Innocent Smiles

Things i learned about myself :

noreply@blogger.com (A Darbha) — Fri, 30 Mar 2012 22:08:00 +0000

Things I learned in the first quarter of the Year 2012:

I love coffee more than tea.

I love gadget; when I shared this to my friend - she described us as a Gadget Friendly Family. :-P

I enjoy my day when I spend few minutes talking to the Divine within daily.

Christmas 2011

noreply@blogger.com (A Darbha) — Wed, 21 Dec 2011 12:35:00 +0000

It is Christmas season, a time to rejoice and become children again!!!

My Biggest inspiration for this christmas is my little one, Akshara. Yesterday we were talking about things here and there, when suddenly I remembered and thus mentioned to her that it is Christmas time. She got so excited and she immediately asked me "Mummy, will Santa Claus come? Will the Santa bring Gift for me? I said "Yes, beta Santa Claus is on his way to come." She kept on jumping, murmuring, talking to herself, to the "Santa-her dream friend", and all her imaginary friends Pingu, Pinga, Paapaa, that Santa Claus is coming! When her pappa arrived from office, she mentioned about the gifts and The Santa Claus to him too. Karthik looked at me, he too couldn't stop himself from smiling; for now we both understand that "this year, Santa is coming to my home and going to present to our little one". :-D :)

So thus, we are all now waiting for Santa Claus, for the Christmas!

Remembering the famous and sweetest Christmas Carol from my school time:

Christmas is coming, the geese are getting fat
Please put a penny in the old man's hat
If you haven't got a penny, a ha'penny will do
If you haven't got a ha'penny, then God bless you!

Many Greetings and Many Many Blessings to you.

Birthday Treat

noreply@blogger.com (A Darbha) — Fri, 22 Oct 2010 22:25:00 +0000

Westend Mall , Rajouri Garden, Delhi

On my birthday, my husband took leave from work, and we went out for dinner at West End Mall, Rajouri Garden, Delhi.

We had actually planned to go to some other restaurant, but on reaching there, we got to know that the place was already booked for a big party. We were already very hungry, and not in mood to go about places to search for the right kind of restaurant. And so as soon as we came out, "Moti Mahal - Tandoori Trails" caught up our attention, and we both nodded in agreement.

Akshara at the Mall

At Moti Mahal, as we were going through the menu book, we realized that we had come to the Finest Indian and Mughlai Cuisine" of Delhi. Moti Mahal was the first Indian restaurant to introduce Tandoori cuisine to the world. Moti Mahal was first set up in Peshawar in 1920, and trailed to Delhi in 1947. “Moti Mahal Tandoori Trail”, which is the new contemporary look of the Moti Mahal retraces its glorious past and signifies Moti Mahal’s Culinary-trail from Peshawar to Delhi.

Karthik (My Husband)

Funny pic! Poor
Akshara gagging for food

Main Course included Makhani Paneer Bhurji with Butter Roti (spl. for Akshara) Paneer Parantha and Veg. Kulcha with Sweetened Lassi.

After our Happy Meals

So we had stomach full food, but more than that I and Karthik had a great time together, passing those loving glances and feeling proud about sticking together throughout the ups and downs of our lifetime.

Thank you Karthik for making my day. :-D :)

Thank You Note.....

noreply@blogger.com (A Darbha) — Tue, 19 Oct 2010 20:24:00 +0000

Well it is that time of my life, when I happen to complete my 27 long years today. And I have everything that God wanted me to have.

I am feeling so grateful and so happy that I wanna hug HIM and kiss HIM, and share out my love and joy to HIM. :)

Just yesterday only I was thinking, that how He has been helping me directly or through somebody or through some situations....if the incidents caused pain - He Stood By Me (in the form of family, friends). In the times of laughter - He became a part in my fun. On all those disturbing hours; he cajoled me with love and took care that my heart heals soon. :) All these and many other ways, He has made me feel proud and happy about myself. When I look into my past, I review it as a movie; filled with fun, emotion, drama, action, fiction, nostalgic, love, and all other experiences that has enriched my life. Each experience, each incident, each person had something to add into my life. Today I take a moment to thank all of them. My heartfelt thanks to my papa, mummy, sister, hubby, daughter, in-laws, brother in law, friends, relatives and my big Oneness Family.

Thank you so much Lord, thank you......when I meet u again in Heaven, I would like to hug you tightly..........

Thank you.

Two Happy Hours

noreply@blogger.com (A Darbha) — Mon, 18 Oct 2010 22:13:00 +0000

This is just a piece of sharing, and a remembrance for my whole life.

Today I went to Saloon along with my kid Akshara. I was doubtful about Akshara; whether she will remain quiet or would trouble me all the while. But I had no other go, than to take her with me.

But I was amazed; for Two Happy Hours she remained quiet, watching me get pampered, conversing with me about the apples that she is finding interesting to eat; and about the new toy that her father bought for her....and so on. After a while, she even tried to help herself with the few instruments lying around her (mimicking the beautician).

Really never in my life, I had imagined a kid to be so patient, enduring, loving as Akshara! At that time, I had nothing else in my mind, than Thanking the Lord for giving me 'the best'; in the form of my daughter.

Akshara's First Tri-Cycle - 20 months old

noreply@blogger.com (A Darbha) — Wed, 13 Oct 2010 21:23:00 +0000

Yeah Akshara on her new Tri-Cycle

In this photo, she is crying for the Camera.

While clicking the photo, I realized that its gonna be highly impossible for me to remove the camera from the cover. So I too demanded for a nice mobile with camera; FYI - I did not cry for it!

:P :D

Playtime....

noreply@blogger.com (A Darbha) — Wed, 13 Oct 2010 21:16:00 +0000

I have no idea, from where she learnt this!!!!

Idli with Tomato Ketchup...

noreply@blogger.com (A Darbha) — Wed, 13 Oct 2010 19:37:00 +0000

Have you ever tasted Idli with Tomato Ketchup???? Try it out with your baby....

Akshara is trying her the latest 'Recipe of the Day', seated on her newly arranged Chair and a Table! She loved it.

I found her licking the Ketchup too!!!

On the Walls

noreply@blogger.com (A Darbha) — Wed, 13 Oct 2010 19:16:00 +0000

Crayons spread everywhere...WALL ART ;-)

In mumma's night suit.

noreply@blogger.com (A Darbha) — Wed, 13 Oct 2010 19:04:00 +0000

On my Night Suit

There is always so much fun with kids.....

The first gift of October 2010

noreply@blogger.com (A Darbha) — Mon, 04 Oct 2010 15:14:00 +0000

I have been waiting a long time, for the October 2010 to begin!...Lo, behold it has come in such beautiful manner.

Take a look at this, my first gift of October 2010, Ethnic Gold Plated bracelet.

You will not believe this, but this is the first piece of jewellery I have bought in last 3 years!!!

I just loved the design and feel of it in my wrist.

August 2010 Blessings

noreply@blogger.com (A Darbha) — Thu, 19 Aug 2010 14:47:00 +0000

The month of August 2010 has been so much fulfilling time of my life. I had the greatest opportunity I can desire for myself and for my family, as I finished attending the Level 02 Maha Deeksha at the Oneness University, then later on I took the opportunity to attend the Mukti Deeksha Process at Oneness Temple and personal meeting with Amma and the sevaks class of Sri Bhagavan at the Oneness Temple for the people of Gujarat.

It was just one amazing journey from "I" to "Everyone"; from "me" to "share", from suffering to the Experience of Causeless Joy.

The Teachings at the Level 02 Maha Deeksha course was an eye opener for me. The teachings were so deep, and the guides took the class so well for us. It was one wonderful process, wherein I saw the whole world like me in other words, whole world with me. I felt such great connection to everyone around.....I can say, even now I feel the same. That experience has somewhat changed my perception of "my little world" and my place in the larger world. In the process, I could become the part of the Great Vision of the Visioners Sri Amma and Sri Bhagavan, and my little contribution in His Wide Network.

Now I know only one word which is "Mukti" = Liberation.

Then, with support of my family, I proceeded ahead to attend the Mukti Process at the Oneness Temple. The Two Day Process was immensely deep and liberating. The moment, the energy of the Oneness Temple hit my brain, I began to perceive everything so very different. I could become one with the Vision of Amma Bhagavan, the seeds of spirituality probably has seeded more deeply. Here I would like to share one of my experience, from my past.

In year 2004, when Sri Bhagavan blessed me with Mukti Deeksha , it was my first, profound encounter with the Experience of Enlightenment. For more than an hour, that experience lived in me....wherein I saw the whole External World was nothing but an Experience for me.....right from the trees I saw, the plants, the dog, even the dustbin at the corner, was an Experience for me.....The mind had almost reduced to zero, thoughts slowered down, there was only joy, love pervading within me. Well, ofcourse, with time, the experience went away....as the energy changed, the consciousness kept fluctuating, but never ever I could forget the moment of that time. That was the first time, I felt Sri Bhagavan's Immense Power and his Intentions for the humanity. It is that faith that keeps me so close to the Oneness, and to the Visionaries of Oneness.

So the seeds of the Mukti experience which was sown then, has begun to sprout today. I don't know what I have received in the Process; but since the time I have attended, I am thanking everything,everyone, every event, every condition for bringing forth what I am today. There is litttle silence, little joy pervading within me; I am feeling more connected of the other suffering, that the other is no different from me, we are one, we are connected like the cells of One Body. And the only deeksha that is coming from my heart is 'Deeksha for liberation from suffering.'

With love, Gratitude,

Aishwarya

On Mother's Day

noreply@blogger.com (A Darbha) — Sun, 09 May 2010 22:09:00 +0000

On Mother's Day, I and Akshara celebrated "Daughter's Day" - where we both enjoyed delicious meals and variety of snacks and fruits. I set aside all my usual work, and spent my time only with Akshara (of course with her daddy too),yet Akshara was my center of attraction.

Yes, I know, as a housewife; I am always with the little one, then why such a special preference to her today? To tell you the truth, sometimes, the routine in the weekdays goes so busy that I find little time exploring my Motherhood. I sometimes feel, like I am like any baby sitter who is there only to feed the little one timely, putting her to bath, clean her litters, and the rest of the time engaging her in random acitivities, so that I get time to do other work.In all this I MISS THE FUN of being a mother. I miss the fun of playing with her; in the way she loves it to be. But today I enjoyed so much. We both played our special games - hide and seek; make funny faces; have long, irrelevant conversations n her responses to those talks. mimicking her actions all with laughs, screams and cries....WOW! As of now, she is Lightening Spirit of my life; making my life so complete.

Thanks mom, for giving me birth and also making me know the Essence of Motherhood.

We also took some random pics....in the night (our usual playtime) before sleep. Will upload it soon.

noreply@blogger.com (A Darbha) — Thu, 25 Feb 2010 08:50:00 +0000

Akshara is now 13 months old.

I can see her hair growing long and so are her brains. I guess, DHA is playing its best role in the brain development. :-)

But truly, its just fascinating for me and Karthik to see her relating to things, communicating with people and understanding our simple instructions as Take, Give, Go, Come, Bye......and few more.

Last few weeks, I got totally busy with home activities, that I did not get time to update here.

So I am making a few notes now -

At 12 months, Akshara soon developed a taste and liking for other foods. She stopped troubling me; and would gobble off mashed daal-rice, peanut butter bread, anything that was soft, warm and easy to gulp.
February 01, 2010 - Akshara got her first Upper Teeth; after completion of her 1 year and few days. (Thank U God to relieve me from people's enquiries). :-D. Following the first one; she got her second and third milk teeth on February 15 and February 20.

Thats her progress report!

Now let me note down few more interesting developments I see in her (after her completion of 12 months).

Before we leave our bedroom; Akshara runs back to the balcony; closes the door and then comes running to me (cue: lift her up). - She does it every time we have to leave the room; just as I do always. I stayed amused when she did it the first time. Nevertheless, children learn from what they see, they mimic their parents.
This one is even more interesting; and I and Karthik were spell bounded to see her grown. Akshara has a toy mobile; which plays music. That day, she pressed the button of her toy mobile; and when music played; she would go back; and take circles as if to 'dance on the tunes'. Once the music goes off, she would again press the button; and turn around n few steps here and there. I and Karthik smiled at each other; rejoicing our little Akshara growing beautifully.
When Karthik Paa returns back home; he gets the Best Welcome from her dear daughter. I guess, no one would be welcomed so lovingly; as Akshara does it everyday for her daddy. This is something a worth to watch and felt in heart.

Some cherishing memories for me, as her mother.

This period is an invent of mother-daughter bonding games; silly; yet she likes it so much - that she would keep on laughing, and make sounds out of excitement.
We have also begin to move out together at the parks; malls. When she is with me, she has her whole freedom to express herself; walking and running in the malls on her own. And other times, I would hold her tiny fingers so that she might not get away elsewhere.
All the times, when I feed her; she would too grab a bit of her (mum-mum) and put a chunk into my mouth too.
The best and sweet kisses that we give to each other periodically.
Our Quality dance steps together.

Its Akshara's effortless effort to laugh; to rejoice; to cherish, is bringing back the Liveliness and Innocence of my past times. Its my promise, my little girl, we shall remain Best Friends forever.

Love you,

Yours Mumma

Aishwarya

Today is Akshara's Star Birthday

noreply@blogger.com (A Darbha) — Thu, 07 Jan 2010 11:57:00 +0000

Today Akshara has turned 1 year old; according to her Star Birthday.

The weather in Delhi is 17 Degrees right now; and foggy too; yet I have given her, her headbath; put on her new Baba Suit (as we plan to be at home). It was the first day; first time; she was scared of taking a bath; and cried all the time till she was on shower. I am astonished; to see her growing into a toddler....but I shall make sure that her Innocent Smiles shall always remain on her face; even as she grows older into a big adult; one like us.

Cheers to Akshu Kutty

With love

Your Mummaaaaa

noreply@blogger.com (A Darbha) — Wed, 16 Dec 2009 11:43:00 +0000

Akshara playing with my Dupatta (दुपट्टा) on her friend's birthday party :-D

Akshara begins to recognize her freind's photo

noreply@blogger.com (A Darbha) — Wed, 16 Dec 2009 11:37:00 +0000

Yesterday night, I found Akshara suddenly jumping and screaming with joy when her friend's photo came on my laptop screen saver. She has begin to recognize people in the pics. Another Milestone crossed at 10 months.

Tomorrow she gonna be 11 months old! Oh...its almost going to be one year; since the time she has come into mine and Karthik's life.

Amazing, Loving and Blessed are these days.

Love

A Darbha

Akshara's first visit to a birthday party

noreply@blogger.com (A Darbha) — Tue, 15 Dec 2009 12:16:00 +0000

What more to say, about my little daughter

Akshara, when today I just enjoyed taking her

to my neighbour's home; for his niece's birthday

party. As soon as Akshara saw her co-friends

with her - aged between 6 and 10; she would

not stop calling them or talking to them.

When the music was put on; she too wanted to

dance along with it. And to add on (to dance),

she pulled off my dupatta and began to play

with her. It was fun to watch her explore people

and places.

My profound experiment with Deeksha

noreply@blogger.com (A Darbha) — Sat, 13 Jun 2009 19:37:00 +0000

Hi,

I have been taking oneness blessing or what is called Deeksha over in
India since last 13 years, and i have found radical change in my
behaviour and nature. It has filled enormous wisdom and understanding
about self and the world around me. It has helped me to heal my body,
mind and soul in the most mysterious way. It has guided me intuitively
through the challenges and every changing phase of my life.

But yet I have not been able escape through the thoughts, words and
deeds that I have been committing. Mistakes keep happening and so does
my learnings. One such lesson happened few days back- After watching
regular oneness programme that telecasts in television, after thinking
deeply over the day's subject, I just felt like giving deeksha to
myself, my daughter and my husband. I wanted to use the gift of
deeksha that i received after attending a higher course at Oneness
Univercity. I first gave deeksha to my husband, and then to myself.
After I received self deeksha as it is called, I felt so nice and calm
within me. I felt deeply connected to every gesture I made. As I
opened my eyes and looked upon my 4 month old daughter, I felt so good
and was feeling very much connected to her; not out of attachment but
pure love, or u can say i was seeing through Awareness. Then I placed
my hand on Akshara (my daughter), slowly the Deeksha started communing
to me. It took me deep inside her wherein I experienced her immense
suffering that she went through in my womb. I saw how I and my husband
had affected her due to our grequent quarrels and arguements. At first
I was unable to accept my fault and was giving justification to what I
did and blamed my husband for his part of anger. But then slowly, I
moved more deeply into her; where I didn't feel any seperate from her
and fully experienced her suffering, the pain that was caused by me. I
couldn't resist, and tears began to roll down and the experienced
continued for 3 more minutes, then slowly I started feeling light
within me. i felt so good after embracing my own negativity. I also
felt that my child is talking to me "thank you mumma, for healing me,
for loving me in true form".

I thanked the Lord for all his blessings upon me and this world, for
introducing Deeksha to ordinary people like us, so that we can change
our present and future, a flight from ordinary livng to extra-ordinary
being!

At the lotus feet of Sri Bhagavan and Sri Amma,

A Darbha

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Regards,
Aishwarya
Oneness Volunteer

A family in ONENESS, of ONENESS, by ONENESS and Committed to world ONENESS

For More information contact: http://lifeinoneness.blogspot.com

What attracts us (here human) towards God or The Spirituality?

noreply@blogger.com (A Darbha) — Wed, 10 Jun 2009 10:44:00 +0000

I call myself a very lucky person, for in my house I see Women from
different generation (My Paternal grandma 78yrs old, maternal grandma
75 years old and my mom 50 years old), living together under the same
roof in happiness
and tolerance with each other. Every morning when the ladies of the
house gather in the kitchen for cooking, i feel they are partying and
sharing all their past learnings and experiences with each other. Yes
sometimes they bump into arguements or go through some emotional
turmoil, but amidst these I see Spirituality or The God Factor playing
a vital role in these women.

We often have spiritual discussions in our side, whereby we try to
share all the beautiful spiritual experiences of my ancestors. So I
today I came to know about this One such lady; my maternal grandma's
mother; three generation ahead of me - never failed to worship the
Gods may it be illness or any other reason. She was highly devoted to
Lord Krishna and had a personal bond with him. I was delighted to know
of her and I continued to participate in the sharing.

I dont know when, but I was taken over my thoughts, about how many
times I would have questioned this to myself.

What attracts us (here human) towards God or The Spirituality? Is it
his love and
devotion for Him? Is he in love with God?

I reflected over the very same question, and this is the answer I got
- I as human have forgotten what is LOVE (here love means
Unconditional Love), and I know nothing of love at all. So when I know
nothing of HIM, I am not attached to HIM because I love HIM.

Its not just me, but all of us do not know about LOVE. thats why we
keep trying and trying all the time to love our parents, friends,
siblings, husband and all others...but still we have not achieved this
Unconditional Love. So it seems ITS JUST NOT POSSIBLE for us TO LOVE
GOD. We make need of GOD to only fulfill our selfish desires and to
wade away the insecurities, fears, boredom within us.

We live in so much of Fear that even Our knowledge about God or The
experience with God has also become some kind of possession and even
the slightest thought of losing HIM terrifies us. We don't want to
lose it.

So people tend to worship God, believe in a form, do prayers, chant
mantras and sing bhajans, and do all kind of spiritual practices so
that we get rid away from all these fears, insecurity, boredom, etc.

here the matter is not of any arguement nor issue in pertext to right
or wrong. But till man learns the lesson of "Accepting Oneself as I
am", we have not moved even an inch towards spiritual progress.

Onenesscity is one such spiritual city; whereby you can learn about
"Accepting Oneself". More info - http://lifeinoneness.blogspot.com

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Regards,
A Darbha
Oneness Volunteer

A family in ONENESS, of ONENESS, by ONENESS and Committed to world ONENESS

Innocent Smiles

noreply@blogger.com (A Darbha) — Sat, 04 Apr 2009 09:44:00 +0000

I am these days busy attending my 2 and half months old daughter Akshara, who needs a feed every 2 - 3 hours in a day and also frequently passes urine in the nights, so I keep changing her nappies. She occassionally frets or cries, remains calm, quiet and playful through most of the midnights. Yes, what I mean is, she enjoys sleeping in the day time, and wakes up bright in the midnight, and looks at the night lamps, colourful curtains, lizards on the ceiling and if I am interesting enough when compared to them, then she looks for me and wants to know what I am doing; awake or asleep.

I usually stay awake in the nights but yesterday night I was tired, as I was awoke past three nights and days. Fortunately she slept till 4am. On her demanding I fed her; thought she may sleep again and I too can have my nap. But she did not seem to be in mood, so she lay awoke, she viewed with attention at the night lamp above the bed, and started talking with it. I lay on my back and watched her playing by herself and began to sunk into my thoughts.

I was questioning myself that why don't we as adults enjoy the "Present" of our life? Whole of our day, minute, second, passe on either thinking of our past or planning for the future. The whole day goes on in questioning, analzying, reasoning, understanding, about everything we are linked to. Whenever we look at those dark blue sky, the stars, the moon, the tall buildings around, the lush green garden behind our appartments, the cars parked in a row and the dim light of the temple from the distant; do we ever stop our thoughts in amusement? do we ever express our excitement or happiness in just watching it and nothing about anything else? Whenever we look at these things, there is always an interpretation of those materials in our mind. I mean - when we look at the stars- we immediately conclude within 'Yeah, stars always shine, they are meant to shine.'; when we see the cars parked in a row - we reason it 'which is the best one, start calculating the cost of it, analyze its design and technology and finally start dreaming of buying one.' When these interpretations happens; we tend lose the Present. We either start bringing our past or start day dreaming about our future; but we never enjoy the Present.

That is where we differ from little Akshara. She has no mind that interprets and says 'hey you are looking at that lamp for the 100th time! That you are foolish because you are talking to a non-living object! Fortunately her brain has not developed to understand the difference between the living and the non-living objects. I personally feel, that it is the most spiritual and intense moment of our life, when we are enjoying our Present. For her, everything is new, amazing and perfect. She lives in NOW and consumes the Present to the fullest!

I brought back my thoughts again, and I found Akshara watching me. Her expression was of an astonishment probably she figured out what I was thinking, she smiled mischievously and looked away to the night lamp and started talking with it again!