You perceive your happiness to be good. Have you considered that your reasons for happiness were arrived at the same way your reasons for hate and sadness were? It’s natural to attempt to partition our experience to cope with each thing, but ultimately they are still acting on the same core self, and still stem from the same core self. They say to know ones self is the greatest wisdom but they don’t mean the various masks and personae we adopt. What they refer to is the bedrock they all stand on.

Imagine a world alongside our own
where the dead and darkened souls roam.
A place where one day we will all call home.
be it a short stay or for many years to come.

As the day passes by, this world stays still
unaware of time and the laws of the physical.
It seems we all go about our day,
Unaware of our real lives and the part we play.

For we are too busy to see what is there
A millions things to keep our minds unaware
Looking out when we should be looking within
And realize our potential as a human being.

Children often are able to perceive
but struggle to find those that believe.
Growing up to suit others views
Shutting out and forgetting the truth.

If you are curious to see what’s so great
There are a few ways to open this gate
Dreams are a good start and to meditate
You’ll soon start to feel your body vibrate.

Once you have visited this mysterious place
You may find your previous perception displaced
Is it all in the mind or was it just a dream
I was safe before in what I previously perceived

Perhaps science has the answer we seek
It’s all hallucinations, your mind is weak
Thank you science for telling me
how to perceive my own reality.

To end I will leave you with this
Its is a miracle that we all exist
To believe we are the only beings around
Is why our race is still on the ground.

Rob Willard

I feel like I have to elaborate on the black I have had few times where I feel odd and my vision drastically changes and I all of a sudden start laughing it’s kind of a maniac laugh. haha and I’m laughing at “people”? If that makes any sense.. I was also born with very pointy canines however, I lost them and now only my bottom teeth are pointy/sharp. I’m not sure what I am. Maybe insane. haha Well, electronics don’t work well for me. if I’m in deep thought or angry my light bulbs will blow out when I turn them on. When I’m in a off mood the wind REALLY picks up. I’ve had Wiccans tell me I am Mythras and the only way to remember things and unlock my potential is to awaken. I also believe, I could be a nephilim I know this sounds weird but, how could I awaken? My brain is so active and speratic that It’s almost impossible to meditate and when I do weird shit happens!! I’m just looking for help/assistance. Let me know what I can do. :/