In search of feeling most alive

Happiness is dancing in the rain

2011-10-18T16:31:00.003+02:00

True happiness is when you can dance in the rain.

How I got to now...

2011-10-12T14:07:00.001+02:00

Learning to live

2011-10-03T13:25:00.002+02:00

Sometimes I waste sunny days in new countries.....

thinking "I will do that tomorrow"..

and then it rains.....

and the views are misty...

some kind of Magic is lost....

Maybe I will learn to seize the moment.

wondering around the world

2011-09-09T10:59:00.002+02:00

Starting to live......

2011-05-21T23:23:00.003+02:00

I am 3 sleeps away from nomading

2011-03-07T17:29:00.000+02:00

and I am nervous for now...

I know I will be good the moment I am on that plane.

Now for all the people out there who think I am irresponsible...

or think I should be settling down like themselves this one is for you......

Live life.... clichéd but for the most part it is not as easy as it sounds...

Creativity is just connecting things

2011-03-02T23:54:00.005+02:00

these are a few of my favourite things

2011-02-26T22:55:00.000+02:00

Coffee

Moleskin

Bags

good design

and recycling...

... all in one

visit proudly South African wren designs

Pursue Life

2011-02-26T22:39:00.000+02:00

Love love love

2011-02-26T16:53:00.000+02:00

Loving me, loving my feminine self...

A couple of years ago after a chapter of my life came to an end, I was struggling with the change...

A friend of mine took my to a Tattoo parlour and we had tiny pink hearts tattooed on our left wrists to remind ourselves to always love our feminine selves......

I then had my favourite Tibetan mantra of compassion tattooed onto the back of my neck...

Om mani padme Hum

These are love letters to myself...

Next I wish to have a symbol of my home, Africa inscribed onto me...

Any ideas??

Go and Kiss in the Rain

2011-02-02T17:19:00.002+02:00

This is your LIFE

2010-12-06T13:23:00.001+02:00

Voyaging

2010-12-06T13:17:00.000+02:00

Voyaging
“To be truly challenging, a voyage, like a life, must rest on a firm foundation of financial unrest. Otherwise, you are doomed to a routine traverse, the kind known to yachtsmen who play with their boats at sea… cruising, it is called. Voyaging belongs to seamen, and to the wanderers of the world who cannot, or will not, fit in. If you are contemplating a voyage and you have the means, abandon the venture until your fortunes change. Only then will you know what the sea is all about. I’ve always wanted to sail to the south seas, but I can’t afford it. What these men can’t afford is not to go. They are enmeshed in the cancerous discipline of security. And in the worship of security we fling our lives beneath the wheels of routine – and before we know it our lives are gone.
What does a man need – really need? A few pounds of food each day, heat and shelter, six feet to lie down in – and some form of working activity that will yield a sense of accomplishment. That’s all – in the material sense, and we know it. But we are brainwashed by our economic system until we end up in a tomb beneath a pyramid of time payments, mortgages, preposterous gadgetry, playthings that divert our attention for the sheer idiocy of the charade. The years thunder by, The dreams of youth grow dim where they lie caked in dust on the shelves of patience. Before we know it, the tomb is sealed. Where, then, lies the answer? In choice. Which shall it be: bankruptcy of purse or bankruptcy of life?”
- Sterling Hayden

Last min dot com

2010-11-04T18:07:00.000+02:00

After a crazy night shift at the clinic and a long busy day following it, a friend of mine called up and asked if I was keen on a road trip to Nelspruit the following day. Now being a FOMO of cause I agreed...........

I wake with a startle at 5am, put a pot of Espresso on the stove and fumble into the shower thinking "what was I thinking?".........

After a strong bitter coffee and filling a basket full of road trip goodies........ The Rockstar and I head off to the Northern country....

The Excuse....................

A natural birthing center............ of cause :)

Bella Rose

Started by a Doula, Belinda Loudon and her husband, Shaun, converted part of their farm house into a home away from home water birthing unit....

I am so excited that in a country with such a high Caesar rate there are women who are making a stand - who know the importance of Natural birth...

I love the thrill of a last minuet decision to follow your heart and make memories...

Winding through the hills of this beautiful countryside.

Laughing with Rock star Sr. Gail....

Watching the blue sky's turn lavender grey, moments before a thunder storm dances across the sky.

Invited by the immense heat of the day......

Flying round the pass's catching glimpse's of lightening bolts striking the hills....

Image from here

Live my dream

Travel and birth Babies.

and then I awake to another night shift....

Nomadic Midwife Launchers

2010-10-29T19:09:00.001+02:00

After spending the last 8 months gaining experience as a Doula at Genesis Clinic, I have finally launched my private Doula practice.......

Nomadic Midwife.

But this is not all the good news.............

I have registered to study Midwifery through NARM next year.

My goal is to set up satalite clinic in rural Africa..... alot like Bus Fare Babies.

My aim is to birth in as many countries and cultures as possible.

xxx

friends.................. they hold vital moments of my life

2010-04-16T15:55:00.001+02:00

I have never made it to Paris.......

A dear dear friend of mine has made my year

I am meeting Anna and Claire

in Paris......

They say Paris is the city of love

well what better love is there then

that of dear Friends

Fellow bloggers thought

2010-04-12T10:30:00.000+02:00

I love this post card thought from

the note book doodles

f(love) = 0

2010-04-09T12:18:00.000+02:00

f(love) = 0

by Monica M. Eiland

f(love) = 0
The function of love is undefined.

∫f''(love) = 0

impossible, infinitely uncertain result:

if circumstances were different

what would be the second spatial coordinate

that is a function of love?

but the function is fixed:

circumstances define

the hand that draws the line

Forward, backward, what will make it work?

f''(love) = 0

the quality of a nonexistent

is less than zero

what is the slope, the rise and run

of the function that dooms me?

this love has no degree

no rate of movement

by the definition of love,

undefined in an impossible f''(x).

∫f''(love)dlove = 0

area under an impossible function

if time could flow backwards,

what would be the length, depth, and height

of the product of our love?

but the product is nonexistent:

an area of undefined space,

like a black hole

Forward, backward, what will make it work?

dlove = ln love

I have never been good at math,

but here is a loophole:

how could I have missed Newton's trick

to finding area where none used to exist?

Love is like an alchemist's salamander,

fireproof, slippery, fluid in the darkness;

but wearing a coat of improbable logs

I can capture fire.

country moments

2010-04-06T16:49:00.000+02:00

Easter Sunday in Parys with great friends, a lunch at Feast with the best ever frozern honey and cinnamon cheesecake, quaint shoppe, Farmlands, Vuvuzelas and dramatic skies......

2010-03-30T17:37:00.000+02:00

“Tourists don’t know where they’ve been, travelers don’t know where they’re going.” – Paul Theroux

The moment I realised a calling

2010-03-17T17:19:00.000+02:00

Like a puzzle starts to come together - so my life calling comes together. For years I have had different passions and now I see how these are coming together.

A few weeks ago I mentioned that I have resigned.

I have decided to study again.

Midwifery.

I have a Passion for Africa and the people of Africa.

Especially a fascination with Zambia.

Today I was moved by an account by a British midwife Lisa Common,

She writes about a life changing experience in Zambia

read it here

I have this deep knowing and desire to make a difference.

While looking at TED.com I came across Jane Chen of Embrace.

450 premature babies die every hour in developing countries, one of the main reasons is they cannot regulate there body temperature. With no or very little medical interventions Incubators are not readily available or there is just no electricity.

The embrace infant warmer is an economic, easy to use and sterile option.

Now to get them to the places in need......

This is what drives me - that there are these kind of organisations working to make a difference - I will be part of this movement making a difference to the mothers and babies of Africa.

first moments of life

2010-03-05T15:55:00.002+02:00

On Tuesday nights the blue rinse girls meet for dinner, there are 6 of us, we alternate homes and try out our new recipes on each other as the years pass us by we gather to connect and encourage and laugh and drink wine but most importantly share our lives with each other. I clearly remember that evening nine months ago (it feels like a few weeks back) the six of us were gathered around my dining table jabbering, -I was on my soap box giving my views on Natural birth and pregnancy - when it suddenly hit a few of us that not everyone was drinking wine that evening, there was silence, a few glances around and next moment Megs announces she had just found out she was pregnant and was trying to keep quiet until her 3 month mark but alas who can keep that kind of news from the blue rinses........ well you can imagine 6 women together filled with joy after we all settled down, Bon shared with us that she too was pregnant, two weeks behind Meg........ :)

As a trained Doula and future Midwife I revelled in having two close friends pregnant at the same time one with similar views to me, natural birth, bamboo nappies and breast fed, the other an elected Cesarean & disposable nappies.... I believe there is no right or wrong each person has to make the choice that they are most comfortable with........ Before I get carried away, I'll put this aside for another blog.

I am so excited to announce the birth of the beautiful little Rachele Emma, she graced us with her presence on the afternoon of the 3rd of march.

While on our way to check on Mom and Babe we received a call to lets us know that Megs had just gone into labor and the little

Eiran Rose arrived late in the evening of the 4th March.

I can't wait to meet her and check on Mom.

I have been so blessed to have assisted many moms in this incredible journey, to watch a baby arrive in the world is breath taking and it is because of this incredible overwhelming feeling that I have experienced I have decided to become a student again, go back to school and study midwifery later this year.

Well I'm off now to Meet Eiran.

moment of morning bliss

2010-03-04T16:03:00.001+02:00

Early morning alarm buzzers - a hectic day ahead......

I sleepily make my way to the kitchen

and delve into my morning ritual

Macchinetta

I fill the bottom chamber with fresh water

then the filter funnel gets loaded with

freshly ground organic coffee beans from Zambia

the pot screwed on top

Placed on the stove

I turn up the tunes and....

Wait for that enticing aeroma to fill my home

the sound of the Espresso bubbling into the pot

then the final gurgal

Voila Morning

Macchinetta....

Makes waking up worth it.....

Things I've learned while traveling

2010-03-04T15:27:00.002+02:00

That everything you need can fit in a backpack and make it onto the plane as hand luggage.
That using a squat toilet get's easier.
The best coffee comes from Spain.
That the best way to travel is most definitely is by boat.
- That the beat restaurant's are not in your guidebook, it's down some dingy alley that you feel slightly afraid walking down, It's filled with cigarette smoke and gesticulating locals, It's cheaper than anywhere else you've found, The menu's not in English.
How to sleep sitting up.
That if you are jet lagged, the best thing to do is get out in the sun as it readjusts your body clock naturally.
That it actually is possible to communicate without speaking.
That "winging it" really does work (most of the time).
That just because you have a good time traveling with someone you met on the road, doesn't mean you're gonna be friends when you get home.
That water-resistant is not the same thing as waterproof.
That a massive pair of sunnies is the best thing for photos if you are tired.
That you learn more about who you are when you are around people who you are not.
That cabin fever really does exist.
That above all things, being surrounded by water relaxes me.
That people treat you so much better when they think you have money.
That a person only really needs 4 hours sleep a night.
That music can change a bad bus journey - don't forget to charge the I pod!
That you really aren't allowed to take photos at airports.
That all airports have freaky p.a. songs playing 24/7 to stop people living there.
That you can pay your way out of most situations.
How small mountains can make you feel.
That I can be a multi-faceted machine when I need to be.
That traveling on your own can be extremely lonely & extremely liberating.
That there really is no place like home.
Never pass up an opportunity to travel. Find a way. Rearrange your schedule, scrape together the money - just do it.
That I really do need human contact.
That wrinkles can come on quickly.
That McDonalds are always centrally located and have clean western toilets - but eat in a Local joint.
That sometimes smiling and nodding is your best option.
That no matter where you go people are ultimately exactly the same.
That your life can change completely in the space a of a day.
That there are some places that you visit that feel eerily familiar.
That there are many signs out there.
That there is no such thing as a bad vacation. They just give you really good stories to tell when you get home.
That your mind really can control your body.
That some cosmetics really do work.
That in order to be a back packer on the move you need to be able to do at least 7 things at once.
Spontaneous travel is some of the best traveling. Just hop on a plane/ferry and go.
That many taxi drivers have done many things with there lives besides drive people round the bend.
That couples in their second marriage travel more than ones in their first.
That the bank really expects you to call them each time you leave a country.
That long dresses are the best travel outfits for a girl.
That canned food is under rated.
That traveling on your own forces you to talk to people and make great mates.
That if you put your mind to doing something you can do anything.
That you can do a hell of a lot in 30 days.
The people of China are some of the kindest and gracious people I have met.
That what goes up must eventually come down.

DOING A BIT FOR OTHERS

2010-03-02T14:40:00.001+02:00

So once again Christmas is around the corner and I have to admit it is not my best holiday. I dislike the excessive money spent on trinkets that are not needed and often unappreciated - This is a very generalised comment, the feeling has grown within me over the past years. Sitting around a table on a very hot South African evening with a table laden with turkey, ham etc etc is not conducive for a hot evening this seems crazy to me and yet a great treat to others. Over the past few years I have chosen a charity or project that has special meaning to me and made a donation on behalf of all my family and friends....... This year I have chosen the Princess Alice adoption home, Although my first niece was born this year so I will be in search of a Green Christmas gift for her.

As I believe that the meaning of Christmas has been lost, I choose once a year to spend it on my own preferably traveling. I take the time to look back over the year and contemplate my life and observe how Christmas is celebrated in different cultures and countries. My family is spread around the world so I also make time to visit them and enjoy there company.

While wondering the streets of Seville I found this little shop filled with recyclable useful gifts... I love the words positive Christmas...