It's part of my life

The PhD journey

2013-04-03T21:44:00.000+08:00

Finally, I completed my PhD in Universiti Putra Malaysia. Alhamdulillah. During the study, I aimed to finish it in 3 years, but it took 3 and half years. Tak cepat atau terlalu lambat. But for me, dengan ambil 4 course works with Advanced subjects, that were very tough, that was considered, cepat juga lah. Awal PhD dengan pregnancy, examinations, family, wife and housewife sometimes.

Saya sangat salute with few friends, they stayed at home to study, write up the thesis with kids beside. Saya memang tak boleh buat macam tu, I should go to campus everyday and keep focusing on my study. Setiap orang banyak caranya. Tapi saya cukup berterima kasih dengan supervisory committee who were very supportive. Tak ada masalah langsung. But, sebagai student, apa yang supervisor cakap, kita ikut saja, walau dalam hati ni rasa macam kena pijak, buat kerja sama macam 10 kali, redhakan saja. Ibarat mentimun digolek dengan durian. Ada kawan saya jenis yang sangat pandai argue with their supportive statements. I'm not like that. Tapi saya, praktikkan, orang cakap kita ikut sahaja. Kadang-kadang, hubungan komunikasi pun boleh memberi masalah. Ada yang sampai kena tukar supervisor dan sudah tentu drag masa study.

Sebagai postgraduate student, memang life 70% akan focus pada research. Memang stress. When people keep asking you, "What are you doing?". Bagi saya stress tu memang ada tapi perlu dikawal. Macam mana saya control stress dengan tesis, adalah keluar dari space saya sendiri. For instance, join the seminar, conference and workshop. Kalau kita asyik dengan dunia ni, kadang-kadang dok perasan research kita paling best. Menaip menaip menaip, rasa best, syok sendiri. Probably, people out there, they have a new approach or research methodology. Go and mix with the academic community!

Join conference pun adalah satu cara untuk kita membina "fire wall". Go and practice how to defend your research. Mula mula saya memang sangat takut. Takut dikritik adalah normal dan satu proses pembelajaran. But i turn to look at bright sides. Saya nak orang tegur macamana saya nak improve kerja saya and i need their feedback. Benda benda tu semua buat kita paham apa yang kita buat and its like to practice for Viva Voce exam. Dulu saya takut, sekarang saya addict to join the conferences. Boleh kenal academician from other unis and probably to share the idea. Jangan takut, kalau takut pun 20 mins, then let them go away!

Finally, usaha, rajin, tawakal, Insyaallah selebihnya berserah.

Trip to Southern Thailand - Hat Yai to Krabi (2)

2013-02-27T11:24:00.000+08:00

The next day, kami bangun awal konon nak swimming. Tapi awal pagi beach area Ao Nang memang surut. Air cetek sangat, nak berjalan ke tengah jauh sangat. I siap cakap kat Azuar, "Macam sama time tsunami, air kena sedut jauh sangat ni". hehehe imagination terlebih, tapi serius air surut dia sangat jauh. So, we end up bangun pagi for morning walk dan cari halal breakfast food. Mat salleh pun start turun beach around 10am gitu. Kami je lepas Subuh tak dapat tidur sebab excited sangat.

The longtail boats. Ao Nang beach is one of departure point to famous islands.

Taxis

So, pagi tu kami breakfast di Sitti Cafe, area Ao Nang Beach. Terpengaruh betul dengan nama. Rupanya kedai Siam. Sebab musykil terus order pancakes with fruits. Memang lah lapar kan...setakat breakfast alas perut.

Signboard

Hotel signboard

Ini lah signboard tempat kami tidur satu malam, Ao Nang Easy Room. Nampak simple, tapi bilik dia tip top. Katil king size and comfy, yang penting neat, clean and tidy! Siapa suka dengan nightlife boleh lah stay sini, betul betul opposite Starbucks. Good price at good quality. Satu malam seterusnya kami menetap di Guesthouse lain. Macam ni lah budget traveller, tapi yang payahnya asyik kena packing saja. Kalau baju yang paling bawah dalam backpack, mesti nak kena punggah semua and susun one by one again.

Auwwwww.... Papa said bye bye to Ao Nang Easy room, good hospitality.

The next guesthouse was Baan Banyan Tree, at Nopparat Thara Beach, sebelah Ao Nang Beach juga. We got TB950 per night, again, it is still a comfy room for us, clean toilet, comfy bed and good aircond. Nopparat Thara beach less crowded than Ao Nang. Tak ada lah bersusun banyak sangat long tail boats macam Ao Nang. So mostly the tourists have sun bath on the white sandy beach happily.

Our room

Nopparat Thara beach at 10 am

Ting tong ting tong dah jam 10am. Mat salleh pun dah start bersidai, we all rasa dah cukup putih untuk bersidai and I cant stand with the hot sunny sunshine. Panas berdenting membahang. So, since we rent the bike, again pergi Krabi town.

Traffic light at Krabi town

Suka pergi Boots, macam Watsons tapi barang lagi banyak. Tapi tak faham nak baca.

Since makcik ni pakai tudung, then we end up had lunch here. Sebelah Vogue Deparment Store. I makan "Nasi Komok", sedap. Sepanjang di Thai, 2x makan nasi ni tapi yang di floating market HatYai lagi sedap.

We're heading back to the beach again. Tengok mat salleh tu penuhkan teksi, nak pergi beach juga. So petang tu plan nak pergi beach, tapi hujan renyai-renyai pula. Melepak dalam bilik saja kami ni, dah reda sikit baru start nak klua cari souvenirs. So petang tu kami keluar berjalan tengok suasana Ao Nang.

Malam malam happening area sini, ada cabaret show juga.

Kritikal mat salleh ni dah sunburn, rentung. Area beach ni payah nak cari local tourists, semua foreigners. Barang and souvenirs pun memang mahal. So semua suggest, nak cari barang pergi Krabi town, tp tempatnya jauh la.

Ao Nang pun terkene tempias Tsunami 2004, boleh tengok di You tube tp tourist spot cepat recover. Kesan pun tak nampak

Waktu petang, dah ramai balik dari island tour. Dorang pergi mostly dari 9am to 6pm.Terkilan betul kami tak dapat join, dengan tak proper plan, tak buat research and limited time. Tau tau parents bagi green light, packing back samai Thailand.

Waktu malam pun tak ada aktiviti sangat, Azuar berjalan nak tengok club, then he send me for massage. Bijak dia. Sibuk dia nak tengok ladyboy hihihi.

So waktu malam, area Ao Nang memang ramai lepaskan their wishing lattern. Harga dia about TB100 per lattern. Mat salleh ramai lah beli and make their wish then kissing with their partner semua tepi pantai tu. Bagi i mahal kot nak beli benda alah nak lepaskan RM10 macam tu..Tapi kalau ada Adam, meraung nak, papa terpaksa beli lah.

Then, itulah malam terakhir kami di Krabi. Pagi esok memang awal nak balik, jam 9am kami bertolak dari Krabi ke Ha Yai, perjalanan ambil masa 4jam lebih. Driver van dah siap pick us depan hotel. Kami saje tak nak balik terus ke SG Golok, sebab takut bontot menangis. At least, biar dapat bangun and berjalan sikit area Hat Yai, baru cari tiket balik ke border Malaysia. Dekat 3 jam juga nak sampai ke Sg Golok.

Bye Thailand!!!! Definitely we will come again by road tour, lagi best kot. Dah try sekali nak buat lagi. Azuar cakap maybe ke Surat Thani, then ke Koh Samui.. Tapi papa cakap nak check cuti dulu T_______T

Trip to Southern Thailand - Hat Yai to Krabi

2013-02-18T22:41:00.000+08:00

So, the next day, we woke up early in the morning, again put it everything our stuffs (mostly its belong to me) in the backpack. Azuar dah survey and surf in internet, how to get the tickets and transportation to Krabi. Everything semua last minute.

Bye hotel cap ayam hehehe, but I found out that ramai juga backpackers yang stay sini.

Then, kami pergi balik Bus station to ask about the tickets. Surveying the prices one by one, from travel agents to ticket counters. Price ranged at TB250-TB350. Mana yang mahalnya, biasa dorang ambil komisyen. Perjalanan ambil masa about 4 to 5 hours. Bila masuk saja dalam van, lagi ramai tourists and backpackers. I jumpa dari Malaysia, Morocco, Spain and the UK. Semua memang excited nak pergi Krabi.

Ada sekali berhenti di RnR Province of Trang. About 2 hours from Hat Yai. Sini pun banyak halal food, toilet bersih dan besar and praying rooms.

Sepanjang perjalanan ke Krabi, rasa memang sangat jauh tapi kami tak rasa pula nak tidur. Dengan driver memang tak bercakap sebab dia pandai cakap siam saje. So banyak guna bahasa isyarat.

Confident lori telur ni. kan...Tak terbang ke telur tu?

Sampai di Krabi dalam jam 1.30 tengahari, perut lapar semua in full package. Van tadi turunkan kami di Karabi town. Tapi Krabi town tak ada apa sangat, yang famous adalah Ao Nang Beach. So, we asked the driver to send us to the beach. Itu pun kami tak tau sangat. The other backpackers yang suggest kan hantar ke Mc Donalds Ao Nang, then baru cari hotel near the place. Tambang dari Krabi town to Ao Nang Beach adalah TB100 seorang. Rupanya beach yang happening tu jauh juga dari town, about 25km, dlm 30 mins juga.

Tibanya di Ao Nang, the first thing buat cari hotel. Kami survey one by one. Again, public holidays, harga hotel banyak mahal and full house. Susah hati juga, dengan penat, lapar, bag berat semua. Luckily, dapatsatu bilik at Ao Nang Easy Room. Memang puas hati bila tengok sendiri. Tiap kali survey hotel, I mesti cakap "May I see the the room, first?". Ikut Azuar dia memang tak kisah, janji tidur, wife dia tak boleh laaa , complicated sikit. So we got the room's price at TB1200, Normally it costs about TB900.

It was a cozy place seriously. I suka sangat. Semua ada towel, hot shower, free internet dan aircond. Yang peliknya masa dia mula-mula tunjuk the room, I thought it was a display room, sebab dinding dia memang 100% glass. Memang bole tengok orang lalu lalang. Rupanya itu memang concept dia. So bila masuk bilik, tariklah curtain tu, baru privacy. Yang penting, tempat dia sangat dekat to everything. So ramai orang lah kat sini. Hotel ni betul-betul depan Starbucks and McDonalds Ao Nang. Nak pergi beach pun sangat dekat.

Petang tu, dah siap mandi dan solat semua, kami berjalan ke Ao Nang Beach. Sape pernah ke Pantai Kuta, Bali. Ao Nang beach lebih kurang macam tu lah. Tapi lagi banyak tourist mat salleh, nak cari local people mandi kat pantai, tak jumpa pun. Kalau local people area situ pun, yang ada tinggal yang bekerja di situ. Mostly tourists kat sana nak pergi Phi Phi island, James Bond island, Chicken Island dan banyak lagi. Island dia memang sangat cantik, tapi we all tak pergi pun, menyesal juga. So dorang datang Ao nang untuk naik longtail boat untuk ke pulau2 tu, boleh sun bath, swimming, diving and snorkelling. Booth untuk trip snorkelling and diving, mostly their bos pun mat salleh. Agaknya dorng memang betul fall in love dengan the islands, siap datang buat business terus.

Sunset at Ao Nang Beach

Malam tu kami sewa motosikal dalam harga TB200, pandai tokei dah siap isi full tank and mintak caj TB150.

Dinner malam tu, kami makan mee tomyam dan nasi goreng ayam. Food Thailand memang sangat sedap tapi kena beware juga kepedasan dia tu kadang boleh buat ulang toilet. Lepas tu, kami decided untuk berjalan ke Krabi town. Naik motor rasa jauh sangat, dalam 45mins jg, dengan sejuk malamnya.

Outlet Village Krabi

Most items discounts at 20%-50%, tapi barang tak cantik sangat. Tapi Speedo swimming cap Adam boleh dapat dalam TB150 (RM15), murahkan! So we all ke sana just nak kenal tempat.

Tesco Lotus Thailand

Mostly kedai tutup dalam jam 10pm, kami sampai pun dah lewat. So, kami balik round tengok night life di Ao Nang. Fuhhhh siap ada cabaret show, bising jugalah area hotel kami.

Lepas round round area beach, kami pulang hotel. Esok berfikir mana nak berjalan lagi...

Trip to Southern Thailand - Sungai Golok to Hat Yai

2013-02-18T00:15:00.001+08:00

This is the last minute plan. Crazy! Sekejap jadi, sekejap tak jadi since both of parents memang tak kasi green light langsung. I never think about the negative sides hahahaha. Ayah cakap boleh pergi but kena naik plane. But both of us, nak sangat roadtrip, nak tengok kampung, scenary and everything. Kalau naik plane, zapp dah sampai. So considered as the first time, we keluar Semenanjung Msia by road. Sangat berbahaya to travel across the Southern Thai, wilayah bergolak. But but Insyaallah selamat...

Since this was a last minute plan and a budget travel, we change RM to Thai Bath about RM1000 for 4 days and 3 nights to Hatyai and Krabi. Tukar duit pun a day before, cari backpack, toiletries travel size pun kelam kabut. Print out everything the map, the road, interest places, do and dont and everything. Pap pap pap they fit in our 2 medium size backpacks.

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So, pagi tu bangun awal jam 6 pagi selepas solat subuh di Rantau Panjang, kami berdua dah terkedek berjalan lepas border Malaysia. Sampai border immigration, cop passport and fill forms semua. Tersenget senget my bahu. I said to Azuar "Papa, at last dah lepas border nih!".

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Sampai Sg Golok, kami terus cari transport to Hat Yai. Kami naik van tersebut dengan harga TB200 seorang ke Hatyai dalam 3 jam perjalanan. Van sangat selesa aircond sejuk, fits for 14 people. Mostly kalau nak travel by road di Thailand, memang they provide van macam ni. I cant sleep all along the way, sibuk nak tengok luar. By road, we cross Narathiwat, Yala and Pattani. I heard yang wilayah Yala selalu dok bertembak-tembak, takut juga. The van stop at RnR in Pattani, so people can go to toilet and get some foods.

Over decoration of toilets

The pit-stop

Dalam jam 10, kami dah sampai sana. The first thing yang we all buat, we get Thai sim card, nak guna no sini. Azuar nak surf internet on the road, senang nak cari apa-apa.

The boss sampai senget bahu kiri kanan, I memang terus dah tak larat nak sandang bag lagi. Azuar cakap if I yang carry the bag, lagi lambat berjalan. Dari bus stop, kami nak ke Hat Yai Central dengan menaiki tuk-tuk untuk cari hotel. Kami pilih hotel yang dekat dengan Lee Garden Hotel, since its in the central. Tuk tuk charged about TB30 per person for the distance.

First timer

Sekitar Lee Garden Hotel, kami cari hotel at reasonable price since our main priority is to Krabi. Hat yai just nak kenal tempat. Kami dapat hotel dalam harga TB400 per night, close to everything. Gambar hotel cap ayam tak ambil tapi its still okay for me, i cant give any comment, aircond pun ada, cuma buruk je, an old hotel.

Letak bag, solat segala, then kami keluar cari makan. It easy to get Halal food here, dont worry. We choose to have lunch at Hamid Restaurant, in front of Lee Garden Hotel. Tak sedap and mahal but we had no choice darling.

Tengah survey muslim restaurant pun jumpa macam-macam restaurant. Roasted pork.

Lepas makan, baru we all berjalan sakan, perut penuh, hati pun senang.

Lee Garden Hotel and Mall

The street

Central mall

Bos letih sangat

Awek siam

Then, malam tu, kami bersiap untuk ke Khlong Hae Floating Market. Dari central to the place, about 10kms macam tu. Kalau naik tuk-tuk, it cost TB400, sekali pergi balik, mahal juga dalam RM40, tp boleh fits smpai 6 people macam tu. Macam kami berdua saje, terasa lah mahal, since kat sana jual food murah sangat, sangat tak berbaloi kan. But its okay for experience.

Floating market ini dibuka pada hari Jumaat, Sabtu dan Ahad at 3pm-8pm. Food kat sini sangat sedap and mostly Muslim yang menjual. Harga pun sangat murah about TB20-40. Boleh try macam-macam. I found many Malaysians here since from Padang Besar border to Hatyai only 1 hour. Barang-barang at their night market pun murah and I bought palazzo about TB 220, rsnya sini dalam RM40+.

We end up our day with foot massage. Battery camery terus mati. Harga massage pun sangat murah di Thailand and I got twice in Hat Yai and Krabi. Foot massage about TB200 per hour. Harga range from TB200 to TB500, so boleh buat macam-macam. They really have the massage skills, Azuar siap burp tak cover, memang tak malu.

Malam tu, we slept early for a long journey to Krabi tomorrow, about 4 hours.

Pulau Pangkor, Perak

2013-02-17T22:55:00.000+08:00

This was supposed to be our weekend getaway. For short holidays. Kami ke sana selama 3 hari 2 mlm. Cukup cukup dah, lama sangat nanti boring. Perjalanan dari KL took almost 4 hours to Jeti Lumut. Rasa macam lama sangat nak sampai di Lumut. Asyik berkicau dengan Azuar, bila nak sampai bila nak sampai. Dia ada trick, " Lagi 10 mins lagi yang...". Tapi tak sampai juga.

Jeti Lumut

Sampai Jeti, terus beli tiket about RM 10 (return), considered dah murah since perjalanan naik feri took 25mins macam tu.

Sampai di Jeti Pangkor, kami terus cari Pangkor's trademark, their pink van.

Pink vans, image goggled.

The pink van charged us about RM15 to Pantai Teluk Nipah. We choose to stay at Nipah Guesthouse in Pangkor. If you ask me, it will be a biased answer. For me, Pulau Pangkor biasa-biasa saja since I dah pernah sampai Pulau Perhentian and Pulau Redang. Dont expect any crystal clear water and air menghijau itu semua hihihi. But its still enough for a short vacation. Enjoy juga main dekat pantai tu. Takkan nak pi Port Dickson, saje kan, boring juga...

I love the guest house. The accommodation itu yang I dok bising tak sabar nak pergi Pangkor. We found it in website of TripAdvisor and it received awards in 2012 and 2013. Go Google it! I fall in love with its A-frame cottage, and yes we got it.

So, they rate was about RM150 per day during peak days. Normally it costs RM90, when I check it in Agoda. Rasanya boleh dapat low rate. Biasanya guest house, they don't provide any breakfast, but the guesthouse come out with something different, DIY breakfast. We woke up early in the morning to cook the breakfast. I masak pancake and scramble eggs for the two boys. Bancuhan pancake dah siap, you just pour it in the pan. Tadaaa siap! They provide bread, jam, butter spread, pancake, fruits, eggs, tea, and coffee. Kat sini, customers mostly Mat Salleh, so I nak masak konon western breakfast pun segan, takut salah kan... Cuba suruh masak nasi goreng depan dorang, sure I memang confident level tinggi menggunung...

Lepas dah siap makan makan, we went to the beach, dalam 400m dari the guest house.

My two boys.

Bermulalah aktiviti pantai kami. Adam is a happy child as always. Seronok lah dia.

Kami juga sewa motor, membonceng pusing satu pulau. Harga sewa pun still acceptable RM20 per day.

Teluk Dalam

Horn bills are everywhere and you just feed them to make them come closer.

Petang sikit, kami ikut boat tour and snorkelling, dapat at good price juga, about RM 50 satu family dan tiada had masa. Snorkeling and swimming sampai puas, letih baru panggil boat datang ambil.

Aktiviti sama berulang untuk dua hari. Waktu sebelah malam, tak ada aktiviti sangat, just keluar jalan-jalan cari makan. Banyak kedai seafood, ikan bakar semua tapi kami datang waktu public holidays, semua tempat penuh dan mahal di sekitar Pantai Teluk Nipah. Jadi we choose to have dinner at their town. Janji kenyang, tidur lena.

That was a start for our family's holiday in this year. Seronok, priceless and as expected, SUNBURN.

Self Confidence

2012-12-12T21:08:00.002+08:00

Last week, I have attended an international research conference. I present my research as usual. But one thing that it leave a mark in my mind was..... I got a comment from a Professor at Ministry of Higher Education (MOHE). He is complaining about my research methodology and confused about it. But still, he said, I'm the one who very confident to convey the message of my research and present it confidently. I do not blame him since he is from different field and it takes time to understand my study.

I couldn't sleep on that night. What is wrong with my research? Supervisory committee never mention or comment about it. I just cant sleep. There is something in my mind.

I have a very low level of self confidence. Seriously. I never think what is the best part of me. What to mention? Nothing. I'm in love in cooking? No. Baking? No. Brilliant? No. Genius? No.

I believe that I just a normal person. Very plain.

But yesterday, it turned my perspectives differently.

I have attended a conference presentation training. We have a task about to tell the audiences, the interesting part of your friend. People who is sitting beside me keep asking, what is the interesting part of me? I cant answer it. All of sudden, I told her, the interesting part of me is.....I passed my PhD Viva Exam 2 weeks ago at 28 years old, I completed my Masters at 24 years old and my Bachelor at 22 years old.

I never thought the statement gave an excitement to everyone. I never expect it.

The speaker, Dr. Vijay keep saying. "That's attract me, she completed her PhD at 28 years old and give her a big clap".

Yes, I slept last night with different perspective too.

Do not look down at yourself. Never know until you try it and never ever give up.

p/s: Please, i am not an arrogant person but i am building my self confidence.

Oh VIVA

2012-11-30T14:12:00.002+08:00

Whooooaaaa what happen to me lately?

I'm kinda busy with my study. I pass my VIVA Voce Exam with minor correction. Minor? Arghhhh still need a lot of effort to put on and of course more and more reading on related field. The graduate school gave 60 days to submit a copy of the amended version. Hmmm I benci buat kerja yang remeh macam edit margin, font, and everything, rasa macam it's wasting my time.

So, what I am doing right now? Do corrections based on the reports.

Talking about the Viva, I didn't celebrate anything. Nothing to expect from Azuar, every weekend pun selalu enjoy the good food and shopping mengarut. The next day I pass my exam, I asked him beli a movie tix. I did watch alone the movie, Istanbul aku datang. Hmmm cerita biasa je lah, cuma I rindu nak tengok movie alone. Jalan sorang sorang tapi biasalah laki I tak bagi, habis movie, terus cepat datang ambil., Bukannya apa, I kalau sorang macam hanyut je, cari toilet dalam mall pun tak jumpa. Padahal Alamanda pergi 85x setahun. Pffftttt

How's your day people?

Officially 28.

2012-10-18T14:36:00.002+08:00

It just a number. Happy Birthday to me. Husband dah bagi present siap-siap, siap ada choices plak tuh. Tapi Pa kita nak dua sekaligus laaa. Baru lah sayang menyayangi hiks.

Pandai Azuar throws a surprise small celebration for me. Diajaknya makan at TGIF, Midvalley. I cakap setakat nak makan, makan la TGIF Alamanda lagi dekat. Dia cakap tak best.

Sampai sana dah rasa pelik sebab siap reserved banyak kerusi pulak. I cakap, Pa tukar tempat, banyak sangat kerusi ni. Dia insist nak juga dok situ. Pastu dia mula lah dok ulang alik pi toilet bawa handphone. Tak ada lah rasa pelik sebab memang habit dia masuk toilet bawa hp. Tapi macam aisehhh orang nak dinner, dia sibuk nak membuang lah apa lah.

Tup tup tup sorang sorang adik beradik and in laws datang bawa girlfriends semua. Amboi. I dah macam wah Pa.....nak belanja semua orang. Wah sekali TGIF crew datang bawa cake, menyanyi baru waaaaa I takut sekejap Pa...

Apa pun Abang, thanks so much. I love u lah.

Annoying anak beta sekarang, tak boleh bising sikit.

Siblings in Kuala Lumpur and I declared myself as a guardian.

They asked me to sing and I choose Adam's fav song. Old McDonald had a farm. ei-ya-ei-ya-ooo. Adam pun sporting sangat. Dia menyanyi beria.

I guess semua orang clap to him lah, not for me, sebab dah besar sangat. Tua.

Semua singing happily kan....hahahahaha

I got from my sister, harap bunga amat lama segar lah ya...

Thanks Papa.

3 Minute Thesis Competition 2012

2012-10-18T12:36:00.001+08:00

I dont know what happen to me. Rasa terus nak join the competition since the thesis was submitted and I'm free. Malas nak fikir pasal paper for a while since baru sudah writting a paper. So I need something yang macam I buat I seronok.

Then I joined 3MT Competition about two weeks ago. I heard that it was first in Malaysia. Participants were given 3 minutes to talk about their thesis. In general, tak payah nak in details semua. So the participants were PhD students who submitted their thesis and waiting for VIVA. Hmmm talking about the VIVA, semua orang cakap at least tunggu for 3 months. So what I am going to do now? A housewife? Macam best juga. Kan?

Hadiah dia biasa saje, tak ada lah banyak mana. Tapi experience tu penting sangat. Since free rasa nak occupy dengan benda yang berfaedah except online shopping saje kan....

The organizer told us to prepare based on creativity. So I pun pung pang pung pang tengok you tube segala. Memang target tak ada lah tinggi mana cuma nak lepas Heat 1 sahaja. Baru lah rasa, research dikenali sikit kan. The Heat 1 went very well. Macam-macam hal. Ada yang terlebih masa, obviously disqualified. Ada yang gugup. Memang macam masuk contest menyanyi plak. Lepas bercakap, the judges terus angkat kad either green or red.

Research orang lain memang outstanding ok. Siap medical term semua, engineering smua. But for me, I make it simple. 3minutes mana nak sempat bercakap pasal data and result, bagi key point saja dah cukup. That day, self confidence memang rendah. MC panggil, I bagi talk and terus say thanks, tak nak pandang judges angkat kad apa.

Duduk terus tengok turn orang. Ada yang best. Tapi kalau bagi term hebat sangat, memang orang tak akan paham since penonton comes from various field. I ada suka satu talk pasal bakteria, dia sebut bad and good bakteria. Haaa sudah, kan senang orang paham instead of Xurtueorryyyfrddh. Lagi mudah paham.

3 days later, I received mail which is stated that I'm selected for final. Bercakap depan Vice Chancellor Uni plak. Itu amat menakutkan saya. Wish me all the best!

Ayam Berempah

2012-09-24T19:31:00.001+08:00

Ayam berempah hentam saja lah.... Ini resepi dari Chef Hanieliza.

Ayam 5 ketul
1 sb Serbuk kari
1 sb Serbuk cili
Daun kari
1 inci Halia
5 ulas Bawang putih
2 Serai
Garam

Blend bawang putih, halia n serai. Perap sekali dengan serbuk kari dan cili. Tumis daun kari sampai naik bau then masukkan ayam. Done

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It's FUN!

2012-09-24T12:47:00.001+08:00

Sejak dah rileks sikit ni...Banyak stay rumah dengan Adam, mcm 3 days in office, 2 days at home. Baru rasa nak jaga sendiri, since dia kan banyak dengan babysitter time mummy dia busy sgt.

Tapi Adam ni, memang can not get away from Ultraman lah. Semua ultraman. Mak memang tak tahan. Azuar selalu cakap macamana nak alih kan perhatian dia dari Ultraman. Dia dah tau mana Dyna, Gaia, Zero, Mebius, Cosmos, Max and macam2 lagi. Yg peliknya cerita bahasa Jepun tu, dapat pula dia tangkap the aliean names tu. Hishh....

So, I fikir, and bought him an easel. Boleh dia conteng-conteng, tapi silap perkiraan pula, dinding dah selamat buat mural.

So far Adam baru tahu draw dua benda, line as ONE and circle as BUBBLE. Itu yang dia perasan, dia buat sendiri, dia sebut sendiri. Kita dah lukis macam-macam benda tapi itu je yang dia tangkap. Tapi kalau kita draw, dia recognize it and boleh sebut pulak.

Ini pula, apps yang dia suka sangat dalam Ipad papa dia. Asyik decorate Madagascar dia. This is among his fav cartoons lah.

Arghhh rindu, he is our bundle of joy. Dan sekarang tengah mengalami fasa amukan yang tak berbelah bagi. memang lah Pffttf...... tapi tiap kali nak marah, i remind myself, dia lahir bukan untuk menjadi kurang ajar, dia tengah melalui fasa meluahkan emosi. Tak apa lah, as long as boleh bertahan, kita bertahan. Nak peluk dia pun, i should ask him first, sebab dia dah tau space dia. Biasa saya tanya, I need your hug, come! Dia datang ok lah...if dia buat dun no it's ok.

Alhamdulillah, for this 2 years journey of being a mother for a fussy toddler. Hiks.

PhD progress

2012-09-24T11:56:00.000+08:00

I am neglecting u. Neglecting u too much.

Semuanya pasal thesis. Alahamdulillah dah selamat hantar tesis on 7th semester of my PhD journey. Insyaallah it will be okay in examiner's hands. Sekarang saya menunggu date VIVA. Redha dan bertawakal aje lah.

Bonhee (Korean) is asking me,"Why u are coming to office?".

"I have papers to publish before graduated, at least two"

Rasanya ini dah pilihan hidup, writting papers. Jadi tak suka nak komen lebih-lebih. Kalau nak cepat jadi Prof lagi, maka sila rajin publish papers and stand out from the crowd. Wah cita-cita tak nak kalah kan.

Semoga dipermudahkan segalanya. Amin.

Good job Papa

2012-09-19T19:39:00.001+08:00

Semalam Azuar took turn in teaching Adam. Ok lah drawing dia still Adam recognize it.

Good job papa!

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Food

2012-09-05T23:04:00.001+08:00

Hari ni saya nak berceloteh pasal pendapat orang. Boring ok asyik menghadap bahan ilmiah. Kita bercakap pasal benda yang meringankan otak

Kamu semua kan suka tak kalau orang post gambar gambar makanan yang dia masak sendiri? Post it at FB and holla the world!

Macam begini

Begitu

Yummehhh

Pics googled

Bagi saya sangat tak kisah dan saya suka tengok. Sebab kadang boleh bagi idea nak masak apa balik nanti. Ikutkan Azuar lauk sardin setiap hari dia sanggup hadap. Senangkan fav laki i hehehehe..

Tapi banyak orang dia tersalah tafsir, dia cakap eh dia tu show off. Niat show off tu belakang cerita lah. Tapi saya suka aja. Ada orang memang suka ambil gambar food. Food ni macam art kan. Ada seni dia. Eh probably ada lah rasa nak tunjuk skill sikit since lepas kahwin dah pandai masak itu ini, berbanding time belum kahwin lagi. Mesti lah rasa ada pencapaian yang amat dibanggakan.

Ada sorang bagi reason memang buat saya berfikir-fikir.

Dia cakap post pics juadah yang hebat hebat ini kadang kadang bersimpang dengan adat kita. Macam cuba jiran kita amonng one of in FB friendlist. Mesti terasa. Wah jiran sebelah masak hebat, sampai tak hulur kat orang sebelah ni.

Macamana tuh?

Tapi saya malus lah nak hantar makanan hebat hebat kat jiran, setakat puding tu boleh lah. Sungguh tak mencapai piawaian.

Pause

2012-09-05T22:37:00.001+08:00

Another reason due a long silence. Doakan yang baik baik saja

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Monthly progress

2012-08-07T15:44:00.001+08:00

Sekarang buat kerja memang macam tak cukup nafas. Phewww

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Ramadhan 2012

2012-07-23T13:46:00.000+08:00

Selamat berpuasa semua. Hari ini dah hari ketiga. Sekejapan rasa. Puasa pertama dan kedua, kami pulang ke Terenganu rumah Maktok ku sayang hehehehe.

Best wehh, kalau puasa untuk berbuka mak masak. Kalau balik KL, kol5 sampai rumah terus berkelentung kat dapur. Cun siap masak, terus masuk waktu berbuka. Haiihh I tak rileks ok... Aisei aisei stress... Hari ini buka puasa rumah makcik Gombak pula. Eh seronok sedara ramai, asyik dok bertenggek buka puasa rumah orang kan hehehehe..

Esok juga patut ke Bandung. Even Azuar beli tiket and proudly saying, " Have fun sayang... Shop till you drop". Kalau Allah tak izinkan, memang tetap juga tak jadi kan. Tiket yang dah dibeli kita bye bye kan saje. Tak rasa ralat sangat sbb dah smpai sana, cuma rasa ralat yang lepas tak shopping beria saje. Boleh?.

Kali ini blog sendiri pun tak jenguk fasal saya sibuk sangat dengan tesis. Saya dah nak submit dan saya bangga sebab saya cuba submit within 3 and half years. Puji diri sendiri jadi lah kan. Average orang complete 5years, tapi bila dah push to the limit, rasa azab stress tu tak payah lah cakap. Kita simpan sorang sorang, balik rumah amukan pada suami, keji sangat kan hehehehe. Diari I penuh, due date, conteng sana sini, eh kalah PM nak buat kerja ada due date. Kalau lepas due date, rasa bersalah tu membuak lah. Study PhD ni tak ada orang cakap senang, ada yang cakap gila lagi adalah. Nak habis berapa tahun, kalau dengan izin Allah, semua boleh. Tapi bagi saya since my scholarship bonded 4years, saya nak buat smpai semua benda saya belajar free. Ko berlengah, maka ko bayarlah dengan duit sendiri. Eh tak nak! Tapi ada juga benda2 lain boleh drag study. Macam thesis kawan saya external examiner dari USA, nak dpt respond kemain lama sampai 10bulan baru dapat date nak VIVA. In my case, I dengar my tesis berlayar ke Indonesia sahaja. Kat mana mana tak kisah, yang penting dapat grade tinggi dan lepas cemerlang segala-galanya.

Adam pun dah besar, macam tesis mummy dia. Kalau tanya mummy pergi mana, "Mummy pergi school". Sian mak ko kan, belajar tak habis lagi. Kalau tanya what is your mummy's name? "Ma-Hi-Yah". Tiap kali nak get attention mesti dia ulang " A bu yu so much Mummy". Pelat. So poor little boy!

Melalut panjang. Dikesempatan ini kami sekeluarga ingin mengucapkan Selamat berpuasa semua, banyak kan beribadat dan berdoa agar apa yang dihajat temakbul. Amin.

Hunting for Nasi Kandar.

2012-07-02T15:33:00.001+08:00

We were in Penang last week, but the worst part was I had a camera without the battery. Good one.

Ke sana sebab Aini, my roomate time degree dulu bertunang, gang kami juga lah. Dulu memang selalu stick together. Dah berfamily and bercareer ni, susah lah sikit. Kadang-kadang sedih fikir pasal kawan-kawan, bukan pasal bergaduh ke apa. Pasal commitment dan macam-macam, time barrier. Dulu semua buat sama-sama, itu yang dikenang-kenang juga. Hishhh...

Kalau pi Penang, mesti lah nak makan sedap. Laksa Penang rumah Aini memang pure lah, pekat kemain. So we were hunting another good food. Tapi perut penuh pulak, sebab macam-macam makan kat rumah Aini.

Pi Penang tak makan Nasi Kandar memang tak sah. The most popular is Nasi Kandar Line Clear. Probably famous sebab dia dah lama sangat. Bagi saya, biasa sahaja lah rasa dia. Beratur juga lah nak membeli, tempat panas, tak selesa dan sesak. Orang Penang sendiri pun cakap tak best hehehe..

So, we turned to Nasi Kndar Subaidah. Itu pun tersalah info. My friend from Penang cakap orang Penag makan kat Hameediyah, ayam kapitan. Saya punya lah recall tapi lekat Hamidah. Boleh?Sampai sana memang lahtak jumpa, then Azuar cakap it must be Subaidah kot.

Here we goes...

Boleh lah tahan. Sedap juga. Lain kali kena ingat kat kepala Hameediyah, ayam kapitan.

Learning process

2012-06-26T09:46:00.002+08:00

We all selalu terfikir nak belikan Ipad untuk Adam. Tengok anak-anak orang lain siap belajar macam-macam application guna Ipad. Hishh macam macam lah, hebat hebat kan.. Ipad pun dah tak mahal sangat sekarang. Ada rezeki nak belikan untuk dia. Bila dah ada duit lebih, 450x lagi berfikir. Its not that easy to buy him an Ipad. Sekarang pun susah nak get away him with Ultraman cartoon. TV pun nak Ultraman, PC kat rumah pun nak Ultraman, our hps pun nak Ultraman, Laptop pun nak Ultraman. Eh semua lah Ultraman untuk ko kan...

Dan membayangkan Adam study dgn apps via Ipad, amat impossible sekali.

Dan saya tak tahu mana kelebihan Ipad melainkan asyik memanjang akan online. Both of us akan dok ngular FB and layan You Tube. Maklumlah rumah ada Unifi, streaming non stop, seronok lah kan..

Jadi kami berpikir sama-sama berganding bahu mengajar Adam secara old school hehehe. Kita lah cikgu dia lah anak murid. Setiap malam kena lah make sure Azuar ada ajar Adam itu ini, while I'm in the kitchen. Time is so precious. Both of us, balik waktu office hour, nak kejar masak, kemas dapur, laundry. Eh semua lah kena cooperate. Melalut pulak.

Adam dah tau ABC, 123 - 10 complete in Bahasa and English, cuma I know, dia memang guna kaedah menghafal. So stage sekarang, memang byk kena drawing. Alang-alang menghafal, kena lah mengenal pulak.

Last week, I taught him how to write three, 3. Dia tengok terbalik and cakap, "No..mummy..., eh MekTonald, yeay! Hadoooo hadooo hadooo

Ok, this is our last night activity. Drawing class with Mummy.

Kesian bear tu macam cacat aje. I tak ada imagination langsung pasal bear, tapi kenal juga Adam hehehe

Imagination of a Tiger.

Drawing basic, circle circle circle, line line line...Ini Adam yang buat.

Tapi student ni kalau dapat bertahan smpai 30mins, dah bersyukur sangat. Semalam bertahan 15mins aja, pastu terus tumbang malas layan.. Hok hek hok hek, bagi susu, ajak naik atas tidur terus.

Enjoy juga drawing dengan anak. Drawing skill semua kena asah balik, kelakar pun ada. But its fun, dont worry.

Crayola Magnetic double easel

Nanti lah Mummy fikir balik. Balik hint kat papa nanti. Macam best kan?

Family dinner at Temptations

2012-06-23T08:53:00.002+08:00

Morning weekend!!!!

Dua minggu lepas, we decided to celebrate Father's Day and Adam's Birthday at Temptations Restaurant, Renaisance Hotel, KL.

Happy Father's day Papa! U such a good daddy in the world. Over protective, loving, kind-hearted, understanding, caring and the list goes on...... Thanks for everything. Thanks for the 3 years of wonderful years together. Thanks for being there to support me in everything. Thanks thanks darling...

We love u so much.

Back to the restaurant, the ambiance was so nice. Cozy. The food was so great and they range from various countries. Being me, I dont like to try any food which is too alien for me, so that part sangat membazir. We got a good price for that day, about RM60 per person for dinner, normally it costs RM102+ per person. It costed a bomb for me at least, if it charged at normal price. The dinner starts at 6.30pm to 10.30 pm.

Mummy and son.

Papa Azuar

Oh nothing cant explain. He loves chocolate dipped strawberry. Macam Tok Ti haa selera..

We start with sushi. The taste is not good as Sushi King. Biasa biasa saje.

Yoong Tau Fu

Roasted Duck

Dessert section. I love their oreo cheeese cake and pudding.

Noodle and soup section

Sushi

Food from Malaysia

We enjoy the dinner, borak borak, give some comments but obvious we cant sit peacefully enjoy the meal. Adam is running around and great everybody and talk to strangers. Mana makan nak aman. Mata asyik melilau.

Run baby run.

Dancing gracefully hmmm hmm hmmm..

Lepas settle the dinner, paksa paksa Adam makan, kami habiskan masa at the pool. Papa tengah survey a good hotel in KL, he promised hahahahaha, padahal boleh tidur rumah juga kan but stil ngada nak tidur hotel, still in our plan.

Ececeehhhhh tengah relax konon..

Actually, now I tengah train Adam to take care of his basic hygiene. So I have my own hand spray in my handbag. Tiap kali nak buat something, I cakap kat Adam "spray first!". Dia paham. Oh now suka mengajar dia something new, At this age, he has an amazing sponge brain. Tak percaya, try at your kids, cakap apa apa mesti ikut since dia dah paham terima arahan ni kan...

Adam memang selalu confuse. Then dia pergi lumur at his face. Lumur beria. Ini sebab selalu tengok Mummy buat before tidur. Tak apalah enjoy your learning process son!

We really enjoy the night, then after that heading straight to KLCC. Konon nak beli kasut tapi dah lewat. Then, another good mood turns to bad mood.

Enjoy your weekend darling!!!!

Clarks Hazelnut Crisp.

2012-06-22T18:26:00.001+08:00

I called it, a stress therapy.

I bought it online straight from the UK and it worth every penny. It costs only RM285 including air freight and u can get it at cheaper price by choosing sea freight, it takes 8 to 10 weeks to reach Malaysia. Being Puan Mahirah, I just cant wait everything, about 2 weeks I got mine. So, get yours at FB Orange Summer Closet at affordable prices.

Welcome to the family!

The thing goes ON.

2012-06-11T12:16:00.002+08:00

Kalau saya berbahasa "Aku", maknanya sedang bermonolog hati. Sedangkan dalam dunia kenyataan, boleh dibilang dengan jari berapa kerat saya berbahasa "Aku" dengan orang sekeliling. Saya lebih selesa berbahasa menggunakan nama "Ma" atau "saya". Manjakan I hehehe. Dengan Azuar pantang dia bahasakan diri "saya". Nak bergaduh pun "Sayang", tak cool ok. Tapi laki cakap macam tu dah, tapi kalau tengah mode on marah membuak tetap saya saya saya. Saya nak marah ni bang....

Hari ini aku nak cakap pasal pembelajaran PhD yang macam hai entahlah. Entah la labu.

June. Noted. Genap 42 bulan mode pembelajaran. 1 paper baru submit to journal, 1 as presenter in international conference, lembap kan. Kesian.

Bila mengeluh kat orang. Semua cakap you can do it. Sebab mengeluh pun pada yang sama berhempas pulas. Macam ko mengadu dekat orang yang tengah susah hati, dia pula mengadu , dia juga susah hati. Sama-sama pula rasa ada geng.

Orang cakap saya still average tak lembap macam siput, tiga tahun setengah dah hujung, tinggal hello one more chapter to go. Tapi aku dah rasa bosan. BOSAN. Working on the same thing for years, memang bosan kot. Tapi kena gali gali gali eh sampai susah nya.....apasal tak jumpa jalan lagi ni..

Mengadu kat SV, dia cakap kalau nak senang org tak buat PhD lah.

Orang lain cakap you are the few lucky ones are doing Phd at young age. Hmmmm...

Kadang-kadang nak stop je terus, dok rumah jaga anak, tapi bosan juga.

Eh tapi best juga macam sekarang, laki support semua. Hujung bulan tunjuk apa nak, laki beli.

Eh ko pikir ko punya senang je kan.....tak pikir dah tukang yang membayor hahahaha

Eh one more thing, perjanjian dengan KPT *benam kepala dalam bantal*

.STRESS.

Adam at Megakidz Midvalley

2012-06-09T12:35:00.002+08:00

Though Adam is still a toddler and even not started his years in school, I have the feel that telling my son is on his school break. Hehehehe... cuti sekolah kan...Since ramai orang nak datang rumah, kami tak pergi mana-mana, just jadi tuan rumah sambut tetamu during cuti sekolah.

Anak buah Auni pun datang all the way from Johor. Pikir punya pikir mana nak bawak, dalam list ada Zoo Negara or Aquaria KLCC. But end up, I malas nak berjalan sangat, nak dok dalam aircond. We opted to bring the kids to Megakidz Midvalley. First time and a new experience for them.

Price dia still at a reasonable rate. Kids 2 years and above -RM22, weekdays, RM 28 during weekend and school holidays. Adult or guardian is FREE, for 2 person only, considered mak bapak kena jaga anak dalam play area lah. But everyone should put on their socks. If tak ada, kena beli at counter about RM6. So, if decide nak pergi tempat ni, get ready socks dari rumah lah kan. If semua orang nak beli socks dekat counter, masak juga nak membayar, sock tu pun tak cantik. Serious.

Hence, here the pictures do the talking.

Adam memang dari pagi keluar rumah dia dah tak sabar.

Kakak Auni main sorang je, dia takut orang.

Adam semua benda nak try, being him yang tak reti duduk diam and takutkan orang. Habis satu palay area dia round. Semua benda dia try.

Keluar je dari tempat tu, Adam dah merengek. Hok hek hok hek atas bahu papa dia, tetiba tengok dah selamat....

Overall tempat ni memang fun untuk the kids lah. Yang adult muka bosan tak payah disembunyikan lagi hehehe. Tapi mainan dia banyak yang tinggi sangat, untuk besar Adam ni kecil lagi. Kalau nak panjat pun, Papa dia tolong angkatkan dan join sekali semua naik slide, tunnel segala. Tetiba kan ada peserta lebihan muatan hehehehe

But Adam and Auni really enjoy their days! Should bring Adam again.

His second birthday cake

2012-06-08T17:41:00.000+08:00

Since Adam dah TWO years, excited celebrate his second time tu lain sikit. Tak excited langsung macam first time celebrate lah. Ada party, we invited relatives and friends. Both families semua datang. Present pun dapat banyak. Penat ok, sampai malam. Sebab dok tertonggeng sental periuk belanga. Haiiyaaa....

But still, I told Papa, "Pa, beli a slice cake untuk Adam and kita letak dua lilin on top of it".

At least biar dia tau, today is my birthday!. Dari dia celik mata awal pagi, we sang a Happy Birthday song for him on the bed. Good boy ni macam paham lagu ni, dia sengih malu malu tutup muka. Then terus cakap "Shuhhhh". Letak jari at his lips. Suruh kami diam. Fine anak!

Petang, papa sengih-sengih bawa cake balik. Then, we pointed to him. Sengih lagi. Panjang pulak.

Seronok dia macam paham pulak.

Dia geram nak pegang lilin tu

Finally, the birthday boy is crying. Jari dia pergi cucuh lilin sampai padam and terus uwaaaaaa "Nak Mummy".. Too bad too bad. Gelembung juga jari dia. Nangis-nangis sikit and start kacau sana sini balik.

Adam langsung tak makan carrot cake tu and of course parent dia yang over, terus licin.

Adam,

We love u so much. Semoga Adam menjadi anak yang baik, penyabar, bertakwa, anak yang soleh, pembimbing zuriat dan generasi Mummy dan Papa. Menjadi pembela kami nanti. InshaAllah.

We really enjoy parenthood, and even MORE!

Adam is TWO

2012-05-31T10:09:00.001+08:00

Our pride and joy is turning TWO today. Two years ago exactly, he came out to see the world. Alhamdulillah.

Little boy was 2 months.

About 4 months.

I am happy. I am TWO

After being around you for two years, I have now realized why kids are also called angels. You are a gift from Allah who has brightened up the lives of your parents and everyone else around you. Happy Birthday Adam!

We love u so much.