It's Just Me... It's Just Lea

Back for Good

2011-08-25T07:59:00.002+08:00

I miss doing this.. Writing a blog just to share it with everyone..

I'm so desperate to relax because how can I do that so..

I have work and studies (THESIS) at the same time..

I thought that it's gonna be easy but it's not..

Since I'm more into working because I earn money, I almost forgot that I have a thesis left and it's one of the most crucial things that I need to work on. HELLO!! My diploma is still in danger..

In addition to that, I stop getting along with some of my workmates because they're getting into my nerves. It's really true that you cannot please everyone. So what if I move from them, I'm gonna die. They're just part of my history as a human being. >.< Jerks!

Anyways, hmmm... Speaking friends.. I miss them a lot.. As in a lot. If I will only be given a chance to see them in a snap of a finger. I will grab that opportunity. My friends are the only people who can relieve my stress, makes me laugh and cry, and they are the only one whom I ca share my thoughts. I love to see them again. Even in one day only..

And about my studies. What should I do??! I'm really scared that I will lose this chance of ending my college life this coming October. Its been a month when the last time I showed up with my thesis adviser.. Shame!! I really want to end my studies as soon as possible because I don't want to add another DRP in my school records. It'll gonna ruin everything.

Well I hope that everything go well as the days pass by very fast.. Hope that God can help me.. I always forget to pray to Him even though I know that He's the One that can help in all of sufferings..

Bye for now.. See you later.. :D

What's wrong with me??

2011-01-23T13:29:00.002+08:00

I don't know what's the problem??
Is it me or it's just because of me?? Waaahhh...

I think I'm going nuts...

I'm very relax... Too enjoyed... Too Excited... Too much..

I should stop enjoying much of my existence before it eats me out...

I should focus everything... Concentrate on all the tasks assigned to me... And as the acting leader of my group in Thesis and Japanese 2... I should focus on all the projects and deadlines before I let myself gone through all the happy events... I should not waste every minute because time runs too fast...

I am a responsible person and as a person owning that adjective... I should give justice to that word and act as a real leader..

Lord... Please give me strength on doing all the things I need to do... Please keep us all away from harm and sickness... keep us all safe... :D

Hope that all of this things will end very soon... :D

New Discoveries

2010-12-19T17:21:00.004+08:00

These past few weeks... I have been in different problems and I have realized new things...

The first thing that I have realized is that... I should not trust someone that I don't really know...
I shouldn't give my full trust to someone who will just make you cry and act innocently at the end..

That love is not going to be found by just dating with a guy that looks interested in you...
That guys are always playing with girls...
And that... you always check his Facebook account so that you will know all his lies and all the truth behind that innocent face..

I never imagine that I will shed a tear to that guy... He made me believe that he's really in love with me... but i the end, I'm just a doll and ready to be thrown away...

anyways... I have to move on... He's just a waste of time and energy... :(

lately... I found myself addicted to Facebook for an unknown reason... I'm spending money just to check what's that latest activities inside my FB account... It's quite funny that I'm bringing back the old times when I was in high school and became an addict on Friendster... hahaha :D
too childish for my age... :D but I'm enjoying it.. I'm enjoying my life as a 20 year old girl...

Next is.. I think I've grown up in some ways... Like a mature lady... But not too matured enough to say that I can handle all the problems without being childish... I grow up in some aspects of life... Stick to what I know is right for me and everyone... And act truly in front of many... I think that's the best description of me as of the moment...

And now... 2011 is near... New year, new life, new adventures and challenges awaits me... I just need to be stronger,healthier -ever since the world began... I'm always attacked by common diseases and I hate it... :( - and act the way I used to be...

Like what people know about me... It's me.. This is me... And it's just me... :D

Happy New Year to everyone... :D

Data Entry Work

2010-10-29T13:32:00.001+08:00

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My Beautiful Cars

2010-10-27T09:23:00.002+08:00

When I reached the MRT Station in Ortigas, I was walking at the overpass when I hear a screeching sound of tires and and a very powerful blast of engine. When I turn my eyes on the left side, I saw a Porsche car with a very beautiful red paint, a unique body kit, and a very shiny spoiler.

I can't believe that I can see such car in Ortigas. But of course, I stop myself on hallucinating and becoming over amazed on that car.

After that, I continue to walk and when I reached the pedestrian lane, I saw an Alfa Bueno car that looks like the car that I'm using in NFS Carbon. Even though they don't have the same color, still it's an Alfa Bueno car.

Hahaha... See.. Things that will make me happy is very shallow... I love cars...

Allergic to Air-Contioned Bus

2010-10-21T14:10:00.002+08:00

Actually, I'm not that allergic to bus but there are some cases that lead me to be allergic to them... Why??

First, there are some aircon bus that is shaky when moving. That gives me a headache which totally leads to nausea and next is vomiting... YUCK!

Next, there are some aircon bus out there that are too slow or calling more passengers and the tendency, long hours of waiting before you get to your destination.

Finally, aircon bus ,sometimes, doesn't give the exact fare for students... I had a lot of experience related to that...

Well.. the first reason happened to me yesterday, the bus is to shaky (my destination is in Ortigas) and I had a headache then I feel that I will throw out all the food that I ate in morning, so I went down in Aurora and there... i vomit... Nice experience isn't it??

I think I will curse that bus... I will never ever ride there again.. Ever!!!

Traffic!!

2010-10-21T13:44:00.003+08:00

It's my first time to be in a middle of traffic. Hay... The traffic build up in Dept. of Agriculture due the rally formed by the farmers who are affected by the CARPER Bill.

Well.. I don't know what is their problem so I just listen to their problems that they want to forward to the Secretary of Dept. of Agriculture. Hmmm... But for me, they must not conduct the rally at the DA since there are a lot of motorists whose going to be affected by the rally. Some will be late but for me... Thank God there is MRT. I'm not late on my OJT.

Dropping Thesis A

2010-09-18T10:46:00.004+08:00

How does it feel when you have an excellent grade... you didn't fail any of them since first year... you don't have a grade of 3.0... and suddenly... your going to drop a major subject just because of the wrong thesis title at the wrong time...

well... That's life... I wake up this morning realizing that I'm have dropped Thesis A.

sigh... well... I'm not going to blame anyone... Maybe, it's part of everything...

this year... I've suffer a lot in different thing s like... Knowing your uncle has a nasal pharyngeal cancer... Your aunt has a baby but has no father... and your younger sister is pregnant...

Money, money, money... is the answer in all of this problem but... were just an average family... My parents are earning just the right amount of money...

And as the breadwinner, I must my family to at least make their life... contented??? I don't know...

but... I'm happy on my decision and I'm thinking positive things after that major decision in my life...

Graduation date is not the key to success of an individual...

Success always depends on the person's attitude, performance and character...

And I know... I'm not going to fail myself and my family...

Dropping Thesis A can be considered by others as a failure... but for me... "So what??? I'm not gonna die if I dropped it. I just only need more time, knowledge and strength..."

and at the end... i'm happy because there's a lot of people who cares for your situation... and I appreciate that...

Thanks for those people who cares for me... Touch ako... hahahaha... love you guys...

Don't worry... I'll give my best shot this coming semester... Love you all guys...

Thanks..

OJT Seekers Day 1

2010-05-08T10:11:00.002+08:00

all of us, including rejan, looked for a company where OJT's are needed badly...

We first try our luck in Technohub... In IBM Daksh... and in Manulife...

In IBM Daksh, we are told that we should go to their recruitmnent office in Libis.. So... We left IBM daksh and go to Manulife...

We thought that Manulife is accepting OJT's so we just go inside and fill up the log- in form and the guard gave some sheets of paper to be filled up... but suddenly the guard call us and asked if we are applying for an OJT position, of course we say yes... Then he suddenly say that they are not hiring interns so we just left the building and go to the next destination...

We all decided to go to NIA (National Irrigation Administration... something like that) but we just saw a building namely NEA... and not NIA... anyways we just try our luck... asked the guard if there's any vacant OJT position... then he left to ask someone... then he got back... He said that they are currently have enough interns... in short, another strike...

Next stop, NAPOCOR... it's just a highway away from NEA so we decided to walk to get in there... and asked the guard... and... another strike... STRIKE 3... hehehehehe...

next stop... Cubao... in a BPO company namely Telus... but of course before going inside that place we eat just to have enough strength and mental stability... we also need a break from that continuous strike...

after eating our lunch, we go straight ahead to the main bldg. of Telus and we immediately pass our resume... we wait for our names to be called and after 30mins... all of us are called altogether...

we were inside an interview room... quite cold (sine I hate cold environment... it irritates me a lot) and a bit relaxing... too quiet but since all of us are gathered in one room... it will never be that quite at all... hehehehe... anyways, as the interviewer enter the room... of course, we became serious and a bit nervous... he just ask all of us some basic information with some follow ups and it ended there... in the end, we are asked if all of us are willing to be relocated to Market Market... I say yes... some are no.

Next stop is Teleperformance in Shaw... but actually we drop by in Ortigas expecting that we can get anything there... but we didn't even stop to look for any companies around Ortigas... hehehehe... we just walked to Shaw where Teleperformance is located... we just memorized what to say whenever we are asked or to be asked... but we still fail to get anything there... oh... I forgot... we had a glimpse on an IBM recruitment Center there so we just give our resume... just in case... we hope our luck will be enough to get hired in that BIG company...

last stop... Smart Wireless Center in Rockwell... I actually had my first interview there last friday (April 30, 2010)... I interviewed because I submit my resume in their site just in case... and I just the interviewer if my friends can go there too... She said yes so I just bring the whole group there but Maam Eimee was moved to Galleria...

We just decided to go there next time ...

And all in all... We have the chance to ride MRT several times (in slang--- "Nagasgas ang MRT sa kakasakay nmin" hehehehehe joke2)...

It's an exciting and tiring adventure... Yet some have the chance to be hired and the rest will still need to look for more...

Good luck to all of us guys...

A New Post

2010-03-20T09:24:00.003+08:00

whahahaha... at last... nakapagpost na ako ulit...

it's been a long time... biruin mo 3 months akong di nkapagpost... whahahaha...

and...

at last...

tapos na ang lahat ng paghihirap sa mga medyo pahirap na case studies... hehehehe

hay...

since summer... konting babad tayo sa pool... wag nga lang mangitim... hassel un... hehehehe

at... eto na ang parating na OJT para nrin sa mga incoming 4th year student...

sana.. makahanap ako ng matinong workplace hehehehe....

aun... gudlack sa lahat...

19th birthday's...

2009-12-10T11:10:00.002+08:00

happy 19th birthday to all December celebrants...

Dec. 4 - Mae Lynetter Bagalihog... Thanks for the treat... Kitakits next time...
Dec. 7 - Robin Roy Dioquino... eipee birthday... next time din ulet... =p
Dec. 10 - Regine Grace Malayang... ayan... manlilibre yan... hahaha... happy birthday...

ummm... I uploaded the pictures in my Flickr account...

Lynette's 19th Birthday

and

Robin's 19th Birthday

wish you all the blessing and great things in life...
wish you more birthdays and treats to come hehehe...

Under Construction!!!

2009-11-19T14:53:00.004+08:00

aun...

this blog space is going to be under construction for maybe a month...

I'm going to work for my new theme and design kc someone made me realize how important a blog is...

It was Sir Jerry who made me inspire to made my blog look like a pro...

As in di super maganda ung design or cute ung graphics or anything...

Sir Jerry said that since we are in the modern world... with modern techies... people are fond of using the net...

Companies are looking for some of the applicants social networking sites account... like Facebook, Friendster, Multiply, Twitter, blogs and vlogs...

because it can be a credential to an applicant who has a sensible networking sites account...

a company may look to the photos, infos or anything n magiging introductory ng isang applicant...

so aun...

since pambata ung nakuha kong skin... hehehehe... (pink and white with matching gif image sa taas)

I'm going to put some information in my blog n pdeng pagkuhaan ng info ng mga searchers around the globe...

pdeng ung mga assignments (not literally the whole assignment)... yung tanong then answer lang ung ilalagay...

for example...

why study sociology? followed by the answer... then sa baba ung credits kung sang reference material ko un nakuha...

hehehehe... aus di ba?! para kahit papaano... di na ito yung magiging online journal ko... as far as what I remeber Sir Jerry said...

ther's nothing wrong if blog is used as an online journal or diary... but blog is more useful and sensible when used as a reference material by different users around the world who are searching for different information in the net...

and that is now my goal... hehehehe... =p ayus gyud?! hehehehe...

and so... since I'm going to renovate my beloved blog space... this blog may be shut for a month... so hihina ung hits ko... (wawa nmn ako...)... wla ng titingin dito... in short lalangawin xa for a month...

but don't cha worry... di xa aabot ng Christmas or New Year... ang daming events sa school saka galaan n mangyayari so...

I'm still going to update this space... pati nrin ung multiply ko... so expect something new in all of my accounts in the world wide web...

at sa panghuli kong sentence... sa mga nakabasa ng post ko... thanks... dumami ung hits ko... hehehehe =p

and that's the end of my post for this month??!! basta I will still update this space... pag napagtripan ko... hehehehe...

the end of my post...

from: from a girl who is not living in a bourgeoisie world... but... still happy living in darkness of being an outcast girl...

Hope it ends...

2009-11-12T08:54:00.002+08:00

hay... e2 nnmn tau...
isang makasaysayang blog.... hhehehehe

aun...

i'm thinking if i should make a non sense post or a post that will hurt someone feelings...

but.. i am not the type of person that usually say something about MY problems and post it in my blog...

actually...

i just want to give my opinion for all the things that I've heard...

***** REMEMBER *****

this is only an opinion... it may be right or wrong... it only depends on the person kung ano ung magiging reaksyon nya sa nabasa nya sa blog ko...

you can react... pero ang OA magreact... sa palagay ko.... ay GUILTY...

well...

as what I'VE HEARD...

there are some people who are making small things... BIG...

guys...

If R only buys bracelet... which are only enough for eight people... anong problema dun?
Pera nmn ni R un... Meron nmn siguro syang freedom na bumili kung ilan ang gusto niya... di ba?

actually, di nmn talaga issue pra sa akin un eh... HELLO... bracelet lng un... magkano lng nmn un?
pero kc... kpag kinakausap ni R ung mga friends nyang un... parating nsasama ung bracelet sa pangbara sa kanya...

It's makes so irritable to hear such comment from them...
bumili nlng kaya kau... can afford nyo nmn yan ah...

saka... Don't push R away like he's not part of the world... he may not be as smart as u are... but he's still your friends... (if he has not given you a bracelet as a sign of friendship, ok lng un... i know nmn n friend nyo prin xa... db? o hindi?)

un lng kc...

nkakairita lng na marinig ung ganung comment or pambabara sa isang taong dapat mature na ang pang- unawa...

I'm very disappointed when I hear it...

Kung iisipin nmn nila na... Guys... It's just a joke... Don't take it seriously...

Hay... Sana nga lang joke lang un... kaso... ON MY OPINION... Why joke about the bracelet if R is just trying to ask for a piece of candy and someone said that may pambili ka nga ng bracelet,pero candy wla... something like that...

I'm not trying to say na dapat di ganito gawin nyo... or ganito... or whatsoever...

Halleour...

Try to be reasonable when you are going to say something...

Hay... Ewan ko ba...

Parang ang layo nnmin sa kanila tapos eto nnmn...

Guys... di ko nilalahat... yung taong ayaw lang nmin ang pag-uugali at attitude... bilang lng sa daliri... ahhmmm...

kung tutuusin mas feel nnmin kausap ung iba na dati nmn ay di nmin feel kausap... kasi alam nnmin ang ugali nila eh... alam nnmin na un talaga.. as is..

pero kung cnu pa ung mga nkasama nmin... sila n ung di namin magets...

bat ba ganun ang buhay? noh?!

kapag ba matalino ka... kelangan mo nang sumama sa kapwa mo matalino???

or sort your self on the genre that you really belong...

hay naku... ewan ko kay batman...

Siguro talagang epekto n un nang sobrang pag-aaral...

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un lang nmn ang saloobin ko...

don't take it seriously... if you take it seriously then you are GUILTY...

I REPEAT... IT's MY OWN OPINION...

It maybe right or wrong...

at isa pa pala...

Di ako galit or whatsoever sa mga taong yan... (like what I've said before... di ako marunong magalit... marunong lang akong mainis)

ang sa akin lang... ang layo nnmin... I'm asking na sana lang... Magdedmahan nlng tayo whenever we cross our paths... mas magandang un nlng ang gawin nten... for now...

let time heal the wounds (kung may wounds...)... sana ganun nlng muna... kasi sabi nga ng iba kong friends... lalo DAW silang nagkakasala kapag nakakasalubong sila...

it may sound exaggerated pero un daw ang feeling nila...

anywayz...

sana lang talaga... maging tahimik na ung "silent war" o kung ano pa man ung tawag sa problema na ito between the people who.. I think is INVOLVED in this small or BIG issue...

hay...

magpapasko na... remember to celebrate life...

saka pla...

di ako nagmamalinis dito... I'm also a human being... a sinner... kaya alam ko nmn na hindi ako inosente sa lahat ng bagay na naririnig or nakikita ko...

and as a human being na maikli lang ang life span sa Earth... I want to have a meaningful life with those people who can make my life so maeningful...

kaya ganito ung OPINION ko...

hehehehehehehehehe....

so... be happy with your friends... at wag nang pagusapan ang mga bagay ba hindi nmn dapat pag usapan lalo na't wala namang katuturan...

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The end of my post...

Mesmerizing the college life...

2009-11-05T09:13:00.002+08:00

hay...

but then again...

we are about to face another challenge in life as we step closer to our goal...

but still...

there are still some hindrances that blocks our happiness in life...

maybe...

its part of God's plan for us to take night classes for SOME of our subjects for this semester...

well...

We... in 3C1 are happy to know that all of the people we are going to be with for almost 5 months are those people who are REAL to their persona and doesn't take advantage to other people's strengths...

but...

even though we are not happy for what has given to us...

we are still be able to learn and feel relax because we are not be with some UFO's out there.... hehehehe just kidding...

we are now with new buddies and friends which we know we can count on... academically and emotionally...

I, myself, is trying to understand all the things that's happening around me...

i have my own opinion... so do others...

well... Hmmm... I smell happiness because... I am going to have a plentiful Christmas... that's all...

hahahahahahaha...

what a non sense post... hahahahahaha....

yeah...

i forgot...

i have my new hair cut... some kinda bob cut style which makes me look like an anime... hehehehe....

then...

i think... i'm going to collect some cute pics this sem since i have my new phone...

so that i have a lot of remembrance before we graduate... (wish us luck...)

The continuation...

2009-10-11T11:47:00.005+08:00

ahem... e2 n ung continuation...

actually, these are the proofs that we really have fun at SM North EDSA during that powerful typhoon...

in short lagalag tlga ang drama nmen...

we really never expect that we are able to go there even though flood and strong winds and rains block our way... hehehehe....

Hay... grabe tlga... basang basa kmi nung nakarating kmi sa SM annex...

biruin mo... pumasok kmi ng SM n super wet... as in WET LOOK...

and when we decided to go home, there is no vehicle to ride on so we walkfrom SM north to Philcoa... then we are in the middle of a heavy traffic caused by the counter flow of different types of vehicles...

hay...

at least we reached our destination at the end... hehehehehe.... What an experience...

An Emotional Tragedy for Everybody...

2009-09-28T10:09:00.002+08:00

september 26, 2009

a date that many of us will not forget because of tragic incident that made some people lost their shelter, wealth, and lives...

in this very day...

I actually experience a horrific moment while going out with my friends...

while going out in school(New Era University)...

we are surprised that the ground floor of the main building is almost flooded and no one dares to cross that mini- river just to go out of school...

we are lucky coz the second floor lobby was opened for everyone...

but the horrific moments doesn't stop there...

while walking out to the school gate...

many of us are stuck and stranded because the nearest creek was overflowing and the water is knee deep or worse...

thank God, our shuttle bus offered a free ride for the stranded students and there we are able to go out the school...

but still, going out in Central ave. is also difficult for the bus coz a waist deep flood is trying to stop us from going home...

I feel that we are super stranded if ever the bus is not able to cross the flood...

but still, the bus made it...

then...

at the waiting shed in Central...

a lot of people are there trying to go home as early as possible but looking at the streets in the UP and Central...

vehicles are counterflowing to another lane because roads are like seas eating small vehicles...

since... me and my friends didn't want to wait for a long time...

we decided to take some shortcuts just to get out of the flood...

to be continued....

Diminished by Fate?

2009-08-12T18:09:00.004+08:00

I just wondering if I'm just ignoring some of the important things in life...

like having fun with my friends in a mall... A get together somewhere...

or eating with my best buddies in a food cart... enjoying all the foods we want to eat...

or shop 'till we drop... (I'm just going to do this if I become a rich girl... maybe someday...)

or smile like there's no ending together with a special guy...

Maybe...

Life is too bitter for me...

It's part of my life since I was born here in this cruel world....

I cannot blame my parents or anyone for the fate that I have today...

Actually, I'm very thankful on where I am right now...

The only thing that I hate is I can't buy or pay for some of the things I needed in school, for my leisure and some things in life....

Well...

It's not my decision to go in New Era at all...

It's my parents decision...

I like in PUP... why they just let me study there so that they are not suffering on the fees I need to pay in New Era...

Sometimes, I need to believe in my instincts and future outlook in life...

Well...

Sufferings and trials in life is part of every man's life...

I just only need to face it...

Unlocking my eyes to an Ogre that locks it...

2009-07-31T19:14:00.002+08:00

pcenxia n kung mejo mhaba ung title...

anyways...

it's just about an ogre, like Shrek, who captivate my eye because of his unque identity...

Somehow...

That ogre is different from others...

Maybe, because of his ability to captivate my EMO eyes...

It's hard to catch my attention...

I really don't know how that ogre did it... Especially, in me..

Hmmmm....

Well...

But for now...

I will unlock my attention to that ogre so that I am able to move like I'm real and somewhat typical...

I don't want to waste my time on that ogre...

I hope that I can move on...

It's hard to be in a place where that ogre also exist..

hmpf...

well... It's up to me...

but it's my decision to do it so...

I'm super WANTED!!!

2009-07-29T11:34:00.002+08:00

i'm super ever WANTED girl...

dhil nrin sa super ever hilig kong kumuha ng pix ng mga guys sa skul...

haaaayyyyyyy!!!

yesterday,

joan, so a guy looking at me outside our room in phy2..

he wonder who is it...

the joan ask me to look to a guy who is sitting at the back seats in rm232A...

joan said it ooks like Marimar (you know who is it... the best buddy of Q&A)...

well...

when i look to the guy... He's Marimar...

then... joan said that Marimar is looking at me...

then, i pause for a while and i remember those days that i hunt them just to take their pictures...

waaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh... Yari n tlga ako sknila...

cguro super WANTED!!! ako sa mga un...

adik kc ako before...

shockers... bahala na...

di nmn cla visible sa era ngaun kaya no problem un...

pkialam b nila sa hobby ko before...

hehehehehehe...

basta wg lng cla mkialam... ayos na...

as an Emo Girl... i shouldn't act like childlishly... even though i'm a bit sensitive on what people are saying about me...

basta bhala n c God...

un na un... hehehehe

The King of Pop is now at peace...

2009-07-03T11:33:00.003+08:00

I will really miss the guy who dances with a pair black shoes...

... with a military jacket

... wearing a shimmering clothes

... his showmanship

... his curly hair that always lay down with his fair, thin face

... the songs that will make you "Aww.."

... the jaw dropping performance for his fans

... his good heart for the young ones

... he heals the world... Maybe...

he may not be a perfect guy...

he is still the guy who make the world united because of the songs he had written to show how life is cruel and good...

Rest in Peace...

A new hardship...

2009-07-03T11:26:00.002+08:00

hay...

first things first...

my mom is not going to support my studies anymore... that is effective next sem...

then...

the schedule is too tight...

i don't know if the sched will allow me to be a working student...

hay...

tsk.. tsk.. tsk...

Life is too rough to me...

I don't know if it is going to help me improve or what?

I hope that these kind of trials will not block my way to the peak of success..

I will just continue to pray...

A Decision To Make...

2009-04-14T10:33:00.002+08:00

I'm back again after a long week of vacation...

well..

something got into my mind last holy week...

I need to change something about me...

It's either my self-esteem, my personality, my looks etc.

I think that since my college life is at stake...

I need to grow more and develop my skills...

I shouldn't hide my true self or I should say my true identity to all the people that I've met before...

I don't know where I should start...

maybe...

I should adjust my lifestyle...

Bring more confidence inside me...

and stand up thru the crowd where I am standing at...

I think being more unique and skillful will be the key for my transformation...

Hehehehe....

It's a bit dramatic but I really need this kind of change...

It's for my own good nmn...

Well...

I will just wait for the results of my job hunt and scholarship...

Patience is a virtue... I think...

Hmmmm....

It's now OVER!!!

2009-04-04T11:43:00.002+08:00

One day...

I've realized that my day dreaming is over...

He's not worth it...

He's just a part of my college life...

He's just an ordinary guy....

It's enough....

From this very day...

I promise and cross it to my heart...

I will never ever be so fragile and easily hooked up onto someone without knowing their true identity and their true color...

It's over...

a miserable life of a poor lady...

2009-03-31T10:30:00.002+08:00

hehehehehe....

ang drama ng title noh...

ngaun lng ulit pla ako nkapagupdate ng mga bagay bagay d2 sa net...

halos 2 weeks din akong nkakababad sa mga job sites d2 sa philippines...

and the other thing pla....

ang hirap maghanap ng trabaho...

maraming nagooffer ng mga internship pero xempre i don't belong dun...

hehehehe...

ang hirap din kapag wlang backer...

i try to view the newspapers... specifically, the classified ads section....

mukha n nga akong desperada sa paghahanap ng trabaho that will qualify an undergrad like me....

kaso...

life is so bitter to me...

hehehehehe....

i have send my resume to the different companies... and most of that companies are call centers....

they are accepting undergrads like me....

but....

you must work as a full-time...

i prefer to work as a part- time employee....

kaya cguro wla pang tumatawag skin...

hay...

buhay nga nmn...

at least i try...

pero mhaba p ang bakasyon...

kya habang di pa pasukan...

maghahanap at maghahanap ako ng trabaho pra maipagpatuloy ko ung studies ko...

konting adjustments lng cguro ang kailangan pra makagawa ako ng mga praan s lyf ko...

hehehehe...

basta...

kaya ko ito...

hehehehehe...

kelangan kong mkagraduate at hindi ako papayag n mgiging irregular student ako o magstop ako sa pagaaral...

hehehehehe....

un ang pangarap ko sa ngaun...

wish me luck nlng ha...

the last buzzer from NEU...

2009-03-22T13:57:00.002+08:00

last friday...

I, joan, may and berna went to NEU to defend our DBMS case study to Sir Gaucho...

actually, we were there since 10am even if our defense was on 1pm...

and after a long waiting...

at exactly 1:30pm... (we wait for 30minutes beyond our scheduled time because other students are also there to pass and defend their finished case study to Sir Gaucho)....

we start to discuss and defend our work...

it actually last for only 30 min. (we finishd at 2:05 pm)...

Sir Gaucho only noticed some unparalled use of the PK and FK...

the Hardware and Software section of our documentation...

there is no DATE entity that must be included in our system...

and that's it...

we will pass the edited documentation and rewrited ERD in the manila paper on Monday (March 23)...

Sir Gaucho also noticed that we have this relational schema and he was happy to see that we have such kind of thing that the other group doesn't have...

he also said that our DBMS is good because of its simplicity and and we easily understand all of the things that is included in our documentation....

then...

we left the faculty... maybe it was 2:15pm...

we stay on one of the rooms in the third floor and we start to edit our documentation...

we stay in Rm.318 to edit our docu...

while editing the ERD and the docu...

we eat my baon and laugh while discussing all of the things that Sir Gaucho have said...

when suddenly...

we hear a noise from nowhere...

it sounds like a chair that is being pulled at the corridor...

but when we looked outside noyhing is there... no chair and no student at all...

we only think that its just a noise from somewhere and continue on what we are doing...

then...

about past 5pm...

we set off in another room (Rm.316) because the janitress at Rm.318 said that she's going to clean the room and we may stay at the lobby if we want to...

when we are in Rm.316....

a CS student talk to us....

he ask us if Maam Villapando can boorow the laptop because Maam Villapando will present a report in front of her classmate in the SGS...

but...

we decided not to lend the laptop because we are still editing our docu...

then he evaporate... still looking for someone who can help Maam Villapando...

then...

maybe 5:30pm...

the janitress of the Rm.316 came and she's going to clean the room...

when we are about to leave the room...

we saw a blue handkerchief at the floor...

i thought that it was own by May, but she said it was not hers...

if it wasn't the handkerchief of anyone of us.... maybe it was from the janitress...

but...

the janitress just sweep it away together with the other dirt and garbages inside the room...

it's a horrifying thing.... =S

we try to edit our docu outside the Rm.318...

but suddenly...

Maam Villapando appeared... Joan and May run away... but I and Berna try to escape but we have no choice coz she have seen us...

She ask us if she can borrow the laptop coz her presentation is not able to run on other laptops...

then we go to the faculty again...

and charge the laptop and insert the disc...

the presenation was not able to run in Media Player so i try to run it using the Nero Player...

then...

it run...

we all hear the voice of Maam Villapando and Sir Jay Fuentes...

Maam said that their presentation will be at the Accre room and she will just borrow it until she finished her presentation...

maybe about 6pm...

I enter at the faculty to help the masteral students set up their laptops...

Maam Juliet Ramos is also there... she has her own laptop... but she didn't use it...

and we wait outside the library...

an hour passed...

the presentation wasn't finished yet...

so we decided to sit above the tables and do some wacky things...

we first try to make a wave... from the end of one's arm up to the other one...

then when darkness and silencre fills up the floor...

we start to tell horror movies that we have watched...

the Grudge, Ring-O, One Missed Call, the DollMaster, etc.

we are sometimes horrified on the stories that we are narrating....

and have fun on all the things that we are saying...

we laugh....

and talk about many issues....

then...

Maam Villapando invites us to enter the Accre room because of the gratitude that she owes us...

She invites us to eat inside and drink...

she gave us Lemon square cakes and Coke....

we noticed that Sir Bouing (he is the teacher of Maam Villapando and the other Masteral students inside the room they are presenting their audio-visual work and Sir will grade it...)is speaking in tagalog and laugh together with the other professors...

then...

Sir Bouing ask us to stand up and observe the things that he will instruct to his students...

he gave a sheet of paper to each and every student and instruct them to create something on the piece of paper that he gave to them...

he only gave them a minute to do it....

the 4 of the students make a boat, 2 of them make an airplane, and Maam Juliet make a tie...

Sir Bouing explain what are the meanings of the things his student have done...

the only thing we like is his explanation about the tie that Maam Juliet have made...

he says that the tie represents Maam Juliet goal to tie all the people inside this university and make a bond with another...

then... he shut the lights and let us feel the darkness...

then... he open it again and explain why he shut the light...

he says that if a person cannot see the anything and he/she nothing to do with it or he/she has doing nothing to enlighten the room... he/she will just bring the university into darkness and failure...

then... we applause for his nice lecture...

he thanked us for being the observers of his class...

and also with the other professors...

we left accre and went to the third floor to get Maam Villapando's things...

I've observed that she is afraid of the dark... coz she's saying something about creepy things that may appear while we are walking...

then...

we enter the faculty and after a minute or two... we left the room and shut the lights...

as we are walking...

maybe...

its a part of my "kapraningan"....

i hear a buzzer that cracks the silence in NEU...

i tell it to May, Joan and Berna...

and when we are near in the main gate...

i saw that the lights at the Gym are still open...

i think that someone is still there and someone is practicing...

May said that it was just Kuya Larry who just testing the buzzer if it still works well...

but...

it doesn't change my opinion that someone is still there...

then...

Maam Villapando get our name so that she give us a credit on the things that we have done on that day....

hehehehe.... additional grade in CS242...

we left Era maybe about 830pm...

and silence exist in the whole university...

and at my last glimpse at the Gym...

thinking that maybe...

someone is there...

and will make my day happy again...