Laurie Lehner

Summer 2011 in Washington Square Park

2012-02-09T18:13:00.002-05:00

Dear Ex-Boyfriend on Facebook,

2012-02-05T20:06:00.001-05:00

Dear Ex-Boyfriend on Facebook,
It's fine that you exist
I just don't want to see your updates on my newsfeed list
It's not so bad I'd 'block' you,
Or even 'unfriend',
I'll just 'unsubscribe your updates'
And be right as rain again

But to 'unsubscribe your updates'
I gotta visit your Facebook page
Which means I have to click
That little icon of your face,
being kissed by your new girlfriend
I really hate her face
The thought of you together makes me-
-CLICK-
-CLICK-
Oh shit, I clicked your photos
I don't know how that happened
I don't wanna see that you're happy
Or god forbid with HER
Oh look! It's you and your new girlfriend
Vacationing together
I guess it's "getting serious"
Despite your 'relationship status'......
-CLICK-

So now it's finally over
The Facebook deed is done
And I have 'one new notification'
-CLICK-

Dear Ex-Boyfriend's new girlfriend on Facebook,
I hate that you exist
And we know all the same people
Even though we are not friends
I get to see when we both comment
On a photograph
Of a friend of mine slash friend of his
Wearing a funny hat (on New Year's)
Evil takes the form of me and him together, true
But Hell hath no idea what fury is when I see you
And your new boyfriend on Facebook
And so it's come to this
Cause it really bums me out all day
To see your name or his
So, Dear Ex-"Bf" on "Fb",
Our time has come and passed
As noted by your 'Timeline',
Which, forgive me,
Looks like crap
I still get invites to your band gigs,
I know how you guys rock,
But if you don't want my love
Then you don't get my 'Like' on Facebook,
'-BLOCK-'.

Dear Ex-Boyfriend on Facebook

2012-02-04T22:31:00.002-05:00

Dear Ex-Boyfriend on Facebook,
It's fine that you exist
I just don't want to see your updates on my newsfeed list
It's not so bad I'd 'block' you,
Or even 'unfriend',
I'll just 'unsubscribe your updates'
And be right as rain again

But to 'unsubscribe your updates'
I gotta visit your Facebook page
Which means I have to click
That little icon of your face,
being kissed by your new girlfriend
I really hate her face
And the thought of you together makes me-
-CLICK-
-CLICK-
Oh shit, I clicked your photos
I don't know why I did that
I don't wanna see that you're happy
Or god forbid with HER
Oh look! It's you and your new girlfriend
Vacationing together
I guess 'things are getting serious'
Despite your 'relationship status'......
-CLICK-

So now it's finally over
The Facebook deed is done
And I have 'one new notification'
-CLICK-

Dear Ex-Boyfriend's new girlfriend on Facebook,
I hate that you exist
And we know all the same people
Even though we are not friends
I get to see when we both comment
On a photograph
Of a friend of mine slash friend of his
Wearing a funny hat (on New Year's)
Evil takes the form of me and him together, true
But Hell hath no idea what fury is when I see you
And your new boyfriend on Facebook
And so it's come to this
Cause it really bums me out all day
To see your name or his
So, Dear Ex-"Bf" on "Fb",
Our time has come and passed
As noted by your 'Timeline',
Which, forgive me,
Looks like crap
I still get invites to your band gigs,
I know how you guys rock,
But if you don't want my love
Then you don't get my 'Like' on Facebook,
'-BLOCK-'.

I stole this pic.

2012-01-24T01:44:00.002-05:00

1/21/12

2012-01-21T19:57:00.000-05:00

I've Got Nothing
Arsen
Heaven in Hell
Risk
Charade
Broken Cup
Keys
Waterfall
Mad Hatter
drink&drink
Hurricane

Bonus Track:
Keanu.

Drink&Drink

2012-01-20T18:10:00.002-05:00

28

^^^click me^^^

http://soundcloud.com/ivak4eto/28-1#share

7

2012-01-20T17:32:00.001-05:00

7

^^^(click me)^^^

HURRICANE.

(Made with GarageBand. Clear version. Best with headphones)

http://soundcloud.com/ivak4eto/7-1?utm_source=soundcloud&utm_campaign=share&utm_medium=blogger&utm_content=http://soundcloud.com/ivak4eto/7-1

Hurricane

2012-01-20T02:15:00.000-05:00

I like this

2012-01-19T16:20:00.001-05:00

2012-01-18T20:02:00.002-05:00

Today

2012-01-09T19:27:00.002-05:00

was the most perfect, magical, satisfying day.

2012-01-09T18:43:00.001-05:00

2012-01-09T17:12:00.001-05:00

A very Happy Birthday

2012-01-09T14:57:00.000-05:00

to the love of my life.

Who have I yet to meet? 6/16/07

2012-01-08T02:35:00.001-05:00

In moments passing
When I look back to find these days explained
Who will have had an unmistakeable presence there?
Who have I yet to meet
But already know better than anyone?

'I knew you then as I know you now'
Little girl spoke aloud to an empty room
These words that would not be silent
Its been a while but I remember now
I remember how I was telling them
To you

And you,
What I find in every, every breath
This moment is all moments
Little girl of 23
Wrap your mind around it
This body that knows your body,
(it isn't so strange)
Remembers moments with you that have yet to be
The curve of your back
The strength in your arms
The way you wrap them around me

I'm just living it for the first time
I'm just remembering it today
I think I wasn't ready for the things you had to say
It was you, who led myself to me
When you led myself to you...

And I am different now

Lately 6/12/07

2012-01-08T02:24:00.001-05:00

Lately
I wake up knowing I've missed something
I'm late.
It's passing me by and I
Am still in bed
I must have been asleep forever
It feels wrong
Too long
I reach for my alarm and it goes off in my hand
I find myself searching for
Seeing metaphor
Where there may be none
Some kind of meaning
Dreaming wide awake

Battle For the Seventh Day 2007

2012-01-08T02:18:00.001-05:00

Betrayed by their kings they gather in the streets
Still holding to their plans and things
Holding hands and things
Happened here today
They said our innocence has gone away

And they're talking to each other
About how far they're gonna walk
And they're talking to each other
And all they do is talk

Just Friends 2005

2012-01-08T02:05:00.000-05:00

Hey, Mr. Articulate, way to blatantly misuse the word friend
Oh, I see, a 'friend' you turn your back on when she's ill
I swear, I've had my fill of chasing you around
Because recently I've found that all it gets me
Is the back of your head
This is coming from a friend
You know the one who sleeps with you at night
Who tells you, 'it's alright, you're brilliant,
And someday soon the world will see'
I'm something of a novelty, a guarantee,
A constant validation for your low self-esteem

And then you say the word "friend"
And it instantly infuriates
The manic that that word creates
Inside of me is something obscene
I mean, it's mean
The way you're stringing me along
I guess I'm partly in the wrong
For sticking with you when you said "don't invest"
Was it a test? Did I pass? Is this school?
Disclaimers don't make you exempt for breaking the rules
It was cruel, and somehow you think it's got me fooled
You use it as a tool so you can disappear then show up again
And pretend that we're not more than just friends

And Hey, Mr. inconspicuous,
I guess that we're just friends who kiss
I don't think that my 'friendship' is the thing that you'd miss
Gotta love how you insist, Mr. Retro-misogynist,
You're never gonna settle down
You flash your shit all over town
And Mr. Non-Committal, that shit will get old fast

I think your acting like a child, Mr. Denial
Why not accept responsibility for being
Who you wanna be instead of making me feel
Like I'm not good enough?
I'm sure it's tough have women fall all over you
I guess the best that you can do is screw them
Then come looking for me
Can't wait to see your face
Now I don't need you anymore
I'll walk my ass right out your door
And when you realize that I'm not at your command
And I won't be there to hold you in the night
And tell you it's alright
When I'm not there waiting in the palm of you hand
Then we'll see just how you get on by yourself
When I'm not sitting on you shelf to pick up
When you're lonely again
When I tell you
I'm not your fucking friend.

Trilogy 2006

2012-01-08T01:49:00.001-05:00

You can't see the stars here
I forget they exist
I don't know if they're still there
They don't know that their missed

At most, nothing less than a fantasy
And at least fantasies never end
But to say it was short of a prophecy
Well that would be hard to defend

The Universe said this was meant to be
And Time also quick to agree
But can they know what this has meant to me
When the moment arrives, then we'll see

Then that moment, it starts to unravel
That moment the plot takes a bend
Leaves the heroine frozen in horror
And we suddenly know what impends

By the time that she figures the ending
The villain's already long gone
But the trouble is, so is the hero
And he'll never know what went on

Like the twist that no one saw coming
It's just what the director intends
Where's the audience leaving the cinema
Saying 'can't believe that's how it ends'?

Interlude 2006

2012-01-08T01:43:00.000-05:00

I won't cry for you again
There are no more tears
I'll just write this wrong again
And think about
The years that I will give to you
The time I'll throw away on you
The things that I'll give up for you
The lengths that I will go for you
When all I really am to you
Is an Interlude
You are my song, my ultimate,
My muse, it's so unfortunate
That I will never be the one you need
Or anything beside your in between
Its thoughts like these that bring me to my knees
A verse that keeps repeating
And it seems that you can't even hear the tune
And all I'll ever be to you
Is an Interlude

A Little Bit Like You 2006

2012-01-08T01:38:00.000-05:00

Do you sometimes wonder if there might be
A little something wrong with you
And you really are as crazy as they'd like to think?
Would it aound familiar if I said
You're always stuck inside your head
But somehow find your way out when they say
'stay for another drink'?
Are you searching for some answers in a city full of questions
Where it's trendier to be confused than know just what to do?
If you answered 'yes' to one or more of these preceding queries
Then maybe I'm a little bit like you

Do you remember being fearless the last time that you checked?
Then coming off with bruises from the last 'in love' you wrecked?
Did you think that you'd be fine with getting hurt like that again?
Then, did you find you think you changed your mind?

The One Price Charming Forgot 3/27/06

2012-01-08T01:32:00.000-05:00

She runs away and leaves her glass slipper
And no one picks it up
She let's her hair down in her tall tower
And nobody climbs up
She's under that spell
Well let her sleep
Cause that big poison apple's just waiting
To keep her frozen in time

And how the hell does he tell Cinderella
That she isn't good enough
And she can ride around all damn day in that pumpkin
But she'll never have his love
And what's with 'Princess, that was fun
But, baby, you're not the one'?
I think I missed that part of the plot
And now happy ever after
Just fills her little head with laughter
Cause she's the one prince charming forgot

Yeah she's so pretty
But she don't see it
Fantasy is all they want you to be
So be it
Teach your kids of the wish and the kiss
But you never taught em this

3/23/07

2012-01-08T01:26:00.000-05:00

'You're not thin enough'
'You're not ready yet'
To do anything that matters
Who was ready?
Live this way until you die?
When will that be?
When you're ready?

Why did she die?
It was just her time
You know, we rationalize
The mystery of life
With an empty reply
And it's alright
Cause we have nothing else to go on
But we go on

Why do we die?
We ask it all the time
We should live the way we die

Why was she born?
Why is she alive?
The answer remains that
It's just her time
It's just her time
Time to live
Time to start

2/26/07

2012-01-08T01:18:00.002-05:00

Nineteen hundred and three and this world is so big
These our lands are enmassed yet divided by water
Would keep us apart this great distance Would be
heavy the heart burdens ships getting lost at sea
How we tried
And there's still this divide
And then somebody learned how to fly

Our questions unanswered rain down from the sky
Will they silence our voices,
Bound to their choices,
We will we follow misguided
And remain divided
Or will somebody learn how to fly?

Pages 11-14 are "missing"

2012-01-02T02:00:00.000-05:00

(And it is...it is... What?)

Peter said to Mary, 'Sister, I we know that the Savior loved you more than the rest of women. Tell us the words of the Savior which you remember - which you know (but) we do not, nor have we heard them." Mary answered and said, "What is hidden from you will proclaim to you." And she began to speak to them these words: "I," she said, " I saw the Lord in a vision and I said to him, 'Lord, I saw you today in a vision.' He answered and said to me, 'Blessed are you, that you did not waver at the sight of me. For where the mind is, there is the treasure. 'I said to him, 'Lord, now does he who sees the vision see it (through) the soul (or) through the spirit?' The Savior answered and said. 'He does not see through the soul nor through the spirit, but the mind which [is] between the two - that is [what] sees the vision and it is [. ..].' (pp. 11-14 missing)