InAsnuM

Weddings

2011-01-24T09:45:00.000+08:00

Finally, after years of searching, I have, at last attended a Wedding. A celebration a man throws to inform the world that he has found his perfect match. And both man and woman, rejoice and celebrate the union they have found. Celebrating with close friends and relatives.

I've seen many wedding photos. Photos taken outdoor and indoor. Most often the back ground in these photos outshines the bride and groom. But with this man and woman, it was different. They shine so brightly in every shot. There is this special aura which radiates from these photos of theirs.

I have debated with many. Many say love is only an illusion which does not last and does not exists. Now I can show all those who have lost faith in love, it does exists.

There is hope, the phrase "true love" does exists. Although there is no one definition for the word love, to the many people that the both of you have crossed and are going to cross, you are the definition of "true unconditional love" - Praba & Lynnet

Growing Old

2011-01-24T09:13:00.000+08:00

Looking at human as they grow old

Every part of their body changes.

The skin wrinlkes up

The hair turns white

Their movements become slower

But if you look closer you'll notice,

one thing that does not change, the eyes

the day i looked into your eyes, I fell in love with the persona behind those beautiful eyes of yours

Even though a thousand years has passed, I'm so much in love with you

Every time i look into your eyes, I feel so relaxed and calm

This is how I imagined my life to be, and now I'm living it, all because of you.

You are my everything.

I love you so much

A Blessed Union Between 2 Beautiful Lights.

2009-12-18T22:10:00.000+08:00

A new glow is now at dawn
To the awe of everyone
Such perfectness is so rarely seen
Only in fairy tales, as it seems.
But now my friend as you may see
Dreams do come true, even for you and me.
Whatever you wish for, whatever you need,
Can never be greater, than the one who besides you sleeps.

Composed for my Dearest Friend, Lenny

Late Night

2009-05-07T09:17:00.001+08:00

Its Late At Nite
Love Songs Beings Played Over The Radio,
The Breeze Whispering Thru The Bamboo Windows
Sweet Soft And Gentle
Putting You To Sleep

Watching U Lay Beside Me
I Wonder How Lucky Can A Man Be
Like A Dream It Seems
But A Dream It Isn't
I'm Lost In Your Love

I Can't Believe, But Its True
Everyday I Love You More And More
And Everyday I Miss You More And More
Even Though We Are Together Day And Night
Everyday Before I Sleep I Make A Wish
That I May Meet You In My Dreams

Dancing

2008-07-16T12:14:00.002+08:00

Elvis singing Love Me Tender for us in the background…
Smell of musty leather furniture
Dimmed lights
Arms around each other
Dark wooden floors
Dancing slowly to the music
Breathing each other in
The whiff of love
Fills the air
Your long soft hair,
Your graceful body,
Never have we been so In Love
Never have I felt so relaxed
Whenever I’m in your arms
Whenever I’m captivated by your smile
Not wanting it to end
Your steps carefully planted in between mine
Not missing a single step, never tripping,
Always supporting each other,
Gracefully Aging together
You are my Best friend
Now and forever.

Today

2008-06-19T08:35:00.001+08:00

Such a beautiful morning
The air so misty
Birds chriping away
On the trees
Calm
Peace
Clouds all around me
Hugging me
Just as how you do.

Another day down
Another day to survive
Another day to experience
Our love
so pure
so true
Intimate
Me and you
Incessantly
Like the rain that pours from heaven
Us like children
Playing
Getting wet
Drenched with love
I look into your eyes
You into mine
Arms wrapped tightly around each other
Engaging Smiles
Not a word spoken
A million emotions exchanged
Our feet lifting off the ground
How high shall we go?
How deep shall we venture?
Infinity my Love
Infinity
For that is how I feel for You
Past
Now
Eternally

A Brand New Start

2008-06-18T11:00:00.000+08:00

Everday, a brand new start,
Another wonderful day,
for me to experience you.
Everday, a brand new start,
A beautiful sunrise,
which can never compare with the beauty of your heart.
Everday, a brand new start,
A heavenly opportunity,
to love and be loved.
Everday, a brand new start,
Sweet scent of flowers,
I long to be with you.

Your Light

2008-06-18T09:47:00.001+08:00

I started my journey today in darkness

Everything around me dark and quiet

sad and empty

But as I continue my journey now,

I'm witnessing God's love and Miracle

The darkness is slowly fading away,

Being taken over by light.

The light which promises a beautiful day,

filled with happiness and love.

I feel like this is exactly like my life,

It used to be dark before I met you

Now you are my light

You are my love

God's love thru you

gives me happiness

Every day I wake up and I wait for you darling,

my special sunrise, to make my day bright

I love you so much.

So Long

2008-06-18T09:14:00.000+08:00

Seconds apart turned to minutes apart,
Minutes apart turned to hours apart,
Hours apart turned to days apart,
Days apart turned to months apart.

The pain has no boundries,
The longing
The Crying
The Need
The Wants
Can't wait for it to end.

Kampung seems so far away
I miss the air
The water
The smell
Mum's cooking
Pucui's barking
Most of all your morning smile

Can't wait to come home,
Impatiently tapping my fingers
Looking at the clock
Hoping seconds would tick faster
Wished I could close my eyes and fly to you
In your arms I long to be

Sorry for the pain
Sorry for the tears

I love you

Psalm 37 of David

2007-11-13T14:10:00.003+08:00

1Do not fret because of evil menor be envious of those who do wrong;
2for like the grass they will soon wither,like green plants they will soon die away.
3Trust in the Lord and do good;dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture.
4Delight yourself in the Lordand he will give you the desires of your heart.
5Commit your way to the Lord;trust in him and he will do this:
6He will make your righteousness shine like the dawn,the justice of your cause like the noonday sun.
7Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for him;do not fret when men succeed in their ways,when they carry out their wicked schemes.
8Refrain from anger and turn from wrath;do not fret—it leads only to evil.
9For evil men will be cut off,but those who hope in the Lord will inherit the land.
10A little while, and the wicked will be no more;though you look for them, they will not be found.
11But the meek will inherit the landand enjoy great peace.
12The wicked plot against the righteousand gnash their teeth at them;
13but the Lord laughs at the wicked,for he knows their day is coming.
14The wicked draw the swordand bend the bowto bring down the poor and needy,to slay those whose ways are upright.
15But their swords will pierce their own hearts,and their bows will be broken.
16Better the little that the righteous havethan the wealth of many wicked;
17for the power of the wicked will be broken,but the Lord upholds the righteous.
18The days of the blameless are known to the Lord,and their inheritance will endure forever.
19In times of disaster they will not wither;in days of famine they will enjoy plenty.
20But the wicked will perish:The Lord's enemies will be like the beauty of the fields,they will vanish—vanish like smoke.
21The wicked borrow and do not repay,but the righteous give generously;
22those the Lord blesses will inherit the land,but those he curses will be cut off.
23If the Lord delights in a man's way,he makes his steps firm;
24though he stumble, he will not fall,for the Lord upholds him with his hand.
25I was young and now I am old,yet I have never seen the righteous forsakenor their children begging bread.
26They are always generous and lend freely;their children will be blessed.
27Turn from evil and do good;then you will dwell in the land forever.
28For the Lord loves the justand will not forsake his faithful ones.They will be protected forever,but the offspring of the wicked will be cut off;
29the righteous will inherit the landand dwell in it forever.
30The mouth of the righteous man utters wisdom,and his tongue speaks what is just.
31The law of his God is in his heart;his feet do not slip.
32The wicked lie in wait for the righteous,seeking their very lives;
33but the Lord will not leave them in their poweror let them be condemned when brought to trial.
34Wait for the Lordand keep his way.He will exalt you to inherit the land;when the wicked are cut off, you will see it.
35I have seen a wicked and ruthless manflourishing like a green tree in its native soil,
36but he soon passed away and was no more;though I looked for him, he could not be found.
37Consider the blameless, observe the upright;there is a future for the man of peace.
38But all sinners will be destroyed;the future of the wicked will be cut off.
39The salvation of the righteous comes from the Lord;he is their stronghold in time of trouble.
40The Lord helps them and delivers them;he delivers them from the wicked and saves them,because they take refuge in him.

Date: 21/10/07

enJoyIng PAST, NOW, FUTURE

2007-11-13T14:10:00.001+08:00

~~ Don'T LeT uR PaSt HaUnt YoU~juSt bE ThankfulL tHat wE are WeLL LeaRneD and wITh thAt KnoWledGe aRe aBLe tO haVe a beTTer liFe NoW~~ I lOve You So MuCh FOr MakiNg mY NoW BeTTEr~~
These past few weeks I have learned a lot. I used to think my life really sucked big time until I met a friend whose life was much worst than mine. We all have our trying times, times where we feel like giving up totally.
Ever so often we cringe over our past and worry so much about our future that we often forget about
NOW.
The Past happened so that we would learn from it and would strive harder to have a better future. The Past would show u how lucky you are to enjoy what u are having now. The more painful your Past was the more you will be motivated, Just dun allow your Past to eat your soul up and force u to make mistakes over again and again. Just understand the Law of the Universe. Whoever or whatever that caused u pain, the pain shall return to where it came from, BUT the Pain can only return once you've learn to let Pain go. Its not easy to do but you have to be strong, pull yourself up, try your very best and if you ever need support, look for God or your friends our your family or all 3 for support. If not come to me and we shall journey together. Remember, You are never alone in this world. You’re a beautiful wonderful being and only u have the power to make yourself happy.
NOWonly happens once. Learn to slow down a bit and enjoy every single moment. Cherish and feel with all your heart and soul every emotions that you feel
NOW. A beautiful NOW shall become a Wonderful PAST. You decide NOW how wonderful a Past you're gonna Have. Savor every moment with your loved ones, doing whole heartedly, with all your might. NOW does not last forever but PAST does. With NOW you only get ONE chance to get things right. No point regretting in the FUTURE for not having a wonderful PAST because you failed to treasure NOW. Dun be stingy with your thank you, and I love you. Once NOW is gone it will never come back. With NOW you are given the gift to have a wonderful PAST and a Bright FUTURE.
Dun worry about FUTURE too much until you forget to cherish
NOW. FUTURE will eventually come but how it arrives depends on what you do
NOW. Do plan your FUTURE but not until the extent whereby u forget about
NOW. Nothing in life is as wonderful as what you are experiencing
NOW. Don't let the Pain you experience
NOWruin your FUTURE. Remember Pain = Lessons Learnt. Don't let yourself fall into the cycle of life whereby Pain appears again and again without you Learning.
Choose to Heal yourself, confront your demons, voice out your hurt. I know u say it wont make any difference but trust me, it will. It will break u down to pieces, it will hurt you so much till u wish like dying all over again, but when its all over and u realised u have loved ones around you, then u shall start to enjoy your PAST, NOW, FUTURE

Date: 16/10/07

Love You

2007-11-13T14:09:00.001+08:00

I close my eveys everytime i think of you. I smell your sweetness everytime I dream of you.I loose myself everytime i feel your touch. Everday, everytime, from now till forever, I need you, I want you, I love you.

LoosIng A Friend

2007-11-13T14:08:00.002+08:00

Recently, I had to loose a close friend of mine. In my 29 yrs of being alive, this is the first time I ever had to loose a friend. I guess with love comes sacrificies... This is what my friend wrote about our friendship which I would like to share with all of you.
Goodbye To You, My Good Friend
Friends comes and goes but life has to go on...It was great to know you since that year 2005. When we first met, you were quiet while i was the one who made the conversation. You were just smiling throughout the meeting while listening to my stories.Well, at first I thought.."Such uninteresting friend...huh..". But, as the longer I got to know you, you were the greatest friend that i ever had. We hang out a lot and I don't think anybody can replace your place. You were funny, crazy and had the greatest idea to do things. But, you were a good listener too. You were there when I need help and nevertheless, the one who always at my side when I'm sad.Well, there goes the old times but I will always cherish and reminisce our friendship and the time that we had spent together. It was great...it was wonderful.But now, you are no longer around to play with me....Hang out with me....Shopping together with me....Dine with me. Lunch with me....Breakfast with me....It's saddening me when our friendship just vanished to thin air...without much notice or warning. I guess life just has to go on..even without you at my side. I remember once you said to me.." Sharon, you will always be my darling whatever happens and I will always at your side when you need me.Thank you for being such a wonderful buddy to me....Goodbye to you my wonderful and awesome friend....

HapPy

2007-11-13T14:08:00.001+08:00

Peace, tranquility, I’m drowned in your love,
So afraid, so scared, emotions running wild,
Whatever shall be I will overcome,
To be with you, the one I love,
Floating around, smiling, thru the clouds of heaven I wander,
Savoring every sweet moment that I have with you Meadows, lush green fields, hand in hand we drift into the future,
Building our castle of love.
Relaxed and happy, joyous and calm, love has finally triumph over hatred and anger
Deep within my heart I hear your spirit speak
With words so pure, white, ever so softly I am mystified by you
Magic you create so effortlessly has brought back life into me
Now I dance in joy and laughter
All because of You, my heart, my soul, my guardian angel

LieS LiEs LiEs

2007-11-13T14:07:00.000+08:00

Lies, lies, lies,
Will it ever end?
What if you lie to your partner?
And your partner knows that you're lying but doesn't say anything?
Why doesn't he say something?
Has he given up hope and just waiting for the relationship to die slowly?
The heart hurts so much when the one you love
Deceits you and makes you feel stupid
Maybe its done out of love, maybe they're just white lies
But at the end, a lie is a lie.
With lies comes mistrust
With mistrust comes the end of a relationship
Stop the lies, stop the hurt
Over and over again, never ending
Doesn't the one who lies feel guilty for the wrong that has been done?
If guilt sets in, the how is one able to function properly?
With a heavy burden to carry how would one ensure a healthy relationship?
Maybe a lie would save u in the current situation you’re in but in the long run
It will cause more damage then you could ever realize
It isn’t easy to tell the truth all the time, and at times the truth hurts so much
But have faith in yourself and the one you love
The truth will set u free and bring forth so many wonderful things

gO FortH

2007-11-13T14:06:00.002+08:00

Being alone. Is that the Best solution? When those relied upon for happiness and joy fails you over and over again Pain..anguish, heart sick.. Is it all worth it? Mistrust when there’s no solid reason to do so?Again and again caring less and less Hardening the heart once again seems impossible to do After it has melted in hands of the one you loveRebuilding....rebuilding, how many times? Will it ever end? Must it be accepted as a cycle of life? Why must it be so? Break the horrendous cycle Make certain your own destiny Fight and overcome as much as it take Give up and life swallows youWeak, weak, weak The body might tire and the soul withered But the spirit will never give up!! Rise my child go forth and triumph over your destiny!! Fight you shall, fight for everything u believe in Don’t ever turn your back and run away

Leaving

2007-11-13T14:06:00.001+08:00

sadness overwhelms the heart when its time to part
why can't it be forever
why do we have to part
sweet memories I take back with me
knowledge that she loves me with all her heart and soul
so pure and so honest, that i loose myself whenever i'm in her arms
Her exquisite charm, her captivating smile, her tender touch, her loving heart
what else can a man ask for?

Mind Games

2007-11-13T14:05:00.000+08:00

Manipulation, deceiving, crafting ones' thoughts just to get the results needed...morally wrong? yes? no?
What does morally wrong mean?
What do you do when u have no other choice than to be evil and harsh? It’s easy to see thru another's eye, but how do we get other's to see thru our eyes? understand our pain? Kill me you shall but never dare to threaten me.
When love turns into hate and anger, emotions that build up are so dangerous, a person looses his ability to rationalize. The end result is what matters, but how is the result achieved without causing catastrophic damages?
Love with all your heart and might but don't allow yourself to be manipulated and turned into a fool
I'm So tired, am so exhausted, when will it all end?

Principles of Life

2007-11-13T14:04:00.000+08:00

Principles of life, that you have created, a set of rules that you have made for yourself to follow, laws by which can never be broken are all blown away when you end up finding the right one.
Principles of life, When confusion sets in, My principles or my heart, which do i follow? for the Heart cannot reason when its drowned in love. The only sense than is audio able is the sense Which the heart screams.
Principles of life, When Will U see thru my eyes? When will you realize? Society? who are they to judge? by which, man made laws we are forced to follow, what is right and reasonable for you, might not be for me! do we look in disgust at those who don’t follow?
Principles of life, Once the Heart is hurt beyond repair, do we still stick to the principles we have followed so Virgil through our live? Dreams and hopes crushed, must one be force to follow the norm? what is norm now? How do I explain? Self scarifies? What about self love and self-happiness? Will one be judge as being selfish for wanting happiness?
Principles of life, do we continue to hurt ourselves because we believe that we have to continue following these rules? We do and try to stick to these Principles but at the end of the day, when the hurt is just too much to bear, we explode within ourselves. Hurt Appears. Those hurt will look at you. Dainty life gets disconcerted. All wonder what has happened. Why aren’t you following the rules anymore?
Principles of life, what is yours’? I just threw mine out of the window
Plunge yourself into uncertainty, trust your heart and believe in yourself. Have faith and want it, things will work out fine.

I UnderstanD

2007-11-13T14:03:00.000+08:00

eak frenFor Many Moons I often Wondered why?

There's sadness behind those beautiful brown eyes

I searched and I searched

For many times I could Not understand

Only my love I could offer you

Only my desires I could Show yoU

Hoping That one day Me you would trust

And Not Be afraid.

For One must understanD

That once true Unconditional love finds yOu

There'S nothing to be afraid oF

The heart has to be hurT before it can Heal

Tears have to be Shed before Laughter can Be felt

Trust That tHis purest forM of Love will Sail you thru

the Most Perilous of Waters

As thiS love will Never leT you Down.

FinaLLy Now I underStand

And I see Thru Your eyes

tHank You For EveryThing

Why

2007-11-13T14:02:00.002+08:00

Why? Everytime I close my eyes I see your face?
Why? Everytime I look up into the sky, I see angels singing your name?
Why? Everytime I take a deep breath, I smell you in the air?
Why? Everytime I sleep, I see you in my dreams?
Why Darling Why?

you

2007-11-13T14:02:00.001+08:00

u can make me smile although u are so far away, u can me me laugh although u're not beside me, u can make me calm although you're thousand miles away

If

2007-11-13T14:01:00.003+08:00

If for every butterfly that flies over my garden, I say I love you, it still would never be enough to express how much I love you.
If for every raindrop that falls from heaven, I say I need you, it still would never be enough to express how much I need you in my life
If for every red rose that blooms, I say thank you for loving me, it would never be enough to express how grateful I am for having u in my life.
If for every star in the sky, I say I miss you, it still would never be enough to express how much I miss you
If for every leaf on every tree on this planet, I say you are my destiny, it would never be enough to express how much I am looking forward to growing old with you by my side
I love You

Together

2007-11-13T14:01:00.001+08:00

From sunrise to sunset, in my arms i will hold you tight.
Underneath the stars, i'll have your lips on mine.
Beneath the moonlight, we shall manifest our precious love
Two souls have become one now,
Two carefree spirits have found each other,
Two people have fallen so deeply inlove with one another,
Two people, me and you, together, forever

My Emotions

2007-11-13T14:00:00.002+08:00

You have made my world up side down,
You have made me feel wonderful emotions that I have long forgotten,
You have thought me the meaning of forgiveness,
You continued to love me.
You are now the center of my universe,
Every time my heart beats,
It beats for you.
Although you are so far away,
I still feel the warmth of your never ending love,
Wrapped all around me.
You are the most wonderful person that has ever come into my life,
And I love you with all my heart.