Vivacious world of mine...

Sometimes...

2011-08-20T04:32:00.000-07:00

There r things that we dont want to happen

but have to accept,

things we dont want to know

but have to learn,

people we can't live without

but have to them let go....

Rain and me…

2011-06-30T15:36:00.000-07:00

It is raining here. I love rains, but they make me to think. So I am sitting here. Wondering. Thinking about what has been, about what will be, not about what is. I can’t change the past, I can’t control the future, Not now I can change the present, Today, and the day after.

It is raining here. You can get outside. Get yourself totally soaked and dance in the rain. You can be happy for a moment, for an hour, for a day. Then you get back to reality. Reality makes you think. Reality makes you choose. And for every choice there is a price. I don’t want to pay the price now. I am not ready. How can you be ready to make decisions when you don’t know the outcome? How can you hope, strive, expect, wonder, smile when you might be wrong, when you might lose, when you might be left with nothing.

It is raining here. I love rains, don’t you? They make you happy, they give powers, but they also make you go all nostalgic. And they make you think. Oh, I said it already. Yes, they make you think. About the past. About the future. About decisions. You got to make them one day. And you are left with nothing but the hope. The hope that you did everything right. It’s not until months later, looking back, that you realize how much better you could have done. It is only then you realize that you had to take another decision but now… Now it is raining. And I am thinking. Aren’t you?

Tomorrow there will be a new day. And yes, I will live it fully, completely, happy. I might be a little bruised, a bit broken. I do have my own scars. They do not heal. They do ache. They hurt every day. They make me strong. But…

It is raining here. The rain washes the pain away. It makes the wounds clean. It makes me wake up again. Every morning. I might be confused and lost but I am here. I am fighting. I am living. I am learning to be happy.

Yesterday. Today. Tomorrow...

Being Strong...

2011-06-26T11:26:00.000-07:00

Once I was there with my friends just talking about some random stuff…..then suddenly the topic came…what is meant by “BEING STRONG”…..!!!

What makes one strong..?? who can be called as strong…?? I think "Being Strong" is a very relative term. I know many people who have faced certain situations in such a manner that when I even think of keeping myself in their shoes, I shiver. I don't think I can ever be as brave as them if I were to face it…

If smiling even when you are deep in shit is being strong, if controlling your true emotions is being strong then I am sorry. I don't want to be one. Those who are labeled as "strong" may agree with me that it is not something to be proud of. It's the weakest trait of a person, the worst one you can ever imagine.

People who can show their emotions are much better than those keeping a strong front all the time. Sometimes, you just need to express your true feelings. It can save you from many miseries that come your way in the future. It's fine to cry when you are feeling low. It's normal to accept that you lost than stand there and fight the lost battle !!

No, I am not strong! I am a mere mortal like you. I don't like the tag of being so amazing at facing situations. I break down too at the end of the day, if not at that moment or in front of others. And I don't recover out of it just like you. It is all the more worse for me as my emotions stay buried inside me. It makes me weaker than most of you. My life is full of pessimism too, and it is a permanent state unlike yours as there is no way my emotions come out! It's a storage bag that has only fill option……!!!!

2011-04-16T12:32:00.003-07:00

An Ordinary Girl….(may be just next to u…)

An ordinary girl….her beliefs, her love, her strengths….no one can ever empathize…

♥She smiles when she gets hurt….

♥She laughs when she is in intense pain…

♥She even laughs harder to hide her pain….

♥She can cry a lot more than anyone can think she can…

♥She get attached to people who care even a little about her…

♥She says itz a long story when itz not really that long…

♥Sometimes she don’t get what she really deserves, still put a smile on her face with a bogus feeling of satisfaction…just to make others happy….just to see them smiling…

♥She is not so strong as her smile seems to be….

♥She loves to be pampered like a small baby….

♥She wants that somebody love her more than her expectations…

♥She is the ceaseless source of love and happiness….

♥When she love someone , she loves him with all her heart and no one in the entire world can love that someone more than her…

♥She is pure , she is endearing….

♥She loves unconditionally….but there is only one thing wrong with her that sometimes she forgets WHAT SHE WORTH….

Will u Remember....

2010-12-08T04:23:00.000-08:00

Will you remember me, whenever it will rain,

coz, ..the cool breeze brushing past my hairs

reminds me of ur fingers running thru

the smell of rains....reminds me ur breath

the pattering of droplets....reminds me ur giggle

these dark clouds ..r like ur hair upon ma face

is it rains .....or is it u?

or it came to unite us again,

to drench me in dat luv again,

to miss u again

and feel dat pain

will you remember me, whenever it will rain........???

p.s. : these lines are written by one of my friend...who want to put these lines
   in my blog. he wrote this when once it was raining beautifully,these
   thoughts came to his mind...nd he scribe it on paper....luv dese lines and
   very close to my heart....

I'll always love u...

2010-12-02T04:33:00.000-08:00

Nothing that I do, is felt by you.

The thought of you in everything I do, now seems so pointless.

The way you used smile at me, only leaves me with a sigh.

Life is so meaningless without you by my side.

I will always remember...

The day you walked away, without anything to say.

I felt the enormous pain inside.

So here I have something to say,

that I still love you even now,and forever....

2010-11-04T11:43:00.000-07:00

I WILL WAIT FOR THE DAY.....

I will wait for the day….

When you will be with me,

Breaking all the boundations,

You will walk with me…….

I will wait for the day….

When you will talk to me,

Like I am only yours,

And you are only mine…..

I will wait for the day….

When you forgetting everything

Will throw your hands open

And dance in the rain….

I will wait for the day….

When you will feel jealous,

If I will flirt with others,

And you will pull my ear…..

I will wait for the day….

When you will not hide your love,

When you will tell the world,

That you really LOVE me….

I will wait for the day…..

When you will enjoy the summer,

The spring,winter and the autumn,

Love will be around us, just ME and YOU and LOVE…..

p.s. : this one is not written by me.
   bt still very close to my heart.
   this is written by one of my
   senior... in my blog this is
   dedicated to him only.....

The Little Things You Do Mean The Most =)

2010-08-28T04:08:00.000-07:00

♥ Hold my hands when we walk together

♥ Kiss my forehead

♥ Kiss my hand [as if I were a princess]

♥ Call me to say "Good night, I love you" before I go to bed, every single night

♥ Greet me good morning

♥ Assigned my number a special ringtone so you know it is ME who calls :D

♥ Make my e-mail a priority

♥ Put me on your top friends [well I asked you too, hee hee]

♥ Tell me those 3 words with looking in my eyes so I know you mean it =)

♥ Sing to me [even though you only sings like 2 lines of the song, it's more than enough, doesn't matter how aweful u sounds..]

♥ Mark our anniversary on his calendar

♥ I told him I like his shirt, and he wears it often

♥ Keep "Love Story" on his ipod because I can never get enough hearing that song

♥ Ask me to study [ha ha ha]

...and a lot more ♥

"The best boyfriend isn't the best looking, the funniest, or the richest. It's the one that makes you feel important, special, spoiled and beautiful. He makes sure you know he loves you"

My to-do List…(sumthing different, bt itz mine)

2010-08-21T15:08:00.000-07:00

My to-do List….

U people were thinking, y m sharing my to-do list with u all, but this list is not like a simple list of ones…

It something different because its mine. Ever since i was a kid, i have been a day dreamer. I always dreamt of things I wanted , things I wanted to do or things Iwant others to do for me...but never find out time to pen down those things but near about 1 nd a half years ago I watched a movie of Vinay Pathak, named
“DASVIDANIYAN” (derived from the Russian phrase do svidaniya, meaning “good bye)”.In this movie Shy Amar Kaul(Vinay Pathak) lives a nondecript life with people oblivious to his existence. One day his doctor tells him that he will die within three months. Realising that his time is limited, Amar makes a list of things he wants to do during his life, and sets out to do them. After watching this movie, I thought I should also mention my things to-do list, a list I wanted to do in my life, so that I can identify them, and can meet someday.

Anyways today I m gonna show u some of the dreams of my this list or u can say my dream list… plz come nd have a look…

♥ Get a job that not only pays well but I also love.

♥ Travel to 4 other countries other than India.

♥ Live in another country for atleast an year.

♥ Learn Guitar.

♥ Work for or open a charity organization of my own.

♥ Write a song.

♥ Get one of my works published.

♥ Visit as many places as possible.

♥ Go to the Eiffel Tower.

♥ To make a difference in someone’s life.

♥ Donate my eyes.

♥ Learn skating.

♥ Wanna sing my favourite song in public once.

♥ Own a house of my dreams and do the interiors myself.

♥ To have my own car.

♥ Kiss in the rain to someone I love.

♥ Travel in a ship.

♥ Go for trekking in Himalyas.

♥ Learn French(I dunno why I jst want to..)

This is all I can think of now…

Bavra Mann...

2010-08-14T06:19:00.000-07:00

Bavra Mann Dekhne Chala Ek Sapna

Bavre Se Mann, Ki Dekho Bavri Hain Baatein

Bavri Se Dhadkaane Hain, Bavri Hain Saansen

Bavri Si Karwaton Se, Nindiya Door Bhaage

Bavre Se Nain Chaahe, Bavre Jharokhon Se, Bavre Nazaron Ko Takna.

Bavra Mann Dekhne Chala Ek Sapna

Bavre Se Is Jahan Main Bavra Ek Saath Ho

Is Sayani Bheed Main Bas Haathon Mein Tera Haath Ho

Bavri Si Dhun Ho Koi, Bavra Ek Raag Ho

Bavre Se Pair Chahen, Baavron Tarano Ke, Bavre Se Bol Pe Thirakna.

Bavra Mann, Dekhne Chala Ek Sapna

Bavra Sa Ho Andhera, Bavri Khamoshiyan

Thartharati Low Ho Maddham, Bavri Madhoshiyan

Bavra Ek Ghooghta Chahe, Haule Haule Bin Bataye, Bavre Se Mukhde Se Sarakana,

Bavra Mann, Dekhne Chala Ek Sapna.....

I LUV U MEANS.....

2010-08-14T05:59:00.000-07:00

I love you' means that I accept you for the person that you are, and that I do not wish to change you into someone else.

It means that I do not expect perfection from you, just as you do not expect it from me.

It means that I will love you and stand by you even through the worst of times.

It means loving you when you're in a bad mood or too tired to do the things I want to do.

It means loving you when you're down, not just when you're fun to be with.

'I love you' means that I know your deepest secrets and do not judge you for them, asking in return only that you do not judge me for mine.

It means that I care enough to fight for what we have and that I love enough not to let go.

It means thinking of you, dreaming of you, wanting and needing you constantly, hoping that you feel the same way for me....

Words.. that i can't find...!!!

2010-07-23T12:31:00.000-07:00

How do I say what I think about you
Words to describe your beauty are too few
Kisses from your lips I would forever steal
Mere words can not say what I feel How do I say what I feel in my heart
I dream of holding you in the dark I dream of loving you in the day
I search deeply to find the words to say

How do I say what I dream in the night
Dreams so real, I feel you holding me tight
Close my eyes and drift away in sleep
Your sweet kiss I taste in my dream so deep

How do I say what I want you to hear
My arms would hold you forever near
You are truly beautiful, I want you to know
I want to embrace you and never let go
How do I say the words I cannot find
How do I say all the things in my mind
How do I say when the words are too few
How do I say how much I truly love you...................

Only Feelings That Matters...

2010-07-21T09:29:00.001-07:00

Wat a Green field feels seeing rainy clouds?

Wat a CHILD feels lukin at itz MOTHER just after birth?

Wat a SIS feels wen her BRO says sorry for his mistake?

Wat a GIRL feels wen her BF holds her hand tight on a pleasant winter nite walk?

Wat a FATHER feels wen his SON hugs him n say i love u dad?

Wat a FRND feels wen after a huge fight his frnd msgs "need u yaar"?

Words can't define but itz only Luv dat connects us all....

IKTARA..!!

2010-07-21T06:44:00.000-07:00

gunsa sa hai...

Orey manva tu to bavra hai
Tu hi jaane tu kya sochta hai
Tu hi jaane tu kya sochta hai bavre
Kyun dikhaye sapne tu sote jaagte

Jo barse sapne boond boond
Nainon ko moond moond
(Nainon ko moond moond)
Jo barse sapne boond boond
Nainon ko moond moond
Kaise main chaloon, dekh na sakoon
Anjaane raastein

(chorous)
Gunjasa hai koi iktara iktara, gunjasa hai koi iktara
Gunjasa hai koi iktara iktara, gunjasa hai koi iktara
Dheeme bole koi iktara iktara, dheeme bole koi iktara
Gunjasa hai koi iktara iktara, gunjasa hai koi iktara

Sun rahi hoon sudh budh khoke koi main kahani
Poori kahani hai kya kise hai pata
Main to kisiki hoke yeh bhi na jaani
Ruth hai ye do pal ki ya rehgi sada
(kise hai pata… kise hai pata)

Jo barse sapne boond boond
Nainon ko moond moond
(Nainon ko moond moond)
Jo barse sapne boond boond
Nainon ko moond moond
Kaise main chaloon, dekh na sakoon
Anjaane raastein

Gunjasa hai koi iktara iktara, gunjasa hai koi iktara
Gunjasa hai koi iktara iktara, gunjasa hai koi iktara
Dheeme bole koi iktara iktara, dheeme bole koi iktara
Gunjasa hai koi iktara iktara, gunjasa hai koi iktara

Have U Ever...!!!!

2010-07-21T04:59:00.000-07:00

Have you ever loved somebody so much that it hurts???

Have you ever loved somebody so much that you cant sleep???

Have you ever loved somebodythat didn't no that you exist???

Have you ever loved somebodywho don't feel the same???

Have you ever loved somebodywho's in love with another person??

Have you ever loved some body who don't even no you love them so very much??

happiness wid u....

2010-03-01T03:16:00.000-08:00

"There is no greater happiness than having you...
and no greater bliss than sharing this life with you.
If I had one breath to spare...If I had just one moment to live...
I would be spending it with you."

i wanna hold ur hand for a while..!!!

2009-10-20T14:15:00.000-07:00

how can i xpress..!!!

2009-10-20T14:06:00.000-07:00

2009-10-20T13:59:00.000-07:00

hiiiiiii dis s me. dis s ma 1st time of writing anything in a blog. i m jst trying dis time.