Jasifers Lions Club

OOTD Tripple effect

2012-01-29T16:19:00.003+01:00

Knitted over-size top from Ellos.se, Stripe skirt from HM, Stockings from Pieces, Lace up booties from Skopunkten, Rings from Åhlénse, och Ur o Penn.

Dark Winter

2012-01-28T18:36:00.000+01:00

Dress from HM, Thin belt from HM, Cardigan from Target, Furr collar from HM, Ring from Forever21, Stockings from Lindex, Booties from Skopunkten.

So I've printed out my flight itinerary for my move to the States, and now more then ever this feels so real! It's kind of hitting me right now that I'm actually MOVING! and GOING! Oooo, all the things that needs to get done before I leave, almost feeling a little stressed out. Gotta fix insurance, fix and sell my car, pack away all my stuff. etc. clean...lots of cleaning. and make sure I got all the important documents I need in the States. :D eek.

Hope you all have a great day!

Ring, Ring, Ring!

2012-01-27T13:12:00.001+01:00

Gah! I shouldn't be shopping but I made a STEAL on Swedish Ebay, got these 3 rings really cheap, they are shipped in from Thailand in cute little gift boxes (I die! so cute!) They are all free-size, Tibetan silver. I'm thinking about giving one away as a GIVEAWAY here on the blog. :)

Wouldn't that be nice? (*^_^*)

The wonders of make-up

2012-01-26T13:47:00.000+01:00

I don't know much about make-up, but I love it anyway, I want to learn more, get the tips and tricks. Because it is fun working with it...so with that being said...Just wanted to show my "clean", and...hrrm...blemished face, haha, with a super dry T-zone (help me!) . and then an after picture with my make-up on. Thank god for make-up, I look horrible without it. :P I often go to work without "my face"-on and feel comfortable, because I don't care really what I look like.
Who am I making myself pretty for? right? But as soon as I get a glance of myself in the mirror, I'm reminded that I really look like shit. haha! I look really tired...So, I do it for myself. It's nice to feel pretty sometimes, am I right?! Jason's not around so...if he was, I'd look pretty for him of course.

I would love to get some make-up tips from you guys! Or let me know what your favorite make-up products are?

I'm really free-styling here.

OOTD Blue

2012-01-25T17:35:00.001+01:00

Knitted ove-size top from HM, Belt from HM, Fleece stockings from Cubus, Lace up booties from skopunkten.

Oh, I hate you blogger.com right now, I had just wrote a really long post and then it failed to post, and it didn't even save either, it all....disappeared. FML :P I'll maybe write about it later. Now I'm off to meet up with my sämboe, Jessica aka littl' sissy. I think tonight will be.....TACO NIGHT! YAY!

Lots of love,

What I like today

2012-01-23T14:00:00.001+01:00

MMmmm, reeeaally like this clutch bag from Igigi.com, I especially like the grey one, I find myself having a hard time matching brown bags with my outfits, I always feels like the bag has to go with the shoes, haha, and I don't have any brown shoes. Maybe it's just in my head, why match? right?!

Thanks for reading, stay tuned...

OOTD True colors

2012-01-23T00:09:00.001+01:00

Button down sheer top from HM+ size EU 46, Denim shorts from Forever21+. Black stockings from Lindex, Bag from USA, Lace up botties from Skopunkten, Big silver ring from Åhléns.

I really like this outfit, a tiny bit too cold though to wear it out for long but can't wait for spring to come so that I can rock similar combos, I like the shorts together with stockings. CAN'T WAIT FOR SPRING! :D Also, what d you think of my new and improved hair color? Now all dark brown, I like it alot, looks more classic now, then with the gorwn-out high lights in *eek* orange :P maybe I'll miss it later but for now I love this color.

Also, signed myself up on myfitnesspal.com, so I'm keeping count of everything I eat, hard as hell!! I love food and this is torture, but I really want to loose those extra kilos so I guess this is what I NEED to do, count calories, jeez, something I never thought I would EVER do. but here I am doing it. So it's been a week exact now and so far I've lost...

Yay! Good start, thanks for reading and following!

Yellow tones

2012-01-21T23:27:00.002+01:00

So Yellow is one of the colors "trending" this spring season, so I looked around our "plus size" online stores and searched for yellow wonders, and here are some I found that I liked, hands down ASOS Curve seems to really know what the're doing, lots of yellow cute and edge dresses going on, Kudos!

Yellow isn't my favorite color, but I like the intesitive it gives, it's an eye-poping color. What are your thoughts about it?

Thanks for reading, hope you have a lovely weekend!

OOTD Buttons

2012-01-20T15:10:00.001+01:00

Tunik from HM+, Leggings from HM+, Lace up booties from Skopunkten.

This tunik from HM+ is really comfortable, great everyday piece, and on SALE as well. Oh and this is the last you'll see of my two toned hair, I colored my hair ALL dark brown the other day. I love it, looks more classy. :) maybe I'll miss my two toned hair later but for now...all brown is awesome!

Hope you all have a great Friday!

Torrid's SWEET ESCAPE

2012-01-19T01:30:00.002+01:00

A few outfits from Torrid's (I think) latest LookBook, Sweet Escape. First of all, you all know Tara Lynn is my ALL TIME favorite "plus size" model. So seeing her in this great looking LookBook was a nice surprise, she looks stunning, and Torrid's clothes as well, I want that peachy top, I love all the Denim jeans, and the nude/white heels are gorgeous! Dreamy.

Now when I'm on a strict shopping bann I can't help myself from NOT window shopping, toooooortuuuuure! :P

Thanks for reading and following!!

OOTD Fav lill' chic dress

2012-01-17T23:38:00.000+01:00

Dress from Lindex generous, Tights from Cubus, Lace up wedges from Skopunkten, Bag from Marc Eckö Red.

3 is the magic number

2012-01-16T15:25:00.001+01:00

Wish I owned these right now! From Asos.com CURVE

OOTD All black!

2012-01-14T18:02:00.001+01:00

Jacket from HM+ (BIB) size 46, Dress from HM size L, Stockings from Lindex, Shoes from Nelly.com SALE.

I have to do something with my hair color, it looks so bad in that light! lol, the part where I high-lighted my hair two summers ago, has now grown out so long it looks awful! It's like ORANGE! Eek! I must tone it down with some darker brown color, it doesn't look that bad in another light but when I'm out in day light like here it really stands out, I don't wanna cut my hair again, I want it loooooong! *sigh* I should have never colored my hair in the first place, it just messes everything up, I want my natural hair color back. :)

Oh, and this dress from HM, highly recommend! It's so cute and flattering, and they carry the size XL as well, and in a couple of other cool colors. Love the wide skirt! :D

Thanks for reading.

Already wanting Summer!

2012-01-13T18:47:00.001+01:00

I was window-shopping on HM's Online website last night at found these new bathingsuits they've put out and I love them and just had to share! Also this pretty beach kimono! WANTS!

Unfortunatly the sizes on these only go up to a EU size 44. I wish they went higher for all the bigger girls to rock this swimsuit, but I think I can squeeze myself into a size Eu 44. just hope there's room for the boobies. lol. Especially on the strapless one, they have that one in black too, it just looks so sexy and flattering for your cuves, and the green one above look hot as well!

GIVE ME SUMMER!! I WANT TO GO TO THE BEACH! :D

Thanks for all the sweet comments on my latest post, means the world to me! Thanks! *hearts*

Reply: Being the fat daugther

2012-01-12T17:14:00.003+01:00

Me, mother, little sister and brother on Christmas eve 2010.

I read weesha's world latest blog post "Being the fat daugther" and I think it is SO GREAT!! I read it ALL and I'm that kind of person that easily loose interest if there's too much text on a blog and admire the pictures instead, haha, but I read it all and I admire YOU! LuAnne, for being so brave and confident in yourself to make this post. Which has made me want to share with you my experience in being the fat daugther in a family of 5. Where everyone's skinny and good looking and I'm the only big/fat one. I don't share my insecurities with many, only my closest friends. My negative thoughts that would put me down before, when I thought I wasn't attractive enought for a guy to ever fall inlove with me.

Me and my mom this summer, I look SO BIG compared to her, jeez.

First of all lets start from the begining, I've always been bigger. I did not get the "skinny-gene" that my brother and sister got. I would grow up having all of mom's and dad's friends say "Oh Jennifer, You've gotten so big!" I know many of them meant well in saying that, as in I've gotten older and grown. But I couldn't help feeling as they meant that I've gotten "large" it especially lowered my self-confident when I man said I was "robust" when I was 12 years old and I asked mom what it meat and she explained for me that it meant, big, sturdy, strong, firm. I couldn't take it as an compliment then because a 12 year old girl shouldn't be refered as "robust", I don't know if I can today either, even if it isn't an negative word. Because of what he told me it has a negative meaning to me. I'm not mad at him, I bet he didn't mean to hurt me, but he didn't choose his words wisley.

What are with some people not thinking before speaking!?

I was an active kid, I played soccer, and I also danced Jazz and Streetdance for 6 years up until I was 17 years old. I admit I'm not as fit now as I was then, not at all. I am bigger today then what I was then, even so, when I was younger was the time when people told me the most that; I was fat, and need to think about what I ate, and loose weight, etc.
Why? Maybe easier to question a teenager about her weight then an adult? I guess...it's sad.

If I wanted an extra plate of food my mom would look at me with that face that would read "Really Jennifer? an extra plate of food, think about your weight! Don't have it." if I wanted an extra slice of cake at one of my brother or sisters Bday she'd say "MmmmmM!!!! Jennifer....." with a stern look on her face. If we had movie night at home she's move the bowl of chips away from me when she felt I had enough. Maybe that is why I really LOVE chips today, hahah! joking, no but chips are my favorite snack, honest to god. I feel like a chips-addict sometimes, especially when I was young, I used to hide the bags of chips in my desk drawer so that no one would know I had bags of chips by myself, until one day my dad found them and seriously my heart was about to jump out my chest I was so scared of the big lecture I was gonna recive of how bad chips are for you etc. etc. I sure recived it. It wasn't the first time I've recived a lecture on how I should eat and such. it always made me feel disgusted by myself, and resent my parents for not letting me be ME, and do whatever I want. I just wanted them to let me be! My mom would ask me how much I weighed and I would lie because I was ashamed and scared to tell the truth.

My "pretty" face.

She'd often say, when I was all dolled up for a specially occation or such that I looked pretty in the face, just a shame my body wasn't. She'd say "if you'd loose weight you'd look even better."

Today I know they said all that stuff and did what they did because they love and care about me. I know that.

However back then we got into a big fight, eventually, that ended up with me crying my eyes out yelling at them saying they made me feel so bad, ugly, disgusting, fat, and un-attracitve. I told them to leave me alone. They did, but my mom still gives me that look sometimes. She'll look at me, often when I'm feeling like a big sack of potatoes, slouching..."Jennifer, please, you need to loose weight." and I'll be like...."Mmmmm, I know." Big news, you're not making things better by reminding me about something I already know, let me deal with it my own way.

I want to love my body, love me! So just let me! If I feel that I want to loose weight then let me deal with it myself the way I feel is best for me, because that is what's gonna effectivly work. Not my parents constant naggig, I think they understand that now. Thank you!

At my best friends birthday party. 2011.

Weight is a sensitive subject for me, what I can relate to the most on Weesha's post is the Asian culture. Relatives trying to give you diet tips, and some that just straight out ask you why you're fat. When I was in Philippines 2007 (I don't travel there very often so I don't know my relatvies that well.) I got to hear remarks on my weight 3 times in like a day or two, I was so sad and upset! It was diet tips, 1 cup of rice blah blah, you'll loose weight and look really nice and get a boyfriend. OH?! So you're saying I can't score a guy looking like I do now? I was so upset, I just sat up saying nothing and left the table. Another man joked with my mother infront of me asking "what happened with her body?! haha!" WHAT!? What's with the manners in this country I thought, you just don't say stuff like that! I stayed in my room the rest of the day. I hit rock bottom when I was at the hair dressers, and bunch of funny gays owned that place, I sat there quietly in the chair while this one guy did my hair and he asked me "why.....why....." I was thinking, maybe he's gonna ask me why I'm so quiet? "why....why are you so fat?". I was shocked! My answer become "I....don't...know?" and I was close to crying right there and then. WHAT KIND OF QUESTION IS THAT!? I couldn't leave the place, I was trapped in that chair with that horrible guy doing my hair. I told my mom what he'd asked, close to tears, she just waved it off. Afterwards I wish I asked him "why are you gay?" both stupid questions that shouldn't be asked. Some people in Philippines don't know the manners, no one in Sweden would EVER ask or say anything about a persons apperence in a negative way, never to a stranger you don't even know.

I was pissed! Later during my stay I started dating someone so I was like "in your face". Which made me feel a little bit better about myself.

This summer, 2011

It's always been a battle, but today I feel pretty confident with myself. I like that I'm curvy. I think I look good most of the time. (besides when I'm feeling low.) I know I am fat, I've accepted that. No stupid comments about my weight can ever hurt me again. I don't care.

Like this one guest at work the other week that flipped for nothing and pointed at me and called me a fat whore, and said I was to fat to work there. I just laughed. really?! REALLY?! You don't know me, leave! Idiots like that don't deserve any attention.

I know I've started to put on even more weight, this past year and Jason (my boyfriend) has started to comment on it, asking about my diet and what I'm eating. It just makes me aggravated and I end up yelling at him to leave me alone and to never speak about my weight and diets again! It's what I did to my parents, tell them to leave me alone with it. I right away become defensive, again, even though I know he asks because he loves me and he's only concerned about my health. But...I still get annoyed about it and all I'm thinking is....

JUST LOVE ME NO MATTER WHAT!

I just want to be happy!

And talking about my weight and how to loose weight when I feel targeted in a negative way doesn't work with me, it makes me fell miserable. Level with me and we can talk. :)

Jason wants me to go back to the shape I had when we met 3 and a half years ago, I was like 10-15 kilos less then. It would be nice I agree but don't nag about it. I feel like a mess sometimes, that I can't get it done, that I can't loose weight that easily, it's so hard! I just need to deal with it myself.

Do I make any sense? I feel like a mess, like please, Jen, can you make up your mind?! Do you want to loose it or not? Commit damn it! You feel me? So hard...

I feel blessed though, I have a boyfriend by my side that loves me unconditionally. I have family and friends that love me whatever size I am. I have my sister and brother that I love so much, that always makes me feel good about myself. They have never judged me. I have wonderful and supportive friends, as well as this amazing plus size blog community that I'm a part of that is so so so supportive. My readers that comment, you always boost my confidence and make me feel god about myself, and keeps me blogging. Thank you for being in my life, and thank you Weesha's world for your inspiring post that made me dare to share my own experience.

ALL my endless love to ya' all!!

OOTD and it begins....

2012-01-11T15:56:00.000+01:00

Jacket from Espirit, Top from Kappahl, Studded leggings from HM Divided, Boots from Skopunkten.

So for 2012 I really need to get healthy, I can't believe I let myself go this whole year and I've gained like 5-6 kilos, NOOO! Why?! Why Jennifer?! I've gotten too comfortable to the point where I don't feel that comfortable anymore. I'm hooked on my friend Elin's diet plan, to cut out unhealthy foods that we splurge on at an everyday basis. Example; Soda, fried food and white bread. (omg, when I type this I feel like such a pig, haha!) So far this week I'm trying to cut out soda, I don't drink soda at home, just a lot at work. So i've only had water and a Coke Zero with my meal. (at work) We'll see if it makes a different for me, Elin lost 3 kilos in a week just cutting that out, kudos! :D I'm inspiried. I just wanna shred those extra kilos I've put on and go back to my old (still curvy) size. Believe me, there's a big tummy hiding under that over-size top :P

Thanks for following!

Very generous!

2012-01-10T16:30:00.003+01:00

Just real quick put together this, all clothes from Lindex's plus size line "Generous" as an follow up to "Kappahl's plus size line post", I wanted to share some from Lindex as well, Because they have really caught my interest as well, like the new Denim jeans I got from them recently that are AWESOME and fits really nice. I really like their stuff, some of their stuff at least. Here are some favorites!

Shoes are from Skopunkten :) Thanks for reading! *hearts*

OOTD Black lace

2012-01-09T05:18:00.001+01:00

Cross Earrings from Stylebytyra.se, Cross ring from Nelly.com, Lace Top from Ellos.se size EU 44/46, Denim jeans from Lindex Generous size EU 48, Boots from Charlotte Russe.

Follow up!

2012-01-07T17:39:00.000+01:00

Here are some pictures from Plusmodelmag.com, an amazing plus size magazine online!! And these pictures really caught my eye, from what I wrote yesterday about the 90s runway models looking more healthy then todays runway models and etc. I thought posting these pictures and facts would be an awesome follow up. I don't know if you read plusmodelmag.com, if you don't, DO!! just click the link ;)
Also, I'm not hatin' on skinny models or girls, I just want diversity! :) lets mix it up, I want to see different body types, and more body types that I can relate too. Plus size FTW! :P

Enjoy and hope you find the facts as interesting as I did, I just had to share it on my blog.

Come back, come back Cindy!

2012-01-06T17:15:00.000+01:00

I miss the 90s models with more meat on their bones, just look at Cindy Crawford, GORGEOUS! If you'd wanna loose weight to get healthy you want to look at these women, not todays super skinny runway models, some of them are really skinny, some are just skinny, and every now and then a more cruvy models pops up, but it's not as often as I wish it to be. Don't you think?

If they 90s runway looked like this, why can't it now?

The top picture is from Herves Legers fashion show from the 90s and from recently, and he says that he doesn't get inspired by todays models because he feels they look too skinny. I agree. Personaly I don't find it attractive. Thoughts?

XLNT clothes

2012-01-06T04:32:00.002+01:00

I'm 24 years old now, and not a "youngster" anymore, I used to see the clothing store Kappahl as a "old women" store and refused to enter the store, don't ask me why, I guess I never gave it a chance with me until now recently. they have great SALES and that is what brought me to them, and got my eyes up for their plus size brand XLNT, first of all I like the name, it's smart, and also nice meaning (Exellent!). Second of all they have great stuff, above are a few of my current favorites, the knitted block colored top is only a 100 SWE on SALE, I've tried it before but thought it was a little too pricey but now on SALE it's a steal, I think I'm gonna get it, it's so comfortable, and the colors are nice as well as the fabric is soft. Favorite everyday oufit - Over-size top with leggings CHECK! ;)

Shoes are from nelly.com *drool* Thoughts?

Writers block

2012-01-05T02:30:00.000+01:00

Don't really know what kind of post to make today so I'm just gonna throw in two gorgeous pictures of Plus size model Ashley Graham! Love these, I wish I had that shape, I would hang up her pictures on my wall as inspiration if and when I start working out, haha, I WILL, soon....I haven't been working out in many years now, I've lost count, and that to me doesn't say much good things about my body and health.

After working out, you always feel good about yourself, happy! you feel fresh and filled with new energy you didn't know you had, I want that feeling! So, I guess (big surprise, not. lol) my new year resolution should be to excerise more and often, put it in my weekely schedule. :)

23 - Your favorite skincare product

2012-01-03T14:49:00.001+01:00

I could be much better on taking care of my skin then what I am, but a few favorites are Bath and Body Works scrub soaps, love em'! and they all smell amazing! I have a really dry T-zone on my face, I even flake sometimes, it's horrible. But Elizabeth Arden 8 hour cream really helps me with that...it's an amazing cream that really works, it's really thick but lasts forever. Lotion wise...Victoria Secrets Shea Butter lotion is one I'm using right now :) What are you favorites? Got any tips for me?

Thanks for reading!

"That's a wrap everyone!!"

2012-01-01T19:52:00.002+01:00

OH MY GOD! I can not BELIEVE 2011 is over already, this is the fastest a year has gone by ever for me! It really went by too fast! Don't you think? And what have I achived this year? ehm.....eh....for starters my visa application got accepted, so now I have a K1 visa. But other then that I've only been working, working and working, been to New Jersey 2 times to visit Jason, and he's been in Sweden once to visit me, it's been nice, but sucky to be away from eachother. Now the 2nd of March I'm moving to stay for a while with Jason in the US. YAY! so 2012 will be FAR more exciting then 2011. New life, new place, new friends, new job, new culture, new surroundings, new experience! Can't wait, I need to get out of this "same old, same old" everyday rut, where I can start taking more care of myself. I'm not getting any younger, I'm already 24 years old and I'm starting to panic a little about what I want to do with my life, I really don't have a clue, I'm starting to lean into wanting to learn more about food and cooking and a dream would be to open my own restaurant! :)

For new years resolutions? I'm gonna have to give that a little more thought.

Hope you all had a great New years eve celebration.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

2011-12-31T19:33:00.003+01:00

Top from Ellos.se, Black pants from Lindex Generous, Wedges from Skopunkten.

Just want to wish every one a HAPPY NEW YEAR! :)