INSOMNIAC UNPLUGGED

2017-04-25T18:51:00.001+05:30

Sometimes, thoughts of you, us, hits me like a brick - it envelopes me - and it gets so hard to breathe.

2016-03-22T23:52:00.001+05:30

I am so fuckin attracted to thin hips!!!

2015-12-05T21:06:00.001+05:30

Maybe, like puberty, being in love or wanting to be loved too is an age bound phase - you outgrow it eventually. You 'grow up'

I just got lost somewhere.

2015-11-23T16:13:00.001+05:30

2015-11-07T20:54:00.001+05:30

Umarein Lagi Kehate Huve, Do Labj The Ik Baat Thi
Woh Ik Din Sau Saal Ka, Sau Saal Ki Woh Raat Thi
Kaisa Lage Jo Chup Chaap Dono,
Ho Pal Pal Mein Puri Sadiyaan Bitaayein

2015-10-20T23:49:00.001+05:30

Pretty content. And excited.

2015-10-17T23:40:00.001+05:30

Being beautiful is common
You have to be one of a kind

2015-10-17T23:26:00.001+05:30

By the Poet

2015-10-09T00:20:00.001+05:30

You had me at the use of full words while texting.

2015-10-08T01:32:00.001+05:30

Do I have a problem with Authority?

the answer would be a Big YESSS!

2015-09-30T01:12:00.001+05:30

2015-09-29T14:04:00.001+05:30

I need you to stop me from killing myself a little everyday.

2015-09-21T01:59:00.001+05:30

2015-09-20T19:54:00.003+05:30

The feeling of have someone love me back, I guess is something I'll never realise in my life.

Be Present

2015-09-20T19:54:00.001+05:30

2015-09-19T00:48:00.001+05:30

I miss her.

2015-09-14T15:31:00.001+05:30

Some Love Stories
You talk during lunch break every day.

Some Love Stories
You cry with Joy when they say they're getting married.

Some Love Stories
They're at the door everyday with coffee for the two of you.

Some Love Stories
They make you feel giddy inside.

Some Love Stories
You check their Facebook despite them not being on your friend list anymore cuz you just wanna know they're happy
everyday.

Feeling Melancholic

2015-09-04T05:13:00.001+05:30

I feel like I'm singing for someone I can't see. An unknown person. Maybe someone who's as broken as me. Someone who will be proud, happy for every moment spent together. Fuck. My mind just told me I should die. My body tells me I'm dying. It feels empty and cold inside. I can't stop crying. I don't know why I'm crying.

A few minutes later...

Feeling much better now.

The way I am

2015-09-02T00:57:00.001+05:30

I recovered my old phone and along with it this, some thing I'd written a while back. I can't help the way I am, I don't understand myself but this is an attempt towards it...

I don't want to be a jerk
But infedilty runs in my blood.
From my mother's father
Who had three wives
To my father's mother
Who I think told me once she got married twice.
The list of adulterers in my family is quite long
It wouldn't be untrue to say
They either know too much or too less about love.
And thus when it came to my parents too
By circumstances it chance
They each got married twice.
So how could I escape this vice?

2015-09-02T00:50:00.001+05:30

1st September was an historic day - today I took my first Selfie ever to send to someone!! :D

2015-08-30T16:00:00.001+05:30

We were browsing
The scar on your hand
I wanted to reach out
And kiss it.

2015-08-29T12:27:00.001+05:30

All of us are lonely.
The least we can do it feel.lonely together.

The Last Cigarette

2015-08-29T01:21:00.001+05:30

My first brush with a cigarette was when I was six. I was in my mother's maternal village and I noticed that my tallo ghar neighbour tossed off a butt he had just finished. I picked it up with a
Swoop, ran home and closed the doors. I lit it and took a drag. I coughed and how, nose burning and running, eyes burning and tears rolling. I thought I was gonna die.
When I was nine my best friend and I hatched a plan- that we were gonna be "bad girls", smoke but be a very good in front of everyone else; things like active participation in church activities. I don't really remember the motivation behind it.
When I was in 12th a friend, her cousin and I bought three sticks. They knew what brand to buy. We then sneaked to a secluded path way and smoked it. Don't remember the motivation behind it either but I just wanted to try I guess.
When I was in college, a smoker friend would come home with cigarettes for us both. I smoked two cigarettes every weekend for a year. Till I think a cooler friend moved into town and she started to hang out with her instead of me.
I think the 2nd year of college was fairly uneventful. Till I joined my first marketing job. Most of the girls there smoked. It was cool. But that was never my motivation. I was just going through shit at that time.
By the time this year came, I was a certified smoker AND and occasional stoner.
Four years ago I moved to Bombay and the habit has grown and taken over my life. My health is deteriorating and I can feel my insides dying.
So I am going to make this drama free and just do it - go cold turkey. It's for myself and no one else. Because it's just better.

Ghost

2015-08-29T01:01:00.001+05:30

"When I look upon the past with her, she disappears without me noticing.
Or maybe she may not have existed from the start."

https://youtu.be/ao4o-XRU_KM

Art

2015-07-16T17:43:00.001+05:30

Look at the seemingly mundane. Its justly teasing out a value that has been neglected by a world with a deeply distorted and unfair sense of what truly matters. Art returns glamour to it's rightful place, highlighting what is genuinely worth appreciating.

Saw a video