Baked Bukker !!

Life As We Take It !!

2016-07-24T11:53:00.001-07:00

She: I am breaking up !
He: Oh, looks like you have found another guy, have you guys slept together?
BFF: OMG, don't tell me you found another guy.
Others: She is just the same, can't stick to one guy. Must have found new hottie.

Get a break guys. Why do you need another guy to break up with someone? It could be some mutual problem or may be a mature decision. At this point of time, if I decide to break up with someone, I will never look for another guy. Because after 3 affairs and many crushes around since I was 14, I am so done with relationships. Well, I call it Boundation.

During my trip, I had discussion with my friend about how I try to ignore people and look for solace these days. I am always like this, in no mood of long talks, romantic talks or may be relative talks. People have negative reactions to such stuff, on the other hand it looks super positive to me.

Sometimes I feel like, I am almost done with life. God should have made 30 years pf Human life. That would have helped in population control as well, I believe so. Dogs are lucky and luckiest is the mosquito, minimum life span. Either I have seen enough in this 15 years of life, that's why I feel bored of it, bored of face even or may be I don't want to see more worse things happening in my life.

Whomsoever I meet these days, everyone has some sad story. Either they are fed up of relationship, job, parents or themselves. For that matter I feel lucky that at least I get to travel a lot and found my passion for life. There are few who can't leave Jobs or Family for some reason or the other.

It's good to do trials with life. I had 3 major guys, 1 job, tried freelancing and business too and of all traveled most of North & South. When I mention this, I don't think so I have done a lot but when I sit quietly, give a thought to it. It was too much to handle, darling.

All the guys were great, I was the culprit of failed relationship. Job, my job sucked big time but then whatever I learned about my profession I thank my boss for it. Freelancing, well had wonderful experience with many kinds of clients. Business, still experiencing the essence of it.

Realization from everything was I try to run away from everything. Whether its good or bad, gets me profit or loss, once I am done, its OVER and I believe if we live this way, things will be far far better for every one of us. Never ever get serious for any damn thing and never take things for granted too. Because we make million plans and most of the time we end up doing nothing.

I see how our thought process changes time to time. When I was a kid, I wanted to be Model, limelight, camera and all of that. But now, I want to be a Nomad. Travel around the places where no one will know me. I can change my identity whenever, wherever I want. How classic, life would be. One day you are Ankita, another day you are Savitri. ;)

I am the happiest person when I have no one around me. Me, tea, may be bidi, clouds, trees and loneliness. Sounds a bit like depressed person, but trust me I am the supremely happy that time. They say, I am influenced by movies like YJHD, Highway & all. I don't think so or may be, we always need inspiration. ;)

I am saying all of this, just because I don't be gyan guru or something. I just want people around me to stop faking things, stop doing things for someone else happiness until & unless your parents involved. Well, parents can be sometime big knick-knack in your life, so explain them. I was never able to, but in a month or two I am going to explain them few things, lets see how they will react.

It's not necessary to have someone around to be happy, first find happiness within you. You came alone, fought alone and going to die alone too. So think about it, who matters most. Be Selfish, Stop Judging, Stop Interfering, Be Happy, may be. :)

Listen to this wonderful track: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=itdTtu9heSU
Chhad de Moorakh Moh Jagat Da,
Chhad de Moorakh Moh,
Jag hai Ret ka Teela,
Kaun Leher mein Beh Jaaye Jeevan ka Khwaab Kabeela...

PS: Bore laga toa thik, pasand aaya toa thik :) I expressed my thoughts, you read it :P I didn't ask for it :P ... Kidding

A Bliss, A Curse !!

2016-05-10T11:20:00.002-07:00

Parents see it as a Achievement of Life, Girls see it as a Dream of Life & Boys see it as a Free Sex for Life. Well, yes I am talking about Marriage and stuff. I am 28 and that's why I see a lot of people talking about Marriage, Children and Divorce. Yeah when comes the word Love, Hate comes along.

I am reading many blog posts about Divorces these days. Forget about the blogs, they might be wrong. I am seeing it around, everyone wants to get divorced. Are we so done with marriages? Are we seeing it as a boundation? Or its just our parents job that should be done in a certain age and then do whatever you want to do with it. Live with it or die through it.

I always hated commitments, bounded relationships and yes seeing same face every morning for lifetime. But alas, we live in a society where Marriages are so very important for your social status. No matter what happens after that. Listening to so many real life experiences of my married friends, I just wonder, why marry then? Why even fall in love? Go ahead with your life. Travel as much. Meet new people and live with new experiences.

At one point of time, I thought Sex is important to live a happy life, but now all I think is why. We can be happy from multiple things around us. My definition of happiness starts with Mountains and Ends with Sea. I want to enjoy whatever comes in between. Road, People, Traffic, Animals or may be Ghosts. But atleast I smile when I am moving. I hate constant life. Marriage is one big hell of being Constant.

When I was a kid, I use to tell my mom, I want to marry just because of jewelries and lehenga and after that I want to run away. She always told me its not all about Flashy stuff, you have to live with it, else society won't accept me.

Like really, society people who the fuck are they, I mean I am also a part of society, but I never questions their lives. They have made our lives more miserable or say our parents lives. But anyway the one who gossip, will always find someone or something to talk about. Earlier it was important for a Girl to get married because she was not self dependent and she needed someone to take care of her. Nowadays things are different, definition of marriage is changing. Girls are getting self dependent, they don't need guys to take care of them or rule their life. And most of the guys can't see this happening and then comes the Ego, which mostly leads to divorce or separation. I wonder what is the whole sole reason of getting married, is it Sex, Money, Society, Kids, Love or what? Do let me know if you know a bit about it.

But then there are few couples who look so happy, they make heads turn around. May be they are real happy or just faking it. You never know. Because we as humans have learnt the art of faking it so good that sometimes we forget whether my happiness is real or not. At-least with me its the same. I am a big time fake person. I prefer smiling than telling my sad stories to each and everyone.

I am not totally against Marriage, its just you have to be cool with it. Parents shall not take it as a project and aim of their life. When the time is right, everything will take place on its own. Crying over things won't help at all. A girl or a boy should not be forced into it. When you can't shop things online without giving a second thought, how can you expect to marry a person by seeing his or her matrimony profile. Arranged or Love, whatever it is, you have to be mentally matured and prepare for it. As its going to be lifetime project, no matter how hard you try you can't go away with it.

So think twice or may be thrice before getting married, Not only girls but boys life changes too. A married person has to think and plan according to better half's choice, mostly. Don't make it a project, let it happen when the time is right !!

I am not dying to get married, but I am not even saying No to it, but I am not even saying Yes to it too... You know what I mean !! :)

Say What!!

2015-09-04T00:07:00.000-07:00

Well, from old times society is suffering from a very major and common problem, that is, “What others will think about it?” Like why, why do you have to concern about fucking someone else for your family decisions. Yes, I might be going straight forward to the topic without creating any drama. This is a very common thing among people from 60’s-70 and these people are our very dear parents.

We, the kids from 90’s, all we want is our parents to be happy, all we deal is with their concerns and all we care about is their feelings. But fuck, all they care about is Society!! I am seeing parents disowning their kids just for the sake of society, because that kid wanted to marry someone out of the caste or of his/her own choice or similar examples. Many of you can relate to it, I believe.

During my teens, even I used to behave and dress up properly, do things that comes under good manners but then I always had this question. Am I living it for myself or for others? I wanted to wear short clothes, felt like dating a guy, maybe I wished to sleep with him before my marriage, but not all those things are my fucking thoughts and I have useless aunties and tharki uncles who would see you as a Sex Object but if you are doing something as they call it Anti-Social, it will hurt their feelings, man. They will insult your parents by saying you haven’t taught your kid “Sanskar”. What the fuck is bloody Sanskar?

And if I say this is the problem with Small Town Peeps, then I am totally wrong. Because even if you are in a metro city and living in a society, mind you never talk to a guy not for few minutes else you will be considered sleeping with him or having an affair. They don’t know the meaning of friendship and that’s one bloody reason why bollywood keeps on saying on movies that “a girl and a guy can never be friends”. Fuck Shit!!

I cannot totally complain about one's mentality. It is how they were taught in old times and they lived to it. Also these people are just so much stuck in between Indian & Western Culture. They want to learn everything about "modernization" and want their kids to be enough "modern" to deal with for say "Modern" World and Culture, you know. But, but, but, you do one thing against their ego or choice, you are the biggest villain in their life. Why, just because of Society. I am blessed with super cool parents, they never stopped me for anything and that’s one reason why I am the biggest spoiled sport in my home. Good that I am not going through all of this, up to this level, sort of.

All I want to say is clear up your heads, you want to follow Sanskar then follow everything about India. This fusion thing won’t work at all. Either be Indian or be Western and by saying be Indian, I don’t want you people to lock up your girls or kill them in womb. Open up your brains you old faggots and try to stick with it. See the positive side of it, don’t get confuse and don’t even confuse your kids. Till 23 years of our life, we do things as our parents wish to do but then if we think we are matured enough to take our life decisions then let us do that. We are kind of messed up in our brains like what you guys want and what not. Things can be handled peacefully by ignoring society totally. If by any chance we create any kind of mess out of our decision then fault will be totally ours, you will be free of all the knick-knack blames.

Well even to young peoples, don’t live your life for society, live it up for yourself. Don’t even live it up for your better half, live it up for yourself. Do what makes you happy eventually everyone will be happy with it. Create your own small world, figure out what you want to do. If at any time you feel like leaving job and travel, go for it. Forget if society won’t see you as respectful person who is not shoving off his ass for IT companies and firangs. Your parents might not want to talk to you, but it’s their choice. You can’t change it, they choose it to be annoyed of you. You did what you could have done for them. You respected their feelings and when needed they should respect yours without any other concerns. It should always works like "Tit for Tat", isnt it? Think about it and you will agree to it. Ultimately no one has made this process of School, College, Job, Marriage, Children and then die happily. If this what makes you happy, do it. But God never wanted you to live like this, that’s one reason he never mentioned such process anywhere. They could kill you for breaking the process but they couldn't stop you once you break it and start flying.

Lots of gyan and gaalis already. Blogged after so long. Thanks for reading. Love Much <3 font="">

Love, Break-ups & Marriages!!

2014-04-22T13:14:00.001-07:00

You fall in love with someone, break up with someone else and finally end up getting married to some third person. It could be for fun, sacrifice, new experience or a revenge. Anything, any damn thing which could be hurting to at least one person.

At this stage of my life, I genuinely accept that I had few affairs and I always end up asking God, why in first place, you made me fall in love with my ex. I mean, why in the world we have crush, fall in love with many, or 2 at same time. Why we have such words in our dictionary like Crush, Extra Marital, Ex, Fling, FWB & blah blah blah. Why the story is not just as simple as fairy tales?

A girl, a boy, they fell in love and lived happily ever after.

If HE, who has written our life stories, then I must say HE loves drama a lot. I wonder, if someone asks you to give a genre to your life, what you would suggest. Umm, I would surely call mine a Melodramatic Romantic Comedy. My friends’ wonder who would be standing next to me on my marriage day. Now after seeing all the melodrama of 26 years, I wonder the same. I fall in love, fall out and fall again. I am not even confident that if I get married, I won’t fall again to someone new.

People say you can have fun as much as you want till the time you are not married. But once you are into that hell, Babes BEWARE! You are finished. Then why, why everyone is dying to get married. Why girls shout aloud Oh my god like three to four times when a guy proposes her. Too many questions to ask. I guess I know the answer, it’s all mere FOOLISHNESS.

Boys to one extreme are loyal, that they want good sex badly from a girl apart from love. But Girls, believe me they are just so confused with their demands, that they don’t know what exactly they want. If they found a decent hubby, they would want him to be indecent. They never think straight. They always believe on the most famous quote, “Grass is always greener on the other side.” Trust Me!

I always sit and smile when I listen to stories that keep on happening around me. What the fuck is God trying to do? People say it’s us, who made this world corrupted. We introduced all the bloody things other than love. I don’t think so. It’s HE who was bored of just Love in this world, who wanted more drama. So HE made our lives more Mysterious. I used to call mine Mysteriously Awesome, but now I am so fed up of each and every surprises that I swear, I want a simple and plain life, like a boiled Maggi with no extra masala.

Let’s cut it short. Be Loyal and true. Do whatever you want. Love. Trust. Hate. Lust. Fight. Apologize. Forgive. Forget.

Just keep it calm and be with your partner. Make him or her the first and the last!! Trust me its breathtaking to hear from others, OMG they are still together.

Ruled Relationship

2013-05-31T17:48:00.006-07:00

RULES!

Those which we had in our homes, schools, colleges, friendships or say in any relationships.
But the word RULES, had only motive, and that was to control one's life. But the only thing that I learnt about rules was, To Break Them & Live Life in Your Own Conditions!

Rules that we had in our homes, seemed little legible because they were made by parents. Then we face rules made in schools and colleges, which were completely negligible for us. We never followed them and always loved it. Then comes the rules of relationships, no matter its from friends, boyfriends, girlfriends or spouse, we had to follow them, as they were given by someone who is special to us. We believe that by following, we can show our love and respect to the other person.

Is it just that? I always lived an independent life. My dad was one of the most super cool person, who never ever controlled my life. He always wanted that his kids should be independent enough to do their work and live their life in there own conditions.There comes a friend, they make few rules, which is quite acceptable. They are like, "Do not be friends with that guy, he is my ex" or "Do not study beyond that chapter, because I am not doing the same." So these seems to be kiddish and very much acceptable.

But then, BooooooooooooM, here comes a girlfriend or boyfriend, with pre-set rules which goes like:
#Do not be friends with guys/gals, #Do not drink alcohol or smoke, #I hate your best friend, Unfriend her/him, #Do not be friends with strangers, #Do not go on trip with guys/gals, #Do not cut your hairs, and blah blah blah... I mean come on people, why do you have to say all these. Trust me, I have been in relationships, quite long long types, but no I never imposed any rules on any of them.

You do not have to. You cannot run their life. They are not teetotaler, whom you have to tell, do this and that. For fuck sake, my personal experience is the more you control someone, the more they feel like doing the same stuff. Its very old thing, you always want to break the rules, you cannot handle the fact that someone is all over on your life. You tell kids, how to eat and how to potty, Not teenager or mid twenty fella.

Ummm... I accept the fact that their are some boundaries which should not be crossed. And a person can only understand this either by making that mistake or getting mature day by day. You cannot impose anything on anyone. As your age pass by, you find yourself more matured and you stop doing many silly things that you did in your teenage. For say, many girls I know completely stop wearing Pink and Woooooing, in their mid twenties, because somewhere they feel that they are getting older and "Black is new Pink".

But anyways, the only which matters is Trusting people around and not letting them feel that you doubt, so you are setting the border line. Try to explain the situation politely and then come up with your set of rules and ask if they are good with this or not. Don't just give them the burden and say you have to live with it.

Its always fun to break the rules and live your life. You know something, that makes your life interesting, until and unless it doesn't Set your bird free and see how well your relationship goes! It won't just make the other person happy, but also he/she won't be doing things against your wish by their own understandings.

P.S: A girl drinking alcohol and talking to stranger is not always a slut. You can also label her Social Bird. She would love that.

Mum's Love

2013-05-11T13:15:00.001-07:00

Mother, a word which can be defined by infinite sentences and words but when you start doing that you end up with nothing. I believe so, you can add as many adjectives to it, but nothing is compared to the word Mother.

The gravity of the word remains in itself. That one person is just the same in the whole world. No matter which country, cast or religion you belong to, the selfless love, the unique personality, the kindness, the caress and the big heart of Moms remain just the same. If you say, God cannot be everywhere, so he created Mother. I do not trust in this line, because even a God can think about doing something wrong to you, but not mom.

We have a very nice saying in hindi, it goes like, "Putra Kuputra Ho Sakta Hai, Lekin Mata Kumata Nahi Ho Sakti". Meaning a son could do any worse to the mom, but a mom can never wish any wrong to her child.

Being a girl in mid twenties, I cannot imagine, how the feeling of being a mom is, but seeing my mom and her nature, I always believed that there's something which makes her so soft and in-defensive May be that feeling comes when you carry a seed in your womb for nine months and that first hold of your child, can not be expressed in words, it can only be felt.

I am pretty close to my mom. I share everything and anything with her. She is truly a best friend. She has always helped me with my studies, showed me good and evil paths, and giggled on my bitching. I could never imagine my life without her. When I was a kid, and if ever my mum leaves me at home alone for a day or two, I use to carry her saree while sleeping, because of her smell on that saree. I lie to myself that she is around, by feeling that smell. She has always been my side when I have to play hide and seek with my own stuff. Only a Mother can find out where all the lost stuff are kept. And we always hear this on movies, like she is the one who can only see the false expressions on your face and what your heart and mind is upto.

She has always pampered me as I was the youngest. During my teens, I use to be so jealous of her as she looked super beautiful and I use to think, Oh God, Why I am not even close to her! But then when I grew up, I realized God has listened to me and made me xerox copy of hers. Though I am not even closer to her qualities, but yes I would always try to learn from her for my better future.

Well, sometimes I feel bad when I yell on her, may be because of the generation gap, we face some misunderstandings else I believe she is the coolest of mum, I've ever met.

Mom, I love you for everything and anything. I am sorry for all the wrong doings. I thank you for being my Mother. I am lucky to have you. Be my side always, it makes me lil stronger. :)

You are Precious! <3 p="">
Love. Proud and Pagal Daughter. Honey :)

He's a Marriage kind, Just that !!

2013-04-28T14:24:00.000-07:00

Like, Seriously?

You keep an option and a Keep-Keep kind of guy with you, just to make your rest of the journey safe and sweet, like your mother. Lets talk about it bitch, you cannot be your mother, who had just one guy for her whole life and never thought of having an option.

But why, why the hell you are two-timing or say three...when you know you have decent enough marriage material with you. Like very frequently, I talked to few people and found out everyone is trying to save their asses off the arranged marriages, the pain of finding a guy, or may be starting everything from the scratch all over again.

Is that, that tough? You met one guy, spend almost more than three years, and then you are thinking all over again that whether I should give him a chance or I should try someone entirely new, may be that will bring the thrill in my physical,emotional and normal life. Its not that easy girl, not that. You do not even know the guy with whom you've spent months and years. When they said, girls are hard to understand, I wanted them to add few many liners, saying Girls are hard to keep or Boys are not that easy to understand either, blah blah blah.

I might sound old-fashioned, but dating two guys all at once is truly sluttish. Good thing you are getting to know two guys, you won't be ever bored. But the bad thing is you are an Unpaid Slut and nothing else. Life's not just about fun and sex, it's about getting stuck to one guy and be with him forever. If you'll keep moving to others, you'll get more reasons to hate him. Because everyone wants to have you, they'll try to do all the good things to you and then the comparison occurs and the hatred. Rather than moving, try to move with him, develop your understanding, compassion towards each other.

All mistakes are repairable. So is yours and your bf's. But just think for once if any of you is cheating on each other, and when the either one founds out what he or she will feel about it. Total Broke, they'll be. Well, the better suggestion I can give is sit back, try to find out why are you even making out with other guy, just to be cool among your friends or you've got some serious issue with your guy. Find out to remove all the guilt!

And if ever you feel like leaving your boyfriend for the second guy, you've met. Beware sweety, you might leave the other one for the third guy too. You are not a relationship kind.

Do not at least play with lives. I used to think earlier, extra marital or any kind of extra affair is good. It
brings excitement in your life. But no, it will make you more depressing bitch and you'll end up with nothing. If you are with a guy from years, and you think you can marry him some day. Give him some respect and stuck to him, be the relationship kind. And if ever you think, no you are not that type, then darling be a proud slut, who's not getting paid.
Because you say it or not, sex is life and you are moving out to find out more experimental ones. Nothing else!

You can start off at any point of your life, no matter how many mates you had in your life. Guys too have heart, not just dicks.

Be a one man girl and Be Awesome. :)

A Trapped Free Soul..

2013-02-22T14:19:00.001-08:00

Relationships, Married, Extra Marital, Extra Affair!

And you call yourself being in love. Not with one, but with many! Huh! Seriously!

I don't respect that love, not even I call that a love, until and unless you are thinking of the other person as a backup. You are playing with no one but yourself. I am not saying don't be with too many, but its just that don't be at same time. Try to realize the fact, if other person is doing the same to you, it will hurt you to death, but when you are doing the same thing, its nothing, but just feelings.

Fuck with these feelings. They are materialistic. They are there to play with you and people around you. No one feels for anyone, if they really do, they had all the courage to express it no matter what. I swear.

If you lust him, say you lust him and if you love him, say the same. Why to hide it everytime by saying the fucking lie that, Baby I love you! Oh come on, do you really think, that's the only tactics you've got. Then please spare us and get some life. Be a dude and fuck equally!

We, girls these days are enough bold to listen,"I wanna have sex with you" than "I love you." It scares us. Because when it comes to love, we want you to stay with us for like forever. We don't want you to go out, have some drinks and fuck some other girl. But just stay with us and be proud couple for next 75 years. Yes, the more we show our bolder side, the less we are. We are just the same, soft, romantic and bla bla bla. When you are talking about sex to us, we know that some or the other time, you gonna go away. Because indeed when there's no love, it gets boring and boundless. But when its love, you keep on finding reasons to preserve that relationship apart from million break-ups. Yes, we try to act strong that time! :)

I always thought myself as a free soul. I never had any boundation. I was always fascinated by the all negative things around me. I wanted to be the baddest girl in town. Though I succeeded a little. And I don't regret that shit. Because it made me more strong to face the world. Yes, I am not hiding behind the doors, but I am standing infront of those morons and fighting hard. I have my own language, my parents may not like. I have my own way of living and yes whatever I wanna do, I try to accomplish it by now or then. I break hearts, trusts and relationships for some reasons. But if I tell the truth and it hurts the other person, I don't feel like I am doing any wrong Oh Please, atleast I am not faking it with you. People call me two faced, yes sometimes I am. But when I am done with my work, I kid, I tell the truth and move away smoothly. It hurts, Indeed! After all, I am a human being, not some cold-hearted bitch, which I love calling myself.

They say, they know Me. And I laugh inside and say Dude, I don't even know myself, Who are you? B)

Well, sorry for the long story, but somehow I got taken away with just a thought. I just feel, don't trap anyone with your rules, thinking and your way of living. It will do nothing, but take that person away from your life, not NOW, but LATER. And don't ever do anything forcefully. Please!

Trapping makes one, more violent. So if you are ready to deal with it, go ahead. If not, stay behind, stay calm and live your, just your's life the way you want it to. Don't spell others life with it.!

#humblerequest

Stop Feeling Your Feelings!

2013-02-03T15:42:00.001-08:00

Doubt regarding your happiness?

You fucking kidding me...Right!

I mean why to question about any kind of feeling. Oh yeah I must be talking about relationship, love and feelings, but I mean it... If you are trying to think about why you are not happy, you are doing it wrong babes.

Feeling is not a thing or a cloth to think about, whether I should have it or not. Its a beautiful experience, an emotion, a sensation which thrills you inside. You are glad, in love, sad, angry, or say irritated... Your face, tone everything just say it all. One need not to tell or ask about it.

Most of the times in a relationship, we try to keep things straight and normal. No one wishes any kind of complexity in it. But many times we end up discussing things, which takes you directly to a break-up. I somehow feel that, less discussion and more fight & forgive things work better. One night you fight for it, next morning you woke up like nothing happened.
Indeed that would be a pretty beautiful life.

A person should not indulge deep down in the problem solving well. That well is flooded with confusions, problems, tears, sorrows and many more negative stuff. In any condition we should try to keep ourselves far far away from it. I know life doesn't work the way I want to, but somehow I feel that it will get better if we start doing things this way. I am not saying this is perfect, there must be some sorted out solid solution for this, but when you are helpless and trying to save a relationship after a month break-up may be, you should not go deep in it. A patch-up session should be super romantic and cute without any negative thoughts or wrong doings of past. I believe!

But whatever, it totally depends on an individual's choice. One last thing: Till the time your heart is not broken, you wont know what it takes to keep a relationship go like nothing happened. And if you never experienced a broke relationship, you won't know what true happiness really means!

So break hearts & spread happiness !!Stop Feeling your Feelings and let your body feel whatever it wants to feel... Love, Lust or Lousiness... :)

Live & Let Live !!
Being Single... ^_^*

Groom's Heart or Ex's Cock... Choice is yours!!

2012-08-25T04:25:00.000-07:00

What’s with marriages these days?

I couldn’t find a single person who can give me genuine reasons to get married. Some of them need money; some of them want legal sex. What else? Oh yeah, boys want Maids and girls want credit cards. Is this all?

There must be lot many things that are still need to asked and discussed. But mentality of youngsters has been changed a lot with the word marriage. I read a stat saying 80% of girls are not at all willing to get married because there are lots many cons than pros, and they are self-dependent too. I know when you have money and may be no one is stopping you from doing sex, what’s the reason left to get married. Just for the sake of parents, the society or may be just for the namesake.

I like the west culture for few such things, where you are not bounded to anything. Your parents stop taking your responsibility after an age. Whatever you are doing, you are responsible for it.

In some or the other way, we are grabbing west culture, actually we always copied them. Lekin na hum yaha ke puri tarah ho paye or na hi west ke. We are in some way connected to our culture too. We look for society or our parents for things. We still think about people around. As sometime we do wrong things, but always make sure that no one gets to know as it might spoil your reputation or may be your parent’s. We share everything with our friends, but then we have that special friend to share our dirty secrets, because we know that person will understand us better and accept that dirty fact.

We see married couples and think look they are so happy with their life, one should get married and try to be like them. But no one sees the other part of their life. I am not totally against of marriage, but I am still fighting for a single answer, how it will make any difference to your life. I am happy being single; trust me, happier than being in a relationship, then why should I get married.

"Questioning the concept of marriage, OSHO says it is the ‘ugliest institution invented by man’ as its aim is to monopolize a woman.

People told me Osho is here because of a marriage only, then why he has given such liners. Ok, so I am here because of my parents, still sometime I feel like not getting married and making my life mess. Because after all these years, I realize all by myself, that I won’t be able to continue it for a long time. Then why should I spoil someone else’s life by tying a knot and making all those crappy 7 promises.

We are still so much attached to our parents, that we keep on compromising on things like marriages and all. There are very less revolutionary youngsters exist, who can say to their parent’s face, “No I do not want to get married, I am happy the way I am.” Trust me they are the best ones. At least they are enough daring and will have a happily ever after life.

And where’s the trust factor with your partner. When you can see people after getting married or about to get married are not afraid to have sex with someone else. I was watching a movie last night, where a bride told her friend, that she had sex with her ex. and she also told that if she can marry groom’s heart and ex’s cock. I really lolled. Everyone’s same out here. Some accept while some do it secretively.

It’s on you how you want to keep your future life. Mysteriously awesome or honestly awesome. Choice is yours. Just never regret for both. Because I believe in true happiness, if choosing both makes you happy, go for it. But stay regret less joyous.

Regression – You are doing it wrong!!

2012-08-23T03:50:00.004-07:00

How you fall in love with someone all over again, if you had good sex with them! Strange No?

You are committed, you get drunk, you kiss some other guy, and you found it good. And then he keeps on asking you if you love him, you guilty of saying No, so you say yes. That moment when you feel like lolling on their face so hard. Dude, get some life that girl was too drunk to think about anything and also she is too blunt, that she won’t come up with super sadist face by next day. So Chillax.

Such things are becoming too casual with everyone. Why anyone would be guilty of anything, if he is doing it all by himself. You broke up with a guy, you kissed a stranger, you turn out to be gay for a night, and you smashed out for once and don’t even remember what happened to you. When everything did happen to you for once, why would you regret it down or end up your life for such silly things? Come on, be a brave heart.

I advised a super heartbroken friend of mine long back. Get out of your bounded circle, have sex with random girl, go date some strangely looking girl, lie a girl that she is so beautiful, that you can die to marry her. It’s not a tough thing, you know and if you are doing it all by choice, it’s not wrong at all. Try finding the fun element in it. Consider good things and spare out bad ones. They don’t make any sense now.

I don’t understand, why people stay regretting for almost everything they had done in their past. It’s all done; it won’t come again for God’s sake. Also, regretting won’t make it right. It meant to happen, so it did. Now if they don’t exist in your life, don’t force it to come. Because things won’t be same again. You were wired to something, it has gone, and it’s broken. Fevi-quicking it won’t help, because that one broken line will always be there.

I found few people around who get back to their ex because they had super awesome sex life with them, and some leave their partners because it’s all dry there. And then I realize if SEX is everything which decides you should be in a relationship or not. If yes, life’s going to be worst, as it won’t let you stop with one person in your life. #youknowwhatImean

Nowadays, people are getting so sex-obsessed, that they won’t even mind making out with someone just before their marriage. Why do you need to get married then? When you are getting everything you want… Oh that’s a complete different thing I wanted to write on. So I’ll leave it here.

But frankly speaking, it’s all I can see sex-addicts around. Only few of them are left who stay loyal to their partner, no matter what, but the majority is dying to get sex in every possible way. I always wonder that I saw every possible dirty thing around me, what’s left for next generation. Are they going to be more worst or lil better? I can’t find betterment anywhere but the corrupted mind and bodies.

Prostitution is a free bird, but in a different way!

When no-one is scared to have, talk about, or share it, why anyone would want to pay for it. And when you know science is developing so much that they are producing stuff like “18 again”, which makes you feel like a virgin again, who would not want to take risk of having pre-marital sex. I am talking about those who are still lil scary birds around.

Oh my God, I have written a lot and that too most of them are out of context. Pardon me for that. I would like to conclude it in my next blog. ;)

Sister Love!!

2012-04-24T02:35:00.002-07:00

I miss her! Yes, I do… She must be totally surprised, if she ever tries reading this.

Today evening, when I got back from office, I thought spending some time for myself, by siting in between the nature and watching stars up above the sky. I saw two sisters chit chatting, the younger one was telling all the silly things that elder one was responding to her best. Ahh that reminds of my elder sis, who looks pretty younger than me to people around.

When I was a kid, I always had this some sort of J factor with my sis, as she was complete all-rounder, no matter if that calls for studies, cooking, managing home or helping parents for taking any decision. And I was complete opposite, though I was good in roaming around, playing late evenings, getting dirty and getting back to home, just not to study but to watch TV. *blink*

She was this arrogant, snobbish, hitlerish kind of lil early matured girlwith prettiest ever long hair. Though everyone’s favourite, from parents to teachers. I was careless one, she was handle with care one, for anything and everything. I learnt this habit from her, of keeping souvenirs’, like silly bills with people’s comments, movie tickets and blah blah blah…

Apart from all jealousy love that I had for her, I always had this fantasy of becoming just like her, but it was a deadly failure. *poor me* I always showed the world, that we are two different “species” or say poles, seriously, she is south and I am north pole. Our choices, language, attitude, nature and many other things, never met. But always in the end, I trusted her choice in terms of clothes, I truly and blindly trusted her for this.

I always use to think, whether all sisters are like this, fighting, bitching and staying apart always, because on Television and Movies, sisters were like first best friend, but I was never ever able to share things with her, maybe I was too afraid. But then I found out few sisters who behave exactly the way we did. They fight, do not speak for days, but can never keep each other sad or angry for days.

She is the one, whom I always followed, or at least tried. She gave me so many lectures and teachings, I may not follow them, but I keep them in mind, maybe someday they’ll help me for my worth living. Well, whenever tensed, I feel like calling her, she has always been a great counsellor. May be a person seriously gets matured, as time passes, and I am waiting for that day, till that time I have her with me. Two major things I seriously learnt from her are "Say it on Face Dude" and how to live life to the fullest, independently and tension free.

I feel like a stupid, idiot bitch, who lost all the good moments that I could have spent with my sister. Though I miss making shapes in the clouds, playing no. wali antakshari, Word games, borrowing clothes (Aaah, why the hell I got fat)& stuff, breaking& losing her things, teasing her while drinking tea, making noises while eating and some more and more. The names that we had keep for each other. No matter how irritating it sounds, but they were the best. Sorry for all worse I did to you and Thanks for every time you were with me. I loved you for the best and worst and yeah more for the gifts. Keep Sending. Mwwwaaahzzzz….. :*

I so miss you and love you!

P.S: Sister, Do not mind for the rude words, I used for you. I may not mean them exactly the way they sound. Brother Love is on the way! ;)

Add Some Spice to ... !!

2012-02-16T21:10:00.000-08:00

Ohh... Did you hear, his girlfriend is dating his best friend too!

Is it? Let it be, who doesn't do such things! Even married people doing the same...

Aahh... Such conversations of extra affair-affair, extra marital, couple swap... sometimes leave me in wonder that how it is used to be before and how it is now. Or may be earlier people were not so bold to speak up about their multiple relationships apart from Royal families.

Nowadays it has become so apparent, so normal for every other person that it doesn’t even bother to the individuals who are adding extra zing to their existing relationships.

Does at one point, our relationships really become so dull that we try to find something fresh and happening outside and that too not just for the sake of lust but love too. We, the human being, has always been looking for more in everything, not just relationships, but career, friends, food and every single thing that they come across. We are getting so ruthless, that we have left our life behind somewhere and running with people in the race called Life. No matter how you feel, or how happy you are with it, but we are running.

The way we used to choose clothes, and food materials, nowadays we deal in a similar manner with the people. Value factor has turned so less among everyone, that it’s tough to make out whether they love their pet more or you. It sucks when people start treating you as nothing else but your home furniture.

Especially these days, I am coming across with such relationship status, which literally brought me here to write a crap on it. Being in an affair is no less easy than being in a marriage. It’s just all about boundations, which is somewhere lost nowadays in marriages too. But when married, you still have this fear of society and family, but when you are experiencing some year old relationship or live-in, you run, run away from it. You find a girl or guy, and you start feeling that he or she is much exciting than your chum. But why don’t we ever think that during the start of your existing relationship, you had this same feeling.

It always happens with everyone, shuru me toa hawayein chalti hi hai, or guitar bhi bajta hai. Everything looks so amazingly amusing and attractive; you just can’t stop smiling, and leave people in surprise. But as time passes by, it becomes grey and dreary, because now you know everything about that person, and more or less, you hate many qualities of his/her, but as you told her/him on first day that you love him/her, you can’t even mention anything you hate. So let it be…and seek for some fun outside.

I believe or for say started believing to this very fact of nature, that nothing is uninteresting till the time you do not feel that. If you are saying bore to the other person, trust me dude, no one is more boring than you. *bliNk*… If we start bringing outside fun and spice to our existing relationship, no one would be happier than you and trust me at that time, you would be the “Happiest of Awl”.

Try doing something to your mate that you have never done. Surprise! Treat! Feast! Wild Sex!

Do anything, but do. Bring Smile to them and if after that smile, tear comes, nothing is worth than cuddling your mate when he/she is crying because he/she got so happy. Hawayein bhi chalengi or guitar bhi bajega, bas koshish karni padegi... ;)

P.S: May be I would come up with part 2 of this, let me know if you feel exactly as I do!

2012 ... Just another year ...

2011-12-31T11:09:00.000-08:00

Well... after all these 23 years of new year celebrations of waiting for clock to hit 12, and then getting excited to wish everyone and doing nothing made me so sick that today... I do not want, but still I have to stay awake till 12, because its an old tradition of wishing at 12 and celebrating new year. Dammit I cannot see anything on my FB page other than New Year wishes, come on people its just another year. 2012.. nothing so great...just a digit is changed.

I do not know... why people don't try to change themselves, their habits, their traditions. Try bringing some off beat thingy to their life. As soon as the last week of December comes, people go crazy after celebrating their life, why can't you do this everyday, why you want some reason. Even everyone starts asking your new year resolutions, it won't matter to them anyway if you fulfill it or not, but yeah they would love to demotivate you, by saying,"huh, ho liya tere se..try something else." FUCK...

The way you drink and dance on Saturday's or on new year's eve, will it make any difference if you do that on Wednesday's or say some Hindu festival's eve. NO ! It won't. And rather than making any resolution for one whole year, try making monthly resolutions, lets see if you can fulfill it and slap to some demotivater's face. Because making a resolution for one fucking year, will make you sad and depressed in the end, at one time it would be like a burden to you and you cant do anything but follow it.

So three mostly used words of last week like booze, party and resolution, won't exist from tomorrow, yeah resolution might exist for another next week, but first two would be gone for like long long time. Then you won't get legal off from your workplace neither there would be nay solid reason for party. Daarrrrnnn.... Lousy People.

Do not give a damn to people around you... they do nothing but discourage you... fill shit on your brains.... make your heart cry and take you to death. Its just You, You and You... Be Yourself and give a kick start to this ass tearing new year. The way last year behaved to you, if in a bad way, do not allow 2012 for the same, and if in a good way, try adding more to it. *T&C

Life's all about Adding, Subtracting, Multiplying and Dividing ! Just play with them and your every year would be one in a million.

I was bit sad, I did not want 2011 to go, but now as it has already gone and you cannot stop anyone from going, I tried myself to cheer up and the way 1 is added 2011, I thought that I'll add 1 to everything that I did in 2011 and made me happy. May be this could be my new year resolution. But monthly resolution is gonna be there for next 12 months.

Woooooooooohooaaa... Bring on 2012... Happy New Year... !!

Keep Smiling, laughing and loving and ................... <3

Follow it :
Past was History, Future is a Mystery and Present is a Gift, that's why it is called Present !!
Credits : KungFu Panda 1

Boys too say "No" ... ;)

2011-12-20T10:36:00.000-08:00

Guys new tag line !! :D

Indeed. They do!!

What would you call him? A loser, a jerk or someone who do not have enough guts to show up his peanut size, if any.

Whatever it is, it is a bit surprising. There were days when, girls around used to refuse sex or kiss thing. But now I guess as things are completely changed, the mentality with boys is also changing. Bingo!! They do believe in relationships. Like in my previous blogs I mentioned different categories of friends; I guess it’s hard to accept those in India. After a conversation with my friend, about this, we came out into the same conclusion. Girls turning slut, Boys are becoming God.

Tables are turned, now the guys are becoming hard to find stuff.

I am not saying all guys and gals are same, there are still many cheap morons who are ready for sex anytime, anywhere and with anyone, and, decent girls, who would not like to give you a damn, even if you gift them Gucci, Prada, Versace etc. etc. etc. So no hard feelings, still the ratio is 60% - 40%. *blink*…

A very nice line, I’ve read somewhere, “Nowadays Sex is so easy to find, but it’s hard to find love”. Truly said. Nowadays people talk sex, eat sex, walk sex, dream sex and the only thing they want is to get laid. Saying I love you is hard, but saying I want to fuck you, is kind of easier way out. Because then, you are in or out from that particulars life.

Again in a confab with my friend regarding Nowadays Sex Stream says, it’s a natural thing, you would think twice before selecting shoes, but when it comes to open invitation, you won’t like to give second thought; after all you are getting it without any boundations.

But But But… Guys… it still amazes me that if they can say no. I am like totally amazed. May be there should be some sort of balance in the universe, so God always turns one dirty and other one decent. People are spoiling the term relationships for the sake of getting laid. Sex is not holy anymore. Nowadays people’s feelings are of little worth. There’s nothing as such like feelings, emotions. There are like million varieties of guys in this world. Some are so bold, that they would openly admit that they have like 5-6 girlfriends altogether or they can’t manage relationship but they want to get laid every week no matter who she is. Some are so frustrated from their many years old – committed relationships, that they prefer sext or phone sex or may be hidden relationship with a common friend, may be.

Some are like so decent and charming that even if they are not in a relationship, they would not accept your open invitation. I tell you people, these are big disappointments but at the same time complete heart stealer and the most safe guys to be with. These are the ones whom you would love to spend life with, and you can decide this instantly. I totally respect them!

All in all I would say in a very simple word, no matter where the world is going, no matter what people around you doing to get them lucky, make yourself valuable and precious. Loving yourself is one thing but doing anything for your happiness is another thing. So don’t let that pretty sweet thing called Love go out from your life just because of not so pious and devillian thing called Sex.

Maintain Dignity. It sucks to suck everyone’s lips!

P.S: I know what you are thinking. The content written above came out from the random discussion with my friends about changing trends. So I have never been refused, because I never asked anyone out. Just to clean up your heads. :)

I must quit... you !

2011-12-03T15:51:00.001-08:00

While listening to the song Coffee and Cigarettes by Micheal Featherstone, the weird thought of putting up a post came to my mind. I am listening to this track from like 3-4 days in a loop an still cant get over it.

Oh yeah... this is also in context to Relationships, so to my all those readers who hate reading stuff about relationships, please make up your mind and then continue.

I must quit you !
Its very easy to express this feeling of yours, but when after saying this you start thinking for say down the line 2 or some years, when it all started. The feeling changes, the anger disappears, the heart that turned stone starts melting.

No, seriously. Think about it once. The first look of that guy/girl, first conversation, first touch and then propose, kiss and bloomed love and most importantly "teasings of your friends". Brings goosies as well as turn cold feet, one can easily go back to those days and feel the same excitement. But few months pass away, then few years, the love, feeling starts disappearing, but somewhere that love stays alive and turns into caress and possessiveness. It turns to something else. The change that occurs, makes either of the partner irritated, he/she cannot understand the sudden change. They start to wait for the day, like the first day.

But the feeling of the first, comes once, its on you to keep it alive by bringing many firsts in the same relationship. Because it is impossible to bring back the time which is gone.

Love between two people is just like a kid. When the kid takes birth, everyone take very good care of him/her and keep on pampering him/her till the time he/she couldn't stand on him/her own. Then comes the middle age, where the kid has been taught about the various phases of life and everyone tries to teach him the pros and cons of life, so that he can be mentally matured to handle the ups and downs of life. And when the kid gets matured, he becomes decisive and stops getting the attention as he/she used to get during their childhood, then he misses the early baby days, which he/she might have hated during that time.

The same is the story with the Love. Between the teenage and mature phase, the love turns to over caress and possessiveness, which could be harmful, if it is wild and taken in wrong way.

But if we start managing our life from the very beginning, like if you want to love, just try to give your pure love and treat your love the way you want to treat him/her throughout your life. Do not bring phases, once you are loving and then you are away, and then suddenly you came back and started being over caring and asks for changes. It does nothing but irritates the other person and makes him/her feel trapped.

I am sleepy and sad and depressed and kind of loner. I do not know what I wrote till now. But please if you want to quit someone, please do it. Its bad to drag the relationship for the sake of it. It goes this way -
First thought of quitting - discuss with him/her
Second thought of quitting - try to think yourself and give time to him/her
Third though of quitting - brainstorm, find the appropriate reason no matter how lame it is and then directly quit him/her.

Then move on with some life, you do not need to cry for it or stay depressed or listen to saddist songs like Coffee and Ciggaretes or Someone like you by Adele, but get some life and do things that stopped you from doing in all these years.

Osho said, "Just being yourself will always make you beautiful."
So love yourself and live for yourself. Because you came alone and you will die alone.

Wake up every morning, and say, You are so beautiful, I love you, and then let me know the difference after 15 days. You will find a NEW YOU !! :)

Lie and Die !!

2011-11-04T01:31:00.000-07:00

“To hide a lie, one has to speak millions of them.”

A well known truth and experienced by everyone to one extent.

When I was a kid, I was told by my mother, “Jo jhut bolta hai, use kauwa kattata hai…” I believed to that saying of my mother. I was scared of crows, I hated there creepy look and irritating voice, so I never lied to anyone. Till my teenage I believed in this crow thingy, but a day came, when I lied to my mother, I do not remember the reason, but I am still guilty for that. Anyways, so that day I did not leave from home because I had a thing in mind, what if that crow found out that I lied to my mom, he will bite me. I did not go to school, neither to tuitions nor to play around. But then I thought how long I’ll stay at home safe, I have to leave and I left…

From that day, it became my habit. I lied and lied and lied, without any fear. I did whatever I wish, I lied and had fun, because no one ever found out that I am lying. I mixed things, I complicated everything and when I lied to anyone around me, I made up 10 other things to hide that one lie of mine.

After all these 23 years, the night came, for which I’ve always feared, a lie of mine broke someone’s heart, someone’s life long friendship, someone’s hope, someone’s trust and all in all it broke me completely from inside. I am not bothered about my life, I am worried about the people who were connected to me. In a day, I lost my two very close friends. All because, I always thought about “MYSELF”. I never realized how it will affect people around me. I was so selfish and idiot.

One advice that I would love to give my readers is please try not to lie to anyone. Try facing the situation. Yes, the truth might hurt the person in front of you, but later he’ll realize that you were at least truthful and pure hearted. If someone could not listen the truth, he has no right to be your friend.

The most important is to learn, no matter how late you do it. So I learned and I promised myself that I will never lie. I will never again complicate my life. If it’s possible, I’ll format my life and will start living It again with new rule set. It’s your life, no one will teach you how to live it. If you dare to tell lie, also get some guts to say a truth. Make mistakes and learn from it. It’s your life, regret less, live it to the best and learn from every step you take and love yourself for everything.

Never Ever Lie: Crow will not bite you, but one day you will die of regrets and guilty.

Tossing My Dilemma... !!

2011-09-08T12:36:00.000-07:00

Dilemmas always creates bloody Drama in your life...

This is the truth of everyone's life. Once in your lifetime, you face a situation, where you got stuck to biggest confusion ever. You get two things, both has some pros and cons, good and bad and healthy and wealth factors. I think which makes you stand in the middle and then you can't even take left nor right.

Aaaarrrgggghhh.... That is the situation when you are left with nothing. If you go left, you will, somewhere in corner of your brains, have this thing, ohh, what if I could have gone for right, I feel it could have been much better, and vice versa. Sometime you get convinced from someone for something, that if you would be going towards right, you will turn towards left and thats the thing, one should never do.

I, myself, have been through such situations, many a times. Till now, whenever I've taken left after getting suggested, I regretted. I should have taken right.

Life itself is chaos ... it never let you enjoy anything properly, neither your success nor failure...!!

Seriously, I mean, when you are a kid, you always want to grow up and when you grow up, you yourself know, what you feel like. We are so unsatisfied with everything around us, that we even cannot stay stable. At one time you will get a feeling of going to Himalayas (I usually have..), and in the next moment you'll think, "nahi yaar, leave it bore ho jayenge.." Though we keep on crying in our normal routine, getting bore, and stuff.. Well, the same is with relationships, you want to be in it and on the other hand you do not wanna be in it, after all its about your life as it will be ruled by someone else, once you get into relation. But once you broke up, man you make your life as helly as it could be and do not even let your friends live happily.. hehe..

But did you ever had an experience of being committed to someone and then finding a guy/girl, for whom you want to do anything and everything, like you always wanted to do to your boyfriend, but he never showed interest. Try sorting this situation, you can achieve anything. Lolzz... kidding..

Once a friend of mine told me, when you feel like doing anything, do it at that moment, either do not ever regret not doing it for like forever. Whenever I go for shopping, I always have a single thought, lets check next counter, I might get better stuff than this. Believe me and I mean it, it surely happens with everyone and I tell you even while taking your serious decisions, you feel the same, it could be job, matrimonial, or relationship.

Awl in awl, my final words would be, Bollywood sucks as well as Philosophies... So always go with your mind decisions, do not ever plan to go with heart, because it always do whatever your consultants, guiders, shubh-chintaks, will tell you. But whatever your mind decides, its something you always wanted. I have a list of things, that I should have done, and learnt something from my decisions, but now I do not blame myself for them, I blame them, who told me to do so. So its like... try your first thought while confused, whatever comes go for it, no matter how serious it is. Then let me know, how was the experience.

P.S: Do not try examining your brains too, they have full of shit stuff. Mind Reads, mind works !!
Differentiate mind and brain, if you can !! ;)

Disfrute de la lectura.... *^_^*

Valor Ellos !!

2011-06-28T13:23:00.000-07:00

"You cannot clap from one hand”....

Everyone is aware of this fact, I guess!! Today early in the morning, I was just thinking about some of my friends, who rarely initiate conversation from their side. Suddenly I found that I am the only one, who keep on calling and texting them, and after that too I get to listen that I am the one who is loosing contact. Crazy people.
I have many friends, I value some of them a lot, not just value, I love them like anything and I try to show them too. However, when I do not get any response or equivalent response, I feel bad. I cannot tell them, but...
Well... Whatever... I was trying to explain that, we, Human beings, the social animal, is always in search of attention. He says or not, but he wants importance in some or the other way. It is applicable in all kind of relationship.

When your mother cooks food, though that is her daily job, but she must be expecting someday you or your dad will say, "waah, aaj toa khane me maja aa gayi".

When you keep on getting text from a friend as in like daily thing, someday initialize and say, "Good Morning", it would be the best morning of your friend.

When your father comes home from work, "tell him in some or the other way, how much he does for you, which you can't even repay", just let him know. I can bet that would be the most stress less day of his life.

When your siblings are everything for your pocket money and authorize you to do all the illegal things, buy them a gift, and tell them I bought it from my savings of all the money you gave to me. They will surely feel proud.

When your friend is... no need to say anything... you have to make him feel special every time you talk to him… just say some ****starry**** words… ;)

But they also need love, importance, and your attention, so go and call your friend to whom you have been ignoring from ages, or to whom you were just thinking to call, but could not take out time, go and tell them, “I love you bitch”.

When your partner/lover, keeps on complaining about certain things and wants you to change or just ask for something very small, may be it could be just those three words… try giving them surprise by doing something or other, on some usual day. Don’t wait for special moments, make them special by your own..!!

The all above written is just came out of the blue, somewhere I feel it should be done this way, but then again they are my feelings, my perspective of relationship, every second person has some different thought for the things said above. Isn’t it? I am dead sure while reading this you must be thinking, no I never thought that way. Its ok if someone never mentions my name, I do not do it either and so and so and so. Different people, different thinking. But yes, try learning them, it will help you to treat your people in a better way. Give a start, give a try. Some day deep down in your heart, you will feel awesomely glad, that you did something good for your closed ones. You never hurt them, at least you tried keeping them in high spirits.

Go… Spread Love… Give Hugs… Say Thank You and off course Sorry... and most importantly Value them!!

Value them is said Valor Ellos in Spanish !!

Thin Line !!

2011-06-19T07:16:00.000-07:00

I always read and being told that, there is always a Thin Line between Friendship and Love. I never realized until the time I really experienced it. My friend told me a story, which really brought me to this thought of finding out what it could be. We all know it is a thin line, but it could be the various steps of being a friend and then falling in love, or it could be the Lust or some kind of favor or in worst-case desperation for anything and everything.

More often when lust comes in between, it bloody spoils everything. A small discussion of kiss between a guy and a gal friend, could bring a terrible change in their friendship. They can either keep on discussing or end up with text sex, they could also end up with being a lover, or a new category came few months back "fuck friends". I really laughed on this term. Some Hollywood movies like No Strings Attached, Something Borrowed, are bringing major changes in youngster’s lives.

Like different categories of relationship that is properly categorized on Facebook, except "Live-in-Relationship", their are hell lot of categories coming for Friends too. The main two new categories can be fuck friends and Extra Affair Affair, though the later one should be in relationship genre but it suits here better.

I always wonder is the Sex or Lust or Erotica, is the only thing left in this world. These are definitely not bad but it could be harmful, if applied to places where it should not be. Come on, you cannot kiss your best friend or friend, its way way different relation. One should not spoil it by bringing lust thing in between, not for fun too. Because I always read in my messages, there is a little seriousness in every Just Kidding; similarly, there is always some expectation behind every fun element done between friends. Either way you should have strong bonding, for say if some day you implement such thing, it should not bother you or you should forget it like some bad dream.

Every one commit million mistakes in their life, there's no one left in this world, who has not done mistakes, or in other case everyone has someone else to blame their mistakes to, because many of them don't have enough guts to accept the truth. In this bloody world, if you accept your mistake and trying to be truthful, it means you are a pure slut. No fucking doubt in it. If you are completely ignoring the truth and cooking up things to prove yourself innocent, I bet anyone will find you innocent. I know I am out of the track, but still this thing has a connection with my post.

Anyways all I know whosoever he/she is, out of 10, 8 people have lack of understanding and bonding. One cannot easily interpret between lies and truth, innocent or clever. Still they pretend that they are the smartest person among everyone. They have a very weak knowledge of relations, hardly anyone can differentiate between all the new old categories of Friends and if you are already in relationship, it does not bother much to people around.

While concluding, I want to give a small message.

Please maintain that thin line between Love and Friendship. Both are valuable relations in life. A small mistake can take your laughs and fun times and most importantly your Friend or your Lover away. Like "Old is Gold", stick to Friends and Best Friends categories, its hard to maintain equal friendship with everyone. Not all can be your best friend or BFF. So try thinking before committing any mistake and Save Your Relationship!!

It is more worthy than your life, because without some friends your life is incomplete.

P.S. : Apology for all the undesired words !! ;)

Old Friend --- New Friend - Oops I missed Mid Friend !! ;)

2011-05-03T07:57:00.000-07:00

Did I really miss Mid Friend ??

I think so or I might not, but that Mid Friend can think this way because I haven't called or text-ed. Whatever it is, theirs always a complication between these three categories. Old friend is a person either he/she would have completely forgotten you or if you are in contact with him/her by any means, whenever you will meet him/her, he/she will talk to you like you used to meet them daily. That's a kind of one of the great human beings who never complain, never argue and never ask, why you never tried to contact or call or meet.

New Friend is like a new dress, you want to wear it daily or at least see it daily or touch it or feel it, it could be anything. Bad Comparison, I know. But if your new friend is of opposite sex, he/she posses special place in your life in a very short time and when that short time ends, at that time you realize that you had some of the Mid Friends and you completely forgot them, because you were so busy with your New Friend.

Mid Friend are some of them who are not counted as your childhood friend nor lifetime friend but some of them become your besties in such a short span of time, that you never realized it will happen someday. But I tell you they are some of the best people in your life because they come in your mid life and at that time you'll be experiencing different kind of changes, problems etc in your life which you cannot share even with your family people, then they are the one who fix it.

But But But... Its not my categorization of friends. Some says that I categorize my friends, some says that I treat all my friends equally. No one knows what exactly I do. Lolzz.

I love all my friends, but their are some of the friends who can never be replaced from anything in my life and I never ever forget or ignore them if new friend comes, not even if I get a boyfriend. Because I know the pain of getting ignored. I specially hate those who ignore their best of bestest friends for the sake of their boyfriends. *Suck* ..

I just came up with a random thought of making and breaking up with friends, why in the world anyone makes friend and then breaks up with them, for some weird reason and how people categorize them, and why your old friend is in fading mode and new friend glows in your life like anything and mid friend swings between everything. Either you should not make too many friends or you should better know how to keep them. It really hurts when you forget a friend, and then someday when you miss them, you get back to him/her. Come on, they are not toys. _-_

Sometimes friends become your everything (*T&C), sometimes same person doesn't exist for you. I am one of them and I hate myself for that. But I am helpless. Its not that I don't miss my friends or I don't feel like talking to them or whenever I got some work from them I remember them, none of them is true. The reality is "If the person is not in-front of me I kind of cannot maintain same relation like I do face to face, that hurts many, but I am blessed with some of the friends who are always in contact with me, and I know they will always be. I so fucking love them and want to thank them with all my heart."

P.S.: Please don't take it personally !! :)

Mood Swings !!

2011-03-03T01:55:00.000-08:00

First of all, I would like to thank a friend of mine and our discussion, that made me think about "Mood Swings", and because of all that I landed here.

It seems to be very common thing nowadays. I went on to Google, to really find out what is the basic reason for this disease, but they also connected with some scientific terms which was not at all readable. But this thing is mainly found in women, as I can also see many of my female friends have the same problem, which is not permanent but which keeps on coming, now and then. Many are sick of this and some of them are use to of it. But ladies, we must also think about the people around us. They will never understand the logic and reason of this mood swing, though they might be the reason sometimes.

A friend of mine is really bored of reading about the relationship thing on my Blog, yeah its true, even sometimes I also get frustrated by reading the same thing again and again, though I try to connect it with different topics and bring it on. Still at times when I do mind boggling I always find that these things are interconnected and very much related to my present topic.

Mood swings is becoming very usual with people. My personal experience says that at times we do not want to compromise, at times you are not happy with things, at times your heart says something and your mind something else. Whenever it comes, it comes for very short duration and if you get it for longer durations, beware, you could be the patient of depression. Well, yeah, I am a kind of short tempered person, who always have the mood swings of shorter duration, but from the last two three days I am suffering from this disease and I am very much becoming sick of it. I really feel like going to some lonely place, have some drinks and fags, don't know may be I am too much inspired from the movies, but that's the single feeling that I get.

In context to solution of this disease, I have not found any till now. If you are in a relationship, you'll have it, if you are single, you'll have it. You are not going good with your course work, your friend hurted you, your parents forced their expectations over you, you gonna have it in any case. Its just the first step of depression.

The only solution I found till now is YOU. You can always bring the change in you. We should start taking things lightly and best of all stop getting connected. Its you, your thinking, your mind set, your heart and your attitude towards things can help you in bringing the difference. Start being selfish, ask your heart what you want and do that way. I always tell my readers, do whatever your heart says whether right or wrong. If it is right, you will be happy and if it is wrong, you'll learn something. But of all the things, Do What You Wanna Do, Its Your Fucking Life... !!

My One Liners !!

2011-02-16T11:47:00.000-08:00

When You can't follow your rules, dun puke Sarcastic comments on others for the same..

Silence is preferred over Squawking..

Express yourself, or you'll regret it later..

Do not be so harsh to people, when you don't need them, it hurts ... B'coz you automatically starts treating them sweetly, when you want them...

Be Balance ... Be Honest !!

Words are more important in any relationship, its not always about staying silent and expecting others to understand... Be Expressive, Make others happy !!

Life Sux.. when you are surrounded by I don't care a thing about you .. kind of peoplez !! .'_'.

Live n Enjoy the Moment, No matter you Shout aloud or Stay Calm... during that time...

People today... always forget what people have done for them.. and blame others who have changed because of them... Get Some Life.. Stop Blaming...

At times, when people don't respond to important lifetime decisions !!

"Life's great..when the most annoying thing of your life gets out of service !! ^_^

"One should not leave things in halfway, Specially when they are on the verge of it...
>_^*"

"Life remains so interesting, when you act mysteriously mysterious...

"And when the time comes.... you seriously need to get out of something... but Alas! its becomes more complicated...

"Life is a jig-saw puzzle... It really becomes hard to play, when a part of that puzzle is missing... !! <_>

"Its better to be Dead, than loosing your self-respect !! ._."

"Relationships take time to start, but people don't think for a minute before ending it... Selfish & Mean... >_<"

"You don't have to choose from them... If you lie, you'll definitely die one day of regrets and guilty... :)"

"The More I live, the More I start loving my life and things related to it...

Experiences, Failures, Love, Hatred, Loneliness becomes part of life... and when I see it in long term, it seems to be amazzzzingly awesome... !!

Brought you around and you just brought me down, Hate is a strong word, But I really, really, really don't like you
I really don't like you...

"Life was so very different.. when I was not introduced to you !!

"Sometimes, You hurt the ones who love you most, And sometimes, You hold the ones who leave you lost, And sometimes You learn, but it's too late... It's too late... _-_"

"I hate people.. who tends to be very nice in the starting and start acting weird when everything gets old !! ._.
I thot Friendship is like wine .. But I was wrong !! >_<"

One should not be addicted to two .. !! ^_<

"Don't judge. You have no clue what's going on with someone... _-_"

P.S. : There are hell lot of On the Way !! Keep Checking !! ^_^*

Broken Heart 'n' Soul ...

2011-02-11T11:49:00.000-08:00

A poem written long before but post is dedicated to "The Valentine Week", to which everyone is celebrating with full dumbness, even me too... !!

Broken Heart, Broken Soul..

You are not here, 'n' let me tell you..

I do not even want you anymore!!

You can't mend it..

You can't repair it..

You are not the one who gonna get it !!

I asked you for a smile,

You gave me tears..

I asked you for a life,

You gave me fears !!

Well, you gave me kisses,

You made love to me..

But, why you showing them,

When they are not REAL !!

You are an asshole,

You are a moron,

Get out of my life,

As I am not gonna..

Fucking be with YOU anymore !!

Obssessed with the word Obssession !!

2011-01-28T07:12:00.000-08:00

Obsession !! I am using this word a lot these days, though I am not at all clear about it.
People says that nowadays people are getting obsessed with lots of things, people, activity, living and non-living things both. I don't know, till I dint come to any conclusion. I am still confused with the words.

I keep on hearing people saying " I am Addicted to so n so ... " or " I am Obsessed with so n so... " !!

Can't we just give a thought to it. Are you ruling your brains or heart, or they are making you feel like this. Few of us will be able to answer this. Till now what I experienced is our brain is something who is forcing us to act like that. Because when we think, think and think about things a lot, we start feeling that we are addicted and become helpless. But as soon as you stop thinking, it go away just like that.

But no then we start forcing our mind to think about it, force ourselves to laugh on it or cry for it. DAMN .. We people !! The biggest craziest creature ever seen.

If we become obsessed with someone or something, we become possessive for it and then we don't expect the other person to do the same, but No, we'll do it. The best example is love, but I've also saw this thing in friendship... We fall in love, get addicted to the guy/girl, become possessive, spoil our life, spoil their life, and then break up and then nothing else matters, but just a single thought, which will let you decide what to do, do you need to cry for it or laugh.

In a simple and plain language, I'll say, in our life whatever we do, our mind makes us to do that. We let us our mind to rule us more than our heart, and when our heart starts working then everything by itself turns to be emotional and connected.

I am still finding out how should I control my heart or brain to get addicted or obsessed with things, with peoples.

Its hard to leave them and its even harder to be with them. It hurts but yes every time it hurts comes up with a lesson which is on you to take it as positive or negative, meaning you learn from that lesson or just keep on getting many more lessons from the same problem.

P.S. : Try learning and make a habit of crying over things just for one time, because if you keep on crying for the same, you'll be used to it. Trust Me - I am experiencing the same and that's why giving an open warning, which should be followed !!