Jason's Diary V.2

Halloween in Houston & Weho

2009-11-03T20:44:00.000-08:00

NO H8

2009-10-11T12:45:00.000-07:00

It was overcast when I awakened this morning, both over the city of West Hollywood and in my head.

When I have been at my lowest, people seem to rally around me, embrace me and lift me up. But it is always at the most successful moments in my career that I seem to get the most attacked. It shouldn't matter to me, but it does. I want everyone to love me just like anyone else. It's a sick part of our humanity, that we give any power at all over to another's opinion and judgment. In truth, if we are most attacked at our most successful, then I suppose we should welcome all attackers with open arms. Usually I'm really good about realizing this, but this morning for some reason it seemed difficult to focus.

Then I turned on CSPAN and saw The Gay Rights Rally and was mesmerized. My problems and the dark cloud that was hanging over me dissipated in the dawning realization of my own pettiness. There are more important things to be focusing on in the world.

And just then the sun came out. A beautiful moment.

I so wish I was in Washington today marching with my friends. I am with you all in spirit and am watching, screaming at the TV set that we must demand equality for all.

In America, in West Hollywood, in our own backyards, in the mirror every day, may we all rise above the pettiness and the nastiness to stop the spread of negativity and hatred, to love each other and forgive a little more than yesterday.

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Friends In Low Places

2009-10-09T13:47:00.001-07:00

I've received blog comments and emails daily from people asking when I was going to comment on a very good friend of mine who was recently arrested. I had hoped to not comment at all, to let the mindless chatter be relegated to a blog that is barely visited and would be receiving no attention at all without this gossip, but when The Sword told me they'd be doing a story with or without my commentary today, I decided to put in my two cents on the haters. You can read that here: http://bit.ly/rS25X

All I can say is he's a friend and I miss him way more than I ever expected to. When I have moments of celebration in my life like today (see: "News Desk" story about signing on as C1R's publicist), I feel like there is a missing link in the small inner circle of friends with whom I personally share those moments. Unlike a lot of his friends, I had more quiet moments with him than the wild and crazy adventures. We went to the movies together every week. We had lunches where we would vent about everything wrong in our lives. We watched the entire "Star Wars" trilogy curled up on his couch the day after Christmas. I miss those times. I miss him. I hope to see him soon.

P.S.: I also consider the person who is trying to bring him down in his blog a friend and I wish he'd find a way to let go of his anger and find some peace within himself so he wouldn't feel the need to lash out. Whatever their history together, kicking someone when they're down and can't defend themselves when he's had the opportunity to confront him for so long seems sad and tells me he must be going through an equally hard time in his life right now. I wish him the best and hope to see him soon too.

My Girl Needs You!

2009-10-01T12:10:00.000-07:00

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30 Days Has September...

2009-09-30T17:54:00.001-07:00

The sun is beginning to set over West Hollywood and I'm looking back on this 30 day journey with a mixture of pride, focus and trepidation towards the future. The colors are more vibrant. The days, they last longer. My creativity is at an all-time high. My ambition is that of when I first stepped off the plane to L.A. at 18.

...A month of absolute sobriety can do a lot for you.

I was never a raging lush or addict by any means, but I did indulge and partake in a bit more than I became comfortable with. Everything has it's time and place and as someone who runs several businesses for a living, partying really shouldn't be at the top of one's weekly "To Do" list.

Since I didn't really have a problem to begin with, it wasn't so much the sobriety itself that has made a difference in the way I see things, but moreover the self-discipline that has become a huge source of empowerment for me. Living intentionally, remaining in control, managing myself like I manage my boys really. Challenging myself really reminds me of my strength and it's something I need to do more of in every aspect of my life. If my blog is too easy to write, I need to make it harder to give something more entertaining and even more fun to the people reading it, for example!

That's not to say the haze being gone hasn't provided a lot of clarity as well. I think a lot of things that were wrong in my life or a lot of things I could have been doing better were more easily dismissed in that haze. I don't like that. I don't want things to be easily dismissed. I want to work at my optimum level.

So... why ever touch anything mind altering again?

Same reason I had before. I never did it to run from anything or to supress myself. I do it because it's fun. And because, in moderation (key words!) parties with friends can be a true bonding experience.

...And because there will always be that Liza within me that just loves being a complete and total mess. ;-)

It is, however, merely one dimension, one of many personalities I have within me. I would like to start sharing more of myself with the people I love and the people who love me and I think I've begun doing that this month with a lot of people in my life. You all know who you are. What I've shared with you of me is real and I appreciate your receiving it.

Thank you all for your support over the past 30 days.

I have a bottle Veuve chilling and it's calling my name.

What is the saying? 30 days has September! ...Let me drink until November!

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2009-09-25T17:17:00.001-07:00

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Thought For The Day

2009-09-24T11:31:00.001-07:00

Cleaning can be a daunting task, especially when so much has built up for so long. I'd done some cleaning over the weekend and still this morning, I didn't know where to begin there was so much to do.

I also knew after cleaning this weekend, I just didn't have enough cleaning products at my disposal to get my goal accomplished.

But I dug in anyway.

And there, underneath the piles, I found more cleaning products I didn't remember I'd had, more tools to help me finish the job.

...Sometimes you just gotta dig in.

Day 23: I've Gone Nuts!

2009-09-23T22:25:00.001-07:00

I have gone completely round the bend and am more bat shit bonkers than I've ever been.

I don't know what came over me this weekend but for the first time I decided to really sink my teeth into all of the affiliates I link to all over this crazy little site of mine and... well, what I tasted wasn't so sweet.

After speaking with a few bloggers and learning how to run my own reports, I don't know where to begin with the amount of things I was doing wrong. But let's just say the #1 mistake was never having taken an interest in checking out any stats, reports, etc. EVER before.

And now that I have, I can't stop. Now that I realize the potential for what JasonCurious.com could and should be, I am back to running on four hours of sleep a night to make sure it all gets accomplished.

I'm sure being 23 days sober has a lot to do with this revelation, which I'm also kind of kicking myself for. I feel like this was staring me in the face for a really long time and I just kind of glossed right over it.

Ya know, I gotta tell you -- I never even really partied all that much. Maybe two nights of drinking a week, one of getting obliterated, right? I didn't even do that much and yet I seem to have missed so much.

I will definitely be re-evalutating my intake even after the 30 days are up. I don't plan on being an angel, but I don't want my creativity, my drive to pass me by as much as it was.

So forgive me, but I have to run. I am looking at each affiliate program individually and it's taking up pretty much every minute of my day this week. I'm completely nuts obsessed over all it. Fascinated by which sites are making me money, which are not -- and making a looooot of notes!

The wildest thing of all? From all the info I'm gathering, all roads are leading to a complete overhaul of JasonCurious.com.

Oh joy.

Follow For The Weekend!

2009-09-19T15:10:00.000-07:00

Just because it's weekend doesn't mean you have to stop following Jason and his porn star pals!

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Some Quiet Time

2009-09-18T18:40:00.000-07:00

I didn't write here in the "Diary" blog as much as I'd have liked to this week. I found myself swamped with 13 hour work days nearly every single day this week. Very productive, but quite exhausting.

The good news is so many of my best friends are out of town this weekend, I have absolutely NO hosting gigs for nearly two weeks (that's a first for me in over two years!) and it happens to be the weekend of Rosh Hashanah, followed by Yom Kippur next week! I think it's the perfect weekend to relax, study, clean my apartment, clear my head. It's almost like a gift of "quiet" being laid before me as I hit the final leg of Sober Circus.

Kabbalists and many of the Jewish faith believe that on the new year celebration that is Rosh Hashanah, we are given the gift of being born anew. We are given a new clean body, spiritually and physically. I certainly feel that!

Weekend at Chi Chi's

2009-09-15T21:04:00.000-07:00

Well, The Mans is still under MAJOR construction and this past weekend the hardwood floors were being stripped, sanded and stained so everyone vamoosed for a few days to let the workers do their thing!

I crashed at Chi Chi LaRue's which reminded me at times of being a kid and spending the weekend at my grandmother's! I get to ignore work, go to the mall, go grocery shopping, watch lots of TV and movies in bed, have late night chats and get absolutely spoiled rotten!

It's... exactly what a weekend at my grandmother's was come to think of it. Wow. I forgot how much I had missed that over the past decade.

On Saturday night, we went to Here Lounge where Chi Chi was DJ'ing. I had originally thought I might break on my 30 Day Sober Challenge that evening, but after hitting the gym mid-afternoon I was pretty sure I wouldn't. I realized on the treadmill as the blood flow began to increase my brain function that it was just a matter of having either one really fun evening or an entire week of feeling incredibly empowered for not giving in.

The self-discipline of not giving into every little whim and desire I may have, that's really what is so empowering. Not the sobriety. Madonna once said, "Fun can be really overrated." And I agree with that sentiment. Sometimes making it through difficulties, overcoming obstacles and stepping out of our comfort zone can bring more strength and long lasting joy into our lives than mere "fun" or instant gratification ever could.

But there is a time and a place for everything. Another "muse" of mine, Jane Fonda, talks in her biography about "the art of living intentionally." As opposed to being a leaf floating down a stream letting the current take you (because sometimes it can take you under), to live intentionally is to have a plan. Some nights call for a couple drinks, some call for none and some are just perfect for getting completely shit faced. But the idea is to know what kind of a night it is going to be before going into it! Because if you're not careful, if you don't live intentionally, if you let yourself be the leaf in the stream, I know for me at least, too many nights can just naturally lead to too much.

After Here Lounge, we went to Numbers for the manager Judy's last hoorah after party. The venue has unfortunately shut its doors and is now up for sale so this was our proper "goodbye" to the place. I loved hosting my event there (more than any other I've ever done) and I hate to see it go. I stayed amongst the wildly trashed until 4:00 am ...remaining stable as a table.

I have to say, I had a LOT of fun Saturday night! More fun at Here Lounge than I think I've ever had on a Saturday, in fact. I enjoyed watching everyone get wasted and I really danced A LOT in the DJ booth with Cheech because her music was particularly off the hook! Got felt up by a lot of hot guys too, oddly! I dunno, it was just nice to be so incredibly "present" for all of the fun. More than I thought it would be. Once I was in the club, I had no desire to drink at all.

On Sunday, after a brief brunch with Andy Kirra, I went back to Chi Chi's and we watched movies. I saw "Romy & Michelle's High School Reunion" and "9 to 5" for the first time if you can believe it. "Romy & Michelle" was brill. So many great lines, I laughed out loud a lot! I expected "9 to 5" to be a lot more like "Working Girl" but it was still a great movie. I'm a huge Jane Fonda fan but Dolly Parton was actually my favorite of the three actresses.

We watched the "True Blood" season finale (disappointed... anti-climactic! this season every episode was brilliant but the finale was the weakest link) and then The MTV Music Video Awards where I was completely blown away by the brilliance that is Lady Gaga. Her entire "act" and theme for this album has been the subject of fame, much of which has been inspired by Andy Warhol, and this performance seemed the zenith of it all. In a show that was dedicated to the memory of Michael Jackson, for Gaga to do a performance of "Paparazzi" where fame becomes the death of her was just gold for me. (Did you notice the chandellier that crashed on her in the beginning of the act? What is a chandellier? A bunch of bulbs. Just like the paprazzi. Brill!) She is every artist I've ever loved all rolled up into one: Tori Amos's musical genius, Liza Minnelli's acting out her songs, Madonna's performance art and Eminem's raw honesty and darkness. And that voice! How can someone be that talented?! I fall more in love with her every time I see her perform.

Chi Chi and I will return to Here Lounge on Wednesday night for our once a month gig taking over the Paul Nicholls and Woody Woodbeck Wedndesday night spectacle that is "GARAGE." She spins, I host and we've got porn star go-go boys Cameron Marshall, Justin Chambers, Nash Lawler, Lucky Daniels, Spencer Whitman, Jason King and Lucas Knowles in the house from 10:00 pm - 2:00 am. If you're in West Hollywood, you better join me for a Shirley Temple! Or if you'd rather, there's a $5 open bar until Midnight! Woo hoo! ;-)

Hump Day!

2009-09-14T20:21:00.000-07:00

I am half-way through my 30 Day Sober Challenge!

...And no longer look like a blotation device. lol

WOOT WOOT!

I'm In Movies! ...Barely.

2009-09-10T17:46:00.000-07:00

I don't know if it was recently released on DVD or cable or something, but I've been getting lots of email and comments all of a sudden about a cameo I made in an indie horror film called "November Son." I had no idea my role was prominent enough in it for people to notice (I actually haven't seen it!), so I'm thrilled I've been "spotted" by even a few peeps! It makes me want to get into acting more!

So here's the story of how I came to make a small but apparently memorable (YAY!) appearance in "November Son."

My first paid acting project when I moved to L.A. was horror director Jason Paul Collum's first film short! It was called "Julia Wept" and it was recently remastered and put on a DVD called "Something To Scream About" along with a very old interview of me and my co-star (then roommate, in fact!) Brinke Stevens.

Jason and I have wanted to work together again ever since and never seem to be able to so instead he asked me to do a cameo as a television reporter in "November Son." The footage I sent him to use for the movie is actually from an interview I did with Jeff Palmer here on JasonCurious.com! Check out the old Celebrity Uncensored episodes on JC TV. It was one of the first things I ever shot for the site!

Jason Paul Collum is a GREAT director and I thank him for finding a place for me in his latest movie!

I also noticed another movie I made a brief appearance in, a gay indie film called "Dog Tags," is now out on DVD! I saw it last time I was in Chi Chi LaRue's store in West Hollywood actually!

Gawd, I need to go on more auditions! I used to book everything I ever went on. It was just gathering the courage to actually go ON the audition that took the most work for me.

Welcome Home, Ryan Raz!

2009-09-09T19:29:00.000-07:00

The adventure begins! Ryan Raz moved into The Mans today, previously inhabited by my porn star pals Andy Kirra, Tristan Mathews and Shane Risk. It's just a revolving door of the flesh trade here, isn't it?

Truth be told, I swore up and down I would never make this "the porn star house" again, but Ryan Raz is someone I really adore and admire. I've known him for quite some time now and have learned we have much in common. We both look at this business as a business, we're both wild and crazy but know when to say when, we're both very independent and like our space, and we're sharp-tongued and witty so we laugh a lot together.

I'm grateful and happy to have him living here in what is becoming known as the gay version of the Playboy Mansion. ...Though at the moment, it looks a little more like Grey Gardens! I can't wait until the remodeling here is complete.

Anyway... welcome home, Ryan!

You can visit Ryan Raz's official blog and web site at RyanRaz.com.

Sing Happy

2009-09-08T22:34:00.001-07:00

SO much fun last night! I wish I could co-host the karaoke night at MJ's Bar every Monday night, but then it wouldn't be a special thing when the porn stars "invade" the event every now and then! It is by far my favorite thing I host right now though. Kenny Morse, the host, is a dream to work with, the vibe is so chill, no stress and the crowd is so openly happy to be there. (Maybe we can do an every week "porn star karaoke" event elsewhere sometime soon! Will have to talk to the promoter Anthony Lopez about that!) Amazing performances last night from Josh Griffin (whose new boyfriend was also in tow - such a hunk, must get him into movie making!), Spencer Whitman (totally sang in his underwear!), Jason King (you'd think he was going to surgery he was so scared to be up there singing!), Channel 1 Releasing exclusive Vance Winter (who literally reminded me I have a libido when sober, he's so hot always!) and even my fave fab photog Tom "T Ball" Trevor gave us his rendition of "Gypsies, Tramps & Thieves." SO fun, I oddly felt buzzed!

Alas, I was not. Week two of Sober Circus began with a bang today! I got back to the gym which cured me of my early evening sleepiness with all that blood pumping. After tooling it out to the valley to host my live web talk show "Bottoms Up!" here on JasonCurious.com with my guest Rob Romoni, I talked Chi Chi LaRue into getting a purse she saw yesterday at The Grove she really wanted. Went back to pick it up and then to Fat Fish in West Hollywood for din din. Now home for blogging and off to bed!

More tomorrow!

My Three-Day Weekend

2009-09-07T15:13:00.000-07:00

Went to see "District 9" last night in the big Graumann's Chinese Theater with my friends Essay, writer Kevin Williamson and porn star Jason King (pictured here). Interesting to say the least! A lot of passion put into the movie and a throw back with the puppetry and low-budget sets to the original "Star Wars" I thought in many ways. But still, really silly and unintentionally funny at points. Definitely will be a cult classic I'm sure and "District 10" is no doubt on the way. This was the second movie I saw this week actually, as I also caught "Final Destination 3D" with Essay, Paul Kingrey, Kabbalah Nick and Andy Kirra earlier in the week. If you're in Los Angeles, you should definitely see it at the Mann's Chinese 6 in Hollywood if you get the chance. They have the D-Box seats there that buzz to scare you and move with the motion of the movie. The concept was originally employed by horror movie maker William Castle (with lesser technology) for movies like "House on Haunted Hill" and "The Tingler." I always wished I'd been alive to see those theatrical releases with all their gadgetry, so this was a real thrill for me!

Chi Chi LaRue is back from New Orleans. We went shopping at The Grove this afternoon and had lunch at this great Greek restaurant there that I don't remember liking in the past but this time the food was SO GOOD!

Tonight I'm bringing the porn stars to invade karaoke night at MJ's Bar where I'll be co-hosting from 10:00 pm - 2:00 am! Performances by Rob Romoni, Jason King, Vance Winter, Spencer Whitman, Tristan Mathews and of course yours truly are in store for those looking for a fun, low-key evening to end your three-day holiday weekend!

Happy Labor Day!

The Sober Circus

2009-09-06T17:31:00.000-07:00

So on August 31st, while hosting a night of porn stars invading the karaoke show at MJ's Bar in Silverlake (I'll be back there for round two this Monday at 10 pm, FYI), I made a pact with Andy Kirra to see if we could go 30 days being 100% sober. As word got out, a few of our friends decided to join us in our 30 day sober challenge. Today is Day 6 and of the 7 people who joined in the challenge, we are two of only 3 people left! Yikes! LOL

This is not some major lifestyle change for me, nor is it something I'm planning to do for the rest of my life. (Trust me, I have an event with Brent Everett in San Diego on October 3rd that I plan on going crazy for!) I've never had a problem with moderation. Drinking a couple drinks to get a buzz on and calling it quits is not foreign to me, nor is getting completely shit faced. So why exactly am I doing it? Well, because, between the days I'm just getting a buzz on or the days I'm getting shit faced or the days where it's anything in between, the days of it being "nothing at all" just seem to be getting fewer every month!

So I suppose it's to prove to myself that I can. No one ever really thinks they're an addict and it's good to challenge yourself so you know the truth. I mean, I expect it to be uncomfortable and trying at times, but gosh what if I couldn't actually make it 30 days?! No denying then that I would have a serious problem. On the flip side of that coin, if I can make it that long, then there is also no denying that I don't have one! And yippee for me!

I'll be documenting the journey here throughout the month, of course. Something that has helped me a lot with it right off the bat is getting back into spiritual study. I sat down Friday night with intentions of reading the beginning of a new Kabbalah book for 30 mins. or so. Four hours later, I had finished the thing! It was a great reminder of how when we look to things outside of ourselves for happiness, we are living in a slave mentality. We can have a receiving/slave-like mentality or a sharing/God-like mentality. Lord knows I hate playing the victim, so that woke me up pretty fast to any immediate temptations that said "To hell with this sober bullshit!" I'm not looking to play slave to anything or anyone in my life ever.

I made it over my most massive hurdle yet just last evening, hosting my biggest night of the week, "INDUSTRY" at Eleven Nightclub, as I do every Saturday, for happy hour no less! I'm not someone who stays in and whoops it up all by myself! I do it in social settings with friends and often when out throwing parties. So to make it through the biggest party night of my week on iced coffee and shirley temples was... at times a chore, other times fun and ultimately incredibly empowering!

I'm glad (and lucky) it didn't feel impossible at all or even all that tempting. Which leads me to believe I'm probably not an addict at all and have merely been incredibly indulgent over the past two years, ever since hosting at bars and nightclubs became such a massive part of my life. Not that this makes it any better. If anything, I feel it makes my behavior even more abhorrent. At least an addict can say it's something they can't help. If I've just been indulgent, then I have no real excuse and have basically just been a pig. ...Lovely.

Well, I'm a little tired of being a pig. (In several areas of my life, ahem!) I don't know where in the past couple of years I just decided to stop exercising will power, but now that I've discovered it again, I remember that it's truly more empowering than any drink or drug could ever be. To be challenged is to remind us of how much strength we actually have. How had I forgotten how stepping out of our comfort zones is what brings the bliss? It is, after all, how I got to this indulgent state in the first place. But as they say, all things in moderation, huh?

So... to fill you in on where I'm at so far on this journey, it's been nearly a week and my head is much clearer than it's been in a long time, I feel like there's tons more time in the week to get things done (less time spent out playing and in recovering) and I find myself getting very tired around 6:00 in the evening most nights. I hope to combat that by getting back to the gym this week, eating a little more healthy and getting my blood circulating a little more! I'll keep you posted.

Here's to challenge! ...Also known as opportunity.

Scenes From A Weekend (That Began On A Wednesday)

2009-08-20T20:39:00.000-07:00

Last week was a blast! It seems like all of my friends were in town for the week. Brandon Baker, Bobby Clark, Ryan Raz, Diesel Washington, Francois Sagat, Rusty... just to name a few! Wednesday night was a big RentBoy.com party at Micky's which I stopped by briefly with Chi Chi LaRue. Thursday I talked Andy Kirra into taking off work early to come meet up with Brandon and crew for lunch at Hamburger Mary's, which turned into an afternoon of boozing it up at The Mans with Andy. Friday I met up the posse again for lunch at Tender Greens in West Hollywood, drinks at Fiesta with my buddy Essay and then watched "Not Another Gay Sequel." Saturday night was my weekly gay porn event "INDUSTRY" which I'm now hosting at Eleven Restaurant & Nightclub every Saturday from 6:00 pm - 11:00 pm. Our second week and just as slammed as our first! So many peeps I adore came out who I don't usually get to see... Perez Hilton, Rob Novinger, Steven Walker, Francois Sagat. When the event was over we tooled it on down to Here Lounge for club guru Paul Nicholls birthday where Chi Chi was DJ'ing. I planted myself in her DJ booth and danced more than I have in a long, long time the music was so phenomenal. Hung at Essay's after party with none other than Kevin Williamson of whom I am such a huge fan. What an adorable man he is and so talented! I auditioned when I was 18 for his movie "Teaching Mrs. Tingle" back when it was still titled "Killing Mrs. Tingle." Right now he's working on the next "Scream" trilogy. Sunday I recovered where it all began and with the same peeps back at Hamburger Mary's for brunch. Andy Kirra and Tristan Mathews joined and we made a day of it!

Tomorrow I'm off to Arizona where I'll be hosting with Chi Chi and Mandi Boom Boom the "PornoPalooza" weekend at Woody's in Tucson on Saturday night at BS West in Scottsdale on Sunday night... with a whole gang of porn stars and friends.

It never stops. Ya gotta just love it and hold on tight for the ride. Such is life.

Thanks to my friends for capturing these moments, especially BehindTheTBall.blogspot.com who always seems to snap at the perfect moment!

Emotional Rollercoaster

2009-08-11T21:31:00.000-07:00

MINUS: Having to wake up at 8:00 am when I could have really used an extra hour of sleep.

PLUS: Looks like Mandi Boom Boom may be able to secure my trip to Tucson, AZ with Chi Chi LaRue after all. It was touch and go there for a bit!

MINUS: The 9:00 am noise of the construction workers here at The Mans driving me so bat shit I wanted to seriously throw myself out a window.

PLUS: Found enough time to blog on the "News Desk" before heading out for the day.

MINUS: One of my DV8 Casting models had to be replaced today.

PLUS: Josh Griffin picking me up and accompanying me on all errands today so I don't have to drive all over.

MINUS: Another one of my DV8 Casting boys couldn't confirm for a shoot I was hoping to book him on due to a kink in his schedule. Had to call the studio and tell them. They were disappointed because he's new and hot.

PLUS: He switched around his scheduled and managed to confirm. Had to call studio and tell them it's back on. (Is this really a plus? ...I'mma try to look at it that way!)

MINUS: Lied to by a friend.

PLUS: They love "INDUSTRY" at Eleven Restaurant & Nightclub and will work with us as much as possible. Our meeting with them went very well.

MINUS: The reality TV show film crew shooting behind the scenes of my web talk show "Bottoms Up!" tell me they will be arriving an hour late just as I show up at the studio exactly on time.

PLUS: Had a great show, specifically some really amazing moments for the reality show's footage.

MINUS: Come home to find hardwood floors stripped and sanded in the hallway without proper protection to the door to my room. Open the door and there's a thick layer of wood dust all over everything in the entire room.

PLUS: "True Blood" was amazing.

MINUS: I'm wishing it were still weekend.

Look At Us, What A Pair!

2009-08-04T22:37:00.000-07:00

Here's a vlog from Chi Chi LaRue, a montage of our trip together to Seattle last month. It really captures a lot of things so perfectly; among other things, our friendship. I love this vlog and I love my Cheech.

Look at us in all our ridiculousness! ...What a pair.

Return of the Video Blogs!

2009-07-27T09:58:00.000-07:00

New laptop, new webcam, new video blogs! Yes, the video blogging has returned to YouTube.com/JasonCurious - click the subscribe button there so you can be the first to get them!

Here's one with me and Cheech in Seattle getting ready for the big Sisters of Perpetual Indulgence event at The Cuff Complex (where she was made a Saint!) the weekend previous and another one with my mom taken just minutes ago here in Florida where I'm on vacation for a week.

...Actually, I don't really know what a vacation is anymore, so I'm sitting here on my computer working, blogging, answering emails and haven't even been here for an hour.

But mom's making banana chocolate chip bread and then her famous lasagna and we're catching up here in the kitchen while I'm blogging away!

I Have The Best Friends Ever

2009-07-14T18:58:00.000-07:00

I am really excited to head to San Diego tomorrow morning with Jason Ridge. Not just because we're going to be seeing Tori Amos together, but because I'm actually anxious to just spend two days with one of my friends without the distractions and other people that West Hollywood and the porn industry bring. It's been a very, very long time coming (remember that video blog? ...and I was also his publicist that got him on "The Howard Stern Show," and I was the first person to ever interview him my web show ...and hosted his "Best of Jason Ridge" video for Jett Blakk -- talk about history!), but Jason and I have grown up a lot and are very good friends these days I'm happy to say.

This entire trip from soup to nuts (that includes a massive suite and 2nd row seats!) in fact is courtesy him and I'm not sure what I ever did to deserve that but it's nice to feel taken care of as someone who is so often in a line of work that involves taking care of so many other people.

I'm also being treated to Seattle this weekend by one of my best friends, Chi Chi LaRue! I've never been before and we'll be going along with Josh Griffin and meeting up with our mutal friend Chelsia Hart, Sister Roma and the Sisters of Perpetual Indulgence for an evening at The Cuff Complex this Saturday. Josh Griffin in fact, who is another one of my very best friends, hails from Seattle so he will be showing us around for the weekend and taking care of us, so I'm very excited about that trip too.

I then have a week back in L.A. before I head to Florida to see my mom for an entire week. It's been a year since we've seen each other and that's the longest in my life so I'm looking forward to some quality bonding time and a nice vacay.

Travel, friends, family, music, laughter, food ...I'm so blessed! Turining out to be quite the Summer.

Speaking of Independence...

2009-07-06T22:14:00.000-07:00

I had recently decided I needed to do an entry here about how my personal views on sex and romance have changed so drastically in the last year; the change being that I don't seem to crave either at all anymore.

Bygone are the days of going to clubs with the intentions of finding a hot boy to bring home, much less go to dinner with as if I have time for small talk. Part of this is probably that I will turn 30 this year and many of my friends tell me that sex becomes much less important as you hit that point in life. Working in porn contributes to it as well I'm sure. I've had sex with literally every kind of guy I've ever wanted to have sex with and I've lived out pretty much every fantasy I ever had.

I've lived in love and I've lived single and am aware neither are easy so I can't say I prefer one to the other. Both have their advantages and disadvantages. I see some people so much younger than I who believe finding a boyfriend will fix all their problems. The truth is, it does fix a lot of problems, but it also creates new ones.

I am very lucky in that I am never lonely for some reason, even when I spend a few days without leaving the house. I've always been that way. I like being alone and even in relationships, I require a lot of personal space and alone time. I don't have that gene that "needs" someone. That's not to say I don't crave attention (clearly, I do!), but I get that fix from work. In life though and love, I am incredibly self-sufficient.

And let's face it, with all the different facets of my career I don't have much time in my life to really devote to love. I prefer putting that energy into my friends, my career and my own personal discovery and growth. Partnerships take work to be done properly, they require selflessness and putting the other person before you. I also often think it wouldn't be fair of me to expect anyone to even be in a relationship with me. I'm not the easiest person in the world to deal with and my schedule, my lifestyle and career don't help that much either for people who aren't a part of my bubble.

So, as I've written here before, as far as I'm concerned I have no desire to be in a relationship unless I feel like I don't really have a choice in the matter.

If you can't help it, then you're in love.

And since there are few things I love celebrating more than my independence, I was very much looking forward to taking a three day weekend and whooping it up with my pals in the spirit of my free spiritedness.

The madness began Thursday evening. I had my photographer Thomas "T Ball" Trevor stop by The Mans to take pics of a new boy for my DV8 Casting agency named Lance Bennett. The stud was supposed to leave the next morning but was dying to stay for the 4th of July so I helped arrange for him to stay until Monday morning and we proceeded to meet up with porn star Ryan Raz who was also in town, my friend Essay and a few others at Tigerheat.

I love the music at Tigerheat, I love the layout of the club and I'm friends with most of the dancers, but I hate really big crowds so I tend to spend most of the evening with the head dancer, Josh Griffin (another DV8 Casting boy I happen to represent) downstairs in the dressing room. Josh was pretty busy that evening, as were the other dancers and after a couple of hours we decided to head to Essay's for an intimate after party that lasted just long enough. I love heading home as the sun's coming up. I don't so much like heading home when the sun is already out.

The next morning I fell out of bed, screamed "Marix!" at the top of my lungs and Essay somehow heard me from a few miles away. I jumped in the shower, he picked me up and we headed to Marix for a fabulous Mexican lunch to cure our hangovers. While there, I had one of those rare moments where I'm incredibly decisive. I put down my drink, straightened my back, looked straight at Essay and said, "I'm going to have a pool party."

"Really?" he asked. "When?"

"Right now!" I answered. "Why the fuck not? I have a pool at The Mans and I never use it! It's 4th of July weekend. Let's have people over."

Though little time was spent by the pool and most was spent in my gorgeous air conditioned room listening to music, chatting it up and partying our asses off, within an hour or so, we were joined by Joe Kenan, Brandon Baker, Chase Harding (one of my latest additions to DV8 Casting), Tristan Mathews, Shane Risk, Josh Griffin, Bobby Trendy, Ryan Raz and a new friend/potential-discovery of mine Kennedy.

There's nothing better than being surrounded by your friends, making sure they are safe, having a good time and sharing memories you'll never forget. I was especially grateful that Brandon Baker had made it out for the weekend. He lives in Vegas and I don't get to see him nearly as much. Absence truly does make the heart grow fonder.

We dispersed a bit later so everyone could change and get ready for an underground underwear party we were invited to later in the evening. It was decided we would all meet up again at Numbers for a quick drink and head downtown from there. At Numbers we met back up with my hot newbie Lance from the night before as well as his friends and then it was off to the party.

Aside from someone throwing up in the car on the way there and not being able to take any alcohol upstairs in this three story loft, this part of the evening was a joy. It was ok, actually. I ran into so many people I knew there who I had not expected to see. The more people I know in a crowd, the less likely I am to be uncomfortable in it.

What was more fun though was Joe Kenan's house after. When the boys weren't getting more naked to put on a show, there was a magician who kept doing card tricks and bending spoons. ...No joke. We find a good time don't we? I had such an unExpectedly good time in fact that I decided to head out after and go to a club called Scandal with Brandon and Essay. At this point, it's 4:00 in the morning so as you can imagine I'm threeee sheets to the wind. A real hoot and a half.

We didn't stay long though. Brandon was done and ready to head out pretty quickly and I had for some reason decided very early in the evening that I was going absolutely nowhere without him. I do tend to attach myself to a friend and make it "our" evening. I don't think I've ever gone out and just jumped from crowd to crowd or person to person throughout the night. I need someone there from beginning to end for familiarity. Tonight I'd decided it would be Brandon. Thankfully, he was okay with that and maybe even a little amused by whatever planet I was on by 6:00 am. Again, the sun was coming up (what a fucking BEAUTIFUL morning that was too! the dew on the bushes and the pinkness of the sky and looking out from the view of the Mans over all the little houses and all the big buildings above me and the... "Jason, open the door." Oh yeah!) and here I was just rolling into bed with Brandon Baker! I'm glad he decided to crash with me for the night.

Brandon had taken really good care of me at The RentBoy.com Pool Party in Palm Springs last month so it was nice to take care of him, even if only a little. I got him water and an extra blanket so he wouldn't be too cold (I like to sleep with it freezing in my room bundled up under lots of blankets) and apparently I sang him lullabyes too! "Heal the World" was a favorite, as well as a ballad version of "Just Dance" that I came up with off the top of (what was left of) my head.

Finally I literally forced myself to go to sleep. It was the first time I've slept in a bed with anyone in a very, very long time. Even when I have had sex with people, I don't like to cuddle after because I don't see the point in pretending there's some emotion involved when I just met the person mere hours before! On top of which, I don't sleep well at all next to someone. I hate hearing them breathe and I hate how hot they make the bed and I hate when they touch me. I know! I have some serious issues. Whatever.

But I have slept in the same bed as Brandon before and because he's such a good friend, there are actually real emotions there. I would so much rather sleep in the same bed as one of my best friends then some random stranger I just fucked. Sleeping with a friend, you feel comfort, security, true warmth. You truly care about the person next to you and they care about you. So I sleep like a baby. And so did he.

We slept late, laid in bed forever until we absolutley had to go grab Chase and Kennedy from Brandon's hotel room. We went to lunch at The Cheesecake Factory in Beverly Hills where we met up with Ryan Raz and by the time that was over, it was already time to get dressed and head to Numbers for my weekly Saturday event, "INDUSTRY."

After the insanity of the last couple of days, Brandon and I both decided to take it easy for the night. I barely had two or three drinks the entire evening which was nice, but made it drag and made the people not taking it easy so much more difficult to deal with. But the fireworks were fun, you could see them from the glass walls in the back since Numbers is on the second floor. And Josh Griffin coordinated some amazing boys, got a gorgeous cake for everyone to eat and did a wonderful job on decorations as always. God bless him for being my right hand man always. I honestly don't know what I would do without him.

At long last, the evening ended. Brandon let Chase Harding and Kennedy have his hotel room and spent the night at my place again where we fell asleep in bed watching the early 80's horror movie "The Hunger." One of my faves.

Late breakfast with Bobby Trendy and Joe Kenan in West Hollywood. Brandon had some other friends to meet up with before he left town so Joe Kenan and I babysat Chase and Kennedy for a bit and had another fun filled day of partying and watching horror movies at his place. Brandon showed up and hung with us for short while before he decided it was time for him to head back to Vegas.

And thus concluded my spontaneous action packed Independence Day weekend.

I came home to find Brandon had made the bed and I think seeing that just might have actually been the highlight of my weekend. It's the little things, ya know?

I crawled into bed, stretched and said my prayers as I do every night. And every night in bed I think to myself how lucky I am that I have this big bed all to myself.

But I didn't think that last night.

A Window To My World

2009-06-17T14:41:00.000-07:00

It's been forever since I've updated my "Diary" blog!

Part of that is because I've been really active about updating the "News Desk" blog every day Monday through Friday now since my traffic at JasonCurious.com is at an all-time high. Gotta keep 'em coming back for more!

But the other reason I've been remiss in updating my "Diary" here is because I've become so obsessed with Twitter and have seen little point in writing a full "Diary" essay when people can see literally everything I've doing, every conversation I'm having and even pics at Twitter.com/JasonSechrest. There's truly no better window to the world of myself and my friends!

Be sure to follow me there if you're not already!

And in the meantime, I will try to get back to updating the "Diary" at least a few times a week. ;-)

My First Protest March

2009-05-27T20:33:00.000-07:00

I made my way down into the huddled masses yesterday evening at 7:00 pm to join the Prop 8 protest march in West Hollywood. It was my first and an experience I am not soon to forget.

After a quick stop to see friends at Fiesta Cantina, my pal Essay and I began the 7 mile trek from San Vicente & Santa Monica to Hollywood & Highland and back! At first, I was a little disappointed with the whole thing. It seemed like some of the gays were just looking for an excuse to go drink early and some of the celebrities saw it as a photo opportunity. The chanting seemed a little strange to me too. We're in West Hollywood, land of all things fag-ulous! Why are we preaching to a choir?

My favorite moment was when I saw porn star Alessandro Del Toro, who seemed to have lost his shoes and was marching in the wrong direction. Keep marching, Alley!

But I understand, these are dark times and it's good to drink through them, all celebrities involved help a cause and regardless of where we're chanting at least it will be on the news for everyone to see that we're not going to stand for this. I get it, I get it.

Still... I kept thinking, if we're going to do this, can't we be loud in our own way? I mean, the chanting "What do we want? EQUAL RIGHTS! When do we want it? NOW!" certainly got the point across, but frankly, marching at night in front of a group of 15,000 people behind me with a poster in my hand, I wanted to start singing, "A new Argentina! The chains of the masses untied..." and began to imagine how amazing it would be (and dare I even say affective and beautiful?) had everyone joined in!

But then something really special happened that I'm very lucky to have been a part of.

Instead of continuing to march on the streets that had been blocked off for us, a group of a couple thousand that I happened to be in the middle of seemed to be turning around and suddenly going in a different direction. I told Essay I didn't understand why we were turning around and asked what was going on and why people were screaming to hurry!

He explained to me that it's not a protest if you're staying on a parade route. We were about to take over another street that wasn't prepared for us and that street turned out to be Sunset Blvd. where we literally ran out into the traffic and stopped it cold.

A good 50 cop cars pulled up and when they told us to move to the right, the more to the left we would move. If they tried to pull up in front of us to block us, we would go past them. They couldn't stop us and we were too close together for them to just start arresting random people. It was such an adrenaline rush, a high like none I've ever experienced except when acting and sometimes singing where you have a completely natural out of body experience. It made me realize the thing all of those highs have in common: Putting something -- be it the cause, the character, the song, the emotion, the story -- before yourself. I often lose touch with a lot of things that take me outside of myself and it was such a great reminder of how necessary those moments are in our lives where we don't care how we look or sound or what we're getting out of something. When you put your ego on the back burner and allow something else to take you over so completely... well, there's just no rush that comes close to it.

Not to mention it was the most exercise I've had in a year, mmkay? I'm sure that had something to do with my blood pumping as well! And how eye opening was that? That there are mornings I think I couldn't possibly find the werewithall to get on a treadmill, yet I managed to walk 7 miles! I'm clearly capable of more than I thought.

Once we reached Hollywood and Highland, we were given chalk by the Sisters of Perpetual Indulgence and told that though we can't yet marry, in the meantime we were to write our own personal vows all over Hollywood Blvd.

I choose to write: "I VOW TO STOP HATE IN MY OWN BACKYARD!"

Because though there's a specific issue we're fighting for, we can never forget what we're fighting against and that is our mortal enemy: Hate. And as always, if you want to change the world, the first thing you do is change what's in the mirror. An act of war is an act of war. We can't all just say we're fighting against Hate and then when someone cuts us off in traffic, flip them the bird and scream, "You stupid fuck!" out the window or we're just as hypocritical as those hypocrites we are fighting against.

When going into war, it is best to have clean hands.