it feels so wrong, it feels so right...

I just cant help it...

2010-02-18T01:52:00.000-08:00

I was at work today and this song hit me..."Dreaming about the day when you wake up and find that what you're lookin for has been here the whole time"...

man! I love him so bad. I cant help it. Ill never do.

You belong with me (Taylor Swift)

You're on the phone with your girlfriend, She's upset
She's going off about something that you said
She doesnt get your humour like I do

I'm in the room, its a typical Tuesday night
I'm listening to the kind of music she doesnt like
And she'll never know your story like I do

But she wears short skirts, I wear t-shirts
She's cheer captain and I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming bout the day when you wake up and find
That what you're lookin for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along so why can't you see?
You belong with me
You belong with me

Walkin the streets with you in your worn out jeans
I cant help thinking this is how it ought to be
Laughing on the park bench thinkin to myself
Hey isnt this easy?

And you've got a smile that could light up this whole town
I havent seen it in awhile, since she brought you down
You say you find I know you better than that
Hey, Whatcha doing with a girl like that?

She wears high heels, I wear sneakers
She's cheer captain and I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming bout the day when you wake up and find
That what you're looking for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along so why can't you see?
You belong with me

Standin by, waiting at your back door
All this time how could you not know that?
You belong with me
You belong with me

Oh I remember you driving to my house in the middle of the night
I'm the one who makes you laugh when you know you're about to cry
I know your favorite songs and you tell me about your dreams
I think I know where you belong. I think I know it's with me.

Can't you see that I'm the one who understands you?
Been here all along so why can't you see?
You belong with me

Standing by or waiting at your back door
All this time how could you not know that
You belong with me
You belong with me

Have you ever thought just maybe
You belong with me
You belong with me

Amarte así

2009-11-15T01:23:00.000-08:00

Amarte asi
Es vivir un sueno eterno junto a ti
Es confiarle al universo
este milagro de sentir
Amarte asi

Amarte asi
entregandome al destino
que elegi
y que estes en mi camino
y yo en el tuyo y compartir
Amarte asi

Asi
hasta morir
Hasta el fondo de mi alma
amarte asi
asi
hasta morir
ni la eternidad me alcanza
Para agradecer que hoy puedo
amarte asi

Amarte asi
es sentir
que el infinito late en mi
y es testigo de este amor que hoy siento para ti
amarte asi

Asi
hasta morir
hasta el fin de la esperanza
amarte asi
Asi
Hasta morir
ni la eternidad me alcanza
para agradecer que hoy puedo amarte...
hasta fundirme en este amor
hasta llenarte el corazon
amarte asi
Ohh

Amarte asi...
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Today, I finally decided to be happy with the person that was always by my side.
Alejandro te quiero!

Commited

2009-11-07T00:55:00.000-08:00

From today, day 1, I officially start my heart-broken rehab. No more tears, no more weak Valeria. Im gonna be everything I was before, Im gonna live for myself, my friends and my family only. I'll never ever gonna be this stupid again. I will never give my heart again. No. There is no way I can survive this way. I need to be stronger, by showing respect for myself first. Im worthy. I have a purpose. I need to change from within. I need to be as before, independent, strong, focused. When did I lost all this? When I fell in love. But no more. No more.
I need to move on, do my life and let others do their life, as well. Its gonna be hard, but, like Camila said: time heals everything. And I know that if I focused on why I came to this hell Provo, I can survive. I need to live only for my goals and get out of this place. Is just a little more effort, just a little bit of time. I need to focus on people that really cares about me, that shows respect for me. Like Ale said: if you give love, love will come back to you, but maybe not in the way you want, or expect. He is so right. I had given all my love, with all the sincerity, so Im in peace with myself. Love is such a cheater, it comes, makes your life awesome and then run away with someone else. But, I cant deny that is the most wonderful feeling. I loved him, I do still. He is an incredible person, and I will be grateful all my life because he showed me how wonderful love can be. But now, is time Valeria. Is time to move on.

Mir.ror

2009-10-23T01:17:00.001-07:00

I went to the museum.
I was just looking for art
But I found myself.
I was just looking for a paint
a sculpture.
But I found a mirror.
Mir.ror.
"wonder at/admire"
The definition just beat me.
And I found myself, looking at the mirror.
Looking at Me.
Or maybe just the mirror.
Maybe,like the definition.
Wonder at.

so simple.

2009-10-23T01:15:00.001-07:00

sometimes is just simple.
is just one look, one smile.
one word of advice, one hand in your shoulder.
sometimes is just simple.
look turning other side, no expression in your face.
harm words, distance between us.
sometimes is just as simple as it.

is it possible?

2009-10-23T01:12:00.001-07:00

sometimes i wonder how come that we met,
sometimes i think this is just destiny
but also, sometimes, the questions that i hate most comes into my mind and whispers:
" is this possible?"
when that happen, i feel bad, i feel weak
but then i see u, and u give me strong
and u whisper in my ear
"I love u"
and i answer
"YES, IT IS. IT IS POSSIBLE".
LUV U...

I know...

2009-10-23T01:08:00.000-07:00

I know i talk too much,
is because i like to tell u how much i love u.
I know i am loud,
is because i like the sound of ur name in my lips.
I know i am annoying,
is just so u notice i am right there next to you.
I know i ask so many questions,
is because i want YOU to be my answer.
I know i am selfish,
is because i cant figure it out how can i live without u.
But
I dont know how can i be so silly sometimes and say things i dont have too,
I dont know how to whisper at the right time ur name,
I dont know how to stop being around u,
I dont know how to give u time to decide ur answers,
I dont know how to think maybe ur happines wont be mine...
because I love u so much...

Column

2009-03-01T17:01:00.000-08:00

Is unbelievable, but still true. She, the blonde American girl. Me, the perfect stereotype of dark hair Latin girl. She and Me, enrolled in a fourious fight against each other for a T-shirt.

I am sure I was the one that grab the T-shirt when the perfomer in the dance throw it to the public, but apparently she thought it was her right to have it and snatched from my hands. Or, maybe, she was the one that grabbed it in the first place. In any event, we both wanted it and we got into a tussle for it.

Without leaving her to take the precious treasure, I pulled and pulled. She pulled also, shouting at me some words in english that, mixed with the loud music, I almost couldn´t hear. In a fraction of seconds, I found myself yelling at her spanish words, refering to her “out of shape” condition or the fact that she was blonde.

And in that moment I realized why we, humans, have wars against each other. I realized why we judge so quickly our neighbours. I realized I was fighting and saying bad things just for a T-shirt.

So I quit. She gave me a victorious smile and ran over to her friends, proud of her conquest. I stay for a moment lost in my thoughts, feeling shame. Shame of realizing that maybe I am not that different from those who fight among each other for a piece of land, from those who assesinate for the hunger of power, from those who torture, from those who hate, from those who I thought were worst than me.