Mencari Identiti.

On time? What's that? Bull!

2012-01-26T21:54:00.000+08:00

Kalau kau rasa tekanan kenal orang yang tak reti menepati masa,

kau patut bercinta dengan boyfriend aku.

Boleh bunuh diri menunggu (hiperbola).

Kualiti?

2012-01-23T22:31:00.001+08:00

Orang sekarang lebih prefer blog yang tak reti mengeja dan bajet-bajet saja memang motif setakat nak berlawan follower tanpa ada pengisian yang boleh dibuat berfikir dan dikongsi bersama. Apalah nasib blog berkualiti seperti Mencari Identiti (ok, perasan gila b*b*!) ni? Entah.

Takpalah. Janji jangan blog tu mempunyai pengisian berunsur fitnah dan caci-maki. Setiap penulis ada cerita mereka dan cara meluahkan serta perkongsian yang tersendiri. Kan? :)

Ps. Aku nak cuba share link blog aku at least sehari sekali lah kat Facebook. Ok tak? Pffftt

Different Generations .

2012-01-23T22:20:00.001+08:00

Posting as many entries as I can (even though they're not interesting, yes I know) since I still got the time before I start my practical training on January 30th until February 29th. Not to say that I will not be posting anything here during that period, it's just that I'm not counting on it -_-"

I'll be an intern insyaAllah at Agensi Pekerjaan Intelek located in Section 20, Shah Alam. May take more or less 10 to 15 minutes or maybe more depending on the traffic. Pray for me that I'll be just fine there! Getting more nervous as the day approaches. My working hours will be from 8:30 a.m. till 6:00 p.m.! Gaaah~ T_T

- - - -

I'm currently seeing / getting to know a man who's 7 years older than me in which the generation gap can be clearly seen there. He's from the 80s & I'm the 90s kid :) Not that I would like to talk about him actually, it's just that I realized that there are so many things in between our ages.

Source: Google Images.

Every generation is special in its own way. We can never or we SHOULD NEVER judge our parents or the grandparents as old-fashioned or conservative because what they didn't see or have what we had now. Honestly I found some of their extinct traditions quite fascinating too. What we should do is to tolerate with each other and try to share and learn together (i.e. the Internet, of course). All of us are interdependent of one another. Youngsters today learn from the elders past and the elders need to be updated with the latest trends ;)

My relationship with Sir Y allows me to befriended with nice people ranging from my age, 21 until 31 more or less. We were once invited by his best friend since high school to come over to her house simply to have lunch and she cooked nice meals. We just sat there at her house, eating, talking and sharing, cleaning afterwards for hours! Well call me archaic but I like that. It looks more, I don't know, erm . . mature perhaps? Feels comfortable too.

No offense anyone but I found my generation's culture is not that . . oh well, interesting. Maybe I'm just a little bit more of an introvert than an extro but honestly, I don't really fancy the idea of hanging around at malls or restaurants or cafes for hours laughing out loud until people look at you in their most annoyed expressions and until late at night. The restricted social limitations among genders scare me (it really does!). And it's also a waste of money for someone like me who still depends on the accounts of my parents >.< Currently saving for my future, well who knows when I might be needing them.

Seriously, I don't even know where this entry is actually heading. No misleading perceptions here please. Just, erm oh well, let's just mind the gap difference shall we? :) And learn to respect.

Source: Google Images.

Ps. Alhamdulillah lucky me Sir Y's interests & mine didn't clash that much . Pheeww~

Cancer .

2012-01-23T21:44:00.002+08:00

Had a recent loss in the family. My aunt (dad's little sister), fought cancer until her last days. She's someone who made a huge impact in most of our lives. She's friendly, funny, cheerful, and all those sorts of heartwarming criteria a person could have.

To be honest, I really do not know how to put this together. How her loss has made me think, ponder, about so many things. How long could anyone of us live? No one could tell right? How did we treat the most precious lives that have been bestowed upon us? Have we filled them with ibadah and all or are we still not aware that these are all temporary? The hereafter is what's real, what's permanent, what have been promised, what's coming . . soon enough. Are we ready? Astaghfirullah al'azim, because only He knows that I'm not ready. I'm trying but . . oh well, humans. With all sorts of excuses. Let's pray to be better slaves to the Almighty, Allah s.w.t.

Their family portrait during the last Raya celebration.

What I faced are nothing compared to the struggles my cousins went through. The deceased left 3 children; the eldest is married, a woman, & a man just my age. Hope they'll always be strong. They are currently taking care of our grandmother in Melaka. May their good deeds come with sincerity and they will be rewarded insyaAllah.

Oh btw, I watched the 50/50 movie. Truly inspiring and heartwarming. Made me cry :') Learn to appreciate, people .

Ps. Al-Fatihah for the late Hajah Salmiah binti Hj. Md Said.

Pashi pashi .

2012-01-23T16:01:00.001+08:00

Tekanan masih tak reti pakai pashmina yang panjang dan lebar iteww dengan cantik, kemas, tak menampakkan jelas berwajah bulat, dan menutup dada sepenuhnya. Sekarang semua bajet-bajet cantik padahal dada tertonjol (eh? kasarnya . . .) belakang terdedah. Hmph. Ada link tutorial menarik tak kawan-kawan? *mengeluh*

Ps. Ikan patin masak tempoyak ayah beli kat Kuantan semalam sedap gila. Oh randomnya -___-"

Dust Bunnies !

2012-01-23T15:38:00.000+08:00

BANYAKNYA HABUK!

*tiup tiup*lap-lap*

JUMPA LAGI NANTI!

Petanda.

2011-12-12T17:33:00.000+08:00

Nangis banyak pun tak guna.

Kerja lagi banyak, jangan hilang fokus ya!

Dia dah tak nak, jangan ngada-ngada.

Biarkan saja pergi, kalau itu hendaknya.

Ps. Mata aku ada kutu babi. Serius

H e y . . .

2011-12-11T10:52:00.000+08:00

You are one selfish brat, you know that ? :)

Bersyukurlah!

2011-12-04T22:32:00.001+08:00

Kadang-kadang (BACA: Setiap masa), kita seharusnya tahu tempat kita dan mula belajar untuk PANDAI BERSYUKUR ! Okay, itu saja. Terima kasih.

Ps. [Mari doa sama-sama] Ya Allah ya Tuhanku, janganlah kau putuskan ibadahku dan janganlah kau buangkan ingatanku terhadapMu.

Episod Baru .

2011-11-30T22:03:00.000+08:00

Alhamdulillah. Tahun 1433H tiba sudah.
Ku cuba buka lembaran baru. Seperti mana berjaya kembali ke Juzu' satu.

Mudahan segalanya lancar. Amin

The significant other, insyaAllah .

2011-11-26T18:04:00.001+08:00

Aku syukur ya Allah.

Jika dia adalah jodohku dekatkanlah hati kami ya Allah. Jauhkanlah hubungan kami dari kemaksiatan ya Allah. Berkatilah kami ya Allah. Lindungilah dia ya Allah. Sesungguhnya aku berdoa dialah teman sehidup sematiku ya Allah.

Subhanallah terima kasih ya Allah.

Ps. Mungkin ramai yang tak mengerti, apa manisnya link yang diletakkan di sini, cuma lagu itu menyimpul makna antara kami.

Siapakah?

2011-11-23T17:48:00.001+08:00

Muka tahan nafas tahan perut harus censored.

Gediknyaaaa. Siapakah? Ha ha ha

Ps. Tak payah la nak benci-benci, aku tengah bosan ni. Ngeh ngeh ngeh

Mari bercerita .

2011-11-21T16:08:00.002+08:00

Orang malas memang macam ni. Walaupun esok ada 2 ujian, 1 kuiz, dan 1 pembentangan, diri masih tegar melayari internet dengan penuh bangga. Markah tak seberapa baru tahu nak mengadu kat bunda -____-"

Takpa la, sikit-sikit saja ni. Sikit saja nak cerita. Marilah, marilah bacaaaa *hasut*

Aku baru praktikal dalaman itu hari kat ULPKP (sila rujuk nama penuh pada previous post) selama 3 hari. Hari terakhir baru diberikan sedikit tugasan menaip. Kebanyakan masa aku guna untuk layan 9gag dan membuat nota *ehem* . Mari mari, mari tengok gambar orang gedik :D

Kenapa hari kedua tiada gambar sesetengah daripada anda mungkin bertanya (some of you may ask) ? Hari kedua praktikal aku jatuh pada hari Khamis, 17 November 2011 di mana pada tarikh tersebut aku dan rakan-rakan telah ditugaskan untuk mengendalikan satu acara explorace yang diberi nama Envi-Hunt. Maka, sepanjang hari pada tarikh tersebut aku tak dapat punch card masuk pejabat lah. Pfftt. Mana ada kena punch card pun >.<

Cerita seterusnya:
Mari ikuti sesi balasan SMS aku bersama abang dan kakak tersayang :') *sob sob*

Ahad, 20/11/11, 10:06 pagi (AKU)

"Kt shh alm? Anta gmbr aisyah plz. Boring laaaa prktikal kt ofis ni"

Ahad, 20/11/11, 11:27 pagi (UDA)

"Sori x bls.aisyh tdo.gmba latest"

Ahad, 20/11/11, 11:28 pagi (AKU)

"Fuiyo muka bdk bijak! K thanks, hehe"

*dalam hati, menangissss*

Isnin, 21/11/11, 10:23 pagi (KAK NGAH)

"W/pun demam, tetap tdo penuh b'gaya.. :-) "

Isnin, 21/11/11, 12:09 tengahari (AKU)

"Bila rsult scan dia kuar? Ni yg nk blk ni. Tp byk keje :'( "

Isnin, 21/11/11, 12:35 tengahari (KAK NGAH)

"Rabu ni nk g jmp Dr lg..discuss hasil scan..kalau rasa2 keje xleh siap, byk masa t'buang kt jln..xpyh la blk dulu..nnt keje xsettle, lg gelabah xtenang nk study"

*menangisssss lagi !*

Ada sesiapa faham perasaan aku sekarang? Oh jeritan batinku .

Ps. Aku kena saman sebab memarkir kenderaan di kawasan larangan iaitu parkir staf walaupun tak sampai 45 minit. Ok yang ini aku tak nak nangis.

Selamat pagi !

2011-11-20T07:13:00.000+08:00

Selamat berpraktikal di Unit Latihan Pembangunan & Kepimpinan Pelajar hari yang terakhir Nurdiyanah.

Awesome kids, Cik Yana misses you guys.

Notice the youngest + smallest among three? Yeah, she's playing with a gadget alright -___-"

Ujian .

2011-11-19T22:31:00.000+08:00

Eh?

Takda kaitan .

Lelaki .

2011-11-19T07:33:00.000+08:00

Kaum yang satu ini kalau sejak azali memang dah gatal mengada dah tentu dengan orang (BACA: perempuan) lain pun sama. Kan? Tengok saja cara layanan pada kita. Bodoh, bodoh sendiri senang percaya.

Ps. Perempuan pun lebih kurang saja.

Semalam .

2011-11-18T09:46:00.001+08:00

Semalam ulangtahun kelahiran Encik Y saya.
Dia sambut dengan keluarga 5 hari lepas tapi saya tak ada.
Cuma mampu sumbang kek Secret Recipe yang saya tak dapat rasa.
Hanya dapat membayangkan suasana apabila mesej bergambar diterima.

Umur dia 27 ya kawan-kawan.

T_T

Hari itu pula ulangtahun kelahiran saya.
Sambut lewat sebulan bersama keluarga tetapi dapat kek juga.
Kebetulan dia turut serta mengada-ngada rindu katanya lama tak jumpa.

Umur saya 20 ya kawan-kawan.

Makan malam romantik ditemani keluarga ;p

Selamat ulangtahun kelahiran yang ke-27 awak. Maaf lambat ucapannya, awak pun tahu betapa sibuknya saya. Semoga dipanjangkan umur dan sentiasa dimurahkan rezeki. Paling penting sentiasa di bawah lindungan dan mendapat keberkatanNya. Duit jangan mengada membazir entah ke mana. Ingat misi yang ada ;D Mari berusaha memantapkan iman bersama-sama. Lakukan segalanya dengan penuh keikhlasan terutama apabila bekerja. InsyaAllah diberi kekuatan untuk sentiasa beribadah.

Err . . . erm . . . lain-lain ucapan dalam telefon saja ;)

Jaga diri ya!

Yesterday.

2011-11-13T18:22:00.000+08:00

12.11.11

A year passed.

Pray for this to last.

Amin.

Thank you Yusry, thank you so much.

Books. I Love Books

2011-11-10T17:00:00.001+08:00

Not sure if most of you are aware of this; I love to read. I love reading, especially those written in my second language, English. Not to say that my native language is of no importance to me. It's just that I found English wonderful & erm, more readable? Ha ha -_-" Ok, that's awkward.

English materials usually sound more professional. More informative. More straightforward. Most are easier to digest. To be understood. To be learned. But I can assure you, not all of them. There are only certain types that meet my likings. I don't read thick novels usually turned into movies: Harry Potter & Twilight Saga to name some. I don't read ghost stories; waste of time. Should have summon them if I want, in which, I won't! Eheh.

Some Malay novels written by experienced novelist are good too. The only problem I have with Malay novels are the choice or use of words. Maybe it's just not our nature to be so jiwang-jiwang cair-cair tangkap leleh & all that. Newcomers usually suck in their writing! Pardon me. They thought they delivered nice stories that the readers could relate to their lives especially teenagers today when they actually shouldn't. Such reading materials would only distort readers' thinking. They're still trapped in the 'safe' zone. NOT ALL BUT MOST of the characters created in the novels also picture inappropriate morale for us Muslims. I know you know what I mean. And now don't make me start on Malay dramas / movies (even though I do watch some of them & regret later *sigh*), as well as their songs. You'll get the gist by watching these two videos:

Don't you just love this guy? ;D

Ok, my point here is that I just want to share my passion for reading English books / novels. However, my passion has been hindered by my financial situation. I spend most on foods, clothes, shawls, foods, aa foods, erm what else, foods. Yes, mostly on foods! Shame on me *sob sob*

*yums* Source: The Star Online.

My favorite author would be Mitch Albom & Cecelia Ahern! :) I haven't read all of their writings but insyaAllah with time & money, I will. Can't describe the reasons for my favor in them, you should try read their novels. Magnifico ^^ . Been reading Ahern's since high school. Currently reading The Gift by Ahern since, I don't know, a year ago? Not that it's not interesting. Time constraint, time! Eheh :"> Got a new book as a gift from my brother, Fairuz entitled Bookends by Jane Green. Haven't read any of her works, so I should try when I have the chance. The semester break perhaps -___-" *long sighhhhhh*

Got my eyes on these since forever! T_T Don't have enough money allocated for them. Too bad :(

Latest by her.

Not even sure whether
it's distributed in Malaysia.

The title says it all!
I shall buy it tomorrow! ;p

Bulan Saploh!

2011-11-10T12:07:00.003+08:00

Three members of Teratak Selasih's birthdays fall in October:
- Nurdiyanah Md Yunus (Dee) (ME!) (4th October 1991)
- Izura Ismail (Jor) (16th October 1990)
- Nurul Najwa Mohd Hassan (Wa) (31st October 1990)

The other three members' birthdays fall in February, May, & November (Munira, Rokiah, Zaidatul Laily respectively). Ok, here's one guy, Muhammad Nasruddin bin Ghani. He may not be a member of the house but he's our hero alright after Najwa's! ;) His birthday fall in November as well. However, I'm still the youngest of them all. Heee~ :D

Long story short, my birthday was celebrated with a Tiramisu cake few hours before the day ended, Izura's celebrated about a week after her birthday with a Blueberry Cheesecake (yumsss), & the most special one was Najwa's celebrated a day before with Black Forest cake sponsored by Nasruddin at McDonald's, yeaaay!

Let's view some low quality photos from my phone that night, shall we? :)
Here are the participants:

Zaidatul Laily. Taken

Munira. Single but not available. I think?

Izura. Unknown status.

Rokiah. Also single & unavailable. I guess?

Married. Eh? ;p

Engaged. Muahaha

Najwa's. Hehe

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Sweden cake house is all we got T_T

Preoccupied with foodsssss.

Stress prevention; eat!

Black Forest cake, nyums!

What's with the pout, Din? ;p

The ever so lovely birthday girl slicing her cake!

Trust me, she doesn't know how to lift the cake onto a plate. Haha

What's with the evil looking face? -___-"

Getting impatient!

Err, cake handover ceremony?

Look at those happy faces ^^

Jendul! ;p

My meal :D

The cakes!

My delicious GCB!

Aww, <3 <3

Glutton >.<

All 6 of us.

Candid by Din.

The fat girl with our birthday girl o_O

Too full?

Stealing Wa's drink?

What's left! Hehe.

A little something from me for Wa.

That's all folks! ;) Have a blissful day, insyaAllah.

Romantik ?

2011-11-09T14:11:00.000+08:00

Tercuit rasa hati.
Baca entri berusia 8 bulan ini.

Senyum. Manis.

dicuri untuk mencuri buat pelengkap rusuk kiri.

"Bersusun buku,
Bersusun DVD,
yang satu pun tak baca lagi,
yang satu pun tak tengok lagi.

Macam biasa.

Masa aku dicuri lagi demi mencuri hati, seorang puteri.
Buat pengubat hati juga pelengkap rusuk kiri.

Aku janji."

Tidak? Tak semua 'kan mengerti :)

Curian karya dari sini .

Perempuan mengeluh

2011-11-09T08:48:00.003+08:00

Bagi aku perempuan yang paksa teman lelaki dia yang menyayanginya setulus hati membuang bekas teman wanita dia yang putus sebab tak sefahaman tak sehaluan tak ada kimia dan berkawan sekadar berkawan daripada senarai rakan di laman sosial kerana cemburu buta tuli adalah perempuan yang kurang bijak, tidak matang, dan mengada-ngada.

Kalau lelakinya gatal macam ni lain cerita lah kan?

Sumber: Google

Ini layak dipijak saja anunya. Eh?

Dan kalau bekas teman wanitanya itu tak ada bakal suami sekacak ini lain cerita lah kan?

Sumber: Folder gambar sendiri.

Eh? ;)

Sekian.

Bukan .

2011-11-09T08:04:00.000+08:00

Assalamu'alaikum w.b.t.
Macamana nak mula ya.
Lama benar tak bercerita.
Ada pembaca lagi ke?
Ada yang menunggu ke?
Ada peminat ke?

Hmm . . . Persetan.

Bukan tiada cerita gembira,
Sedih sebak tak payah kira,
Secara telitinya saya mengira,
Sudah 41 hari tiada berita.

Esok lusa je lah ye! :D

P u t u s .

2011-09-29T19:12:00.000+08:00

Kotornya jiwa aku. Mana boleh tengok pasangan bercinta berselisih dan harap hubungan itu takkan pulih. Mana boleh mana boleh. Tak boleh tak boleh.

Busuknya hati aku. Mana boleh tengok mereka bermasam muka dan mengharapkan hubungan itu tak berjaya. Mana boleh mana boleh. Tak boleh tak boleh.

Wanita terlalu mencuba, jejaka terlalu berbangga. Aku jadi tak suka.

Tapi kan kecewa kalau ada mengharap yang sama tentang hubungan kita.
Buang perasaan itu Dyana, buang semuanya.

This is random.

2011-09-13T22:04:00.000+08:00

Some people are just not willing to work even a bit towards success, they only wait.

Dungun is still sombre for me. Dull, boring.

Guys do bad mouth about others, and when they do, they're very good at it.

Even when we got nothing more against this other party, when they still hate you, you will unintentionally hate them back.

People can hardly cope with changes as soon as within an hour without still feeling uncertainties.

I miss his scent, his smile, his laughter, his wide forehead, his hair, everything.

I get annoyed so easy that I don't even realize that I'm making weird faces.

When your loved ones' in trouble, you'd do all you might to help them.

Messed up; can't think of any decent birthday presents for him.

Shopping is just not my game, not currently.

I fell in love with his family, so I fell in love with him all over again.

Peeling off nose pore tape can be very hurtful.

I've always wanted to try contact lenses.

Some people just like to make stories about others, for the fun of it.

I miss my nephew & nieces. Couldn't bear to kiss them goodbye last Sunday while they were fast asleep.

Friends can be categorized; best friend, good friend, close friend, happy friend (comes only when you're happy), work friend (comes only when they want your help), etc. etc.

I love babies & kids up till 12 years of age. Teens? They're my pal ;)

I want to write songs for him, describing how I feel. But am not that talented *sigh

I loathe the sight of women wearing short sleeves with head scarf (no offense, anyone).

Have to sleep early tonight, class at 8 tomorrow morning.

And this is totally random, my latest passport photo: