunday. I can't wait til tomorrow morning to do my measurements! And my new photos! I doubt there's been much change this week, but fingers crossed there has been!

Week 2 Day 5 - Bad day

2010-12-15T19:10:00.000-05:00

I didn't do my workout today. I am feeling worse than ever. I had to see the doctor again today and they said it could take several more days for me to start feeling an improvement. In case you didn't know, I have a staph infection in my milk ducts and the staph was detected after the doctor did a culture on my breast milk. It is extremely painful and after a lot of thought and effort, I have decided to take the doctor's advice and stop breast feeding. That is extremely painful too! I really hope to do my workout tomorrow (it is a workout day, I will either have to do 2 tomorrow, Friday, or Saturday). I definitely know I haven't lost a pound this week, but I'm anxious to do my measurements and see if I've lost any inches. I'm definitely not losing my motivation, it's just hard to think about working out when I'm in so much pain.

On a happier note, I am starting my new job at Wal-Mart tomorrow! We all know how much I love Wal-Mart so I'm pretty excited, not to mention I'll be getting some exercise just by being up on my feet all day!

Week 2 Day 4 - Rest Day!

2010-12-14T17:30:00.000-05:00

I have enjoyed my rest day, especially since I didn't have much school work to do, just a little tinkering with my school project. I finished my Christmas cards, hung out with the kids, and took a nice long nap! :)

BUT...........................the cravings set in and I begged and pleaded until Chad went and got me a bacon cheeseburger combo meal from Hardee's with a root beer. It was sooooo good but the whole time I was eating it was thinking about how I had to write it on my blog and it was depressing. I only had about half the burger and was so stuffed I couldn't take another bite, which makes me happy because I used to have the stomach capacity to eat a whole large combo meal plus dessert! Anyway, I have to tell on myself for eating this naughty meal but I was having such strooooong cravings!!

I can't wait til I don't have cravings anymore! Other than my slip ups here and there, I'm actually doing much better than I thought I would be doing!

Workout tomorrow!!

Kipp Family Christmas Card 2010

2010-12-14T09:46:00.000-05:00

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year from our house to yours!!

Week 2 Day 3

2010-12-13T20:33:00.000-05:00

Today was a workout day. Phew, those straight arm planks are killer, but they are starting to get easier! The foot fires are sooo hard, but those are getting a little easier too! I am starting to look forward to these workouts, so that makes me happy!

I had a really yummy dinner tonight - New York strip, sweet potato, mixed veggies, and a multi-grain roll. Delicious!

I also found these wonderful Weight Watchers ice cream treats that are 100 calories a piece. I seriously am not ready to live without chocolate, so I got these for when I'm having cravings because they are low calorie!

Week 2 Day 2 - Rest Day!

2010-12-12T19:37:00.002-05:00

I enjoyed my rest day, I did really well with my eating and I'm looking forward to my workout tomorrow!

End of Week 1 Photos!

2010-12-11T18:40:00.000-05:00

Beginning at Left, End of Week 1 at Right

The front! My stomach looks a little different in this picture, but you can't tell much what the results are.

Beginning at Left, End of Week 1 at Right

This picture amazes me and makes me so happy! I just can't believe the change in my stomach and my back already. I just think if I had eaten healthier I could haven't gotten even better results!

Beginning at Left, End of Week 1 at Right

The back! If you look at my back in the first picture and see the top little fat roll is about the same, but the big spare tire underneath has reduced dramatically in just one week!!!