Have you noticed that it seems as though more and more people are on the move?  Changing jobs.  Changing residences and even states.  Changing relationships.  It’s the only constant anymore it seems… change.  Most of us have a very difficult time managing these life changes.  All too often we become so attached to the mundane routine (complacency) and when life throws us a curve ball that we aren’t ready for, most of us duck and hit the ground rather than attempt a swing to hit that sucker, head on out of the ball park.

You’ve heard me say it before and I’ll say it again… the Universe will clear out that which no longer serves you whether you are ready for it or not.  What seems to be most common amongst all of us when crisis and chaos turn our world upside down is that it’s really NOT that big of a surprise if we really take a moment to look at it from a higher perspective. 

Divine guidance comes from our Spiritual Entourage all the time… every minute of every day.  Odds are that we had probably heard our guidance or had a ‘feeling’ that this particular change was necessary a while ago, but the thought of such an overwhelming, seemingly impossible change had us turning a deaf ear and a blind eye to our Heavenly Management team.  Quite often, while ripping out the old foundation we so desperately clung to for so many years, these changes come in the form of a new opportunity presenting itself.  Questions is, do we accept the Heavenly Handout?

On a Silver Platter

For me, I had my massive transition 2 years ago when the real estate industry crashed.  Having been through bankruptcy, foreclosure, repossession, and the end of an 11 year relationship all on top of losing my career and income was a major wake up call.  I was given the opportunity to shelve myself in Maui for 7 months to virtually recover and get back to center within.  Most recently, I was given another opportunity which was yet another one of those cosmic gifts that just couldn’t be shunned.  Having been back from Maui for nearly a year, and even in a new relationship this year, I was given the opportunity to give one of my favorite places EVER a chance… Los Angeles.  Oh boy… more change.

Change has always freaked me out.  And my last 2-3 years has been nothing but change and growth… on SO many levels!  But, I knew deep within that this wouldn’t have presented itself in the manner that it did if there wasn’t something I was supposed to create and/or get out of this opportunity.  I felt in my heart (in spite of my kicking and screaming as we parted) that the relationship I had been in for the last 7 months was probably not going anywhere.  Feeling uninspired and unmotivated for so many months, I felt that Phoenix had pretty much stalled out for me as if I had gotten all that I could out of it up to this point (in spite of the tears and sadness leaving).

On some level, I knew that there was something about to change yet again.  I didn’t know how or when.  But, I felt it.  Then came the phone call from my friend asking me to come stay with him in L.A. for a change of scenery and to see what opportunities may lie on the horizon.  So okay Heaven… bring it on.

It’s My Turn to be Brave

To quote the lyrics of one of my favorite Idina Menzel songs, “Brave”… ‘I don’t know where I’m going and tomorrow is a little overwhelming.  If this is the moment I stand here on my own, if this is my rite of passage that somehow brings me home.  I might be afraid, but it’s my turn to be brave.’  It couldn’t speak more to how I was feeling any more perfect than that.  I knew I had to do it.  I knew it was going to hurt breaking up.  I knew it was going to be sad leaving home and I knew I might cry and feel the thorns in my side.  But I also have faith and trust that I’m being guided and what lies ahead is in my best and highest good.

Be

Are you going through a big time transition right now?  How are you managing it physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually?  Are you taking quiet time for yourself?  Are you maintaining physical exercise to help keep your body, mind and sleep schedule up to snuff?  Or are you mentally running and hiding and numbing yourself… not feeling your fear and succumbing to the addictions that each and everyone of us have and can relate to on some level?  Food?  Alcohol?  Drugs - prescription or otherwise?  Sex?  Work?  I can relate to both sides of the coin as I have managed to find myself in both sandboxes.  And trust me, the former is SO much easier than the latter.  It might seem that numbing your feelings, mind and heart seem easier at the time.  But it only makes everything 10 times worse afterwards.  And if you find yourself in the latter sandbox?  It’s ok.  Just get out now before it’s harder to do so tomorrow.  Have compassion and forgive yourself.  Ask your Spiritual Entourage for help and strength.  Ask your guardian angels to cut those cords to that which no longer serves you… alcohol, drugs, cigarettes, overeating, etc.  And just BREATHE.

Another song comes to mind right here, ‘No Day But Today’ from the Broadway musical “RENT”.  ‘There’s only us, there’s only this.  Forget regret or life is yours to miss.  No other path.  No other way.  No day but today.  There’s only now, there’s only here.  Give in to Love or live in fear.’

Give in to Love.  Surrender.  Go with the flow.  Be in the moment.  Trust.  Do everything you can.  Do not block yourself by creating expectations or demands.  Your only goal is just to BE.  Remember you ARE brave!  If so many of us believe in a higher power, how is it that we so easily lose faith and belief during these times when our world seems to be disintegrating?  With faith in something so supremely powerful (God/Spirit/Creator/Universe etc) and all loving and light filled… why wouldn’t an experience like this be a big wake up call to which we could respond with, “Oooohhhh Ok.  Yep, I knew that wasn’t working.  Ok Heaven, I see clearly that you are making this change for me and I trust that you will guide me and we will work it all out together.” 

Regardless of our present circumstances and how scary they may appear, breathe and just BE.  Accept the changes.  Allow the changes to flow.  Let the chips fall where they may, and you will come out much stronger than you ever thought possible.  Believe in yourself.  Believe in your Spiritual Entourage.  You have more strength and support than you can possibly know.

1.  to engage in thought or contemplation

2.  to engage in transcendental meditation, devout religious contemplation, or quiescent spiritual introspection

Guided Meditation:

1.  a meditation session conducted by verbal instruction from a teacher

Meditation on the Big Island of Hawaii

Crystal Grid for Meditation

We’ve all heard the phrase, “Hindsight is always 20/20.”  And truth be told, it is.  We always seem to ‘get it’ AFTER the fact!  Why is that?  Why is it that we struggle and kick and scream and throw these massive temper tantrums as we are making our way through this journey, AKA our ’story’?  We cruise through our lives, many of us on autopilot, not even looking at our own personal road map let alone paying attention to the ethereal road signs. IE… those messages from Spirit…the whispers from our Spiritual Entourage (God/Spirit/Source/Creator, and extensions of God…our guardian angels <ashers>, archangels, spirit guides, and our dead loves ones etc).

When we have come through a challenging period where the Universe seems to whip up a monsoon on our parade, and we consciously review with an open heart and an open mind all that we just went through, we are able to see it for what it was and what it was meant to be.  We are finally able to make heads or tails of the monsoon that hit us, and the lessons we were meant to grow from during that time of ickyness.  Upon reviewing my the last 2-3 years, I now know that I was THE quintessential poster child of temper tantrums and resistance. I held on to everything so tightly that I left ethereal claw marks on EVERYTHING in resistance to the change I NEEDED and, the truth is, I asked for it.  Well, we can’t always get what we want…and most often what we end up with in times like this is what we NEED. I just didn’t realize that by asking for ‘change’, that I would end up so desperately holding on so tightly to that which wasn’t working any longer!   HUH?  Wha?  Who? <throwing myself to the floor in fits of hysterics>  WHHHHHYYYYYYY!?!?

One teeny tiny little word.

Fear.

Mmmmm Hmmm.  FEAR.  As my friend Colette Baron Reid (www.colettebaronreid.com) tells us, fear is an acronym for Forgetting Everything is All Right.  I just love her.  Thank you Colette!  Soooooooo TRUE.  As we are in the spin cycle feeling like we are spinning out of control without a handle on anything and unable to determine which direction we are heading, let alone feel like we can stand on our own two feet…we oftentimes look to persons on the outside (intuitive counselors <psychics>, friends, therapists, church leaders, and of course those strangers bellied up to the bar right along with us) for answers.

Foresight.

Don’t get me wrong.  I believe it is VERY healthy to ask for that support and advice <”What should I do now??  Where is this leading me??> and talk through everything we feel we are going through with all of these people.  The communication helps us unload and filter through the  baggage that we cling to which muddies our waters and our internal navigation.  It helps provide introspect and insight as we hear ourselves tell our story over and over.  Herein lies the clue however… how many of us actually ‘listen’ to ourselves tell our story?

Oftentimes, we can very easily become addicts to the guidance that comes from those outside sources.  We have the propensity to continue our search for the perfect advice that we ‘want’ to hear.  In a relationship crisis, we don’t want to hear that he/she’s never coming back or that the relationship wasn’t working anyway and it’s time to move on.  In a career crisis, we don’t want to hear that the industry we’ve devoted most of our adult life to has crashed so hard that we actually have to make an effort to provide again.  And if our position was that of a CEO or highly successful Real Estate agent, in light of the recent downturn in the economy, this might mean sucking it up and taking a job of which we feel is ‘less than’ just to keep the electricity on and food on the table.  <to the wounded human ego, that is a big OUCH. - another article entirely>  But my point is, after searching out for the ‘right’ advice, we will most likely feel more confused than we were when we originally discovered we were in a personal crisis or the spin cycle!  Ultimately, the Truth comes from within.  The best advice we can hear and TRUST, comes from within our own very being… those Divine messages and advice from Spirit and our Entourage.

The Blind Side

It is during these challenging times where we look around ourselves in that 360 degree circle wondering with incredibly paralyzing fear which direction to step.  We wonder what lies ahead at this point in time and  we have ZERO clue as to what our options are.  This moment in itself is a huge message (and a super huge opportunity) to consciously open a dialogue and build that relationship and communication with our Spiritual Entourage.  Our ‘Entourage’ has been with us from the moment we came into this world all greasy and shriveled up.  In fact, I’m CERTAIN upon our way into this world, that we waved and said, “See you on the other side!”.  Our Entourage has been giving us subtle messages and guiding us throughout our entire existence whether we knew it or not.

In these times of crisis and blindness, we all must remember that we are where we are, for a reason and a lesson.  And most certainly, when the Universe takes our world and shakes it up like a snow globe, this is a huge message to get our attention and ‘wake up’.  We are more than we once thought we were.  To quote another one of my favorites, John Holland, (www.johnholland.com), “We are spiritual beings, living a human existence.”  It’s time to recognize this and tap into the power of what Heaven has to offer.  We must forge ahead with Trust and a Knowing that our Spiritual Entourage has our backs.  When we open our eyes to the miracles of synchronicity, we don’t have to worry about the blind spot or that which we can’t see.  We just KNOW that we are being led or directed and guided to our next step and/or the next level on this amazing journey.

‘Scuse Me, Pardon Me, Comin Thru… Rock Star on Tour

For me, as you all know, I call my guardian angels, guides, etc, my Spiritual Entourage.  I know a number of them by name.  I see it as if I’m in a HUGE pimped out Rock Star bus on tour with them.  M.J., my main spirit guide and my Manager… well he drives the bus (good thing there ain’t no booze where they are because he’s a wild one).  Eli, Josiah and Gabriel (my guardian angels) are my Security Team and they help me manage what I’m doing now and whisper messages regarding my journey ahead and what is to come.  I know of two other spirit guides, Claire and Melinda.  They are my assistants.  “Mr. Peck?  You have a 2 o’clock reading with Ms. Walters via the Heavenly Web, and we have her Spiritual Entourage on hold.”  Claire and Melinda help remind me that my intuition/psychic/mediumship abilities are always within me and always growing stronger as long as I continue to do the work and go to the ‘Psychic Gym’.  They ensure my T1 line to Heaven is always intact within me.  Melinda also sits up there with a headset around her head, relaying information from the Akashic Record Hall for me during readings.  Sometimes she has a attitude… yes… not AN attitude… A ATTITUDE.

So… if you are one of the MANY out there right now who are finding yourself stuck, or confused and scared, unsure of what to do next, or where to turn… all you have to do is ask for help and then watch the miracles and synchronicity unfold before your eyes.  They come in VERY subtle forms <yet again, another article altogether> and they come at the most perfect times if you remain conscious and aware.  If you feel the need to contact a well reputable spiritual counselor for a little lift and insight and guidance?  Then by all means… DO!  You are probably hearing that message to do so!  Hear the messages given to you by the intuitive regardless if they aren’t exactly what you want to hear.  Remember, we can’t always get what we want because we don’t know what we don’t know.  We always end up getting what we need.

Be in the moment.  Trust.  Do everything you can.  And do NOT block yourself by holding expectations and demands… because I’ll say it again, you just don’t know what you don’t know.  Lean on your Spiritual Entourage… they have your blind side, your back… and they undoubtedly will guide you if you allow them.

Big Love!

Jeff

Today’s theme song!  :)  16-you-cant-always-get-what-you-want-glee-cast-version

**Photography by the fabulous, none other than Barbara Roether of Barbara Roether Photography!

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Shelved.

Sometimes it feels as though I have shelved myself for a period of time, doing nothing but collecting dust, all the while spinning inside feeling like I should be doing SOMETHING.  I feel stuck, a little bit lost, a little bit lonely and a little bit confused with regards to my life purpose and what the heck I am doing here.  Why AM I here?  Why am I doing what I am doing at the given moment?  How did I get here?  Am I standing in my own personal truth?  Am I speaking my truth from my authentic Self?  Am I just taking up space?

I was watching the sunrise this morning, sitting in the gorgeous, cool, crisp morning air here in the desert southwest pondering my day and wondering what guidance (if any) I was going to hear from my Spiritual Entourage as to the direction I’m heading on my path.   Sometimes it feels like I’m running in circles chasing an illusion.  Of course, it is all an illusion isn’t it? But what is it exactly that I’m chasing?  Happiness?  Freedom?  Peace?  Forgiveness?  Acceptance?  Love?  Oh, the list can go on and on can’t it?  The truth is, all of this already resides within me/us. IE.  THE MAP!!  All we need to do is stop for a moment, change our perception of what we believe is the truth.  We must change our perspective in how we consistently tell our story by turning it around and recognizing the gifts in all the CRAP we continue to believe about our story.

What are YOU chasing?  What is YOUR story?  Grab your MAP!

Every single one of us can relate to these seemingly never ending thoughts as these bazillion monkeys swing from branch to branch endlessly within our human minds.  Every single one of us are in search of these answers.  However, these answers can only come from within.  Not one person outside of ourselves can give us the answers we so desperately search for.

One thing I do know for a fact within myself, is that we are never STUCK.  We are never NOT progressing.  We are never NOT growing.  We are in the process of Becoming, albeit sometimes ‘Frustration Station’ and seemingly going nowhere at times.  {tapping foot - looking at watch - impatience deluxe sets in}  When is my train going to show up and take me where I want to go?  Why am I in such a hurry?  Why must I feel I have 44 things to accomplish in the next 10 minutes or I’m spinning out of control?

Sometimes we just need to take a little bit of downtime to regroup, recenter and collect ourselves in order to make the next progression on our paths as we make our way on this cosmic tour.  Sometimes our angels, our guides, God, Spirit, the Universe, or whatever we personally call our own spiritual help, FORCE us to shelve ourselves for a time.  The Universe will undoubtedly clear out our closets for us if we don’t pay attention to that which is no longer is serving us.  Our egos are so driven to do things OUR way.  Our egos tell us that we can (and we HAVE to).  Our egos make us believe that it’s too late to make a change, or it’s not the right time, or there isn’t enough money, or basically… we are in LACK LACK LACK LACK.

Truth is, we live in an endlessly abundant world.  We have the power within to do whatever we set our minds.  Each and every one of us have the strength within ourselves to go places and do things that our egos, or the bazillion monkeys have told us over and over that we just can’t because BLAH BLAH BLAH… EXCUSES EXCUSES EXCUSES!  I mean, if we have such Trust and Faith in a Higher Power… God, Spirit, Creator etc… then WHY couldn’t we and/or shouldn’t we be able to succeed with backing as powerful as THAT? 

As most of you know, I took myself to Maui in March of ‘09 after my (what I thought at the time) was a massive catastrophe looking like a disasterous killer tsunami.  At the time I saw it as a major midlife crisis after hitting the skids personally, professionally, emotionally and everything in between.  Whoa can I play the victim card!  WOOWIE!  Ouch!  Not the prettiest color on me!

Well, I thought I went out to Maui to start a new life.  I totally thought I was going out there to start over… start fresh and new.  I felt like I had to get out there and hit the ground running at the speed of Thought.  It, however, ended up not looking like the brochure I had created in my mind.  Turns out, I was just meant to shelve myself for a while.  The 6 months I was in Maui was meant for healing, regrouping, re-centering and a BIG lesson in personal growth and perspective.  I was in so much pain, undoubtedly.  I thought my world had just crumbled to the ground and burned in a massive A-bomb.  And truth be told… it did.  The Universe did clear out EVERYTHING… all that which no longer served me.  Everything that I was holding onto so tightly… basically just STUFF.  And I’m talking everything from possessions, to a long term relationship, to emotions and old feelings of harbored anger and pain, to a career that I hated and my list could go on to fill up something the size of the Wikipedia online.

My point is, I was forced to re-evaluate my perspective of my ’story’.  I love my story now.  I see the gifts in all of what I had previously thought of as dark, hurtful, painful moments in my history.  I now see the synchronicity that was consistently taking place leading me from one point to another, ultimately to where I am now.  I was given the opportunity… well, I was forced to shelve myself (in spite of myself).  It was the BEST, yet most painful 6 months of my life to date.  With so much change having took place within, I felt like I was away for years.  I wish EVERYONE could take 6 months to get away from themselves as they once believed themselves to be.  However, it doesn’t need to take a trip half way around the world.  It doesn’t require a tsunami or A-bomb to destroy what was once thought of as Truth or Reality.

All it takes… you ready???  All it takes is to walk this journey with an open heart and open eyes.  All it takes is a minor shift perspective.  How simple is THAT?  I love it!  Regardless of the mistakes we’ve made… regardless of the pain that has been inflicted on us by others… regardless of the pain we have inflicted on others including ourselves.  By walking this journey with open eyes and an open heart filled with compassion for ourselves and others and by walking this journey without judgment or attachment, we are able to make that shift in perspective and recognize our Truths and the Gifts from the ill-perceived wrong turns we’ve made, or dark and pain filled times.  Think about it… the most difficult periods in our past are when we learn and grow the most.

On a Good Day!

Like the words in the song “On a Good Day” by Oceanlab… “I’ve been talking to myself forever and how I wish I knew me better.  Still sitting on a shelf… and never seen the sun shine brighter… and it feels like me on a good day.”

The sun is shining brighter.  Brighter than I have ever known.  And in this rat race that we all have found ourselves in, it’s SO ok to allow ourselves the time to shelve and regroup.  It’s in these times of self reflection and consciously shifting our perception with open eyes that we can truly change our lives.  It took me almost 39 years to realize that my road map on this trip is within.  It took me almost 39 years to realize that our “OnStar” and/or “Navigation System” lies within our Angels, and Guides and Heavenly Beings.  Constant supervision and guidance is always with us and only a thought away.  We just have to give ourselves permission to shut up and stop.  Get off the ride for a minute and just breathe…. just BE!  Sitting on my shelf, I never dreamed the sun could shine brighter… and it lit up the road map I thought I lost, or never had.

Theme song for today’s Post!!  :)  OceanLab - On a Good Day

\”On a Good Day\”

Very recently, I attended the funeral of an old friend who’s recent death rocked me to my very core.  Filled with remorse, the deepest sadness I have EVER experienced, yet surprisingly an equal amount of joy and bliss, I have yet to stop thinking about it… and I undoubtedly never will.  I owe it to my friend to tell you his story in hopes that you will be able to take away a piece of his beautiful, yet pain filled life to learn and grow from.

Honestly for the longest time, I hated my friend with an absolute passion.  It was one of those friendships that you have… that you hold onto for convenience or obligation, knowing full well that this person really means well deep down but RARELY acknowledging it, in fact I could probably go as far as saying never.  He was a lot of fun at times, but it seemed the majority of the time he drove me INSANE!  It was one of those total Love-Hate relationships.

Ring Around the Rosie

My friend and I have been fairly close for as long as I can remember.  In fact, I can’t honestly remember a time without him around.  Our childhood was a pretty good.  We grew up in a small midwest, uber christian town where everyone knew your name (not to mention your business).  It was nothing to run across the street to any one of the 10 neighbors to the left or 10 neighbors to the right and borrow an egg and a cuppa sugar when mom was in the middle of a batch of cookies and realized she was out of a few ingredients.  We played with the neighbor kids all year round, growing up together and watching each other slowly mature from elementary children, through adolescence in middle school, to high school and beyond.  Summertime and Christmas-time were my friends favorite seasons in South Dakota.  Summertime was filled with hot weather, swimming lessons, mowing lawns for cash, playing Ditch ‘Em with all the friends and running around with BB guns shooting anything within range… even a little neighbor boy that was a super big jerk… right smack dab in the right buttcheek.  <rolling eyes>  Oh brother.

His home life was, from what I can tell, pretty good for the most part.  It was average… Normalsville.  I know he was very close with his mother who was SO proud of his talents and loved him very much, although he didn’t have a great relationship with his father.  His father (looking back - loved him in is own way) wasn’t the most nurturing of all souls.  He struck with an iron fist quite a few times too many in the face and head, however taught him a number of valuable lessons… mainly how NOT to be.  (But this wouldn’t be recognized until much later in his life)  His mother worked 3 jobs at times and wasn’t around that much from middle school on.  I had heard recently that she was a workaholic back then to avoid being home due to their deteriorating, unhappy marriage.  His father wasn’t super pleasant to her either.  He and his sister fought like cats and dogs growing up.  They had a very tumultuous relationship back then, and were never really friends.  I had heard that they had become very close in the last 5 or so years, and that is a HUGE blessing.

All through elementary school, middle school and high school, he was super musical.  He played the piano like a little Liberace.  Yeah, he was that good.  With a few lessons, he seemed to pick up any instrument and go to town on it.  I know he was teased immensely throughout those years.  You see, he wasn’t the biggest, or butchest in the crowd (ok, he was one of the smallest in the class) and his musical abilities and talents probably frightened a lot of the others… plus… having virtually no sports abilities… well… made him ‘different’.  He was called names and pushed around the hallways quite often.  He was told he was gay and had aids before he even knew what the word meant in the early 80’s.  He really let that get to him and he took it to heart and never forgot it as the rest of the class laughed.  I’m sure most of them didn’t know what the bully was talking about either but laughed just to fit in.  It was SO sad to watch and I never did anything to stop it.  I know it scared him… they scared him.  He was so insecure… so ashamed to have these incredible gifts with music.  During high school he really put on a brave face, hiding behind the fear, the shame and guilt for not being bigger, or sports driven, or ‘just like the others’.

A-HA!

I remember his first pivotal moment when he recognized something that none of us could have possibly noticed back then.  We were in marching band together, he and I.  This band had about 100 members, maybe even more… we were a pretty big band, and damn good!  We won competitions in the state and traveled about.  He looked at this group of 100 people and didn’t see them as being separate.  He realized that even though we were 100 individuals, we were all One.  We were ONE.  I didn’t understand what he meant… however I never forgot it, especially later in my adulthood when I got it.

A Hui Hou (Until We Meet Again)

Well, he moved away about the same time I did as my family packed us up and moved us to Arizona.  I still kept in touch with him somewhat but looking back, I really just turned my back on him after my move to Arizona.  I was embarrassed and ashamed for him at the time that he didn’t know how to stick up for himself and was always so afraid and lost.  He would have rather just avoided confrontation on all fronts, at all costs.

30 days after getting to his new home a few states away, his mother and sister darted back for South Dakota.  Apparently, his parents marriage was over.  He stayed with his father in spite of the strained relationship because he couldn’t possibly go back to the misery of the small town mentality.  After he graduated from high school, his father told him that he had one week to find a place to live because he was moving away.  By the grace of God (and the parents of good friends!), he moved into a house with some friends.  College was VERY difficult for him and he failed out 2nd semester.  Trying to conform to the status quo, he started at the state university with no clue what he was doing there.  Everybody else was going though, so he thought he should.  Instead he just floundered.  He was so lost not knowing who he was, but also what he would build a profession out of as his music was dropped when he moved away from the small town in South Dakota.

Smells Like Teen Spirit

In retrospect, my friend was ‘different’ than the rest all along, well most of them.  As hard as he prayed during his teen years, asking God to change him and make him like girls, he never changed.  He struggled with his sexuality all through his late teens to his mid 20’s.  He tried to have girlfriends, but never could ‘go there’.  He lived with fear that anyone, someone might call him on it.  Turns out, he was gay and struggling to find peace within, coming from a small town where his dogmatic church taught him that he was doomed to hell.

During this difficult, sometimes terrifying time for him, in his early 20’s, he discovered in experimenting with drugs that he could numb the pain within.  He was so desperately searching for acceptance from everybody… although he couldn’t even find it within himself to accept himself.  Drugs nearly took over his life although he woke up one day and realized that this was no way to live, nor (because he was so worried about what everyone thought of him)… it was NOT how he wanted to be remembered.

The Awakening

In the mid 90’s, my friend moved away out of the blue…. made a decision and moved 2 weeks later.  Looking back, he was running from himself.  He couldn’t handle the thought of living a gay life with this deep knowingness within that he was damned to Hell.  He couldn’t spare the embarrassment, or the disappointment he was certain everyone would look at him with.  He ran away and lived with friends.  About 4 months later, it dawned on him that he was still him… that essentially he followed himself to this new location.  He was still gay.  He still didn’t like girls even though it was his intention to find the right girl and marry her.  At 2am one night, he was driving home from work during a massive blizzard and white out.  He had this realization that he was gay and nothing was going to change that… not even 1001 prayers since his teens.  He wanted to die and nearly killed himself by running into an electricity pole on the side of the road.  However, it wasn’t his time.  There must have been a patch of ice on the highway as his car started to skid and he missed the pole.  He told me it was like a hand came right out of the Heaven’s and turned his car out of the way of the pole.

Well, needless to say, he drove home through tears and a blizzard that night.  So not surprising that this would have taken place in a blizzard either… as he was so cold on the inside with himself for so many years. My friend came to the conclusion that it wasn’t his problem anymore.  None of it… nothing anyone said in school while growing up.  Nothing anyone has said since and nothing anyone will say tomorrow.  If anyone had a problem, then it was their problem, not his.  My friend found something within himself that day.  He found his self acceptance he was searching for for so long.  He found some self esteem.  He found a stitch of Love for himself.  He left and moved back to his home that he left and life started to soar.  Upon coming out of the closet, it was as if his wings started to spread.  He had a great job that he loved so much.  He had super great friends… a LOT of them.  They all loved him for who he was.  His mother, grandmother and family accepted it with time but cried and prayed alot.  Laughing with me as he told me this, he told them it wasn’t going to work since he’s been praying for the same thing since he was 12… so why waste the breath.

Love, Love me Do.

In his late 20’s my friend met a guy.  He fell in LOVE with him.  He was head over heals, smitten with school girl jitters and excited butterflies every time this man was around.  They made a great couple too.  They were so happy with each other.  Their families accepted them both into the others with open arms.  They were SO happy for the first 5 years of their relationship.  It was blissful.  They had so much in common with each other… everything from the movies they liked to the restaurants, travel and childlike playfulness with each other.

The Trumpets played TAPS

However, times changed.  And now I’m single and living in Hawaii.  Yes, this old friend of mine that died, was me.  The old me.  The me with my eyes closed, coasting through life unconsciously.  And when I say died… I obviously don’t mean death in the physical sense of the word.  I mean death as in the death of the old unconscious behaviors… death in the old unconscious perspectives… death in the old world views… death of the pain in which I unknowingly held onto for so long.  Upon the changes, after his ‘death’, he is still with me that I have much more to learn from, as he whispers in my ear, “Remember when it felt like…”  or “Cowboy UP!  Eyes OPEN!”  Self-awareness seems to be my key right now… and wow does it unlock a LOT of doors!

Earlier when I stated that I had learned from my father on how NOT to be… I realized that I was playing out my fathers role with my partner.  I was controlling.  Rather than being aggressive like my father, I was passive aggressive deluxe!  I didn’t know how to communicate (like my parents).  I was so caught up in the pain body that I couldn’t even step outside myself to recognize any of this during our relationship.  It was HORRIFYING to me as I become aware of this behavior 8 months ago.

Since then, there has been a lot of change.  A massive death and/or transformation on so many levels.  As previously stated in my recent posts, the end of a relationship I once so dearly loved (still do), the end of a career, the end of an era in Phoenix for 22 years… many deaths so to speak.

I’m telling you this story for a purpose.  It’s not to hold up the victim card crying poor me.  On the contrary, I believe I had it good.  I know people that have been through massive abuse, sexually, physically and emotionally.  I know people that have endured much worse than I can even comprehend.

Unspoken Commonalities Amongst the Crowd

The purpose of sharing my story is this… my story is VERY much the norm with every single one of us.  My story holds a common thread within each and every soul on this planet.  We all crave to be Loved unconditionally.  We all crave to be accepted for Who we are from the very core, free from judgment.  We all want to be part of a family and we all want security.  We all want to plan for our futures.  We all want to be happy.  We all want to live in peace and with freedom.  We all want to pray to the God/Creator/Spirit/Source that we were brought up to know within our different cultures without being told and made to believe that we are less than or ‘wrong’ or bad.

Another thing my story holds a common thread within each of us, and why I ask that we all be kind to each other is because we have no idea what somebody could be battling.  Each of us is struggling within, over the past, or the present, or the future… and in most cases all of the above! I’m grateful for my struggles and turmoils, for I have grown and learn from them.  Unfortunately, it takes a massive blow torch from God and my angels scorching everything I thought was important, physically and materially, and even friends, to get my attention.  OKAY!  I get it!  Eyes open!

The Beetles said it best… All You Need is Love.

My point ends with this… I ask you to stop yourself before holding judgment for the loud lady across the restaurant, or the teenager acting out in the store, or the drunk that got his 3rd DUI, or the homeless guy on the corner, or the meth-addict that has been in the ER 4 times in the last 6 weeks.  Stop yourself and honestly put yourself in their shoes and think for one moment that if you had walked an entire lifetime in their shoes and experienced everything they have experienced that led them to this point or this situation, that you very well could be there too. Ultimately, when we are passing judgment on others, it stems from within and we are holding judgment on ourselves for God knows what!  And from my experience… it’s probably a LOT.

Start by having compassion and Love for yourself.  I hated myself for so many years.  I lived in fear and shame.  I turned my back on me.  We all have at one point or another, and we have all turned our backs on each other at times.  Start to see yourself for Who you are and recognize that you are no more and no less important than anyone next to you.  And for others… find it within yourself to hold the space of Love, compassion and empathy… not pity… for this is their journey that they need to experience.  When I recognized that the marching band out on the field was collectively One within itself, it was the dawning of my awareness.  All of us… each one of us on this planet all collectively One, searching like shadows in the night for Love, Acceptance, Worth, Forgiveness just to name a few; however, it can’t be found looking outside.  All of this can only come from within yourself, for yourself… and only then are you able to give it to your friends, your partner, your family, and your neighbors.  It took a massive transformation within my life, and the loss of my love for me to come to terms with all of this within.

It is with this little story that I hope to help you shed some much needed Light and big blessings on your path.  It’s time to stop looking back and start moving on and learn how to face our fears.

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LIAR LIAR PANTS ON FIRE!

First and foremost… the biggest one that just blows my mind…  how we <our egos> are capable of deceiving our own selves, just astounds me.  How we can fool ourselves so easily…how we can talk ourselves into such a state of delusion and think that we are happy with our lives, or a particular situation or even a spouse!  We all do it.  We all have done it at one point or another.  We get into a routine in life, and that routine becomes easy.  It turns into complacency.  Complacency leads oneself into not living their Truth.  Complacency is essentially giving ones power away, and one isn’t speaking from their authentic self.  Suddenly after so many years of living with this delusion, its seems almost impossible to have NOT all but completely lost oneself.

The Universe Washes my Dirty Laundry

When the Universe does its spring cleaning on ones life (and trust me…  when Pluto makes its round in your astrological chart… get ready for a big shaky, scary yet super necessary ride), and that which is no longer serving you is cleared away, one is merely left with their own Self, and nothing more.  Once confronted with the terrifying realization that they no longer know who they are, there is a period of time when occasionally panic sets in.  Panic and fear over the necessity to really dig deep and find that authentic self and get to know oneSELF all over again.  Who AM I?  What am I all about?  How did I end up here?  WHY did I end up here? More importantly… WHAT do I do NOW?

Maui and Me

It’s happening to me right this very moment.  Being in Maui is quite an experience.  I had heard a number of times, from random people after arriving here that when you decide to live on Maui, you generally get ‘hit’ with all of the things that you never quite dealt with and buried deep inside.  So it is quite a whirlwind, as I am experiencing, but it MUST be definitely worth the ride… eventually.

Well, they couldn’t have been more accurate.  After going through the massive cleansing that I went through, <bankruptcy, foreclosure, loss of my mortgage career and income, loss of my 11 year relationship, leaving my home of 22 years in Phoenix, even losing some of which I thought were very close unbreakable friendships>, I have had nothing but time and me… two of the scariest things right now to be confronted with.  It’s like this GIGANTIC black hole just opened up out of nowhere and sucked so much of what/who I thought I was, right out into nothingness and left me with this HUUUUUGE VOID… on so many levels… physically, emotionally, mentally and even spiritually.  A huge void remains where Joe stood too.  With this (perceived) very important piece gone it’s almost like you have to grow new limbs and teach yourself to stand up and walk on your own again.  I have never felt more alone.  I have never felt such deep loneliness…. never in all of my life.

Another friend of mine here told me, “Jeff, you can’t hide from yourself here.”  And boy was he right.  It has been nothing but me looking back at me, into me, from the minute I got here.  Never before have I experienced such emotional pain and hurt.  Never before have I experienced such fear of what the future holds.  Never before have I ever held on to regrets as I have recently…the woulda coulda shoulda that the ego beats you with.

Eyes Wide Shut No More

But it’s what I’ve needed.  I get that now.  My eyes are wide freakin’ open!  I have obtained a level of clarity about myself, inside and out that I had once avoided.  Facing all of these dark places within is ultimately necessary.  I guess you could say that I have had a massive growth spurt since I arrived.  And growing pains HURT.  No way around it.

I know if I remained back home, I wouldn’t be in the same position that I am today.  I would still be running around with my eyes closed.  Rather than facing the internal music, I would still be avoiding facing that dark, scary ugliness by means of those diversionary tactics that we all have clung onto at one point or another in times of personal crisis…. the friends, the bars, the restaurants, the parties, the new dates, the random booty calls, etc etc…  All just temporary distractions offering the instant gratification necessary to <for the moment> divert your attention from that which is most needing your attention… YOU.  My good friend Robert Pease told me, “Kiddo, you are going through this difficult period of time without booze, drugs and sex… all of which most people turn to in order to escape the internal pain.  You are feeling it my friend!  You keep allowing yourself to feel the feelings and let them go.  It’s the quickest way to recovery!”

How do I do this?  What do I do?  What do I focus on?

My intentions during this break are as follows…

• I intend on letting go of the past.

• I intend on letting go of the relationship as it has been (destructive, dysfunctional, unhealthy, codependent, lack of communication, fear based, insecure, focusing on lack).

• I intend on coming to peace within and without and to accept what is.

• I intend on recognizing all of these experiences as well as Joe for the AMAZING teacher it/he has been.

• I intend on walking with undying gratitude in my heart for all of this as well as having had these painful experiences with Joe to learn from.

• I intend on walking forward with my eyes wide open, aware and conscious at all times.

• I intend on addressing the internal anger and strife…and forgiving myself, Joe, and us… and not holding on to the emotional pain any longer.

• I intend on coming out of this with an entirely new set of eyes, and an open heart.

• I intend on coming out of this loving Joe.

• I intend to come out of this continuing to learn the tools that I lacked at one time… the art of communication within a relationship… unconditional love… setting boundaries… all in order to build a new life, to grow and to know and live the Love that we know is there between us <all of us, as we are One>… but has been stifled and broken down with stress of daily routines, insecurity and fear within each one of us.

Is the Laundry Finished Yet?

At the end of the day, it just boils down to what’s inside oneself.  Nothing else really matters.  Remember, every experience we as human beings have, whether our ego deems it ‘good’ or ‘bad’, is ESSENTIAL for soul growth.  These ugly, most painful times which may look different to each of us, are just as important (if not MORE important because they force us to go DEEP) as the high, great, super fun times!!  Facing the darkside of ourselves is one of the scariest, yet most necessary pieces that will allow ourselves to let go of the garbage so that we can finally live in peace and BE peace.  Peace within = Peace without.  There is gold in the darkness, and I intend to continue on this scary path to find ALL of it.  With the help of my amazing friends, colleagues, and Heaven <yay angels!  Our angels are INCREDIBLE support for us if we only dial 911 on our red phones to Heaven and scream HEEEEELLLLP MEEEEEEEEE!!!!  Yeah… I have those numbers worn OUT on my red phone to Heaven>… not to mention the incredible experiences Joe had given me to learn from, even Joe himself… I am getting closer every minute to finding my incredible, more valuable beyond any earthly riches, HEAP of golden treasure within the darkness.

Aren’t you ready to be finished spinning too?

At least one point during our lives, I believe we all receive that ‘call to action‘ by our spiritual entourage - our Guardian Angels and Guides, and/or God/Spirit/Source - whatever- ultimately, it’s all the coming from the same place.  Many of us hear it, but choose to ignore it.  Many of us are floating through life on auto-pilot, with eyes closed and iPod’s blasting so loudly in the ears that they wouldn’t hear a thing Heaven might be trying to get through… and they don’t even notice the Divine communication.  Many of us hear it, but don’t understand what to do, or how to do it, and resist with fear over the changes necessary to make that don’t fit into their original life design.  Others, like myself, heard it loud and clear… weren’t quite sure what to do next, or how to make the changes, but discovered that by surrendering and just allowing, Heaven took care of ALL of the details.

And it can be SUPER scary.  Whoa.

When Heaven has a plan for you, and you say, ‘Ok, bring it on.’, be prepared for massive shift in your life.  It will look like nothing you could have possibly envisioned for yourself in your wildest dreams… and it will come with some growing pains… major growing pains… but in the end when you are where you are supposed to be, there is a level a peace within that just can’t really be described with words.  It’s a feeling that I hope all of us can attain at one point in our lives.

The Call

For me, it looked like this.  I had recently been attuned into reiki Level 1 about 8 weeks earlier.  After being attuned I would sit in my walk-in closet and give myself reiki treatments.  After a while, I noticed that I was receiving visions while in this meditative state as the energy was flowing.  I would see what I can only equate to massive light shows, of all colors.  Sometimes I would see what seemed to be little vignettes of old world movies.  ( I later came to understand and recognize that I was connecting very deeply within my subconscious and past life memories were bubbling up to the surface. )  Sometimes I would see angels, other spiritual beings, and people that I didn’t know.

One evening, I sat in my closet minding my own business, giving myself a reiki treatment.  I was in a VERY peaceful state of mind.  My hands were heated up placed on my body and I was just sitting there in the dark, with my eyes closed, a million miles away, when all of a sudden there was a massive flash.  It was like I was sitting in the middle of a dark sports stadium and all of the lights went on at once, except many times more powerful.  Or it was as if there were a thousand cars surrounding me, and they all turned their brights on at the count of 3.  The light was SO bright… it was SO SO SO bright as I sat there in my dark closet, with my eyes closed, that by reflex I squinted my closed eyes and turned my head!  WOW!  I opened my eyes and I kind of just sat there… thinking… “whoa… what was THAT?”

Also, while this was happening, I heard a strange noise in my head.  It was somewhat the same noise as the old VCR’s in fast forward.  Remember when you would be watching a video tape and you would be fast forwarding through and the sounds you hear are really high pitched squeaks and blips?  Well, that is what I heard in my head.

Dazed and Confused - Dude… Where’s my car?

Afterwards, I just sat there in a total daze… like I was drunk and had fallen down and needed a minute or two to get my bearings back in order before getting up.  Something was different though.  I had this information in my head that I didn’t know of prior to going into the sacred closet.

…from dazed and confused and ‘losing my car’ to “Here is your Life Purpose… now GO FOR IT.”

Afterwards, I couldn’t stop thinking about this business in my head.  It kept going round and round and round in my mind.  I saw this huge business called The Reiki Spa.  It was a massive healing center.  I saw it spanned over the globe in a number of different locations, including Sedona, Hawaii, California, Australia, and a few others.  I saw everything about the company and how it was structured.  I saw myself (older though) standing behind a podium giving a speech and I said, “…for within bright white light lies every color of the rainbow…”.

Well, suffice it to say, I knew what I was supposed to do right then.  I had no clue how to go about it, but I knew what I was supposed to do.

The Process

Throughout the next two and a half years, I asked for divine guidance, divine intervention, divine communication, divine EVERYTHING!  I was dialing 911 to Heaven quite often it seemed, because I felt like I was in a massive state of chaos.  Everything seemed to be falling apart… my relationship worse than ever, even friendships, my career, my finances, my health (I picked up more colds than I had in 2 years)  Well, in hindsight, what was taking place, was actually the Universe preparing me for my role in what was to come and eliminating that which no longer served me.  I had healing to do on very deep emotional levels, spiritual levels, and mental levels that I didn’t even know about.  I would go through these massive depressions out of the blue… and typically I’m not a depressed person.  Come to find out, they were what we call ‘healing crisis’s’.  On a very deep emotional level, goop I had been carrying around for decades, and quite possibly lifetimes, was bubbling to the surface to be washed away.

Endings and New Beginnings

For those of you who are familiar with tarot, I could only equate my life to that horrible, yet equally as beautiful card… the Tower!  My world on SO many levels was hit by Heaven’s might and as I had so unknowingly built this kingdom on a foundation of sand… it was all coming down.  Have you ever thrown a fistful of glitter in the air and then tried to catch every piece as it is falling to the ground?  Yeah… that was what Heaven did to me, in order to get my ass moving in the direction I came here for.

The Divine Message to GO NOW.

Whoa.  It hurt.  And to be honest… it still hurts.  But I know with time, and continued focus in surrendering to what is meant to be, by holding the Faith in Heaven and trust that I know Heaven has the helm… I will come out of this stronger than ever.  I realized in January of ‘09 that my home in Phoenix, my relationship, my career, many friendships… all crumbling at the same time.  None of this was serving me any longer and I had a flash in my head that now is as good of time as any to go where I’ve always wanted.  Now is the time that I can start fresh on EVERY level.  Going through bankruptcy, foreclosure, ending of a relationship, lost of a career and income, and loss of close friendships… I know this was Heaven’s way of getting me to shake my groove thang and get on with what I came to this world to do this time around!

FOCUS!

A big issue of mine, I have really come to realize through this time of self reflection and understanding Who I AM from the very core… is FOCUS.  When I find myself in one of those days where I can’t help but wallow in my self pity, and wonder about all of the what if’s, or woulda, coulda, shoulda’s… I have to LITERALLY force myself to pick up my red phone to Heaven… dial 911 again… and CRY for help!  I have to force myself to sit quietly and just let the other side do what it wants nothing more than to do for us… help us.. lift us to the Light… bring us to a level of peace within.  It stops my spinning out of control.  It stops my self defeating ego from bashing me with that woulda coulda shoulda etheric Louisville Slugger.

From an ending like the Tower card to a fresh new start…my new Tropical Garden within.

So I heeded my call.  I moved to Maui.  My most favorite place on Mama Earth.  Mama Maui has been very good to me.  Blessing me with a gorgeous place to live an instant brothers of the soul.  I’m here to do what they have instructed me to do and with their guidance and my physical presence… nothing can stop us from creating something so wonderful for so many people.  The Reiki Spa is being created in divine timing, starting with beautiful 3 and 5 day spiritual retreats where we will teach people how to change their lives in ways they couldn’t even possibly dream.  These will consist of healing meditations, training/hands on training/teaching of Reiki Level 1 and 2.  I will do an Angel Initiation Attunement that will open you up to seeing and hearing your guardian angels and guides more clearly.  We will incorporate a hike to a sacred location with Goddess Pele’s blessing and appearance.  We will incorporate dolphin and whale tours as the dolphin and whale energies are such a huge healing presence for people to draw and learn from!  Be ready and spread the word!  Lot’s of excitement out here on this gorgeous healing island!

I’m living/walking/sometimes hiding from/but yet trusting my Sacred Journey.  It doesn’t come without fear.  It doesn’t come without a screaming ego.  The most important piece when on this road with Heaven, is to hold the Faith and maintain solid Trust while putting one foot in front of the other and most importantly BELIEVE in yourself.

My theme song in this stage of my life… “Talking to My Angel” - Melissa Etheridge

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Much more to follow…

Big Love to all of you!

Jeff

A friend of mine asked me to go see a lady by the name of Louise.  Louise had been quite ill for many many years.  My friend didn’t give me any of the details as I would prefer to not know anything going into a reiki treatment.

One thing I do know for a fact, is that I’m not the one that heals.  I merely stand there and allow the energy to flow through me, into my client and Heaven takes care of the rest according to what is in their best and highest good.  So, I ask Heaven for Its presence, merely for support in helping the client allow the energy to flow as they heal themselves.  I’ve always been one to feel like I can do anything when I team up with anyone… a friend… a co-worker… and now Heaven.

Some Heavenly Research

The morning prior to heading over to see Louise, I silently went into meditation and concentrated on her.  I was asking for all sorts of assistance and support as I knew this lady had been quite ill for some time.  I suddenly felt the need to grab my pendulum and book of charts.  I cleared myself and asked Heaven what I needed to know about Louise prior to going into this session.  I was told that she had 5 discordant energies.  (Every thought produces a form which becomes a part of the collective consciousness.  This form can be maintained for a long or short period of time depending on the amount of energy attached to it.  It is these discordant thought forms that a person attracts or creates that can create blockages within, leading to illness and conflict within a person’s life.)

I was told that she was struggling with…. hate, guilt, anger, doubt, and hatred of men.  Now… the skeptic in the back of my head is telling me that the first 4 could apply to anyone of us at any given time during a bad day, or a bad week.  Although, the last one, ‘hatred of men’… that was pretty specific.

The Heavenly Huddle

On the way to see Louise, I talked to Heaven the entire time.  As I pulled up in the driveway, I could sense many spiritual energies surrounding me like a warm blanket.  I closed my eyes and spiritually huddled with my group of angelic helpers like a football team prior to a play putting our hands on top of each others and doing the “1, 2, 3 - <HOOAAHH!> and CLAP”.  And we’re off!

I energetically cleared the room, and set up my iPod and table for Louise.  As I was doing this, she was talking about her ailments.  She almost died the year previously, and has been on 10 major life saving medications ever since.  I asked her to hop up on the table and to relax.  The music was very soothing as we started to drift off into that peaceful reiki induced hour.

I always ask Christ to be present in my treatments, since I believe Him to be the most incredible healer that ever walked our planet.  I call upon the angels:  Archangel Raphael and his healing troop, Archangel Michael for protection and Archangel Metatron to help open up and align the chakras to allow the energy to flow through without blockages.

With my eyes closed, I could ’see’ the room I was in as if I had my eyes open.  There was a glow about it, and I could see a room full of angelic beings with us.  It was really the first time that I had experienced such clarity, and again, my inner skeptic was trying to logically override this experience as nothing but childlike imagination.  Although… there was something different about this to have been what skeptics will call imagination.  I felt it in the air.

I started at Louise’s head.  As clearly as I saw this room filled with angelic beings, I saw Christ standing on the other side of the table with his hands over her feet/ankles.  It was the brightest, most peaceful, most incredible white light.  I had chills from head to toe the entire time.

Desert Dust Devils

During the session, again with my eyes closed, I was seeing her body that I was standing over, as if my eyes were open.  And like driving through the desert on a hot summer day when you can see a number of dust devils ascending to the sky, I saw the same thing coming out of her body.  I saw what I equated to being like dust devils, except they were black, coming out in 6 or 7 places on her body.  I was THRILLED!  I thought to myself, “HOLY WOW!  The reiki is working!  It is actually clearing out the negative energies in her body!  This is AMAZING to actually SEE IT!”  I was beside myself!  Again, that little skeptic in the back of my head just rolled his eyes as if I was NUTS.  But somehow, I just knew differently in my heart.

Afterwards, she laid there almost as if she was intoxicated.  There was a softness to her and I helped her up very slowly.  She sat there as if she had been hit by a 2 x 4 just staring at the floor.  She said, “I never knew.  I never knew…. that one could experience such PEACE.  I just never knew.”  She sighed a silent, “wow”.  Then she reached up in the gesture to hug so I leaned over and I gave her one of my famous bear tight hugs.  She whispered in my ear, “I saw black tornadoes coming out of my body.”

Ok.  My angels HAD to have been holding me up, because my knees buckled and I nearly went straight to the floor.  I was AMAZED.  I didn’t react to it though.  I didn’t want to freak her out.  I only said, “Yes… the energy was clearing you and you were healing.  Isn’t it beautiful?”

I got in my car, and no sooner did my door close and I started BAWLING like a little guuuuurrrrllll!  I was in such a state of gratitude and Heavenly awe, I couldn’t even turn the car on for about 5 minutes.

This is VERY real.  It is VERY much a part of every single one of us.  There is no reason on Earth why we all shouldn’t be taking care of ourselves like this.  I am SO grateful to have been given Heavenly experiences like this, and they just keep coming!!  I want everyone to experience this!

Afterwards, I talked with my friend who asked me to go see Louise.  Come to find out, this nice lady had been beaten to a pulp by her ex husband and left unable to work or bear children for the rest of her life.  It’s no wonder she had those discordant energies within, especially the hatred of men.  These experiences and challenges that we face in our lives are major lessons for us, no matter how difficult it is to acknowledge this.  Every experience whether good or bad is essential to soul growth.  Reiki is another tool that we all have access to which can heal those old wounds of the past and clear out the negativity and pain we hold onto in the present.  My heart and my prayers go out to Louise and all of the Louise’s of the world.  May their angels and guides bring them to peace through whatever means available to them.

For me… it’s Heaven and reiki.

As with any new relationship, we start out with a fine introduction.  Please allow me to introduce myself.  My name is Jeffrey Peck.  Some call me Jeff.  Some call me Heffe.  Some call me Crazy.  Some call me Dork.  Truth is… I am all of those and infinitely MORE!   :)   It is an absolute huge super pleasure to meet you all!! 

I would like to invite you all to come play with me in my virtual sandbox.  I love to play.  I love to meet and play with new people.  I want us to learn from each other and grow individually as well as together since we are ONE anyway!

Let’s talk about Heaven.  Let’s talk about Spirituality.  Let’s talk about Reiki and energy healing and how it can change your life on SO many levels.  Let’s talk about the Angelic Realm, Spirit Guides and crossed over loved ones.  Let’s talk about God/Spirit/Source/Creator/the Universe.  Let’s talk about being psychic… what it is, how it works and where it comes from.  Let’s talk about Ascended Masters, Saints, Animal Spirit Guides, and all of God’s helpers that want nothing more than to help us learn and grow.  Let’s talk about numerology and astrology and what it all means and how it all applies to us and who we are.  Let’s talk about oracle cards and how and why they work the way they do.  Let’s talk about receiving messages from Spirit in all of the many ways we are communicated to.  Holy WOW we’ve got SO much to talk about!!  <jumping up and down clapping>  WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

Let’s talk TO all of these Beings and bring through channeled messages.  I will bring through messages and teaching on a number of subjects that they want us to toss back and forth.  Let’s talk open and honestly, straight from our authentic selves.  Let’s be candid and have a great time.  Let’s talk about religion too.  Yeah… that “R” word that so many people have grown to shun and dismiss out of a lifetime of oppression and guilt, amongst a slew of other reasons.  I find beauty in all of the worlds major religions.  Let’s talk about Doreen Virtue, Colette Baron-Reid, Wayne Dyer, Sonia Choquette, Marianne Williamson, Cheryl Richardson and many other spiritual teachers and authors.  Let’s talk about their books and their teachings.  Let’s talk about it all.  I love it all!!

Here’s my deal…

Aside from the information that is in the About Me page, I am just a normal, average, ordinary guy whose had some pretty extraordinary spiritual experiences starting with my wake up call a little over 2 years ago.  Somethings SO extraordinary, SO moving, SO earth shaking that they couldn’t possibly go unspoken about.  I am so head over heals in love with Heaven that I can hardly stand myself… and I just HAD to get up on the roof of my house and shout it out!  So… here I go… will somebody please hold the ladder for me?  I’m goin’ up!

Doreen & Family

In May, ‘08, my angels blessed me with the opportunity of a lifetime.  I was given the chance to go to Kona, Hawaii, to study with one of a huge number of my favorite spiritual ladies out there… Doreen Virtue (www.angeltherapy.com).  This two weeks in November ‘08 changed my life on so many levels!  We will discuss many of these teachings and lessons as time goes on, but for now I’ll do my best to show you the tip of my spiritual iceberg.  Amongst the many miracles that took place out there, the biggest one for me was reconnecting with so many people in my soul family.  None of us ever laid eyes on each other.  We didn’t know each other, except by the discussion boards prior to heading out there.  Within 5 minutes of meeting these incredible people, it was as if we had known each other for our entire lives.  In fact, I can’t remember ever NOT knowing them.  The love for each other was very real and coming right from the very core of our perfect souls! 

Amongst these people, my newest, prettiest, most favorite-est, BFF, soul brother, professional psychic, blogger, and fellow ATP® comrade, Slade Roberson, offered to come out and help me set up this site.  I have been a professional amature writer for as long as I could remember, and I’m fairly certain that my friends are pretty tired of receiving long drawn out emails relaying my experiences of the last 2 years.

I flew him out here to Phoenix and like two little boys getting together to play during recess, we took to our playground immediately.  From travels to Sedona, and ghosthunting in Jerome, to working together on our computers getting my new virtual playground all set up.

So, on that note…

This isn’t anything super fancy right yet…just a little place that we can all talk about Heaven, our Journeys and really come to recognize the parallels and similarities we all share.

Salude!

Big Love, Bright Light and Angel Blessings Galore!!

Jeff