ItsSoBitterSweet

WeCraveMusicHere: Behind the Beat..

2012-01-14T11:24:00.001-08:00

WeCraveMusicHere: Behind the Beat..: I recently wrote an interesting piece for DaMatrixStudios on DJ|Producer Khardier Da God.. "I tend to be at DaMatrixStudios on average ...

WeCraveMusicHere: WeCraveNewness: Natalie KILLS her BF

2012-01-14T11:24:00.000-08:00

WeCraveMusicHere: WeCraveNewness: Natalie KILLS her BF: About few months ago I came across a couple tracks from a new girl Natalie Kills .. noted as a songwriter and singer I dug up her album Per...

WeCraveMusicHere: WeCraveNewness: Azealia Banks.. Bank on her

2012-01-14T11:23:00.001-08:00

WeCraveMusicHere: WeCraveNewness: Azealia Banks.. Bank on her: During Kanye West DJ set on NYE he spun a "212" from Azealia Banks .. In no time here youtube videos were gaining crazy views and I'm sure...

WeCraveMusicHere: WeCraveNewness: XV - Squarian !!!!

2012-01-14T11:23:00.000-08:00

WeCraveMusicHere: WeCraveNewness: XV - Squarian !!!!: The title of XV latest release rang "Aquemini" in my head (One of my fave Outkast songs) Another song to tithe us over till the Kansas C...

The Three L's: Vol I

2011-11-14T18:58:00.000-08:00

The three Ls..

Love.

Like.

Lust.

I Love One,
I Like You,
I Lust Him.

Like:

It was a conscious decision to start with you out of the fact that I, Liked you. It was the motive behind accepting dates. It was the motive that allowed me to come home with you. The motive that has kept me returning. There is no infatuation. No pre thought out intention. I was simply going with the flow. I Liked you.
You made it easy to Like you. You were grown. A gentleman. Nice. Chill. A change of pace from what I was use to. You didn't hang out or party hard. You stayed off all the scenes. you were simple in the good sense.

My girls they say " He likes you ". They say " Be nice to him ". They tell me " What are you doing, tell him you want to be his girl. tell him how you feel "
.. I like him. I don't know if I want to like only him tho. He's good. He was on time. But I'm not really looking for forever so.. Is it wrong of me to enjoy liking him with no expectations of falling in love ? I mean isn't that what dating's all about. Why do I need to be his " Girlfriend " ? What the hells a Girlfriend ? Sometime we have an understanding and boundaries that don't fit in the definition of what a " Girlfriend " is.

I like him. But I like to flirt.
I like him. But I like freedom.

See, I like him. I act right, for the most part. I'm honest, always.
I just don't want those expectations that come with a title.

Luckily, they usually like me too. So we manage a type of understanding.

Persia got Next !

2011-10-04T11:40:00.000-07:00

The state of females in rap has declined by far since the golden days of hip hop. Just because the femcees haven't been in the forefront doesn't mean they don't exist though. And I'm NOT talking about bubble gum rap like Nicki and Kreyshawn. That is NOT Rap. That is simple rhyming at best.
When I say the femcee is alive and kicking I'm talking about the likes of this woman.. Persia.
Fuck what you heard, this is REAL rap. Persia was kind enough to give me some of her time for an interview. So we got straight into it..

Q: Where do you think HipHop stopped being about the art and became about the $$ ?

1997 - Once Sean Combs got his hands on Hip Hop it was never the same.....

Q: What do you feel is to blame for the watering down of HipHop ?

I think there are plenty of passionate artists who embody the essence of Hip Hop, but the powers that be dont allow them to pay bills on essence alone. So in order to survive doing something you were born to do most artist must water down their message. I dont blame the artist, I blame corporate...The rapper is just trying to stay above water, literally...

Q: Do you see a revival of HipHop coming and what role are you playing ?

I've always said music is a revolving door, it will 360 back around to the raw message it once was. I think J Cole is prime example of this. He is what we have been missing in the game, and noone saw it coming - not even me. My roll........ I'm what the female rapper was intended to be, real - someone who spits with emotion....I speak from experience, I offer something alot of female listeners have been left without, a voice for them. I'm just doing what God intended me to do, my role has already been written.

Q: What do you feel has to be done to revive HipHop ?

I think the fans have to show the labels what they want instead of letting the labels give you what they THINK you want....

Q: How do you feel you differ from other females in the industry ?

I'm not afraid to be who I am, good or bad. People relate to me, both men & woman - not alot of females can say that. I represent a breed of people not a gender or race. And I murder the fuck outta any beat I touch ! *big smile*

Q: When you see people like Nicki and Kreyshawn get paid to basically make a mockery of your art what keeps you going ?

If Nicki made me realize one thing, its that there is a difference between Rap & Hip Hop. In all honestly I think Nicki is talented, she has just chosen who she wants to be in this game and I truly believe she is being herself. So my hat goes off to her to being able to be herself. I tell people all the time, it's easier to love Nicki for who she is than to hate her for who she's not. Now Kreayshawn *cough* is a totally different story. Rapping is a calling and Kreayshawn straight *82'd us. People make money doing all types of things so the money other people make isn't what bothers me, its more so the recognition. To hear Kreayshawn referred to as a white female rapper is just disturbing, and her blatant disrespect for the actual culture is what makes me want to slit her throat, on a beat that is... *wink*

Q: Being a female in a male dominated industry do you feel you have to hold yourself in a different manner to get the same respect they do ?

I'm sure I have to, but I dont.....I cant, it would alter my personality - and we cant have that now !

Q: Besides yourself who do you think has the talent to bring HipHop back to its roots ?

I've been riding with Joell Ortiz ever since he opened his mouth....Him, Emperor Chi, Fred The GodSon & J Cole just to name a few.....

Check Persia out at : PersiaGotNext and download a few tracks..

This woman got bars to no end, a refreshing breathe of air with a real story to tell.

Love one.. Lust Another

2011-09-18T21:33:00.001-07:00

Fun House

In a room full of smoke and mirrors,
Such a fun house of perils
Optical illusions of what is and isn't there
The reflection you see is not me
And you are nothing like what you portray to be
But in this house its all a game
Cause alls fair in love, lust, war, and pain
So we do it over and over and over again

----------------------------

T.ea

Fond of T.ea
Yes. Yes I am.
A welcomed change from coffe.
A subsitute ?
Not hardly.
But T.ea, HE stands alone.
Full body and grown.
So I sip him slow.
Still I singe my tongue,
Till I feel its numb.
And I've over indulged.
So I've had enough.
The T.eas gone cold.

Hows your Appetite ? Pt. 1

2011-09-18T21:22:00.000-07:00

Everyday.
Twice a day.
Two plus rounds.
About an hour.
Sounds right to me.
No ? Yes.

Im talking about sex. Im having a hard time understanding what a healthy sexual appetite is. Is it subjective to the person ? Or is there a regime fit for anyone ? Is there such thing as too much sex ? Or should we take every chance we get ?
At times Ive though maybe im a glutton in lust. More then normal. Times when I cant get it, like say my lover is out of town, I go MAD. Like a drug withdrawal I cant think, function. I constantly think about when I might be able to get it again. Plotting and planning. This conflicts with my non-whorish ways.

Ive gone through two long bouts of celibacy because I am extremely picky about who I sleep with. This time around I was celibate over two years. After moving to New York though I couldnt take it anymore. There was this boy I had been talking to for awhile. We'd gone out a few times. He was attractive. Relatively nice. So after a late night out.. I went home with him. We had sex it was good. I couldnt complain. But, in just a short amount of time i could tell. I was hooked again. Its never necessarily the man that is the drug as much as the sex itself. It took no time to fall back into old habits; wanting to go to sleep and wake up to dick. Only issue is..

This time I fear the guy is not as enthused with sex as I am. I enjoy all parts of sex. From the mental to physical stimulation. To fourplay and oral. To actual sex. Its a whole experience. An experience I cant seem to get enough of. I think Im waiting for that full fulfillment with him. To wake up sore and tender. That pleasure is pain. The what Ive had before. The what I am use to. And in the search Ive put up with someone who had I met out on the street I may of never gotten past two dates. But having communicated for so long there was a sense of comfort I fell into. As I must always find a sense of comfort to even open my body to someone. But this has landed me in a sticky situation. I dont want a relationship but I want the sexual perks that come with one.

I think I can officially say I may not know what a Healthy Sexual Appetite is, but I can be sure my appetite is type Gluttonous.

Let me break it down..

2011-09-18T21:21:00.000-07:00

The other day i was tweeting talking about how i dont fall for guys offers of gifts & etc because i know nothing is free, and i cant be bought. In so many words. My ex retweeted this tweet and thus we began a debate. Now as much as i hate how most females think and conduct themselves these days, I also understand that they are products of their environment. An environment created, molded and basically controlled by men.

With that being, the state our society is in it becomes real easy for one to slip through the cracks these days. Ever since I can remember media has sexualized women from their portrayal in videos and movies, to the mold female entertainers are pushed into to be " sexy. " So although I don't agree with the way females act I know many never had a chance at developing any other kind of mentality.
Most families these days are ran by single mothers to multiple children, often working more then one job. Other times the mother is a broken woman herself looking for love in all the wrong places and exposing her children to a life on inconsistency. Either way, a larger majority of kids will be brought up in a type dysfunctional home. Be it the mother who had to work so much that the TV and streets raised her children. Or the mother who was more worried about her own happiness.
Say even a two parent home. Still often more then not there will be problems of some type. The father that comes and goes. The parent thats hooked on drugs. Two parents with no time. No matter the situation most kids these days are being raised by what they see on tv, learn in school ( educational and socially )), and from their surrounding community. With a touch of their parents influence.
To top this off the TV and community raising them is not exactly the best substitute. These kids often live in lower class neighborhoods attending schools with little to no funding, thus halting their chance at a decent education. Then with teachers that care more about your attendance then what you are actually taking from your time spent in class, even less chance at a secondary education. They then go out and roam the streets, malls, friends houses, etc. caring less about their studies and often more about boys. (( getting back to my issue about the girls ))

Before they even hit their teen years they are running around with boyfriends, looking for a male to be a constant in their life. But finding that in a boy that most likely never had a positive male role model is not likely. So instead they float around looking for love in all the wrong places. Being hurt over and over again but still seeking that sense of love and security.
I know first hand this can all be overcame but its not something easy for one to do without some type of positive reinforcement in their lives. So when i see these chicks that give the female sex a bad name i get mad, but i also feel sad for most because they never had a chance statistically. They are just products of their environment, the environment that men created and shaped. Where they believe they should have the nice things provided by a rich man like the girls they see on tv. Im not saying its an excuse for their behavior, but it should give you a glimpse in between the lines so maybe you can understand their cries more.

Party with the BrooklynKings !!

2011-09-18T21:14:00.000-07:00

Come party with the Kings..

If you missed the premier party earlier this summer you DO NOT WANT TO MISS the first party to welcome in the fall season..

We're sweatin out Weaves, Perms, & Panties!!!
...Saturday October 1, 2011...
@ Visions Lounge
752 Coney Island Ave,
Brooklyn, NY 11226

Ladies $5, Fellas $10
B4 12:30-More After...
21+ I.D. is a MUST!

Dress Code: Chic Casual
***No Hats, Durags, Hoodies, Baggy Clothes, No Boots!***

Dj Brooklyn Blaze, Dj Dexstar, Selecta Cue & Dj Pretty Nyce on the 1's & 2's!

ALL Beers 5 for $20
Mixed Drinks $6-$10
$2 Tequila shots (bottom of EVERY hour)

******BOTTLE SPECIALS******
Hennessy-$140 (10-12 More after)
Grey Goose-$140 (10-12 More after)
Ciroc-$150
Nuvo-$90
Moet-$90
******ROSE-$130 ALL NIGHT******

For more info:
G (347) 296-9833
Doughboi (347) 875-0747
Black Fever (347) 755-9491
Dj Brooklyn Blaze (917) 567-2334

Facebook.com/BrooklynKingsInc
Twitter: @BklynKings
www.BrooklynKingsInc.com

4.. Bey reigns.

2011-06-29T09:42:00.000-07:00

The QUEEN..

Uhemm..

I mean..

KING !

Is back.

Who said this B wouldnt sting ?

I won't bother giving my opinion because as listened my thoughts have gone through an emotional rollercoaster. I love Bey, and all she does so I appreciate her trying new things. New sounds. New looks. So all will say is.. Bey Reigns. Now EAT CAKE envious ones.

I advise everyone pick up the Target Deluxe Edition. I mean extra songs and remixes. Why not ?

Mean Shoe Monday : BRIGHTS !

2011-06-27T13:59:00.000-07:00

Mean Shoe Monday !! with all the fashion weeks approaching we will be having plenty of shoes to feature but being that it is OFFICIALLY summer sticking with some shoes that are MUSTS for the hot weather. HOT COLORS !

Messeca - Coraline

Heel: 5"
Platform: 1.25"

@SoleStruck

$169.95

Senso - Agnes

Heel: 5.5"
Platform: 1.25"

@SoleStruck
$174.95

Idore- Baha

Heel: 5.5"
Platform: 1.5"

@Nuvoshoes

$79.99

REAL Relationships

2011-06-17T19:37:00.000-07:00

At the age of 23. With all the boys I been thru. I still feel as tho I've never had a REAL relationship. A few I gave titles to. A few I let claim me. Dated many. And played a few. But at the end of the day, none of it was REAL. Serious. The love was pure and innocent and I won't take that away from them, but we treated each other so awfully. Like saying we were a " couple " was just a word. Because we had EVERY intention of carrying on exactly as we were before the titles were placed. That's why I say it wasn't REAL. We were not ready to be in relationships. We were just gluttons of Lust. Having fun. Learning and Experiencing one another. Young Love.

But now I find that a part of me no longer desires to play the field. Waste my time and energy getting to know someone, to become comfortable with them, just to leave and move on and start over with the next.

In our youth it makes sense. It helps us learn people. Come into our own by sharing our life temporarily with another. Like all those teenaged boys and young men you dated were helping you make your list of what you want, and do not want in a man. The man you may spend your life with.
But now, in our twenties, we look for solid relationships. They may not always work out, and that's when we face REAL Heartbreak, but that's because we truly let ourselves fall into the relationship. No longer thinking as a singular, but as a duo. So to have that fall apart is losing a piece of you. Knowing you must start all over with another is reason to feel emotional pain. Nobody likes to lose. And in maturity you know replacing the void with a fill in aka " a rebound " just won't make you forget the years you invested.

This is the point I am reaching.

And it has me bewildered. Because even as a teen relationships scared me. To this day I won't call either of my Exs an " ex-boyfriend ". Just Exs. And to start yearning for that security. Scares me. I have no idea how to obtain it. And if I did. How long it would interest me ? I avoid relationship, to avoid breaking hearts. I've broken hearts without titles. I'd hate to add more to my collection.

Still at the age 23 I want to know that feeling. What is it like to share your world with another and take into consideration their needs as much as your own.
I'm not looking for forever just yet. But I'm ready for the lessons of love.
REAL Relationships.

Confessions of a..

2011-06-17T19:34:00.000-07:00

Of a Head Whore..

I was 17 all of 2 months. With a 21 ID. In College. What a combination. I had a very pretty persian friend. 19. With a 22 ID. Who lived in the condos by the water of Emeryville. With friends. Friends who liked to party. So party, we did.

Ever drove a bmw to school at 8 am after a night of drinks on drinks to try and make it to your class and your friends test ? With no Ls. Shaking. My. Head.

This, this night is where my confessions begin. My ex. My first. At the time, my only. We had split. And so in a time of masking sorrow I took to other guys. But NEVER have I been the type to sleep around. Let me say that first. But I a seducer I am by nature. Flirting is just in my ways. Its not intentional, but I understand how my approach can be deemed " flirtatious ". I. Fuck. Minds..

And in fucking those minds.. I find the guys desire the idea of fucking me. I say " the idea " because they often can not handle all that comes with the sexing. Still just thee idea of getting that opportunity to dip inside will have a guy acting outside his nature.

Maybe this doesn't apply to all ladies, but then again most of you ladies are giving it up after introductions and a date. Sooo guess you'd never know how far a guy is willing to go for the goods. BUT that's another for another time..

Back to the topic. Thee IDEA of being able to say " I hit that " I've often realized will have a guy offering to do things that he hopes get him in your good graces. Like he's trying to appeal to you. By showing he can provide food, shelter, security, laughs, luxuries, etc. Waiting to see which of these things sets you off. Opens that door. And ONE thing I've noticed is offered above anything else is..

Head. Oral. Cunninglingus.

With all that said. I mean to say..

" This, this night is where my confessions begin.. "

After classes were done on a thursday I left with my girl " N " and we went to oakland to meet up with some of her friends. Smoke. Chill. And then hit up Dave and Busters. Now being thursday Dave and Buster was grown and sexy crowded. Our gentlemen friends kept drinks in our hands (( back when I could drink like a rockstar ! )) And we was walking around too hot too trot in our heels to boot ! And of course after the party.. Its thee After Party.
So back to the homies house we go. Let me break down the dynamic.. .. N knows K and his boy M. Both are mid twenties, better side of 24.. Well aware of my illegal activity status. Yet M.. He's feeling me. So we all go chill. He's getting fresh, whispering how sexy I am, how I carry myself, how he just wants to kiss me.. He keeps saying this. He just wants to kiss me. After a solid 30 minutes of this I, in my saucy mode say " You keep saying it, but I'm here, and your not ".. His reply was simply " Your pants are on "

(( Bbm Surprised Face ))

See, I had no clue when he said kiss me he meant.. Well it reminds me of Cruel Intentions, Ryan Phillippe to Selma Blair " Not there.. There. "

Of course I declined, blushing. Went into my spiel about how I'm not that type, I don't dick hop after a few drinks and blunts etc and so forth in my long winded manner. Yet still he pushed the proposition. Then we decided to watch a movie. 2 and 2. A cover for each pair and well..

With out going into detail he convinced me to give him a taste. And I was turned out.

Other guys had thrown the offer out but never face to face so I figured it to be a tactic in trying to get the goods. And I suppose he was no different BUT he was true to his offer. No funny business.

I came to soon find out quiet a few guys were. Yes, they did in hopes ill let em creep inside BUT they dine, they are denied, and they go about their way. All to try it again in the near future. Realizing this I indulged.
I had an option at any given time any day of the week. Some guys I dated, others I seen once maybe twice thru mutual partying and sat on their face and didn't even give up a number. Any way you want to look at it. At the age of 18 and months of celibacy and face hopping I.. Was a Head Whore.

" This, this night is where my confessions begin.. "

Sincerely,

A semi reformed Head Whore

MeanShoeMonday: FINDS !

2011-06-13T17:03:00.000-07:00

Happy Mean Shoe Monday !!

Jeffrey Campbell: ZUP

Heel: 6"

Platform: 1.75"

Black|White

@ SoleStruck

$189.95

Yes. It is on..

2011-06-08T15:05:00.000-07:00

My boy is throwing his FIRST party and YOU do NOT want to MISS this.. bring in the SUMMER right..

Brooklyn Kings INC. presents
"A Summer Fling"

Celebrating Lentz's Graduation & G's Birthday

...Saturday June 11, 2011...
@ Visions Lounge
752 Coney Island Ave,
Brooklyn, NY 11226
(Corner of Cortelyou Rd)

Ladies $5 b4 12am
Gents $10-More after!
21+ I.D. is a MUST!
Ladies: Chic Casual<< DON'T make me have to put any of you on bl
st ! Come out and SHOW UP !
Men: No Hats, Durags (( I swear to gawd )), No Boots! << MEN please be up to par.
" Love a mean SHOE Game "

Dj Brooklyn Blaze, Dj Pretty Nyce, Dj New Era, Dj Dexstar & Dj Yung Hova on the 1's & 2's

ALL Beers 5 for $20
Mixed Drinks $6-$10
$2 Tequila shots (10pm-12pm)
Listen for shot announcements
throughout the night!

******DRINKS OF THE NIGHT******
One Night Stand-$9
Under The Stars-$9

******BOTTLE SPECIALS******
Hennessy-$140 (10-12 More after)
Grey Goose-$140 (10-12 More after)
Ciroc-$150
Nuvo-$90
Moet-$90

******MOET ROSE-$130 ALL NIGHT******

For more info:
G (347) 296-9833
doughBOI (347) 875-0747 Pin:26A08FAE
Dj Brooklyn Blaze (917) 567-2334

For your Music Monday: Like my STYLE !

2011-05-24T10:39:00.000-07:00

The latest from Evenodds.. MADE #MusicMonday

The new video

" Like My Style "

(( click to download))

NOW you know i am just to estatic for so many reasons..

1. I love my boys. Period.

2. they said STYLE ! (( #deathtoswag ))

3. They representing for the Bay Area out the heartland of Frisco.. Putting markers on the map.

4. And they do so with TRUE TALENT.

NEW VIDEO: Like My Style

Off " The Revision " Available July 12th

And do i see some @sheluxecouture earrings in there. i think i do.

@BlackScale ? Yes, im with it.

Yes. Style is oh so OFFICIAL. like Bizness.

@EvenoddsMusic

@MoneyAlwayz

@DEO415

http://itunes.com/evenodds
http://twitter.com/evenoddsmusic
http://facebook.com/evenoddsmusic
http://itsmyurls.com/evenodds

Directed and Edited by Bruno WatsDP: Mecky Creus
Produced by Power House Films
Executive Produced by EVENODDS/Official Bizness Ent. LLC
ALL CITY APPROVED!!!

Mean Shoe Monday: Color, Color, Color..

2011-05-23T15:27:00.000-07:00

Another MSM, another installment of SHOES !

ENJOY..

COLORS, colors, COLORS..

Bonnibel - Penny

Heel: 6"
Platform: 1.5"

@Shoeocean

$29.99

Anne Michelle - Caliente

Heel: 5.5"
Platform: 1.5"

@Shoeocean

$29.99

Breckelles - Rebeca

Heel: 5"
Platform: 1.5"

@Shoeocean

$24.99

Bonnibel - Queenie

Heel: 5"
Platform: 1.5"

@Shoeocean

$29.99

Times in the Village..

2011-05-22T20:24:00.000-07:00

So me and my NY fave (( Le Artiste )) went out for a day in the Village yesterday. Tea and then Hookah..

MacDougal..

He frequents the Hookah bar apparently because the hostess came over to complain about how the guys she worked with threw away a booklet my Fave had drawn all over. (( Hes an AMAZE artist )) So she insisted that he draw something else.

We had spent the whole time drinking tea and smoking Hookah and doodling and writing in one of his little books.

She asked for me to direct his drawing and said i must write something as well. So we took in the decorations and atmosphere and fell into our seperate worlds.

Creating a piece of art that i can only hope she will cherish. As original pieces from the two of us.

Shades low in a haze of smoke.. No matter the beat. She moves. He draws.

Shades low. Hoops brush her shoulders orbs like a globe. They. There. In a world their own. In a haze of smoke.

Pineapple. Laughs. As the patrons look on.

Tea. Tea. Tea. Tea. The leaves settle in the bottom of glasses. Then monsooned with each sip.

Shades low. Memories are made.

In a haze of smoke.

Pieces of me: Confession of Sabotage

2011-05-22T00:22:00.000-07:00

He said " so I decided to read your blog, and found out your in love "

And it was so easy to say " I'm not in love.. Writings are exaggerations of one feeling.. "

And I did not lie.
I was in love.. I still love..
But..

" I am loyal by nature.. And just as vindictive "

I don't let people in easily.. So once they have a SOLID place in my life its love, it becomes a spot born for them so if they no longer fill it then I have a void that noone else can take place in. So unless I just remove that whole position, then I stay loyal by my circles contents. It has to be something utterly disrespectful to really get to me. After all they don't earn their spot in my life easily. And its rare I have to cut someone out. And if I must then I will be vengeful. So.. In this case I have fallen out of love. But I still love. Hard. Unconditionally. As love should be.

But the thing is.. When I was woken up by the vibrations of my phone to see that for a second.. I was worried.

Not that I had been found out. Because I was hiding nothing. But worried of the thoughts running through his mind, the new opinions he was forming about me, the fact that I may of put myself in a compromising position. Further spreading the gap. See..

I'm indecisive. So I often self sabotage myself by trying to control what something will be before it even starts. I sit and sit for a while figuring out what role this person should play before I see what role they might fit. And I work out how it will go, and once my mind is set, I stick by it. Till I start to doubt myself, thinking may be more invested then agreed to (( Making my whole time of pondering null and void )) Something puts a shift in the design I see in my head. An element not meant to be introduced has been. Now to blend it in.
My ways. They are a cycle.. At times it works. At times it doesn't. But I guess it weeds out the tough ones. The ones who can handle. And thus enter the close knit circle. I got issues. Admittedly. Unapologetically. Openly.

Touch..

2011-05-21T09:20:00.000-07:00

Browsing through some old pieces i had written i came across this. I wrote this when i was 18 years old. 5 years ago. And stands true to this day if it ever did..

It begins with a Touch.

Always with a Touch.

Be it the accidental brushing of shoulders when you meet at a party. Or a arm around your waist when your walking to dinner. A hand on your cheek.

What is it about skin to skin contact that can drive a female mad ???

What makes us crave it???

Go thru withdrawals even....

But then I look at some of my girls and when one man steps out they let another one in. So maybe with me its more then sex itself. Its the connection with the person. If I felt nothing but physical pleasure I might be able to move on to the next just as easily. If I slept wit every male that tried me I might be able to hop around. But i look for that deeper meaning.

For some its the being able to let loose. Others, they like the comfort. Some its because society says its how things go. With me, its because I love the looks on his face. The smell he leaves behind. The world we go to wen he just Touches me. How its like im the best in this moment and hes the best in his, like there was no one before him and no one before me. Like everything else was irrelevant. How hours pass like minutes under his Touch. The inside of my right thigh quivers at the thought of his Touch. Whether we laid up or fighting I want his Touch. Its like a Drug. And although i can go without it and not try replacements. The withdrawals are purely mental. I cant let it go. And first chance I have to get some more im going to. Its crazy how a man can make a female act.

If he apologizes and he's holding your hand, hugging you, stroke your cheek, run his fingers through your hair, kissing your forehead, cheek, lips, burying his nose in your neck smelling you. Trying to keep you from leaving. Trying to ask for you to stay. To ask for forgiveness. To make up for a mistake.

If time has passed and his fingers long for the silkiness that is your skin to grace their tips. Just to place his hand on your thigh. To rub the small of your back. Rest his head on your lap. And feel the comfort of your presence.

A Touch can do so much.

That's why when you Touch there should be an exchange of energies, a spark, a release of endorphines, dopamine, something that makes you sigh. Smile. Feel warm. Feel hot. Think a million thoughts all at one time.

Now you may not be in Love...you may not Love this person at all...but for some reason you were meant to find this person and make this connection because it was natural. If you had tried to run you couldn't of. Its like magnets and metal, the attraction is that strong. Doesn't mean your here for forever, but it allows you to enjoy now. So if there is no tomorrow all you have is fond memories no worries.

Although you will miss this Touch. Like I said before first chance you get to have it back you will be there. You also are just happy to know it exist and since you came together before, you will again. Magnet to metal. So you don't stress it. Though you miss it, and it holds you back from settling for an casual physical exchange. You still wait it out. Till the one is back or a new Touch is taking you to that level. A level you have yet to explore. Allowing you to reach a new place of yourself.

Every Touch should leave an lasting impression and introduce you to a new you. Teach you. Change you. Sometimes hurt you.

Mean Shoe Monday: Etsy finds

2011-05-16T19:29:00.000-07:00

Another Monday, Another Shoe..

But this Monday I bring you a new obsession..

Studio Jellyfish Shoes on Etsy.com

Im just choking out of air, so hung up on these hand painted killers..

Perfect for summer with its bright colors and highest heels.

In two words.. Pop. Art.

Blueberry Babe

Heel: 5.75"
Platform: 1.75"

>$229

Spiked Comic Heel

Heel: 5"
Platform: 1"

$429 <

Pin Up Girl Heel

Heel: 5.75"
Platform: 1.75"

> $229

Stiletto Sarah

Heel: 5"
Platform: 1"

$329 <

Zombie Shoes

Heel: 6"
Platform: 2"

>$229

Bang and Zwosh Comic Heels

Heel: 5"
Platform: 1"

$229 <

Ranging from $130 - $430

with a heel hight for ever heel lover (( uhemmm 5+ on mines))

And I shun the ~~Kitten Heel~~ (( like the plague ))

Hailing out of Miami

Take a gander..

Buy Below..

Studio JellyFish Shoes @Etsy.com

Money Mondays with M.A.

2011-05-16T11:22:00.000-07:00

Money Alwayz has been gracious enough to release another FREE track featured on his website for download this MONEY MONDAYS..

" From The Soul "

Written and Produced by Money Alwayz himself
Recorded by D.E.O. @ Official Bizness Studios

Dedicated to the fallen.. those whom have passed beyond..

And to inspire us who are still here..

" Measure me not by what i have, but what i know "

So dont just HEAR him, LISTEN to him..

Download " From The Soul " Here

and stay tuned to EvenOdds for " The Revision " coming July 12th..

#MeanShoeMonday: High Rise

2011-05-09T12:36:00.000-07:00

Mean Shoe Monday

High Rise Edition

Daisy

Heel: 6 1/8”
Platform: 2 3/8”
Suede

@ Bakers Shoes $95

Shazzam

Heel: 5.5 "
Platform: 2.5"
Cheetah

@ Steve Madden
$149.95

Kay

Heel: 5.5"
Platform: 1.75"
Various Colors|Suede

@ Bakers Shoes

$59.99 Right NOW !

DREAM SHOE

Shoe Gawd..

Christian Louboutin

Python Sueded Bootie

Heel: 6.5"

Platform: 2"

Siganture Red Bottoms

@ Bergdorf Goodmans

$1,395

Pieces of Me.. Confession..

2011-05-04T08:47:00.000-07:00

.. I am that stupid girl. The foolish girl. The girl so blind. See, there's this guy, and well uhmm.. I love him. But he's hurt me. I admit it. The one who never gets attached slipped up again. But the things is.. We've been at this for years. This is no rushed assumed love. I never wanted to even start this up. He was persistent. He's a Sagittarius, like me. We got to have what we want. I, wanted no part in it.. Still a friendship budded. Who doesn't like a Sagittarius ? 3 months.. It took me 3 months to kiss him. After a club.. Hazed.. All night.. Still, I wanted no part in it. But he wanted what he wanted. I tried, I tried I swear I did.. But the game presented itself and well.. I Anted Up. In those teen years it was fun to me. To see how infatuated a guy could become with out ever getting the goods, not that I was a virgin. But I am extremely picky. Yet with him the game became non existent.. Here we are at 6 months. I gave him what he wanted. Or what I assumed. And you know typically when we want something when we get it we love it, can't get over it, and then we are done. A year now.. We are apart, but like best friends. Two years now.. We are together. Its real now. Because I admit it. And like that ((snap)) we part ways. Again. This time its tougher. Much. Three years now.. Stubbornness, we are so stubborn. It could all be so simple. And yes we make it hard. If only he had asked me. If. Four years now.. He makes me sick. My loyalties are true though. I enabled this as much as anyone. We were so young, too young to be serious. I.. I am not to be caged. No ties, no restrictions. And then, could not balance. He.. He was a boy. With cake. And he ate. But now, he's sick. As it happens when your a glutton in lust. We were too young to appreciate one another. I realize our mistake before him, I tried to mend it. Be available. But no.. I got a slap to the face. Yet still. Five years now. My how we have grown. So much history. And tho I am full of resentment and vengeance.. I love him.

He makes me mad, sad, happy, laugh, cry, bite, scratch, sick, high, open, and comfortable. So its hard to let go. I sit and constantly think about whether this is all in vain. But a voice in my head so familiar says " tell me first that no matter what well always be friends ".. He said yes. Its only right I keep my word. Tho I can't even fool myself into being just his friend. As of now, we can be nothing more. Finding guys is far from the problem. In fact its almost too easy. Ones of substance are rare tho. I appreciate them most. And show them mutual respect. So I carry on with others.. I even dare to like a few. But, at the end of the day.. I love him.

Yes. I am that stupid girl. The foolish girl.

But maybe one day I will learn the lesson.

" Non est ad astra mollis e terris via "