Jath's Life

Bubble? Pearl?

2013-03-03T00:56:00.000+08:00

That day I tried this drink at Little Taiwan. I put a note beside my order stated hot. I thought the bubble could sustain the high temperature but unfortunately it can't. The waiter came back and asked whether is Ok to change my order into a cold drink. Quite fantastic the taste and the bubble quite interesting. That is a time I over sucked my drink and the bubble straight fly into my throat and caused my chocked. It is indeed needed to be extra careful when dealing with drink which has extra alien objects in it. Just my friend and I when to mamak to have our supper and to get some air. Recently weather too warm causing me headache and insomnia. We chat for two hours there and I have told him i'm going to leave end of next month. Then I share a bit my current interest research area, brainwaves. I talked about alpha, beta, thelta, and delta waves. Shared as well a video I watched from TED about the application of brainwaves. It is something very exciting and challenging. I wish I could contribute in this area as well. I wish I could contribute to the society using my knowledge. That's why I chose the path to become a lecturer and a researcher.

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Zombie Research

2013-03-02T00:12:00.000+08:00

This is a place I been lately. I not sure is it I love travel or because I addicted to my own curiousity. Today I read an article about financial management. It said must divide income into five category: expenses, social, ... Oh my~ I forgot what is it about!

My head is feeling so tight and pressured. It is feeling like it going to explode. I have so many things needed to be done and my schedule is packed. I love my tight schedule. It makes me feels alive. I don't like doing nothing. It is too waste of time. That's why I don't like to rest.

There's another thing I read today. Everyone living the same working life. The only thing that will make you different from others is the activity you did between 8pm to 10pm. Whatever happened within this hours show who you are and how success you will be.

I finally received my offer letter from university. I will report for duty on May. So, I need to complete all my work here within two months. A book chapter about digital forensic need to write and my own thesis haven't done refine. I would love to further my research in person authentication using brainwaves EEG. It is the future technology and I would love to involve.

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Fat Potato

2013-02-28T02:07:00.000+08:00

Finally, the competition I took part in is over. Everything going smooth and excellent. Seriously, I like my poster design. It is simple but yet informative. On top of that I like those cartoons I draw. Made a few new friends today during exhibition. They are all my junior five batches after me.

I didn't really go booth by booth checking their system but I do have question regarding their graphical user interface design. It is so not corporate style and the color usage is not contrast enough. Human computer interactive subject is something I like during my bachelor degree study. Although I am not a multimedia student at I do believe GUI design is the most important part for a system.

Evaluation is done by today but the winner haven't announce yet. Still have to wait... I always enjoy in everything I did and I enjoying the every process. Makes some new friends is surely something unexpected. I think I am indeed grow up a bit.

One guy from Infineon offered me a job. He is a senior manager of global operation. He invites me to be their senior ASP developer. The position is so attractive that I moved a bit my stand. I love programming and I enjoying developing system. Educational and research are something else which I always wish I could excellent in. Choosing between something I wish to be or I love to be is so headache.

Before I end up my blog, one thing I want to jot down here. I am FAT! OMG! I have double chin and my face is so big and round. I really need to diet and exercise.

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What most schools don't teach

2013-02-27T21:11:00.001+08:00

"...You don't need to be a genius in coding. You just need to be determined."
I love this sentence most.

Pressured As Try Not To Be Perfect

2013-02-25T00:26:00.000+08:00

Last night having dinner at Little Taiwan with roommates. Then we went for a movie named Hotel Deluxe. It is a comedy movie and it is indeed meet up my expectation. Laughing nonstop throughout the show. Finally, I watched a movie which I have not yet since my birthday. It becomes a traditional for me to watch movie and eat cake during my birthday. I would prefer to celebrate my birthday alone first then with my friends.

Left two days more until the final day for a competition I took part. Today I went campus to setup everything. Recompiled the codes after some changes happened. Now i'm wondering whether want to do a complete and a more detailed documentation or not. I keep on telling myself that i'm not involving myself in this competition to win. The problem is i'm such a perfectionist. I can't accept things done imperfect. I need to sleep and hope I could make up my mind tomorrow as submission is tomorrow at 3pm.

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Must Not Have Hesitation

2013-02-23T02:17:00.000+08:00

My poster is finally printed out. A1 sized poster and I quite satisfied with it. I'm glad that I decided to do my design using GIMP. Saving it into tiff format really saved me a lot of work. I really feel thankful to my lecturer that taught me all this knowledge in design. Although is a small thing but it is very useful. Taught by someone who has high standard is always my enthusiasm in learning. I love someone teaching using their experience not just raw from book. Whatever happened today, I have only one thing to say. Thank you, my dear lecturer.

Second thing that bothering me today is the presentation during evaluation day next Wednesday. I have been given a deep consideration about how I should presented this project. Should I go easy on it? Or should I go extreme Today whole day waiting for audit people come at CIT lab, allowed me plenty time to pounder things. I finally have a conclusion for it. I must present my group project with all I could. I should not have any hesitate for others. I must treat others equally. Going easy on them will only means I look down on them. I must not have that kind of mindset.

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Money Shooter

2013-02-22T00:25:00.000+08:00

Alright! I done designing my group poster and documentation is printed out. Now left only submission. I purposely went campus today just to submit my group documentation but mission failed. That lecturer just too busy. I went to her office every hour from morning until late afternoon but she is just not around. I can't do anything but wait patiently as she doesn't even replied my email. So I assumed she will be back from lecture soon. Problem is I can't found any timetable on her notice board outside her room. Wait and wait. Trip by trip. Until 4pm something, she replied my email saying she will be at her room next Monday at 3pm. Great! A day lost because waiting for something not worth to.

I don't like doing nothing. I'm going to leave Melaka very soon. My application has been accepted. I'm now waiting for the offer letter to inform me the date I could start my job. However I still haven't done refining my thesis and I haven't wrote a book chapter about digital forensic. Heavy tasks...

I wish I could published at least five conference papers a year. Even if I doing so I must not give to get my phd in five years. Although my plan kind of delay but I shouldn't give up. My original plan is to get phd in my thirtieth. Whose know I spent an extra year at here... My dream is to help people using my analysis skill in research. I hope I could pass on my knowledge to the young one.

Next week got a presentation not less than ten minutes. I need to do preparation. Setup work needed as I have blurred out what have I done. I remember I didn't complete that system but I just couldn't figure out what it is. I did a survey for room to let and the rental is quite high at there. Around RM300 just for a room which is equal to a house at here. Money oh money~

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Finding Way Back

2013-02-19T03:26:00.000+08:00

This is again another post to jot down my tasks. I have a lot of things needed to complete and most of them are urgent. Besides the thesis correction need to be done in march, I still have to complete some sub missions. This week I need to submit a project documentation which I haven't start writing a word. Then I need to design a poster to represent my system. After that some setup work and preparation for next week presentation.

Meanwhile, I need to write a book chapter about digital forensic which I haven't even start any experiments yet. This book chapter idea of mine is totally different from my supervisor which makes me confuse. This month will be a busy month. After next week I will be notified if I have been offered a job. Yet, I haven't complete most of my tasks at here.

If everything going smoothly, I could settled all things just like what I had planned. The problem is my mindset. I feel like my body is doing something that out of mind. I guess I need to find a way to restrain myself in order to put myself back in track.

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Big Ass Heart

2013-02-14T23:05:00.000+08:00

Valentine's day. I have been single for a long long time. Doesn't have any interest to have someone else in my life yet. Perhaps is because I still haven't met the right one. I just can't accept someone move in my life and restrict my freedom. I don't like a velcro type girl friend. I need my own personal time and I like to do certain things only by myself. I know how to cook well and I am a little bit OCD in cleanliness which makes me taking care of myself better than others. I really do not like to eat very much and I still don't know why people keep using food to bribe me. However, I do enjoy the every processes happened. I enjoy the way we communicate. I enjoy the way you order food. I enjoy our time taken in travel. I enjoy every smiles on your face.

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Peach Flavor

2013-02-12T22:27:00.000+08:00

Today is my birthday which it falls on CNY. Since I was little, I seldom get a cake from bakery as they haven't start business yet during the occasion. But I always have cake on my birthday. My mom baked cake for me when I was a kid; now, my sister baked for me. This peach cheese cake baked by my sister is marvelous. This few days I keep drinking beers and I found that the amount to make me feel drunk is increasing. Local university? Or oversea? It is too difficult to decide which to choose.

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Sleep Is What I Want

2013-02-12T01:51:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday to me! Yeah! People nowadays too rely on social media. However, i'm shocked when one of cousin actually know my birthday fall on when. She is just too amazing in memorizing numbers. I ate too many things today and drank too much of beers. However, it is strange that I didn't get drunk or even dizzy.

My uncle at Australia called this morning and again he asked me to go continue my study at there. Even all my aunties and uncles supporting me to go there. Honestly, my heart moved a little bit. Thinking of how will I be if I am there... I talked with my brother in law for a few hours already just now. I blank out a lots as I can't catch what he said. He talked about a problem and asked me solution. I don't know what he really want to know.

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Plast For Love

2013-02-10T23:34:00.000+08:00

These are all my cosmetic products. Gallette Shave cream, tweezer, Simple facial toner, loreal men expert moisturiser, Axe deodorant, Vaseline body lotion. Besides that there is a wine opener, let's just say it is for internal beautification. I used it once only since I bought it last time during emotional waving. The experience quite good and I very enjoy of it. Although I do suffered from some memories lost and I still couldn't find out what is it. This CNY made me flashed back memory with someone. One of the reason I deleted my facebook account also because of her. I can't stand that I still have feeling for her after all these time.

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Frozen Chocolate

2013-02-08T23:52:00.000+08:00

At hometown. Yeah! Chinese New Year. Yeah! Writing thesis during new year. Yeah? Yeah! Time flies... Every things happened so fast. So fast until I thought it was yesterday. Four months I have moved to new house. Five months I have write and correcting my thesis. One year I have done my research without doing anything else.

Two years ago something happened and changed my life forever. My heart never pump so lively yet painful. It is an unknown feeling that almost crumbled my live. I'm so emotional dysfunction and blind. I thought I could force something coming out and bloom. I'm so selfish and not rational. People said time is the best medicine for all the things but for me it's a poison. It frozen everything. Thing doesn't move on but freeze at the moment just like how it is last time.

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Don't Be Useless

2013-02-07T03:22:00.000+08:00

我这一生中最错的决定就是当初同意让自己休息。这决定几乎毁了我自己，放纵的生活要恢复真的好难。现状的我就连一成昔日的我也没有。没上进心的我就象是被俘虏了没了自尊。行尸走肉，得过且过的过日子太放肆太丢人现眼了。可是就因为我从不在乎过别人，所以我根本没在意过其他人的看法。我也没有虚荣心，所以别人有什么都与我无关。我努力，我奋斗为的是什么？最近，我终于有目标了。我沉睡了那么久，终于有回些觉醒的挣扎了。

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葉秉桓-夜夜夜夜(齊秦)

2013-02-05T22:06:00.001+08:00

續愛一個人後，我喜歡上的一首歌。他唱歌就有一種讓人停下來聽的魔力。這首齊秦的夜夜夜夜聽過太多人唱了，就是沒有聽過這樣的版本。

A Test. It Is A Test!

2013-02-05T01:08:00.001+08:00

I have taken a personality test which took me about half an hour to answered all the questions.
The test could be access here.

I took this kind of test before during my study at Matriculation college. It was conducted by my teacher and it's in Chinese but that test result only yields FOUR characteristics. This test follow the MBTI test and it yields 16 personalities in total. I could say it is a very accurate and professional test indeed. My test result could be found in the top panel menu where my pages are.

A Farewell and A Birthday Celebration

2013-02-04T22:50:00.001+08:00

So, the story began when I was the only one left in my house at Melaka. I came back from my hometown after attended an interview at Perak. The interview went well and it is far more better than how I thought it will be. The only question that we keep discussed about is when will I having my VIVA. Well... That's kind of hard to tell as I'm still haven't submit my thesis yet but it will be soon. However, I just can't control how fast the process will took.

After I back in Melaka as I still have some unfinished business in here, no choice but coming back even Chinese New Year just left a few days. On top of that, I have a dinner to attend. It is not a formal dinner as it is a dinner with my friends. In the beginning, it supposes to be a group of friends but in the end just left two of us having dinner at a Japanese restaurant called OHAN.

I am the birthday boy and he is the one who will leave Melaka soon. It is a bit awkward as we celebrate both ourselves but who cares and I get a free dinner. My friend bought the bill for that night. I'm so fulled and it feels like my stomach going to explode. We thought it will comes in small portion and we have ordered so many. The food there is acceptable. Not bad, not too good either.

When I Disappeared, Left You, He And She.

2013-02-01T23:12:00.000+08:00

我想我真的变了。变得更圆滑，更在乎其他人的感受过于自己。我能够感受到别人的心情和情绪。我想我不见了。

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Pump Up

2013-01-28T22:27:00.001+08:00

I'm going north for an interview this Wednesday for two days. I have decided my path, educational. This is something unexpected even for me being educator just not in my thought before. Teaching others is something i would love to do but I never thought I will become a lecturer. Well, let's us see how my interview going this Thursday.

I have told my supervisor today about my interview. She kind of surprise that I will choose this path as my future work but she support me and wish me all the best. She said she see me as friend than a supervised student. I heard this statement since the first day I meet her. After all these time, she still saying the same thing to me. This is kind of touch to my heart. I very happy today as I have a friend that really admit to me face to face.

She asked me not to give up my doctorate and I told her i will continue my study under her but this time as a part time student. If I really got a position in the university I going to interview this Thursday, I must keep my promise. I just a few steps more to my doctorate and I will not give up. I have a good supervisor that support me in every aspect that makes me invulnerable.

Fighting oh!!!

The Scientist - Coldplay Acoustic Cover (Jorge and Alexa Narvaez)

2013-01-25T13:13:00.001+08:00

I almost weep when listening to this cover done by them. The little girl is so cute but the way she looks at her dad is really sparks something in love.

Life Bender

2013-01-22T23:44:00.000+08:00

我今天做好了一件事、想通了一个道理、仿佛的看到一些决定。下星期要上霹雳州面试了。说真的是有些顾虑，可是心情还算是淡定。我说过我要比以往更乐观的过日子，所以我不能在还没踏出去就颤抖。我不喜欢懦弱的自己。我是时候出去看看世界，接触不一样的人类了。我知道我能做得到，只是我就是有那么的一丁点不那么的能接受与人交际。好吧！我知道我人生的目的地了。如果一个人有八十岁的寿命，那就是说我花了快半辈子在寻找自己。可是这半辈子里我都很开心地在做自己喜欢的事，而这些我爱上的事塑造了我的下半辈子。我想：我没白活了。我只能说我追求的东西与其他人不一样。

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Digesting Problem

2013-01-20T13:18:00.000+08:00

Having lunch at Lamongan Ayam Penyet after worship is definitely a new experience. I never thought of this before as I live not in the area which fall within the route I could taken. But with the house I currently stay in, it is just a perfect routine.

I planned everything nicely before I took off and I will follow what in plan exactly when carry out the mission. I have been thinking deeply today whether I should just go for it with less worrying and try to survive anything I faced later. I know I am not that kind of people that wouldn't have a blueprint in hand when in a mission.

Too much things to think and too much things to worry about are definitely a bad situation and is better stay out. Worries is a negative energy and it will engulfed my spirit. I must stay optimistic and smile always like it can even cured cancer.

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Dwi, Two, Dua

2013-01-20T02:52:00.000+08:00

今天我很放肆的过我的生活。我看了一个下午的动漫，玩了一个晚上的魔兽，喝了三个小时的茶。我不喜欢压迫自己，可是最近不得不给予自己约束。要不然生命松松散散的就太不负责任了。论文就快更改好了，我也为自己考虑了将来的道路。继续升学修博士是我从小的梦想，而工作的生活是我所向往的。之前申请成为讲师已经成功闯过了筛选，月底就要去面试了。今天，我的一个朋友告诉我他的公司缺人。软件程序员耶～令我最着迷的职业啊！一个能够集爱好与事业为一体的梦吖…又陷入苦恼状态了。不想了，明天崇拜后再决定。

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Moving Castle

2013-01-19T16:21:00.001+08:00

昨晚臨睡前我選著了看另一齣屬於宮崎駿的電影——哈爾移動的城堡。以前看過一次，現在也不太清楚了；所以決定重看。近來我都選著用另一種較哲學的方式看這一類的電影。可是這一部跟之前的太不一樣，他不是要通過電影中的故事啟發些什麼東西。他是現有一東西，然後再把這東西隱藏了起來，再擴大。這也難怪我一直的不明白這部動畫要表達什麼。當我越想嘗試明白它卻越被它搞糊塗了。

我想他是要告訴我們蘇菲的遭遇嗎？是跟帽子的那間老店有相關的嗎？是一部關於繼母的故事嗎？我起先還認為是一部屬於白雪公主類的電影，只是繼母是個好人。漸漸地，我迷失了。這部動畫的女主角變得跟以往宮崎駿電影的女主角不一樣了。她沒有琪琪的可愛也沒有千尋的天真。她就是平凡。我就在猜想，難道這電影是要說蘇菲的嗎？在我看完了以後，不然。這部戲是一部完完全全關於哈爾的？

我回想，回想電影中的哈爾。突然，我發現哈爾在電影中的角色是會成長得。他入場的第一幕，超帥氣的。金發，綠色珠寶的耳環，飄逸的外套。然後，哈爾牽著蘇菲在空中漫步更是讓我覺得白馬王子系列的動畫。其實，這一幕很重要的。就是這一幕決定了哈爾的一生。

卡西火只是一顆隕落的流星，而且是一顆漸漸逝去的光芒。要讓他生存下去就只有吃下人類的身體中任何一個部位，他說心臟是就好。但是，當他也手下蘇菲的辮子取代他所要的眼睛作為交易。這就引起了我的好奇也讓我找到了這部戲的點。城堡是卡西火變出來的也靠著他移動。而卡西火的生存是因為哈爾小時候的一個許願。在電影最後的那一幕，哈爾捧著流星喃喃的對著它講話。然後，他把流星吞了下去變出了有火燒著的心臟——卡西火。

所以就是說那間會移動的城堡就代表著了哈爾的心，也就代表著他的心願。可是，他到底許了什麼願望了呢？我想這個跟他在電影中的角色很有關聯。這城堡的門能夠通去四個地方，而城堡自己也能夠不斷的移動。所以第一樣發現的是哈爾是自由主義者。哈爾擁有着不同的名字，證明他在逃避一些東西。他膽小不願意去面對一些事。可是，這黑色的門卻是通去戰場。他不斷的在阻止戰爭，他也不是任何一方面的朋友或是敵人。這就讓我在猜哈爾當初的願望是與和平有關的。

蘇菲是個很特別的角色。在戲中，她被咒詛成了九十歲的老太婆。我就在想：什麼是咒詛？這讓我想起了《睡美人》的橋段，被咒詛沉睡然後等候破解。所以，我就明白了這件事。蘇菲變老的咒詛是源自於她的自卑感。所以，在片中她時老時幼的。她覺得自己不美麗，所以常常帶著帽子。而她所選著的帽子總是最平凡的，因為她認為這最適合她。到電影結束，蘇菲的咒詛都沒有人解除。可是卻破解了，因為她接受了自己。

哈爾不斷的堅持著活下去，也是因為他一直的在等著她。為什麼和這兩者的關聯我就不寫了，因為我想再看。所以就不破梗了。

喜歡電影中的一段對白。

哈爾對蘇菲說：“我不能夠再膽小的活下去了，因為我找到一個非要去保護不可的人。”
蘇菲對卡西火說：“我希望他能膽小一點。”

I Can't Make You Love Me

2013-01-17T20:27:00.000+08:00

Suddenly I miss the feeling of heart-burning feeling from the wine. I guess my mind try telling me to drug myself from being too depressed of the recent life dramas. I'm struggling to escape from my current life and in fact I struggling very hard. However it is seem I am struggling just not too hard as my body start to resist and fight back. My mind has been shut down for a whole day today. When I said shut down, it means fainted, unconscious or some would probably just said sleep. I can't feel myself anymore and my sights started to became blur and that's what the some last things before my day being cut off from me.

The wind blows strongly recently and I quite enjoying it. I enjoying sightseeing and so I don't like things that remain still. I love nature; perhaps is because they at least survive not matter how cruel the human has done to them. I so wish the bliss of the wind could calm me down right now.